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c1tr1sfl0w3rs · 6 months

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'My Pretty Wife'

Hey guys! I know it's been a while I've been very busy with school stuff so I haven't had time to write but I had inspiration by a dream :) didnt edit or spell check

18+ MDNI NSFW DARK (DO NOT READ IF YOU DONT LIKE DARK CONTENT!!)

You loved being a housewife, in your pretty sundresses and aprons cooking, baking, cleaning doing your wifely duties that william expected you to do. it got lonely without him though, he was the only person you saw and without him it was just you, alone, you hate being alone. so everyday when your husband came home to you, you're kissing him and wrapped up in his big arms where you belong.

He loved the fact that you needed him, it stroked his ego and warmed his twisted heart. seeing you all pretty in the dresses he picked and bought for you, so desperate for a crumb of his affection, bombarding him with your love. "hi honey did you miss me baby?" your response is muffled into his chest but he hears every word "I always miss you daddy, I'm so lonely without you"

He breaks out into a smirk, he grabs your chin making you look into his handsome face, "I missed you more bunny" he leans into you and kisses you holding both sides of your face, making you breathless, dominating you with his mouth. he can put you into a daze with no effort, everytime he does it makes you drip onto your thighs because william won't let you wear panties under your dresses.

William was so proud how far you've come, how good he's trained you. his precious bunny, from a crying mess in his basement to his perfect pretty wife. breaking your passionate kiss seeing you as putty in his hand, he knew you were ready for the next part of his plan.

Looking into his eyes not a thought in your head. eyes you were scared of not long ago but that was now a fuzzy far away memory. you loved your husband and you would do anything to please just how he liked it.

"Bunny I wanna do something special tonight but I need to know you're ready for this, ready for me." he said moving his hands from your face to your waist. "I'm always ready for you daddy. I belong to you." your responses never fail to give him a smile as he smiles at you again, so big it's almost creepy since it was him though you found it exciting. he only smiled like that when he was gonna make you come so many times that what little you have left of your brain is gone.

"That's what I love to hear honey, I know you get lonely when I'm gone. how about daddy gives his sweet bunny a baby. do you want that sweetheart?" your heart thumping out of your chest, goosebumps erupt over your skin. a baby? you've never thought about kids but you would never be alone again and it would be your and williams baby. head racing a million miles a minute, he wanted a baby with you. he picked you as his wife and now he wants a baby, a family with you. your heart swelled with happiness. you're just as twisted as he is

After a long pause of silence you finally spoke up. "please give me your baby, please I need you daddy." the second those words left your mouth william was kissing you intensely, consuming you and turning you to mush. "I knew you were gonna be a good bunny and take my babies when I first saw you, daddy had to have you baby and I'm so glad I do. my best girl, mine who do you belong to honey?" his words combined with the fact he had now picked you up and was carrying you back to your shared bedroom made you a mess you wondered if he could feel your wetness leaking though his pants with the way your legs wrapped around him. "I belong to you daddy, only you." he places you down on the bed crawling in between your spread legs. sucking on your neck, thumbing your hard nipples through your thin dress. you whimper out a pathetic noise and he snickers then whispers in your ear "beg me to touch you slut, prove to daddy that you need me."

Your hands reach up to grab at his wrists "Ill do anything please touch me, I love it when you touch me" he moves a hand from your chest to your thighs under your skirt, tracing the letters of his name right next to where you need him to touch you. "please don't tease me please touch me."

"My needy bunny" william finally drags a finger through your slit. "baby you're making a mess" as his other hand wraps around your neck you whine pathetically.

he slips two fingers in and thrusts them in and out hitting that perfect spot every time. the louder he makes you moan and cry his name the harder it makes his dick.

"Daddys ruined you for anyone else two seconds and you're a dumb baby humping my hand." he starts rubbing your clit with his thumb and you can feel your orgasm wash over you almost painful with how good he makes you feel. he talks you through it words condescending, fingers pumping. William doesn't stop until you're crying begging him to give you a second. "I thought you could take it honey, you talk a big game for someone crying over two of my fingers. Now lick them clean"

Your mouth takes in his sticky digits, tongue lapping at them. hallowing your cheeks and sucking like you would on him with your teary eyes.

"Damn princess you make me so hard it hurts, lay back now I'm gonna fuck you so good the only thing you'll know is the word daddy." you're quick to do as he says pulling up the skirt of your dress, spreading your legs open. he unbuckles his belt and pulls out his heavy cock. So pretty long thick and leaking all for you.

He pushes into you, legs thrown over his shoulders and starts a rhythm that has you gripping the sheets.

"Oh my- oh daddy please" he moans, William loves having you like this wrapped around him. Vulnerable and the little broken pieces of your soul in his hands.

You'll never feel more pleasure then you feel right now. The power he feels from it is almost better than your sweet little cunt.

Almost, nothing could feel better than you. Soft gummy slick hole all for him. The way you flutter around him when you're about to fall apart like youre doing now. Addicting he could never get enough of you.

"I can feel that you're close honey, come on daddys dick" you come instantly, crying out as he fucks you through it. "Good girl so fucking good for daddy" He fucks you like an animal, chasing his high and overstimulating you. He finishes inside you , pressed flush against him. You feel him soften and think you are gonna sleep like this plugged by him to make sure he gets what he wants but his voice startles you out of your sleepy daze

"Silly bunny were not done yet, you're gonna suck me clean and then I'm gonna fill you with another load just to make sure you give me a baby"

AHHH I HOPE U LIKED IT!! IVE BEEN HAVING BAD BRAIN ROT SINCE I SAW THE MOVIE! Anyways sunny out 🧚‍♀️

#william afton x you #fnaf william afton #fnaf movie #william afton x reader #william afton smut #william afton

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thetriplets3 · 7 months

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whispering to each other + searching for the other’s hand in bed like theyre both tired but cant fall asleep (matt or chris x y/n or smt)

❝𝐢’𝐦 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐰❞

pairing: matt x reader (no defined relationship but mutual pining?)

warnings: brief mention of anxious thoughts, loneliness, depression, vague mention of suicidal wishes

a/n special thanks to @dwntwn-strnlo for editing this you’re the best and shoutout to whoever it was to color code dialogue i took that idea anyways enjoy 🍿

having my 3 best friends away on tour was hard enough but having a rough few weeks physically and mentally on top of that was really hard on me. since i've moved here i haven't really made any friends. parties, events, and crowded loud places aren't my thing which makes it hard to meet people. sure i've met people the odd time the boys dragged me out but i was never able to hold a conversation let alone willingly go up to people. which brings me to now.

the triplets asked if i wanted to come on tour with them but i was in the middle of the semester, the busiest time. so i've spent the past few weeks alone, only leaving when i had to work. it sucks having no one to be able to go do things with, to talk to, and to just be there.

mindlessly clicking through the stories of people i follow, just trying to distract myself from my own thoughts, my screen reveals the faces of the only people i wish i were with right now. my heart aches watching them have the time of their lives being able to explore places they always dreamed of and getting to show their personalities on stage. don't get me wrong i'm beyond happy for them and how successful they’ve become the last few years, but i just wish i were with them. quickly hearting matt’s story of him posing in front of the bean in chicago, i drop my phone beside me and get under my covers, curling up. he seemed so happy being on tour.

i lie there, thoughts wandering, and tears gently flowing as i realize how truly alone i am. my thoughts are disrupted when i feel my bed softly vibrate. lazily rolling over, i grab my phone only to be met with a text from the person i yearned for the most. matt.

heyyy look who’s alive!

where’ve ya been it’s been a while since any of us heard from you?

you doing okay?

unfortunately i've been busy, midterm term time sorry edited

i’m fine

looks like tour’s fun, you look happy

unfortunately? please take time for yourself too you can only do so much if you’re not at your best

you’ll do great on them don’t overwork yourself love

it’s a blast seeing new places, meeting new people, i just wish you were here

shoot i forgot you can see what the other person edited

i was kidding. i’ll try

i wish i was there i miss you but it makes me happy seeing you be successful

we’ll be home before you know it i miss you too

and with that i turn my phone off for the night and bury myself under my covers in a desperate attempt to shut my brain off from thinking things it shouldn't. as the hours passed i tossed more and more not able to fall asleep, stay asleep and get comfortable. peeking at my clock to see the glowing 6:44am, i roll over shoving my face into my pillow and let out an unnecessarily loud groan. seeing no point staying in bed just to not be able to sleep i pad my way to the living room, claiming it my spot for the day. i put on a random season of the office to fill the silence and loneliness that i've sadly become used to. having seen the office far too many times, it's become a comfort background show, making it easy for me to fall asleep.

i accidentally ordered a package to your house from the last time you used my amazon prime to order something. it says it’s been delivered could you just put it aside for me? have a good day

staring at my phone i reread matt's text a few times, my mind still fuzzy and confused thanks to my lack of sleep. finally understanding it after the 5th time, i wrap my blanket around my body and trudge over to the door to pick it up. opening the door and checking the ground for a package i'm met with beat up air forces instead. startled, my head whips just to confirm it's who i thought it was.

matt.

all the loneliness, emptiness, sadness, yearning to see you hit me at once, a wave of tears overcame me as i engulf you in a hug nearly sending you and i to the floor. no words have been spoken, there's no need to. i immediately bury my head into your chest, your one hand coming to cradle my head as the other holds me securely to your body. we stay like this for a few minutes before you slightly pull away grabbing my hands and placing them around your neck, sneaking a quick peck to my cheek as you do so. your hands snake around my waist and gently lift me, bringing both of us into my house. closing the front door we make our way to the living room sitting on the couch turning to face each other.

god i missed you. today was our last day of tour but we were gonna stay there and explore the city for a few days but i couldn’t wait any longer i needed to see you. i was worried about you and couldn't bare the thought of being away for another second.

i missed you more. things haven’t been right since you guys left

like what?

it feels stupid to say out loud but ive felt so alone. like i have no one other than you guys and that makes me feel so pathetic that i rely on you guys so much. i haven't been able to sleep that much my mind just won't shut up i kept thinking about you guys and worrying about something bad happening to you it's stupid i know. heavily sighing i roughly wipe my face drying the tears that i tried so desperately to not let fall.

hey what did we talk about? every thought and feeling is valid they’re not stupid don’t say that.

you stand and offer me your hand and lead me to my room where we crawl into bed. you pull me as close to you as you possibly can. my head on your chest with my arm loosely draped across your body, your cotton shirt carelessly balled up in my hand. your arms wrapped around my torso like your life depended on it. god i missed this

i’m here now okay? everything’s okay, i’m okay, my brothers are okay, nothing happened to us. we’re not going anywhere for a while and when we do your coming with us. and don’t try and say you won’t be able to because of school, you’re coming no matter what. i can’t go that long without you, nothings the same

i won’t put up a fight i don’t want to do this again this was horrible being alone for so long. i missed being in your arms, feeling like nothing bad will ever happen because i have you here

as you place a gentle kiss to the top of my head a comfortable silence falls over us and we bask in this moment of being in each others arms again. my eyes grow heavy but my body is still fighting sleep like it has for the past few weeks

you can sleep now i’m here i’m not going anywhere i promise. i love you so much sweet girl

with the hushed tone of your voice and gentle pecks on my forehead, i feel my body grow heavier with sleep. i blindly reach my hand around searching for yours which you seem to pick up on what i wanted, placing your hand on mine and give it a squeeze once and a while letting me know you're right there.

goodnight sweet girl. i’m right here

taglist: @antisocialties @iluvmatt @dwntwn-strnlo @fake-coolbeans @opheliaofficial07 @angelcake-222 @oneirophobic @strniolo @lollibumblebee @ssturniolo @20nugs

(i can’t remember who it was but i saw someone color coded the dialogue and that makes it so much easier to read so shoutout to you if it was you)

#matt sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #matt sturniolo x reader #readers pov

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thefrontofmymind · 2 years

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Me & You Together (Joseph Quinn x gn!Reader)

an; hiya! here's my first drabble for this blog! a little nervous so any feedback would be great (positive and negative i'm a people pleaser lol)

SYNOPSIS: Joe and reader haven't been together all that long, but reader has a dream of their future with Joe and tells him all about it (loosely based on one line in the song, Me & You Together Song by The 1975)

WARNINGS: nothing other than mentions of having kids which some people might not want! otherwise just some fluff!

When you and Joseph were together–which was a large majority of your time these days–the world seemed to stop. There was no noise from outside your window, no anxiety of what people would think of you two, just the two of you. Alone.

It was times like these, when it was quiet, that your brain could finally reflect on the man laying in front of you; hair beginning to grow longer than he’d like, showing just how fuzzy his curls could get, a hint of sleep in his eyes that was just about visible in the early morning sun peeking through the curtains, an air of calm around him as he looked right back at you.

There was almost no need to speak. The chirps of the birds–pretty much the only noise you could comprehend this early in the morning–filled the silence very nicely. Though there was a thread going around your mind that you just had the urge to pull and you couldn’t stop it.

“I had a dream last night,” you started, not really sure where the rest of your sentence would be going. Joe let out a ‘hmm’, almost as a question of ‘what was it?’. “I had a dream of me and you together. We were old, like all grey and wrinkly, and we were having this big family lunch and we had kids and grandkids and all that.”

It didn’t dawn on you as much as it should have that the future of your relationship could be a sensitive topic for Joe, his career was just about to skyrocket and you’d only been seeing each other for a few months–you’d only met his parents a couple weeks beforehand, for goodness’ sake. But you just couldn’t shake the feeling that it was right. There wasn’t the first few nervous dates like normal, waiting for the red flags seemed inevitable at first–at least that’s what was expected–but they just never appeared. Everything was easy.

A small smirk began to pull at Joe’s lips, his eyes still full of the admiration he’d been holding for you for at least the past twenty minutes after you both woke up, not wanting to get out of bed yet.

“And how many kids did we have, darling?” he asked, his voice still a little bit scratchy.

You thought for a moment, trying to recall. “Three. A boy and then two girls.” Joe chuckled, pulling you towards him and into his arms–a bear hug.

“And the grandkids?” he continued. You could no longer see his face–the hug caused you to nuzzle into his neck–which still smelt a little like the cologne he used the night before–but you could hear the smile in his voice when he spoke.

“We had an army of them,” you answered. “‘m pretty sure even they lost count of how many of them there were.”

Joe stayed silent for a moment, just revelling in the comfort he felt with you in his hold. “So when are we starting the brood then, eh?”

You were almost taken aback by how forward he was. Of course, you’d thought about what it would be like to settle down, have a family–and of course, since meeting Joseph, you’d thought about what he’d be like going along with you, but there was an expectation still, it was early. You’d barely gotten to know the ins and outs of each other.

But there was a relief when Joe was the one to bring it up first, at least not just as a random figment of your subconscious imagination.

You thought for a moment before answering. You pulled away from his neck to look him in the eyes–those gorgeous dark eyes.

“I’ll need a ring first.” Joe just laughed, and everything felt the best anything had felt in a while for you, in the tranquillity under your sheets on that early morning as the sun rose.

#joseph quinn #joseph quinn x reader #joseph quinn imagine #joseph quinn drabble #joseph quinn blurb #joseph quinn x you #joseph quinn fluff #joseph quinn fic #joseph quinn fanfiction

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kimaratomoya · 6 months

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So I just watched the FNaF movie

Spoilers below for those who haven't seen it (aka me up until like a couple days ago)

Holy fuck holy fuck holy fuck holy fuck

That move is the bisexual DREAM

A WOMAN

IN UNIFORM?????

Plus

A fucking

GORGEOUS

man.

Oh my god.

Also y'all cannot convince me that Golden Freddy's soul is not Kelsey from Fazbear Frights. I will refer to him as nothing else.

Also Bonnie falling over

Absolute King. Love Bonnie.

Carl the Cupcake is fucking SAVAGE man ripped off a guy's face.

And Foxy is fuzzy???? I'm sorry since when did he get cuteness™??? (Always)

I want to hug him.

Honestly 10/10 movie, gonna watch it obsessively.

And MATTHEW LILLARD

Oh my god

I love him. Everything he does is always peak. He is a wonderful actor, tbh would kill to meet him (I'm kidding). He's a cool guy, did William Afton proud.

Also HE SAID THE LINE!!!!!!! I AM WHEEZING I LOVE IT

And Kelsey just watching him writhe in the back room gave me so much happiness on god. Not that I hate Matthew Lillard. I just hate William more than I absolutely think Matthew Lillard is god.

Mmmmmmmmm

And Ella being the springlock suit????

I have so many theories my brain can't even think

#fnaf #fazbear frights #five nights at freddy's #fnaf movie #five nights at freddy's movie #vanessa afton #mike schmidt #abby schmidt #william afton #matthew lillard

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that-stone-butch · 1 year

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Different kinds of bow limbs? You're talking my kinda language! I haven't shot in maybe 4 years since Dad died (it was something we did together) but I loved the technical side of bow tuning, arrow spine, fletching, all that good stuff. My main set were 34lb short uukha carbon fibre limbs but I got a gorgeous second hand set of 40lb medium win&win inno ex powers which I tragically never got to fully tune.

What kind of limbs do you favour? And what kind of archery? I've tried (and enjoyed!) target, field and even clout!

Since I'm fuzzy/tipsy enough (rough day) to decide replying to tags is appropriate, I've never had tiktok, am training as a volunteer run leader to give back to my social running club, fecking hate washing up and am currently trying to perfect veggie casseroles. I have a spy fiction book on loan from a colleague as we are both trying to make our way through the Jackson lamb series, though she is more keen than I, and duolingo is a necessary evil in the pursuit of basic French since my closest family are planning to retire out there.

What are you learning/studying at the moment?

so i haven't done any archery since i was a kid; most of my research about archery is pre-research before getting back into it sometime in the near future when i have the free time and disposable income. i mostly shot target when i was younger, with a simple but reliable takedown recurve. but it's something i'd like to get serious about some day, and i'd love to pick your brain on it sometime, if you're open to it. hit me up sometime and we'll chat ☺️

right now i'm mostly brushing up on electrical info preparing for my union program's placement test later this summer. i have a bit of experience in the field and in classes and it would be nice to start smartly ahead of some of the redundant classwork in my union's apprenticeship program.

i do know some french, though i'm woefully out of practice. i studied in high school but learning bits and pieces of other languages has pushed it out of the forefront of the Language I Spent A Lot Of Time Learning real estate in my brain meat.

i also am trying very hard to get back into running (full shifts of construction, followed by weightlifting regimen, followed by routine running, gets a little tiresome day after day. but i'm trying!) and i love it. never did it as part of school, or part of a club, so i bet i'm doing it all wrong, but i feel fantastic and that's all that matters to me 😁

have a great night/day, drink plenty of water!

#ask #anonymous

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buubuu-sedai · 1 year

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Introduction to my Love for Wheel of Time + Re-read Blog Announcement

Greetings various beings! I am here today to awkwardly ramble my way through an introduction and my intentions of starting a re-read blog of my beloved Wheel of Time. (TLDR I guess)

First things first!

A bit about myself ->->->

In reality I'm a 36 year old non-binary asexual person who is pretty neurodivergent (albeit undiagnosed). I have a deep nostalgic love for the 90's which pairs well with my cynical and existential nature. I am a liberal user of cuss words which has only been exacerbated by working in a kitchen (I'm a baker/line cook).

In virtual reality, buubuu sedai is all of those things plus gets to be a cat-person as well which is pretty rad, not gonna lie. Also they're Aes Sedai because I say so. Purple Ajah because ever since I discovered I was Ace the color purple has slowly overtaken my life lmao. Buubuu is a name for a character i created in high school after watching a lot of Dragon Ball Z. Majin Buu -> booboo -> buubuu. I don' t know it tickles my brain.

How I was First Introduced to Wheel of Time

My mother and her two sisters all love to read and their book interests varied from romance to fantasy to suspense and everything in between. They traded books between themselves pretty regularly and when I was maybe 10 or 11 (or maybe younger I dunno my memories are fuzzy) I got to be a part of that book trading group. I was already an avid reader as a child (I once got left on the playground after recess in elementary school because I was sitting on a swing reading Charlotte's Web) I loved borrowing books from the school library and would read whatever I could get my hands on. I did have an early preference for fantasy cuz I though wizards and elves were really cool (still do).

Around 13-14 one of my aunts had been reading WoT and they brought us the first 7ish books? Maybe 8. I was hooked pretty hard right from the beginning. As a kid I was extremely impressionable and I latched on to the characters straight away. I felt really attached to the story and world as it was an escape from my social awkwardness and my tumultuous home life. What a great escape it was holy cow.

Any time a new book came out my aunt would read it and then let us borrow it. I'd always request the other books so I could reread them, too! When I finally got myself a job (around 19 because I was riddled with anxiety) I started collecting all the books for myself so I could read whenever I wanted to.

After that I would just constantly do re-reads nearly every year. I had spoiled myself pretty young on the level of detail I expected from a book so while I did read other book series, I couldn't find that same world building anywhere but WoT.

Blog Intentions

I'm gonna start a re-read and do chapter summaries a few times a week. I'll do a spoiler free summary at the top and a spoiler heavy at the bottom with all my nostalgic impressions and rambling.

I wouldn't say I have an encyclopedic knowledge of the series, but I know a lot. I used to spend as much time as I could reading theories online as a teenager. I didn't have a ton of theories myself other than I really thought an actual dragon would show up at some point. (I thought the Spine of the World would turn out to be a sleeping dragon that woke up lmao)

Wheel of TIme pretty much lives rent free in my brain and I really haven't known anyone in real life who also has read it and loved it as much as me. So here I am on the interwebs to scream that love into the void and maybe have something scream back (ok maybe don't scream at me but maybe high five?)

Aaaaaanyway

I hope you'll join me and I can't wait to start!

#wheel of time #tumblr of time #twitter of time #wot #non binary #asexual #wot reread #aes sedai #purple ajah

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rin-the-cat · 4 months

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I have so much stuff I needed to do today. My last final was Thursday, I worked yesterday, tomorrow we are doing Christmas with my family and Christmas day we are driving down to visit my husband's family. Yesterday I was only scheduled noon to 5:30 but we had a last minute emergency come in (winner for the dumbest dog of the year award for drinking diesel fuel... Just wtf. Poison control recommended we give him a dawn bath in case there was any on his fur and he kept burping and I just about passed out from the fumes.) and then I went to Walmart to pick up some last minute stuff and by the time I got home I was so tired I just couldn't do anything. So that jusy left today to do everything. I slept in a little and when I got up my head was so fuzzy I just couldn't get my brain to work and every noise felt overwhelming. I finally went up and laid down for a while and when i came back down I put my earbuds in. (later when I was feeling better i took one out so I could hear what was going on around me, my 3 year old saw me put it back in the case and when he realized I was still wearing the other one he asked me for it and went and put it away, I told my husband, "I think I just had my ear buds revoked 😂"

So family tradition states we must have oyster soup for Christmas eve dinner even though only 2 or 3 people (out of 11) will eat it. We've always had atleast one other option for people who don't like it. The last several years my mom made lasagna, one regular and one vegan (for my brother and sil who are vegetarian and she has a dairy allergy) I said I would make the vegan lasagna this year (because I love it too) but that I wasn't going to make a regular one too. So priorities one and two today were to get the kitchen clean enough that I could make the lasagna without worrying about getting pet hair or something in it and to make the lasagna... And I did accomplish that much. N did dishes and I cleared off the counters. I got the lasagna put together and it's ready to bake tomorrow. N wanted to get the house picked up some in case anyone needed to stop by while we were gone (last time we went to visit his family my brother ended up scheduling the assessment while we were gone. We didn't know about it before hand and I would have spend the whole week fretting about it if I hadn't gotten a tooth root abscess to distract me. The whole week was kind of a disaster.) and he did get the living room floor picked up mostly, if we just vaccume a little it won't look too horrific. We both worked on some laundry and got a bunch washed but it's all just piled up in a chair. I haven't started packing and I still have presents to wrap but i brought the youngest up to bed and I can't convince myself to go back down. I just want to go to bed. N put the 7yo to bed before the 3yo and I came up and I haven't heard a peep from him since so either he fell asleep in M's room or he went straight to bed in the spare room after M fell asleep. N wants to take the kids to church tomorrow and I'd like to go but I might end up staying home to try and get stuff done...

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p-taryn-dactyl · 1 year

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oolong, white tea, dr. pepper, latte, chocolate milkshake, orange juice, red bull(gives you wings -cough-), nutella milkshake, cherry milkshake (look cartoons are amazing and good ones can be hard to find).

oolong (What did you want to be when you were small?):

ooooooo I wanted to be a lot of things lol. mostly an author or artist, at one point I watched a bit too much HGTV and wanted to be an interior designer but for the sake of all homes out there, that dream went out the window. I also wanted to be a superhero, that was a fun phase.

white tea (What’s one thing that can instantly make your day better?) :

listening to Taylor Swift, getting a text from a friend/my crush, eating my favorite food (dumplings), a hug from my dad. ik thats more than one but what can I say, a bunch of stuff makes me happy :)

dr. pepper (Which habit are you proudest of breaking?):

oh uhhhhh, lets see. have I broken any habits probably drinking three energy drinks a day, that was a...rough time

latte (What did you think was cool then, when you were a kid but isn’t cool now?)

captain America. I mean...does this mean what I thought was cool but I don't anymore or like socially? would having a flip phone count then? idk I always wanted one, to live my Chris pine dream. crimping hair. captain America. straightening my hair except that one patch at the back. knowing every big time rush song. captain America.

chocolate milkshake (If you could ask advice from any book character, who would it be?):

oh this is a hard one whoa. probably sally Jackson from Percy Jackson bc she seems like she gives the best advice and would be so comforting! or Jesus, from you know, the Bible. such a chill guy, would probably help me solve my problems then build me a chair

orange juice (What is your favourite item of clothing?):

I really like pants. like the pleated ones. or a cardigan. or my combat boots. do rings count? also like a nice hoodie or sweatshirt.

red bull (If you had a theme song, what would it be?):

oh shit nuggets. probably anything from conan gray's discography like best friend or crush culture?? maybe a Taylor Swift song bc I already associate myself with so many of her lyrics. most likely better than revenge or no body, no crime. this is a hard question and I will be thinking about it for the rest of the night

nutella milkshake (The house is on fire, but everyone is safely out, the pets are safely out, and all wallets/cash are saved. If you could make one last dash to get something, what would it be?):

knowing myself it would probably be my computer since I always have my phone on me. but also, I would probably try and save a journal of mine or a book that holds a lot of significance to me, like Percy Jackson or A Silver Thimble, which is a book my aunt gave me a while ago. or a picture of my family/gigi, if im feeling sentimental enough

cherry milkshake (What cartoon do you still like to watch?):

(you're right, it is hard to find some good cartoons) maybe looney tunes? or tom and jerry? or that one show on Netflix with the mermaid and shark? she-ra? the animated batman show? honestly I don't watch a lot of cartoons anymore bc I haven't been able to find a show that captivates me on the same level that Mickey Mouse Clubhouse did when I was five. Oh wait those older Mickey Mouse cartoon shorts are really good, really funny, definitely would watch them again over and over.

thank you so much for the ask!! sorry if my answers are a bit weird, I think my pain meds kicked in and made my brain kinda fuzzy. but anyways, this was fun!! thank you!!

#taryns ask games (?)#taryn answers asks #aparticularbandit #thank you for the ask!#I loved all these questions

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adhbabey · 2 years

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Hello! I hope this is ok, I love your blog but I also wanted to ask you a question. You don’t have to respond if you don’t feel comfortable. I understand you can’t give a professional opinion but I’m just looking for different opinions to inform my own. I’m a 26 female with bipolar type 2. I’m being treated with mood stabilizers and it’s helped my hypomanic episodes immensely. But I still experience certain things that still make life incredibly difficult to deal with. I thought it was just heightened anxiety and depression but my sister suggested that it might be mild adhd. Even if I’m not feeling anxious I have moments where I find it very difficult to maintain focus most of the time. Even in conversations. Even if I really want to. It happens so rarely that I literally note it in my mood calendar when I do manage to maintain good focus. I always thought it was just lack of motivation. I get so attached to certain topics and subjects and frequently send whole essays about them to friends though I don’t think it’s obsessive. I don’t know if I have a short attention span but I do zone out even in normal conversations. I don’t think I have difficulties in listening but I definitely had to actively teach myself to stay focused and to actively listen and how to socialize. Poor organizational skills and poor study skills is a resounding YES for me. Especially the poor study skills. Because I always feel so confused about how exactly I’m supposed to study. I’m 26 and I still don’t know how I’m supposed to study. I used to have good grades but now in uni it’s all gone downhill. I used to describe my issue with focus like my brain was on constant static. I don’t literally HEAR static. But it’s like when you keep turning the radio toggle looking for a radio station but can’t find one and even when you do, it’s still jumbled with the static and you can’t actually comprehend anything being said. I fidget constantly. I can’t just sit, most of the time I NEED to be moving, rocking, fidget, shaking my leg/foot. I do have memory issues though I don’t know if it’s similar to ADHD memory issues. I find it difficult to finish tasks sometimes even if it’s something I like. I used to like reading but I’ll spend half an hour trying to read 2 pages before I give up because I can’t focus. Reading out loud helps but not always. My biggest issue with the idea of having adhd is that I’m not sure if I had it as a kid and adhd is something you have since childhood. It’s doesn’t suddenly develop in adults. But then again, it’s pretty common for women to be diagnosed in their late 20s during their uni years. I guess I’m just wondering if this sounds familiar to you. Thank you for listening!

Yeah, y e a h, thats definitely ADHD. I recommend you look at my adhd checklist on my pinned post if you haven't already. But lets see, here's the symptoms you pointed out,

Difficulties maintaining focus. This sounds like a big part of not being stimulated during conversation, so you feel very restless/distracted. It's not that things aren't interesting, it's that they're not engaging enough. I recommend doodling or playing with a stim toy if you want to listen better. The thing to note here is that even if you want to, you can't, not that you wont.

Getting attached to different topics, "obsessively". This is a hyperfixation, all us ND kids got one. Like mine is fantasy stuff, or divination or cats, or something. I could go on for hours about it. And doing so, is called infodumping. When you send your friends whole essays about it, it's called an infodump.

Poor organization/study skills. Yeah, I never really understood this sort of thing, and it's kind of vague. It's just something we struggle with. Like, I understand, but I can't explain this one very well, I am sorry. I just know it's a symptom tho.

Static Brain. I think this one is emotional hyperarousal. Like where your head is loud, buzzing and full of thought. Also, brain fog, where brain is blank and fuzzy. I think also linked with this is dissociation caused by understimulation(just zoning out). Head full also can be when you're thinking about your hyperfixation, all that dopamine go zoom.

Fidgeting constantly. Yeah, this is just a physical hyperactivity symptom. Fidgeting/stimming is just how it goes. I've been there,,, thats my whole existence.

Memory issues. We have issues with working memory specifically. It's best if you look this one up, I'm not very good at explaining and google may help you better than me. But an example just now is just, me struggling to remember to look up "working memory" just now, as I switched to another tab. Though, memory issues is a symptom of a lot of disorders in the neurodivergent space.

Difficulties finishing tasks. Yeah this is Executive Dysfunction. And having a hard time reading can be you being overwhelmed or stressed. So take a break, make sure you're stimulated, and then try reading again. Don't force yourself if you're not in the best headspace. Like try watching a video first.

And yeah, I wasn't diagnosed until 22, last year, but I figured it out that in university, I was failing really bad due to lack of structure in my environment, and knew that something was up.

I'm sure you've had symptoms in childhood, just didn't know what they were. All of these problems are lifelong in some aspects. Especially with comorbid disorders like anxiety and depression. Also if you have had sleep problems since you were a child, thats also common. So yeah, it sounds like ADHD to me.

#babey asks #adhd symptoms #also the whole walls of text vs inability to read #both adhd traits

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Mymble please

Pffffffuuuhhhhhh... Mymbleeee... Mymble... Maybe it's mymbeline... I don't wanna disappoint since I know you're a big ol' fan of the big lady so I'll give it my best.

First impression: "Ohhhhhhh big lady, big lady cool, she's funny. Face is kinda weird tho."

To be honest I don't really remember my initial opinion of her, I think she kinda... Popped into my consciousness when she was introduced in the first episode of the 2019 series and stayed there quietly as I didn't take much interest in her story. She was nice and oblivious and a little funny and then I was forgetful about her as much as she was forgetful of Little My.

Impression now: "Big lady's cool, but didn't have the mysterious intrigue or really lovable personality for me to fixate on her at any point."

If my lack of Mymble content's proven anything it's that I'm... Not super interested in her, but I suppose I still haven't given her a big shot at trying to figure her out as a person, then again I have alot of characters I'm really interested in already so I don't quite have the room for her until I feel motivated enough to shove her into my brain space. But I don't know, maybe there's something there to be had with her near-mysterious backstory that is left untouched by the fandom (I don't read fanfiction but that's what I'm getting I suppose). Maybe I should look into her more at some point.

Favorite moment: The iconic "pouring lemonade on the kids to stop them from fighting" is the most memorable part of her character taken straight out of the comics, I think it shows alot about her character in that yes she's kinda oblivious or willfully ignorant of what her kids do alot but she has enough experience to deal with them quickly and easily if it gets out of hand. Makes you wonder what other tricks she has up her sleeves in child discipline.

My other favorite moment is from the comics where Little My bites one of Mrs. Fillyjonk's kids and Mrs. Fillyjonk's like "Your smallest child just bit one of mine!!" and Mymble's like "Well you should teach them how to fight better :)" while she's knitting. The smug side eye expression of Mymble's is too perfect.

Idea for a story: I think an exploration of her backstory is in order. Perhaps she was one of many Mymble children like her own offspring, maybe her family wasn't so lucky and her siblings kept dying/disappearing/being unsuccessful, whatever the case may be. I think there's a friendship she could've had with young Fuzzy as they both lived on Jones' island, maybe they started drifting apart as Fuzzy became quiet and disciplined from her family after she got in trouble big time and Mymble became more outgoing as her flirty Mymble instincts kicked in and started having children.

Unpopular opinion: I'm not... All too familiar with opinions or characterizations of Mymble. I guess I could say she wouldn't be too attached to Joxter as a lover in my opinion? I don't quite ship them terribly atleast as a long-term domestic romantic relationship especially since it doesn't seem to have worked that way with Mymble's other lovers, they could work amazing as friends though, being absolutely care-free creatures who (accidentally?) stir up trouble with their combined obliviousness and love for fun.

Favorite relationship: I think Mymble and Little My have something there. Mymble is very much an enabler and My is the leader of the newest batch of Mymbles, but opinions on eachother may be up in the air. What does Little My think of her mother? Does Mymble pay much mind to Little My as the rest of her kids or is there a more distinct feelings towards her physically smallest adult daughter? Do they love eachother actively or is it really just a super passive familial love, if they love eachother at all? There's something to think about with them!

Favorite headcanon: There's alot of theories/interpretation of Mymble's antennae out there. Some draw it as a general Mymble characteristic (even though only Mymble is shown with them only in Memoirs), others think it's a Mymble puberty/adult thing; I personally think it's a Mymble pregnancy thing to indicate when a Mymble is ready to have more children (has antennae = already pregnant/can't reproduce more at the moment, doesn't have antennae = ready to reproduce)

I hope this is satisfactory for you!

#moomins #moominvalley #moomin mymble #the mymble #mymble #mymblemamma #ask game

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mikhailoaleksandrmilkovich · 2 years

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Tuesday (Thursday) Tag Game

thank you macy @celestialmickey for including me in your tag games even when I take forever to complete them also @xninetiestrendx and @suchagallabitch for tagging me as well <3

type your name without looking: kris ~.~

do you prefer hot weather or cold weather? I am unbelievably unhappy with weather lower than 50 degrees or higher than 80 degrees but I'll choose cold

what’s your favorite place you’ve ever traveled? I have the anxieties so I haven't traveled much but I visited California years ago and it felt like home

breakfast, lunch, or dinner? I like breakfast foods but at lunch time

do you have any kids? if not, do you want some? I didn't even like children when I was a children so nope, no thanks. also, I'm ace-spec so that isn't really a problem

something you’d like to learn this year: I want to brush up on my Russian and ASL because it's all spilled right out of my brain since college. also I started trying to animate in procreate which was fun and I wanna finish that project

favorite social media app besides tumblr: tweeter but only bc I have decades worth of fandom friends there that I like to keep in touch with

who is someone you admire? Karyn Kusama - her directing is amazing and something I've been obsessed with recently

tell me something you’re looking forward to: getting another tattoo (probably shameless related)

finally, tell me something that makes you happy: my cats and my work as a pet sitter!! I love the fuzzy critters

Everyone probably did this on Tuesday like normal people but i’m gonna tag some anyway @sickness-health-all-that-shit @vintagelacerosette @iandebbie @lesbiangallagher @pwcbthesixth @mininusketears

#tag games #miss macy spacey

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jazminetoad · 3 years

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In My Reality | Prologue

Hey, I was bored so I decided to start a fanfic series of the Tatsumi Brothers from Juuni Taisen. Yay

It’s a “Tatsumi Brother x Reader” story about how the Tatsumi Brothers enter the reader’s reality which kinda flips her world upside down.

So I just finished the prologue. If you guys like it or if I’m bored again, I’ll make the first chapter. (Click “Keep Reading” to read the story)

"[Name] get out of bed; It's 3 in the afternoon," my mom told me as she came into my room with fresh, clean clothes. I didn't have to look over to know.

Groaning, I removed my mask from my eyes then rolled over to face up at the white ceiling. The sunlight seeping in from the blinds caused my sight to cringe before it finally adjected to the light and I could see the grey walls lurking in the corner of my eyes. Arising from my queen-sized bed a yawn escaped from my mouth. My form reached over and placed my sleep mask on the nightstand, next to my water mug.

"Morning mom," I greeted her as she sorted out the pile of clothes on my dresser. Looks like she did a colour load, which means no pants to put away.

"Morning sweetheart. Can you put your clothes away before you come downstairs?"

"Sure," I simply answered as I slipped out of the cozy sheets I once was tangled in.

"Thank you. I'll see you when you come down," she stated, placing the last of my t-shirts neatly on the others. Afterwards, she wrapped her arms around the remaining clean, clothes that weren't mine, carefully balancing them as she left my room and closed the door behind.

The click of the doorknob echoed into my ears when my feet landed on the fuzzy rug. My eyes drifted their gaze to the plain black bodypillow wrapped in [f/c] blankets, reminding me of a burrito. It just had the colour for the case, no special Anime character on it. I wish there were one though; it'd make the nights seem less lonely to see my favourite character's face on it. However, a pillow is a pillow. Despite me using it as an illusion for myself it doesn't change the reality that when I hug it in my sleep or when I'm awake no arms will return my embrace.

A sigh falls out of my breath, my eyelids dropping in sync. I turned my head away from the lying pillow and dragged myself to the other side of my bed, towards the dresser that patiently held the clean clothes my mom put there. I opened a drawer, putting my undergarments away first then my socks. Once those were put away, I moved to retrieve hangers from my closet, passing by my desk and shelves as I did.

If you were wondering why I slept so late into the afternoon, well, it's currently winter break, so that means I can stay up late and sleep in late past noon. Sadly enough, it's January which means the break almost over, and that means school is standing around the corner, menacingly. Just the thought of it disturbs my mind as that reality tries to infect my thoughts.

I hate reality. I know not all of it is shit, but there's enough of it that makes me want to drown myself in the world of fiction. Whenever it's the weekend or breaks from school, I binge Anime, tv shows, YouTube, and movies, so that's the only thing on my mind. I then write or read fanfiction, there is the rare occasion I sketch something but I'm not good at art since I don't practice enough. By the time I return to reality after having my head stuck in my imagination for so long, I can barely focus without going back to daydreaming. Eventually, that wears off, and then reality is what floods my brain; I despise it but I know I can't be stuck in my fantasies forever. Luckily my friends provide that nice spot in-between for me, helping me stay in the real world but also let me discuss the fictional. Then there's also my bro.

"Yo sis," my brother's voice called from the other side of the door after his fist knocked on it. "You wanna continue Code Geass?"

My bro is the best. Unlike most siblings I know, we actually get along. He's also a big help in my life, one of the reasons why I haven't lost my mind. He makes sure I don't overwork & stress myself and reminds me to have fun and chillax. I love him for it, and he's practically my best friend. We aren't the exact same age but we were born in the same year, just a few months apart so we get to be in the same grade. He's the older one. He's also taller which means he can t-pose over me, and we reenact the meme; it's great.

"Yeah," I answered. "Just let me get ready."

"Alright," he replied before I felt the vibration of his footsteps grow distant from my room.

'Heh, if I had Takeyasu's ability, I'd be able to sense his movement better.'

I chuckle to myself at the thought floating in my mind as I put the final shirt away. My two favourite characters that I desired to be real was the Tatsumi Brothers, Nagayuki and Takeyasu. I love those two. Whenever I watched their episodes from Juuni Taisen, I always smile. They make my heart feel something that I never felt for any character before. I don't want to be cliche and say true love, but to me, that's what it feels like. I know they're fictional characters, so I won't get much out of it, but strangely enough, I'm okay with that. I can't imagine my heart belonging to anyone else. I do wish they were real, though. I even used my wish on the bracelet my friend, Meri-chan, got for my birthday one year, that they'd become real.

The bracelet was some urban legend. It was lime green and had a few beads on it. The legend goes that you make a wish and when the bracelet breaks, your wish has come true. 'Course, it's most likely a bunch of baloney but that didn't stop me from wishing that the Tatsumi Brothers would become real. I currently just wear the bracelet as an accessory since the wish probably won't happen, it's not like the thing is going to break anytime soon.

Grabbing my towel, my other hand opened my door. I slipped down the hallway and slid into the bathroom, my foot pushing the door closed as I put the towel on the towel rack. Hopefully, I don't take too long because we were left on edge on the last episode of Code Geass we watched. Well, I'll finish sooner than my wish coming true that's for sure, heh.

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"Okay bro but if you think about it, Lelouch-"

"[Name], I washed your school uniforms. Can you put them away while I start on tacos?" Mom requested from the kitchen, interrupting the Anime, my commentary, and reminding me that school is coming soon. "You too, [b/n]."

"Yes, mom," we both respond.

My brother picked up the remote and hit the pause button so we wouldn't miss anything. I pulled myself up from the plush couch, disappointment growing on me since I had hoped not to be interrupted until dinner was ready. Well, I guess I could let the disappointment wither away since it's Taco Tuesday, my favourite. I chuckled to myself as my feet reached the next level above the main floor and headed down the open hallway to my room.

My laughter died out upon seeing my seven school uniforms, five that were the regular female uniform and two that were gym uniforms. Unlike most students, I didn't like the idea of having to wash my uniform every day, so to make things simpler, I paid for six more with my own money. It was a bit irritating, using the money I earned from my summer job for this instead of getting something else. Still, my practical choice, so I didn't necessarily have to worry about my mom washing my uniform every night.

"Hhhhhh, why does school have to come back so soon?" I asked myself as I picked up one of the uniforms.

The uniform wasn't too special, a simple white blouse, a blue skirt, a blue jacket, and a blue & black striped tie. Students could decide if we wanted to wear tights, leggings, or shorts underneath the skirt as long as it was black or white. I wore leggings unless it was summer which I then wear shorts and knee-high socks. There are those girls that only wear thigh-high socks and panties under their skirt to which my nerd brain questions why. 'Course that's their choice, have fun with your ass cold.

A Discord ringtone made me resurface from my pond of inner thoughts. Becoming aware of my surroundings, I realized my friends Meri-chan and Kamida were calling on the Discord group chat we had. I could tell by the laptop I had open on my desk. I quickly put the uniform I had in hand on the rack with the others before sliding over and clicking the answer button that popped up.

"Yo, what's up nerds."

"Hey I'm not a nerd," Meri-chan protested. "I'm a cool kid."

"Meri-chan, we're all nerds here," Kamida stated before greeting me. "Hey [n/n], how you doing?"

"Eh, good I suppose but I could be doing better, Kami," I answered simply. "How's life?"

"Pretty chill but I got bored, so I decided to call you guys."

"Well, I'm just putting my uniforms away," I informed them and went to put the last uniform away.

"I sometimes forget that you have more than one," Meri-chan commented before I heard her gasp. "Hey, how 'bout we hang out tomorrow, we only have so many days before we have to go back to school."

"Oh, don't remind me," I groaned, hanging my head, then went back to putting the uniform on the hanger and walking over to the closet, hanging it up with the rest.

"That doesn't sound like a bad idea Meri-chan, we could hang out tomorrow," Kamida suggested.

"I'm down," Meri-chan quickly responded.

"Welllllll..." I hesitated, sitting down in the [f/c] spinning chair in front of the desk.

"[Name]."

"You see, I kinda want to stay inside my last few days..."

"[n/nnnnn]!" Meri-chan whined.

"Come on [Name], you know you can't stay cooped up inside forever," Kamida reminded me.

"I know," I grumbled, leaning back in my seat. "Fine, I'll come out tomorrow, but it's going to be after 2."

"2 am, geez [n/n] I didn't know you'd be willing to come out that early," Kamida joked.

"I meant 2 pm," I corrected.

"Okay," he chuckled as Meri-chan pipped in.

"But if you're late again, you're buying lunch this time."

"Okay, bet, but what if I'm not?" I inquired, my fingers tapping on my desk.

"Mmmmmmm," she hummed, seemingly to be thinking.

"It's fine I'll pay for lunch tomorrow."

"Alright, but don't use it as an excuse to be late."

"I won't," I reassured her. "Anyway, I'm gonna go watch a few more episodes of Code Geass with my bro-"

"You still need to watch Dragon Ball Z," Kamida interrupted.

"And you need to watch Juuni Taisen," I countered, emphasizing the "you".

"Yeah, yeah," he brushed it off. "Anyway, go have fun with your bro. We'll call again later on tonight."

"Alright, bye guys." I left the call and closed out of discord then proceeded to shut my laptop.

Kamida and Meri-chan were my two friends from school; we've known each other since childhood. 'Course Meri-chan isn't Meri-chan's real name, that's just a nickname Kamida and I gave her. Occasionally, they called me [n/n]-chan but not too often. Then there are times where we call Kamida, Kami-kun, but mainly Meri-chan does it out of spite since Kamida doesn't like it. Especially when Meri-chan does it in her kawaii voice. Those two are the only ones outside of family that have the same vibe I do, that's probably why we've been friends for so long.

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"Hey, you guys ever wish fictional characters could become real?" I randomly asked out of the blue, staring up at the white ceiling as I waited for my friends over the call to answer my question.

"All the time," Meri-chan answered.

"We know simp," Kamida smugly commented.

"Nuuu!" Meri-chan pouted while Kamida and I laughed. "Hey, if anything [n/n] is the simp over here, she's the one actual crushing on the characters."

"Hey don't call me out like that."

"Ha! She doesn't deny it," Kamida jeered.

"Okay, what about you and Android 21?"

"Ack-" Kamida blurted before muting himself, causing me and Meri-chan to giggle. A few seconds pass by before he unmuted himself. "Why are you asking this question [n/n]?"

"No reason in particular-"

"Are you sure it's not you wanting to talk about Juuni Taisen?"

"No- it's not just that. I just think fictional characters would make reality interesting."

"Right..."

"Meri-chan if you could bring someone from Juuni Taisen to-"

"My boy Uuma! You should know this by now."

"Bruh-"

"Well, it's either that or Usagi, and I rather be alive thank you."

"Who's Uuma again?" Kamida inquired, not knowing who was who quite yet since he hasn't watched the Anime.

"Uuma is the warrior of the horse," I informed him.

"Right," Kamida mumbled before letting out a yawn.

"You sound tired, go to sleep!" Meri-chan told Kamida.

"No, you go to sleep."

"Guys, we're all on the same timezone. If one of us goes to sleep then we all do," I stated. "It makes sense since we're all planning on meeting up tomorrow."

"I guess we go to sleep," Meri-chan said bluntly.

"Yeah, alright, goodnight guys," Kamida yawned.

"Night."

"Night guys."

With that, we each left the call. I, however, didn't fall asleep right away. I woke up late and the night was still pretty early, so I opened up the Funimation app on my phone. Scrolling through the list of saved Anime, most of which were halfway through since my brother and I are watching them together, I came across Juuni Taisen.

"Why not..." I muttered to myself as my finger tapped on the Anime and went right to click on episode 7, In Like a Dragon, Out Like a Snake (Part 1).

By the time I finished episodes 7 and 8, it was 2 am when my eyes glanced at the clock in the top corner of my phone. Sighing to myself, I leaned over and snatched my charger off the nightstand, plugging it in the wall before connecting the other end to my phone. Turning off my phone, I placed it on the nightstand and snagged my sleep mask, putting that on my head.

As I laid there on my bed, silence flooded the room, not a sound to be heard but my own breathing. Vines of sorrow began to grow on me as the feeling of loneliness came over me. I tried to pull myself out of the emotion, turning over and wrapping my arms around the plain bodypillow in an attempt to comfort myself. In the end, it only helped slightly. It didn't erase the pain because I knew there were no arms that would hug me back. A tear escaped my eyes before I pulled my mask over them, and a final thought appeared in my mind before I entered the dream realm.

'I wish I wasn't alone...'

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"Congratulations, Tatsumi {Ani|Otouto}, warrior of the {dragon|snake}!" Duodecuple exclaimed. "You are the winner of the 12th Juuni Taisen, everyone give yourself a hand!" The man started to applaud but soon stopped. "The antidote has settled in by now. You'll be fine."

{"Tch|Alright"} the Tatsumi brother simply responded.

"Now that you've won the Juuni Taisen, you can make one wish of your choice. Would you like to make your wish now, or would you like for it to be granted later?"

"In all honesty, when I arrived at the Juuni Taisen I wished for {nothing|money}, I didn't need anything else really but now that {I'm here|I had time to think about} I don't want to wish for {nothing|money}."

"Oh, do you have another wish in mind?" Duodecuple inquired the Tatsumi brother sitting in front of him, alone.

"Yeah... I wish me and my brother were never apart of the Juuni Taisen."

#tatsumi brothers #tatsumi kyoudai #tatsumi kyoudai ani #tatsumi kyoudai otouto #nagayuki tsumita #takeyasu tsumita #takeyasu #nagayuki #tatsumi brothers x reader #juuni taisen #juuni taisen au #juni taisen #juni taisen x reader #juuni taisen x reader #juuni taisen: zodiac war #juuni taisen snake #juuni taisen dragon #juuni taisen zodiac war #spot the reference

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randomsevans · 4 years

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LATE LIES

Part 2

Steve Rogers x reader

Summary:you have recently decoved that your finance captain america is cheating on you. But there again you could be wrong. But what will happen when your not wrong ?. And your not the only one who has cort on to steve shaddy activitys .

AN : my grammar and spelling isn't the best so bare that in mind .

@nomadevans82

Breakfast was quickly over. No word . No affection. Shown by the man who was ment to love you, the man you are ment to marry , the man you suspect is cheating on you. But maybe your wrong , maybe your brain is just over thinking. This is captain america we are speaking about, man who said your his world , his love , he wouldnt do anything to hurt you , especially in such a way . Would he ?

He wouldnt or so you thought/knew.

'God why cant I think straight ' you mind was racing around and around , question after question , excuse after excuse for him .

Maybe your just overreacting, I mean my spy training doesn't mean I have to be right every time . Nobody else has notice his behalf? Right .but you have and you know him better then anyone . Or so you should. But your not the only one whose notice a change . Nat did , she look like she was about to skin him alive with her butter knife at the breakfast.

You mind racing , your fist rapidly punching the bag , never stop . The training room had blurred form your vision along with everyone in it . You can feel you blood boiling , tight knots in your stomach as you think about steve with sharon . Your temper going just above busting point . You didnt notice you went breathing. You didnt notice your eyes glowing, you didnt notice the punching bag flying off , with a swerling yellow sting glow around it . You just stare at it , forgetting all the people . Nobody would notice anyway , it's not unusual for this to happen , but what is , is the power running through your veins . The very thing , nobody knows, the thing you hide , the thing you run away from , thing you dont want people to know about you , hell you dont even know what it is exactly. You spend all you time hiding it . The minority of the time you cant feel it running though , you normally have hold over it . But when your emotions get to extreme (more like things you dont experience often ) such as a need to cry, or your anger , anxiety. It slips out and your cant control it. And it doesn't help you are feeling all these right now.

You final brought back form your blurred vision with a hand on your shoulder. If it was anyone else you'd push them off , but not this person. Youd no them any way . Ever since it first comforted you when you just a child, in place no child should be , in a situation no child should be , expecting things no child should ever .

You slowing turn your face toward him . Bucky .or james as you knew him as a child . Hes your comfort , the closest thing you got to w father in the red room . This you keep a secret form everyone else , no one apart from nat knows that you were in the red room with her and as she was training and falling in love with james . He acted as a father to , never letting you get near the same amount punishment as the other girls. So when you found he was still alive , when you found he was becoming sane minded again you couldn't be happy. You weirdly felt safe the world again . After you were told just after he managed for you to escape that the red room had killed him .

You have alot of secrets such as people dont know about the fact that the red room trained you , Bucky trained you , or the fact that you two have a father and daughter relationship . Nobody knows not even Steve, to everyone else sheild trained you, you were a good field agent and was giving the opportunity to become an averager under the request of Nat .But at least two people know them nat and buck , they raised you basically, they know you , they know your history. But theres one secret that nat doesn't even know, only james . And that's about your mutation. James found out about it the same time you did .

You were 11 years old , training with james in a dark cold room . The constenced shouting in russian and girls crying was getting to your head missing punishing and kicks , you head was fuzzy, everything was become to quick , to fast . You couldn't handle it , although you go thought it every day . You final get a burst of energy and it shoots thought your veins and bones , the bright yellow light swerling around, pushing James into the wall . He knew what it was , he had heard of mutation before and what happens when the red room find a girl who has one , they either dont last very long or are put into different facilities. He protected you , help you hide it . Still does today .

So when you turned around , you saw the panic on his face, he knew what had happend , he was the only person in the room that saw as always. And he knew something was wrong because you knew let it get the better of . He automatically pulled you into a hug hiding your face from the rest of the world in his chest . It would be so easy to cry , so easy. If you wernt so anger you were shacking .

"Your okay " "your safe " "I got you " " you can calm down " he constantly whispers until you did as you were told and calmed down . You glance up till you met his glaze . His eyes was swerling with fear and empathy for you . "Now you gonna tell me what's got you all worked up ?"he asked pulling the hair out of your face . You just shake you head negatively, he nodded in return , knowing you was going to answer him anytime soon .

"I might have an idea " nats voice stalled you . 'Did she see ?' You become anxious again you dont want anyone to know about you mutions .

"You've go quite the rage and strength, and rightfully to " at this you know she must think you just punched the bag down .

"What do you mean ? What happend ? Do u know what's wrong? NAT tell me ! " buck quietly shouted concerned, pulling away form you , facing nat with his armes crossed .

"Calm down papa wolf , I dont think nows the time , let's calm her down and get a drink in her first , I know she needs it " she glanced at you sympathetically, she knows about sharon and Steve.

"What ! Nat Its 11am the mo...." bucky was cut off by the annocument above.

"Party tonight people. Main floor see you there tonight. Peace out , Iron man ! " Tony said though the speakers .

"Great !" You said walking out of the training room , towards your room , knowing you'll stay there u till the party.

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Hours had passed and you haven't seen anyone all day , steve didnt come to check up on you like he normal did , you asked friday what he was doing every hour and your were denied access.

You and Nat hadn't spoke about what was playing on your mind , you just spent your day with a few early drinks and tv . It got to the time where it was time to get ready .you sat in that's room with a dress she picked out for you lying on her bed . You sat at the mirror finishing your simple make up nothing to extreme hust enough to add to your natural beauty.

You heard the bathroom door open , you turned to see that Nat was almost ready

"Come on kid , I know parties ain't really our thing but at least they'll be vodka "she joked .

"Thank god " you rolled your eyes and got up picking up your dress and heading towards the bathroom. You were just about to close the door when Nat sighed

"Y/n you .... I..... do you see what i see " she ask clearly neverous .

"About ?" You tried to act clueless but you knew what she was about to say

"About steve "

"..... " you stay silent for a while " can we not.. not right now .. we both could be wronge his the man I'm marrying, the man I love .... i dont want to think about it .... I... we might be wronge "

She scoffed at the thought but she nodded her head . And in you went into the bathroom to finish getting ready .

When you emerged out of the bathroom in your dark blue silk dress that hugged and was lose in all the right placed . With your hair curled and pinned half up and half down .

"Oh my .... you look gorgeous " Nat said with wide eyes . You felt it too as much as you ddint want to go to this party you felt great in this dress almost forgetting everything

"You look stunning as always " Nat just shrugged it off and grab your hand while heading our her door .

When you got into the hallway you and nat both stopped in your tracks.

"There you are ... iv been looking for you ... Tony and his parties eh " Steve laugh making you laugh too . This man put you into a trance everytime you saw him , he was in a dark blue shirt similar to your dress (not on purpose) . He looked as good as ever , you sighed with the biggest smile thinking this man is going to be your for ever soon . But then the voice started to creep back into your head ,instantly your small dropped to a frown

Steve took a step closer to you and kissed you on the check you let out a breath that you didnt know you was holding all day ,

'See everything normal we were just over reacting '

He smiled down at you "you look good " he said but he didnt even look at you the way be usual would , he didnt say what he usal would , it would be more then just good ...

"Good ? She looks stunning " Nat blurted out , you could tell she was staring at him like he was the target .

He just wrapped an arm losly around you , not tight like he normal would, he once said it was to keep you by his side and let everyone know your his . But not now . You felt so stuiped being in his arms .

"Let's go shall we "

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You had been at the party for not that long Steve was by your side laughing and joking with everyone around the group . Nat , Bucky and Tony all laughing and joking

Everyone would feel fine if it wasnt for Steve's eyes keep wondering off

You sighed , chucking down your drunk , thinking your the only one that noticed but you forget that you were next to the best assassins you have ever know .

"Hi everyone "

"Oh hi sharon " Tony said

Your eyes snapped to her stunned , everyone eyes fell on her as you all stood at the bar in a circle she had managed to get her way inbetween Tony and steve

" you look stunning " steve said looking her up and down with a smirk , your heart dropped

"You get good and she gets stunning!"

"Thank you " sharon whisper trying not to star at steve but failing as there both keep sharing glances at each other, as a blush creeped on her check .

The music was the only thing filling the silence for a while as Tony sipped on his drink clueless . With steve and Sharom basically eye fucking each other while unknowly to you two very very anger killing mansions were ready to be Roger's down . You just stood there tears threating to make an appearance.

"I'm... I'm just going to pop to the.. " you couldn't finish your sentence already making your way down the hall .

Nobody looked at you are asked if you were okay .

You made your way blindly down corridors in all different directions you didnt know where you ended up, all you knew was you were far way you didnt hear the music and you were safe alone . You let out a quiet sob that lead to a few tears escaping your tear duck as you fought them off . Ignoring the stinging feeling with the tight chest and pit in your stomach .

Some one pulled you into there arms you you could see was a few red strains of hair

"Sshhhhh "

"I dont know why I'm like this.... I might be wronge " you choked out

Nat just gave you a look like 'when are we ever wronge "

"Come lets go back " was all she said you nodded .

She rubbed your back as you made your way through the corridors . Before you turned a corner you heard a quiet bang followed by laughter and giggles . You and Nat quietly laught and slowly made your way to the corner.

You stopped dead in your tracks with nat behind you . You were barely visible as you were still hidden around the corner .you quickly took a step back , pushing Nat backwards , she looked confused but you both listen carefully.

All you could hear was short breaths with giggles and growls

"Stop that "you heard a high pitched giggle

"Hell no ! I wanted to get my hands on you all night "

"You would be able to if you didnt have her ..."

"Soon " The deep voice cut her off "soon I'll be all your okay "

Your heart drop you could help the tears roll down your cheek. As you saw and hear Steve with sharon , it hit you hard , it all become reality and you couldn't take it . Nat griped you tightly clearly trying to calm her anger .

There voice went away and nat looked around the corner

"There gone ..I'm going to kill him " she snapped

You sobs became louder and louder your whole body was shaking

"Why ? Why ? Why ? He said he loved me , said I was his world , I'm meant to be his wife soon why ? What did he mean by soon ? Was he going to leave you?

Your body was shaking as nat stepped back , unknowly to you everything around you was shaking to . You vision blur and lost all connection to world around you and your heart was literally tearing into piece making the unwanted power over come you .

"Uh no nooo no " was all you hear and Bucky ran his way towards you

"Calm down it okay " bucky slowly came near you as the shaking stopped. He quickly wrapped you in his arms

"Calm down !"

There was silence that felt like forever Nat with her anger towards Roger's and shocked by you . While Bucky was staying calm for you

"You going to tell me ? " he asked slowly.

You shook your head no

There both sighed

"Fine I will!" Nat snapped

"No .. no please dont" you begged.

"What ? What is it ? "Bucky asked getting impatient

"No .. don't say it...its not real until you say it " you hiccup on everyone word

"Please " you begged one last time

"Just tell me god damn it "

"Roger's is cheating with carter "nat barked over youf sobs

"What !"

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Haven't seen rottmnt yet, so I'll ask for karai! :D

Nice! Thanks for the ask, I’m going to put everything under the cut.

Okay, lets start with the first Karai (that I know of)

2003 Karai!

I thought that she was a really neat character in the first few seasons, staying with her honor, helping out the turtles and I even thought she’d break off from the Shredder. She had a very contradictory personality and it’s so neat to see her change from being the character with honor and respect to going ‘alright I’m gonna be Shredder now’. It was a crazy change, but it made a lot of sense. My memories of the last three seasons are fuzzy but I don’t think she appeared too much in the last two. Overall, cool character, never was a fan of the headband and badass.

7/10

Now let’s move on to the Karai I watched in third grade.

2012 Karai

Sit down, this is gonna be long.

Um pretty, amazing, gorgeous, fierce, well thought out, did I mention I had a HUGE crush on her when I was like 10. That aside, I think she’s my favorite version of Karai! In the first season, the cliche of her being Shredder’s daughter was I think less for ‘shock value’ and was a clear decision. Once it’s revealed that Shedder nabbed her from Splinter and was really Miwa, that solidifies the decision. The way they unveiled this was done with planning and delicacy.

She’s rebellious, doesn’t care about good or evil as long as she has fun. But when it comes to the world potentially being destroyed or mutated or taken over, she realizes it’s seriousness and takes the turtles side on this, wanting to know more. They agree to a deal and when the turtles try to take out Shredder, she reveals that he’s her father. She’s not against the Shredder, she’s just noticing how trivial his revenge looks compared to the end of the world (like everyone EXCEPT the Shredder).

In the finale (I think??), Shredder has told Splinter that ‘haha bitch I took away something important from you, ya know, your daughter.’ It’s frustrating and sad to know this as an audience while Karai continues to push them away. Then we get to the whole episode of Karai finding out that Splinter is her real father. The picture of her mother and Splinter is shown, Karai connects it all together and that Splinter didn’t kill her father, the Shredder did.

She turns on the Shredder, but then tries to go back and avenge her mother and Splinter for everything Shredder has done to them and what he’s done to her. A reasonable reaction when you find out your ‘dad’ was manipulating you and tricking you into hunting down your real father. She gets captured and is used as bait to lure out Splinter and the turtles. And it works! A little too well, Karai gets mutated into A COOL ASS SNAKE WOW.

My memory gets fuzzy here but Karai saves Splinter when he looses his memory and is ‘dead’ the first time. The turtles find her and she says goodbye because the Shredder is hunting her and if she gets captured again, it’ll just cause more trouble for them.

And she was right. She gets captured and infected but a brain controlling worm. I don’t really care or remember this but this was another interesting decision the creators made.

When the Shredder gets defeated right at the end of the space arc, she decides to rebuild the foot and bring honor back to her clan. Now, you could say that the Hamato clan was were she really belonged, but she had trained, lived and became part of the foot clan. She’s seen everything in it and knows that it needs to be cleansed of the Shredder’s influence.

I really liked those episodes because she made an independent decision that was important to her and fit her character. It also led to emo Leo, Shinigami (another badass lady childhood crush) and some plot setup.

I’m not going to go over the rest of the seasons, so I’m gonna add some more notes.

Her design is so appealing with the color scheme, shapes and little nuances here and there. They never explained how she not only could turn back into a human but had two tiny snake heads where her hand were??? The implication of her and Leo being romantic partners was just plain gross and I’m glad they laid off of it after awhile.

Edit: Her voice actor was PERFECT, snarky, suave and an edge of intense, evil like-ness to her tone.

9/10!

Now, for the Karai I know the least about...

IDW Karai

She’s pretty and rocking those bangs but I don’t like how the Shredder uses her. She’s also SO DAMN INTENSE CHILL OUT FOR A MINUTE GIRL. Kinda funny in a ‘haha she’ll kill me’ way, like Rosa from Brooklyn 99. I hope I’ll have a better analysis of her later when I catch up on the comic.

6/10

And the nonexistent...

Rise Karai

Karai hasn’t turned up or even been mentioned in Rise, and I don’t think she will, at least in normal context. The Shredder isn’t really a villain, so she won’t be the normal ‘Shredders daughter/second in command.’ I think that the Foot Recruit is a sort of substitute for her so far, but I’d love to see what she would be in this series since her main connection to the turtles is Shredder. So no rating for this.

Fun fact: Karai means Spicy in Japanese.

Story time: My half-brother/uncle grew up with the 80′s cartoon so when he asked me who I had a crush on and I said Karai, he had no clue who it was. I said ‘well she’s Shredders daughter’ and he was like ‘wait wait wait so like, did Kraang and Shredder go out and adopt a kid or something???’ and I can’t stop thinking about it.

If you have anything to add on, please reblog or comment about it!

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