#I just have no clue where to start
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I’m been trying to find this Harringrove fic where it’s Steve’s POV and there’s this scene where Nancy’s talking to him and it sounds SO patronizing- which just confirms Steve’s idea of how everyone finds him dumb. Or how they treat him like he’s stupid. That’s like a running theme in the fic: Steve feeling like he’s dumb (b/c everyone’s underestimating him) when he’s really not.
#harringrove#steve harrington#billy hargrove#nancy wheeler#she comes across so patronizing and self-righteous#like I loved to hate her in that fic#I just have no clue where to start#and it’s so well written#steve is super insecure about his smarts#inferiority complex#in the intellectual sense#there was a line where Steve kinda realized how rude she speaks to him#but he never noticed it until they broke up#stranger things
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hello I have had. nonstop writers block for the past like 2 months and I’m now almost 17 whole pages behind on my submissions for creative writing class so I have become,, slightly desperate,,,, please send me many many writing prompts I need to write SOMETHING
#I can’t do fanfiction I actually stooped as low as to check :(#but my brain has literally become so bad at writing anything original that I’m suffering so hard#and I fucking suck at chosing a project and I suck at writing without any specific guidelines or structure or prompts#I have like. no fucking ideas. and even when I do get an idea that I actually enjoy I go to write it and nothing comes out#I just have no clue where to start#sorry I’m just whining but ughhhhhhgghhh!! send me prompts please I beg#I think y’all know what I like but go wild#just. ideas. lines. characters. anything.
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Me, about long, well written, reminiscent-of-Crimson-Rivers-and-Just-Lovers-and-AHB-in-popularity, Rosekiller centric fics:
“It’s not a want, it’s a need”
#whoops guess I’ll just have to write it myself#not actually cuz i’m not a writer 😔#but that mindset is the reason why I started a Rosekiller blog tho#fun facts with Bri#rosekiller#evan rosier#barty crouch jr#slytherin skittles#marauders era#marauders fandom#people’s who otp is jegulus have it so nice sometimes#you guys have no clue how hard it is to find a Rosekiller fic where Rosekiller isn’t the background ship to Jegulus#it’s so sad sometimes ngl
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the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something
#WHAT AM I DOING!!!!#i get up i go to my stupid retail job i stick labels on bags they pay me fucking thirteen bucks an hour i come home i lie on the couch#too tired to draw in too much pain to go anywhere no energy to reach out to college friends to do anything fun#no idea where the even start with getting an industry job no clue what i even WANT at this point#trying to remember what i loved so much about comics i want it BACK i HATE this#WHAT IS THE POINT!!!! WHAT DO I WANT WHERE AM I GOING!!! WHAT COMES NEXT!!!!!!#there's no clear career trajectory i can't do freelance i need structure i can't work too much i need free time#my brain doesn't work every job requires me to move across the country the irs just took fucking three hundred stupid dollars from me#my friends live in different states i can't get a job without experience i can't get experience without a job#i can't work on my portfolio with no energy and no time and i dont have any money and everything is so expensive all the time#i can't get anywhere bc i dont drive and im too stressed to think about taking driving lessons again#and WHAT DO I WANT!#THE MOST INTERESTING THING I DO EVERY WEEK IS GO TO PHYSICAL THERAPY!#I AM EXCITED EVERY WEEK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!#anyway WHATEVER i need to go to bed#delete later#i got into spx. today. so. had to have a crisis about how i felt when i attended spx (energized. excited. a part of something. ambitious)#versus how i feel now (tired. unmotivated. kind of apathetic about art. disconnected)#i dont miss the stress of school but i miss being around other artists. ppl who speak your language and who want the same things you want#ppl who are excited abut art and that makes YOU excited about art. ppl who get you#i miss that i want that back#whatever. its 1am i gotta go shower i have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow. wahoo. $13.50/hr lets go
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Okay! I thiiiiiink I can have a fic up by week’s end! If I don’t follow through this time y’all are permitted to excommunicate me.
#gotta stop being ✨useless and worthless✨ gotta start being ✨good and productive✨#it’s like… 90% done! I’m just struggling with the ending because it kinda. doesn’t have one#I never planned out an ending and I have no clue what kind of note to end it on. but if I end it at where I’ve got it#then there won’t be any impact. my writing’s already low-stakes low-impact but this one would be entirely uselessly self-indulgent#with nothing to show for it other than just… I dunno. I think what I’m saying is it’s not good?#but! I’ll figure it out! I will figure it out or die trying so help me God!
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dude… real…
and now I realize that sort of depth has been relegated to the mid to late-mid-seasons quirks, and not mainstays of their dynamic. Liane has undergone some heavy changes in character these past few years, she’s exhausted with Cartman and has started to put her foot down— which means we’re seein less of the sort of Liane that sings along with Cartman. She directly communicates with him and Cartman has started to fight back. He’s dedicated to outlasting her instead of buttering her up like he used to… :’( (“eric if you’re going to yell at me again about how we live in this hot dog, I don’t think I have the strength”)
I don’t think the tension has ever been this high for this long between these two 🤔it’s taking their dynamic to a new direction sure. I don’t think we’ll get that mutual denial love bombing manipulation/negotiation back… it makes sense for their characters rn but I sure do miss it.
#it just got me thinking how liane and kyle have started to echo each other in scolding eric. he (in his paranoia obvi) noticed rght away#maybe the more liane ups her parenting game (correctly disciplines him i mean) the more eric will believe any sort of discipline=kyle speak#kyle=Out To Get Me So Not Kewl= bad and he doubles down on his rancid behavior instead of learning#i’m lookin at Dikinbaus and thinkin maybe trey is starting this trend where liane still gets cartman what he wants but in a way where eric#doesn’t like and that’s gonna be her way of taking back control of him or smth idk#i don’t got a clue what’s in that man’s brain#south park#analysis
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A nervous ‘Twan from a comic script I had abandoned 👉👈
#sth#antoine d'coolette#Archie sonic#me and my friend are going away today#and I’m leaving my iPad behind so I’ll be AFK for a while#I’d tell you where I am but these canine here is the clue lmao#and the comic idea thingy does link to flights and but I just don’t have the energy to do the 6 Buntoin comics I had started#I didn’t even finish the lyric comic for them from last spring lmao#I did miss drawing this pooch though it was a nice wake up thingy before I get ready to go now#my friends a nervous flier so we really do be feeling fidgety in this chillies tonight#but it’s all good it’s fine#au revoir
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huuoogh eridan ampora is arospec and ace you agree. reblog
#homestuck#rambles#this is a silly post#right after valentines day cuz i forgor#my explanation being: troll society is amatonormative in that u are expected to be in a quadrant by a certain age (iirc)#and if you are not then you will (probably) be culled#one can imagine how that would have an effect on eridans view of relationships in general#i think the reason why she is so pushy is because she is viewing it as something necessary. that she NEEDS to#have a quadrant (understanding given how you will DIE if ur not in one)#i personally can relate to feeling like u have to be in a relationship bc of everyone around you#and i often mistook admiration 4 people i thought were cool as like romantic attraction#(cuz i have NO CLUE how romantic attraction feels like)#eridans whole thing to me is that she is... very lonely. and desperate.#and she wants to survive (re: what happened on the meteor)#but she reads to me as someone who does not want to be in a relationship but wants to have that box ticked. u know ?#not to mention eri is just genuinely kind of bad at mantaining relationships (of any kind ?) she has a tendency to drive ppl away methinks#of any romantic kind anyway. i think shes okay at mantaining friendships actually#this is where i start to lose my train of thought. i hope that explains like the gist of my reasoning behind this#evidence number two: asexual flag colors.#i rest my case#eridan ampora#“eridan ampora”#PLS#ITS NOT TAGGING!!! GROWLS
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Gary trying to write to Ash post-JN:
Hey there, Ash Ketchum
What's it like in... wherever you are right now?
No seriously where the fuck are you this time, I need an address to send this postcard to and ur mom doesn't even know what region ur in
#starts to the tune of hey there delilah#seriously how *do* they route postcards for trainers on the road#i have so many questions#palletshipping#shigesato#pokeani#pokemon#love how the show ended with us having no clue where ash is. just vibes :D#this could apply to anyone i guess but ayo palletshipping week!!
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#this isn't anything new or particularly spoiler-y but. i tag everything anyway so#twitter#s5#spoilers#st5 spoilers#as you can see i also voted s2#bc it’s the only really happy one lol#but i love all the finales so much#they’re my favorite eps overall i think#the last 3 or 4 of every season where everything starts coming together#and especially in the end when the characters all team up <3#but yeah they keep saying s1 vibes#which i think is just the adults-older teens-teens team ups#and then a lot of things that didn’t get covered in s2#i’ve already said i know i’ll love whatever we get anyway so i’m just excited for anything#i'm very curious to know just what they mean when they keep bringing up s2 like this#also apparently the person behind this profile now is named pete and i have no clue when we found that out#remember when they just went by dart.#i'm gonna regret posting this probably
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i have so many embarrassing stories of me comically realizing a south park joke/reference that i didn't get b4
the STUPIDEST most OBVIOUS one being
mom: wait what's the game's name?
me: fractured but whole?
my mom: ...fractured butthole?
me: yeah fractured but wh- waaaait
#like.. babes.. how are we this far behind#do not get me started on early 2000's south park where i was just a baby and have a vague clue what the fuck they're talking about#south park#all the oj simpson jokes flew over my head
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Me at 13: Ew! I HATE girly shit! Who cares about smelling nice and looking like a model??
Me now at 24: Holy shit this body butter makes me smell like a key lime pie, and this magic stick can HIDE my acne?? Sign me tf up!!
#my teen self would be REPULSED by what i have become#i’ve never had any interest in make up before#but i find myself getting interested in maybe trying some minimalist stuff#trouble is i have NO CLUE wtf i’m doing with makeup#and if i ask my mom she might honestly teleport here just to start putting makeup on me lmao#my mom was always a bit salty that i wasn’t a girly girl growing up#so me expressing interest in anything even remotely girly makes her really excited#i honestly do not know where my sudden interest in makeup has come from#but its got me in a fucking chokehold#anyway im now on my way to sephora to buy a bunch of shit i don’t need#pray for my wallet
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Me joking with my mom while cooking: aren’t you super proud of my cooking skills!! There's no match for me!! Im unstoppable!!
Mom in a solemn voice: but im really disappointed in you
Me: ????
Mom: pursuing your Master's degree, it seems like you no longer care about continuing your studies, it’s like you've frozen that idea.
#way to kill the vibe mom#she is still disappointed that unlike my bachelor's education#i didn't immediately jump to a random university and study whatever random major they gave me#even though i could’ve gotten a neat scholarship and studied something i really liked at the time#at the time i had no idea what im soig and where i wanted to go so i just followed along#but im not suffering through getting a master's degree for something i dont even care about#what she doesnt know is i have a plan. i have been following the plan ever since graduation.#if plan goes perfectly im supposed to start applying either this year or the next#she has no clue sometimes i stay up really late thinking about all the decisions i made and things i can no longer change#i dont want to do the same mistakes again#also its not like i can really afford it right now without a proper scholarship#i get she wants me to be the best at everything but the way she goes about it always makes me feel like a failure#mom...
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you guys im so fucking excited I could cry... i gotta call a bunch of ppl idek who to call next
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SUPER DARK TIMES (2017) DIR. KEVIN PHILLIPS
#super dark times#zach taylor#allison bannister#sam edits#if you listen closely you can hear the sound of both mine and Allison's hearts breaking! <3#ok but fr: i know this is gifs. so no sound. but the WAY he DELIVERS the 'you've got a bump on your head' line makes me NUTS#it's so soft. it's so fond. it's... it's a punch in the fucking gut. he likes her *so much* but he *can't let himself have this nice#thing with her* because he's *being eaten alive by guilt he can't accept & won't let himself be happy because of it* and SHE DOESN'T KNOW!#like the thing. the thing is. when you watch SDT you're along the ride with Zach and his POV of everything. despite the obvious paranoia#& guilt warping his perspective/influencing his behavior—we can see where that's all coming from. we understand the motivations#behind the actions he takes. but ALLISON? Allison has no fucking clue what's going on! from Allison's perspective... Zach is this guy she's#known for a while (like they make a point of *telling us* in one of the earliest scenes that Zach feels weird talking about her in the#detached way they may talk abt other people in their grade they barely know—because it's *different* since he and Josh *actually know her*#plus in the script [and it STILL COUNTS TO ME because she *starts* saying the line but just gets cut off by Dennis] Allison brings#up Zach & Josh having had a silly handshake since 7th grade ['oh god that used to make me pee!' <- girl why would u say that to him]#so it's like... these are kids who've known each other for years!) and he's got this obvious fucking crush on her (the hallway scene where#he is. blatantly staring and she catches him for a second) and the moment she decides to actually start pursuing him because SHE'S#got a crush on HIM too... he starts pulling away and acting erratic and sending her the most mixed signals in the fucking world.#and sheee THINKSSS ITS HERRR FAULT!!!!!!!! like. listen. this scene i giffed above? this is what she's fucking talking about later#when she jokes about not wanting to 'scare him off again'. like sure she says it like a joke but... uhm. i simply think there's#a certain amount of truth to it too—because he DID leave the party visibly freaked out! and i think it'd be perfectly believable for her#to think that it was at least partially HER pushing too hard that was causing him to withdraw/pull away from her. plus she blatantly says#she thinks she's the reason Josh & Zach are fighting. like. this poor girl is on the outskirts of a tragedy she'll probably NEVER know the#details of but she's seeing firsthand the impact it's having on Zach and... blaming herself... that's so fucking heartbreaking
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Can't believe Scar saw a rapidly approaching, dishevled mumbo and went "he's so cute." I need to run unorthodox experiments on them.
IKR SAME OMG
They’re literally perfect for each other <- delusional
But seriously they have so much lore together in my silly brain and the few interactions they do have (WHICH HAS BEEN INCREASING A LOT LATELY MAY I ADD) has been FUELING the fire rapidly and gods gods GODS do I have many thoughts about them
#literally making an illustration type comic on Mumbos whole vampire timeline#Scar will be next with his vex schenanigans..#the worst part is I always cycle like three to five different backstory’s in my brain for these two I CANNOT decide#but now that I’ve written a short ficlet (that no one will see unless asked) abt a few scenes of Mumbos backstory I think I’m pretty set on-#-his part#Scar tho??? no clue#I have the Hotguy backstory (which I daydream about WAY too much) I have the apocalypse backstory. I have the single player raised by villa-#-gers for years and years cuz his mom dropped him off in the single player world when Scar wasn’t conscidered a player yet since he was an-#-infant cuz it was a teen pregnancy and she was too scared to tell anyone so she just dropped him off with the villagers never to be seen#again. and since it was technically HER single player world when Scar DID grow up old enough to be recognized as a player he couldn’t#access any of the 'exit world' stuff or anything like that since it wasn’t his world#and then like a watcher or smth pulled him out of it so that Scar could be put through the horrors of gun related things for experimentstuff#and then there’s the backstory of where scar IS a watcher. like not a person turned watcher he was BORN (if you could say that) a watcher#and like the other watchers wanted to do an experiment of basically 'could a watcher if stripped of its memories and placed in a people-#-world be able to produce its own feelings and emotions?' and so they did that to Scar but they didn’t place him there as a baby no. they#placed him there as a full grown man so bros even more confused. and when the life series stuff started he had exactly one ☝️ dream per#Series and it was tiny little snippets of his watcher self but he didn’t know that it’s him but like he felt a strange pull towards these#dreams so that’s basically the reason why he kept coming back to the life games even tho they hurt him deeply as we all know#and then when he won secret life the secret keeper asked him what his wish was now that he’s won and he didn’t ask to know who he was and#where he came from (since he just appeared one day as a full grown man with no identification) since he’s made peace with that maybe it is#better not to know. so instead he asked abt the dreams he always has in these series and wth their abt and the context and stuff#and then BAM the secret keeper just drops all that information on him and he has an identity crises :D#anyways. I put both of these guys through many horrors I just have so many ideas for scar specifically. oh also there’s that backstory where#hes an assasin guy and he feels rlly guilty abt it when he gets split in half (gtws and btws) cuz like he has morals now apparently?? also#it explains the scammer stuff cuz he was a HUGE scammer bacl them#asks#hermitcraft#goodtimeswithscar#mumbo jumbo#redscape
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