someday when i get the energy im gonna write a meta about a lady from chinese history that may or may not have been the inspiration for xuan ji from tgcf

but not today...have had no energy...sorry to anyone who liked reading my weird theorising about tgcf...

A lil thing inspired by an outfit in this art by @alibonbonn and an unfinished bonus inspired by another in this art by @oneslimybastard

I just want him to enjoy the sun still 🧡🥺🦇🥺🧡 (and get an excuse to draw us in our matching AND clashing outfits 😤)

just remembered a wip i had which was jay at uni meeting normal people and desperately trying to act cool and normal whilst internally screaming about being in a whole new place with all new people and not having his gang with him

venn diagram of these guys

btw its interesting the way james tries to imply that like. well the videos that have plagiarism are the ones our dumb stupid annoying patrons requested about bad topics that didnt deserve to have the effort put in to covering them well so basically its fine. like obv thats interesting on its own but moreso the fact that he doesnt actually /say/ it, or like. give a list of the videos hes referring to, just says "those videos are very clear on which ones they were" i think as a nod meaning like "yknow the ones everyones talking about". unless what hes meaning is that like they put a note in certain videos saying "this video was requested by a patron, we here at james somertom incorporated do not espouse these views" which seems unlikely to me. idk methinks maybe it's because there is indeed a lot more than people think and with all the buzz he's not sure which ones have been discovered yet or not, so putting down a solid list that missed some would look like he was still hiding things whereas putting down a fully sourced list would be admitting to wayyyy more than anyone's found yet

my giant ~1400 page leather-bound tome of the collected works of shakespeare gets here todayyyyy ^_^

To all Mat3 fans

So recently I’ve been scrolling through Maya and the Three concept art where I stumbled upon this pic-

-but I don’t remember what episode was this skeleton monster from,if it was present at all.Could someone please write down in the comments if it was featured in these series,and if so when exactly?

big fan of marble nest, so here is a hypothetical of sleepy head and shrew but if their designs were unique from the usual npc designs. i think they deserve it, as the resident daniil fanclub members

If youre ok w sharing then i would love to hear your thoughts on lotor........ Hes such a weird guy. Dissecting him like a frog

If i get hate for this, i am blaming you/j but in all honesty i apologize if this kinda messy, as i have said it has beem awhile since i saw any of the episodes about him. Most of it is my personal interpretation and opinions of his character-

First of all i personally hate both "L0tor is evil rapist imperialist who did not have a single redeemable quality" and "L0tor is uwu poor baby who did nothing wrong", because yeah he had good intentions and he seemed to genuinely love Alura and care for Alteans but also he very much did do a lot of things Wrong. I am pretty sure a lot of his actions fall into category of Very Wrong

Lot0r to me is an absolute control freak, he has to be 10 steps ahead of everyone, he needs to be control of the situation no matter what. Whether it be through a silver tongue or by his blade (see N@rti's death, him vs White Lion). This is as much as a ruthless strategy as it is a trauma response. Being raised under Z@rkon, a father who only saw him as inferior half-bred, he had to learn survivor tactics. He will do anything to survive whether it be beg, lie, manipulate, and kill. He is a survivor of some genuinely godawful abuse he suffered for 10,000 years, combined with racism he suffered for being half altean

However this need to be in control extends to his allies and people he cares about. I am sure Lotor may have loved Alura, it doesnt change the fact that he very much abused her trust. Their entire relationship was based on a lie. He knew Alteans were still alive and not only did he not tell Alura about it he leaned into the "last survivors of Altea" for their relationship, which is why it was doomed since the beginning. And if it had not been this, then it would have been something else. Cause lying and manipulation are very much core of his character, that is how we are introduced to him

Like i see people going "Oh Lot0r could have been good if he had therapy and a hug", and i am not really not sure about it, cause like would he? Would he choose to be vulnerable and actually let his feelings out and be truthful in a an unbiased reliable way that will neither serve him in any way nor make him look better nor is a part of some machivilian scheme he cooked up because he doesnt trust the therapist he is paying? No

And thing is he does desire connection. He looks for connection in people who are similar to him. Half galran, altean survivors, Alura these are the people who he chose to get close to. He looks for similarities, people he can relate to, people who he sees as like him, people who he thinks can give him a sense of belonging. He is deeply lonely. However his desperation for control, absolute mistrust in anyone and everyone, and his inability to be actually honest dooms any relationship he'll ever have

Also this is probably just me, but for someone who is this morally complex character he has tendency to see things in black and white? Like it is His dad and empire= bad, alteans=good. He idolizes Altea to the point of seeing it as an Utopia, and this ideal was more important to him than any Alteans who are alive and with him. I also cant remember him ever caring about someone outside of the Dichotomy. Like at most i remember is after he became the emperor Lance pointing out how other planets need to be freed and he just brushed it off

Overall he gives me the "smart people dont always make good decisions, but they are good at justifying their bad ones" vibes. We dont know exactly why he decided to use alteans as batteries but i am choosing to go with my interpretation- "Lottor saw something fucked up in that future showing space whale thingy, decided the only way to solve was altean batteries except in true self fulfilling prophecy greek tragedy way it only made things worse and started a series of event that will cause the thing he saw causing real trouble a few years after his death.

Another thing! I think it should have been him being the focus of Evil Altean episode instead of A//ura. I hate that episode and everything it stands for but like if there Had to be an evil alteans episode then it should be around someone who is you know? Obsessed with Altean culture? Is big on control and manipulation? Is more geared towards big picture and "greater good" over individual? Is worried about turning into just like his galran father and so desperately wants to connect to his idealized version of his altean mother? Yeah

Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

 #I'm gonna CRY #the GENTLENESS #the YEARNING #there's so MUCH they're not saying and like they KNOW but #and now I'm wondering when exactly Adam started carrying a first aid kit #did anyone notice? did he try to brush it off as practical? (of course he did) #I'm fine I'm fine I'm Normal about all of this #gonna keep feeling things about this au until the end of time bye (captainofthefallen)

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHI'm fine this is fine I'm so normal about themthe callback to 'what if we don't break?' and everything they aren't saying and adam carrying a first aid kit when his team is 4/5 vampiresthey CARE SO MUCH and they know it but it's not enough (yet) but also they can't help but be drawn to each other 😭😭this is so gentle and sad and sweet and I'm dying 💀(also I love seeing the differences between mallory and aj and kira in regards to their post-book 3 relationship with adam)(haledamage)

(Glad to see I am not alone in the insanity this AU drives me to🙃💀)

Listen. LISTEN. The inherent, eternal optimism of "what if we don't break?" is so perfectly AJ it makes me scream internally and die a thousand deaths. The "What if it's great instead of awful?", what if it's worth it, what if this Worst you're always planning for never comes and we WASTE THIS?! Especially in response to Adam's "I am not strong enough to be broken again" when his Thing on the team is leadership and STRENGTH. This is what he fears will be Too Much, he's not Strong Enough for if this ends badly. (Also ALSO ALSO that he says "I am not strong enough and AJ says "what if WE don't break" bc he's thinking in terms of toughing it out on his own and she's saying No Actually, We're In This TOGETHER. We Are A Team, du Mortain. Yeah. Can you tell that exchange wrecked me almost as much as the Mason Shower Scene? :) ) It's gonna be v hard to do post book 3 stuff for them that doesn't invoke a callback to that bc it's just. YEAH.

There's definitely a gentleness to AJ/Adam(esp on his end) that's lacking in Mallory/Adam for obvious reasons but ALSO bc with AJ he's so blown away by her genuine care and sweetness and knows how rare that is bc 900 years of interacting with people has TAUGHT HIM how rare it is and he wants to protect that, keep it safe from everything even him and AUUUGGHHHHH And AJ is so sad for him that whatever happened, whatever he lost, hurt him so deeply that he's this scared of it happening again, with her. They both know there's Something There. They both WANT to do something about it, but Adam is too afraid of losing her, of being broken, and AJ doesn't want to press forward until they're doing it together(She Will Convince Him. She is water wearing away rock and just as patient)

Does it make it better or worse wrt the first aid kit that I kinda h/c he starts carrying that regardless of if he's romanced/bff or not bc he's Adam "preparedness is a virtue" du Mortain, and it's just how it's utilized that changes based on his relationship with MC? Like, if you're not bffs/romancing he'd just hand it over and asks if you want help(at which point your LI or bff could step in, if present) + there's a lecture on Being Careful if he does help you. BFF gets lecture + Snark about you being careful bc you aren't invincible(that would be fun with Kasey :P) and romanced gets some variation of like AJ.

(also I love seeing the differences between mallory and aj and kira in regards to their post-book 3 relationship with adam)

Do you want me to ramble about AJ/Adam vs Mallory/Adam and how they're gonna play out post-bk3, Rhi? bc that's how you get to ramble about AJ/Adam vs Mallory/Adam and how they're gonna play out post-bk3

the she/theys vs he/theys and wlw vs mlm posts are symptoms of a larger problem within the queer community 👍

@beegswaz genuinely i think my favorite tags on any of my work ever. i fucking love when people talk abt my characters like this

bruabba and fugio are good ships however 80% of the people who post about them are annoying about it. like. same with jotakak and kakyoin stans actually. the way ppl obsess over them and water it down until it's so uwuified and far removed from the source that the characters are just bland and boring. idk where i was going with this

things i despise abt most of the ow f**base:

most of their ocs suck ass especially when theyre only personality is just being a boring dumb stupid pointless """""""love interest"""""" for a CANONICALLY AROACE character just to get boring clout points on their dumb ugly ass tumblr blog and nothing else and that said ocs are non existent to canon anyways since canon is better lmaoooooo

they spread lies abt their fav series 24/7 for no reason whatsoever

they keep dragging abe into their stupid ass boring dumb oc x canon ships for no reason whatsoever when they completely forgot that abe is nb/aroace and basically goes to show how ppl are just plain stupid in general and downright aph0b1c if u ask me

they overreact over joke posts made on different social sites by the official accounts or whatever for no reason at all

they think part 3 is somehow gonna be """"munchs oddysee 2.0""""" despite the fact that it would be way too cliche and honestly boring if they did that and that munch and stranger are not the main focus of the new quintology as well since its meant to be abt abe specifically and no1 else

one of them treats abe like the """"""overrated mc"""""" of the three protags for no reason at all despite abe being nowhere near overrated and just the user in general being outright dumb

said user is also a living hypocrite as well for liking soulstorm yet hating abe and stranger at the same time for no reason at all other than to be a dumb boring oq/mo purist and nothing more and also missing the entire point of the nq in general

their fanfics are boring af and nothing like canon at all since i refuse to believe that big face is just a """""""regular shaman""""""" at all especially since hes literally the mc in disguise from the future nor do i even believe that sam is abes """"""mother"""""" for all the right reasons since i find that part especially to be pretty suspicious if u ask me which is basically why i dont trust any ow fanfics in general for being absolute ludicriously fake and completely nonexistent cuz i said so

their public server sucks ass with many other boring ass public servers where their f**base is going to be garbage regardless of the subject

they spread more lies to piss me off as well

they tend to fight over which of the 6 games is the """""best""""" when i feel as tho we should treat all of them (except for maybe exoddus cuz of how overrated it is by many nostalgia blind purists who refuse to move on for once and that soulstorm is a billion times better lol) like equals for once and yes that also includes munchs oddysee, new n tasty, and soulstorm as well since speaking from experience i could care less if the gameplay is """"""bad"""""" anyways when its really no big deal to get all mad abt it when u ppl can easily just watch the cutscenes for once and who even cares abt spoilers anyways when it would be sm easier if most ppl proceeded to do that instead of being the absolute miserable boring ppl that they are for once

some of them also care way too much abt exoddus as well since in all honestly exoddus isnt really all that special in the first place when it was never meant to be like that at all since its way too overrated for its own good and that soulstorm is just more engaging than this shit anyways lol

i would like to put more as well but overall i just really fucking despise most ppl in general for spreading misinfo, getting facts wrong, being assholes, not actually enjoying anything for once, and etc so yeah

I have had exactly two dreams now where I was Sol Badguy trapped in this recurring non-Euclidean dream mall setting. In the first one I was just lost in the mall's labyrinth and, in the one I had last night, this massive brick shithouse of a bouncer wouldn't let me get a drink at the mall's bar and this leathery biker chick told me I had to "block him on The App." I did, after messing around trying to figure out wtf she meant for like 25 minutes, and the bouncer vanished from reality.