ACTUALLY YOU KNOW WHAT??!

This is tumblr.illness so I'm going to go off about this bullshit

So I'm playing IWATE, doing my first playthrough dealing with the whole everything is going wrong, the other ship lands and treats us as terrorists, and I'm escaping into the forest. I'm about a stage away from finishing the game, I'm really close with Cal. I go out to explore and FINALLY MEET THE MYSTERIOUS ALIEN. I raise their relationship REAL quick because HEY THIS GUY IS REALLY COOL, Where have you BEEN?

Go in and finish raising my engineering and reasoning. Go back out to give my new alien friend human information. Back and forth between fixing broken robots and talking with my new bestie, Sym. Flirting with others now and then.

I go out exploring in the broken cliff areas for a bit, hang out with Sym. They're in troubke with Manticores. Obviously, I come in to help save him. His arm is hanging by strings when I finally drive them off, Theres an option to kiss him so I DO. the moment is so cute and it looks like a good opening to the romance route with Sym. THEN THE OTHER REMAINING MANTICORE COMES IN AND SYM SACRIFICES HIMSELF WHY??@

He THROWS HIMSELF OFF A CLIFF to save my character and I watch them both FALL OFF THE CLIFF, SYMS NECK SLASHED.

So Sym is dead, my character is in mourning, I'm in mourning.

My character falls into a depression, avoids exploring, goes to fill all their time fixing robots. Names a robot after my deceased alien crush. In the glow, I finally walk outside after eons of avoiding it. Follow the creatures, meet a faceless and accept the void leaving everyone else I love behind.

My character transcends as the first ending I get, I check out the "content warnings". It goes on to explain each major character death, including syms and.

WHAT.

ARE YOU TELLING ME I DIED FOR A NEW RUN FOR NOTHING

HEY DEVS, WHAT'S UP WITH THAT!

Sanji losing all humanity within him and Zoro knowing he has to kill him because they made a promise but Usopp refusing to let him do it and it's Water 7 all over again except that this is somehow even worse

Double life whiteboards from before session 5.. pearl and tilly against the world

Hearing such a small voice shout “Bianca!” is absolutely HEARTBREAKING

Cause when I read the books, I understood that Nico was like 10-11 years old. Like I KNEW he was young…

But hearing how small of a voice that could’ve been Nicos in the show, only then did it truly made it click for me at how young he was when he went though EVERYTHING

I am devastated all over again 🥲

"immortality.. a fate worse than death"

OH DEAR GOD EPISODE 5 OF X-MEN ‘97 CRUSHED MY SOUL IM SO DONE

‼️SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT‼️

“Sugar… I can’t feel you”

no but I feel so bad for Bailey like I’m sure she’s just as devastated as we are if not more, she loved Claudia so much and constantly talked about how important she was to her :(

"Who cares? I certainly don't." </3

4:33am

It absolute fucking wrecks me that in the back of my mind I have this terrible sense that you don’t notice my absence in your life. You are the kind of friend I will tell my children about. When my stories begin with “my old best friend” it will be about you. I always get the urge to text you novels about how much I miss you, but I know your response will take business days to get back to me and will be underwhelming and disappointing. I can no longer expect to receive anything from an empty cup. I hope one day I can talk about you without sadness in my voice or tears in my eyes. I hope that one day I can follow you on social media and not feel like I’ve been gut punched when you post a picture with your new best friends.

You used to feel like home to me. Now it feels like that home has burned down and there’s nothing but left ash and memories that make me sob. I know I still have so many friendships to experience but this is one I will never fully get over. A part of my heart will miss you until I die. I have never mourned someone the way I mourn you. another friend like you. Our friendship was one of a kind. I still believe you are my soulmate. I miss you being able to make me smile on the worst days of my life. I miss bragging about you to people. I know it’s selfish, but I hate that it feels like you don’t miss me or our friendship at all. I mean how could you have possibly thought our friendship was fine when we went from seeing each other at least once a week to four times in six months. 

I don’t think a day goes by where I don’t think about you at least once. Something reminds me of you/our friendship almost everywhere I go. I envy the friends that get your attention now. It’s even worse I run into them, and they give me updates on you. They don’t know how bad it is. “You guys are just going through a rough patch.” “You two will be fine, you always are.” “She’s just busy”. No one knows how bad it really is except me. Even you don’t notice. You were really the only person I never thought I’d drift away from. I thought you’d be in life longer than most of my own family. Even now I still think about using your name for my future daughter’s middle name. I’ve tried so many times to patch the holes in our friendship. But there are so many now and they’re only getting bigger. I feel like I’m completely under water at this point. I’m exhausted from mourning the best friendship I’ve ever had. I hate that I compare every new friend I have to you. It’s not fair to them. It’s not fair to me. You were my absolute rock through the worst times of my life. I will always view you as a blessing in my life, even now when I look back with so much pain in my heart. I will never want anything but the absolute best for you. You are the epitome of a heart of gold. You will always be considered my favorite and best non-blood sister. I can only hope you’ll think the same about me. I’ve made every excuse in the book for you. You admitted you hadn’t been a good friend to me and then proceeded to do nothing to change it. I didn’t know growing up meant out growing me. I will never understand why God decided to split our paths. I honestly don’t think I ever will. I fucking hate that we have no idea what’s going on in each other’s lives now. I wonder how your parents and dog are. If your parents have moved into their new house yet. You’ve been my other half for almost a decade and now I feel so lost and alone. And I’m sure everyone is tired of my crying and honestly, I am too. I feel stupid for sobbing over you while you didn’t even notice a problem with our friendship. We had the type of friendship people yearn for. I feel like a bad person for not wanting you to have a friendship like ours again. I don’t want someone to experience you the way I did for 7 years. You will always be considered one of the best things I ever had. 

NOO THE RTC SLIME TUTORIAL I HAD ON MY PLAYLIST GOT DELETED 💔💔💔 IT LASTED SO LONG TOO 😭😭

you did so well my love. rest easy 🩶

Top 10 images that make me cry

it's a true to pokedex size plush of oshawott...

what more could i want out of life?

BUT IT'S SOLD OUT

I WANT MY BABEE

I'M READING THE BURNING MAZE... WHAT THE FUCK RICK?? I'M IN MY ROOM CRYING MY EYES OUT AFTER A DAY WHERE I FELT SO ALONE AND NOW ONE OF MY FAVOURITE CHARATERS DIE??? NO😭 ME AND MY DEPRESSED ASS CAN'T DO THIS😭

NOOOOOOO BONOOOOOOOOOOOOO D,:

I will never forgive the people who bullied chicoree off tumblr, i hope they trip and fall face first into caca

JUST FINISHED COD GHOSTS AND HOW DID PEOPLE HATE THAT?!??! SO MUCH?!??!?! THAT THEY NEVER MADE A SEQUEL?!?!?!??!?!?!?