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page of him, colored and not cus i love the lines as they are teehee
#guys i lov ehim so much#i#like i think i need to give him his own tag but i#... thats just. yknoww..#witch hat atelier#wha#tongari boushi no atelier#tbna#olruggio#brushbug#my art#doodle#moomin#cus i drew him as a mumrik adshgdsjsdgdha HE FITS SO WELL IM DECEASED ACTUALLy#fuck i jsut noticed i forgot to color that one tassel welp whatever dont matter doesnt bother me at all nu-uh nope sir
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sometimes i get kiinda worried that bc i'm pretty vocal abt how much i love hakuno (<- Understatement) people might assume that i like- never want anything bad to happen to her or just want everyone to love her, etc etc .... so i just wanna make it clear that- THAT AIN'T TRUEE!!!! i mean, obviously i'd be happy if more people start to like hakuno but this isn't a fanpage and i'm here to write hakuno first and foremost ! 🫡
IDK IF I'M MAKING SENSE BUT YA SBCKSJFN DA POINT IS!!! i hope i don't make anyone feel like they have to write their muse a certain way egad,,, don't hold em back i say !! >:Dc and honestly i'm gonna enjoy our muse interactions no matter the dynamic tbh because i just rlly love seeing hakuno interact with well-written and interesting muses 🤧😌💖✨️ AND I WANNA DO JUSTICE 2 HER CHARACTER AND WRITE HER WELL TOO OFC !!! 💪✨️
#&&. out of#NOT ABT ANYONE OFC 🫶 just some late night thoughts yknoww#i also hope no one thinks that i wanna be h.akuno or self-insert myself as h.akuno bc like#😭😭😭😭 ????!?! THATS MY MOON WIFEEE#my dear sweet sugar honey flour egg ½lb butter stir pour into pan preheat to 350° h.akunochaaan .. 😢😢🫶💕
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Branch Headcanons !
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warnings ; none
; this will be my first ever headcanon writing, please excuse my bad writings/grammars xx
🍄 knowing his personality Branch is the type of person to act cool just to impress you
🍄 Branch is also the type of person to hide his feelings but later on will probably burst it out when you're not around
🍄 And when he started to notice that he had feelings for you oh boy poor Branch he will try his very very best to make you notice him, he will often get up in the middle of the night just to practice on how to confess to you without messing it up
🍄 later on he'll eventually give up and make up his mind to do it when he sees you
Scenario ;
Branch ; come on branch.. you can do this all you have to do is to tell her about your feelings thats it.. *inahales* *exhales*
Branch walked out on his bunker to go look for you, and there you are laughing with the other trolls.
Branch ; hey y/n! u-uhh can we talk for a minute?
You ; oh sure! but why for?
Branch ; just come with me *he smiles akwardly*
You ; okay....?
Branch took you to the garden and he sighed.
You ; so.. what's up?
Branch ; s-so I have to tell you something..yknoww but please don't freak out okay.. uhh..um..
He was so nervous that he started to stutter (help this poor boy)
Branch ; so y/n.. I know this is sudden but..
You ; yeah???
Branch ; I.. I LIKE YOU!!!
You ; WHAAAAATTT!!!??
🍄 after he confessed his feelings for you thank god that you feel the same way
🍄 this boy will literally cook you the most delicious warm pie that the trollsnation has ever tasted just to show his love for you
🍄 will do your hair and take care of you 24/7
🍄 jealous to the max, he can't bear to handle other trolls hitting on you so he'll tell them to back off or else
🍄 when you're in the bad mood he'll sing every song that he knows just to make you feel better
🍄 Branch will even invite you to make new songs and you'll even perform it together on the stage if you want to
byee !
#trolls 3#trolls#branch#x reader#reader insert#fanfic#gaming#cartoon#headcanon#reader x branch#branch fanfic
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…i never did share my htf oc bones, did i?
shes a stupid girl who LOVES bones. she is obsessed w mime becuz she thinks his antlers r bones. thats about it. oh yea and shes a nuisance to literally everyone else.
HER RELATIONSHIPS W EVERYONE !!
LIKE:
mime: the nicest to her out of everyone. when she was new to town, she didn’t fit in with anyone and was seen as an outcast. mime being mime walked up to her and started entertaining her. he likes to see her smile! sure, he’s a little hesitant since she keeps on trying to steal his antlers, but he eventually gets over it and develops mutual feelings for her. he knows she likes him, ALOT.
lammy: surprisingly enough, i think she’d really like bones. she seems like the “nicest” out of the bunch, and likes the fact that bones is obsessed with bones as much as she is obsessed with mr.pickles. they chat constantly about random things. shes that type of girl who brings her at a party when she was “not invited cuz shes weird”. lol
sniffles: actually has a decent relationship with her. she loves him to death and loves to come uninvited to his house. constantly gets turned down when begging for a “findingbones-inator3000” as she puts it. sniffles likes her company, no one knows why.
cub: he loves everyone lol. he thinks shes funny ^.^
NEUTRAL:
disco bear: i mean, shes a girl… so he obviously likes her. he tried to flirt w her, but it flew over her head. at first he thought she was playing hard to get, but he quickly realized she was a nutcase. he’s weirded out by her constant mood swings, and doesn’t know what she sees in mime (he’s jealous he cant pull her 🙄)
flippy: he doesn’t rlly mind her, he tries to be friendly but she ALWAYS ticks him off by being too loud and energetic. has flipped out a couple of times due to her.
cuddles: doesnt mind her either.
flaky: startled by how hyper she is, she believes she will cause a major accident, so she avoids her at all times. She only hangs out with bones IF there are more people around.
splendid: finds her very strange. since he’s dealt with weird people in the past, shes not too much trouble for him.
lumpy: he occasionally says hi to her, but more than not just keeps to himself whenever he’s around bones. has definitely killed her at least 5 times.
toothy: doesn’t care for her in the slightest. thinks shes a weirdo.
mole: does he even like anyone? well, anyways, he doesn’t mind her. he makes sure to keep his distance though..
nutty: it sucks bc he was super happy to find someone who matched his energy and was obsessed with something as he was, but since shes a little cray cray she starts chasing him whenever he’s around since… yknoww… dogs chase squirrels.
DISLIKE:
giggles: doesnt like her. she tried to be friends w her but when giggles broke her leg one day she tried to rip out her bone.. ya
handy: sometimes interrupts him when he’s building smth, he’s just so done with her lmao.
petunia: same as giggles. she gets anxious over how messy she can be and act so she definitely hates to be around her.
russell: seriously doesn’t appreciate it when she goes through his garbage looking for bones and remains. when bones ate a fish bone, she got an allergic reaction and started going crazy, attacking russell and shit. sooo, yeah. he doesn’t like her.
pop: He doesnt like her as she is a “bad influence” to cub. he constantly shakes his head in disappointment whenever she does anything lmao
fliqpy: SHES. TOO. DAMN. ANNOYING.
lifty and shifty: they tried to steal her bones thinking they must’ve been valuable or smth.. it ended up with her attacking and mauling them to death. don’t touch her bones 😅😅
#htf#happy tree friends#htf mime#htf oc#happy tree friends oc#furry#fursona#2000s#2000s internet#htf fanart#my art
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uni2 spoilers
now that the uni2 honeymoon period is setting in some... ive been thinking about specifically merkava's good ending a whole lot for the past 2 days out of everyone... (excluding enkidu because. yknoww teehee. hehe. haha.) ive been thinking about how genuinely adorable his reaction to being a human is. seeing merkava suffer for well over a decade across games and getting to be genuinely vindicated for trying to keep that human part of him still there. i think no part shows that at its best but at the beginning of the end of his kuon fight (sorry thats a mouthful) where when hes eating him up, in the bad ending human merk's narration is taken over by the merk we know, completely frenzied, but in the good ending human merk's narration continues...until he realizes this isn't him internally monologuing anymore he's just a guy now! i also just think him having two endings makes his arcade route the most impactful out of everyone especially since merkava is already like one of the coolest and most interesting fg characters like...ever. it really highlights the stakes of his wellbeing and how an overwhelming night like that effects it. i feel like underwhelming endings like byakuya's or the re-birth'd endings of hilda and carmine could've benefitted from a bad/good ending path structure too... take mega advantage of how arcade modes in fgs function for your final game dammit!!!!
i like seeing him thrilled at all the small things he can feel now as a human. when he fully processes the fact that he is a Real guy now the first thing he just thinks is what he wants to do...and how just living a normal ass life, even the struggle parts, is all he wanted (even if brought up upon a gag scene) its good to see merkava...happy after so long as someone thats followed this game since like, uniel? while questions remain unanswered abt him (like his ties with orie) his salvation is the most rewarding out of everyone because of the nature of his character. its cute to imagine him just doing normal things while his speech is still oddly formal and probably still a behemoth height wise and also his hair just being like that. moe if you will. with that said wheres my fucking 12 episode slice of life human merkava anime i want to see that grown ass man live a satisfying life. please for the love of god i just want to see it. this is why we need that chronicle mode patch. i wanna see other characters react to him suddenly being a hot man. why did they have to lowkey rush uni2 out the door
the merk = hollow god theory going around is also pretty interesting because while i can see that conclusion for obvious reasons (HE LITERALLY SAYS THE TITLE BY NAME LOL,) i also feel like he would've had a power trip moment like hilda and carmine did when they converted if he really REALLY did inherit stuff from the hollow god? but merkava is just...normal. he's just overwhelmed with the joy of getting to indulge himself. so either thats a testament to how humble the hollow god was or like merk's deep humanity just overrid any of that nonsense. i prefer just human merkava being human merkava because that implies he truly is just a regular weird good guy and possibly was just that in his past too.
i wish i had been thinking abt merk's ending this deep when i made that initial answer to @/starocide's ask because the implications of both his endings for him as a character AND LIKE GENERAL UNI WORLDBUILDING are insanely fucking valuable when you think about it. its up there with chaos's arcade route with how much it forwards it. is there hope for all voids in general with what the good ending implies? im so curious now....
Also because i have to say it: verdict is in. human merkava is pretty hot actually. Meow meow meow
#uni2 spoilers#under night in birth#merkava#omiwa txts#ok to rb btw feel free to infodump and whatnot
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hi risuu doing my weekly stalking, as one does 🫢 how are you? i saw u posted about the lack of engagement on tumblr abt silly little things like personal stuff, and how discouraging that can be :c
yeahhh. i get you. except i'm a pretty small blog so i've never had high expectations and i've always found that freeing!! but. i do clam up bc there are many times i want to just chat about mundane things or other things im interested in but refrain from doing so bc it feels silly getting no interactions. eh. the worst part is feeling like ur just clogging the timeline. feelsbad. i push on and definitely still like all my flop posts (lol). my blog is for me, after all.
anyways it's a tricky balance trying to find that coveted sense of community on tumblr dot com bc there are cool ppl on here i want to interact with and become internet friends with!! but i don't want to come off too eager yknoww... it's a weird dichotomy. i simultaneously feel absolutely no shame & a little shame on here. (not with u tho mi amor <3)
ok thats enough of the gloomy stuff! i hope u have a wonderful vacation with 0 worries kurisu bye bye mwah 😽
my mushy mush hi ! thank u sm for sending this, i totally understand what you feel so im giving big hugs to you, since i know the feeling is icky at times!
i am doing okay, i have been weening off being on here bc it’s better for my mental health imo. i just like supporting ppls works and leaving comments still even if i don’t get much interactions.
i think it is a good mindset to have low expectations, and that’s how i’ve been trying to shift my mindset recently. i don’t want to seem transactional to ppl, i guess im just overly sensitive and analyze things too much (cursing my virgo moon LMAO).
i also fear coming off too eager but but it is always so nice to talk to lovely ppl such as yourself who understand and are so kind and reassuring. like you said, our blogs are for us and meant to be a safe space ! it is good to remember that :> 💗
#i’ve started to journal instead of always venting on here so my negative thoughts are like being extracted somewhere else#i really don’t want to spread negative energy or vibes yanno#LMAO
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holy shit is it your birthday thats crazy
i hope i wwasnt late
also sorry for the quirk im just in that mood right noww yknoww
OM G NO NOTAT ALL A8YTA98IUGJRGSED !!! I TOTES GET YOU MY FRANDDDDD H IIIIIII :) THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH EE H EH EHE GIGGLE.S. it is indeed crazy. where the fuck am i. i still feel 11 years old what IS this
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please stop saying "cult of the Signless" -sincerely, a Signless and a Disciple who are in the same system and are cult survivors
#The Signlesskin#The Disciplekin#Homestuck kin#Homestuck kinfessions#Mod Eridan#^^^^^ yeah thats kinda. inappropriate#comparing just about anyfin to a cult is horrid in my opinion. Wwhat the Signless has wwas a church yknoww. Or a revolutionary party of sort#hard to reely describe as an outsider but deffo not a cult thats for shore
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oh mygodddd im so sorry this iz like the 3rd ask i sent 2day but!! abyss herald anon here and did u know..... chinese mythology said dragon canon horny...... literally they said its in a dragons nature to be sexual n they literally. will fuck every species n like. the qilin is the offspring of a dragon and a cow i am not shitting you ganyu i am so sorry. but ahem chinese ppl really said yea our cultural representative mythology monster is horny n we cant do anything about it
so. onto zhongli. yes he is a difficult character to envision the hornies of but god . id like to imagine that he goes off the shits and shows his dragon features too oh oh did i mention. did i mention dragons have two dicks yeah youre boutta get wrecked. god i . him straight up growling and leaving bite marks and bruises on you, animalistic unlike the restrained and gentle zhongli everyone knows and youre the only one that knows this side of him.. id like to imagine he goes nonverbal too n he shows affection by touches and kisses instead... god..
i do have a thing with, , calling him chinese titles meant for emperors and superiors.. zhongli daren .... dijun.... hi im soft... dijun is like. the honourary title for emperors and is also the chinese translation of rex lapis .. udjfifnfkfjf oh imagine... being his trusted subordinate but u accidentally catch him in heat and he reveals his feelings for you and then fucks you stupid....
breeding kink. breeding kink. *breeding kink.* so i am nb n i hate my uterus buuuut rex lapis cum in me pls..... i want my tummy full of your cum!! and eggs.. anyone.. egg *runs away* he would like.. mark u with his geo sigil because he gets posessive during his heat cycle and aaaaaaa .. to be his forever.. excuse me imjust. zhongli brainrot
he would apologize to u crazy once its over!! but u just.. *secretly marks the day of his next heat cycle on ur calendar* and like "uhh mr. zhongli i . actually liked it when you had two.... yknoww" n he would just be like oh didnt know you liked that, slut. i'll keep both so i can fuck you better.
(imsorry my asks are soo long.....)
anon,,, heyey,?,??, dragon canon horny??,?, QILIN IS DRAGON AND COW OFFSPRING ?,?,?? thanks for the information.... i am now smarter .. maybe (not) sorry ganyu.... i never knew bout this until now im dead
two. two (2) pp??!?? im dead literally bye . doesn't mean that i dont like it doe but sheesh .. thats kinda ... ayo ... ok fuck me with em !! its cute how he shows affection by touches and kisses though..so true...
omg ?? i never knew wow thats really cute though .. aww shbsms im soft...,, i.. wanna get fucked stupid by him though pls mwbwjnw breeding kink omg ..,,, alot of cum or maybe even just straight up eggs..,,, help wmwhwnw im horn . knee !!! *screams into pillow*
he'd feel so bad for .. what happened during his heat cycle and just continuosly apologize to you... but u em...um... like u said .. secretly marks it..... and u like the double dongs.... haha .... aha... why am i like this byey.
anon..... dont apologize for long asks <33 i appreciate and love every single one of themm!!! so much !!!! yall just give me the wildest thirsts ever and i ,???,?,?,, speechless . thank u guys sm loves everyone dearly <33
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@;the kris wanting to apologize; Hey I. MMay not be your Noelle but!! If it helps any, I want you to know ththat you're my frfriend, and um. As such I fforgive you. I know you just wwanted to continue the adventures, and and I get that!! thats valid, i. Wwanted to continue them too, and I still do!!
but, just knoww ththat, while i ccant sspeak for um yknoww everyone else, I fforgive you. In mmy heart I know you had good intentions. -Noelle Holiday (obviously ehehe, tag as fictive please!! <3) 🎁🦌
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NO WORRIES I JUST WOKE UP TJKSDJ but smaus r so fun to read imo if only school wasnt so much i wouldve been planning one </3
WHAT INSPIRED U TO WRITE URS ???
HAHAHAH OUR TIMEZONES ARE THE OPPOSITE ITS NIGHT TIME IN MY PLACE
thats the thing cos i find smaus so fun to read and this is such a dumb reason but i saw writers' blogs and i wanna make mine pretty like theirs HAHAHAHA so like i thought of making fics but im not rly confident in writing writing as in like words so i thought that writing a smau would be easier so i started writing one! its loosely based on my life cos i didnt have any ideas at first LMAO but like i wanna make a smau that is different than other people's for example: in the one im writing, i wanna write different endings for each member so everyone can read it (cos people prefer different members for reading right) but i wanna make the branches of choices a little longer so it doesnt feel too fast, i wanna put as much detail as possible cos sometimes i read smaus and they end so fast and i get super sad HAHAHAHA i wanna be able to make the readers get attached to the story and rly feel like they're in it yknoww
BUT the more i write, im afraid more people will get bored HAHAHA cos my genre is sorta like slice of life, it doesn't have that much of an interesting main plot, but i dont wanna ditch it ! id feel bad for people who read my series everytime i post a new chapter
making smaus are kinda more tiring for me, cos the notes i get in my smau are less than my timestamps and other writings so sometimes i feel like i wanna write others instead,, but i enjoy it eitherway, the only thing that's making me panic is that i wanna post the next chapter in max 4 days but everytime i do it after 4 i feel bad cos there are other people that post after 1 day 😭
omg im so sorry i wrote so much HAHAHAHA
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Are you scared
im not scared i just get fuckin anxious a lot cause i greww up in a swwwamp by myself paintin on the wwalls an noww i havve to think about wwhat my decisions mean for lil clowwn grubs that aint evven born yet yknoww
an then some fucker comes up an is like is that wweird? does it make your interpersonal stuff wweird?
an like yeah of course it does bitch cause i cant do anythin wwithout it tickin into place wwith evvery other lil bit of me that makes all those wwheels turn an stretch out the rest of forevver
an thats just an evveryone thing like yeah the horror of howw life is both infinite an fleetin an evvery person around us has a unique perception of our actions based on the cheesecloth recollections of the troll mind, wwevve all seen it
but im tryin to cook up some major life changes in here an it makes you get all wwoogly
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huh.. yknoww i should eventually make like.. a Secret OC or two thats like, specifically for drawing mostly ns/fw of. im too nervous to ever publicly post any ns/fw i make of my actually more beloved and favorited ocs, especially since if i try to keep these things all separate i wouldnt want people to be like "oh hey i think i saw someone else drew this oc having sex. Or was that you???" because that would just genuinely Destroy Me dhsjfhs The Recognition....
#ive figured out so far im okay showing off oc nsf/w to like one or maybe two people at a time#but i have no desire to actually post it publicly just yet#but i figure if i make an Incognito Alias Etc Nsf/w Accont i can work myself up to that LOL#jeez imagine if tlh got popular enough that there was even any demand for that sort of thing from me. fucking unfathomable#but yeaaah i like doing nsf/w of my favorite ocs because of course i do BUT would be nice to. like.#be able to post that somewhere and not have it link back to me here specifically to my main accounts or anything#even beyond just Not Posting A Link i mean moreso not posting my Very Recognizable Favorite OCs Doing It#also i mean this nicely but id imagine random people scrolling would not be invested at all in uhh yknow.. gihr+niyt or something like that#both designs arent like. conventionally sexy with no context of who they are as characters#like i think they are but i doubt the Average Person does. nothing wrong with that of course but it is a factor as well#though really the nervousness about Posting It In General is really the biggest factor here LOL#like. girl help im afraid to show off my sexuality with any sort of genuine sincerity while being linked to me as a person here#anyway. in the meamtime. if any of my friends ever want to see any ns/fw stuff i do. let me know fhsjfh because i dont really advertise it#besides the occasional post like this anyway
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i dont trust anyone to characterize ben right unless they Stan Him bc there’es always something just s little off when they dont. and like yeah sure understandable but when u know ben well enough, anyone who doenst rlly know him super well becomes obvious and itsl ike... esp since general consensus is yes, he is a top, but then ppl will just strip him of a good lot of his character bc theyre not sure what makes ben a top, and they’ll just give him a blank slte generic dom thing. even gentle dom isnt like. Quite Right bc its not ben its Gentle Dom yknoww yknow. this goes for smut fics and non-smut ficsw alike. soetiems they’ll be like “okay well i dont knwo how ben would act here so here’s how a Generic Gentle Dom would” andl ike sure thts great and fine if you dont know better but once u do ur like hhh... not ben tho,,,, like ben is just one of those characters thats very hard to write right unless you know him really well
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Hiya!! I see this new blog appeared!!! So I'm here to ask: what was the conversation you both had that made you guys realize you like each other?
CA: it wwas more a series a convversations really
CA: hey ara uh
CA: has it evver occurred to you that these tomes a military deaths are maybe a bit too detailed
CA: sorta to the extent that they might kill a meowwbeast if dropped on one
CA: it took a lotta time yknoww
AA: ive just had the best thought
AA: you should pen a comprehensive military document about the events of our sgrub session before things got complicated
AA: it is important lore and military history that should not be ignored dont you think
CA: neither a us had come from the best experiences wwith regards to relationships
CA: lotta trust buildin
CA: a course i still got affection for fef in my collapsin and expandin bladder based aquatic vvascular system or wwhatever and a course i still feel like a massivve bulgelord for killin her wway back wwhen but twwo wwrongs dont make a right and twwo rights dont make a left and basically wwhat im sayin is
CA: her method a breakin up wwith me left me feelin kinda used
AA: to be fair you were kind of genocidal at the time
CA: im awware a that im just SAYIN is all
CA: lotta fuckups, thats for sure
CA: but enough about me i feel like evvery time we havve one a these vvaguely unspeakably conciliatorily salacious jams wwe end up talkin about me and frankly im sick a it
CA: not necessarily talkin about myself but about not knowwin shit in return
AA: well now hang on i wouldnt call this conciliatory
CA: im not sayin it is
CA: shit to be completely honest i wwouldnt wwant another moirail for a long time anywway i dont think
CA: and here wwe are back on me spillin my guts again wwhich frankly has left me feelin stupid as all hell
CA: do you like makin me feel stupid ara
CA: do you like wwormin your wwriggly little wway outta bein honest about your feelins is this some kinda kink a yours
AA: i dont know what youre talking about?
AA: i spent enough time without my feelings! why would i choose not to be honest about them when ive finally got them back? :)
CA: her baggage and mine kept us dancin around our redder feelins for a long time and i cant really talk for ara but realizin i wwas in the red throes wwas a matter a hurt unfortunately
CA: not on my end but on hers
AA: do you really want to know eridan?? do you really want to know what it felt like to be young and in pity and confused but happy anyway
AA: to trade paps and kisses on the rare occasions he would come to visit and wed play games and go on excavations and to be thoroughly convinced for the first time in your heart of hearts that there is nothing
AA: nothing that is wrong with you or with anything because you might be dead in ten sweeps but at least you have people like sollux or tavros or terezi or karkat
AA: and maybe the voices of the dead tell you things that terrify you in your sleep and maybe he is tortured by your voice that he cant pick out among the others but its okay its all okay its all 0kay!!!!
AA: do you want to know what it felt like to die
AA: looking at him
AA: do you want to know what it felt like to lose everything and then to desecrate your own memory because you couldnt feel anything
AA: so that by the time you came back you lost yourself in the breaking of the universe because that was easier to understand than what you had lost
AA: i didnt want to be that girl anymore
AA: and i thought that if i never talked about it that it would go away
AA: i thought that if i forgave everyone it would go away and i could be the me id been before but better
AA: but you couldnt let me have that could you
CA: i wwanted to help her but evven more than that i wwanted her to be happy
CA: and i wwanted to givve it to her
CA: happiness i mean
CA: wwhos to say wwhether redder feelins are more selfish than pale ones
CA: ara i nevver wwanted to hurt you
CA: okay wwell maybe i did once upon a time but who doesnt go through a mass murdery kinda phase at least once after pupation
CA: wwhat i wwant to say is im sorry but wwhat im gonna say is that it aint healthy for you to be pentin all this up and actin like it nevver happened
CA: no one likes to hear the truth about themselvves
CA: not evven ara
CA: i dont wwanna pale you ivve said it before and i said it again
CA: but i dont gotta to tell you that wwevve all got our shit to deal wwith and sure maybe i see you a little different noww that youvve trauma vvomited all ovver my hivveblock floor but to be honest you kinda scared me before
CA: bein all fine with dyin and evverything
CA: so its fine noww
CA: isnt it
CA: call it wwhat you wwill
CA: schadenfraude or sadism or maybe if youre actually wwhat they call culturally sensitivve
CA: you could call it pity
CA: you could say pity is wwhats happenin here
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Overcoming my fear and most important part of all, my ego has really helped reflect on myself. I learnt that I’m not the only one hurting. I learnt that i’m not always right and that’s ok! I learnt patience. I accept people but i rarely ever being patient hahaha.
It’s only been a week but I learnt a lot from student traveller. Ego-killing and patience is the biggest part of em all. Me initiating conversations? Bro, that’s really not stg I would do. People always come to me hahah. So it’s quite a journey to try to start the conversation yknow. I am being true to myself thruout the conversation but it’s also was tough bcs i’m anxious like that xD
But overall, I learnt to accept things. As in a grateful way. Not just accept and be sad abt it yknoww. I’ve grown out of that phase yippe xD Oh also! By trying to talk first, I see a lot of different outlook on ppl. I almost have no ego with my mom anymore. It feels like the being right part of me just gone. Maybe its the rahmat of Ramadan but still yea.
I used to want to fight her. Like a lot. My culture also says its bcs we have similar faces so we argue a lot. Somehow it is true xD but now not anymore. I just wanna love her and help her to live serenely. I just wanna see her smiling. It’s so peaceful to see that smile of hers.
So all I can say is im grateful that I took the risk to actually throw away my ego. Now i feel relieved and more at peace. Although I still overthink things, that’s alright :D Not everyday’s gon be sunshine and rainbows right! Just gotta live thru the storms and rainy days and appreciate the lessons that I’d gain from it!
So yep! I don’t regret initiate that chatter with him. Now all I can say, if another good man with good values good financial come into my life, but the bonus is he loves me more, and shows that he does wanna grow old and be with me and my family in Jannah too, I would gladly accept him hahahhaha. That is after pandemic ofc. I mean, we attract who we are right. So yea, student traveller! I hope our friendship will last. And srsly I hope I don’t hurt him or wtv tho cuz idk him much yet🥺 yep thats all for now! later, me!
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