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Uruughghrgh I still need to build her... Forever stuck at E1
Linktree / Commissions / Ko-fi
#arknights#skadi#skadi arknights#happy big butch friday everyone#lesbian#lesbian artist#artists on tumblr#i should build her but I'm honestly so lazy when it comes to grinding in these games bc it gets in my nerves with how long it takes#so unless I need you RIGHT NOW you not getting built anytime soon sorry to all my ops that are gathering dust :((#that or I need to be insane in the membrane for you (Ling)
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I don't know anything about baseball
Bonus:
In case you can't read my shit handwriting:
Nanjo: having the time of his life
Naoya: wishing he was at the casino
Mark: Doesn't know the fuck hidehiko wants
Brown: Asking Mark for gum so he can look cool
#persona 1#persona#kei nanjo#naoya toudou#masao inaba#hidehiko uesugi#reiji kido#sorry I'm very persona 1 minded right now#its makes me happy drawing them and drawing the idea for fanarts I had for years lol#this is also very messy and the anatomy is atrocious but I went with more feeling and stylization that anything else#I was going to draw the mask thingy they use for mark but got extremely lazy
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I think your tags on the post about Paul's song Suicide got cut off. I was invested, and want to hear the rest of your thoughts :) Maybe you could put it all in a separate post if you don't want to add it as a reblog?
hey, thanks for this ask! It's always nice to have someone that wants to know my thoughts. I'd love to know yours on the subject too!
Okay super long text post under the cut
On “Suicide” 1956 and 1970
My interpretation of the meaning of Paul’s early song “Suicide” and its purpose on his debut solo album
The verse Paul had written in 1956 goes,
“If when she tries to run away
And he calls her back, she comes.
If there’s a next time, he’s okay
Cause she’s under both his thumbs.
She'll limp along to his side
Singing a song of ruin. I’d
Bet he says nothin’ doin’
I, I’d call it suicide.”
The song’s protagonist can’t leave an abusive relationship. The abuser knows it doesn’t matter what they do, the protagonist will always come back. Even when they’re limping, even when they vocalize their knowledge that this relationship is damaging, they’ll always come back, and the abuser is nonchalant. In the end,the singer likens the protagonist’s return to the relationship to suicide.
Just as the woman in the song is under her husband’s thumb, around the time this was written, Paul was very much under his father’s thumb. This was not due to any lack of self-direction or courage on his part. Jim was physically abusive (like the husband in the song) an addict, extremely controlling, and emotionally both unavailable and volatile. Still, in the same way that the woman in the song always goes back to her husband, Paul loved his father. It’s likely that Paul’s unusual degree of deference to his father was a combination of self-preservation and a genuine desire to help and please his father. Jim was also honest and well-liked, a lot of fun, intelligent, talented, a buyer of wonderful presents, and a supporter of Paul as a musician, and Paul felt great admiration and gratitude to Jim. And yet, Paul is not only the protagonist of “Suicide.” He’s also the singer. And the singer knows this relationship is destructive – bad enough to be likened to deadly.
So, “Suicide” is about Paul’s relationship with his father.
Enter John Lennon. Based on John’s perfect knowledge of “I lost my little girl” a full dozen years after being first shown it, I’m inclined to believe John was fully acquainted with the song “Suicide” and though I think pigs would fly before Paul would discuss its meaning with John, it’s not unlikely that he had his guesses.
It is also my tentative belief (based on the wording of the quote in which John talks about Paul and Jim and the issues with control and violence, the fact that John hit a lot of people, but never Paul, and the documented fact that John Lennon is intensely perceptive when it comes to Paul McCartney) that John knew Jim hit Paul. John hated Jim for all the same reasons Paul obeyed him. He hated that Jim was abusive, and he hated that Paul loved him. But. And here’s where I might be stepping on some toes. John and Jim share some important similarities.
Positives first. Both men are praised for being honest to a fault (Jim owning up to gambling debts and John being open and brash in interviews). Both are well-liked by almost everyone who knew them (People go on and on about what a gentleman Jim was, what a stand-up guy. People always think they’re John’s best friend after spending three hours with him) Both recognize Paul’s talent and give him the support he needs to pursue it (John obviously to a much higher degree) Both are described as being the life of the party and the center of attention.
Now negatives. Both men are highly susceptible to addiction. Both men pressured Paul about his lifestyle. Both are known to have been violent toward people they loved (although John was never violent toward Paul. This is important, and will be revisited). Both men had difficulty controlling their emotions or expressing them in a healthy way.
John eventually won his battle with Jim, as he states very proudly that Paul chose him in the end. He stood up to his father, as John claims he constantly begged him to do, and cast his lot with John, their partnership and their music. And, obviously, it was the right decision. Not only because it resulted in the greatest musical collaboration of all time, but because with John, Paul exchanged violence for softness. John was capable of a shocking level of care and tenderness, and for many years that was absolutely lavished on Paul. And I think they were both privately proud of that fact.
Jump to late 1969 / early 1970. John’s actions during the divorce (forcing Allen Klein – another violent and controlling man – on Paul, manipulating – self-admitedly – George and Ringo into turning against Paul, threatening – accidentally or on purpose – to treat Paul the way he’d treated Cynthia in their divorce, etc.) were hurtful enough to Paul that he was, in fact, suicidal (barely finding the strength not to suffocate himself in his pillow, taking way too much of everything, half-hoping he’ll overdose) and when he is finally pulling himself up again, he’s ignoring all John’s attempts to get him to come back (songs, interviews, letters, post-cards).
He puts out his debut solo album, the content of which makes John angry, though to an outsider, there doesn’t seem to be much there in the way of messaging.
Here’s what we get of “Suicide” a the end of “Glasses”, right before “Junk”
“ . . . song of ruin, I’d
Bet he says nothin’ doin’
I’d”
The part Paul chose to include was the abuser’s shrugging lack of surprise that the protagonist has returned, yet again, despite their knowledge that they’re walking back into abuse. I believe Paul’s message to John here is this: You were the one who taught me that there is a certain level of treatment I should expect from people who say they love me. Now that you’re the one who’s hurt me, you have to deal with what you’ve created. I’m not just going to come back to you with my tail between my legs and act like nothing happened. You taught me better than that. I’m really leaving. We’re really over.
#thanks for the ask!#that was thoughtful of you#Sorry I'm too lazy to find sources for all this#But I'm supposed to be studying for the LSAT right now plus I'm a new mom so#They're out there I swear I'm not making any of this shit up except for my theories#Seriously thanks though#this was fun#Paul McCartney#John Lennon#The Beatles#Mclennon#Jim McCartney
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💋 *bite bite* 💋
#dincobb#din x cobb#my art#vampire au#monster mash#this is my tag for this AU I'm too lazy to go back and change it up now#vampire din#I think... that's what I'm settled on finally#marshmando#marshalorian#I flipped din around way too much and I'm afraid it shows#dincobb fanart#sorry for not posting or doing anything recently I've been busy having the greatest impostor syndrome episode of my life#I'm dealing with it with spite but god my odds aren't the bestest here#a true shame for Din (I worked out the lighting right the first time and then flipped them around too much! D:) but I like Cobb very much
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cinematic parallels
#sorry the quality of the anthy screenshots is so dogshit i got them from the gifs on tenor#i'm too lazy to pull up the episode right now#higurashi#rgu#gamo.txt
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waterstones special edition of the chalice and the gods i love you
#books talks#LOOK AT THE SPRAYED EDGES#They aren’t on the top or bottom which big sad come on waterstones do better#BUT STILL#pjo#percy jackson#the chalice and the gods#precious book i have been waiting all day and now it is time to READ#i’ll be back and very extra unnormal in a couple of hours#not sorry for the inevitable reblog storm#also yes the nails are blue no it wasn’t intentional but i love it nonetheless#last time i was like this about pjo on tumblr it was boo i'm p sure#also getting this from the mailman was so sweet!!#he was like 'i've been delivering a lot of those (gestures to my waterstones parcels) the past few days- something happen?'#OH YES IT DID#did i intend on posting a fic before i let myself read tcotg? yeah but also lazy and the book is RIGHT THERE
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When will this end, exactly?
Seriously, can I have a specific date or something because I've sure as hell had enough and am begging everyone to just *move on* already.
#i'm sorry nobody has ever heard of breaking the fourth wall#because that's literally all that was - judi dench reading poetry to the audience for several minutes#like you know they just use them as the thumbnail too because it'll get clicks#when i can assure you there have been SO many more movies with shit endings#but that doesnt get lazy views right?#we get it cats 2019 had its issues - but if you do not like or get cats to begin with#i think you should have your rights to say anything about this movie taken away#anyway lmao this is boiling my beans way more#extemporize backchat#like how many times had watchmojo used cats now as a clickbait thumbnail - too many#and yeah theyre *watchmojo* so who cares but they are playing towards an audience who very much#eats consistent cheap shots up - it's a consistent fuel of a fire that should have been suffocated years ago#because you've beaten the horse to death
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Miku + Gumi Edits
^-^ Started fucking around with fancy icons and ideas for Rentry graphics... F2U if you don't mind they're not transparent ROFLMAO
#hatsune miku#vocaloid#gumi megpoid#i might come back and actually export them transparent but i am too lazy right now i'm sorry#carrd stuff#rentry stuff#rentry material#carrd material#carrd help#carrd resources#carrd pngs#rentry pngs#my uploads#make sure to link back if you use#my edits#these are from official licensed artwork ofc
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Violence moodboard :]
#pink posts#tw flashing gif#tw flashing images#flashing images#tw flashing lights#um. let me know if i need to tag more stuff i just wanna destroy stuff right now#oh shit yeah i need to put in the#me#<-- i'm too lazy to change the tag sorry
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I have fallen for you baiting with the Zelink kids, I’m begging to hear something about them
If you need something specific maybe their names and favorite hobbies or who they most take after
Whauwie YES
OK OK SO, so far i have built already how they come to be and all, I'm just working on how life will be like after totk (dont have the game yet, but friends do so imma be asking for sum help)
But so far, we have 2 kids! Both of them are girls, 3 years apart. Older sister is named Sonia (yes in honor of Queen Sonia herself), and the youngest is named Adira
Sonia is more like her dad, especially in terms of looks, but she had inherited her mother's eyes and thurst for answers. She's very energetic and adventurous, and likes helping others
She tends to be the guinea-pig to alot of her sister's projects and creations since she has almost no self preservation. She enjoys it tho, thinking it as a fun activity to try out new things and hang out with her sister. She also enjoys carving things, mainly toys and masks. Most of her sister's toys were made by her when they were around 11 and 8
Although she is usually quite the airhead, and not really the brightest (like her dad, cough-), she definitely inherited her mother's overthinker mind. Doesn't help that she also tends to think little of herself, being the firstborn of the Princess and Hero themselves, alot of people put her under alot of high expectations and although her parents tried their best to show she didn't have to prove her worth, the gossip around town was hard to ignore, doesn't help the fact that her sister has started to become a prodigy to her mom, creating inventions to help hyrule and planning to bring the royal system back when she's old enough
Sonia though, has no intention of bringing the royal life back, nor to continue it. Like her dad she wants to explore, she's fascinated by history and wants to disvover every small relic left unseen. And she wants to travel beyond Hyrule one day as well and help those she comes across her path. But also perhaps, escape the duties and expectations others put on top of her, and perhaps prove herself better then those expectations
She loves her sister tho, despite everything, and will never admit to her how jelouse she actually is of Adira. How jealous she was of Adira of being able to hang out with their mom so much, have so much in common with her, sometimes she wonders if she has anything from her mom other then her eyes
Adira is alot like her mother, especially in the looks department, but she has her father's eyes and thurst for chaos. She's usually quiet, but very sassy when needs be, and although seeming quite shy, she got quite the temperament and wont hold back her tounge
Like mentioned previously she becoms a prodigy to her mom, creating and getting invested on inventions to help hyrule and planning to bring the royal system back when she's old enough. She spends most of her time studying and working on anything technology finding it fun to see what possible outcomes it came give
Although sometimes the pressure is too much, as much as her parents give her the liberty to explore her interests, as she had started to show advancements in her creations and helping hyrule, as well as proclaiming to bring back the kingdom (even tho she was a child when she said that), all eyes were now set on her and she is terrified of any failure, and to disappoint everyone, she usually confides on her sister who never cared of her status and just liked to be around her for her (and well, she felt too embarrassed about it to tell her parents about it, they didn't need to worry about such simple things in her eyes, they already fought the townsfolk so much bc of that, she didn't want to make them dislike her parents bc of her)
She admires her sister alot, looks up to her and wishes she could be as cool as her, as free as her, but she isn't good in any sort of physical activities and is usually just stuck in the lab. And that causes a smidge of jealousy as Sonia is able to bond more with their dad then Adira ever could, she feels like she has nothing in common to her dad other then his eyes and need for chaos (which the second part was something looked down apon by others)
And those are the basics i have so far, there is more but I'm unsure about it for now, and aren't 100% concrete yet, so i wont share at the moment
But before i end this, here are some small fun facts:
Both Sonia and Adira are pure glutons, just like their dad XD. They have cooking sessions together quite often, helping around the kitchen when they can;
Sonia loves horses as much as her dad does, but she is terrified of riding them, because when she was little and riding one for the first time, the person who set settle on didn't do it properly and she fell, head first into a rocky ground, and to add onto it, the horse stepped right onto her pinky. Now she has small panic attacks trying to ride them
Sonia actually used to hate Adira. Since Adira was a rainbow baby, Zelda and Link did kinda get overprotective with her, and accidentally neglected Sonia. That didn't last long after Sonia did cause a whole scene with running away and almost getting killed- but that's likez a whole other story in itself lol (i might make a more detailed post about this later). But after that incident they were able to work things out and Sonia ended up being way more protective over Adira then her own parents
#also sorry for anything that sounds off#I'm no native English speaker#and i tend to go to google to see the right words to use#i couldn't while writing this bc i was in the airport and ut was a mess XD#and now I'm too lazy to get it checked#so hopefully it still makes sense anyways#also fun fact#the horse incident is exactly what happened to me when i was young#and as much as i love horses I'm terrified of riding them now#I'm working on it tho XD#loz#loz botw#loz totk#loz link#loz zelda#zelink#zelink kids#sonia#adira
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not to overreact on main but.......why do white people go to actual effort to engage in microaggression like i am genuinely so.
#this man is just flat out calling me by my last name no title in front of it nothing#he did it in his first email and that was whatever he may not have known but when i replied i signed off w my first name#he used it once#and now we're back to just addressing me by my last name and like......idk i hate it#it is genuinely easier to use my first name to use the name i signed off with why are you not#and this is why posts about how we need to be kinder bc white people are 'trying' regarding our names just bother me bc it's like#it is so often laziness#so often people not giving a shit and not bothering to check#i can tell when it's laziness and i can tell when someone's genuinely trying#i would never get on someone for genuinely trying#but if you demonstrate being able to address me correctly and then.....stop doing that#what am i supposed to think lol#this happens so often i'm just tired. why am i supposed to suck it up when you can't get my damn 4 letter name right#delete later#sorry. it's been a Week lol
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Have you seen how lazy the house is?
All kinds of shit congress needs to get done and johnson is constantly like "hey... another vacation?". I'm pretty sure they're taking another one next week and they just came back from a two week one last month
Do some work you lazy fuckers
#I don't think it even counts as a conspiracy to say a lot of this is johnson trying to stall on Ukraine aid#cause he know if he puts it to an up or down vote it'll pass; and you watch him and he's doing everything to kill it#trying to get a new version so maybe the senate could kill it; just everything to refuse to just vote on the fucking version the senate mad#lying lazy stupid fucker; of all acting us politicans right now I think I like him the least and that's with heavy competition#and as far as him wanting funding for israel... bitch if you cared about that you'd pass the ready made bill sitting on your desk for month#I'm sorry; not even pass; just put to a vote; you could vote against it even I don't care#but like... funding is literally on his desk and he cares so much he's gonna try and draft new stuff instead#not that I like that part of the bill in the slightest; but for me the aid to Ukraine outweighs pretty much everything else#given how badly it's needed
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why just look at the nice crowd cheering on Lazule
#my art#whyzzard#whyzzard joust#sorry these are a little lazy#I'm in a rut right now#But like hell I wasnt gonna do anything at all#So just hit the whole team
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STATS
NAME: Caleb Josiah Rhodes
AGE & BIRTHDAY: Thirty-five & August 16th
GENDER & PRONOUNS: Cis-male & he/him
SEXUALITY: Heterosexual
HOMETOWN: Covington
TIME IN COVINGTON: Until he graduated from high school, he'd come back to visit some, & has just recently moved back two weeks ago
OCCUPATION: Veterinarian
NEIGHBORHOOD: Orchid Park
BIOGRAPHY
Tw: verbal and physical abuse, cancer, parental death
Caleb’s father comes from a long line of powerful politicians. The Rhodes have been apart of the ruling political class for generations. So it came as a bit of a surprise when Caleb’s father, already governor of Georgia at this point, married someone from ‘the other side of the tracks’ so to speak.
Ariel Smith was the furthest thing from a young woman of standing that Damon Rhodes was expected to marry. With no education, no family name, no family period, the young woman was simply the exact opposite of everything Damon thought he wanted and yet couldn’t help falling for. The two bumped into each other at a community charity event in downtown Atlanta, with Ariel there as one of many beneficiaries and Damon a benefactor.. They locked eyes and were somehow inseparable for the rest of the night.
What started off as a whirlwind romance, quickly took a turn though once the couple got married. Damon clearly expected Ariel to be a subservient wife with none of the opinions or challenges to his authority that he had originally deemed as her best qualities. He talked down to her, put incredibly high expectations on her, demeaned her when she couldn’t meet them or be the trophy wife he wanted. What started off as love for his wife turned into a need to control.
Shortly after Caleb was born, his father’s verbal abuse towards Ariel turned physical. She tried everything she could to get him back to the loving man she first met, but nothing worked. And with Damon being such a powerful and influential person, there was no one she could turn to. Thankfully, as the heir to the Rhodes family line, Caleb escaped any physical abuse from his father.
By Caleb’s fifth birthday, the abuse had become too much for Ariel. So when an opportunity presented itself, she ran away, fleeing Covington for her life. Damon tracked her down, but at this point, he had begun to see her as more of a liability, someone who would distract his son from the greatness he had to live up to, so he let her go, promising that if she ever told anyone about who she was, if she ever tried to contact him or Caleb again, he would tell Caleb that his mother had been the abusive one. Once again, his power and influence were so great, Ariel knew he’d get away with it. So she stayed away.
Meanwhile, Damon told Caleb, and everyone else, that Ariel had died. With an intricate story claiming that Ariel had been diagnosed with an advanced stage of cancer, he pretended that he had taken her to a clinic on the other side of the country for treatment, but she hadn’t made it. Everyone believed him. Leaving Caleb to be brought up by his father - well, by the nannies and tutors he hired - alone. The young boy was devastated, as his mother was the only parent who ever made him feel loved.
Caleb was raised with the intention of carrying on the family legacy of going into politics. After high school, his father, with the help of Caleb’s good grades, got him into every IVY League school in the country, offering him the choice of any of them. However, Caleb very quickly realized he had no interest in politics. He wanted to study medicine. So, he went to Columbia in New York and majored in Biology. Medicine wasn’t exactly what Damon had had in mind for his son, but many politicians started off in different fields and being a doctor was a respectable enough job that Damon could see the benefits. So he allowed it.
Shortly after graduating from medical school though, Caleb dropped a bomb in his father’s lap. He had realized in the eight years since he had gone off to college, since he had gotten out from under his father’s thumb, that his passion actually lay in caring for animals. So he decided to start the process of becoming a veterinarian. This caused a fissure in his relationship with his father that never quite healed. The two had never been close, after all, Damon attempted to control Caleb almost as much, if not more, than he had Caleb’s mother, but one Caleb determined to go down a path his father deemed unconducive to the plans he had created for Caleb, their relationship dissolved into barely talking at all.
After the initial battle with his father over his career choice, and once he had moved about as far away from his father within the U.S. as he could, Caleb enjoyed several years of real freedom for the first time in his life. He moved around a lot, staying in small and big towns alike, getting jobs at different veterinary clinics, simply living the exact opposite kind of life than what his father wanted for him. A life with meaning.
It was during this time, while he lived in Seattle, that he reconnected with Kelebek Turan. Having been friends in school, when she brought her dog in to be seen at the clinic he worked in, the two instantly sparked a new connection. He fell hard and he fell fast and he knew pretty soon that this was the person he wanted to spend the rest of his life with. After dating for a year, Caleb proposed and they were all set to get married, despite his father’s disapproval of the relationship.
As they got closer to the wedding, Caleb began to become suspicious about his mother’s death (tbh, idk why yet) and started looking into it. The day of the wedding, he got word that not only was she actually alive and had been all this time, but she actually did have cancer this time and was currently on her deathbed. Caleb asked one of his groomsmen to explain to Kelebek that he had a family emergency, but that he was coming back for her, but unfortunately, when his father questioned said groomsman about Caleb’s whereabouts, he took it upon himself to communicate the message to Kelebek. Instead of passing along the correct message, that there was a family emergency, Damon simply told her that Caleb wasn’t coming back and left her to assume he meant that Caleb wasn’t coming back at all. Naturally, Kelebek thought she had been stood up. She left with an old friend who Caleb had always worried was more than just a friend and Damon was only too happy to tell his son that Kelebek had left with said friend because they were together once Caleb returned for Kelebek. Unbeknownst to both Kelebek and Caleb, his father had taken their situation, and with just a few insinuations here and there, had destroyed the whole thing. Their relationship was over.
After the fiasco that was supposed to be his wedding day, Caleb focused on spending what time he could with his mother, trying to piece together what had actually happened. He never told his father that he knew, waiting until he had all the facts and could actually do something about it. Unfortunately though, his mother passed away shortly after they were reunited. Caleb felt like his father had won yet again. He didn’t know it, but his father had taken away his relationship with Kelebek as well.
He has returned to Covington in the hopes of discovering more about his father and finding some way to bring him down, but is pretending to ‘come back’ to the family to get close to his father in the hopes of Damon letting something slip.
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They did the narrative threading thing again with going from the Artisanship Commission to the Alchemy Commission. They talk about new lives under new names in old flesh in the Artisanship Commission, and she mentions immediately later the Alchemy Commission, where Bailu is. What a nice lapse
#I know she isn't showing much pity for her friend here as Yanqing says but I think it's essential that she too loved him once#And that a part of her still does‚ and viceversa#This felt since the first scene like Jingliu mourning and saying farewell not just to Baiheng but to Yingxing too#And the scene in the Artisanship Commission enhanced that feeling to me#idk... She seems to be saying farewell to everyone and the group itself#A funeral of sorts for all of them and their bond#Awkwardly done‚ perhaps‚ by someone from a culture that lacks mourning rituals for the dead#I didn't get at all why we had to go through Tingyun's funeral considering that we didn't really got to know her much#and what we knew wasn't even her#It felt even more intrusive than other similar instance of 'protagonist just protagonisting' we've had in the game before#But now it's clear we had to go through that to understand better what is happening here in the context in which it's happening#and with the weight every detail carries#But I won't ramble more. This is starting to be very unrelated to the post haha#I talk too much#Traces#I guess#I want to save some of these ideas later. Perhaps with some of the screenshots I've taken#But I'm always so lazy I keep postponing everything haha#And to make things worse I should be doing an altogether different thing right now but here I am#I'm not censoring names right now I'm sorry but I can't stand that tumblr forces me to do that when I want to write things down quickly#Censoring is very annoying while writing with the phone#I'll come back later and change things in a bit. Just ignore me please if anyone sees this#I've checked and the post is not appearing in the general tag for me right now but who knows#It may appear in ten minutes from now instead I don't trust tumblr at all
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Icons for some of my OCs, hope i will finish this pack...
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