every day.... every day i see a really cool generic (as in not character-specific) whump post that i want to reblog and then realize it's unnecessarily gendered to make all the characters men...... WOE

kabru's relationship with his eyes makes for suuuuuch a fantastic trans allegory (an aspect of your body alienating you from your community, being compelled to understand the perspective of someone who also has a complicated relationship with their body in the hopes that you'll better understand your own, people straight up misunderstanding biology) it makes me kind of insane because now I feel like I can't dig into any complicated feelings he might have about his body in relation to his gender without feeling like im just ... double dipping?? like fifjpejgh ryoko kui straight up already told that story in a way that exquisitely fucks??

i was thinking about your dirk and hal poll and i want to mention that i think your concept for ink and iron where dirk creates hal from his reflection by enchanting a mirror is so cool 😌

thank you! hal's predicament and purpose within the canon narrative is so fascinating and i felt it was really important to find a way to explore what i find most interesting with him. i can't take full credit for the concept though i took inspiration from a few placees (one of my friends pitched the idea of the mirror accidentally dumping him onto jake's doorstop for example) but overall i think the idea is very fun and i'm really excited to write more hal stuff!!! also i'm going to take the opportunity to share this oldish doodle i found:

the mispelling of angel as angle was NOT intentional (<- dyslexia haver) but it probably explains a lot. he's pointy

me every few years swinging between using bisexual and lesbian bc I thought a middle aged actor was hot

anyway. this is a coming out post. again. lesbian 👍

there will probably be more every few years and at this point that's just my lot in life

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Dallon Weekes Lyrics Of A Certain ThemeTM

Mx. Sinister, iDKHOW || Girls/Girls/Boys, P!aTD || All The Boys, P!aTD || The Nerve, The Brobecks || Clusterhug, The Brobecks/iDKHOW || Better Than Me, The Brobecks

it's so funny (read: sad) that if bigoted fuckheads didn't insist i was a woman simply by virtue of my body at birth, i'd probably be chill with she/her pronouns in addition to he/they. if my mom didn't insist i was her daughter, i'd probably let her call me that, and we could still have a relationship.

i'm nonbinary and 'gendered' words are hypothetically meaningless, but because there are so many people who are more interested in telling me who i am rather than lovingly and curiously letting me express my own sense of self, those words carry trauma.

there's no reason a nonbinary person like myself can't be a son and a child and a daughter. there's no reason a nonbinary person like me can't go by he, they, and she.

'she' is not a slur. 'daughter' is not derogatory. 'beautiful' 'pretty' 'gorgeous' 'feminine' are not insults.

to the contrary, they're parts of language that express certain facets of a multi-faceted human existence, like mine.

and i have this sad, mournful feeling that if it weren't for unloving, condescending people, i'd probably be down to be called any of those things alongside my usual masculine/neutral terminology.

but i'd rather die than let anyone tell me what i have to be called.

idk if this is too boring of me to say or something but yk what it kinda bothers me whenever theres a pair of friends from a piece of media and the entire comment section is about how those 2 shouldve ended up in a relationship because they were such good friends in the canon. like. they already WERE in a relationship, a platonic one, and that friendship was clearly good?? so why does it always have to go that every single pair of friends just. like. isnt enough as friends?

idk i get shipping is fun and whatever but is there not a reality where yall could just enjoy a friendship between two characters who could theoretically be attracted to eachother but arent.

The fact that I have not seen a single fanart of Levi in a dress or a skirt is torture to me, do you fucking SEE that man

I think one of the biggest things that's helping me feel more certain in my transition is the realization that I am extremely good at enduring. I've learned to endure pretty much anything. I can be in a situation that I hate and just switch off and ride it out until it's over. When I was a kid it was because there was nothing I could ever do about it. I hate long loud boring gatherings but I'd have to stay until my parents took me home many hours later. I hate traveling but I'd have to endure it for weeks. It's taught me a great deal of patience, I do it all the time now. I endure long journeys, events I didn't want to attend, trips I didn't want to take, people I don't want to hang out with... It's an important skill to have. but the thing is, I was subconsciously planning on doing that with my gender dysphoria for the rest of my entire life. I WAS doing that for years, not even trying to explore what that horrible feeling was. I'm the endurer! I endure! I switch off and ride it out until it's... over.

Maybe this isn't one of those things I have to put up with. Maybe it's time to stop enduring my life and start enjoying it.

Maybe because gay people can like or dislike things as much as straight people can?

Miles G going to his shitty dayjob during school breaks and Miles’s friends somehow find where he works and pop in to say hi, maybe order something, and then skedaddle. However Hobie stays the longest when he’s visiting alone, and at some point they end up talking about what it’s like being a black guy dealing with entitled white customers, and Miles G says “well mostly anyway” and Hobie gives him this look. and that’s like leaving a closed door unlocked where previously there was no door at all. because Miles G. doesn’t talk to people about this, barely even the other Miles, but Hobie just has that aura (and the gay pride pin on his jacket) that you can tell him just about anything. Anyway queer black solidarity

Flannon (🍮) here!

Do you have any brain worms or yip yaps about the DOL love interests/npcs? I’d be interested to hear your take on some of them and how you view them!

Oh and who’s ur fav? Personally mine is either Sydney (esp fallen) or Alex :3

Also do you think you’ll write more abt it in the future or should I slow down on DOL asks? I’ll happily send in more TDV asks or whatever

Oughhhh I have so many brain worms about them all!!!!!! My favourite LIs are definitely Kylar, Robin, and Whitney. But my favourite characters over all are probably Mickey, Darryl, and Landry!

I'd absolutely love to write more DoL stuff and talk about it more, especially with Izzy because I love her and I actually prefer writing oc/canon to reader/canon tbh so feel free to keep sending any asks you want!

As for rambles about the characters...

Okay the most important thing I feel deep in my soul is that Sirris and Sydney have the same type. And Sirris would 100% be down to share. All y'all would need would be to convince Sydney to fuck you both~

I also firmly believe that Sam absolutely knows what's in those buns. The reason they prop open the door when they almost catch you is because they're hoping you'll do it again and they'll be able to peep on you. They're 100% a major vouyeur!

I think Mickey and Landry should fuck and also be in love. This isn't like a meta or headcanon or anything, I just think it would be nice for them both :3

Okay I have a LOT of thoughts about Gwylan also. Mostly being that I think there's more to them than meets the eye. See, there's Gwylan who spends 24 hours a day, 7 days a week at the shop. With a grandparent who never appears despite allegedly owning the shop. A fact they only belatedly remember to mention. The shop is on the edge of the woods, and Gwylan knows about Eden despite Eden not seeming to know about Gwylan at first. What else is in the forest? The cemetery, the churchyard/catacombs, and the spooky manor. The remnants of a time long gone, when people lived in the forest. Enough people to warrant a cemetary and a church with catacombs. Gwylan is also said to be older than they appear. I do think that someone bought the forest shop long enough ago to be Gwylan's grandparent, but... I think that person was Gwylan. I think they're some sort of immortal (a vampire, perhaps?) who has been running the store since they first built it. I think the manor was once theirs/belonged to their family. I think they watched the manor and cemetary and churchyard fall into ruin over time, moving into the shop because they no longer need sleep.

Anyway I've run out of other thoughts cause I'm too busy thinking about Gwylan so I'm gonna stop here.

It's not necessarily a knock on ppl but man there's something about being in a fandom and seeing people who's lineup of favorite ships are all the most. Like. Hetbait ships? You know what I mean?

And it's like one or two you can go "yeah I get it, there's at least some canon backing to it" but when that's all they're into and it leaves you going like. Where's your imagination dude these are all so... basic. Like it's not even necessarily that they're straight ships it's that they're the most surface level things you could come up with. And some of this is dependent on the way they treat their ships ofc but still

And its not even that they come across as anti-queer (at least outwardly) its just the general feeling that the idea of something that isn't a heterosexual romance even crosses their minds. They live in a little vanilla bubble, and you're watching them floating along, wondering how they can't be so so bored

there is a general transmisogynist tendency to explain transmisogyny or trans womanhood as a product of essentialist (often biological but also social) difference. this is a reiteration of the cisexism dominant in patriarchy.

the production of 'biological truths' by birth assignment is biopolitical and does not necessarily say anything specific about a body beyond the fact that it has been coercively assigned a sex. in the case of those designated male, it says that this body is now expected to become a boy, then a man. this threat is backed by both social and medical institutions with the duty to intervene if this body (/mind) derives from the ideal (racialized) male form.

by treating the socially constructed ideal male as natural, passively becoming a purebred american heterosexual, deviation from the norm becomes the intervention, the artificial. like a defective component - always in relation to what it ought to be, as if this was something it always already was, but failed to properly maintain, affirm, or celebrate in its deviance - but still fundamentally that component regardless. a worn out gear is still a broken gear, even if its a coaster now.

so the difference in assignment between cis and trans women becomes not fundamentally a difference in duty, expectation, or treatment, but a difference in essence which produces variation in duty, expectation, and treatment. many feminists can recognize that this essence cant be prediscursive, apolitical and natural, but must be (re)produced. 'male socialization' thus becomes a term of abuse not to discuss the construction of manhood but as a way to maintain this particular gender essentialism about the necessary success of socialization while serving as a reification of 'male biology' and a cover for the correctness of assignment. male-socialized as indicative a state of being rather than a history, similarly to how cisexists employ asab terminology to express their cisexism.

at the end of the day, cisexism demands essential manhood somewhere in every victim of its assignment to justify itself. whether we situate it in biology or socialization doesnt significantly change the transmisogyny at play because both are used to mischaracterize us as necessarily men

Concept art/references for characters that exist in an Au in my head<3

So wanna start by saying thank you to @xhunterbeatsx as they let me use some of the randomly generated mew and twos they got which led to the creation of this beautiful shiny baben and for giving me the idea that the mew has a gengar parent so thank uuu!!

Homebound au is basically silly guys (gender neutral) they live in a house with a human and they feel safe and happy shenanigans house hold jobs and crossovers ensue with character developments ect ect, may never make it may one day do it who knows for now the goobers

Both of them are part poison in their own way, the mewtwo having Poison tera type and I wanted elements of that in their design so spooky green tail patterns and skull go brrrr and obviously the Gengar poison genes tho the mew can consciously control poison creation and the mewtwo is only poison when using Tera stuff I just wanted elements in my design cause I can

The mewtwo many darker colored mega parts are likely poison sacks, toxic baby<3

Meanwhile Mew can activate a sort of mega but only on their Gengar side just leaning into their heritage more.

Despite the megas I doubt they really use them they're safe and happy in their home and like their human caretaker<3 they're very just happy together coexisting she keeps them safe they feel safe and are well fed enriched ect. It's just a soft they're in a house au

The prompt Hunter very kindly shared and the background for funsies as I thought it was neat, def probably gonna reuse lmao

In general I'm kind of glad some people are criticizing the presentation of cis butch women as like, Basically Trans And Radically Genderfucky And Queer by default bc I don't think it's a particularly accurate description of either cis butch or transmasculine Experiences(tm). Idk so much of it leans towards The Inherent Uterine Trauma Of Girlhood shit, basically "trans men are my sisters" dressed up in another coat of paint. Obviously it's fine to feel Solidarity with cis butches or to be a transmasc butch or whatever, I cannot make those choices for anyone, but the slightly popular notion that there is some inherent solidarity felt or similarity of life experience shared between all trans men and all cis butch women (and only CIS butch women) is a view of gender I am not particularly fond of and which I think is far more binary than it claims to be lol