Illicit affairs
Synopsis: Choi Yeonjun was the leader of the dance team, he was one of the most popular guys at school. Your older sister, Yunjin, is one of Yeonjun’s close friends causing you to occasionally hang out with them. What happens when Yeonjun tells you he wants to see you behind everyone’s back?
Genre: angst, very little fluff
Warnings: might contain grammar and spelling mistakes, maybe cursing, angst, unrequited feelings
A/N: i know Yeonjun would never do this but I got inspired on illicit affairs by mother Taylor Swift 😭
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“Hey yn” it was him. He was always late when you met. “Sorry I’m late, I had to stay more time at practice.” He got closer to you and cupped your face with both of his hands. “Forgive me?” He looked down at you, his eyes glittered and he had a small pout on his face. He got closer to you and pecked your lips.
You nodded with a dumb smile on your face. You hated that he had so much power over you, and you forgave him every time.
“That’s my girl.” He said smiling and releasing your face from his hold.
After you two hung out at an empty parking lot, he would say goodbye by giving you a long kiss on your lips. You noticed when he walked away he always wore the hood of his sweatshirt and walked fast almost running with his head low.
It hurt you that things had to be like that. You didn’t understand why Yeonjun would hide your relationship. It was very confusing, but you forgot all that confusion when you were with him.
He made you feel many things. He was your first love, and your first everything.
You treasured the memory of your first kiss with him. It happened a few months after you met him. Your sister Yunjin hosted a party at your house when your parents left for a work trip, it was almost 2 am when you walked into the kitchen, the music was still loud but people were starting to leave. As you entered to the kitchen you saw Yeonjun leaning on a counter with a cup on his hands.
“Hey yn, thought you were sleeping.”
“Oh, no, I couldn’t sleep with all the music and I also came to check that everything was alright.”
He nodded and stared at you.
“You look so cute.” He stared at you as he walked closer. You already had your pajamas on, that consisted on an old t-shirt and some pants.
“Thank you.” You were taken aback by his comment, you blushed while staring at him. “Why are you here alone? Where’s Yunjin?” It was weird that he was alone, he was normally crowded by his friends and other people.
“She’s outside with Soobin and Sakura, but she told me that you might come down around this hour.” He said looking into your eyes.
Every time there was a party at your house you would check on everything around this hour just to make sure that everything was fine. You felt like you needed to check that everything and everyone was alright. “You were waiting for me?”
He chuckled. “Well, you can say that. I wanted to see you.” He leaned forward closer to you.
“But why?” It surely was something weird. You never expected Yeonjun to say that to you. Although he was your friend, you didn’t exactly talk to him that much.
“God, yn you’re so oblivious… it’s so cute.” Your eyes widened at his words and he smiled leaning even closer. “You know, I really like you.”
“You do?” You felt his breath on your lips, he nodded. He grabbed your chin gently tilting your head so he could get a better view of your face. “Can I?”
You nodded and he leaned in pressing his lips into yours for a few seconds. He pulled away smiling and he brushed his thumb on your cheek.
And that’s how it all started.
One day you were walking to school with your friend Kai, he has been your best friends since you were in middle school. He was the only person who knew about you and Yeonjun, but he didn’t really approved your relationship.
“Why do you keep making him lunch? Why can’t he make it himself?” Kai said while rolling his eyes. It was kind of a tradition of yours to make lunch for Yeonjun.
“Well, he likes it when I do it, plus I get to talk to him.”
“Talk to him? He merely says thank you!” He rolled his eyes and continued walking.
“We always talk after school, and he always says he loves it when I make him lunch.” You smiled at the thought of him giving you a kiss as a thank you.
“I still don’t understand why he doesn’t want to tell anyone of your relationship, is he ashamed or something?”
“Don’t say that Kai! Of course he isn’t ashamed, he just wants a little bit of more time.” Kai sighed and you both got to school.
You looked for Yeonjun at the dance room where he was practicing. When you reached the classroom you peered through a window and saw that Yeonjun was talking to Areum. She was a year above you and everyone knew she liked Yeonjun for a very long time. It made your heart hurt a little to see him with her.
You entered the classroom and catched Beomgyu’s attention. He walked towards you with a sweet smile.
“Hey ynnie!” He patted your head.
“Hello Beomgyu.” You smiled at him. Beomgyu was also a year above you, but you knew him since he tutored you before your chemistry exam. You did pass the exam.
“Are you here to see us practice?” He asked still smiling. He looked like a golden retriever, he was always so full of energy.
“Um, actually I wanted to talk to Yeonjun…” you looked behind his shoulder, and Yeonjun was already walking towards you.
“Hey kid, need something?” He said when he reached you.
“I brought you lunch, Yunjin and I baked some bread yesterday and I thought that you may like it.” You smiled handing him a small bag. He smiled shortly and ruffled your hair, he muttered a small ‘thank you’ and left to continue with his routine.
“Do you still have bread.” You heard Beomgyu,s voice.
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You were in Yeonjun’s house. You told your parents you were going to Kai’s house to finish a project, but you didn’t.
You were laying in Yeonjun’s bed next to him. His head was on your chest and your hand played softly with his hair.
“Hey Jun” you whispered softly and he hummed in response. “When are we going to tell everyone we’re dating?” You felt him tense up and he looked up at you.
“Baby I already told you, we just need a bit more time okay?” You were ready to ask why when he leaned in pressing his lips against yours. “Trust me, please.” You nodded.
After a few hours you went back home. You locked yourself in your room and sat quietly in your bed. Without even noticing, tears started falling from your eyes. It hurt that Yeonjun wanted to keep it a secret. Deep down you knew he didn’t need time, you just didn’t want to accept it. You told yourself you can always stop. Oh but you would ruin yourself a million times for him. An he knew that
Months went by and you were still like this. Hiding, loving each other, and then wanting to stop. You gathered all your strength, and it cost you a lot, but you were finally going to do it. You were confronting Yeonjun.
You wore his favorite perfume, the one your sister gave you for your birthday, the one he had told you that will always remind him of you.
You told him to meet you at the same old parking lot you often saw each other after school. On your way there you thought about how painful it was going to be. You tried to ignore that feeling, but it was impossible, you really fell for him. You loved him. When you were with him you felt like you saw new colors, you could speak a different language that only you and him could understand. But all that had to end. Because you weren't going to tolerate being treated like that. Maybe he did love you, but why did it have to be in secret?
You saw him leaning against a wall, he was waiting for you and when he saw you he smiled and got closer to you with open arms, but when you didn't run to him and embrace him like you always did he changed his expression into a concerned one. "Baby what's wrong?"
You looked down and he grabbed your chin to make you look at him. You were already crying without even saying anything. "Jun, I'm sorry" you tried to hold back a sob.
"What do you mean?" you could actually see worry in his eyes. But that wouldn't stop you. So with a deep breath you managed to tell him.
"I can't do this anymore... I love you Yeonjun, i really do, but I can't be with someone who hurts me this much...I can't keep pretending that we're nothing, because it really hurts me. Keep pretending that you're just my sisters friend, that I mean nothing to you..."
He was also crying. His tears made their way down his cheeks, he really looked hurt. "Baby wh-" you didn't let him finish.
"Don't call me baby... look at how of an idiotic fool that you made me... I feel stupid now, I waited months for you, and nothing happened, Yeonjun. I don't know why you insisted on hiding our relationship. Where you embarrassed? Was I not enough?"
"Stop saying that!"
"Then tell me what was it!" You responded, your voice was louder this time. But he stayed silent. "Don't look for me. I don't want to see you again." You left.
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