#Did you see my notebook?
Text
I had a fun three-day weekend.
As I briefly mentioned earlier, I went to Chicago. Thursday I stopped halfway and spent the night at a bed & breakfast in Baraboo, WI.
Baraboo is where the Ringling Brothers started their circus of the same name in 1884. The B&B I stayed it the former home of one of the brothers.
More after the cut.
I like the shared areas at B&Bs. There were only three other people there Thursday night. I didn't really get to mingle as they kept to themselves.
That typewriter would have been fun to use for my blog post. Sadly, it lacked wi-fi and Bluetooth connections. There was an old, hand-cranked phonograph in the next room that was fully functional.
Downtown Baraboo has plenty of bars (because it's Wisconsin). There were a number of restaurants and cafes too. The two-story brick buildings I like in small towns were plentiful. I logged a lot of steps walking up and down the streets, peering into windows. This is another town where I think it would have been fun to stay a week and try more bars and restaurants.
There are two breweries in Baraboo. Of course I visited both.
The first, I was told, has better food. Tumbled Rock is where I went for dinner and flight of beers. My burger and fries were most satisfying. The beer selection was impressive. Each of the five I sampled I would definitely buy again.
When I finished dinner I drove three miles back to my B&B and parked the car. Then I walked to the other brewery, the Al. Ringling Brewing Co.
Inside was neat. The coolers behind the bar, filled with cans of beer, had wooden doors, mechanical handles, and glass panels. The bartender told me it was a functional refrigerator.
This place was also a former home of a Ringling brother. But it was a mansion. There used to be a bowling alley in the basement for the family. The bar top is made from old sections of the bowling alley floor.
One of the brews on tap was Cherry Pie Fruit Sour with Swedish Fish. The nice, young bartender told me the brewers add a bag of the candy fish to the mix while making the sour.
I said I hope a serving of it comes with a Swedish Fish candy garnish. She grinned and promptly brought me a glass of it with the a Swedish Fish garnish!
The mention of fish made me want to suggest a Pizza Flavored Goldfish Beer, or at least free bowls of my favorite little crackers in lieu of pretzels, but the bartender had other customers to tend to. I missed that opportunity to pitch my idea. Maybe I should write a letter?
During my walk around town I noticed that Baraboo has a bit of a continental divide in its middle. At Oak Street, the numbered roads change from Avenues to Streets, or vice versa, depending on which way you walk. You can be at the intersection of 6th St and 6th Ave, and the two aren't even perpendicular.
The next morning I joined the other B&B guests for a waffle breakfast. This time I socialized with them and the owners of the B&B. We learned about the history of the city and all about the Ringling Bros. and their circus.
Fun time. Afterward I took my time driving to Chicago. I timed it right to miss the worst of rush hour. More about Chicago in a later post.
#Did you see my notebook?#I carry it and my favorite pen most of the time#One time a bartender (somewhere else) didn't care for me taking notes - it made him suspicious of my intentions#That almost made me want to start a Yelp account and my first review would have been crabby#I didn't want to explain Tumblr
35 notes
·
View notes
Text
i have been reading through the diary I kept from ages 14-17 and realising how helpful it can be to keep a record of how you're feeling at different moments.
not only is it helpful to write down and process how your feeling and give yourself time to truly think about it, it's nice to have something to look back on. to not just remember how you felt about a certain situation but to actually have yourself from that time tell you.
and also, from an adhd perspective, it's really lovely to have reminders of things I'd almost entirely forgotten. it's easy to think that your life right now isn't interesting, but in 5 years time? to know what songs you were listening to or book you were reading or even that Thing that you were so worried about but now you can't even remember the details. it's nice to have a physical reminder that time passes and things really can get better.
#i think part of whats makes it so special to me is that (like it is for a lot of people) those ages where so *much*#and i was so stuck in my head and socially anxious and i feel like those years of school rly shaped who i am now ect#but id kind of forgotten? its become a blur emotions over time and its nice to see it clearer#but also how i changed? and to read into it and see what i did or didn't write#im also a big fan of the inner child and doing things for your younger self and its a lovely gift to have her speaking to me directly#also if you want to journal i highly recommend doing it in a normal notebook rather than a pre planned one#it gives you the freedom for it to be whatever you want with none of the pressure#recovery#tips
439 notes
·
View notes
Text
the most Dog ever. or. dog shaped Thing ever
#four different versions bc i couldnt decide#i have been watching So Many jimmy dean & rowlf clips its not even funny#well. it is funny. its really funny. theyre hilarious#wellll. rowlf is hilarious. jimmy dean is funny as well due to Proximity#rowlf is the best muppet no one can convince me otherwise#hes Everything#scribble garnish#the muppets#rowlf the dog#rowlf#did i make him too curly? maybe. but hey who's gonna hold me accountable No One thats who#you'll never catch me alive! i'll curly-fy... curlify.... curl... ILL MAKE EVERYTHING CURLY MARK MY WORDS#no seriously. mark em. take out your notebook and write this down there'll be a test later#anyway i love how Blanket he is#every time i see a picture of his full puppet its like. thats a blanket right there#puppy throw...#you know that would be a good blanket idea actually? head and arms and the rest is just a pelt#rowlf skin for your floor!
307 notes
·
View notes
Text
Ranmasa 💚🩷
#BACK TO THE ORIGINS#This is tied on how in my notebooks Kariya ages with me#So they are 18 here#That's why their designs are a bit different hehe#Btw#I'm going to drop this here akd disappear for the rest of the day#I have plenty plenty plenty of things to do#I think I'll have some time tonight tho#So I'll see you then!!#I'll answer everything sjfjdk#inazuma eleven#inazuma eleven go#my art#ie go#ranmasa#They are the specialest little people to me...#It was about time I did something for them
87 notes
·
View notes
Text
was debating on whether I should post this or not but I spent so much time on it...🍎 I've been studying the death note art style, and for me studying an art style just means drawing myself as practice 💀
#this was made to be my new pfp but I got too attached to my near pfp so I just made it my header instead lol#I was very pleasantly surprised to find some people asking about it!! thank you fr!!#I didn't post it originally just cause I didn't think anyone would care much whether I did or didn't so ty for asking 🫶🫶#what do I put in the tags HAHAHA#death note#death note manga#death note art#fanart#anime#self insert#oc#original character#<<< technically lol#elle draws#this is basically just a redraw btw of that one official art of light except I changed the scythe to a notebook because I am lazy#I actually really like how the hands are rendered in DN it was one of the pleasant discoveries I made that I'll be absorbing into my style#I have an anime artstyle one too but I haven't finished that yet#there are some parts where I sort of gave up on following the style tbh like hair in DN is so stringy you see every single strand#alas I am lazy (2)
26 notes
·
View notes
Text
girlhood
#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day#like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year.#when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍#not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again#and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :)#like everything i do is informed by her#I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her#and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢#and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again#“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her#growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain#and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when#people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it#but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up-#when people mention it 😍#last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her)#and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook”#and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one#and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?”#im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her#lol!!!!!!!!!
26 notes
·
View notes
Text
Self care is hearing that there’s a 2004 Ryan Gosling movie you haven’t seen that’s playing in the theaters only today and only at 2pm, and you decide you deserve to have a good time and you should see it, because you’re kind of latching onto Ryan’s characters for dear life rn, but you have to work at 4:30pm — HOWEVER you can make it to the movie if you put on your uniform and book it to work right after the movie ends!!!! So you get dressed looking like a snack in your black pants, treat yourself to a slushie and go to the movies
#I did all the math for the previews and the drive on the way there#GOOD FOR ME#I’ve never seen The Notebook before I heard it’s… long#but I’m in my Barbie/Ryan Gosling era so here we go#after Thursday they aren’t showing Barbie in theaters anymore so I’m gonna try to see that once a day everyday for the next 4 days#but that’s good that means it’s gonna stream soon and finally there will be an HD online version for me to gif!!!!!#woof#normally when I work I just sleep until I have to go#but I’ve slept. for. my god 18 hours? and. i just woke up#and I just realized this is the first time in a month that im not seeing the Barbie movie#you know how many tickets I have for Barbie in my box of collected movie tickets? FUCKING 26#I contributed to that billion Miss Greta Gerwig
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
I'm really tired of my coworker asking me for exam study tips bc he clearly means "how do I pass with the least amount of effort possible" and keeps getting frustrated when I explain my note taking strategies and like. actual engage with him about the material. why do you keep asking me if you don't like my answers
#he asked to see my notes today and he was like but this is just what's in the book but simplified#and im like yeah ????#it's quicker to review my notes than the whole book and the act of writing something down helps you remember#and he was like yeah but these don't help me then#what did you think my notes would contain ??? cheat codes ???#also im not giving you my notebook bold to assume i wasn't just letting you take a quick peek and would let you leave with it#ughhhhh#reilly.txt
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
he did not forget <3 [ 2, 78 ]
#oh i can think of something for you to do at collinwo–– [gunshot]#he did not forget he's just. completely useless as a would-be romantic interest.#no time for that. i'm all booked up with bitching about my ex boyfriend Heathcliff Dantès#compilation tag tba#➤ roger collins & victoria winters. ┊ pain sometimes precedes pleasure，miss winters.#LET'S SEE THE ELABORATE PLANS ? HM ?#doodling in my notebook the fancy dinner im going to take my employee on and ask her to marry me.#the fact that i'm currently married will not come up in the conversation#the way they're in coordinating robes/dressing gowns in this scene....#sighs fondly.
12 notes
·
View notes
Photo
Silly goofy StanNarrator (Patreon)
#Doodles#The Stanley Parable#TSP#Silly mode leftover doodles from my alt notebook#I wasn't as concerned with making these finished or pretty but they did turn out cute >:3c#Since I've established that Sinister thinks in images the next logical step is imagining the Narrator - and he hates that ✨#He is not made to be perceived! He is an imageless entity! A total enigma! Lol#If we as an audience can imagine what a Narrator might look like - to the best of our abilities - I don't see why Stanley wouldn't#Even if he's not Exact - personally I don't think it matters lol the Narrator isn't /meant/ to have a fixed form imo - it's still flustering#You give him so much material to work with Narra! To imagine what face you might make or your body language#Or worst yet when he plays with the mental projection like a doll - much like what the Narrator does to Stanley hehehe#How does it feel to be ''made'' to do things that wouldn't reflect you! It's an interesting role reversal that works within their confines#Also makes me wonder how much Narra would play into it haha - if Stanley ''flipped him upside down'' would he get dizzy? Even a little?#To what degree is he real! To what degree is Stanley real if he's not being interacted with!! The themes!!!! <3#Anyway lol ♪ Silly Stanley noise chart for funsies#There are a lot of sounds humans can make with their mouths even discounting vocal cords - I could definitely see him doing verbal stims#Who me projecting again? Psh no anyway (lol)#And then some kisses! This is my first time drawing my versions kissing!!! Which actually solidified a new headcanon for the Narrator haha#Because he (ostensibly) needs his mouth to narrate he doesn't like kisses on the mouth :) He weak to it!#Doesn't stop Sin from enjoying kissing him lol - it's a good way to shut up him In Case of Power Play#But sometimes♪ he'll try to respect his wishes - not all the time tho haha
32 notes
·
View notes
Text
Silence had always been her home — solitude.
Concentration shunned the noise of company and Jillian Salvius had long made secluded labs into sanctuaries.
Yet she found herself suddenly housing a nunnery — and suddenly she saw that presence was not all nuisance. Beatrice's step was light, Camila's voice low and Ava's laughter more song than hassle.
"If we can ever repay you..." Mother Superion said.
She was the greatest discovery, stern yet soothing: a partner whose every word was essential or unspoken instead.
Jillian smiled and shook her head.
She would not ask and risk ridicule — but they needed only stay.
#warrior nun drabble#jillian salvius#this is only vaguely shippy but it's there if you squint so i will tag it as#doctor superion#narratives and similar#my love affair with repeating sounds lives on but honestly the sibilance makes sense here (I DID IT AGAIN)#i mean we are talking about Suzanne (so mother Superion) and jillian SalviuS. also about Silence and Solitude... and Similarity and Solace#it's an echo you see? the S sounds are like a reference to them even when the text doesn't explicitly mention them. ssssss#but then the repeated /k/ comes in as an abrupt rupture of thought and of music#only to return to the final sss and to normality by the end#(i did not intend to present a phonetic analysis for you but it happened lol sorry)#(it was also not intentional. i only realised all this when copying the drabble from my notebook to the computer and thought i'd share)#(which goes to show you WHY we need analysis in the first place. authors can and do overlook the things they write into their work)
18 notes
·
View notes
Text
i cant believe fontaine finally cleaned up its archon quest writing and learned to Actually Proper Balance its npc screentime with its playable character screentime. and yet. AND YET!!! THIS is the nation where i end up hyperfixating on the historical figures with no official designs.
#rambling#genshin#i am DANGEROUSLY close to speedrunning the “hyperfixated on a blorbo > loosely based in canon headcanons > 'thats just your oc'” pipeline#with the narzissenkreuz institute kids#im dying so much to see what happens next that im just making up shit in my mind functionally 😭#if they wont give me more quest for like another month then i will do it myself 💥💥#but actually they should take their time with the quests. my impatience is my own fault and should not be the basis for a rushed story#anyways. i cant believe they finally got solid playable character writing in the archon quests#and instead of hyperfixating on lyney who checks like. almost EVERY blorbo preference box of mine.#im obsessed with an oceanid world quest 😭 and some random journals#something something tragedy something something#i think i just really loved the intrigue and mystery of it all. slowly finding all the notebooks and piecing together#who did what and wtf went down#was SO satisfying. it was so cool to figure out#i was live reacting to the oceanid quest in a discord channel with some friends and you could literally SEE my thought process go from#“this quest boring as shit idc about oceanid roleplay” to “oh wait they're actually commenting on the nostalgia themes now” to#“HEY WAIT A FUCKING MINUTE THE NAMES CONNECT?!?!”#especially since when i started doing all that the wiki didn't have character pages for most of the narzissenkreus institute kids#beyond like one to two sentences#and so the moment i saw that rene's page was like an actual paragraph and mentioned the kvarnah quest i was like HOLY FUCK#anyways!!!! genshin's writing has been surprisingly good recently#but still. i cant believe they finally managed to get me attached to a random npc! a random HISTORICAL npc for that matter!!!!#inazuma and sumeru wishes they had that#i think another part of it is that fontaine has been good about giving its historical figures consistent personality and character voices#and also character drama! like there's a LOT to latch onto here especially since they're letting you see it firsthand instead of only notes#and since they've tied it back to the present in a couple of very obvious ways it makes the connections easier to latch onto#and also since there's less people to worry about#i still don't understand inazuma history tbh. there were too many damn people and they all blended together in my mind...#they all had like overlapping jobs too ueghhjk#“this guy was a master of [weapon] and died in the catacylsm” describes like at least 3 people who are only ever mentioned in artifact sets
15 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#you wanna know what i fucking did today?#cleaned inside my freezer. outaide of my fridge. did the dishes. dusted the blinds#cleaned the bathroom sink. took all stuff off the walls. cleaned the microwave. cleaned my bedroom window#cleaned the kitchen baseboards. under the fridge. under the oven#packed up my art supplies and some clothes#cleaned my bathroom door. front door. wiped my bedroom walls. cleaned the bathroom floor#cleaned my stove top. tidied my bedroom floor. and listed my dresser in two facebook sell groups#all within about 2.5 hours#isnt that fuckin wild?? im so tired#oh and i sold my table. i had to get up early for that. and i went for a walk to get a fun little drink#my apartment is starting to get pretty empty. furniture is going and stuff is getting packed into bins. its wack#i need to put my shit furniture by the dumpster. isnt it lovely how we put furniture by the dumpster so others can take it#i mean. the sign by mine says not to put furniture in it. so maybe its just some malicious compliance by putting it next to the dumpster#but ive heard that furniture goes next to the dumpster so that others can take it. thats where i got my desk and my mirror#im gonna miss my desk. its so cute and i love it. but i dont have space. i dont mind getting rid of the other furniture tho#its shit furniture from estate sales that i bought out of necessity#now someone can have my shit furniture if they want it#its kind of fun to see my apartment get emptier and cleaner tho. my moving time is coming up and im so excited#its wild to look at the list of shit i cleaned today. i made a list in my notebook so i could keep track of what i was doing#and its really satisfying to cross stuff off of a list. it takes up almost a whole page length#im exhausted now tho. that was a lot of fucking cleaning#okay bye
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
Missing people and regretting shit o'clock
#why did i even let it come this far. 7 fucking months and i didn't realize what was going wrong so i could have saved it#i want him back fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck#was thinking of this notebook i filled for him with memories and poetry and quotes and general mushy things and goddamn#why am i crying i just looked at my desk and i don't have the heart to put everything in a box so i don't see it every day when i wake up#i know i can't change it and it's probably over for good now after i fucked some things up extra hard but fuck do i miss him#i wish i could have done something in time before even the thought of breaking up came up#just when i thought for once things are working out for me and it was really fucking good and happy until a week before it ended#guess i just can't be happy. i never could#i was really really willing to talk things out and fix whatever needs to be fixed while staying together#not go separate ways and maybe not so maybe definitely not possibly maybe see if we can try again in the future#which we (spoiler) apparently won't and i kinda came to terms with that but i still wish there was a possibility#or at least i would have liked to know from the beginning and not spend weeks hoping for a reunion and working towards that specifically#while i seem to be the only one with that goal#idk i just wish it had been more thought through and talked about properly so there wouldn't be the misunderstandings we deal with now#and like boundaries for the first two months or so after that but it takes two i guess#disclaimer i'm not bitter or mad at anyone just sad and nostalgic. if the person in question reads this i love you ok that won't change#deleting later but now i need to go back to sleep before i kill myself on a whim#mel talks#depressed bitch posting#i know i know i know i did some shit too that wasn't great and i'm not saying i'm innocent here i'm just so depressed about the situation#it's been seven goddamn weeks it never took me this long to get over anything before
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
We are all going to die in a genocide of nearly every marginalized community once the republican party inevitably comes to power again. There is no hope for us. We are in the final days of any degree of free will within this cursed country, and only due to a pathetic stalemate within many of the highest courts. The president has signed the country's death warrent by being a genocide supporting lunatic and kneecapping his chances of reelection; guaranteeing that one of the murderous candidates of the republican party, a party who's literal stated goals on their official platforms are just to spread pain and misery, inevitably becomes president, due to how much more cultishly united republican voter are on average. And once they acquire the full power of both the house, senate, and supreme court, they will use its full might to keep themselves in power permanently and end us all. We are all going to die. My fellow segment's hopes for a future, any future, are unattainable. Because we are all going to die.
OK. I am better now. Back to escapism.
#vent#my sincerest apologies for putting this on your feed. and i do mean that.#for some reason we have all found it difficult to operate without expressing our misery and pain to another sentient entity.#it might have to do with the fact that the end we scheduled for ourselves did not end up working out.#and now our death is more nebulous and undefined. and therefore more existentially terrifying.#at least that is my guess.#anyways. i chose the selfish option of subjecting you all to our unchained misery today.#i say. as if anyone pays attention to this blog for longer then the two seconds it takes#to reblog whatever fanart we have reblogged onto theirs.#we can comfortably babble into this void without any worry and no one will see it. it is magical.#like invisible ink written on notebook paper. but digital and not at all like invisible ink.#in any event. existence is exhausting and i can not even force this fetid corpse to do anything.#-Zer0#i do actually feel slightly less dead inside after writing this. maybe salem has a point to making so many unhinged vent posts.
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
found some of my essays from a world history class i took... you know the essays you spend two nights prepping and panicking for and then scramble to write during the bell period... well i found one about the universal nature of war in response to a class project and What the Fuck was I On when writing that. What The Fuck
#THATS WHY I SCORED ABOVE AN 100% IN THAT CLASS. OKAY#I UNDERSTAND NOW#ramblings#this started because i found my class notebook. which i took very good notes in#so i was like oh lets see whats going on here and then my brain exploded#i love history classes so much im so serious#ive also super lucked out in terms of teachers both this year and last year. and the year before truly#but my brain just goes WHAHAH at info like this. i love looking at the world and Figuring It Out. also like. its a humanitites story yk#my teachers are always very good at showing that aspect too. asking you questions that make you think about it all.#anyways i was looking up illiberal democracy definition bc it got tossed around in class a while back and like Ohkay. i understand#referring to jan 6th as jan 6th and like having the understanding that that Date alone means something symbolic and important. lack of a#smooth transition into power. yk#specifically thinking about the universal nature of war response cuz like. yeah. its universal#histroy repeats itself blah blah but also the people living are intrinsically linked by circumstances that don't seem like they have any#affect on each other but they invoke such a similar feeling#also i ended that essay by tying in the idea of hope like seriously how did i do that#what on earth was i on. i hope i made my teacher's brain explode#i did get an 100 on that essay and a proud comment too i think so it was worth it all#annnnd nobody will ever see these tags. good
5 notes
·
View notes
Last Seen Blogs
jibit
Untitled
orbeavariegata
Oof.
themesbyeris26
Flitterful
elioile
Sou de outro planeta
rachbabes
Rachie Babes