8x22 × dream logic

i don’t even fucking care

8 seasons of insane queerbait and then at the end they ride off into the fucking sunset together. 20/10 would subject myself to that again

comparing their first and last appearances easiest way to give yourself psychic damage

the whole time i watched “everybody dies” i wondered why there was a fire. it felt too much like a device, too obvious, something put in place just to get house to make a decision

but it hit me just now: fire is rebirth, it’s been symbolic of rebirth and reincarnation for centuries in so many cultures.

gregory house “died” in that fire, and when he comes out of it, he’s a changed man. his hallucinations of stacy and cameron made him realize his faith in love if not god, how much he loves wilson and how poorly he’s treated that love, and how no, he isn’t doomed by nature to be selfish, and how he has the capacity for selfless action (when he saved his patient’s life even though that meant the patient couldn’t go to jail for him - even though it meant he couldn’t be with wilson). and while house has realized his capacity for change before (e.g. “broken”), the fire symbolism is so heavy-handed - especially considering it’s the last episode of the show - that it could only mean house’s rebirth is intended to be read as lasting, even permanent.

i’m notmal

(lyrics are from the modern leper by frightened rabbit)

“enjoy yourself” playing while house and wilson ride off together scared me so bad i almost died

If you could rewrite one episode of House M.D., which episode would it be?

This was so hard to think of an answer for, because I love the series so much as is. But there are also more than a handful of episodes where I WOULD love to change some little things...

My gut response was that it would be Everybody Dies. I would leave it exactly the same *except*: at the very, very end, when they're showing all of the ducklings after the funeral and what their lives are like (Cameron with her comphet husband and baby, Taub being a dad, Chase in the diagnostics office, etc.), I would add a clip of Thirteen finding a note addressed to her in what is clearly House's handwriting. The camera sees the envelope over her shoulder. She starts to open it, and the angle switches so the viewer can see her face. She still looks distraught from the funeral (eyes swollen, hair not brushed, very little makeup), but as she reads the note the viewer sees the expression on her face start to change. The tiniest of smiles pulls at the corner of her lips. And THEN it cuts to House and Wilson and their "cancer's boring" moment, and they ride off into the sunset.

(Also I would take out Cameron's comphet husband and replace him with a wife. They can keep the baby. But she needs a wife, stat.)

companion / species

house md, 2x07 'hunting' (2005) // haraway, d. (1997). modest_witness@second_millennium. femaleman_meets_oncomouse: feminism and technoscience. // house md, 2x21 'euphoria: part 2' (2006) // house md, 8x19 'the c-word' (2012) // barad, k. (2007). meeting the universe halfway: quantum physics and the entanglement of matter and meaning. // house md, 8x09 'better half' (2012) // haraway, d. (2016). staying with the trouble: making kin in the chthulucene. // house md, 8x22 'everybody dies' (2012)

House Meme: Gifs based on songs from my Hilson Playlist, in no particular order (2/?)

The Mountain Goats - Old College Try

From the entrance to the exit Is longer than it looks from where we stand I want to say I'm sorry for stuff I haven't done yet Things will shortly get completely out of hand I can feel it in the rotten air tonight In the tips of my fingers, in the skin on my face In the weak last gasp of the evening's dying light In the way those eyes I've always loved illuminate this place

"This song showcases the difficulties the couple have faced together, while contrasting it with the strange form of love they feel for one another." [x]

I’m starting the finale...wish me luck

“Every patient I’ve had, in 70 years from now, they will all be as dead as Wilson. Everybody dies. It’s meaningless“

- House M.D. (Everybody Dies - S08 E22)

SLAY to wilson. go girl insult that bastard!!! at his funeral even!!!!

stacy asking house "what about love?" in reference to why house would want to die and then the cut to him and wilson when wilson didn't want to take the fall for him. goddd

i can’t help it - the house finale fucked me up and i haven’t been able to stop thinking about it.

i want desperately to believe that after wilson’s death, house will keep going. “everybody dies” was as life-affirming as it could possibly be with a main character as caustic as house, and it keeps him alive so he can be with wilson, but thereafter is still a question mark, although an optimistic (but not foolish) reading of it does confirm my belief that house will survive wilson’s death. 

after all, his realization that he’s capable change and of honoring his love for wilson should apply to anybody else he chooses to love - when hallucination!stacy showed him what could’ve been, it causes house so much pain he literally lies down and curls up to die because they were “idiotic fantasies at odds with every logical bone in [his] body” - people don’t change, so he can’t have this. but now that he’s realized he can change, that he can be there for the people he loves?

“if it could’ve been, you’re capable of it now.” that has to count for something. that, and wilson telling him there’s only one person in the world he can really count on (himself), and house admitting (!!!!) wilson was right later on; and finally, finally, hallucination!stacy - really, house’s own mind - telling him that when wilson dies, he’ll be better off, because he’ll stop looking to him to find what he needs to find within himself. you can’t always get what you want - but if you try sometimes, you might find you’ll get what you need. (a travesty that they never played this song over the finale.) all that precious screen time for hallucination!stacy... no writer or director in their right mind would devote that much to argue a moot point. house disagrees with her and decides not to leave the building because he’s adamant people don’t change, that he won’t change once wilson dies, but hallucination!cameron convinces him that he can. in my opinion, the finale absolutely spells out an optimistic future for house, even after wilson’s death.

but if i were to play devil’s advocate for a moment: what is a day’s realization that he can change in the face of 8+ years’ belief that people don’t change? years of self hatred, of believing he can’t live without wilson? destroying everything in his life so he could be with him? isn’t this why hugh laurie apparently believes house will kill himself after wilson dies, why lovers’ suicide fics abound on ao3? the most popular theory by far is that house will OD on vicodin when wilson dies.

something about this nags at me to no end... it defeats the whole point of house’s battle with his subconscious, of the episode itself. it would just be pointlessly, unrewardingly cruel and tragic to make house suffer for 8 seasons and then imply he eventually kills himself.

shipper meme | dream/hallucination scenes ♡ house/cameron in 8x22 everybody dies