( verse: a string of pearls - 3/??? hcs )

aeri is les*bian. she has dated men in the past and very publicly too. these relationships never lasted for long, the longest one lasting about a year. the media used to say that aeri collected men, the way she collected handbags

this is mostly because either a. of her insistence on putting work and art first or b. they ended up realizing she was actually high-maintenance aka someone who wouldn't be pleased with just being given finery and luxuries.

this isn't to say that aeri doesn't have experience with girls. those relationships just ended up being more on the dl due to u know, family expectations–

even if she is considered the family disappointment, girl still has to keep her reputation clean....her mother used to the say the only way aeri could possibly redeem herself is by marrying and having kids, especially since 'perfect sera' wasn't doing so hot in the latter category...

it probably should have been a sign that she wasn't attracted to men since she ended up being more emotionally invested in the women she had relationships with...

she met her longtime girlfriend & now fiancée, devora diana song (@devangelis), at one of her family's work functions. initially, aeri thought deva was a suck-up seeing how deva would shamelessly approach the other cliques that always formed at these functions...deva was only here to kiss up to aeri's father and brother, probably

this perception changed when aeri learned that deva is a self-made CEO, which would explain her braziness.... it also helped that when deva talked to her, she actually treated aeri like a human with her own opinions. amongst all the reporters who write about aeri's string of blow-ups, deva is one of the few who actually tries to get both sides of the story

so aeri took it upon herself to help deva adapt to the cutthroat society the kangs rule, whether that's dressing her or informing deva on the more intricate and subtle norms of chaebol society

and of course, a relationship ended up blossoming from the sheer amount of time they spend together.

I do think that deva is probably the reason aeri got the courage to further pursue her designer career.

unlike previous relationships, aeri kept the relationship private at first. for first time, this was a relationship she actually wanted to work out. only her cousin and a few friends knew about the relationship

of course, that went crashing and burning when one of her friends blabbed to dispatch about the relationship in exchange for clout...and perhaps to curry some favor with the kangs? after all, aeri is the outcast of the family, being friends with only her doesn't really mean much–

the girl also had the nerve to come to the next kang function in a very beautiful white dress that aeri designed and sewed herself.

aeri was told 'not to engage with her' and to 'keep a low profile while the family lawyers sorted her mess out (again)'; however, seeing her (ex-)friend looking like the queen of the ball after leaving a mess that for once, aeri wasn't even responsible for–

well, we can't have that can we? cue a scene like this except aeri is the instigator and she makes ari look nice :) she splashes red wine on the girl's dress and grabs her by her hair

"bold for vermin to show her face around here. with a face like that wearing my dress, i thought it needed some...alterations. of course this'll the last time i lend dresses out to two faced assholes. how about I tell people about where you got your nose done in return?”

more to be added!

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

one of the feelings i hate most is feeling anxious with no clear reason. like, if there is a reason to feel anxious, ok, i can deal with that. but just anxiety for anxiety's sake? ugh, what am i supposed to do with that?

another feeling i hate is the autism "something in my routine is changing and i don't know how to deal with it". the only cure for that is time to get used to the new routine, which sucks when you're feeling the anxious-stressed-Off-SomethingIsWrong mix of Fucking With Autism Routine. i don't want to wait for me to get used to it, i'm feeling Bad and i want to fix it now!

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Depression is all fun and games until your skipping school even though you’re weeks behind because you quite literally can’t get out of bed

btw my mom said it. she said it to me looking me in the eyes. i told her about how difficult it was for me to get through those family reunions, and she admitted it was very important to her, important enough that she was just going to do it anyway.

makes me feel a bit insane that Britta is seen as being insane and selfish for being upset her parents who she's spent her life trying to get away from are using her friends to stalk her just because she's suffering financially and needs help.

Wanna know how bad I am at reaching out to people and setting up plans? My bf and I have been living together for over 5 years and tonight my parents are coming over for dinner for the first time. 🙃

it really means the world to me to know i’m my nephew’s favorite person

1. it’s my 24th birthday today, so my goal of being published by the time i’m 25 is now a one year looming monster, but i never specified what kind of published and am currently looking in various literary magazines that are recommended for writers who have yet to be published, so i’m surprisingly confident that i can make it work? and tbh even if whatever i write isn’t officially published before my 25th birthday, if i have someone in the process of being published then i’ll be happy!! no matter what though, i’m gonna try to be proud of myself for at least giving it my best shot!!

2. i honestly love that my birthday is on the ides of march because the ides of march meme shitposting is only a thing on tumblr but it also being my birthday makes it easier to like. be excited about the ides of march outside of tumblr. like even in person i can be like “it’s my birthday! i’m an ides of march babe (:” and if someone is like oh what’s that? or if they say something along the lines of oh like julius caesar? i can be like yep!! and even if it’s a small thing outside of tumblr it brings me immense enjoyment and amusement being able to bring it up off of tumblr

3. transportation situation has been very rough since june 2023 when i totalled my car, my gap insurance are being assholes and i ended up putting my foot down on the phone with them yesterday which i’m pretty proud of because i am NOT a confrontational person (something i’ve been working on this past year, so seeing some improvement with my ability to hold my ground and not be a pushover yesterday was very cool!!) i was told i’d get a response from them by friday next week no matter what, and if i don’t then friday of next week i will continue to wreak havoc upon them. but my moms car which i’ve been using since my accident broke down yesterday, hopefully it’s fixable but my parents were saying it might be done for, so trying to think of how i’m gonna get to work next week is kind of stressing me out lmao, but for now i’m just gonna focus on enjoying my birthday the best i can because i don’t want to start off being 24 with an overwhelming anxiety for something that won’t be a potential issue until monday. plus i already messaged my boss today to let her know that i’m going to do everything i can to make it work out but just so she’s in the loop and knows of the potential of me not being able to make my morning shifts (one of my coworkers said she’s more than happy to give me a ride for our afternoon shifts which does help relieve some of the stress!) and i told her i’d let her know for sure sunday so that if necessary she can have time to figure out someone to fill in for me in the mornings!

overall: life is weird and i ended being 23 yesterday with a shitty situation but a positive outlook and i am going to enjoy my first day of being 24 no matter what because honestly i fucking earned it. happy friday everyone, i hope it’s a good day for you and me both!

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Just found out my two siblings are in my mom's will, but not me. Also my grandpa has told the entire family about his engagement. Except for me. Also my dad told my siblings that he and my mom bought a plot of land. Can you guess who they haven't told?

I genuinely think the mental illness is affecting me no longer in the fun quirky silly way

Sending strength and love and good vibes your way honey. You can do this!

I really really hope you’re right 🤞

conundrum. im trying to be more Real (less chronically dissociated n shit) (well really its mostly depersonalization and derealization that i deal with but those are less familiar words to most) but i dont want real. im sick of it. why should i be a person. i dont want that. fucj that. i want fantasy. i want fun. i want evenings to feel endless and almost overwhelmingly full of possibilities instead of just The Time When I Go To Bed. i wanna be a kid. for real this time. i want the world to be mysterious and thrilling to me. i wanna feel shit deeply. man, im done with this shit. i have all my little ducks in a row and i feel like shit. im doing the normal thing. ive DONE the normal thing. and i dont like it. its dull. i do believe, even deeper down, that the only real ‘purpose’ to life is to help others. to do good and make the world a less shitty place to be trapped in. but god it really is a trap, isnt it. like im not suicidal anymore, havent been for years. but im just so painfully bored of the colors of life. i dont think what i want exists. and if it does, i dont think im allowed to have it.