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padfootswhiskers · 1 month

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With all respect, I think u guys give jkr's writing skill too much credit . Ik she said she planned everything abt hp books from the beginning( I don't believeit tbh), but she wrote some of the weirdest dumb stuff ever for the sake of the plot that don't make any sense ... Remus's life and even his name, for example.The fact that Remus hasn't visited Harry for almost 12yrs is ridiculous . "He thought Harry was safe - he felt worthless. He was a coward. " wtf?! No he didn't do it bc Harry shouldn't know abt his parents and wizarding world the End. srslyWheree were lily's friends? Oh they all passed away...Harry's grandparents THEY ALL PASSED AWAY ...problem solved (jkr is so good at this) and plus imo that also happened simply bc if Remus checked on Harry, he would be a father figure to him 100% (the role given to Sirius), and jkr didn't want Harry to have the same close connection with Remus as he did with Sirius. It would make harry -Sirius's relationship unimportant... Take Sirius's other relationships, for example. When he escaped Azkaban, he had no family, no lover, no one. Initially, I was like, "Yeah, okay," and that seemed fine. But later, it occurred to me that maybe he was written that way because he had to be solely for Harry. Like, he shouldn't care about anyone but Harry. Sirius isn't allowed to prioritize anyone over his godson.

to be fair, anon, i think two things can be true at the same time. a lot of stuff does happen in the hp universe for plot reasons---this doesn't necessarily mean it's always bad writing.

the plot required harry to be unaware of the wizarding world, alright. i don't see how this means remus would've taken, like, custody of harry or something if it hadn't! remus IS a coward. he IS extremely self flagellating. it IS completely plausible that he knew petunia wasn't a great person and left harry there anyway!

(take DH for example. he says tonks will be safe with her parents right after he tells them that her parents have been tortured for information. he isn't a stupid man, he's being deliberately cowardly.)

i understand that you probably really like remus, or at least the good bits of him, but character traits you dislike do not equal bad writing. remus consistently shows himself to be extremely passive-aggressive, conflict avoidant and unable to actually follow through on his conscience. i don't know about you, anon, but i can definitely see a man who convinced himself that withholding information about a wanted murderer was OK, convincing himself that harry is safe and better off without him.

jkr didn't have to use plot reasons to thwart remus and harry's budding relationship so that sirius could step in because...there isn't a scenario that exists wherein canon remus would step in to be an orphaned harry's father figure. i'm genuinely curious as to why you think he might. THAT, if anything, is what seems ooc to me.

as for lily, that seems to be pattern with jkr's 'popular girls'. i can't name five of ginny's friends if my life depended on it. it was also obviously done so that the snape reveal would have a greater effect. but lily isn't an established character the same way remus is.

as for sirius? i don't think it's unrealistic that he didn't have a lover/anyone waiting for him. i think people tend to forget he was only barely 22 when he got locked up; plenty of people haven't begun sorting out their lives at that age. lest we forget, he was also fighting a war pretty much the second he left hogwarts. not great for the dating scene, that. i don't think it's unrealistic at all that he hadn't thought about girls (or boys) or settling down at that time in his life.

but even if he had, i can't fathom a world in which he wouldn't transfer the love and devotion he had for james to james' son.

#answered #anonymous #remus lupin #sirius black #sirius and remus are FUNDAMENTALLY different so i genuinely cannot imagine a plot #that would have remus being the father figure to harry #whilst sirius was discarded on the side #like that's just...not them!

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shakertwelve · 9 months

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Hey hii hello hiiii what do u think was Marquis trigger backstory? Since ur the professional on him and we don’t know shit about him(besides his apparent vampirism lmfao)

Interested in your marquis backstory thoughts because his power implies a lot but I can’t quite put it together - there’s SOMETHING that he feels the bones breaking each time and doesn’t show it but idk what. Forced to play into a role even as it causes agony? Macabre leaning? What’s goin on there

SO the first big thing about marquis's background is that i really don't think he grew up with any wealth or comfort at all—his cape persona is a performance that he's putting on to get as far as possible from his much more humble origins, imo. heathcliff stuff. obvious tension of identity there that fits with a changer power and also makes sense with his pain tolerance, which suggests he's had a lot of experience bearing through pain without any help, and the way he talks; he often sounds like he's picking his words deliberately and even trying to give off an air of sophistication, but he never actually uses any words that are especially fancy or obscure. ward messes with this a bit by making him act like an actual cartoon vampire sometimes, but i think i'm still pretty close to the mark.

at one point he mentions that his father was a doctor, but i don't think the man he's referring to there is his biological father—his wish for the brigade not to put amelia into the foster system makes me think he himself spent some time in the system and didn't enjoy it (pretty plausible, especially considering this would've been in the 70s and 80s) before he eventually ended up with the man he thinks of as his father, which is why he's hopeful that amelia will be alright if she's with a good family from the start.

if anything i think he probably grew up more like rachel than anyone else in the cast, but while rachel dealt with being treated badly by human society by forming connections with her dogs instead, marquis never totally gave up on the idea that he could prove himself to be worthy. his dedication to being a "noble" villain, to me, seems like it comes from an almost childish sense of fairness; he has to believe that if he makes himself respectable, people will recognize it and respect him, if he holds himself to a higher standard he won't just be treated as another criminal, if he chooses his words carefully enough he won't be misinterpreted, and if he trusts his daughter to the dallons they'll rise to the occasion and take care of her. it's something he notes makes it difficult for him to understand amy once they're reunited, because she lacks that same internal drive; she's already seen that no matter what she did, she was never really treated like she belonged in the dallon family, so she can't make herself care enough to try anymore. my guess is that it's different for marquis because he had a father figure he actually looked up to, who (in marquis's memories) was a self-made man who was respected on his own terms, and if his father did it right, he can, too.

in a literal sense, his power is the ability to contort himself into any shape that could possibly be wanted from him, but he has to keep breaking himself over and over again to do it—and he does! his shard doesn't even need to throw in anything to protect him from the pain, because he's already willing to do anything just to become someone who can be accepted like he wants. trying to describe the exact moment of his trigger would take more speculation (i could sketch out a timeline but i'd really just be making up the details), but i think those are the underlying issues that are already cooking in his head when it happens.

#ask #flattered to be called the professional on him! i just think he's neat

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amiharana · 1 year

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Okay, so I've read a couple of Revalink soulmate AU fics but I can never get through them because honestly I've never really liked the concept. And honestly, I feel like there's a decent chance Link would feel the same.

I mean, you've got a guy who didn't really get to choose almost anything about his life - he's a knight because his father was, he's Zelda's guard because he was selected by the King, he's the chosen hero because he's destined for it - and then he doesn't even get to choose who he falls in love with? And in most soulmate AUs probably has a literal physical mark on his body constantly reminding him of that fact? That's not romantic, that's existentially horrifying!

This idea might already be a thing but I've never really read fanfic before about a month ago when I got the Revalink brainrot so I don't know, but here's an idea I call the anti-soulmate AU.

Basically Revali doesn't have whatever soulmate-identifying mark exists in this story, and Link does, which is part of why Revali resents Link while Link is in some ways envious of Revali for the opposite reason. Somehow they end up actually talking to each other and grow close, and eventually Link basically decides "fuck it, I don't care that there's some destined perfect partner for me, I'm choosing to be with this guy." And even though they provably aren't soulmates and their relationship maybe isn't perfect, they still love each other and are happy together.

There can be some angst about Revali feeling insecure since there is someone out there who objectively would be a better partner for Link even though Link doesn't actually want to be with them, and about how this is basically depriving Link's soulmate of their perfect partner. Who that person is doesn't really matter, but making it Mipha would add even more to her whole "tragic one-sided pining" thing. Or it could just be some random person, like I said it's kinda unimportant.

Anyway the Calamity happens, and since Link kinda-sorta-dies whatever soulmate mark he has goes too and he's finally totally free from it. I have no idea if that's a thing that happens in these AUs, like I said I don't really read them much, but it kinda makes sense and fits this story so whatever. Maybe have Revali be revived after Ganon's defeated so there can be a happy ending.

Revalink as a concept is always just a little bit contrived. You have to mess with the timeline of the backstory if you want them to be a thing pre-calamity, you need to change how the Champion ghosts work to have them be a thing mid-game, or you need to have all the champions come back from the dead in order to have them be a thing post-canon, and you almost always need to mess with their personalities to have it be even slightly plausible. It's always kinda messy and doesn't totally make sense, and in this story that would basically be true in-universe and that's exactly why Link wants to be with him. He's pretty much the exact opposite of a perfect, destined partner who fits together with Link flawlessly.

Sorry for basically writing the entire synopsis of a fic that doesn't exist and probably isn't even that good of an idea, but as I mentioned I have the Revalink brainrot and I have no friends who I can send ideas like this to and I need to tell them to somebody.

so first of all, NEVER apologize to me for writing a whole fic synopsis in my askbox. my friend, are you familiar with my blog? all i do is write the longest fic rambles in the world here instead of writing full-fledged fic to upload to ao3 ☝️😭 so please do not even worry!!! i like ur fic idea a lot and it's good!!! and if you'd like, we can be friends and u can do what crow cryiling (affectionate) does and spam my inbox or messages w your ideas whenever you want 🤍 i luv to hear about revalink always

i honestly really love soulmate aus because i'm a hopeless romantic 😭🤍 SORRY but i do agree that to write a really good soulmate au for revalink, you can't just put any soulmate au template on them. like revali himself will actively break the fourth wall to fight against it because it just doesn't fit their dynamic; their whole relationship is built off of defying fate, re:your second-to-last paragraph. canon botw doesn't outline a clear path for revalink to ever be together in the way it might for zelda, mipha, or sidon even, so we'll always have to bend or break the rules of their universe for even a glimpse of future where they can be happy together 🥹 but it's the best part of their dynamic: they weren't supposed to be together, but goddamn it do they look good together.

i remember reading a fic where link and revali did have soulmate-identifying marks (i forgot what it was called but link's soul mark was revali's entire monologue in the revali's flap memory, and link hated him for it LMAO), but the idea that link would despise seeing the mark is so 🥺💔 i'm imagining maybe link was so excited to have one as a child, but after pulling the master sword and becoming a knight of hyrule, he now sees how he's doomed his soulmate to being tied to him and how he's responsible for their future or whatever. link has gotta develop some sort of altruistic complex about how he has to serve the people even at the cost of himself, i can't articulate it well right now, but i hope you get what i mean??? but that influences his resentment at the existence of the soulmark — not that he resents the person who is his actual soulmate, just the fact that he has one because he views himself as a burden on his soulmate as a result of his current position in life.

revali being born without a soul mark makes me so sad 😭 mixing this with my hc about him being orphaned, but revali getting bullied for not only not having parents but also not having a soulmate 💔💔 some of these rito kids are dickheads talking about "the goddesses wouldn't grant you even one person who would love you, haha!" and it definitely influences his workaholic tendencies training to become to most powerful warrior ever. he copes by saying he thinks soulmates are ridiculous and that there was no way there was another person in the world who could be perfect for you, that you should be given the ability to choose who you wanted to be with (but deep down, revali wants to know who the goddess would have chosen for him, if he did have a soulmate ㅠㅠ)

what do you think the conversation between link and revali would be like when they decide they want to be together, soulmates or not? what about the moment they fall for each other? who falls first? would it be mutual pining and trying to resist at first, because revali knows link has a soulmate who he deserves more than revali and link holding back because he knows what revali feels about the whole soulmate thing? or do they fall in love without holding back anyway, with link not caring for his soulmate at all like you mentioned? making mipha link's soulmate........ so tragic i feel bad for her fr if link resented her for being his soulmate kJDFKJD 😭 i lowkey wanna write these scenes tho idk HAHAHAH

the soul mark disappearing after link "dies" and is put in the shrine of resurrection is a really interesting idea though! like what's the mechanics behind that? i feel you'd have to go back and decide how the soulmate system works; is it a mysterious magic that no one can figure out? is it decided by some god of fate or love, hyrule's counterpart to aphrodite/eros? how did the magic decide that because link was "dead", he can't have a soulmate anymore/disconnected him from his soulmate? or what if link's soulmate died during the calamity before he was put in the shrine and soulmate-logic was like 'if your soulmate is dead, the mark disappears' so link's mark fades mid-battle and he doesn't realize it? and furthermore, link waking up in the shrine a century later and looks at his hand or some shit where the mark used to be and either (1) feeling a strange sense of melancholy at the empty spot on his skin or (2) looking at it but feeling nothing at all, and continuing with getting out of the shrine.

you could also explore how soulmate dynamics change throughout the hundred years he's gone. i'm sure plenty of people died during the calamity and lost their soulmates, so how does that alter the whole societal norms and culture surrounding soulmates? are people still born with soulmates after the calamity? do you think it becomes a taboo, that it's dangerous to meet your soulmate because what if you lose them? or do they see it as a mark of fortune, that love still prevails even in this near godless world after an era of tragedy? and then how does link interact with the world following his awakening, to find out that people have soulmates and look back at the empty, unmarred part of his skin and wonder, did he have one too? who were they? did he love them, and did they love him too?

AND ANOTHER THING, if mipha was his soulmate back then, does she still have her soul mark on her ghost?????? what if she did because well. it's her spirit and not her actual body, so when link meets her again post-waterblight, she's saddened by not only link's lack of memory of her but also the fact he's lost his soul mark. and also remembering that link would still probably resent her if he had his memory.

furthermore, there's two scenarios that instantly come to mind when i think about post-calamity revalink here. (1) revali seeing link post-windblight but link doesn't remember and revali having a similar reaction/feeling to mipha, but is having an internal conflict about whether or not he should be happy that link no longer has a soulmate he's bound to or sad that because of that, he'll never have another chance with link again because he's dead </3 or (2) champions are revived but link still doesn't remember his time with revali pre-calamity so revali is trying to give link an out and let him go to be given the chance to love someone else in his new life, but for whatever reason link is still drawn to him, moving to rito village and practically living in revali's shadow. it's another slow-burn of them falling in love all over again and maybe link gets his memories back?

if you ever plan on writing this, my friend....... feel free to send it to me because i'd Love to read it. like fr. there's so much potential for this one

#revalink #ask #exceedinglygayotter #anti-soulmate au #i'm still a shooter for a revalink soulmate au KJDHSKDF but it really does have to be well written for me to enjoy it #but the messing around with revalink is one of my favorite parts ab their dynamic i think #nothing is truly concrete about their characters in botw so there's a lot of creative liberty that can be taken #link can be whatever you want bc technically Us at the Players Are Link #and someone in my ao3 comments mentioned this but #because there's not a lot of revali's character to really draw from canonically there's not really an “OOC” version of revali?#like you can't prove that he's always a dickhead like that because he kinda has a one-dimensional personality in botw LOL #so as long as you stay near that facet and expand on it #you have free reign over both of their characters and the only limitation is the world you put them in #i'm just rambling now sorry i'm sleepy #but anyways i Do like this au and i would really love to see more of it <3 #sorry it was so late btw LMFAOKDJFH

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railingsofsorrow · 5 months

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𝙾𝙲𝚃. 25𝚝𝚑; 𝖑𝖔𝖛𝖊, 𝖎𝖗𝖎𝖘.

summary: iris's letter.

pairing: spencer reid x oc!iris valentia

w.c: 706

warnings/content: mentions of food poisoning, vomit and fainting; mentions of self medicating; mentions of Alzheimer's disease; angst (not much); fluff; “ODU” is the acronym for “Old Dominion University”.

A/N: LAST LETTER!! we are done with act 1, now we'll proceed with act 2. next chapters are going to be in narrative style.

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October 25th.

Dear, Spencer.

My whole department fell in sick yesterday — including my students, barely anyone was spared. Some kind of food poisoning? I don't know, people started throwing up, passing out and whatnot. We didn't know what to do!

(Yes, this is how I start my letter. I had to vent to someone how weird this is!)

I immediately called 911 and the cafeteria became swarmed with EMT's. My first supposition was that something was wrong with the cafeteria food. I never eat there because I either bring my own food or... I just don't remember eating until I'm off to go home. So, I tested it, the cafeteria food. But no. Nothing was wrong. I still find it weird that this happened out of nowhere, but my colleagues think it wasn't anything serious.

ODU was on the news today. Same thing happened. I can't shake this off, it can't be a coincidence, can it?

Sorry, I needed to ramble to somebody.

Ah, Spencer. It's too late for that, I already care enough to worry. What other resources are you trying? I hope you are not self-medicating yourself, it's not good. You're not doing that, right?

I have a friend that I could recommend you. She's a neurologist so she could be more helpful — you've probably been to a lot of those, but she's really good.

Her name is Clare Thompson, her office is in Washington, DC at Georgetown. If you want, I can make an appointment for you, we're close friends. If not, then just ignore this. I'm not trying to push you into anything, I'm just concerned.

What you said reminded me of the concept “Athazagoraphobia”. I researched about it to include it in my MD thesis about Alzheimer's disease. It means exactly what you said: fear of forgetting something or someone, or being forgotten.

I relate to you on that. But I'm more afraid of being forgotten. Sometimes I think that if I don't put my mark in the world, then how will people remember me? Do you feel like that too?

I absolutely know what you mean about the dolls... They're creepy. I had a few when I was a child, I don't know where they disappeared to though, I think my mother donated them. Either way, I'm happy not knowing their whereabouts.

I am happy that your friends are threatening you to to go out more.

Yes, maybe he is sick. It's an option I've considered. But he usually sends an email letting me know he will miss class. Fabian is not the kind of student that misses class without a plausible reason. He's very dedicated and one of my top students.

Of course you'd take is as a challenge, Doctor Reid. I could tell you were the competitive type from the moment you told me you were a rebel as a kid (no, I'll never forget that, you book thief).

Oh, did you really like the book? I'm so glad. Yes! I have like 5 recommendations to you but I'll spare you two: After Dark and Sputnik Sweetheart. Tell me what you think afterwards.

Something reminded me of you today. I was grabbing my coffee and I guess I picked up the wrong order. Do you know why I think that? Because it was the sweetest beverage I've ever had. I could've dropped dead right there if I had taken another sip. Disgusting, really. My blood vessels were almost clogged up. The person left in a hurry and left their coffee right beside mine on the balcony. Oh! And guess what: it was written “Reid” in their cup. I know it is a common name, but it reminded me of you.

Don't forget to drink water and eat, Spencer. As always, be careful. Looking forward to hear from you soon! <3

Love,

Iris.

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#sun-bleached paper petals fic #spencer reid x original female character #spencer reid x oc #spencer reid fanfiction #criminal minds fanfiction

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thelazyhermits · 7 months

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I admit that this question mainly came about because it's a trend in the TWST fandom for some reason and I am legitimately curious, but how do you think the TWST boys would react to a small child Fortune (blame someone spiking her lunch food with a potion or something)?

Ah, the timeless age regression trope. No matter the fandom, it's always a classic lol

Just like in the world of BNHA, it's easy to imagine this happening in the world of TWST cause magic exists and cause ADeuce/Grim are a recipe for disaster during Alchemy class, so this happening to Yuu at some point is totally plausible 😂

Anyway, in regards to your question, I feel like this turn of events would be mostly welcomed by the Twst boys since they're all pretty good with children to various degrees, which is rather surprising considering how they all normally are lol

Leona would be the main exception since he doesn't like dealing with kids, but despite this, he wouldn't be mean to Yuu since he was taught to be respectful toward women. Plus, this is his favorite little herbivore. He'll put on a show, acting like he's hating every minute of this, but he's gonna take good care of her for as long as she's with him. If she wants to cuddle up with him and play with his hair, that's exactly what he's gonna let her do, and don't even think of doing anything to upset her while in his presence or you will soon regret it haha

Putting the rest under the cut since this post got kinda long.

Ruggie is already overprotective of Yuu as it is, so now, he's even more so cause she's a small vulnerable child. He's the ultimate babysitter thanks to his years of taking care of the kids in his neighborhood, so you really can't find a better guy than him for the job despite his overprotectiveness.

Jack is also the perfect babysitter since he's attentive and has experience looking after his two younger siblings. Seeing Yuu looking so small brings out his protective instincts, so he does whatever he can to look out for her since he doesn't want anything to happen to her.

The Pop Music Club absolutely adore tiny Yuu and want her to hang out with them as much as possible. Cater wants to get as many photos and videos for Magicam as he can, and Kalim just wants to spoil her and buy her everything her little heart desires and take her on a magic carpet ride.

Meanwhile, Lilia is in dad mode. He cannot deny the allure of adopting another adorable child, so he is having a total field day. Anyone watching over Yuu better keep a close eye on her at all times, or this man will snatch her while you're not looking 😂

When Lilia succeeds in kidnapping Yuu and taking her back to their dorm, Malleus quickly takes a liking to tiny Yuu since she's still not afraid of him. He'll take good care of his favorite child of man, so he'll keep her safe from Lilia's cooking lol

Silver is very chill about this turn of events. While he's not quite approving of his father's kidnapping methods, he just goes along with it and does whatever he can to take care of Yuu. They probably end up becoming napping buddies cause I love that adorable mental image.

Sebek unsurprisingly gets jealous of all the attention Yuu is getting from Malleus/Lilia, but at the same time, he's happy to see Yuu getting treated so well since he knows she didn't have the best childhood. That's why he's very protective of her and noticeably softer when interacting with her.

Like the Pop Music Club, Floyd wants to play with Yuu since he always wants to play with her no matter her age lol Azul and Jade are two students who aren't exactly enthusiastic about this turn of events, but they're willing to do their part to look after her if necessary since they don't want anything to happen to her, and they won't charge Yuu for their services either cause she wins them over with her cute charms haha

Riddle is so awkward around Yuu since he's not used to dealing with children, but he does his best to be a good babysitter since he quickly becomes endeared to her since she's not intimidated by him/is friendly with him.

Trey naturally is a pro at looking after her, and he absolutely spoils her rotten. He'll deny it if anyone calls him out for his behavior, but it's the truth haha

Deuce is even more protective of Yuu than usual when she becomes a child. If anyone even looks at this kid wrong, he will go on the offensive lol Meanwhile, Ace tries to act like watching over her is a pain, but there's no denying that Yuu has them both wrapped around her little fingers.

Jamil is another student who's not particularly enthusiastic about this turn of events, but he's very good at looking after Yuu. He's especially gentle with her and definitely more protective of her when she's this young, but he will deny it with all his might lol

Out of the Pomefiore trio, I'd say Rook is the most excited about this turn of events since he seems like the type who loves kids, so he'd have a grand time playing with Yuu.

When Rook successfully steals Yuu away and takes her to their dorm, Vil just rolls along with it and gives her a spa day and reads one of his scripts to her when she wants to be read to.

Epel would also just roll along with this and play with Yuu/give her apples. He's probably the most calm about this, out of Yuu's sons, but like Deuce, if anyone looks at her wrong, you better watch out.

Ortho is super excited about tiny Yuu cause now he gets to be a big brother! He intends to be an awesome one, just like Idia, so he'll play all sorts of games with Yuu and give her pretty much anything she wants.

At first, Idia makes a fuss, like Leona, since taking care of a kid sounds like a pain, and he has so many other things he'd much rather do. However, Yuu eventually wins this big brother over too, so he's soon joining Ortho in spoiling her.

All in all, I'd say child Yuu is well-received by the TWST boys since they all care about Yuu to various degrees, so they'd make sure she's well taken care of until she's finally back to normal.

How things would go on Yuu's end all depends on how young she is when she's turned into a kid. If she's 3 or younger, she'd be a normal child: full of energy, sweet, loves animals, physically affectionate.

If she's 4 or older, however, Yuu would be completely withdrawn and wary of everyone. She'd rarely, if ever, smile, because she was 4 when she got brought into the underworld and ended up with Mumei/Tokumei.

A withdrawn Yuu would set off pretty much all of the guys' protective instincts/internal alarms since this is clearly a child who has been through a lot and suffered as a result. They'd all be extra gentle with her since they wouldn't wanna hurt/scare her, and a lot of them would make the effort to try to get her to smile/laugh.

So this prompt can either be pure fluff or an angst/fluff hybrid lol

#fortune in twisted wonderland

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shepherds-of-haven · 2 years

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So i convinced my friend who is probably as close to a real life blade as you can get to try your game and it was hilarious!

How would the Shepards feel about "gasp, another blade?"

Also haha other anon i get to bully blade irl :p

Okay, the funny thing is, there was another "Blade" in the original novels--like just this random minor character who looked a lot like Blade, happened to also be a Ket prodigy, and had a very similar personality type but was mildly warmer and more confident (though Blade was still superior to him in skill), and all of the characters noticed it and used it as a running joke and pretended to like him better to be irritating; and Blade silently HAAAAAATED him, like HATED him, he was the only character that Blade was openly hostile to and unprofessional with in the series (who wasn't an antagonist lol). Like he wasn't fond of Red, but he was just cold or aloof to him or a little sharp, but it wasn't really that noticeable considering how unsociable he could be with like 90% of the people he encountered on a daily basis; but with this guy, he'd openly snub him or make some snippy comment under his breath if they ever had to be in the same room. 😂 That was the original Daren (before I made game!Daren--who's a separate character who just happens to share the same name--like a suck-up teacher's pet lol), so this scenario has actually happened in the books! In the game, if another "Blade" lookalike showed up:

Blade: *stubbornly refuses to see or understand any resemblance* 😒 *mildly insulted by the comparison*

Trouble: "oh God, there are two of them? fucking yuck 🙄"

Tallys: *would use the opportunity to ask low-stakes Blade (who she doesn't care about) questions she would never dare ask the real Blade LMAO... like what is Ket dirty talk like*

Shery: *kind of intimidated by knock-off Blade, also feels sorry for real Blade because she wouldn't feel very nice being compared to someone similar to her, so she'll act a little protective and biased, like, I don't think he's anything like our Commander!! 😤 while Blade is in earshot, basically trying to support him in her own way and openly picking sides when it's not really a situation where you'd have to take them 😂*

Riel: *has already determined second Blade is inferior to the original and therefore beneath his notice, therefore completely ignores him and his existence*

Chase: "lmao so what, do they just pop you guys out of a factory somewhere? *to Blade, who loathes him* are the Ket allergic to originality or something, lmao??" *finds the scenario hilarious and won't cease ribbing Blade about it every chance he gets, just clowning on them both*

Red: *snickers when he realizes it* *then quickly pretends he doesn't see the resemblance and has no idea what anyone is talking about, so Blade doesn't have a reason to get even madder at him*

It's like his equivalent of innocuous whistling and looking away to have plausible deniability

Ayla: "uh-uh, no way. stay away from me. I can only take one of him, I don't have any patience or capacity to deal with a second one" *actively is repulsed by/rudely avoids the knock-off Blade* It's kind of a mix of genuine "I don't have time for that" but also a little bit of aloof (?) protective bias, like "I'm full-up on friends thanks, not looking for any more!! you're not Blade so get out of my face and stop wasting my time!!"

Briony: "omg! 😮 are you guys related?? no?? but... you're so alike..." *spends time with knock-off Blade because she's morbidly fascinated by the similarities... wonders if that means there are knock-off versions of all of them out there somewhere... probably ends up becoming his friend and annoying Blade with comments like 'he's actually really nice, Blade, I think you'd come to like him if you just gave him a chance, you have so much in common!'*

Lavinet: *mildly interested, mildly pitying (doesn't know what it's like to be imitable 💅🏼), maybe tries to give knock off Blade advice on how to differentiate himself and be more interesting LOL like the unasked-for "you might try brooding a little less, darling, the people around here are very used to that and would like something a little fresher"*

Halek: *genuinely does not see the resemblance* what, just because he has dark hair? do you think all Hunters are the same then? -_- *makes it a whole thing*

#Shepherds of Haven #Blade #Blade Bronwyn #hypothetical scenario #knock off #original novels #novels #novel #original novel #silly #for some reason Halek and Blade always have each other's backs even though they don't interact that much lol

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esper-game · 1 year

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Had another thought- I'm completely unaware of what the organizations deal exactly is, so this might be something that would never happen, but I'm curious-

What if squad™ had to go on a recon mission, and just to be safe, since MC is the newest, they had to have MC approach the target and flirt with them the entire night to lower their guard and get information.

How would the RO's react in crushing/relationship stage?

Ah, I apologise for that, hopefully with the rewrite everything will be a little clearer.

That being said, this is a fairly plausible scenario, considering that the team do focus on gathering information, particularly in an in-the-field way.

Crushing:

L: They're mostly concerned for MC, but they do believe in them. And, though they feel terrible for it, they're jealous. Why they would be jealous of some random target that MC is intentionally manipulating, they don't know. Especially since they're jealous over MC. It's not like MC is theirs, or ever will be. They need to refocus, push away these distracting emotions. They need to focus.

S: To be honest they'd be more worried about MC's safety than anything! They just really don't like the idea of MC being by themself. They wish they could go in with them and sit alongside them, even just be in the same room. They can't bear the thought of something happening to MC. There would be a small worry in the back of their mind about MC getting a little too invested, though they'd try to ignore it. Who are they to dictate what MC does?

I: They'll keep telling themself that they don't care. Because why would they? It's not like they feel anything but contempt or maybe begrudging acquaintance-ship for MC. So why is the fact that MC's objective is to get close to this person making them feel so strongly? In reality just the thought of MC flirting and being affectionate with some random person, someone who isn't them, makes their blood boil.

V: During this stage, they don't really mind how MC spends their time. If they'd like to casually flirt with strangers, so be it. And this isn't even real, it's for a mission. The fact that they feel vaguely reassured by that is something they don't really want to think about right now. They'd much rather cover it up by asking MC if the target compared to their charming self.

Relationship:

L: They don't exactly like it, but they accept that it's something they have to do. They trust MC, and believe in their capabilities. If anyone can get the job done, it's MC. The longer the mission went on, the more uncomfortable they'd get. But as soon as MC is back out, they'd relax. Though they'd certainly appreciate some simple shows of affection as reassurance.

S: They would be fretting over MC's safety. Pacing nervously, freaking out more and more the longer MC is in there. What if something happens? What if it goes sideways? What if MC gets hurt? And there's another thought, something they don't like feeling. They don't want MC doing this. Not just because it's risky. Because it involves them flirting with someone else. And while S isn't particularly possessive, this still rubs them the wrong way.

I: They're antsy, which is unusual for them. They keep picturing the target's stupid face, imagining MC smiling and laughing, flirtatiously smirking at them. And what if they get touchy - ugh. They hate this. Why'd it have to be MC doing this? Couldn't someone else do it? They don't even realise quite how worked up they've gotten till MC is back out. Then they finally feel better. Especially if MC gives them attention.

V: Trusts in MC's abilities so they aren't worried about that. They are certainly jealous, though good luck getting them to admit that. Especially right away. Never before have theyfelt this strongly about a relationship — about someone. It's weird. Usually it's a nice feeling, one that fills them up with joy. But right now it's eating away at them. They desperately want MC back right now. With them.

Thank you <3

#esper #esper ask #ro ask #ask #this was actually tough #in a good way!#bc it depends #on mcs attitude #and the risks involved #still #hope this was sufficient

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sirthisisa-wendys · 2 years

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Scrap Yard (Part 2): Shinichiro Sano x Fem!Reader

Part 1 here

wc: 1.2k

tw: fluff

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"Ow."

Your reflection in the mirror is haggard, worn-out, and somewhat disgusting. Tiny cuts make a larger rug burn pattern on your cheek, and the sight of your purpling eye is enough to make you want to hide away for a month.

Ice, bandaids, and burn cream are all resolutions to your problem, but nothing will be able to be hidden from Shin. Not when you're fresh from a fight.

The front door creaks open - lunchtime - and you inhale shakily. Speak of the devil. "Hey," Shin calls out, his voice carrying throughout the small apartment.

"Hey," you call back, trying to sound unaffected, uninjured. The cash in your pocket begins to feel warm. You're so fucking guilty, it sings.

"I brought your favorite food home," he announces, his voice nearing your location. "Couldn't remember if there was anything left in the fridge."

"T-thanks," you reply. "I'll get it in a sec." Except you won't. You know you'll be hiding out until Shin returns to work and only reemerge to snatch the food and run back into the room you've cordoned off as yours.

"I was thinking we could eat together."

"Uh," you cry out immediately. "I'm... I'm not feeling super great right now, so I'll have to... wait to eat." A pause. Shin shuffles to the edge of the bathroom door, no doubt racking his mind for an explanation.

"You okay, y/n?" he wonders, placing his hand on the doorknob. "Something happen?"

"I fell down the ravine when I went for a walk this morning,"" you lie easily. "Lost my footing and tumbled... like an idiot."

"Oh, shit," Shin murmurs, turning the knob. "I can help you patch up."

"I'm okay," you press. "Just need to wash my hands and... fix myself." Your heart speeds up as his hand leaves the door, a breath escaping your lungs as he seems to walk away. "Thanks, though."

"No problem."

But when you re-emerge from the bathroom fifteen minutes later, Shin is still sitting in the living room, watching TV and eating his white rice. You walk past him and into the kitchen, hiding your face as quickly as possible. Sure, the lie might have been sufficient when he didn't see your face, but the moment he witnessed your bruised eye, it would all be for nothing.

"In the fridge," he calls out, and you retrieve the chicken and rice from the cold. The air hits your face, and you exhale in relief, closing your eyes. "Could have gotten more sweet and sour sauce."

You jolt upright and close the fridge door, facing away from Shin as he wanders into the kitchen lazily. "But I think there's enough left for you."

"Thanks." You hurry around him and walk back toward your room, clutching the fork in one hand and the food in the other.

"Y/n?" You stop in your tracks. Shin walks behind you, his face no doubt screwed up in confusion. "You seem off. Are you really okay?"

"I'm fine," you lie again. "Just a little shaken from the fall."

"Do you want to talk about it? Is your arm injured?"

"No," you whisper. Shin steps around you, and you attempt to hide your face from him again, but there's no use.

"Holy shit," he breathes, bringing his fingers to your eye. "Y/n, your eye is purpling. What the hell happened?"

"I tripped and fell," you repeat.

"Into a wall? Sorry, but that doesn't seem plausible." He's not sorry.

"I'm fine," you insist. "I need some food and a nap." The questions drive you mad because you know you'll have to lie even more. "I don't want to talk about it, Shin."

"I should check your arm just in case--"

"My arm is fine."

"What about the wiring? Did you roll, or did you slide down the ravine?" A tear leaks out of your uninjured eye. You're so fucking guilty. "Listen, y/n," Shin breathes. "You need to be more careful, okay? I know you want to go and explore stuff, but falling and tripping could cause damage to your arm and the other parts of you that aren't android. I just want to take a cursory look, okay? I'll leave you alone after that."

"Just one look," you concede.

Shin's room is average, you think to yourself as you eat your food with one hand. Comforting. Almost like home.

"Gonna open you up," he mentions softly, taking his screwdriver and disconnecting the comms panel from the rest of your arm. "Paneling looks fine." Another tinker here and there, and Shin frowns. "Some wiring is fried. But that can be replaced. Let's check the history and see if you sustained any error messaging." Oh, fuck.

If Shin goes through the history, he'll see the elevated heart rate warning, the damage incurred messages, the fight or flight? mode activation. Hopefully, he won't see the long period the notes continued to pop up. If he saw any time-stamps...

"Damage incurred," he reads. "Typical. Fight or flight..." Your heart begins to speed up again. No, Shin is too smart not to know what happened. "Damage, damage, damage..." Shin stops. You hold your breath. "Y/n," he begins softly, slowly. He turns to you, holding your arm in both of his hands. "Three hours of the messages." You stare at him, swallowing hard. "Is the time clock damaged?"

"No," you mutter.

"Three hours." His words leave you empty. He's waiting for you to fill in the blanks. But when he stands and sets your arm aside, you flinch. "How much money did you get?" You set your bowl down and fish around in your pocket, ashamed. The stack of bills is produced, and Shin looks at them, then at you. His dark eyes fill with disappointment, and you press your lips together solemnly.

"It's seven hundred."

"Why... no, I know why you lied." Shin shakes his head, running his hands through his jet-black hair. "Why do you continue to go out there?"

"For money," you whisper.

"I've given you everything you've needed," Shin explains, pacing the room. "I've given you a place to sleep, food, entertainment... and you continue to put yourself in danger. I don't get it."

"Sometimes it's not enough," you answer softly. "And it's not you," you add. "It's all me. It's my fault."

"But I can't keep fixing you up and then letting you go back out there. What if you don't come back?"

"Then you'll be rid of me. And so will everyone else."

"I can't force you to do anything," Shin grumbles, tossing your arm back at you. "But I won't continue to fix you up if you keep doing this. I care about you too much."

Care. You look back down at your feet. Shin follows your gaze and squats low, holding your ankles in both of his calloused hands. "Y/n, I care about you. I do. You're worthy of care just like everyone else around here."

"I don't think I'm broken," you murmur, trying to refute his words.

"No, I'm sure you don't. But you throw caution to the wind because you don't care about yourself. And if there's one thing I'm good at, it's caring for people. Let me do the same to you."

"Not one of your little projects, am I?" you laugh wryly.

"No. We've both got things we need to work on. But you know what's good for you and what's not. Fighting? That isn't good for you at all."

"It's all I know," you whisper.

"Then it looks like it's time to teach you something new."

#shinichiro sano x reader #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers x reader #shinichiro sano

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adamsvanrhijn · 1 year

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something that would be very interesting and compelling to me is an examination of what oscar being ill or injured means for john—the man oscar loves and cares for the most, whose intimate relationship with oscar must be kept secret for both of their sakes

if oscar doesn't come home when john expects him, john can't do anything about it.

of course oscar is an adult whose talents i suspect include being late, so i doubt this alone constitutes an emergency... totally plausible that oscar got held up somewhere or his plans changed and he didn't think to or chose not to send a message, which let's suppose happens all the time and is not worth dwelling on. if they had plans john is going to be annoyed but i doubt that's a rare occurrence either so he is probably going to react to this by brooding about it and planning the passive aggressive comments he is going to make when oscar comes home later that day, or that evening

if oscar doesn't show up later that day, that probably isn't a major cause for concern either, and as we have seen, john can wait at home for oscar into the evening secure in the knowledge that he will come home, at which point john will ask him how his day was, and maybe tell him how it was totally fine actually that oscar didn't meet him for lunch or let him know he couldn't make it or whatever, and he has no reason to be frustrated at all and he had a nice time alone, actually.

if oscar doesn't come home by Then, maybe there is an event john forgot about or something! or maybe oscar forgot to tell john about an event (which i assume john would think is more likely). however nobody is holding a ball on easter sunday, so there's still a certain point of night by which Oscar Should Be Back, unless something is up. Something Up could be ultimately benign, like, oscar got a headache or drunk or something at someone's dinner and they put him up for the night. or it might not be.

if john Is concerned at this point, well, it's the middle of the night and to everyone except for john and oscar, john simply has no reason to be missing oscar at this hour.

and nobody who is With oscar would be thinking about john at all—john is a close friend of oscar's, and his mother and aunt know about this friendship, but it's not even like oscar speaks about john very frequently. agnes likes john enough she thought he'd be a great nephew-in-law, but that doesn't say anything about how close she thinks or knows oscar is with him. for all we know she wishes oscar were closer to him so she could have him around more (or did, prior to him rejecting marian).

if oscar is ill or injured, nobody is going to tell john—nobody is going to think that john should be told, or ask if he has been told yet, or say that someone should tell him, or worry about him. nobody is going to know that john is waiting for oscar to come home or that john must be worried because nobody knows that john and oscar live together.

for john to get any information about this without attracting suspicion, he needs to think carefully—he needs a reason to be concerned for oscar's whereabouts that isn't "oscar didn't come home last night". one missed social appointment isn't really enough of a big deal for john to go out of his way to ask after oscar at the bank or his mother's house, and according to everyone else, john doesn't see oscar every day, there is nothing recurring for him to miss more than once. if oscar isn't seen for three days john has no reason to know or care.

john also wouldn't be expected to, for example, have a key to oscar's apartment or even to know where anything in his apartment is, like, bachelors don't really entertain at home. likewise, if someone were sent to oscar's apartment, they wouldn't expect to find john or john's things there.

drives me insane, losing my marbles, etc. this isn't a problem unique to being gay in 1883 & if they touch on it even a little — or if i'm off base and actually more is known about john's relationship with oscar than i assume and we get More Lore — i Will lose my goddamn mind and go totally bonkers.

#the gilded age tag #oscar van rhijn tag #johnoscar tag #the gilded age spoilers #tga spoilers #the gilded age s2 spoilers #they also of course may not involve john at all........... but if they Do....... this would drive me nuts.

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shatlass · 10 months

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long unstructured uncle jack rant under the cut!! obvious warnings apply

tldr; i'm just really sick of him as a character and i don't see how they could make any of this feel worthwhile from a comedy or serious character development angle (especially what we saw in frank vs russia). it's unfunny, it's lazy, it's thoughtless, it's tactless

idk I'm just kind of sick of Uncle Jack and atp I don't have any faith in sunny as a whole to deal with him in a way that's thoughtful or respectful.

It was one thing when it was all coy “Is he really a paedo or is he just a bit weird?” but outright requesting suggestive images of children??? I’m sorry but what is funny about that? and besides how insensitive and genuinely unfunny he’s been all season, the ice cream truck?? it’s not even so overdone it circles back to funny, cos the whole thing feels so phoned-in. It's the kind of joke we all made in primary school without even the slightest subversion or switcheroo or anything new or interesting or clever. In the same episode, it’s implied that he roofied Charlie as a child. What the fuck.

I never found him particularly funny, but I get how it could be in the same way “the implication” can be funny. But, like the implication, you lose any and all potential for humour when you stop leaving any room for interpretation or plausible deniability. The joke can't be the guy's a paedophile. That's not a joke. And once you take away that plausible deniability, it makes the character unenjoyable. I feel the same way about Dennis and Dee in TUFTG, for example.

Best case scenario, the reason we're seeing him so much is to lead into Charlie confronting his trauma head-on (which he has already been doing ftr) and finding a way to sever ties completely. But even in that scenario, we shouldn't need to see that Jack has a whole operation going on, and have that played (unsuccessfully) for cheap laughs. It is possible for Charlie to deal with Jack in a way that's cathartic or shows development or closes an arc or whatever without spoonfeeding the audience this disgusting shit.

Also, I think we don't need to see Jack outside of Charlie. His character is only important in relation to Charlie. We only care about him in relation to Charlie. and we know what he's done to Charlie (at least it's heavily heavily implied) and its impact. What is the point of showing us MORE of that shit? It provides no additional context. Just feels super lazy and cheap. Literally its only purpose is "haha paedophile funny durrr".

I'm super concerned the whole storyline will end in “Charlie really didn't get abused -- he was telling us the truth the whole time!” as some godawful attempt at subversion since there's been no attempt to subvert expectations re Jack thus far. And how could anyone involved in the writing think jokes like this (executed in the way they are) are acceptable if they're not planning on going somewhere with them?? It feels like it's going somewhere. idk i hope this isn't what's happening but it's what i'm sensing

Also, as a lot of people have said already, there's a common thread between late-seasons Sunny's poor handling of sexual assault jokes and sexual assault/abuse in general :/ Obviously, this can't be placed on one person (especially since we know how involved RCG are in each step of the process), but I think it's interesting to note.

#i'm not explaining myself succinctly but i just don't have the energy to form anything more coherent rn #i'm just really over it. pretty disappointing and frustrating to see the same mistakes (irt addressing sa) repeated again and again #sunny #my post #tw sa mention #tw pedophila mention #tw paedophilia mention #hope those tags r alright and cover it -- please tell me if not so i can fix it

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essayofthoughts · 2 years

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What’s your opinion on the Percy and Lilith ship controversy thing? And the debated correspondence that is said to have been maintained afterwards?

Well. I don't think there's any kind of controversy really, some people ship it and some people don't, for a variety of reasons, and the correspondence they have I believe is canon, as Taliesin said that they write, and in canon, in character as Percy has commented there were letters between them or at least one sent specifically to Percy from Lillith.

Personally, I don't think anything happened between them for the simple reasons that 1. Percy was kind of in a state at the time and 2. the entire basis for the ship seems to be the jokes made by the cast and characters before Percy was discovered to be in a state in his workshop.

So... I honestly don't think he was in a place for it and also Percy doesn't seem like a very... casual guy? I can't really see him having a one-off hook-up. This may be due to a degree of projection: I tend to interpret Percy as being at the demi/grey ace end of the spectrum when it comes to sexuality. I think he needs a degree of emotional closeness and getting to know someone and trust before sexual attraction even becomes an option for him and this may not be a headcanon everyone agrees with. But we see in canon that he's largely unwilling to engage in sexual jokes and innuendo until after he and Vex are going at it on the regular (with the sole exception of when he's still a little loopy and the exact nature of Scanlan's book from Marquet is discovered). His main response to comments directed to him about sexual things is coughing and spluttering; I don't think he's the kind to approach sex casually and consequently I don't see him as likely to have hooked up with Lillith.

There's also that... you can care about a relative stranger and want to check in on them without having banged. Not everything comes back to sex. Fandom has a tendency to just go "Oh these two are close ergo sex" and it happens in some really strange places sometimes and I kind of think it sets those fans up to fail in a way - not in that they're failing as fans but that they will feel the media has failed them when it doesn't give them the ship they think it was headed towards. There's a trend of seeing any interaction as potentially the mark of a ship and when you're interpreting everything through that lens well- as they say, when all you have is a hammer...

So yeah, I think this tendency to make things romantic/sexual/shippable kind of means people sometimes leap to it regardless of plausibility and I don't think that's necessarily awful, it clearly makes people happy, but it does sometimes result in backlash and it does sometimes result in people strongly latching onto ideas with little canon basis. And... it really does show how people tend to value romantic/sexual bonds over platonic ones and well... Don’t Like That!

Anyway. In the case of Percy and Lillith I don't think? There's many hardcore shippers of it? I did once go looking for this ship out of curiosity and I only found a few, and it's turned up in a few Perc'ahlia fics I've read; it seems more to be taken as an "Oh, this is a fun idea!" but not really anything more than that.

All to say, I don't personally ship it, I think jumping to shipping things from jokes or minor moments in canon to be a bit hasty and cart-before-the-horse-y and now to move on to the other part of the question.

The correspondence is canon. Taliesin's confirmed that in and out of canon alike and... yeah I do think there's potential for Percy and Lillith to be friendly? Lillith's response to being attacked and seeing Percy burn a hole into the Broker's chest is to raise the dude as a zombie and send him off to her sisters; I think she recognises something's fucked up with Percy and wants to gently enquire as to What and if she can help in any way. If you've read any of the Cloven Bloodline's comics that Kit Buss, Lillith's player and the character artist for Campaign 1, has released regarding Lillith's backstory you get some further characterisation for her and at least to me that characterisation kind of gels with this interpretation that she may well have seen Percy after he wrecked his room, before he went down to his workshop - or even as he was doing so - and tried to check in before she headed off to go her own way. We know she left before VM realised; it's quite possible she encountered Percy, chatted with him, left a letter because Percy admitted he'd be in his workshop when the other rose and they went their separate ways.

So yeah, tl;dr: I don't think Percy and Lillith banged but I don't hate the idea of them being close and I quite like the idea of them being friendly, especially given Taliesin's confirmed they do still write. In a few of my fics they will be close friends and even have dabbled a little with each other, but in canon? I don't see it as terribly likely.

#lillith daturai #percy de rolo #cr meta #anonymous #asks #my meta #living up to my username

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jaimebluesq · 2 years

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I read that "Six Secrets" activity and tried it with NHS & JZXun for a fic I'm writing. It's amazing how quickly things get dark when it comes to secrets.

Just thought I'd share it - maybe it'll give some people ideas.

And if anyone would like me to try it with another character, please ask! I'd love to see what my brain comes up with.

List six secrets that your character has.

is an open secret

is a secret the people close to your character know

is a secret that your character wouldn't really care about getting out

is a secret exactly one person knows anything about

is a secret no one knows about but they sort of want to come out/to tell someone

is a secret no one knows and they desperately don't want anyone to know about.

Nie Huaisang

is an open secret -- That he's actively searching for a wife for NMJ so that he can have nephews/nieces who can be heirs instead of him.

is a secret the people close to your character know -- That he's skilled in astronomy, math, and talismans.

is a secret that your character wouldn't really care about getting out -- That he likes men, and is the one behind the distribution of porn back in Cloud Recesses.

is a secret exactly one person knows anything about -- That the night his father died, he'd made a painting that he wanted his Baba to see, and though his father told him to leave, he refused and kept at him , wanting his father to give him some attention. The qi deviation happened right after and NMJ coming was the only reason NHS wasn't accidentally killed by his father. NHS blames himself to this day, believing his bothering his father was one of the reasons for his qi deviation.

is a secret no one knows about but they sort of want to come out/to tell someone -- That he's NOT the one who created the list of eligible cultivators. Anyone who's met him thinks he did it, but he DIDN'T. He wishes he knew who did, but more than that, he wished people would stop thinking it's HIM. Especially since Da-ge's on the list!

is a secret no one knows and they desperately don't want anyone to know about. -- When he was 12, a senior disciple took an 'interest' in him – he didn't return it. That didn't stop the disciple, who kept pressuring him and cornering him in places alone Eventually he was cornered someplace he couldn't get out of and was gagged so he couldn't yell as he was touched against his will and forced to touch the disciple. Days later, the disciple told him to join him for a night hunt, thinking to get NHS alone outside the Unclean Realm. NHS went, bringing a handful of specific talismans with him. The disciple never came back, the victim of a yao attack. Nobody knows NHS lured it there with talismans and scrambled up a tree in time to avoid its teeth and claws. The other talismans were enough for him to defeat it from above.

Jin Zixun

is an open secret -- Is often JGS' mouthpiece – says what JGS really wants to say, but if you confront JGS about it, he'll deny it and say it's just his nephew being an ass (in other words gives JGS plausible deniability)

is a secret the people close to your character know -- Still has nightmares after the Sunshot – dreams of Wen killing disciples all around him.

is a secret that your character wouldn't really care about getting out -- That he thinks the Lan are a bunch of self-important scholars whose noses are stuffed so far in their books that they can't see the world for what it really is.

is a secret exactly one person knows anything about -- That he's bi – NHS knows and nobody else (living).

is a secret no one knows about but they sort of want to come out/to tell someone -- During the Sunshot campaign, while wandering the Unclean Realm in the middle of the night, he heard voices from NMJ's office. It was NMJ drinking wine with LXC, who was giggly and drunk as a skunk because he not only drank alcohol (!!!) but was a lightweight! This is the real reason why he pulled what he did at the Phoenix Hunt banquet – yeah he wanted to piss people off, etc, but he wanted the world to know the secret he'd found out that he didn't think anyone would believe if he told them.

is a secret no one knows and they desperately don't want anyone to know about. -- Before Sunshot began, he'd been sleeping with one of his junior disciples (male). He didn't know if he had feelings or if it was just sex, but in the end it didn't matter – the disciple was one of the first Jin to die once they joined the other sects in the war. -- Also, he hated that his uncle stayed out of the fight for so long. He thinks it's shameful, that the Jin are as much warriors as the other sects and staying back so long was as good as saying “we're too weak to fight with you against the Wen” - but he never spoke of it to anyone, kept it to himself because he's filial and a good Jin.

#nie huaisang #jin zixun #six secrets activity #actually it's kind of similar to an exercise we did #back in my social work classes #but we did it for ourselves not others

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justatinybunwriting · 2 years

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On the Edge 3

<<Precious chapter

Prompt used: "Have you been taking care of yourself?"

Chapter 3: Concerns

The clock ticked on in the dead of night, but Richard and Jac were wide awake as they laid opposite of each other on the giant's bed. They rarely blinked as they gazed deeply onto the other's eyes, as if that alone could offer clues into the adjacent person's thoughts. A couple of minutes rolled by in awkward silence until at last the tiny human made the first move.

"Why were you crying?" Jac asked with a hint of concern in her voice that was rare even for her.

Richard rubbed off the remaining tears as he answered.

"It's nothing. I just had a little crust in my eyes, that's all.."

"Seriously? That's what you're going with?" Jac replied flatly.

"Well... if I could explain it... in a way that was easy to understand, then I would."

"Try me."

Richard scratched the back of his neck as he tried to think of a plausible explanation, because at this point even he hadn't the faintest clue what could have sparked the cascade of tears just moments before.

Jac leaned back and gave out an annoyed sigh. She figured they weren't going to go anywhere with this so she decided to move on with the bigger topic.

"Well, I guess the more important question is what in the world were you doing on the floor?!"

"I..." Richard was embarrassed to admit that he didn't have an answer to this either. "I guess I must have passed out..."

"Well duh! You could have gotten seriously hurt from a fall like that! Or worse..."

"Well, nothing bad like that happened so... just relax! I'm perfectly fiiiine." Richard replied with a pitiful laugh.

Jac caught the hint of a yell before it was released, and sighed harshly through her nose instead. "Did..." She counted up to four under her breath before speaking aloud again, "Did this happen before?"

"No." Richard replied. The look on Jac's face was clearly that of skepticism, which caused the Wile to add onto that statement. "I don't remember how I wounded up there, or what even happened prior. All of that's a bit hazy... but I swear that this was the only time!"

Jac could not help but sigh once more. Her irritation dissolved into that of the concern she had earlier, though hints of the former emotion was still on the edge of her voice.

"Have you been taking care of yourself?"

Richard's hesitancy was clear as rain. "I'm doing the best I can... it's nothing serious..."

"It is! It very much is!" Jac exclaimed. "I mean, look at you! You haven't even changed out of your uniform! You're exhausted as hell! Just look at those crows feet!"

"You mean these raccoon like markings?" Richard asked as he rubbed a finger against the darkened patches under his eyes. "It's just something I normally get when I'm... well, tired. You probably notice it more easily since you're so close to my massive face."

"Oh haha! You're just proving it at this point! Please, for the love of whatever! Use the vacation days you've been saving up since you were hired! You deserve all the rest you can get at this point!"

"If it were only that easy..." Richard mumbled. "Work is really short staffed at the moment and they need me to keep the division I'm in up and running. I can't let everyone else down, not if they're counting on me."

As much as the human hated to admit it, Richard had a valid point there. Jac was still salty about the Wile giant working 13 hour shifts for six days straight, if clues from previous talks were anything to go by. But he was standing firm and there was nothing she could really do to make him budge even in a rhetorical sense.

Richard meanwhile had lowered his eyelids at the smaller woman, with a small grin slowly beginning to form. "So, I take it that I should be asking you the very same question! What were you doing sleeping on top of me?"

"Well! I couldn't just leave you there!" Jac replied with slight embarrassment. "And um... I was too tired to get up."

"Ohhhh I see! Looks like someone could use a bit of R and R herself!" Richard remarked with a teasing edge to his voice. "Let me guess- am I comfortable and dare I say, warm?"

"Shut up!" Jac would have thrown a pillow to his face if said bedding wasn't the length of a truck.

Richard chuckled lightly as he leaned forward to loom over the woman, which had cast a shadow over her much smaller form. His smile was ever widening- that was never a good sign.

"Aww, it's okay! You don't have to be ashamed to admit it! I do make for a really nice bed, both outside and--"

"Richard, please!" Jac snapped as she held her knuckles to the sides of her forehead. The intense headache from earlier that day was starting to trickle it's way in again. "I'm really not in the mood for this right now..."

Richard's spit eating grin quietly softened into his usual expressionless face as he leaned back to his side of the bed. He could easily sense that something was up, and he had a hunch that the irritation that she displayed since she had awoken wasn't directed towards him.

"Has something been eating you lately?"

"SHUT--"

"Uhhh! I'm sorry, I didn't... mean to say it like that. I... wasn't thinking."

Jac let out a breath midway to Richard's reply. "It's okay..." She replied "I shouldn't have shouted like that. It's just..."

Jac folded her arms and closed her eyes for a few moments without continuing any further. This time it was Richard who broke the silence.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked calmly."

"...No."

"Are you sure?"

Jac once again grew silent before she finally answered. "Not tonight. All I really want is to do right now is sleep, and plan out what I should do on my off day tomorrow."

Richard nodded with a sense of understanding. As much as it was painful to see his best friend on edge about something he had no idea about, he respected her wishes at this time.

"I guess we could both use a break." He said.

The Wile giant glanced at the clock and realized just how late it was. He tapped a finger gently at Jac's right shoulder, and looked at her with a more gentle smile.

"I'll get home earlier tomorrow". He whispered. "If you want, we could maybe take a little stroll by the pond or eat out at that chicken and waffle place you've always wanted to--"

"Can we have some of those steakhouse potatoes? I've been dying to try one of those!"

There's that familiar sparkle in her eyes. Richard couldn't help but light up when he saw just how excited she was.

"Well, can't say I'm that desperate in having them but it's something I've been thinking about a while too. So if that sounds good to you, then--"

"What do ya mean? It's a no brainer!" Jac said as she jumped for joy. "I can hardly wait!"

Just seconds later, Jac sat down on the giant's pillow and gave out a soft yawn. "For now... I think it's about time we got some shuteye. Sleepover sounds good?"

"Sounds like a plan I can get behind!" Richard said. "And of course. Wouldn't have it in my conscience to let you out in giant territory in this time of night."

"Yeah..." Jac uttered. Jac looked down at the plush mattress, as if she was reflecting on something, though she quickly shrugged off the thought. Can't let the big guy notice it after all."

"Looking forward to tomorrow."

"Same here."

They both said their good nights before Richard got up to get changed. When he returned he was pleased to find Jac was already fast asleep on her given pillow.

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#bun writes #oc: jac #oc: richard #sfw giant #jac in the beanstalk society #prompt month

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septembersghost · 1 year

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Jess sorry I didn’t get back right away life is silly sometimes and I really felt what you said about people not seeing it as a real loss i spent months breaking down the only people who really got it where those very close to me who knew she was my light. I still can’t believe it’s going to be a year soon it’s like time has moved so fast but hasn’t moved at all.

As of right now we are fine I even get to make thanksgiving dinner which I haven’t done since 2018 but after next week we don’t know the person we are staying with was just temporary and now we have to decide if we wanna try going back to California where no one can/wants to help or stay in North Carolina and see the help they can provide. So yea i’m not sure what next week holds. I know i developed ptsd from it the compound truama has really messed me up. A funny thing of note happened after I got out when folklore came out and I heard This Is Me Trying it was just a godsend of a song, as I was going back to a bad place and it kept me going, I then spent my next therapy session breaking done the song and giving her a full on lecture on the song.

You saying all that truly means so much and it’s like fate that I come back now and reconnected with you it’s nice to know that even apart we are still in this same boat with our life jackets on holding each other up ✨💜

please don't apologize, i'm atrocious at answering or replying to things in a timely matter ever (if at all sometimes 😭), i always understand that.

it as a real loss i spent months breaking down the only people who really got it where those very close to me who knew she was my light. i feel this completely. my mom was the only person in my life who understood and it's because she was experiencing the same grief. i had multiple family members dismiss it and it made that wound even worse. we should share with each other how real and affecting that sorrow is, and why they are so irreplaceable and important to us. there's a quote of mary oliver's, and i think it applies to any of our precious furbabies: "it is exceedingly short, [their] galloping life. [they] die so soon. I have my stories of that grief, no doubt many of you do also. It is almost a failure of will, a failure of love, to let them grow old—or so it feels. We would do anything to keep them with us, and to keep them young. The one gift we cannot give." they should be allowed to live as long as we do. the love lasts even longer.

it’s like time has moved so fast but hasn’t moved at all. i feel this beyond words too, time is has become such an unreal thing to me, frozen and flying and frightening all at once, because it never feels like it's moving until it's suddenly gone.

i'm happy you'll get to have thanksgiving dinner, and the enjoyment of making it, but i'm so, so sorry you have that fear looming over you again. :( i wish i could do something for you! the uncertainty is agonizing, i will be praying and hoping you and your mom find some help and a safe place. have you contacted local housing resources/counselors? (they were useless to us, unfortunately, the system is beyond broken, so...i get why that might not be a plausible or fast enough option.)

I know i developed ptsd from it the compound truama has really messed me up. this is totally understandable and not at all a failing on your part. i'm hugging you as close as i can from afar.

this is me trying is EVERYTHING, "a godsend of a song" is 100% true. god. that song and mirrorball carried me in 2020. timt was constantly on my mind when i returned here ("i didn't know if you'd care if i came back, i have a lot of regrets about that"). her empathy and skill with expressing emotion and putting humanity into words...it's miraculous to me. that song can fit many different experiences for us as listeners, and each one is true. "they told me all of my cages were mental" resonates deeply for me in regards to my chronic illness (as does the whole song), and the idea of the act of trying itself being the bravest thing. "pulled the car off the road to the lookout, could've followed my fears all the way down" and then making the decision not to fall. i think about what jack said in folklore lpss all the time: "the idea that not driving off the cliff is an act of trying. which is almost the ultimate act of trying." and what taylor said, "i've been thinking about people who [are suffering] or they have an everyday struggle. no one pats them on their back every day, but every day they are actively fighting something. but there are so many days that nobody gives them credit for that, so how often must somebody who's in that sort of internal struggle must want to say to everyone in the room, 'you have no idea how close i am to going back to a dark place, you have no idea.' i had this idea that the first verse would be about someone who has driven to this overlook, this cliff, and it's just in the car, going, 'i could do whatever i want in this moment, and it could affect everything forever.' but that person backs up and drives home." it's just. it's so important. what she created is so unbelievably important. she gave so many of us reasons to back up and drive home. folklore is an untouchable gift, i can't EVER talk about it enough. there's a reason why it became the heart and the emblem of that year, and why it will continue to live and breathe in the world, in us.

it's beautiful that you're here and means so much to me too, thank you for being in the boat with me, making sure we have our life jackets and some stars above us, no matter how vast and tumultuous the waves of the sea might be. at least we're trying. 💙💙💙

#and maybe i don't quite know what to say but i'm here in your doorway. i just wanted you to know...#goldhairwithagentlecurl #letterbox #bubble wrap around my heart

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perpetual-fool · 1 month

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Feeling worse. I've concluded, probably what made me feel good about this game was one character in particular. Little character moments hit me pretty hard. Like, there's this (sort of) secret area you can find, where you're close enough to the surface to see the sky. And she shares a related thought about it. Approximately, "I don't know why so many people are desperate to leave [the dungeon], it doesn't seem much better out there. And the light's so bright it hurts my eyes." Straightforward, understandable, relatable. Makes me feel a little better, but also reminds me of my loneliness. And she's very cute, which I'm sure factors in to some extent.

Though it's still a matter of, seemingly, not pretending to be something else. I was thinking it through, and making things understandable would be so incredibly straightforward. It really is just a matter of explaining things. And 'relatable' is just a matter of explaining why they feel a certain way. Say for a game, suppose a character gives you a quest to retrieve their spoon. Then when you bring it back they tell you, "Ah, my beloved spoon! It may just be a simple spoon, but I've carried it with me through all of my adventures. Brings back lots of memories." And maybe you could build on that, have them tell you a story about slaying a dragon or something and they tell you about the dragon stew they ate afterwards. And in real life with a real person, they'd just need to explain themselves. And that's the issue. I've still been thinking of my people problem in good faith, like others have given me the information I need and I've just failed to decode it. But it's too simple. They haven't, and they know they haven't.

My feelings are catching up to what I already knew, I guess. I don't know if it's fair to say it's a world of monsters, maybe people just don't care. Maybe virtually no one else has a need to connect, so there's just nothing in it for them to be honest. But I was considering, I think the only thing that could be so horrible about people explaining themselves is that they'd be giving up plausible deniability. Say, false distinctions. If someone admits the specific, concrete thing a person actually did which they didn't like, they would no longer be able to pretend [thing](when I like it) and [thing](when I don't like it) are different things. I don't know why it would be so very important that I'm not allowed to know something like, hypothetically, why someone prefers scrambled eggs to fried. But yeah, maybe they just have no reason to ever give me anything. Assuming there's anything there to give. And yeah, maybe there isn't. I've been over that. I don't really know that others actually are people. Demi seems more real than the vast majority of people I've met. Though, I guess it's just Cat at this point. And only because she was willing to actually communicate last time we talked. She might still flip the moment we get into anything significant.

Where am I supposed to go with that? I guess that's the wrong question. Where can I go? Either find a way to connect. Which, really is due to others working directly against me. So that's actually: find someone actually willing to connect. And if it doesn't work out with Cat then I have no reason to think any such person exists. Or, accept that connection will not happen? Which I think is: be convinced that others are simply lying. That shouldn't be too hard at this point, theoretically. And hey, as with that character feeling more real than most humans, maybe I could meet my emotional needs with stories. Maybe this will just turn into a normal need like any other, and I'll just need to occasionally make up a story about spoon-man or something the same way I occasionally need to eat. I should try that anyway. Cat really doesn't have much time for me even if things did work out.

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