me, actively watching us out of my own decision to do so: no stop i don’t want to watch this this is scary

They literally cut off the power so the world wouldn’t see the genocide they are about to commit…fully backed by the US government meanwhile said government also does nothing to the people who continue to get killed by the regular mass shootings

Watching sun prepare to sink below horizon.

Two strong cups of coffee and so tired.

Cat screaaaaaaming.

Oh fuck I cannot make sense of the navigation design for the product I am currently working on. Fucked up screen design somewhere. Ugh. So many print outs and little cut outs of screens all across my table trying to make sense of things when I just want to crawl back into bed.

Fml.

A week back and all that energy roaring through me while Elsewhere has drained completely from my body.

Uhhhhhhhh

(Too exhausted / zoned out / drained to express any emotion what so ever)

hey im going to separate myself from everybody

Well that is surely very fun for me and the other girls and the gays.

my roommate (a terrible musician who is convinced she's david bowie reincarnated) has her friend (another terrible musician who also thinks they are hot shit) over at our apartment and they're having a "jam session" (while piss drunk) it literally sounds like high school band practice is being held in my apartment right now

Gotta love living at home with my parents bc everything will be just fine, enjoyable even, and then I say something and someone just explodes at me, like just now when, while all of us were watching arctic monkeys on TV, I casually joked about how I think me and my siblings are all autistic and my dad (like always) started screaming about how "they're not stupid, don't you dare say that!" And suddenly I was tired and searching for any excuse to retreat upstairs away from him

i hate being assigned watching movies...

Goal: get through my last week of pre-clinical education without 1) screaming out loud in class or 2) taking up smoking.

a customer made a joke at me about his gf sucking his dick and it was the kind of joke where the “funny” part is that he was mumbling something insane to say to a stranger so i wouldn’t understand and look like an idiot for asking “what?” only for him to repeat himself with the biggest shit eating grin. what if i just started crying on register? huh? what then?

i can't wait to get home so i can have a complete mental breakdown and scare myself with my own thoughts about being home alone :)

I literally can't believe we are on our way to having our own job and regular income and supporting our rent by ourselves for ourselves soon. The relief at the idea of cometely shedding dependence on my family and actually opening up the open world that is life sounds so fucking nice. I feel like I've been railroaded in a torturous tutorial mission for 22 years. The fucking grind to do everything perfect just to advance to the next stage and get out of the railroad andninto the open world makes the first two hours of Cyberpunk NOT sound and look tedious jesus fucking christ.

-Riku

Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country. Hell country.

it will never fail to surprise me how divorced from reality PIs are

wait fuck all of what i was just talking about i thought about narancia again

current objective: survive