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the-guardian-of-magic · 3 years

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lame AU Main story WİP cuz why the hell not

-Sarah finds Eleanor, instead of using and killing Sarah, Eleanor wants help from her to find other Animatronics from the old Pizzaria.

-Greg breaks into the old Pizzaria and finds Fetch, same events as the books but Greg runs away from his home to “keep his family safe” and Fetch gets him to Eleanor.

-Oswald breaks into the Pizzaria, he ends up finding PitTrap in the ballpit. There’s some extra events too, but the main thing is Oswald’s dad and mom dissapears and PitTrap takes their place and no one notices. Oswald runs away to get help and Greg and Fetch finds him.

-Eleanor wants Oswald to talk about PitTrap, and she mistakes him for SpringTrap for a while. Then PitTrap also joins them after more events.

-Millie climbs in FunTime Freddy, same events in the books happens but Millie survives. Millie tells her Grandpa what happened and he immediately goes to the garage to see Freddy. However Freddy already ran away from the garage- Millie goes back to her normal life and copes with her trauma with her Grandpa’s help becouse she thinks therapist wouldn’t belive them.

-FunTime Freddy goes back to the Pizzaria, a few more events happens and he ends up with a major damage- Eleanor and others end up finding him.

-Again, Eleanor and others ends up finding Millie and her Grandpa and basically they start getting along-

-In this part, the story cuts to Matt while others start living together and basically getting along- Matt is developing SpringTrap’s Revenge game alone after 3 other people who worked on it and came up with the idea of the game died from unknown reasons. Matt doesn’t knows Freddy Fazbear’s pizza is a real place or SpringTrap is actually alive yet- he just thinks it’s another cheap horror game.

-Matt notices the game has some glitches. SpringTrap doesn’t moves like how he’s supposed to be, appears in places he souldn’t and stuff like that.

-Matt notices a major glitch in the game- SpringTrap is not moving- he’s just,,,, lying in the ground almost looking lifeless. SpringTrap originally plans to kill him like how he did to others but then he changes his mind- he plans to go back to real world with using Matt’s body instead.

-Matt tries to fix SpringTrap, SpringTrap puts a curse on him at the moment he touches him and you know the rest- but SpringTrap’s plan fails and he just ends up creating a copy of himself. (AKA where FleshTrap is born)

-SpringTrap does, breaks into reality tho but only as a spirit for now. He keeps Matt alive when he cut FleshTrap out of his body.

-Matt runs away to solve what the hell is going on by himself and leaves FleshTrap behind- however Springy’s spirit helps him follow Matt.

-Matt meets Eleanor after a few more events- Matt tells about what happened and Eleanor says “o fuck SpringTrap’s back” and they accept Matt in-

-Millie and Sarah hear a strange baby crying noise outside and check it- they end up finding FleshTrap and notice how it looked like the baby Matt was talking about.

-Matt (for obvious reasons) doesn’t accepts the baby at first but Eleanor and others calm him down (they don’t know SpringTrap’s spirit is around the baby yet) and Matt starts acting like a father after a while.

-SpringTrap finds his old suit (ScrapTrap) and possesses it and starts watching Matt with a real body now- he eventually ends up giving Matt paranoia.

-Eleanor and others notice Matt’s paranoia, Fetch also starts barking at dark rooms and windows, acting like he saw something dangerous- They eventually find Springy with Fetch and Greg’s help.

-Eleanor gets protective over everyone- especially over Matt. But SpringTrap still needs to stay close to Matt becouse his spirit is still keeping Matt alive.

MORE WİLL BE ADDED WİTH TİME. DON’T FORGET İT’S A WİP.

So anyways what’cha think

#fnaf #fnaf sarah #fnaf eleanor #fnaf greg #fnaf fetch #fnaf pittrap #fnaf oswald #fnaf millie #fnaf matt #fnaf springtrap #fnaf fleshtrap #fnaf to be beautiful #fnaf into the pit #fnaf count the ways #fnaf in the flesh #fnaf au #au #wip

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matty-o-blackwarehouse · 3 years

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Day 1

This is an attempt to write every day. Not an attmpt to write well, or an attempt to properly spell. This is only here to enhance the brain wave activities. nO need to fix minor discrepancies. I’m a bargain bin Will Hunting. If will hunting was from the beach and knew how to write instead of solve math problems.

I don’t know if tumblr is even a thing anymore. I am just going to assume that it has been hijacked by russian troll bots like every other social media site has been. In that case, i guess it is R.I.P. to this attempt at writing everyday. . .

I am doing this with the sole intention of remembering how to write when i was writing without giving a fuck about who was about to read it. this is me writing for me. the same way i did in high school, probably with grammar and spelling to match. Also, I need to work some shit out.

I was gifted an assignment that requires me to speak freely. I am not sure i have exercised that muscle properly. ever. It is a speaking assignment that I inadvertently signed up to do for a radio show. I responded to a question posted on an instagram story. tHe question was: what are you most excited tgo do now that you have been vaccinated. I thought they were just going to repost my response, which was: Go to a dive bar in sandals. Obviously. And a couple of e-mails later I am responsible for recording my trip to a dive bar and my feelings leading up to and after my adventure. in this post covid world old expiriences are seen through a differnt set of eyes. I get to be those eyes, for this particular moment. Which is pretty cool, i guess. BUt I need to organize my thoughts. I need to get my gameplan set. My script. THat way I wont be rambaling in incoherent mumbles on National Public Radio.

SO it is going to go like this:

Hi, I’m Matt O’Reilly and welcome to Jackass.I’m 35 years old and i’m from Hermosa Beach. I live with my wife Lucy, our baby daughter Elliott, and My father Paul. My daughter was born in september of 2019 right around the begining of flu season. MY wife and I were already living in bubble mode because ellie is our first child and we must protect her at all costs. but around febuary 2020 we begab to relax. we started taking ellie out more often. then in march the cdc gently requested that we cease this carelessness at once. we have been indoors ever since with the intention of protecting not only ourselves, but my dad aka grandpa who is a young 68. Though if you told him that he wouldn’t belive you. I rememeber sometime before the lockdown closed the bars he said something to the effect of “this stuff only applies to old people, not us.” and he was dead ass serious. like, don’t group me in with the blue hairs and their walkers. I’m not that.

anyway.

i’m going to one of my favorite places, Najas. a historic dive bar in king harbor of redondo beach. IT has one of the best beer menus in los angeles and sentimental meaning to me that i have yet to decide if i need to reveal as this is a covid centric story and not so much about me and my personal life.

cut to me riding my bike on the strand towards Najas from home.

so i’m here at the bar. I’ve ordered (insert tasty beer here) and,as promised, I am in my sandals. I am just excited to be here, in gthe middle of the day, enjoying the outside. alone. things have been a bit stressful for me over the past year. not only because of covid, but also because I found out that my father who I live with, is not my biological father. he found out too, when i told him. he’s cool with it though, no drama from him. i have always been darker than the rest of my family I kind of always just assumed i was adopted, but my parents didnt want to tell me for whatever reason. but after a few ancestry tests it was confirmed that my sister and i are half siblings. Like i said My father did not know about this, however, moy mother did. and she wasnt very forthcoming about the details of it. LOng story short, I have two other half sisters, and whole other family, and my biological dad, Chris, died 2 years ago. And my mom knew the whole time. needless to say, we are not on speaking terms at the moment. but when I was trying to sort everything out, one thing she said stuck with me, and that was that she met my biological dad here, at Najas, when he was playing guitar. so now I’m here trying to make memories with a ghost. Father son bonding using the time machine of a dive bar that hasnt changed since it was built in 1962(?)

and thats what I’ve got so far.

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viclents · 4 years

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me : comes up w a witty intro tagline

u : is intrigued

u : wants to plot w me and my ~ 𝖟 ó 𝖓 ~

me : 😏😏😏

* chicago’s very own ( zion kang ) has been spotted on madison avenue driving a ( triumph bonneville t120 motorcycle ) , welcome ! your resemblance to ( charles melton ) is unreal . according to tmz , you just had your ( twenty-fifth ) birthday bash . your chance of surviving new york is uncertain because you’re ( tempestuous ) , but being ( formidable ) might help you . i think being a ( leo ) explains that . 3 things that would paint a better picture of you would be ( the insomniac’s giveaway of dark bags beneath tired eyes , violently bared teeth to keep the world at a distance , all black everything . ) ( i grew up a victim and eventual perpetrator of gang violence and it was only through my sobriety and a plea arrangement that i’m staying out of prison . ) & ( cismale + he / him ) + ( toby , 18+ , she / they , pst )

* 𝖇𝖆𝖈𝖐𝖌𝖗𝖔𝖚𝖓𝖉

001 : this is zion ! his mom had him at an undetermined young age and his dad was some good for nothing gang banger so he was already not dealt the best of cards :/

002 : his maternal grandparents took him in to give him some shot at having a normal life ! his grandpa was ex military and his grandma was a religious fanatic so this was maybe the opposite of what he would have ended up w , is it possible to have TOO structured of an upbringing ?

003 : his mom would stop by to see him every few months , bringing little treats and murmuring questions like ‘ where does grandma keep the jewlery , z ? ’ in her sickly sweet voice

004 : zion , young and starved for the affection his grandparents witheld from him , was v easily manipulated by his mom :/ poor bby

005 : he ended up having a LOT of behavioral issues w his childhood being kinda shitty n acted out a lot in school ! it got to a point where the school psychiatrist was like dear god lemme look @ this kid fr and diagnosed zion w bipolar disorder and oppositional defiance disorder aka he was NOT fond of bein told what to do !

006 : he was p much NOT abt to graduate high school after getting involved in a bunch of bad shit , drugs , alcohol , vandalizing shit , fights , gang activity , the whole nine yards when his grandpa passes away of a heart attack v suddenly . his gma , heartbroken and hurt , snaps at zion and tells him its bc of all the shit he put their family thru and that hits z , hard

007 : he finds rap music as his comfort , since his gma all but ignores him in the house now , and starts turning to art and music as his new outlet for his energy . finally APPAEARS to get his shit together when he joins a group and shoots to stardom w his rap group ( vc BROCKHAMPTON )

008 : his music gets him out of the slums and barely through graduation but he’s still got a lot of pent up anger and hostility ! moves out of his grandparents house but gets sucked into some gang nonsense from his past and nearly ends up in prison if it werent for a plea deal and a V discreet lawyer that kept his business out of the tabloids !

009 : he wants to keep it that way so he doesn’t risk his past comin back to bite him in the ass now that he’s in a decent place in his life , living w money finally and being in control of what he wants and how he wants it !

010 : now is rlly famous from his rapping ( i’m debating between a matt champion or a joba vc so cast ur votes to help a girl out pls 😤 ) and also has dabbled successfully in music production , which is his main focus at the moment !

* 𝖆𝖇𝖔𝖚𝖙

001 : personality wise , y’all know how this eboy movement is kinda taking over ?

002 : imagine an e-boy that ur actually AFRAID of n that’s zion !

003 : FORREAL THO the mans is like 6’1 of pure untamed aggression , he has absolutely 0 filter and will not hesitate to make an enemy of someone just bc they looked at him wrong . he’s naturally hostile and has a resting bitch face but that’s just to warn u of the broody angry boy that the face belongs to !

004 : he gives ZERO shits abt how he’s perceived bc he knows he’s talented and has worked for the fame he has and cherishes now . he doesn’t take critiques well n has a naturally aggressive / sarcastic disposition that makes him , quite frankly , an asshole !

005 : unpredictable temper , seriously effin volatile n ready to SWING when needed , honestly probably only has a circle of like 2 ppl bc most ppl don’t tolerate his broody aggressive antics long enough to get to his slightly softer side

006 : if u can brave the aggression and the temper , u see a deeply creative and considerate individual who would give the clothes off his back for the ppl he cares abt . nobody would believe he has something even RESEMBLING a soft side bc he’s so gd ANGRY most of the time but any of his exes or best friends can attest to the big bad wolf having a gentle caring side !

007 : he’s intense n deeply passionate and as long as u stay in ur lane he’ll stay in his , he’s p professional and has a v composed aesthetic bc he’s v particular about himself n his #Brand

00? : quick hc’s : he’s left handed , if he wasnt a musician he’d be a tattoo artist , u will NEVER catch him wearing any shade of not-black in his official public appearances , has a lowkey stupid sense of humor despite being so gd SERIOUS all the time , n he’s living straight edge besides the constant cigarettes he’s puffin on even tho he still raps abt drugs n shit !

#⎝ * 𝖗𝖊𝖌𝖆𝖗𝖉𝖎𝖓𝖌 ; OOC THOUGHTS .#wealthyhq:intro #this is finally up omg im sorry #like and i'll come to u for plotting !!!

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mightytwogunkid · 5 years

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MCU Winterhawk/West Coast Avenger AU

I had an idea for a MCU west coast avengers/winterhawk AU, but I have to explain the AU first

half of it isn’t that important to the plot but

So it’s MCU based but then there’s a heavy canon divergence and some things are more 616 based

The first difference is obviously that Clint is a lot more like his more recent 616 self (think Fraction Hawkeye, Kate’s run as hawkeye, Occupy Avengers, West Coast Avengers, Captain America & Hawkeye, etc)

Also, Jarvis is a butler, not an A.I, since we don’t care if people think he’s too much like Alfred, but Tony worked on an A.I. (or two one J.A.R.V.I.S based, the other Friday based)

As for the events, everything happens the same up until Age of Ultron, where Wanda tries to get to Clint first, but Clint uses his super secret power a.k.a adopt stray, like he had on Natasha years before, the rest of the movie doesnt happen

So 1. Clint doesn’t have a secret family hidden in a farm, 2.Ultron is not built 3. Bruce is not lost 4. PIETRO LIVES

There’s a small difference with Captain America: Winter Soldier and that is since we arent constrained by actors schedules, that clint scene happened

Not that it makes a big difference in the grand scheme of the AU, but it appeases my mind

Tony does end up building Vision, but since AoU didn’t really happen and wanda didn’t put that vision of the future in his head, he’s taking it more slow and ends up using one of the A.I he was working on as the base for Vision.

The team works together, they look for Bucky, fight against Hydra, A.I.M. Doctor Doom, Aliens etc

Steve told Tony that bucky had killed his parents and Tony came to terms that Bucky was under hydra’s control

Also not that it makes a difference but 1. Peter is 23 and not a high school teenager, 2. the x-men and 3. deadpool exist and 4. So do the Fantastic Four and 5. Pietro mostly works with the x-men 6. Falcon’s Red Bird is an actual bird 6. Doctor Strange is like 70 years old in this AU, his car accident happened not because he was distracted by a screen, but he was reading some notes. He doesn’t age, so he’s forever 35

Oh and Pietro and Wanda are ROMANI

Okay so about Civil War, when ross comes knocking on Avengers Towers, Bruce looks at him in the eyes and tell him “Harlem was YOUR fault” and also “Pretend all you want, you haven’t changed. For you, it was always about having the power controlled by you.” and ross goes away

And to ensure he doesn’t come back, Tony hires attorney Matt Murdock to find a loophole to make the avengers not-privately-owned

Then, Bruce and Thor are bff (or boyfriends if you prefer) and go on a space adventure, Thor goes back to Asgard and Bruce tries to go back to earth but ends up on Sakaar. Thor Ragnarok happens

Then infinity war, so Thanos kills the people on the Asgard ship (including/especially Loki (i have plans for him, just wait)), he also kills Gamora. And Visions mind stone is destroyed, but since the Avengers + the Guardians + Doc Strange + Wakanda + the X-men+the Fanatstic Four+ the Defenders + Frank Castle + Phil’s SHILED team are all working together as a team, they defeat the purple grape.

Now more important to the AU, a lot of this part is based on the Young Avengers comics, but still based in the MCU

After the battle au Wakanda, half the Avengers retire. Harley Keener comes in and becomes Iron Lad. He basically takes the place of Nate/kang the conqueror as kid from the comics

“[...] he downloads the remnants of the destroyed Vision's operating system into his armor. This reveals a fail-safe plan created by the android to reform the Avengers should they disband or fall in action by locating the next generation of Avengers [...] Using this plan, [Harley] assembles his new team, the Young Avengers”

Harley recruits Teddy, the son of og Captain Marvel (Mar-vell) and a Skrull princess (this au is made before the Captain Movie comes out, so we don’t know yet if Mar-vell dies and if he does, then when but this is an AU so we just say that he wasnt dead around 2002), and Billy (who is, along with Tommy, the soul son of Wanda and Vision)), Eli, the grand son of a soldier who had received a trial of a super soldier serum. They later crash into Kate Bishop, who joins them and becomes Hawkeye. Together they bust Tommy out of juvie

Shuri is able to save Vision, but his memory/life experience is none existent, so he’s given a kid/teen body and he calls himself Jonas

Then most of the Avengers come back to being Avengers and Steve decides that the Young Avengers need training and supervision and names Clint as the leader/mentor of the YA (both because he thinks Clint is the best for the jobs but also to shut him up (Clint is always arguing with Captain America about how he could lead the team better than Steve))

Then most of the Young Avengers have to leave for College and they all decide to go to California together, Clint goes with them and they rebrand to the West Coast Avengers. Except Eli retires and stays in New York with his grandpa. Tony gives them a mansion they make their home/headquarters andgives them Jarvis (the human) (because can you really trust Clint to take care of himself and a bunch of college kids?) (and also by then tony has already finished the other A.I which, as you already know, he named FRIDAY)

Then America punches her way into the dimension and joins the team.

And since Scott lives in the West coast too, he and Hope work with the WCA avengers sometimes too. They also found out that Cassie Lang, Scott daughter, had powers because she used to sneak and used Pym particles so now she can size shift. She hangs out a lot with the WCA and joins then on missions sometimes but she’s like 16 (she argues that that’s the Age the YA started at tho but her mom is still protective of her)

Oh and then Thor brought in Loki who was reborn/reincarnated/resurrected as a kid, Billy aged him to a teen to make him more powerful

So all that was the world building, now we get to the premises of the fic

All this time, Bucky was still in hiding, in Romania, trying to figure out who he was. He’s no longer afraid of who he was, gets in contact with Steve. They have a tearful reunion.

Bucky gets along with Tony and Tony works on his arm. Tony works with Reed Richards (from the F4), Prof X (from the X-men) and Doctor Strange to ensure that Bucky is 100% free of Hydra (aka make sure the Trigger words don’t work ). (stupid note aside, Namor sees the four of them working together without him, thinks they’re excluding him from the Illuminati, goes to the King of the Inhumans who just ignore him , So Namor ends up planning revenge with Doom/making out with him)

Bucky still first weird around the Avengers and the relationship with Steve is weird because although Steve still gets into fights, he doesn't need protecting, Bucky has yet to find a purpose. So Steve sends Bucky to the one the guy who can understand Bucky the most, regarding mind control and also has a super power, which is “adopting strays”. In other words he assigns Bucky to the West Coast Avengers.

Which work out great because Clint is no longer the only full-time adult on the team (other than Jarvis, and Jarvis would say he’s the only adult there if you asked him) and Bucky has another blond accident-prone disaster he can protect.

So Bucky and clint get to know each other, bond, be kind of Dads(™), and fall in love

Oh and i didn’t say but Lucky’s there

#winterhawk au #west coast avengers au #my fic #my au #i wrote like 1300 words of an au i will probs never write #winterhawk

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kostovas · 7 years

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my diary post about my feelings before going to college

august 22, 2017, 10:06 pm, my room in El Paso

The way that I tend to deal with my problems/worries is that I don’t think about them and ignore them and keep ignoring them until they get so big that I’m forced to think about and deal with them.

That is basically what I have been doing this entire summer. I don’t even remember the last time I wrote in my diary and I’ve decided to start typing it out instead since I’m afraid I won’t have the motivation to literally write out my diary in COLLEGE, aka, the problem/worry, which branches out into a bunch of other little problems/worries (I’m going to be living 10 hours away from home, what if I mess up while doing the laundry, what if the work is too hard, my parents are going to be sad,) that I have been pushing away

Although to be honest about 90% of the summer consisted of me in my room writing fan fiction or watching Netflix or scrolling through twitter, I still really didn’t think much about it…

Orientation? Did I even write about it? It was fine, it was good, I instantly clicked with my roommate sara, yes, same name as me, and my orientation-roommate was nice but I have a weird after-taste about her because she told me she was Latina because although she is German Swedish Irish french Spanish insert a billion other super white ethnicities here, her mom is from New Mexico!

Orientation just felt like a more cramped, panicked version of NSLC camp which I went to last year. NSLC was like, a random pocket-universe where I met new people who I spontaneously had a lot in common with and thought about my future in entertainment business with just for fun. Orientation is where I met new people who I very un-spontaneously had at least one thing in common with, starting ut, and thought about my future for real.

I feel like I’ve got some things down, aka my class schedule and what music I could potentially listen to while walking around campus (my Austin playlist is a lot of vampire weekend and sza and I know that sounds like a weird combo but it feels insanely fitting) but for the most part I still very much have ABSOLUTELY ZERO IDEA WHAT I AM DOING!

I…. AM PANICKING BIG TIME RIGHT NOW… I CRIED LIKE A MINUTE BEFORE I STARTED WRITING THIS… WHICH I HAVE NOT DONE (at least not over anything that wasn’t a book or a tv show or a movie) THIS ENTIRE SUMMER!!!

This summer, although filled with a lot of nothing and empty spaces, felt so perfect and so teenage-me. Maybe not truly me, truly what I would have done in my perfect world, but just… what I would do as a teenager. I know I’m still technically going to be a teenager for at least awhile in college, but, not like this. Not the El Paso bred high school boredom tennis court by Lorde Gilmore girls crying teenager. I’ll be something else, whatever it is, and I have no idea what. I am afraid to meet her. I am excited I am scared I am going to vomit all over this new computer I bought for college

I went to a lot of movies this summer, mostly with nicole and mostly at the Alamo draft house and mostly before they came out (baby driver, good time, which I both liked but baby driver way more).

I got my drivers license and I passed the test by literally oNE POINT

I drove by myself to nicoles apartment and we had weird conversations about our psychic feelings and premonitions about our own lives and deaths. That was the first time I drove by myself and it was for about five minutes and I sung out loud to dua lipa the entire time because I feel like falling asleep any time I go in a moving vehicle and theres no music and my dad drove me back later because it was raining.

I also drove to pick up alondra the Friday before she left for college. Her first day of school was today and she left like a week early. She’s in South Carolina at college of Charleston and I’m even scared for her. We got chick fil a and went home and talked about da Vinci and being Latina outside of El Paso and random memories and feelings and nothing and everything and nothing again

I hung out with my grandpa a lot, who has been staying here all summer. Yesterday he showed me a picture of my great grandpa who I had never seen before and I was so shocked, he looked like a real Mexican movie star cowboy, I have no idea what John Wayne looks like but he should look like my great grandpa, panfilo vela. Yesterday in particular my grandpa worried about pregnant women because the solar eclipse was happening and they were not wearing safety pins, a latino superstition he said so firmly as a scientific fact that I was really confused and briefly wondering if there was some sort of pregnant women’s medical pin. My dad said ‘that’s part of his charm’’ believing things so intensely, I guess. I think I got some of that from him

I went to San Antonio last week with tia 1 and valerie and Abuelita and my family. Tia 2 is usually the one to go on vacations with us, but she has this new best friend who she is in a two-person cult with, with her BFF/Bestie/Twinsie (yes, she is a 40+ year old woman, who calls her that) being the leader and her being the devout follower, paying for all her tickets to schiltterbaun and the movies and everything she buys while shopping and all her food and yelling at her employees for getting mad at her for something to do with a water bottle I don’t know but it’s definitely throwing off the balance of the universe.

But it was fun, tia 1 is very loud and charismatic and doesnt give any fucks and now I like to say “no mas mis chicharrones truenan aqui” also I am mad I am not more tan

I learned how to make crepes I have made at least 7 successful ones

Okay. so. crying. Here’s a text I sent to the vampire weekend group chat earlier:

(redacted) I really feel like my dad raised me mostly and he just took me out to the fanciest dinner of my life as a “father-daughter dinner” before college and he ran into some friends who were older than him and they were like “ur gonna miss her it’s gonna suck!” And I think my dad almost cried and we talked about heaven in the car and now I’m home and there’s boxes in my room and I’m staring at them and crying

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My dad put together those boxes for me with longhorn tape. Burnt orange duct tape with white longhorn shapes on them, literally That’s where my arts and crafts related headassery comes from

I’m going to be staying in a dorm at UT with my own restroom and now I’m thinking do I even really know how to clean a shower NOT REALLY

I’m gonna end up googling it while I’m there

I feel like I don’t actually know how to iron like I’m doing it wrong for sure

The restaurant was called cafe central it’s in downtown El Paso which I think is really truly beautiful even though objectively it’s ugly I’m super emotional and so I think it’s extremely beautiful and it’s just. I feel . It’s just how I feel.

I feel so in touch with the El Paso city it doesn’t even feel real. I feel like all the abandoned buildings are just cardboard cutouts and I have the power to knock them over with my fingertips. the homeless guys there don’t even scare me that much even though they probably should, not even the old lady with the bandaids all over her hands who stole Isaac’s hot dog once

god. That dinner was so fancy and I kept thinking about all these early 2000s chick flicks where a girl eats in a fancy restaurant for one reason or another and I kept thinking about how I love my dad and I kept thinking about how why do we need four different knives and I kept thinking about how that place started in 1918 so it probably wouldn’t have allowed someone who looked like my dad in there for awhile but there I was sitting with my dark brown dad eating food with names and ingredients I have literally never heard of and the chocolate cake melted into itself and chamomile tea is a gift from god

I read a lot of matt Murdock fanfiction today.

How am I 18 years old? I don’t want to… do anything ever… I want to read fan fiction and lay face down on the floor, but not even those two things can be accomplished at the same time.

NOTE: (redacted) means I took something out in case some certain irl people read this, maybe I should’ve taken the thing about tia 2 out but, well, I am somewhat at peace with death

#personal #me18 #writing #mine #diary

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alittleroseandhoneyblog-blog · 5 years

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Boymom- It’s an experience not a description

Boy: (Boi)

1. The wildest of all animal

2. A noise with dirt on it

3. Most precious to their mothers!

Mom: (Mam)

1. Hero that does whatever it takes to get shit done

2. Absolutely never wrong about anything. Ever!

“You’re crazy” – I have heard that about a dozen times leading up to this weekend but mostly from parents as they happily dropped their children off at what has turned out to be a “thing” two years in a row. But here is what I learned this week about being a little crazy – It makes for one hell of a time.

I’ve always had a thing with parties, as a teenager my birthday was a month long event that usually ended with some sort of party (which was the benefits of living in the country) my sweet 16 went down as one of the best parties of the year – and probably one of the best memories looking back and but now parties and holidays are no longer about me, which is fine (I guess) but they’ve become about everyone else because I am so busy putting it together- because Christmas Cheer and birthday parties would not exist without someone creating it and I can’t remember the last time “Santa” left a gift under the tree for me (which maybe puts me on the naughty list.) Either way, I’ve admitted it before I am guilty of being that mom who totally goes over board for Colton – his birthdays, Christmas, Easter – even Valentines day the kid expected something just because he exists but honestly, I obsess over it.

We celebrated his birthday 4 times this year – I am not even joking and not because I found it necessary to eat that much pizza, cake and ice cream (although I will not complain) We come from a family who are all separated- This means 4 nannies, 3 grandpas, 2 great grandparents, 3 aunts, 4 uncles, 6 cousins and 21 kids from their class all within the last 14 days.…. I am going to let you all process that for a second because I am not sure I have even processed it- I had nightmares about never ending birthday parties last night lol.

But I have the secret for surviving being able to pull off the party of the year without going bat shit crazy….

are you ready for the secret?

Find a mama who is just as crazy as you are and suddenly your crazy won’t seem as crazy lol!

I just so happen to have found a mama that is not only pretty bad ass herself, just as obsessive over her kid and guess what- just as crazy, if not crazier then I am! lol But she has a son named Logan (who is also pretty bad ass) who just so happens to be best friends with Colton who just so happens to be born 5 days apart from on another and when they aren’t getting mad at one each other for butting in line they are completely inseparable-

Kayla and I along with the boys (and without-which usually includes sangria and apps lol) have made some pretty awesome memories from waterparks and splashpads to family zoo trips and demolition derbies but I have to admit my favourite have been the last 2 years where we have combined the boys birthday parties and not only cut the costs in half but realistically the work- last year we had a smaller party of about 12 kids (at my house) with a magician- the theory was that they would stay upstairs in the attic where all of the toys were (WRONG btw, lol) and any of the adults who were brave enough to stay could hang out in the kitchen and graze the abundance of food they Kayla and I seem to always make- Better to have more, right?

This year was a no brainer to do the party together again, so when the boys birthday started to creep up we started to explore our options, but as they get older birthday parties get really expensive, we looked into sky zone which is about $400 for just the venue alone and we still needed to feed the minions, not to mention it was capped at 8 kids. Kingpin was slightly cheaper but again limited to 8 kids and anyone additional was about $10 each and that left us at picking and choosing who the boys would want -so we thought about maybe hosting it again at my house? but last year I swore off multiple children running around playing tag in my house and If I am being honest I didn’t have it in me to host it, so Kayla suggested the indoor soccer field where it holds up to 30 people, was perfectly priced and didn’t leave us picking and choosing kids - not to mention it came with an hour of running around on the soccer field. But birthday parties at 7 are so different then birthday parties at 5- it used to be family and close friends and their kids because up until JR kindergarten they aren’t running in any circles but then all of a sudden they have little friends, and in our case- girlfriends – and with our kids, although they are in the same class they have different friends as well so when it came to who to Invite how could we not invite the entire class- yes, all 21 of them…and the theory behind that (which we should stop doing because we are NEVER right lol) was to invite everyone, thinking not everyone will come…. Absolutely not the case lol they all showed up and let me tell you this- I have a new found respect for their teacher…any teacher actually- and I thank you because when every single one of them were screaming at the top of their lungs around the party table and it was me against 21 wild lions, you’re clapping method saved me- and I had a brief moment of silence to say what I needed to say.. but it was brief…let’s not get excited here

Lol- they went back to their regularly schedule screaming directly after.

What we learned from last year was that the children did not stay in the attic with all the toys and fun, they wanted to run, and jump on my bed or up and down the stairs and that putting the candy out at the beginning of the party was seriously not the brightest idea- and this year we used it to bribe the kids into a group photo! Lol We thought this year that providing a massive soccer field was just a brilliant idea and for many reasons it was, but we did not account for the multiple soccer balls being kicked around or the 32 year old man (aka my husband) who forgot he was playing with a bunch of 7 year old’s and lets just say Colton got a soccer ball to the face! (way to go dad) lol but honestly with very limited injuries- we survived and without alcohol – not to say we didn’t drink after!

So yes, “Crazy” was warranted, but is it crazy to want to include every single child when kids these days already struggle to fit in- to teach them at 7 to be inclusive – and Kayla and I struggled with the girls vs boys thing because many of the girls have been in their “circle” for 3 years now and it was impossible to not include them even when both the boys were against the girls coming (for about 5 minutes) I said it at the beginning, being a boy mom is not a description-it’s an experience and you kind of just have to go with the flow- where as the girls were more easier to deal with and just wanted to run wild, one of the boys told me he touched poop….while his hands were behind his back…. I’m not even joking – and outside of laughing a little I simply asked him to wash his hands and moved on- because it’s an experience Lol

Many of the parents though once they realized Kayla and I had it completely under control did comment on how genius it was to combine the party and I couldn’t agree more- the best of both worlds in my eyes!

I have to say watching them play together almost as if it was just a regular gym class was pretty neat- even with the 2 hours full of “I’m thirsty, I’m Hungry, and I need to go to the bathroom” and Kayla tied the same little girls shoe about 12 times because apparently we don’t use Velcro anymore lol but honestly – It was complete organized chaos and was a gentle reminder on why I only have one child and not a small army! They were cute but I was happy when 2:30 rolled around and parents started showing up to claim their children! Lol

I love being able to do those things with Kayla, these two have become such a huge part of our lives since we all met 3 years ago and although the boys fight like brothers and sometimes the waters get a little high they have always worked through it and Matt has even accepted that he has 2 wives and 2 children lol but honestly we are so lucky to have them!

One thing we did learn from this year though is that with 21 children and in my case 4 nannies, 3 grandpas, 2 great grand parents, 3 aunts, 4 uncles, 6 cousins comes with a mountain full of presents that truly is the last thing this kid needs- I could probably open my own toy shop with the amount of unopened boxes of lego, robots, cars and so much more- and if we could have changed one thing it would have been instead of bringing a present to have each child bring 5 bucks that the kids could have donated or put together and done something for their class- something I think we will try next time, that is if the boys don’t outgrow double birthday parties!

6 was a real treat- here’s to 7 and whatever experience is next!

#boymom

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Tiny Hero au pt.2

part 1

aka: the au where the Defenders are in highschool and juggling hero business and their own lives. (more stuff because I love this au fight me)

- Misty has four sisters, two older and two younger

The Knight sisters names are: Hyundaisha, Cami, Misty, Porschea, and Lexus.

Vladimir is the only one to realize. “Are you all named after cars?” Daisha “…ohmygod…” Misty “Well. If nothing else our parents are consistent.”

- Cornell Stokes runs the drug ring at school. He gets the athletes steroids. Band kids weed. He sells cocaine, Ritalin, and Oxycontin to anyone else.

Trish gets addicted to Ritalin. Ward gets addicted to Oxycontin. Jessica has a personal vendetta against Cottonmouth because he’s the one who brought the drugs into the school. He didn’t personally sell them to Trish but Jessica doesn’t care.

- Kilgrave is an asshole teacher who stalked, sexually, mentally, and emotionally abused Jessica her sophomore year. Dorothy didn’t take Jessica seriously when she told her what Kilgrave was doing to her but Trish believed her and wants to fight him. Consequently because Jessica believed no one would believe her, that they’d all brush her off just like Dorothy had, and she didn’t tell anyone other than Trish what happened, Kilgrave still works at the school. Jessica just tries to avoid going down the hall where his classroom is.

Eventually the other tiny heroes learn about what was done to her and Kilgrave gets an ass kicking. (good)

- Luke’s dad ends up leaving Luke and his mother Etta when Luke gets sent to juvi for the summer.

Willis had been in juvi a few years before Luke and James wants nothing to do with either of his sons, his wife, or his secretary Dana. Stryker blames Luke for this of course.

- Danny is adopted at the young age of four and does not remember his biological parents and so is very surprised when his half Chinese parents tell him when he’s fourteen that he is adopted.

Danny, “I’m adopted guys!” Luke, “And…. you are just now being told this?” Danny, “Uh huh!” Jessica, “And this surprises you?” Danny, “Why wouldn’t it?!” Luke, “Your… Chinese parents… told you you’re adopted… I’m so sorry? This must be so hard for you.” Matt, “… I don’t get it. Why is this sounding all awkward?” Jessica, “Danny is white Matt.”

- All of the other tiny heroes don’t have younger siblings and so they all adore the hell out of Wendy.

Wendy, Danny’s younger sister, and Candace (Candy), Foggy’s younger sister, are in the same grade, same class, and best friends.

- Claire leaves first aid kids at the club house for them so that in the middle of the night they can bandage each other up and she can hopefully get a full night’s sleep without them climbing up her fire escape.

- When she and Elektra start dating and Elektra stays the night, Elektra will steal her scrub pants and wear them sometimes (even if she has to roll them up a little bit because Claire is two and a half inches taller than she is)

- Matt sleeps with Maya, Elektra, Claire, Karen, and Natasha even though she doesn’t go to the same school as them. When he sleeps with Karen he gives her Foggy’s number instead of his because he’s a horrible friend.

Foggy, “Why does Karen keep texting me about how great last night was?” Matt, “I slept with her.” Foggy, “Matthew.” Matt, “What?” Foggy, “Aren’t you Catholic?!” Matt, “Never said I was a good one. Also can we talk about how she thinks she’s texting me but I’m blind?”

- Mariah Dillard is a rep for the local college who comes to the high school for community service and to recruit kids for the university.

Shades is thirsty as hell for her and everyone but Cornell knows it.

- The tiny heroes all get their comic outfits and wear them. Matt and Danny love theirs. Jessica wants to gag. Luke says they all look like damn fools.

The idea of costumes and codenames comes up when after a week of crime fighting they keep yelling each other’s names. So Danny, “We need codenames.” Jessica, “Probably super suits. No capes.” Luke, “Agreed. No capes. They’re ridiculous. Matt, “I know a guy who can make us costumes.”

In the end they get rid of the suits. (”How is a chain as a belt functional?!” “Danny that collar is ridiculous.” “I look like a stripper.” “Matt… what the hell is with the devil horns?”) They go back to their jeans and hoodies and masks. But Danny so wears the tracksuit outfit.

- Misty has been going to Colleen’s grandpa’s dojo since she was a kid and even though she and Colleen are two years apart, they’re the best of friends. They will fuck someone up if that someone hurts their bestie.

- Matt is a little snot to Maggie because he’s so sure she’s going to send him back to the orphanage.

She legally adopts him after he knows she’s his biological mother. She asks if he would be alright with her adopting him before he knows though.

- Elektra is adopted by a Greek family and skypes her older brother, Orestez, who is in college in Greece.

She was also trained by Stick for quite a few years until he sent her to Greece when she was 8. She and Orestez are fairly close. She speaks Khmer, English, and Greek.

When she and Matt broke into a house their freshman year and her father came to pick her up and he asked her, “What the hell were you thinking?” She says, in Greek, “I don’t speak English.” So he switches over to Greek. “What were you thinking, young lady?” She switches to English, “I don’t speak Greek.” “You’re speaking English now.” She switches to Khmer, “Well now what are you going to do?” He can’t understand her. “Okay. You are grounded.”

- Colleen is a quarter Chinese, a quarter Irish, and half Japanese. Her hair is shockingly surprisingly red. She dyes it brown because she doesn’t think she looks good with red hair.

- Ever seen pictures of Sebastian Stan’s twink phase? (I mean…) Yeah. That’s Matt’s fashion sense in this whole au.

- Anatoly is the most overprotective brother. Not even just to Vladimir but to the tiny heroes. Which confuses them because “Aren’t you supposed to be trying to kill us? And aren’t we supposed to be kicking your ass?” “I can’t. You’re children. All my brother’s age and I raised him. I can’t fight you idiots. GO THE FUCK HOME!”

- Fisk has adopted Maya Lopez and is raising her.

She doesn’t know he’s the reason her father is dead and Fisk did not approve at all when she and Matt briefly dated.

- Anatoly is sassy as hell but Matt is still the sass master.

- Claire is the best at giving sutures in her whole class since she gets far too much practice on the tiny heroes.

- Elektra’s favorite game to play is the knife game. She likes to do it blindfolded and it scares everyone but she has so much fun.

- Elektra and Vladimir argue over which ESC song is the best but agree full heartedly that “Love Love Peace Peace deserved to win. We should have been able to vote for it. Also, where is my Love Love Peace Peace single? Come on now!”

- When Matt begins to really trust Maggie he invites Foggy over to his house.

“Wow. Everything must be going well.” “Huh?” “It’s just… you’ve never invited me over to a foster home of yours before. You know? This is the first time ever. Usually you want to come over to my house.”

and YIKES this got looong! Eventually I’ll one day write for this au because I love it so much.

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