Having physical ailments is like;"I'm gonna do shit!" While feeling shitty and then wondering why the shitty feeling is getting worse
( I say this because I stood up to fast while my head was already pounding them proceeded to almost pass out while cleaning my room)
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My head is currently committing third degree murder on me
A double length class of psychology is not helping
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Treatment
“Take this pill,” They say.
Take this pill and it should work
In a month,
Three months,
Six.
Take this pill,
And it will make you tired.
They all make you tired,
Because they act on the brain,
You see.
Take this pill,
“We’re sorry the others didn’t work.”
We will smile
Sympathetically.
We do care.
Take this
Pill.
It will make you dizzy.
Take this
Injection.
Since it is treatment resistant
Now.
It will hurt,
It will make you itch.
You can still keep taking the old ones,
In case they end up working
Too.
Take this pill,
It should work in one month,
Three months,
Six.
No, we don’t know
Why this is happening.
We don’t know
How to fix it.
Your blood screening was
Normal.
Your CT scan was
Normal.
Take this pill.
-Lane Aconite,
March 5th, 2023
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I always want to post more about my yard on here, but I get frustrated and self-concious because my disabilities prevent me from doing everything I want to do and frequently derail my plans. I do want to post some of the cool stuff I’m doing, though! I just need to get over the mental hurdle where I feel frustrated about all the cool stuff I’m not doing or have failed at.
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I get this recurring pain and pressure at the base of my skull where it joins to my neck and today its flared up so bad im getting those swimmy not-quite-passing-out feelings from standing up/moving around and literally nothing I've tried has made it better so if you lot have any advice, hit me
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i hate comorbidities my body explodes in eight different directions and then shouts go white boy go
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I understand that your doctor wants to see you before renewing prescriptions, but I put in a request for a refill on Monday and it was denied on Tuesday. I talked to a nurse this morning who set up an appointment for next Thursday. When I told her my nightly medication that I take to prevent migraines will run out before then and asked for a few days worth of meds to be filled to get me to the appointment, they just said 'nope.' Apparently, people are asking for one month to hold them over until their appointments and then after filling the prescription canceling the appointment. So, my neurologist's new policy is to just have her patients go without until she sees them. I really wish I had known that two weeks ago when I probably could have been squeezed in before I run out of meds.
I know that making an appointment was just one of the many balls that got dropped this Fall thanks to buying a house and moving and transferring my job. But it really feels shitty that I'm going to be without my preventative meds for four days just because some people go against the office policy. I'm already so stressed about possibly having a migraine for four days straight and possibly having to call out of work (where I've only been for about a month at this point).
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i have a lot of thoughts on the current up plot as a Kyle Fan but i am not coherent enough to talk about it bc you guessed it, my health sucks rn
speaking of being a kyle fan, i am going to do the annotated gl1990 run thing still whenever i can actually read comics for longer than 30 minutes
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There's something comforting I guess about waking up feeling wrong and bad and not really knowing why... And then getting an alert on my phone that the pressure is dropping. Silent migraines are embarrassing as hell because even though I'm glad to not have the awful pain, the fact that it just screws me up emotionally (at first, before moving on to mild stroke symptoms) makes it so hard for me to take seriously and I assume nobody else does either. I wanted to strangle my roommate this morning because they woke me up, even though I had gotten enough sleep. Just tear them a new asshole. But I don't do that, so I just sat on it, and then the alert showed up and I just. Ah. I'm entirely overstimulated and sensitive to everything because the migraine is coming. And I woke up that way.
I don't want to be someone with moods like the weather. It's embarrassing. I want full control over everything in my brain, which I know intellectually is not possible and even harmful to try for but I HATE being at the mercy of basically the literal wind. It's not something a mood stabilizer can fix. Caffeine, my adhd meds, and migraine meds as a last resort are all I have, and each has their pitfalls.
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The worst kind of insomnia is the kind where you are exhausted all day and manage to even get a nap. And almost fall asleep at your "normal" bedtime. ... But, for whatever reason, you DON'T fall asleep, and then suddenly it's 1:30 in the morning and you're still awake.
It's like my brain is like "well, you missed your chance to fall asleep so I guess you didn't REALLY want to."
Add not feeling great due to an unclear malady (possibly a multi-day migraine....possibly something else) and a 19-month-old and you have a recipe for a very shitty day tomorrow. Luckily Monotasker is WFH tomorrow so at least I'll have a chance to sleep in or take a nap despite Peanut not having daycare. And I might get to go out to lunch with a friend I haven't seen in a while (as long as I feel up to driving) so that will be great.
I think my insomnia is somewhat caused by how much of my days with Peanut keep me kind of constantly "on" without being able to use my computer or anything so I end up sacrificing sleep to get that time at night.
0/10 - not a strategy I would recommend.
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