you have been on tour for a month, you come back and find that you had a kid, who’s now an omelet, you go to check out the abandoned adoption place but instead you find a child who looks eggsactly like you stuck in the attic, the child has been eating dirt for a week, you are afraid to commit to being the child’s father bc you know you’ll have to leave soon, but you get attached nonetheless, you find that now you have a daughter, your old “friend” comes by, grief stricken by the death of his child and you two have an extremely homoerotic chat, you promise to help him get revenge on whomst ever was responsible for the death of the kid, and then a few minutes later you talk about how the murderer of said kid is one of your best friends and that you would die for him, you then steal a bed for your daughter that said murderer had sex with his wife on, but wash it bc you ain’t a bitch, your daughter asks you to play her a song and you do, it’s fucking adorable, she plays a song for you too then you talk about the fact that “holy shit you’re a single father” and leave the server promising to stream tomorrow even though your streaming schedule is shit at best, but you have gotten emotionally attached to a Minecraft egg so fuck it

You are Wilbur Soot.

me? leaving fandoms? no no no you misunderstand me, i have never left a single fandom i’ve ever been in, i just find other fandoms to entertain myself with until i eventually go back to other fandoms i was in years ago

(Keeps getting put into situations while overstimulated)

Inspired by this meme

Sol and Ky illustration published in Monthly Arcadia Magazine, Feb 2001. The US release of Guilty Gear X2 on the PlayStation 2 also used an edited version for its packaging. Upscaled from a 1273x1910px 72DPI file.

that one pajama tweet but it’s fanto and billie 🥺

Thinking about how Levi would be such a good boyfriend while you’re on your period 😭

You would try your best not to sulk too much or act like a baby around him, you didn’t want to be too needy, didn’t want him to see you like that (you sometimes wished you were as independent and strong as he was all the time).. But he always knew when you got your period, sometimes even before you told him. The way you would start tossing and turning at night due to cramps or rubbing your sore lower back during the day. Being a little quieter than usual, a little more distant. Being a brat and suddenly catching an attitude or getting your feelings hurt for no reason 😭

“Hey.. what’s wrong?”

“Nothing, Levi, it’s fine.” You looked away, not wanting to be rude to him just because you were feeling unwell but not wanting to ask for anything either.

Then it would click. He wouldn’t say anything, he would just walk away for a few minutes and come back with the perfect remedy for whatever you were going through. Whether it was a heating pad, pain meds, a warm cup of tea with your favorite book, your favorite comfort meal or treat, your pet to cuddle with. It’s like no matter what you needed in that moment, he would bring it. He would hand it to you or set it beside you without a word, walking away and letting you indulge in it on your own for a couple of minutes. Let the heating pad warm you up or your favorite treat cheer you up a bit. Then, in a few minutes he would come back, bend down to place a kiss on your brow and gently brush his fingers through your hair. Maybe rubbing light circles down your lower back if you were laying down.

“Feeling better?”

“…… yeah….. thank you”, you say sheepishly, looking away from him. Embarrassed that you just wanted him to take care of you deep down but didn’t wanna ask.

“Can I sit with you? Or you need some alone time?”

You patted the spot next to you gently and smiled up at him. He would sit close to you, wrapping his arms around you and kissing the top of your head. You would always lean into his touch and fit perfectly in his arms, loving how his strong arms felt wrapping around you. You always felt so safe and warm with him. Then, the next few days wouldn’t be so bad. No matter how bad your symptoms were, he was there to make it better. He would be even more caring and considerate than usual. Running you a steamy shower every night with your favorite candle lit and washing your hair for you if you didn’t feel up for it. Giving you gentle massages and extra kisses and cuddles without you having to ask. He was always more affectionate when you were on your period because he knew the level of comfort it brought you, and nothing made him happier than seeing the little blush and smile that swept across your pretty face every time he gave you this extra attention. He would do it a million times over if he had to, he would do anything for you.

((After the first 3 months of you being together he started taking note of the exact dates so he wouldn’t catch your bratty attitude without being prepared 😭 poor Levi lmfao))

in honour of the new life series and also the Incredible binge i just did of cleo's last life series-- here's a really old piece i did back when last life ended. cleo and her rivers....

saw this post from wrio's VA and thought of wrio saying it about sigewinne so

(original post under cut)

it's really funny that in all this gods debate, both in-universe and in the fandom, the Betrayer Gods are never accounted for except when it's occasionally convenient, again both in-universe and in the fandom, to list harms the Betrayer Gods specifically did or instigated, then ascribe it to broadly "the gods" (even when often the Prime Deities were involved in mitigating, opposing, or ending these things)

but for the most part, much of the discussion in both places centers on the Prime Deities, even when its "the gods" bc usually framed with "the powers in Vasselheim" of which the Betrayer Gods are not part. a lot of reasons for removing the gods from the world that discuss Vasselheim and temple hierarchies are about mortal systems related to the Prime Deities, and often I have a sense that people (in and out of universe) forget that there's a whole other half of the pantheon. if this is about killing the gods, then it is also about Lolth and Gruumsh and Asmodeus as much as it is Pelor—but it always feels that very few among even those in FAVOR of killing the gods think about the Betrayers at all.

but, the point I'm doing a poor job of unpacking here is that in conversations about the hierarchies of the world, worship of the Betrayer Gods is generally disallowed throughout the world—but a god-eater will eat those gods just the same. it's an interesting wrinkle in the entire construction of the arguments in-universe and out that generally goes completely unaddressed. if this is about freeing Exandria from the shackles of the gods, which much of the time is directly indicated to be referring to the influence of the Prime Deities as the mainline religion in the world, then one would suppose we need to unpack if the Betrayer Gods should be on the menu too.

it's just really interesting few seem to factor in that a lot of discussion about systems and presence does not meaningfully address Betrayer Gods. there just doesn't seem to be a place for them in this conversation anywhere, which is especially interesting when Calamity covered the resentments between the Prime Deities and the Betrayers and when Vespin was pitching "how about we kill the Betrayer Gods specifically, maybe replace them with nicer gods or disperse their domains out?" which is interesting against all this.

home // adrien agreste + taylor swift lyrics pt. 2

- dear reader, dear john, seven, marjorie, my tears ricochet

🙏 gmm prayer circle for all manifesting purposes for part 2 event 🙏

Joel feeling like a failure and feeling the need to apologize to Ellie, even over things he can’t control, is, I think, very much an anxiety thing. And also comes down to who you are at your core. Even him telling Tommy, “I have to leave her,” because he doubts his capabilities in being able to protect her in the long run and believes she’ll be better off without him

Joel loves hard. He loves really hard when he does. He loved Tess, despite his inability to show it to her the extent I think we all believe it was. He loves Tommy, we know that. He was willing to drive cross country just to make sure he was okay after three weeks of radio silence. Maybe not loved, but he sure started to care about Henry and Sam and was willing to let them join he and Ellie on their journey to Jackson. And he loves, loves Ellie. More than he’s even comfortable with. (Un)willing to leave her, shove her away from him, even if it means she’ll be safe, as much as he wants to keep her right next to him, held against his side

But what comes with loving someone, what comes with having a heart like this, and what comes with this fear of the well-being and safety of those around you, is a striking belief in your inability to do for them what you believe you should do. It is blaming yourself for things out of your control when they come up in the others life. It’s believing you’re responsible for…nearly everything about them. It is caring way too much about them that you want to take that pain upon yourself to relieve that person of it. And it, in turn, makes you believe you’re not good enough when you can’t. Incapable. Unworthy. Along with the general mix of…not feeling adequate or good enough in general. You want to help this person in every way, but your belief in your inadequacy creates such a debilitating sense of understanding of what you really want and who you are

But, I say it’s an anxiety thing because of believing that person will blame you for something that’s out of your control. That because you couldn’t stop something that, frankly, is completely out of your control and responsibility and could’ve never stopped in a million years, you find a way to blame yourself and, in turn, think this person will also blame you for not being able to stop it. Because you care too much and are too freaked over protecting them that your understanding of how they feel gets completely warped. That you think they’ll lash out and cut you off. That they’ll be angry with you for what you couldn’t stop. And, out of the fear of believing that could happen, you take it upon yourself to apologize. To try and take it and place the blame upon yourself. To try and keep that person from becoming angry with you

And we know Joel (I think??) took anti anxiety meds even Before. That he was forced to cut it immediately, worsening it tremendously. And with how hard he loves, especially Ellie? That’s a nightmare for mental health. His fear over her life and well-being. His belief in his inability to protect her due to how afraid he is. How he’s failed at protecting her innocence, something that is inevitably out of his control because of the world they live in. How he probably blames himself for Ellie watching Henry off himself. Something, again, he could not control because Henry threatened his life. And nearly Ellie’s. And he tells Tommy he has to leave her because he believes he’s incapable and unworthy of protecting her. Maybe it is his age and hearing. More than that, I think it’s a mix of this anxiety and his golden love for her that makes him think it’s the right thing to do

People like this, like me, need a lot of convincing. Convincing and reaffirming that not everything is on us. That we can be taken care of. That we can take breaks and don’t have to hold the weight of the world on our shoulders, and I think that’s exactly what Winter does for Joel and Ellie. For Joel to, in my opinion, view himself in this light and to shove her away and for her to come running back, holding his hand and telling him, wordlessly, that she is there to take care of him. She’s there to convince him, “it’s you and me. Rest, let me take care of you.” To reaffirm and comfort him through it. Sure, he’s forced to rest bc he’s basically comatose, but it applies to at least the beginning. That his probably last real moment of consciousness before he wakes in episode 8 was her coming back to take care of him. To show him that it’s not just him

good morning babygirl I am so proud of you ❤️💕❤️

oc-tober 2023! 26 (alt)- written (esterin)

Golodir says I wouldn’t leave you alone if I thought you were in such danger and Corunir says come south with me? and Nona says we still have promises to keep. You say let me teach you this and try to give them something to protect them even when you can’t. They take your hand and pull you close and won’t let you go alone.

Your craft is built on things graven with care into stone. Observe the world and then describe it, Talagan said, and he had meant storms, then, but-

Who says friend isn’t a word of power?

rotating phil connors and gale dekarios in my mind. sometimes you want to kill yourself so bad (stuck in a time loop) (been convinced you're only worth anything when you're dead) but you can't (stuck in a time loop) (your death would kill countless others) so you're forced to stay alive on a technicality. having absolutely everything that you remotely cared about robbed from you and now you aren't even granted suicide. and then as you're walking through your living death & desperately trying to close the gap between Now and when you can finally die (escape the time loop) (sacrifice yourself) some motherfucker (rita) (me) worms their way through the gap and you realise exactly how much you want to live. just in time. all i'm saying is put gale in a time loop he'd love it

So tired of insomnia 😩 (pun intended…)