socialstuck twitter and tumblr designs are good, but i have decided to do my own. BEHOLD! MY CHILDREN!!

reblogs are verrry appreciated!

still can't believe this happened in the same episode btw

no but actually. the parallels to other Twins in different nations of teyvat in relation to the traveler and their desire to reunite with their own sibling makes me a little bit bonkers. like.

diluc and kaeya as what the traveler has and fears, after we will be reunited [separation born from conflict that seemingly cannot be mended; they both care for each other but ultimately their opposing ideals mean they cannot be at each other's side in the same way that they used to, and no longer have the close bond they once did]

ei and makoto as what the abyss sibling experienced [a crushing loss not just of one's twin but the last remaining friend they had and the safety and security of their nation, coming out the other side traumatized, cold and jaded and making decisions that will ultimately hurt the people they claim to want to protect for the sake of an unattainable goal]

and lyney and lynette as what the traveler and the abyss twin used to have before they were separated [never apart for long, home is wherever we are together], what the traveler wants [their separation brief and quickly amended, continuing to be inseparable after they reunite], and also the choice they'll have to make [the twins being together in an organization the traveler inherently doesn't trust - does the traveler want to be by their sibling's side badly enough to throw their lot in with the abyss, and turn their back on everyone else they've met on their journey so far?]

It is incredibly isolating to navigate through fandom as an aromantic person. Aro experiences are so varied, and there is no definite aro experience that encapsulates the alienation that fandom spaces cause for certain people.

Fandom is mostly built and structured on shipping. And if not, the blorbofication of characters, which tends to go down the shipping pipeline; where does that leave the romance repulsed aro person who genuinely does not want to see any form of shipping? Platonic dynamics, right?

Yeah, sure. But by platonic dynamics, it's only "best friends" or "family" right? Where does that leave the aro folks with undefined labels? No, qprs aren't a get-out-of-jail card.

And qprs- they have no rules or standards set upon them by society, not even having a clear definition for what it is, because not all qprs are the same. Yet, for some reason, it ended up becoming the "nonbinary" option to a lot of people- not romantic or "regular" platonic? Qpr it is, right?

But where does that leave the aro folk who don't want a qpr? Who don't wish to see characters depicted in pairs or trios or so forth- who embrace the lack of a partner?

And these concepts presented; when aro folk talk about them, do you care? And if you do, do you understand? Do you try to?

If you aren't aro, but wish to be supportive, are you a genuine ally? Do you raise the concerns of aro folk you share the space with?

Or do you take a look at these concepts- and decide you understand them "well" enough? Do you decide to speak for aro folks instead?

Do you depict relationships outside of romance because you believe in the importance of platonic relationships? Will you accept the fact that not all platonic interactions will be familial or "best friends"?

Can you accept depictions of qprs outside of "more than friends, less than lovers"? Are you willing to accept it is not just "best friends" or "romance lite"? Will you accept that nothing is inherently romantic- and characters in a qpr may fall under your standards of lovers?

Can you resist the urge to put every character in a pair or trio or group? Are you comfortable with the notion of characters finding more joy in being by themselves, outside of all those lenses you see them in?

It's good if you can.

And if you can't, at the very least, do you understand why some aro folk in your space are upset? Embittered by your favorite ships? Starving for representation?

Did you depict these characters with these concepts with the knowledge that aromanticism is fluid?

SPERG YOUR HEART OUT

Bit of an introspection but I started studying when I was younger than most of my peers and thus most of my friend group is in their twenties and thirties and I'm not even twenty yet, and I kind of developed an insecurity over my age. We had a bit of a conversation about it today and the general consensus in the group was that I shouldn't feel insecure about my age because I'm on their skill level at an age where they didn't even think about stuff like that, but idk. The thing that bugs me is that I just kind of feel like the knowledge about my age just kind of weighs that down. Like my level of emotional maturity and/or my skills is kind of overshadowed by the fact that I'm younger than most people I surround myself with, and it's kind of like me as a person becomes an afterthought in the face of "but holy shit she's ten years younger than me". Maybe it's because I got rejected because of my age a while ago and the idea still kind of lingers that I'm never going to be at the level of emotional maturity that my peers have reached, because I always feel like they're a step ahead of me. And I'm mature for my age, but that's exactly the point. Mature for my age. Which means I struggle to make conversation with people around like 18-19 (I'm aware this sounds like a complete I'm not like other girls take, I'm so sorry) but I'm still not like a 27-year-old in some abstract way I can't comprehend yet. I'll probably understand it better when I'm older, but for now it feels like. I introduce myself. I become a person in someone's eyes. They hear my age. I am instantly a different person than I was five seconds ago. That's probably a very insecure view I have of my interactions with other people but yeah that's kind of what is going on.

Mad and angry at how these two joke side characters try so hard to be heteronormative but they really aren't and that's where most of their misery comes from. not all of it but most of it, like it very much keeps them in the cycle, because they seem desperate to find a happy storybook ending and this is how they think they'll find it, by trying to be like the same characters that found that happiness. its never addressed but also painfully obvious with how much they don't fit in with the other npcs dear god these characters are queer coded to hell i could write an essay (i accidentally did)

its not even like bretta and zote are straight cis characters these two are bi and aro canonically but its more to do with the gender roles they're trying to replicate, and failing. they suck at it. he is not this emotionally stoic resilient lone knight he is in fact continuously fighting his emotional pain and if you give him the right attention he will stay forever. he'll get angry that you saved him or that he needed your help because YOU dont fit in his story. she's not a forgiving accepting loving damsel in distress she can take care of herself great and will also drop you like a hat if she sees even one flaw in you. because then YOU dont fit her story either. they care so much about their stories because they reinforce the identity they think they're supposed to have but they're also so disconnected with themselves BECAUSE of these gender roles that they dont realize it makes them miserable

the biggest cause for this is that they are lonely isolated individuals and dont understand or know enough about real people so they have to go off their storybooks and it only keeps them alone. its like you have to be stubborn about saving them and staying by their side so they can get that chance to change and thats exactly what the knight does. its stubborn as hell it will save them again and again and it will fight their dumbass crushes as many times as it takes to make them realize what they're doing is painful. and bretta gets that chance, she leaves the town that isolated her and goes to find something better, most importantly she gets experience. zote gets to stay alive, which is the best thing you can do for him. because now he might get to face his pain, whereas in death he never gets to overcome it, just escape it

its also very funny that when the game pushes them together in this fake relationship its purposely depicted as completely ridiculous and an obvious parody and you also have the chance to beat it to the ground multiple times. whereas the two more meaningful love stories that you get to help happen are mlm and wlw and completely unapologetic about it this game is GAY

When a bad day at the end of a few bad weeks turns into being terrified you’re getting worse and terrified you’re never getting better

I am going to make ‘autistic kian stone’ an actual tag on ao3 if it fucking kills me

I cannot stop thinking about Soap singing "Freak" by doja cat...

Especially to provoke Ghost

i wanna kiss a genderfluid person just so i can have the experience of being in a mlm, sapphic, t4t, and het relationship all in the same time. would i explode.

first finished piece of lifesteal fanart yaayyy!! I. I started this during the second round of the mcytblr sexyman contest. Why does art take me so long. I finished most of it a while ago but the scythe just took forever because I couldn’t figure it out and kept redoing it. I think it turned out good though!

You write everyday and you say your mojo isnt there? Everyday is incredible no matter how fast or slow you might be. Are you writing any in particular or just general/various things?

Thank you so much for this message, Anon, and sorry for the late reply.

Yes, I do write every day, but to be honest it's inevitably a bit rubbish. Most of the time I can't write until evening time, and by then I'm always exhausted and slow and sloppy. i'm a morning person so really would prefer to get up earlier and write then, but that wouldn't work in my living set-up! Sometimes I get 50 words of shite written, sometimes i get 500 words... I always ALWAYS try to write something in a day, even if it's literally two sentences in a doc on my phone. In fact, more often than not atm it is just two shitty sentences on my phone, and that probably won't change for for the foreseeable due to real life stuff.

I do make myself write everyday, but only because I am naturally not a very disciplined person, and I really want to keep myself in the habit. Plus not being a fast writer, I have to take the slow and steady approach in order to accomplish anything! I've been writing for four years now and I'm learning to accept that i'll never be able to knock out the hefty word counts fast, or dip in and out of loads of projects. I'll just have to plod along with my little gdocs and hope it gets done eventually!

Re. projects - I am mainly working on my long WIP which I post about under this tag - I sometimes have to take breaks from it as spending so long on it (nearly two years now) means that i do get bogged down sometimes. When that happens I tend to write a short piece just to shake my brain up. (Did i mention i just posted a new short? No? Oh well... 😂)

I am also concentrating on a big original writing project which is very exciting but much, much more difficult than writing fic (imo) and I spend a lot of time psyching myself up to that. It also has to take priority atm so fic is like my holiday from that. My rule for myself is that once I get 500 words of that written, I am free to delve into my fic writing! It's a good approach (a bit like Harry in WWPWCS promising himself an ice-cream if he gets his paperwork done). That depends on having the time for that though—some days i know i won't manage many words, so on those days I just make sure I write anything I can, however that works. I have to be v gentle with myself because i'm an emotional writer and any stress just shuts me down.

I’m not going to preface everything I type on my personal blog with, “In my personal and humble opinion” or “Not to be confused with how you view the world, but”. This is my blog that I’ve always used as an electric diary for myself, my life, my interests, etc. I don’t care if you disagree with me on something and want to bring it up or open a convo about it with me. That’s fine, but I’m just some guy. I’m not in any position of authority or responsibility. I respect the passion some of y’all have, but can you please keep in mind that I’m just some dude rather than using an attitude or bad-taste language that feels more appropriately applied to a cult leader, dictator, god, or anyone who has the ability to implement laws and influence the masses? ♡ Much appreciated.

I think (as much as I annoyingly complain and whine about not having a partner) being single this long has been good for me. I'm learning a lot about myself and I'm learning why I was a shit person, and through finding the root of the problem I can kind of... start to heal. I can be nicer to myself so I can grow and get better. Because TBH.. being mean and cruel to yourself doesn't make you become a better person. It just makes you believe that thats what you /are,/ and thats what you /always will be,/ as opposed to realizing that you are a product of your circumstances but that does not mean you can't get better and become a better person. Accepting help and trying to get better so you can eventually love yourself – even if no one else does – is the greatest and loveliest thing you can do for yourself. You deserve that love, you exist and you live and you feel and that is a truly beautiful gift.