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cultish love // colby brock
A/N: first off, so sorry for this being so late, i had a lot of things i had to edit about this fic. also this is my longest fic ever ! like the other fic before this, this is a AU version of colby… where he, you guessed it, is a cult leader. and he is also corrupt (but like aren't all cult leaders). again this deals with some possible heavy themes, so give a good read of the trigger warnings before reading ahead. i've always joked about colby being able to lead a cult, and that's basically where this idea came from. this fic also took a turn i wasn't expecting, but i like it anyway. also the first half is written as a journal entry (all italized) and then the rest is an actual fic (not italized). lmk what you think, and happy haunting !
prompt: you're a journalist, and your next big story is on the 'empathic love' cult, led by none other than colby brock. this cult is not known well, but you are getting a first hand look at them and what they do. and quickly, colby takes a liking to you. || fem!reader x AU!cult leader!colby brock
trigger warning: SMUT, no actual sex but you do get mentally fucked (it will make sense in the story), cult vibes all around, love bombing, cursing, supernatural powers, colby is very intense and kinda scary but also still his charming self, slight dubcon similar in vain to sam's story - you never say no outright, but you do have general feelings of 'wtf is this, idk if i like' so if that's too much for you, feel free to read something else :), colby's aura is crazy good at giving you visions, strangers-to-soulmates?? don't know if that's a tag lol, also…. colby's technically bisexual in this????? but like barely
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I've been a reporter for only five years, and this story.... it could make or break my career. Cults aren't as prevalent as they once were way back when. They still exist, just in the shadows. A lot quieter on most fronts. Usually disguised as a business or religion, for tax reasons of course. But this cult, Empathic Love, is unlike any cult I've heard of.
Of course, they don't call themselves a cult, but that's what they are. How else would you describe a bunch of randos following one man around wherever he goes?
They only started so many years ago, right before I graduated university. The main founder, Colby Brock, is a pragmatic individual, according to his followers. The cult began blowing up in my town a little over two years ago, and now people flock from all over the world to visit the Love Compound. You would think it's Disney World the way people grow excited about it.
But I am here to get to the truth of this cult. What is their motive? What are they planning to do? Will this be another Waco or Heaven's Gate? What sinister beliefs hide underneath the modern-day hippie aesthetic they show?
These notes will document everything I experience for the next couple of days. And in case I go missing, these are my proof of who's to blame.
I don't think it will go that far, but you can never be too sure.
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Day 1 - Investigation
I'm still incredibly surprised I was allowed to come onto the Love Compound. The leader himself apparently reached out to my boss and told them that they wanted someone to come down and interview the group. They allow visitors from time to time, "new recruits" as some of the townspeople call them, but reporters have never been allowed in. Not once. Until me.
Driving up to the compound was nerve-wracking. I never imagined I would be nervous; I've interviewed plenty of criminals in my years, have done full blown investigations into scary, horrifying crimes. But something about this place freaked me out. Partially because I didn't know what I was getting into. But another part of me, and I will never admit this out loud, felt... at home.
The only promise I made to myself was I wouldn’t drink any kool-aid while there. So, I plan to stick to that. Pretend my previous statement never existed.
I was greeted by a beautiful woman when I got there: Avery. No one went by last names. And some apparently changed their names altogether, which was not surprising. My guess is there were most likely criminals hanging out amongst the group. But I had no proof of that, just a hunch. It easily could be a safe haven for those wanting to escape whatever life they had before.
The compound was three Victorian style mansions connected to each other and had a decent size farm attached - about 222 acres. Avery told me about all of the vegetables and chickens they farmed. Everything was organic and used up as often as possible. Anything that couldn't be eaten or produced too much for the only 100ish people in the compound, was sold at the farmer's market or given away to the local food bank. Avery explained to me very clearly that everyone in the compound chipped in one way or another. Some still worked normal jobs, but just lived here with everyone. But she noted that Colby hoped in the near future no one would have to work at all and they would be self-sufficient in a couple years.
A cult with future plans? Almost unheard of.
I told Avery that I was given an all-access pass to ask anything I wanted to, and nothing I asked could be ignored or deflected. She agreed to an interview. I recorded all of it, but here are the highlights of what I gathered.
I asked her why Colby was such a secretive man. There were very few photos of him that did exist out there, but all that was rumored about him was his alluring eyes and generally attractive presence. She agreed that he was handsome, describing his as having "ocean blue eyes" and his voice was to die for. "Deep and arousing", as she explained.
I noted that she seemed almost lost in thought at the idea of him, like she was envisioning him directly in front of her. Strange behavior; but not for a cult follower. Many end up falling in love with their leader, believing they have a genuine relationship with said person.
I bought up the name of the group, Empathic Love, and said it felt a little too inviting. She laughed and told me that it was right on the money - the best way to describe why everyone was there. She expressed to me that so many of Colby's followers wanted peace and love and light, and that being in this group felt like that. It was rewarding to be surrounded by those that cared and wanted to see each other succeed. Life outside the walls of the compound was rough, scary, draining; but inside, it was all love.
Call me cynical, but I don't believe that for a second. It took all the strength I had to keep from rolling my eyes at her. But I could tell from her voice, her motions... she was telling the truth. Well, her truth.
I wanted to know what brought her here, so she spoke of her previous life. She was abused growing up, moved around a lot in foster care. She was almost homeless, and then one day she ran into Colby. He had just begun the Empathic Love group, and she just knew she had to stick with him. Her life immediately turned around the moment he was in her life. The adoration in her eyes told me a different story, so I pressed her - "are you and Colby... together?" She smiled and said no, but she knew that they were life partners before, just not currently.
Oh... so it's one of those types of cults.
She said that Colby doesn't have a second in command, wife, girlfriend, whatever. Everyone is equal and heard. He's just the face of the group, which is a bit ironic given even I have no clue what he looks like. I knew he was young, in his mid-20s. But other than that, no idea.
I needed to know, why stay? What keeps you here? A dreamy look came over her, like she had said this a million times before: "Colby. He is love, and that's all anyone could ask for."
Chills ran up my spine at the tone of her voice. It was dull, and her words sounded like a mantra, the way she said them so easily.
I wrapped up my interview with her, quiring if I was allowed to interview others. She said yes and began sending over random people one-by-one to me.
If I hadn't gotten chills from her first, I would have from everyone else. Something about seeing everyone saying similar things, smiling happily, like the ship isn't sinking around them was eerie. It made my stomach churn when I would ask questions I already asked Avery, and get almost the same speech back.
I interviewed about 15 people. All variety of ages and genders. I suddenly realized that there were no children around, and everyone was over the age of 21.
Consenting adults… minus the supposed brainwashing.
A couple of the interviewees stuck out to me:
Penelope, 25. Her upbringing was similar to Avery's, but she still kept in contact with her family. Apparently, she wasn't the only one like that either. Many still kept in touch and even visited their loved ones. I asked her to describe Colby, tell me anything about him. She giggled, almost like a schoolgirl, and began to weave such a story about him. He was kind and caring. His smile was contagious, just like his laugh. And his singing voice was fantastic. She talked about him like he was a boy band member, and she was his biggest fan. I asked her to give one word to describe him, and she said "Love. He is love, and that's all anyone could ask for."
Greg, 36. He had fallen into rough times, and desired a fresh start. He had heard about this group online, and figured checking them out while he was in town wouldn't hurt. And that was a couple years ago. I wondered why he didn't feel weird listening to someone that was younger than him, and he shrugged. It was nice not having eyes on him. He loved being in a wallflower, and he believed that Colby deserved all the love he got from everyone in the group. Every ounce he got was ten-folded back into the group. Greg had never felt so connected to a group of people and he knew it was all thanks to Colby. "He brought love into my life like I never have had it before. Because that's who he is: love."
Heather, 29. She mentioned how for most of her life she felt like shit. Her confidence was at an all-time low when she met Colby. He encouraged her to keep at it, to love herself and find happiness everywhere. And by spending more and more time with him, she did. She has never felt more confident about herself, her life, her direction, and Colby is the reason for that. The tone that took over her voice when she bought him up was odd. It was very similar to a partner describing the love of their life, almost like wedding vows. I asked her haphazardly about her love life, how that was going for her. And she told me she had been on many dates - something she never used to do back when she was younger or before Colby. But she did note that regardless of who she ends up with, she knows that a part of her heart will always belong to Colby. They were connected, forever. "Love and light and happiness is what I desired, and I got it - all because Colby exists in my life now."
It felt like I was getting nowhere with some of these interviews. Many said the same thing, Colby being love and light and blah blah blah. I wanted someone that wasn't gonna just quote to me whatever mantra he made them learn. And luck was on my side, because I was able to interview their newest member, Ash. They were 23, and very beautiful. There was an almost smugness about them, like they knew they were the shiny new toy on the block. The confidence only a young 20-something year old could have.
I asked them, point blank, about Colby. Be brutally honest. They told me he was hot, and that's what drew them to him. They liked the idea of living in a group setting, especially since they grew up with many brothers and sisters. They liked helping out, and they liked knowing that Colby was keeping an eye on them the most recently. I then followed up with how long it took for them to join the group. "Three days. That's how long it takes for everyone."
I questioned them about the "Colby is love" thing, and they agreed it was a bit strange, but they couldn't help but feel the same way as everyone else. They were like a moth to a flame when it came to him. Everything about him was hypnotizing, entrancing. It was like staring at the sun; even though you knew to look away, you just couldn't help it.
Then I had to know: were they sleeping with him? Most of these cults feed off of the leader fucking every person they wanted to and leaving other members high and dry. But for some reason, it felt as if Colby was sleeping with everyone with the way they all talked about him. Ash dissented, saying no one was sleeping with him. He didn't sleep with any of his followers. But they all shared a deep, sensual mental connection with him. They felt like, sometimes, he was in their soul. And that sensation alone was euphoric, bordering on orgasmic. They also knew that in another life, they would have been together, similar to what Avery said.
It was then I knew that this group was clinically insane, or just really infatuated by what Colby was selling. It had to have been some crazy brainwashing. But it was odd; people were allowed to leave, to see loved ones, to have lives outside of the compound walls. Hell, some had dating lives that included those not here! That's unheard of, and completely stupid on Colby's part if he wants to keep things going.
A cult leader that wanted to watch his world implode.... I had to meet him. I had to meet the myth that was Colby Brock. And tomorrow I get my chance to.
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Day 2 - Interview with Colby
I feel the need to explain that these are my notes, not really meant for anyone else to see. And really, the only reason anyone would be seeing this is if I disappear or got murdered.
So, I say all of that just so I know, for myself, that this is a safe space for me to express my truest emotions and thoughts after interviewing Colby.
And all I can say, honestly, is that... I get it. I understand it now.
I felt my nerves hit their break last night before going to sleep, unable to stop my mind reeling from what was to come. I ended up bringing along a bodyguard, or really a photographer. I had known Trey since I started working as a journalist, and I knew I could rely on him to get us out of the Empathic Love compound if anything went south. I wasn't sure what I was up against when I went to interview Colby, but God... I didn't think I was so underprepared.
I met him in his office, Avery walked me over to it. It was up in the attic of the third house. It overlooked the entire property with wide windows. For an attic, I expected it to feel dark and dusty, but surprisingly it was light and airy. Almost like being out in the woods and taking a deep breath.
Colby was sitting in his main office chair. He spun around to see us, a light smile on his face. I'll be honest - I was taken aback by his beauty. I understood Ash's whole spiel about him being attractive and looking at him was like looking at the sun. It was intense. He was intense. His blue eyes bore into me, almost like they could see through me. I felt chills, but they weren't of fear. It was out of... excitement, of awe.
He greeted me, giving me a warm handshake. I hate to admit that I almost blushed at the sound of him saying my name. I had to take a couple deep breaths before starting. Avery left the room, and Trey sat outside the door, in case of backup.
I recorded our interview, knowing that I couldn't keep track of everything he said. But listening back to it now, his voice.... it's like a song. A beautiful, spellbinding song. I could almost fall asleep to it....
I asked him about his life, and how he came to be a leader for a group like Empathic Love. He spoke of his upbringing lightly, barely scraping the surface. He talked about growing up pretty normally, having a loving family, a great friend group, and then one day realizing that he could make a change in the world. That many people loved him and loved being around him. And that's when he knew that if he could make their lives better, he would. So, he started Empathic Love. Originally, it was just gonna be a safehouse for those that needed it. But then more and more people joined and suddenly, it grew into what it was today.
I asked where his family was now. "In Kansas," he told me. He said nothing further than that.
He humbly spoke of all the love he received from his followers, or his "friends" as he put it. They all cared about him in a way that he only wished he could return tenfold. I questioned him about the whole "Colby is love" thing. "How come everyone says almost the exact same thing, like they've been brainwashed into saying it?" He didn't even trip over his words as he spoke matter-of-factly to me. "I didn't come up with that phrase, they did. You would have to ask them. I take it as the highest form of a compliment, truly. I'll be honest, it's a bit embarrassing at times when they call me that, but I can't help what they do. I appreciate their love, nonetheless."
I continued asking him about different topics, until finally reaching the one I was most intrigued about. "How many of your followers - excuse me - friends, have you slept with?" He smirked, smirked, at me and said "None. Did any of them tell you that we slept together?"
"No, but the way they talk about you like the sun shines out of your ass does seem a bit odd, don't you think?"
He looked unphased. God, he had an answer for everything. "I'll be honest with you, some of my friends might be in love with me. But I make it abundantly clear that while I love them, and love their love, I don't have feelings for them. I'm still looking for the one."
I remember holding back a glare, "So, you're celibate?"
"Now, I never said that." He let out a chuckle, then his eyes darkened. "Why do you care so much about my sex life? Unless of course, you want to join it."
I tried ignoring his gaze and his words but stuttered through my next question. “Then who exactly is the right one for you, if it's not one of your followers or friends?”
It took him a while to answer, he even closed his eyes for a bit. He sat up once he knew, sauntering over to his window that overlooked it all. "I imagine the one for me is someone that will bring peace to me and my life. Someone that for all my faults, can see who I am truly deep down. She will love me, and I will worship her. I will show her what true love feels like. Our souls will be one, because they always have been."
Something strange came over me. I don't know why I said it, but I uttered, "What about looks?"
Who cares about looks! Why did I ask about looks? I was a serious journalist, not a reporter for Star Magazine!
He looked over his shoulder at me, "Looks aren't that important to me. What matters is mind and soul. Who you are deep down. But if I had to pick… someone like you. I feel someone like you would be a perfect fit around here."
I wanted to give him the sassiest voice and rebuttal I could muster, but deep down I was shaking. Energy raced through my body, like I had been electrified.
He kept his back to me, staring out the window. “I'm not trying to be overly complimentary. I'm just being honest. But I can tell that you would do so well to have us around. To have... me, in your life. I bring a lot of love to people's lives, that's for sure. But I also bring a lot of drive, and passion, and intimacy.”
Intimacy?
“People open up when I'm around. They tell me everything, even things they never dreamt of telling another person. And I allow it, because clearly, they needed to express it. And once they do, it's like the floodgates open. Love and light just start pouring into them, into their life, and it's overwhelming - but so worth it. Doesn't that sound nice?”
I guess so...
“I bring happiness to so many. My friends have told me that they get jittery around me, I'm like a shot of adrenaline. And that energy, that power, courses through them. And when it gets expressed, it comes out in…” He took a long pause, turning back to me. The look in his eyes… I can remember it as if he was still in front of me. “Pleasurable ways.”
I hate admitting this, and it's embarrassing to say it even now, but I felt a jolt of... something, run through me. I won't even say what it was out loud, in fear of never being taken seriously again. But what happened after that, I don't know if words can even express it well.
Colby continued talking, but I couldn't pick up on any of it. He was talking up a storm, but I couldn't help the sensations I was feeling. Even in my wildest of fantasies, I've never felt anything in reality. It was all in my mind. But in that very moment, it felt like it was happening to me.
I felt lips tread up my neck, stopping just below my ear. A hot, low moan breathed into my ear. My spine tingled at the sound, my hands gripping the armrests of the chair. If I didn't know any better, I would think Colby was behind me, making those noises. My hands suddenly felt hands on top of them. My eyes widened, looking down, but nothing was there. I couldn't really move my arms once the invisible hands were there. My whole body felt numb and heavy, relaxed. My mind was the one on edge, worried as to why I was feeling all of this.
I hadn't eaten or drank anything at the compound. Maybe it was being poured into the room by the vents? I don't know, but something was making me feel this way.
The invisible hands drifted up my arms, massaging my shoulders for a moment. My head lulled back, almost hitting the back of the chair. My mind was on high alert, but my body was about ready to fall asleep. The hands relaxed me so much that my eyes began to flutter.
But then... they drifted down my torso. They traced along my neck gently, drawing small, insignificant patterns. The hands grew lower and lower until they finally were on my chest. I felt the hands cup my breasts softly, my breath hitching in my throat. They kneaded my tits gingerly, my nipples hardening in my bra. I bit my lip, praying that I wouldn't make a sound. It was hard not to, especially when the delicate fingers of these invisible hands found my nipples, gently pinching them.
I remember closing my eyes tight. Trying to clear my mind. This wasn't actually happening to me. There was no way. This was a psychosis or a drug hallucination that was happening to me and Colby was doing nothing about it.
One hand drifted down my body, stopping right above my sex. I suddenly became very aware at how wet I was, my eyes widening. I felt a rush of blood flow through my cheeks. I was about to get caught. These invisible hands made me wet, and I couldn't stop them.
And the terrible thing was, I didn't want them to. I wanted them to finish the job. To get me off... in front of Colby. One hand rose back up my body, grabbing my neck and turning my face to look up at him.
A deep voice whispered harshly, "You want him, don't you?"
I didn't say anything, afraid of what would come out. But deep down, I knew.
"Say it, and it's yours. Say you want him. And he'll have you... forever."
I opened my mouth. I felt the words almost leave my lips. I stuttered out something. I closed my eyes, my body feeling high.
And then in a split second, it was all gone. The room grew quiet, and Colby cleared his throat. "Y/N, are you okay? You look flush."
I jolted out of my seat, being able to move freely again. I looked around and realized Colby was sitting once more, staring at me concerned. I finished the interview abruptly, saying I had everything I needed - even though I definitely didn't. And then he uttered words I wish I didn't hear.
"If you want, come back tomorrow. We are having a celebration here. I would love if you came by, even if for an hour."
I nodded, not even really taking in what he said, and left. Trey was confused as to why I bum-rushed out of the room, but I never told him the truth. How could I?
I knew deep down I shouldn't have said yes to go to the party. But getting that footage would be killer for my article. Interviews are great, but a party at a cult compound? That's bound to end terribly (for Colby, but great for me).
But something in me can't shake this feeling that I basically signed myself up for the end. End of what? I'm not sure. But I'll find out tomorrow.
~~~~~~
Stepping back onto the compound made my heart race. I was nervous as all hell, and just wanted this day to be over with already. Today was my last day doing this story. I was counting the minutes to when I could go back to my office and write about how this place was insane, or whatever narrative I planned to write.
I had enough proof that something was up here. All I needed to do was a bit more digging. And during the party is when I planned to do it.
Avery walked up to me, smiling brightly. "Hey, Y/N! How are you doing today?"
"I'm okay. I know it's a bit early, but Colby never specified when the party was going to take place." I replied.
"No, you're totally fine. The party is gonna happen later. Right now, though, we have something going on that you'll definitely want to see." She clapped excitedly.
"Oh? And what is that?" I questioned.
"We are inducting a new member!" she exclaimed giddily. "There's a whole process that we do, and everyone is involved. I imagine that will bode well for your article if you see it firsthand. It's all taking place in that tent."
I stared over at the huge tent, its plastic cover doors strangely inviting.
I hummed, "Sure, I'll be there in a moment."
Avery nodded, turning on her heels and prancing over to the tent, following in other members.
"What's happening in there?" Trey asked.
"Apparently they are inducting someone new into their cult." I informed him.
He blinked. "Group, you mean."
I rolled my eyes, "Yeah, whatever. Make sure to capture as much as you can."
He shook his camera, giving me a wink, "On it."
We both walked in, many members still up and around, giving everyone hugs and chatting. Avery waved me down, patting the seat next to her. I walked over and sat. My body tingled in anticipation. I wasn't sure what was going to happen. My breathing picked up as everyone grew silent, the doors opening. Colby walked in, and people rushed to their seats.
Colby called out, "Hello everyone, good morning."
"Good morning, Colby." Everyone said in unison.
Jesus, that was creepy.
"A lot of things are going to be different today. First, we have guests watching our festivities. Y/N and Trey. Everyone, give them a hand." He gestured to the two of us.
The tent exploded in applause, Avery evening rubbing my back sweetly. It felt like I was being congratulated on something I didn't achieve, my cheeks flushing at the acknowledgement.
"And secondly, sadly, the new member we were going to have decided not to stay." He frowned, his face dropping.
Members gasped, some audible "oh no" echoed around the tent. Colby nodded his head sympathetically. “I know, but fret not. I think this will be a learning experiment for our new guests. We can still do our traditional motions of having someone join us. But, imagine it as if it's a mock ceremony instead. Ms. Y/N, would you please step up here?”
My heart stopped when he looked into my eyes, the first time since yesterday. I glanced at Avery, who grinned enthusiastically. She pushed me out of my seat, my body following her lead. I gazed around, finding Trey, who pulled away from his camera with a concerned look. I stumbled up the walkway, stepping on stage with Colby.
Colby lowered his voice so I could only hear him, moving away from the microphone. "I know you wanted to know about how we induct someone into our little home, so I figured why not use you as an example? We aren't actually inducting you, in case you’re worried. This is just what would happen if you were joining. Are you okay with that?"
I gazed around the huge, white tent, making eye contact with many people in the audience. They all looked so eager, waiting to hear my response. Some were even shaking with excitement.
I stuttered, feeling Colby squeeze my hands to bring my attention back to him, "I-I guess so."
"Fantastic." He turned, still holding one of my hands, "Alright everyone, you know the drill."
The crowd cheered, suddenly many lining up to a microphone at the side of the stage. Colby lightly pulled me to a cushioned throne, sitting me down. "So here's what's going to happen. People are going to come up to that microphone, and they are going to give you plenty of love. Genuine love. And then the next person will go, and so on until everyone has spoken."
"Everyone here? Like, all hundred plus of you?" I whispered.
"Yes. It's gonna be a while, so get cozy." He laughed, rubbing my shoulders.
Time felt frozen as slowly everyone came up and said something nice about me. Some were quick, mostly just commenting on how nicely I dressed or how the stories I had covered in the past were interesting and thoughtful. But others, it's like they could see into my soul and point out the exact thing I was insecure about. Everyone was complimentary and it was nice, but exhausting.
The line had dwindled down, and the next person to speak was Avery.
She stepped up the microphone, giving me a huge smile. "Hi, Y/N. I know we don't know each other that well, but I feel like I've known you my whole life. These couple days of getting to know you, being interviewed by you, have just been the highlight of my life. You are such a lovely presence to be around, and you deserve all the success you've gotten these last couple years."
Lots of people in the crowd nodded, agreeing with Avery. She continued, taking a deep breath, "I wanted to add - you are so deserving of love. You are easy to love too, and I hope that you are surrounded by people that make you feel that way. I know that this is just a mock ceremony, but I truly believe you would be such a great addition to us. I know you don't trust us, but I hope that soon you will find that you have a safe place here. Even if you never come back here again. This is your home now, and forever will be."
My chest heaved suddenly, tears welling up in my eyes. What the fuck is happening right now? Why was I crying at what she said? Sure, it was sweet and kind, but... how did she know I needed to hear that?
I turned my head, wiping the tears before anyone could see them fall. The crowd clapped as Avery left, going back to her seat.
The last couple people were a blur, my mind still hanging onto Avery's words. Suddenly, a hand was placed on my shoulder, jolting me out of my thoughts. I gazed up, seeing Colby's beautiful face staring down at me.
"The ceremony is done. Now, time to party."
~~~~~~
It had been a couple hours since the ceremony, my body feeling almost numb but jittery all at the same time. It was hard to shake all the love and words that were thrown my way today. Sure, some were probably just lying and saying random things because they had to, because they were conditioned to. But it freaked me out how some just... hit the right spots, knew my insecurities.
The party itself was fine. Two of the houses had parties happening in them, and since all three houses were connected, you could leave one and walk into another. There was a dancefloor full of people, and multiple fully stocked bars. Tons of food was at each table. It honestly looked like an adult prom. But I wasn't in a partying mood. Trey, on the other hand, was enjoying himself immensely. Girls and guys surrounded him, laughing at his jokes and bringing him plates of food and wine. One girl kept rubbing his thigh, staring at him longingly.
I wanted to leave. I had had enough of today, and I just wanted to be as far away from Empathic Love as I could be. I decided fresh air was what I needed, so I got up and slid out the back door of one of the houses, taking a deep breath. There were still too many people around, but I noticed the last house, the one with Colby's office in it, had no lights on and no one around it. I walked through the yards, stopping once I was by the back porch of the third house.
I sighed, leaning back against a railing. I could still hear the party going on, almost getting louder now that I wasn't there. I shook my head, feeling overwhelmed.
“Hey, Y/N. Fancy seeing you here." Colby's voice broke through my thoughts.
I exhaled. “Hi, Colby.”
He cocked his head, “Are you doing okay? You seem... upset.”
I felt this sudden rush of anger, knowing in reality he was to blame for all of this. “No, I'm not doing alright. I want to go home, I'm extremely overwhelmed by this party and all the people around here. That ceremony was too much for me to deal with, and the only way for me to get out of here is Trey and he's getting rubbed down by your followers!”
He took a step back, putting his hands up defensively. “Woah, that was a lot. You must have needed that release.”
I glared, “You think?”
“Look, I get it. It's a lot to take in. I myself don't love going to all these parties. It can be really overwhelming and if I'm honest, it gives me a lot of anxiety,” he admitted casually.
“You get anxiety?” I scoffed, “How? Everyone here loves you.”
“I know. That's the stressful part!” He sat on the railing, turning to me. “I'm the leader of this family. I have to make all the right decisions, and sometimes that means upsetting some of the people closest to me. Not to mention, so many eyes are on me, and it's just all too much sometimes. Even if you think this group is a cult, I still care for everyone here. I make sure they are fed, have a job, and have a life outside of here. And that's a lot to take on.”
“How do you deal with all of it, then?” I questioned.
“Patience. And a lot of alone time when I can get it - through meditation, specifically,” he laughed. “I was actually going to go meditate before I found you. Would you like to join me?”
I shook my head. “No, I'm good.”
“Are you sure? Look, at the very least, it will get you away from the party and all the noise. You don't even have to join me, you can just... sit in the room with me while I do it.” He argued, shrugging his shoulders.
I gazed at the party, everyone had grew rowdier while we were talking, and I didn't even notice. But my head felt like it was spinning from the noise alone. I sighed, nodding my head. Colby smiled, opening the door to the house, and I walked in first. I followed him up to his office, sitting down on his couch as he sat in the center of the room on the floor.
I raised an eyebrow. “That's where you meditate?”
“Yeah, I know it's a bit silly. But I feel so much more grounded... on the ground.” He replied cheekily.
I snickered, sitting back and watching him. He crossed his legs, resting his palms on his knees. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. He took multiple breaths until they were low and shallow. I furrowed my brow, my eyes never leaving his form.
It almost seemed like he was asleep, or in a hypnosis of some sort. He was completely still and silent. A dull glow appeared at the top of his head, growing brighter and larger. I leaned away from him, my eyes widening at the sight. What the fuck is that...?
An aura grew around him, surrounding him completely. He didn't move, unfazed by it. His eyes remained closed, and with each breath it grew.
"How... are you doing that?" I uttered, my mouth a gape.
"Doing what?" He spoke in a monotone voice.
"That... aura. How are you doing that?" I pressed.
“I've always been able to do it since I was young. You can get closer if you want to.” He suggested.
How did he know I was still far away?
I stepped off the couch, moving closer to him. I kept my distance, but the aura was almost pulling me in. It was beautiful, the light reflecting and growing bigger. I was almost engulfed by it, but it stopped right before getting to me. I could feel its warmth, its energy. It was calling to me, beckoning me to step towards it.
The aura wrapped around me, filling me with light and love. Or at least that's what it felt like. I gasped at the sensation, my legs shaking underneath me. I breathed in deeply, my lungs filling up with fresh air. I didn't feel like I was in the room anymore. I felt like I was flying, the world almost zooming around me.
“Let your body relax, Y/N. I know it's so much to take in.” Colby’s calming voice spoke.
I felt my body give out on me, falling onto the soft rug. I laid down on my back, staring up at the ceiling. Visions began to swirl in my mind and around me.
How is any of this happening?
He answered, reading my mind. “Because of me. Because of us. Because of the connection you and I share.”
My body felt very heavy, unable to move even if I wanted to. I could move my eyes, and out of the corner of them, I saw Colby stand up. The aura remained around us, almost engulfing the entire room.
“You know, I knew the moment you stepped foot on to the compound's grounds, you were going to like it here. You were going to stay.” He smiled sincerely, gazing down at my body.
I blinked, confused. “What? I-I don't plan to-“
He cut me off, “This is the final step, Y/N. Everyone gave you love, people celebrated you, and now... I'm allowing you in.”
I wanted to shake my head, but couldn’t. “But I don't want to join.”
He chuckled, “Yes you do. If you didn't want it, none of this would have worked on you. You wouldn't be seeing what is directly in front of your eyes.”
The visions morphed around me, suddenly showing Colby and I. But we weren't us, we were different people, at a different point in time. But I could feel it was us. We were in love, growing a family together. Our lives were beautiful.
What the fuck is this?
“That is our past, or present, or future,” he winked. “The thing is, Y/N, I never seek out anyone. They all seem to find me.”
“That's not true, you emailed my boss about being interviewed.” I remarked.
"Oh, you are so forgetful, Y/N. You emailed us, begging to interview me and anyone else that said yes. I only agreed because I knew you wanted to meet with me. You sounded very eager to join in your email." Colby pulled out a piece of paper, reading from it happily, "Dear whoever reads this, I'm hoping to score an interview with your group, Empathic Love, for an article I am writing. I would love to meet Colby, and really pick apart his brain on why he created said group. Maybe I could even join if you guys win me over. Please let me know if any of this sounds of interest to you. Sincerely, Y/N of Global Gazette."
He leaned down, staring into my eyes mischievously, "Now does that sound like someone that didn't want to be here?"
My heart raced, suddenly scared. “Why don't I remember writing that?”
“I couldn't tell you. All I know is you wanted to be here. And there's a reason for it.” He sat down on the ground next to me. I wanted to get up and run, but my body stayed still, heavy. “Growing up, I realized very early on that certain people just... gravitated to me. A lot of women, yes. But really it was anyone. And not only did they gravitate towards me, they became obsessed with me. At first, I was confused, uninterested in ever going through that. Who wants someone obsessed with them? But then I realized how much good I could do with so many people rallying behind me.”
He continued, “As I got older, my ability, or power, or whatever it is - grew twice as strong. Suddenly, all the people around me followed me, did anything and everything I could ask for. Then, I began getting visions, and I understood why this was the case. Everyone here: we had a past life together. Their souls and mine have always been connected. They find me and then continue to stay. And almost always, they fall in love with me. It's just so glorious.”
“You're insane.” I mumbled.
He hummed, “Interesting, especially since you’re seeing the same things I am.”
It was true. The whole time he spoke, I saw vision after vision of our past lives together. We were always destined to meet, destined to be with one another.
“But the thing is, I know you're different from all the rest. You and I, we are meant to be together forever. You are meant to love me forever, and I am meant to love you. That's why my abilities affect you so greatly.” Colby divulged.
“What if I say no? What if I want to leave?” I grunted, trying to shake free.
“You've had the ability to go all this time. You just don't want to. You know how much love I can give you. You know how much pleasure I can give you as well.” He bit his lip, his eyes snaking up and down my body, “You've known that since yesterday, haven't you?”
Blood rushed to my cheeks, memories of yesterday played in my head.
“And do you know what’s crazy about that? That's not even half the pleasure I can give you.” Colby kneeled next to me, a devilish smile on his lips. His hand lightly brushed my face, cupping my warm cheek sweetly.
A burst of arousal raced through me, my body spasming in ecstasy. “Oh my God!”
“I know, it's a lot to take in. But I just want to make you feel good, darling. You deserve it.” He leaned in slowly, “You are mine, after all.”
"This is what your followers meant by a deep and sensual mental connection," I groaned, feeling hands all over my body, touching me in the most lustful of ways. "You got inside their heads and mentally fucked them."
“...That's one way of wording it. But if they didn't trust me, if they didn't already want me, it wouldn't happen.” He winced playfully, “So in reality, it's your fault.”
“Fuck you.” I growled.
“But baby, that's what's happening,” Colby laughed darkly. “Those hands, those kisses and bites... that's all mine. I can tell you're losing it. You want me real bad, but you don't want to admit it. I get it, you’re overwhelmed.”
I felt like my body was getting electrocuted with pleasure. My hips grinded into the air, needing some form of relief. My nipples strained against my bra, wanting any form of touch. I closed my eyes tightly, embarrassment rolling through me as I felt my damp panties against my sex.
Fuck, he was right. I did want this, and him.
I didn't even need to say it out loud. Suddenly I felt a cock slid inside of me, too easily from how wet I had become. I ripped my eyes open, looking around. Colby was watching me from his chair, smirking.
He palmed his hardening dick through his jeans. “Imagine how much better it would be if I was actually inside of you, filling you up with every. fucking. inch.”
I thought about screaming Trey’s name. Maybe he could help me.
He grimaced, rolling his eyes. “He won’t do anything for you, sweetheart. He joined our group just a couple weeks ago. Right around the time you sent the email. So really, you have all the more reason to join us.”
“Even if I join this cult, I will never stay here. I will leave here and never come back.” I hissed.
“And that is your choice to make. But Y/N,” his gaze lowered at me, his eyes intense. “You will never be satisfied. You got barely a taste of what I can offer you, and you're gonna want it forever. Just like everyone else here.”
“You're a- fuuuuuucckk!” I moaned, the cock inside of me hitting my spot deeper. I caught my breath, glaring at him. “Y-You're a freak.”
“Says the girl almost coming to my invisible dick.” He spat, clenching his jaw.
I bit my lip, annoyed at how right he was. The hands exploring my body gripped my ass, slapping it lustfully.
“Okay, okay. I'll agree with you. I am a bit of a freak of nature. But let's not act like I'm some monster. I let people leave. But they always come back because they choose to. I can't force people that far. Pinky promise,” He stuck his pinky out, and I rolled my eyes defiantly. He huffed, “It's not like this place is Scientology, for Christ's sake. We are love. I am love.”
“You are the most tainted form of love that I've ever met.” I retorted, gripping the rug to hide my building arousal.
He deadpanned, “Ow. That hurt.”
Colby strutted over to me, laying down right beside me. The pleasure grew more intense, my hips bucking desperately. His one hand hovered over me, never touching me. It didn't matter, because having him this close felt like his whole body was on top of mine, fucking me hastily.
“If you allow yourself to enjoy this feeling, you might actually come. Because I won't force you to. I'll just keep you here, for hours, riving in pleasure until your brain melts into goo.” He smirked, “How's that sound?”
"I-I hate you." I gritted my teeth. Why did I feel like I was lying?
"No you don't. But soon you'll be able to admit the truth." He leaned his mouth in close, his voice low and sincere, "I know that this place might not be what you imagined your home to be like, but it is. You will always have a place here. You will always be loved here. And I know that's what you want deep down. To be loved unconditionally. To have every fiber of your being satisfied. And if you let me, I will do that. I will please you every night, however you want me to. But for me to do that, you have to let me in. You have to let love in."
The cock inside of me pounded faster and faster. I could barely think anymore. The only thing on my mind... was him. The lives we had together, the life we could be having. I knew I shouldn't want it, but I did. I wanted him in my life, forever. He was what was missing, and I couldn't live one more day without him.
I mewled loudly, my hips thrusting up erotically. Colby's hand cupped my face gently, turning my head to look him in the eyes.
His alluring eyes stared deep into mine, his jaw clenched. "You will always be mine. I am love, and that is all you could ask for."
"You are love, and that's all I could ask for." I repeated mindlessly, grabbing onto his arm desperately.
His face softened, “That's right baby. You're such a good girl for me. My good girl, forever. You want that, don't you?”
“Yessss, please Colby. I want to be yours forever.” I keened.
"You will be. I promise, you will always be mine." His eyes darkened, the pupils almost completely blown out. "You will never leave."
"I won't!" I trembled, my orgasm building closer and closer to the edge.
“You wanna come, Y/N? Get close for me. Don't I feel so good inside of you? You like when I do this?” Colby's hand snaked down my body, rubbing my clit sensually.
I begged wantonly, dying to come. "Pleaseeeeee! Please let me come! I need it! I need you."
"Of course you do, baby. You and I need each other. Our connection is unlike anyone else's. Tell me the truth and I'll let you come." He leaned in close, his lips brushing against my ear, "Tell me, baby. Say it..."
"I love you," I cried out, right on the edge. I direly wanted him to say it back, knowing it was already the truth.
“I love you too, baby,” he smiled sweetly, kissing my cheek. “Now, come for me.”
Hot, white pleasure shot through my body. I had the strongest orgasm of my life, my mind shattering as I rode every wave of pleasure that went through me. Colby stayed by my side, shushing me as my high lowered down more and more. He kept whispering 'I love you' repeatedly, my mind unable to hear or think anything else after a while.
I blacked out at some point but awoke when my body was lifted off the floor and placed softly into a bed. “Wha... happenin?” I slurred.
“Relax, darling. I just brought you to my bed. Well, our bed now,” he chuckled. “I want you to get your rest because tomorrow is a big day for you.”
“What's tomorrow?” I murmured.
“Your introduction to everyone as my soulmate.” Colby informed happily, tucking me in. “Everyone will be so pleased that you changed your mind about joining us.”
I nodded my head, snuggling deep into his bed. He dimmed the lights, whispering softly, "Welcome home, Y/N."
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Uno reverse :D
🐸 Describe your aesthetic.
🌸 Best compliment you ever received?
🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know?
🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl?
🦋 Describe yourself in three words.
🔮 What’s your dream job?
💌 Do you talk to yourself?
💞 @ your favorite blog. (Or just say what it is if you dont wanna tag them)
oh dear, here we go XD
🐸I always kind of view myself as a contradiction? I really like fantasy aesthetics. But I also kind of like goth (maybe not goth exactly, but dark clothes and jewelry). But also cute dresses/skirts and sunhats and things. What do I actually do? jeans and tshirts. idk what my aesthetic is 😅
🌸 i don't really know? People often tell me that I'm sweet. Someone else told me they liked my writing style back in high school. I'm not very good at receiving compliments lol
🙃Most cultures/religions have similar types of stories. There are always tricksters, creation type stories, and disaster stories. A lot of cultures have the same type of disaster, just for a different reason (most memorable to me is a great flood story). Cautionary tales can be similar (I've seen a couple instances of the singing bone)
🦉Morning person by necessity. If I could do whatever I want, I would stay awake really late and be up late in the day.
🦋uncertain, kind, tired (lol)
🔮tbh I haven't thought about this much in a very long time. I mostly really like my current job. If I could be paid to read (but not necessarily edit) or write or draw, that might be cool. Not sure how I feel about turning my hobbies into something I have to do though. Baking, but I hate the hours that would require lol. Maybe if I could be paid to learn, I would be a professional student. Not good at research, but I would go to classes and learn all sorts of things. That could be fun. This answer is officially way too long, moving on <3
💌 Oh yes. All the time. Mostly in my head, unless I'm driving by myself. occasionally when I'm working on something, I will also then talk out loud. But that isn't on purpose, the talking out loud
💞 oh no, favorites lol. I am so bad at favorites, they are all my favorites for different reasons. Lets say I haven't been on tumblr for a while and don't want to scroll through everything. the blogs I check first are: the moots I have ongoing conversations with (you know who you are), fangirltothefullest, fangirlwriting-stories, delimeful, dillydallydove, i-will-physically-fight-you, haysgrove, and a-small-batch-of-dragons. in no particular order. I have a hard time with favorites, and yes most of those are fandom blogs lol
I am a contradiction in a box who can't make up my mind about anything ever. Sorry if that is way too much information lol
thank you for the ask, love!! <3
#asks#I can't make decisions about things#and today seems to be a mood where i will just 'talk' but not actually say anything#sorry for the tmi lol
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An ask game!!!! I missed these!! (Actually tumblr in general) Thanks @coulson-is-an-avenger!!!
1- Why did you choose your url?
Oooh, I think I have answered this before so I will summarize the long story. My URL is a senior # that describes me. I needed one for the yearbook and when I asked my friends who were over for my 18th birthday, one of them said "Storm in a Tea Cup" cuz your hair is silver, you bark like a thunder and you're always sipping tea while giving life the judgy gaze over the cup rim. There you go.
2- Any side blogs?
Oh boy. Hm, I actually do have one, yes. @vere-anima-mea It's actually Kaia Lani's Tumblr that I created for the aesthetic of a single RP 🤣 the best thing tho is, it has a single post about a pagan ritual that every now and then is reblogged by witchy blogs and I feel...so great whenever that happens?? Cuz I did research a lot on a library to make that post?? Anyway, I think I will keep using that blog but like a diary of sorts. Or something else because the URL speaks to hidden depths of my soul.
3- How long have you been on tumblr?
Hm... Since the bored peeps started to be cryptic about their future RPs here so...late 2018/early 2019?
4- Do you have a queue tag?
Nope. I have a ginormous queue line tho. I really mean ginormous, no joke.
5- Why did you start your blog in the first place?
To get the crumbles my friends would sprinkle in their blogs about their writing.
6- Why did you choose your icon/pfp?
Because that picrew is by far the one that represents what I think me in my inner mind looks like the most. She is...me but wilder, natural. She has green hair tips and a messy haircut that she tries to contain with a hairband, dorky glasses, is always smirking like she is telling you "heh, you wish" and attracts loafy birbs cuz she is a Disney Princess.
7- Why did you choose your header?
Oh, that's easy. Cuz I'm gay. Two gals holding hands in a flower field cuz they ain't straight. It helps that one of them, the one holding the hat, is a brunette like me so I guess I saw myself in it and it made me...at peace. Hopeful. Happy.
8-What’s your post with the most notes?
Don't think this applies cuz I am pretty sure any of my posts about the bored community will have the same amount of likes from my friends so.
9- How many mutuals do you have?
Listen, I am a grandma when it comes to technology so is there even a way to check this? Idk.
10- How many followers do you have?
82!!! How.
11- How many people do you follow?
153 blogs!!! Less than on IG, gotta correct that.
12- Have you ever made a shitpost?
Had to google the actual meaning of this to make sure but I don't think so. I rarely even make posts.
13- How often do you use Tumblr each day?
I don't. Currently can't even say I use it weekly, quiçá multiple times a day.
14- Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?
Nope. Never. I'm pro-peace always and forever. Literally. That's what I study at uni. Plus I am lazy. Fighting requires enormous amounts of energy and this girl has no time for that shite.
15- How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?
Hah. No. Big dislike. Have enough of people ordering my do's and don't IRL to allow that in virtual life aussi. Don't gimme that crap.
16- Do you like tag games?
Absolutely!!!!! I love all sorts of games with friends, to be honest!
17- Do you like ask games?
Refer to the previous answer. But addendum cuz just that is boring. These make me feel loved. Idk how to explain, it just feels...really really warm when friends ask about me. Even small little things.
18-Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?
Moss, no doubt. They have art! Writing up on AO3! Yeah, them.
19- Do you have a crush on a mutual?
I do, yes. I'm at the acceptance stage of that crush but I feel like I will resume to the "giddy" stage whenever I think about this and them, this is so bad. As all my friends who are aware of this said, I'm way too deep already 😅 Sorry crush, you're most likely annoyed at this already. You can sigh and virtually punch me, I'll take it.
Hmm, I'll be tagging... @avatar-the-last-chicken-nugget (i am truly curious about the url but not foward enough to just send you a message, yes. Sorry. Also, Hi!!) @beneath-the-willow-tree @babyitsacrime @cloverywands @thepinkcatlady and anyone else who wants!!
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17 questions/17 tags
I’m gonna try catch up w/ the tag games I’ve been piling up here we goooo
Ty @rosesau, @bearmustard and @lovinhalo for tagging me 💖💖
NICKNAMES: yasour (pronounced ya-soor), yussy (nickname from my friends cause it rhymes with pussy and then I got it on my year 12 jacket LMAO <3 I have many ragrets <3
ZODIAC: cancer and idk the moon rising sun thing sorry /:
HEIGHT: 164cm
HOGWARTS HOUSE: gryffindor GRR 🦁
LAST THING I GOOGLED: dear white people movie, I saw a post about it on tumblr apps it’s really good
SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD: Alors on danse - damn u tiktok *shakes fist angrily*
NUMBER OF FOLLOWERS: dw about it sweetheart 😌 (it’s very low)
AMOUNT OF SLEEP: so I slept at 3am then woke up at 11am and then I had a nap from 3.30-6pm 🥶
LUCKY NUMBER: 7 but idk why, it has no significance to me ??
DREAM JOB: to not have a job but still be able to survive
WEARING: white t shirt and black trackie pants
FAVOURITE SONG: HOW DO I CHOOSE THIS IS SO DIFFICULT so I went to check on Apple replay what my most listened to song of this year so far is and it’s HABIT BY LOUIS TOMLINSON AS IT SHOULD
FAVOURITE INSTRUMENT: I like playing piano but idrk how and I love listening to harp and bass guitar 🥵🥵
AESTHETIC: idk how to describe it, if you want take a look at my main acc @st-sweetthang to get an idea of what tickles my aestheticles
FAVOURITE AUTHOR: IDK HOW TO CHOOSE maybe Haruki Murakami ? <3
FAVOURITE ANIMAL NOISE: https://youtu.be/XUFh9MQAb5c
youtube
RANDOM: I just changed my tumblr setting to night mode on my phone and it’s so weird with it being like this 😳
TAGGING: (this is a bit difficult cause I think a lot of my friends have already been tagged in this so I’m gonna do the first 17 in my recent activity) @treatyouwithkindness @wallstermelon @louhazzabeingloudandloud @tomeetthemoon @lamonnaie @onedirectiom @sunflouwr @goddesshoran @imonedirection @velvetcurves @finelinelarrie @heriz @letusadorehl @crazymofos @iadoreyoulou @harrywtrmelonsugar @blahwaow and anyone else who this and wants to do it cause I love reading them!!
#this acc took ages ngl but it’s so fun#I loved reading everyone else’s#tag games#about me#also was it dumb that I’m posting this at 1am no ones awake
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tag games✨
(stealing emmie’s idea *cough*)
so putting some tag games under the cut here <3 thank you for tagging me !! and please, if you want to, please continue doing it because i enjoy doing these quite a lot :3
the order is messed up though lmao sorry
get to know me tag 💕
tagged by ;; @flirtyhyuck
rules ;; tag 10 blogs you want to get to know better
name: zamantha
gender: female
height: somewhere around 5′1″? don’t think i grew much since we last measured lmao
sexuality: good question
jk idrk just yet but here’s something that i feel describes me best rn ?
favorite animal: dogs? foxes? idrk but otherwise, it’d be a dragon
current time:
cats or dogs: dogs
dream job: astronaut like anything that has something to do with music (like performing or production) or science (probably more on chemistry though cause i’m a nerd)
when i made this blog: april [something] 2019
why i made this blog: because i had ideas i wanted to share and make other people happy with these ideas as well
reason for url: my handwriting is crap so my u’s & v’s and g’s & q’s look the same + blog is about jisung so yeah
(and also to kathy, hyuck doing that tongue thing, yes)
5 random facts 💞
tagged by ;; @heart-bleeding-autism-angel, @pinkhyunie (different kind of tag, but same content hhh)
rules ;; write 5 random facts about yourself and tag some mutuals/people you’d like to get to know better !!
i recently just learnt blackpink’s stay on the guitar
i really really wanna learn misfit on the drums but we only have electric drums and my father won’t teach me how to set it up 🤧
i think wayyyy too much
i can somehow destroy anything i can get my hands on (both on purpose sabotage but more often than not, on accident 🤡)
i’m horrible at responses and replying :/
a bunch of tags 💓
just emmie’s hugeass tag that i’ll be answering cause why not
tagged by ;; @honeydh (the whole thing <3), @heart-bleeding-autism-angel (keeping up with mutuals tag)
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keeping up with mutuals tag 💗
favorite color(s): green
last song: DINOSAUR - AKMU
last movie: Your Name (haven’t actually watched anything else since then 💀💀)
last show completed: Crash Landing on You (this is the only show i managed to “finish” 💀💀💀)
currently reading: The Martian - Andy Weir
currently watching: i don’t really watch any shows
sweet, savory, or spicy: savory (i can’t take too much of any flavor, really)
craving: kwek kwek :(( also boba and maybe like pizza
tea or coffee: coffee
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5 things tag 💖
5 things you can find in my room:
19472 plushies
fuzzy blankets & fluffy pillows
a bed
a desktop computer
and a mess
(the room is literally just a bed and a computer + i share it with my siblings skhf)
5 random things about me:
i love studying about different languages and cultures of different places
i don’t really like cake 😬 (too-sweet things in general too, like candies)
but i really like those sour gummies though, they pass
i google so much random shit that i know too many things i won’t be able to use in school
i like learning, but i hate school with a burning passion
5 favorite bands:
i saw “bands” and the first thing that popped into my head was fall out boy skjd
day6
tøp
kamikazee
parokya ni edgar lol
5 favorite girl groups/soloists:
blackpink
taylor swift
bol4
hailee steinfeld
moira dela torre
5 favorite boy groups/soloists:
nct
stray kids
ed sheeran
treasure
bruno mars
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15 questions tag 💝
nicknames: zam (irl and here), z (just here), zennie, zatan (help ?!?!?), zsung
zodiac: libra
height: ^^ pocket-sized
last thing i googled: “why do ants carry dead ants” 💀
song stuck in my head: DINOSAUR - AKMU (it just sounds so good 🥺)
number of followers: 1,275 :o
amount of sleep i got: i’m hibernating (like 12 hours? idk when i slept but i just woke up)
lucky number: 18 (lucky & favorite number)
favorite song: yes
favorite instrument: by sound, violin & piano, but to play, it’s got to be the drums skjdfh
dream job: like i said, astronaut something related to either music or science
aesthetic: i’m bad at like art stuff and design help me pls hm idk maybe like rn i’m feeling stuff like stupid poses in polaroid photos, remembering something that happened like years ago with a friend and laughing about it together, playing at a playground at night, sleepovers where no one actually sleeps, late-night roadtrips, camping with friends and stargazing, just like everything nostalgic yk
favorite author: i pick up whatever book and just read tbh so i don’t really have a favorite, per se
favorite animal noise: crickets chirping (idk i just have some good memories tied to this sound it’s weird skfs)
random: as suggested by one of my timestamps, i don’t really like pizza crusts
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extra elongated tag game!
tagged by: @waithyuck hi, thank you for tagging me. i hope you’re safe :))
tagging: @94core, @legendnct, @juliennestudies (hi, it’s althea. you might want to do this?), @jaesmintea (can we be friends dkjsf idk how to make friends here) and whoever wants to play this game. it’s pretty lengthy tho.
O N E
tell me the first song that made you stan your current fave group and why did your faves attract you so much?
for seventeen, it was clap. the synchronization, even when they made a mistake, was really impressive to me. i started binge-watching their dance videos and i just remember being at awe at how a lot of people (considering they’re 13) could be in sync like that.
for nct, it was kick it. i used to say i didn’t like the song, but it won’t get out of my head. i’m not sure what keeps me attracted to them as a group. i just am. also, haechan is the love of my life. i’ve never loved an idol the way i loved him.
for ateez, it was wonderland. good lord, i just love that song. the mv, the vibe it gives off, the aesthetics during that era. makes me want to start a revolution.
T W O
rule: answer the ten questions given by the previous person and write 10 of your own for the next person!
1. what is your favorite memory from your childhood?
i didn’t have a dull childhood or something. i just don’t have specific memory that i could consider my favorite. but if there was anything i was fond of, as a kid, it was being innocent and not worrying too much about anything. i miss that and i wish i could go back.
2. if you could travel anywhere in the world with just a snap of your fingers, where would you go and why?
the museum where van gogh’s starry night is stored. i want to visit it in the middle of the night when there’s no one else there. i just want to stare at it and appreciate it.
3. describe your personality in three (3) words.
unbowed. unbent. unbroken. haha, kidding. impulsive, unpredictable, and...confusing i guess?
4. what is your favorite thing that you have ever read? (anything you’ve ever read counts! fanfiction, poems, novels etc.) why?
i don’t really have a favorite :(
5. are you the studying type of person or the type to just ‘wing it’ when you have a big test coming up?
i’m not really the type who studies regularly but i don’t walk into the exam room without reading at all. i read and study a few days before the exam, try to get as much information as possible.
6. between bold colors and pastel colors, which do you prefer?
i’d rather go with pastels in the day and bold neons at night.
7. do you live life in the moment or do you plan every action you take?
a bit of both depending on the situation. i’m the type who plans ahead on things that i really want to happen but i have my fair share of spontaneous, impulsive decisions that lead up to really fun experiences. but when it comes to life in general? i’m just taking in every day as it comes.
8. what is your favorite holiday and why? (all holidays count! across all religions and cultures 😄)
christmas. the weather is cool and everyone’s a bit kind during that time of the year. and it leads up to new year.
9. would you rather stay up to stargaze in the middle of the night or wake up early to watch the sunrise?
i can’t see stars even with glasses on because my eyes suck. so i guess, i’d rather watch the sunrise because that obnoxious ball of bright yellow light is so hard to miss. plus i like how the surroundings change colors as the night changes into day.
10. what is your favorite eye color on another person?
blue on a brunette? i know it’s rare but it’s such a beautiful mix.
my ten questions for you:
what’s your favorite season and why?
are you a cat person or a dog person?
what’s your current favorite song and why can’t you stop listening to it?
if you had the ability to do either of the following, would you rather change something in the past or see into the future?
what’s your favorite movie?
what did miss rona ruin for you this 2020?
what’s your favorite album? (you can name one for each genre you like or you can just name one, it’s up to you.)
if you could talk to your past self (person who lived your past life), what would you tell them?
do you have a go-to person? who is it?
if you could tell your younger self something, what would you say?
T H R E E
rule: bold the statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations.
AIR ༉⋆͙̈
i have small hands / i love the night sky / i watch animals and birds when i pass them by / i drink herbal tea / i wake to see the dawn / the smell of dust is comforting / i’m valued for being wise / i prefer books to music / i meditate / i find joy in learning new truths from the world around me
FIRE ༉⋆
i don’t have straight hair / i like to wear ripped jeans and overalls / i play an organized sport / i love dogs / i am not afraid of adventure / i love to talk to strangers / i always try new foods / i enjoy road trips / summer is my favorite season / my radio is always playing
WATER ༉⋆͙̈
i wear bracelets on my wrists / i love the bustle of the city / i have more than one set of piercings / i read poetry / i love the sound of a thunderstorm / i want to travel the world / i sleep past midday most days / i love simply lit dinners and fluorescent signs / i rewatch kids shows out of nostalgia / i see emotions in colors not words
EARTH ༉⋆͙̈
i wear glasses or contacts / i enjoy doing the laundry / i am a vegetarian or vegan / i have an excellent sense of time / my humor is very cheerful / i am a valued advisor to my friends / i believe in true love / i love this chill of mountain air / i’m always listening to music / i am highly trusted by the people in my life
AETHER ༉⋆͙̈
i go without makeup in my daily life / i make my own artwork / i keep on track of my tasks and time / i always know true north / i see beauty in everything / i can always smell flowers / i smile at everyone i pass by / i always fear history repeating itself / i have recovered from a mental disorder / i can love unconditionally
F O U R
the ultimate tag: answer whichever ones you want to because there are a lot.
PERSONAL
name: althea
nickname: thea
birthday: april 27
zodiac: taurus
nationality: filipino
languages: filipino, english, learning korean
gender: female
sexuality: straight
height: 5’2”
BLOG STUFF
inspiration for muse: music
meaning behind my url: supposedly neocity but that was taken so :D
blog established: 2016/2015? but i only became active this 2020
followers: 35 :D hi <3
FAVORITES
favorite animal/s: cats :(
favorite book/s: warcross by marie lu
favorite color/s: black and skin-tone shades
favorite fictional characters: i don’t really have favorites, sorry
favorite flower: sunflowers
favorite scent: vanilla
favorite season: summer and fall or the tropical equivalents of these anw
RANDOM
average hours of sleep: 7-8
cats or dogs: cats
coffee, tea or hot chocolate: iced tea / hot chocolate
current time: 12:50 pm
dream trip: europe trip
dream job: i actually want to be a 5-star michelin
hobbies: writing, listening to music
hogwarts house: slythering
last movie watched: the darkest minds
last song listened to: sweet creature - harry styles
no. of blankets you sleep with: 1
random fact(s): i’m in both college and high school atm (august 5, 2020) because i haven’t graduated yet and my college a.y already started
F I V E
10 songs i can’t stop listening to:
just go - ikon
easy - stray kids
breathe - james arthur
lotto - exo
god’s menu - stray kids
inception - ateez
killing me - ikon
la la lost you - niki
dontmakemefallinlove - cuco
safe inside - james arthur
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tag game(s)
anï (i’m too exhausted to do three separate posts but i was tagged in three tag games over the past few days and i’d forgotten to do the last few games i was tagged in and i feel super guilty so here they are in one go)
i don’t know who to tag to do these rn because my brain is dead i am emotionally exhausted and i’m writing a fic that’s about halfway done so i’m gonna say tag anyone who wants to be tagged for any of these. i’m so sorry that i’m dead, i will be back alive again after may 10th, which is my AP exam day
six questions challenge
tagged by @simon--speaks
rules: answer the questions, then tag 9 people you want to get to know better!
Q1: Relationship status?
single bby
Q2: Favorite color?
maroon !
Q3: Top 3 ships?
snowbaz (wow) and uh. wow. idk who else. i wanna say my own ocs matchstick and summer (is that allowed? i’m making it allowed)
Q4: Lipstick or chapstick?
whenever i get to this question in any ask i freeze up because i use a tinted chapstick so i don’t look dead but like. it can also be seen as a lipstick because it has pigment. but. chapstick.
Q5: Last song I listened to?
Run by Hozier
Q6: Last movie I watched?
uhhh i watched like. 5 minutes of the emperor’s new groove a few days ago, and watched a documentary about obscure houses like 10 minutes before that. so. i’m gonna say the house documentary.
21 questions
i was tagged by @simon--speaks, @angelsfalling16, @wo2ash, @alixanderthequeer, @sharkmartini and @bazypitchandsimonsnow
rules: answer 21 questions then tag 21 people
nickname: anï, munchkin, menina, and my hebrew name is elisheva
height: the doctor says i’m 5′3.5″, but they can’t put fractions on IDs so according to the state i’m 5′4″ and i cling to that
last movie i saw: see above (so like. funky houses)
last thing i googled: (next town over) movie tavern. i’m not saying where it is exactly bc hah i don’t wanna be stalked but. i was looking at movie times because they have $5 movies every tuesday
favorite musician: frank iero. love that funky rat man and his funky music too (i’m gonna see him for the second time next month because i made the executive adult decision to say fuck it to my seizures and go see him anyway)
song stuck in my head: i don’t have one rn but usually it’s a song by the killers (when you were young is a usual one)
other blogs: none, actually! i didn’t delete my old tumblr purely bc i’m a nostalgic dumbass, but it’s a completely different login and it’s inactive so i don’t count it.
followers: 1,666 (originally i wasn’t gonna share the number but it hit this last night and i was like heh. nice)
following: 231
amount of sleep: 8ish hours! (spring break bby)
lucky numbers: 7, multiples of 3 (only in cases of knocking), and multiples of 2 (only in cases like volume)
dream job: writing and illustrating books! i have a variety of dream jobs within art, and even within the subcategory of books, but my top dream job is creating inclusive/diverse children’s books that represent a variety different ethnicities/races, religions, abilities, and identities so that children can see themselves represented in media
what i’m wearing: a black turtleneck, a bra, and marvel boxers. that’s it.
favorite food: soup in general. i make a kick ass matzo ball soup
language: english, conversational portuguese, i know a small small bit of japanese (i should know more given i was raised being taught it but i always struggled with it), and i know some spanish. i also plan on teaching myself ASL.
can i play an instrument: yes! i’ve been playing violin since i was 2. i wanna play guitar and i know some chords but i have small hands so it’s hard to find one that’s the right size that isn’t a shitty children’s guitar, and i sing! i’m an alto
favorite song: hnnghg please don’t make me pick................ i’d have to say choke on one another by death spells
random fact: so like. if you didn’t know already, i’m an LGBTQ+ youth activist on a national scale. i disappear on occasion because i’m doing something or another, and sometimes i post about it on my blog (speaking of i have exciting news that i heard, but at the same time, i’m pretty much booked every weekend from middle of next month until middle of july), but........ i hate networking. i loathe it. if i never had to network again, i’d be thrilled. networking is my absolute least favorite thing because i struggle at everyday conversation, much less networking with people at least 10-20 years my senior. sure it’s usually free publicity and i get great connections, but god. at what cost? and like.... it’s always after a really emotionally taxing event, so i’m already drained and then wow here’s a room full of adults who want my 18 year old input. please. just let me steal a cupcake then leave.
describe yourself in aesthetic things: dye stained fingernails and necks. cranked open windows during a spring shower. dried tears and breaking laughs. coffee stains and milky tea splashes. trembling fingers, writing instead of speaking because you’re too afraid, and finally breaking free--running through the rain. scabbing blood, fresh piercings. knowing you’re loved and not saying it because it doesn’t need to be spoken. the smell of a new canvas, paint splattered jeans, and art school sweaters. black skirts with docs, then fairy lights and soft blankets hidden behind sharp profanities and harsh disgust. the unexpected. the unknown. the ever-changing, unstoppable force of the shifting tides.
carry on questions
tagged by @goodbyedandelion, @isthisisagoodkiss @wo2ash,
1- favorite type of scone?
cranberry orange! one of the farms a county over has a market and they sell them there and they’re to die for (altho, i found a sour cherry scone recipe that i’ve perfected and my family loves them so they’re a close second now)
2- london or la?
i’ve never been to london, but i’m gonna have to go with london. i went to la last october to present in an awards show for my organization and i lowkey was underwhelmed. i’m very much a gloom and rain kinda person, and it was too dry and sunny there. although, i did think the huge succulents were sick as fuck. but yeah definitely london. i’m planning to spend a semester abroad there in a few years for an illustration program
3- kissing in a forest or holding hands under the stars?
i’m afraid of forests because we have a lot of wildlife and i don’t want to get mauled by a bear don’t mind me holding hands under the stars :)
4- jeans or suit?
suit suit suIT SUIT suit. i love wearing suits. my chest doesn’t cooperate and my hips always hate them but god i do love suits.
5- loose hair or pulled back hair?
mine looks better loose, and my sides/back are shaved but the top reaches my ears, so it gets annoying sometimes and i pull it up to keep it out of my face
6- vampires or dragons?
i wanna say both. i used to say “yknow a dragon but in human form would be hot” then i got called dragon fucker for like two years so out of pure spite i’m going with vampires.
7- what saying do you wish could be a spell?
(this one’s a very specific reference so hear me out) “i’ve got to go pee on her” used to disorient and confuse the speech of the person casted upon. it’s one of my favorite quotes from scott pilgrim vs. the world (my favorite movie ngl) when scott’s brain can’t figure out two different sentences and he just says that. it’s so good and just fuckin weird that i love it.
8- which carry on character would you go on a coffee date with if you could?
depends tbh! if we’re talking date date, then penny because i would wife penny in 0.5 seconds, but if we’re talking friends getting coffee then 10000000% baz because i’d talk activism and identities with him
9- favorite carry on quote?
“he told me we would be stars” (i don’t have my book on me so i could be getting the line wrong), but it hit so hard for me. like it’s clear how davy manipulated lucy so much that she fell into it and couldn’t crawl out. it’s such a powerful message of control from those who are charismatic enough to hold it, and how sometimes we aren’t weak enough to let go.
10- how excited are you for wayward son?
lemme paint this picture: i started hyperventilating in the hallway when i found out, and then cried an hour or two later when my friend texted me that he preordered me a signed copy. like. i’ve been pre-planning how to get home from college to come and pick it up (okok the 24th is also my dad’s birthday so i’m. um. “coming home to visit him”, of course) because i’m just SO EXCITED to read them again in a canon way :’)
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REPOST. DO NOT REBLOG !!
» HOW TO —· // Answer the following questions about your muse && tag peeps
◤— TAGGED BY. @curiosiccus ( thanks for tagging me honeyyyyy <33 )
◤— TAGGING. @heligooddeals, @radioactivibee, @tertiaxdecima, @wily-red-and-galeforce-gold, @oneshallstand, @chromiatfp, @thesoundlessvoid, @starsarescreamiing, @exitiumsuum, @therisingdarkness, @nautihca, @warriorsgoddess, @mechanicsgoddess, @shattcr-me, @restitutiopax, @unknownsoldiers, @notafraidofbees && anyone else who wants to do this just say I tagged you !!
○ NICKNAMES. Lita, Leet-Beat, Mama Lita, any combination synonymous with Elita-1 tbh
○ ZODIAC. Sagittarius~
○ HEIGHT. 5′5″ ( APPARENTLY I grew an inch !! )
○ TIME. 6:27 PM
○ FAVOURITE BAND / ARTIST. Too many but here goes: Imagine Dragons, Sia, Daft Punk, Ariana Grande, Linkin Park, Elvis, ACDC, Pearl Jam, pretty much any classic rock band out there lmao...
○ SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD. Rockefeller Street ( I’m so sorry )
○ LAST MOVIE I WATCHED. Actually, I just saw Crawl today in theatres
○ LAST THING I GOOGLED. How fast can alligators swim ( related to the above )
○ OTHER BLOGS. @arielpax ( indefinite hiatus ), @litaxpita ( personal )
○ WHY I CHOSE THIS USERNAME. Back in the day I went by elitecommanderess but it was just too long of a url and it was very cool to have an ‘x’ somewhere in your url so, here we are xD TLDR; I wanted to be a Cool Kid
○ FOLLOWING. 288, a quarter of which are #aesthetic blogs lmao
○ AVERAGE AMOUNT OF SLEEP. 5-6 hours, such is the life of a depressed insomniac
○ WHAT I’M CURRENTLY WEARING. Crop top sweatshirt, high waisted ripped jean shorts ( I was just out and about, normally it’s a baggy t-shirt and underwear )
○ DREAM JOB. It changes, right now, something executive level at a film studio
○ DREAM TRIP. J A P A N ( or Thailand )
○ FAVOURITE FOOD. Anything with cheese, so I guess cheese?
○ PLAY AN INSTRUMENT? I played flute throughout high school. I still have it... I’m actually looking into taking lessons again
○ HAIR COLOUR. Light brown, but I’m getting bored so that might change
○ LANGUAGES YOU SPEAK. English and very, very, very poor Canadian French
○ MOST ICONIC SONG. Idk, I go through phases. BUT, my most played song on iTunes is New Divide by Linkin Park
○ RANDOM FACT. I can pop my right hip out of its socket. I’m 100% certain that shouldn’t be the case but hey, good icebreaker
○ DESCRIBE YOURSELF AS AN AESTHETIC. Rose gold, cotton candy sunsets, damp hair sticking against skin, paper cuts, tangled earbuds, reflections in sunglasses, piles of half-finished notebooks, chipped nail polish
#╰ ♔ ·｡ ┊ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴅ ɪs ɴɪɢʜ ○「 ᴍᴇᴍᴇ ʀᴇᴘʟɪᴇs 」#/ long post#[ these are always fun to do ^w^ ]#[ thanks for tagging me !! ]
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get to know me tag!
answer these questions then tag people you would like to get to know better!
I was tagged by @uwujpgs and @soulclub thanks, ily cuties! 💜💜
nickname: some people call me Aly, others, mostly my family, calls me Lyss(y)
height: 5'5"
time: idk prolly really late coz I'm in an ER waiting room, aka a different dimension
fave bands/artists: umm, I listen to everything 😂 so this is hard
kpop -
Astro, Got7, TXT, and Monsta X. I will find more to add to this list, I can 100% guarantee it 😂
non kpop -
Panic! at the Disco, Twenty One Pilots, Journey, Hall and Oates, Michael Buble, Adele, Owl City, The Eagles, Black Veil Brides, Jack White, Queen, Harry Styles, Paramore, Maroon 5, Blink-182, I DON'T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME, Superorganism, Shawn Mendes, Fall Out Boy, oh god there's so much more but that's all I can think of off the top of my head.
song stuck in my head: monsta x's entire discography 😂 no mainly Trespass and In Time. and Think of Me from Phantom of the Opera.
last movie I saw: Wreck It Ralph 2. I think. I haven't watched a movie in a long time tbh.
other blogs: my main (I really don't think I can call it that anymore since haven't been on it at all since I created this one 😂) @pineappleatheist and a side blog off that for some that I don't remember the name of because I haven't used it in so long 😂
do I get asks: yeah I do! when I ask for them haha. I get some great anons tbh 😂 but seriously people can talk to me whenever they want to! I may be weird but I don't bite 😂
why I chose this username: this is in my (unusually long) bio. but it's the names of my first two biases in a stupid little play in Selena's song Bidi Bidi Bom Bom. She said that it meant "It's the sound the heart makes when you see a man pass by." So it just made sense haha.
following: 115-120(?) somewhere around there.
what I'm wearing: a baggy, off the shoulder, bat wing sleeve t-shirt over a bra and underwear (my usual)
dream job: I want to do everything honestly 😂 but without limitations, oceanographer. I've always had a strong fascination with the ocean and have always wanted to be one of those people who gets to discover new species in the murky depths!
favorite food: all of it. no seriously there are very few things I don't like. I. Love. Food. but I do have a really big sweet tooth so I love pretty much anything sweet. I love carbs the most though 😂 gimme a potato, pasta, or bread and I'm good to go haha.
play any instruments: a little guitar and ukulele and I sing if that counts as an instrument
hair color: mousey, dirty blonde, light brown, somethin 'er other. idk what it's considered. it's my natural color so I can't give a box color name haha
language you speak: english. learning Japanese and I want to learn a lot more including Korean.
most iconic song: idk how to answer this, I'm prolly just dumb, but I genuinely don't know
random fact: I can wiggle my ears. and here's another one I just figured out today. I can sing Think of Me from Phantom of the Opera note for note and I am nowhere near a trained professional. I'm oddly proud of that so I wanted to mention it 😂
describe yourself in aesthetic things: (crap I am so shit at this I'm sorry) bright lipstick, sunday morning cuddles in bed, stuffed animals, steaming tea, round glasses, lit candles, bubble baths, pearl earrings, quiet giggles, ocean waves, seahorses, fairy lights, fresh baked cookies, old photographs, soft background music, stolen kisses, all black outfits, worn books, dripping ice cream cones, hair pets, succulents (idk man that probably doesn't make any sense but I tried haha)
I tag @kaptain-k-pop @mylifeinhopeworld @ilikeeverythingonmypizza @13-scoups @jusgyeom and @inkybeanies and anyone else who wants to do it!
#hope you learned something#probably more than you wanted to 😂#aly won't shut up#tag game#i love these things so thanks for tagging me !!!#good way to pass time in an er waiting room
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Tag game!
Answer 21 questions and tag 21 (or how many you want who cares) people you’d like to get to know
Thanks for tagging me @metaphorical-love-for-a-car ! I love being tagged in things!! ✨
Nickname: never had one but I really wish I did
Sign: Pisces
What I’m wearing: jeans, an old grey sweatshirt and my big stompy lesbian boots
Dream job: stage crew/ lighting technican for live shows. Or anything I can do to be useful behind the scenes tbh
Favorite quote: “The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return” I don’t know if it’s originally from someone else but I know it from Moulin Rogue
Favorite food: idk if fruit salad count but I don’t care give me all the fruit (also Kelly’s cheese fries win nostalgia points but only from Kelly’s Roast Beef)
Favorite movie: Moulin Rogue gets me every time, Kiss Kiss Bang Bang has my sense of humor to a t but Johnny Dangerously and The Princess Bride are quality throwbacks
Favorite sport: I was alright at pickle ball if that counts for anything
Dream trip: take me anywhere
Languages: just English because I suck :/ I understand baseline Spanish but even at that I’m no good
Favorite song: rn it’s The Load Out by Jackson Browne (which leads right into Stay so count that as one song) but all time favorite and life saver is Still Breathing by Green Day
Favorite book: Struck By Lightning will always have a place in my heart. Mercury and Me however made me cry upwards of 30 times and I’m not joking. I need to read more books..
What do I hate: I hate hate and bigotry in all its ugly forms. Also my junior prom date from making me slow dance to Dont Stop Believing in 2015. Not cool Derby.
Random fact: I’ve worn contacts since 6th grade because I got glasses and braces at the same time the summer before starting middle school (no I was never bullied, just paranoid)
Describe yourself as aesthetic things: ginger hair in autumn leaves, yellow flowers, big dogs and tiny cats, ink stains, broken in boots, city lights
Do I get asks: sometimes when I ask for lyrics to draw! And then I forget about them and never get asked again lololol
Other blogs: main is @haveanaverageday and my other disaster sideblog is Marvel-is-gay-and-so-am-I (I’m not bothering to tag that one)
Hogwarts house: POTTERMORE KEEPS FUCKING LYING AND PUTTING ME IN GRYFFINDOR BUT ITS WRONG
Patronus: who knows since pottermore keeps lying to me
Favorite characters: idk if this is still about HP but I’m going to so switch it and say Klaus from Umbrella Academy, Max and/or Jack Rackum from Black Sails, Arya and Daenerys from GoT and Shuri, Okoye, Tony and Carol from the MCU I can’t pick just one okay
Any updates on a new fic: I don’t write, I’m just here to appreciate everyone’s talent and cry *cough* @jimhuttonsfreddiemercury *cough*
Tags: I don’t know if any of you like being tagged but I’m tagging people I either see in my notes a lot or I’m 90% sure we’re mutuals sorry!! 💛 @jimhuttonsfreddiemercury @killerqueenofthenight @newsoftheworlds @freddiemercury-loveofmylife @drowsyrog @nonthirsty-queenie @merriell-sledge
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wip prep tag
RULES: answer the questions and then tag as many writers as there are questions answered (or as many as you can) to spread the positivity! even if these questions are not explicitly brought up in the novel, they are still good to keep in mind when writing.
i was tagged by @astorsa
i’ll be doing this for blood and bones!
FIRST LOOK
1. describe your novel in 1-2 sentences (elevator pitch).
the (former) regent prince of an island country plots to win his throne back and avenge the murder of his father, all while something wicked brews right under his nose.
2. how long do you plan for your novel to be? (is it a novella, single book, book series, etc.)
it’s definitely going to be a series. i’m planning for four books right now? but that could easily change depending on how much work i want to do.
3. what is your novel’s aesthetic?
the feeling of someone watching you from a distance, knives hid up the sleeves of dresses, blood staining your teeth, a winter wind whipping at your cheeks, the feel of cracked stone beneath your fingers.
4. what other stories inspire your novel?
i think i had just finished reading a lot of jay kristoff and watching an episode of game of thrones when i first thought of the idea? but i can’t think of any specifically. ALso this was something very, very different in the beginning, opposite almost to what it is now.
5. share 3+ images that give a feel for your novel.
look at me being aesthetically pleasing.
MAIN CHARACTER
6. who is your protagonist?
there are technically a couple; lukas, aaron, reija, mira, and vallen, but for the sake of simplicity, i’m going to say lukas.
7. who is their closest ally?
probably his sister, lada. it has to do partially with the fact that she is his sister and partially with the fact that their upbringing didn’t exactly allow for many friends or allies outside of their family.
8. who is their enemy?
lukas is a kind of Dramatic And Petty and considers almost everyone that isn’t directly related to his family a threat but in the beginning of the story, it’s aaron.
9. what do they want more than anything?
in the start of the story, he wants the crown. i feel like i would be spoiling something if i said more ftgyhuj
10. why can’t they have it?
long story short, the two “courts” of the government vote on a new king when one dies and lukas wasn’t voted into power. this is, of couse, the first time a tkachov hasn’t been king in hundreds of years.
11. what do they wrongly believe about themselves?
lukas thinks he’s ready to give up anything or anyone to get what he wants, but he doesn’t realize how much he actually has to lose.
12. draw your protagonist! (or share a description)
...It was equally unfair how ridiculously beautiful Lukas was. The sun behind him staining the room a honey yellow, tinting his not-quite-black hair a molten brown, lining the cut of his jaw and the fullness of his lips. His eyes, Aaron had once noted, were not just a gray, but a light hazel speckled with green...
PLOT POINTS
13. what is the internal conflict?
lukas has to rethink practically everything he thought he knew about himself and his family. reija has literally lost all her memories. mira has to choose between killing someone and help those she hates succeed or keeping secrets that could put an entire group of people in danger. vallen is vallen, make of that what you will. and aaron has been thrust into a position of power that he doesn’t want but his family needs.
14. what is the external conflict?
the gods are about to make everything go boom. also monsters.
15. what is the worst thing that could happen to your protagonist?
it kind of does happen?????
16. what secret will be revealed that changes the course of the story?
17. do you know how it ends?
i do and writing it is going to be so much fun and you are going to hate me.
BITS AND BOBS
18. what is the theme?
don’t trust anyone ever for anything at all.
19. what is a recurring symbol?
the hrin is a religious symbol talked about a lot in the story. you can see what it looks like at the end of my intro post here, its the gold thing!
20. where is the story set? (share a description!)
it takes place in the island country of vysena (here’s a map!), in the capital city of seredina (you can see the map of the city with the same link) and the beginning of chapter two, which i plan to share, has a description, so look out for that!
21. do you have any images or scenes in your mind already?
i do! i actually have outlined the entire novel already, now all i really have to do is write it. the scenes on the albatross specifically i’m looking forward to, because pirates. but also just the end? when everything comes together? i can’t wait tbh.
22. what excited you about this story?
the worldbuilding was tedious but i find it to be one of the most rewarding and exciting parts. i really can’t wait to begin to explore it a bit more throughout the series.
23. tell us about your usual writing method?
after checking my notes, i tend to write out any main descriptions/actions i have in mind. i write my dialogue separately, literally just the words they say, and then add on descriptions and dialogue tags afterward. then i take the whole thing paragraph by paragraph and rewrite portions of it before editing for grammar mistakes. i feel like there are less painstaking ways of doing this but here we are.
TAGGING: @montevena @katabasiss @noloumna @the-ichor-of-ruination @evervicious @meegeewrites sorry if anyone’s already been tagged idk that many writeblrs yet but if anyone else wants to do it please tag me!! i’d love to know more about your wips <3
#mine#bab#tagged#gbhnasdvkjs im so sorry this took me so long to do#but thank you for tagging me!#also your writing? we live for That
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Getting to Know You Tag
I was tagged by @yeolaredumb thank you!!!
Nickname // Bekah, chim, Bex, chimothy... Any punny variation of chim you can think of lol
Gender // female
Zodiac // Pisces
Height // 5’2” or roughly 158cm I think??
Age // 20
Time // 1:23am at time of posting! (listen.... I'm technically a day late from what I originally said but I didn't forget!!!)
Favorite bands or solo artists // owl city, astro, bap, hyuna, hwasa, ace, ateez, too many groups to list......
Song stuck in my head // blue rose keeps popping in and out of my head since I heard it on Tuesday evening 😂
Last thing I googled // "stardust pirate captain" listen. He's lovely. I love him. And that movie 😂
Other blogs // uhhhh I have a mostly inactive blog @disappeared-with-the-dawn.... Was supposed to be a pentagon blog but then the Thing™ happened and unfortunately I lost a lot of my excitement to run it -_- now it's primarily a hyuna & hyojong blog but hopefully the rest of pentagon will be back on there soon!!
Do I get asks // I do get asks from my honeyst anon 👀 (who are you???) but beyond that, no I don't really? Occasional encouraging notes that I love to death wow but not frequently
Why I chose my username // lol okay so I originally had a username that I didn't realize the meaning behind one of the words... So when I found out, I wanted to change it stat lol so @djjiahn gave me the idea of astros-turf cuz UHHHHH perhaps astro owns my soul ok?!
Following // 746
Average amount of sleep // if I'm at home? 3 hours maybe. If I'm anywhere else? 6+ hours usually? At least?
Lucky number // 3
What am I wearing // a super soft black T-shirt that says "rule maker" on it (I'm starting a collection of dad shirts don't @ me) & soft black shorts ^-^
Dream job // hm. Honestly I don't know that I have a dream job. I have many things that would be interesting to do... I wanna make YouTube videos, I wanna sell homemade things, I wanna review stuff, I sometimes wanna be a counselor type person... I dunno. We'll see.
Dream trip // going to Japan??? Specifically like countryside areas... I dunno exactly... Just wanna explore :o also maybe Israel but probably not idk 😂
Favorite food // hmmmm, usually I just say pizza here cuz I don't really know lol. My food tastes change so frequently sooooo
Play any instruments // I own a guitar and a bass but I don't know how to play either D:
Favorite song // hmmmm. Recently it's been B.M. by yifan.... Or Map of the World (worldwide version) by uhhhh epik high/lots of people?? Lol & lots of English music but who cares on my kpop blog lol /.\
Played any sports // the closest I ever got was that I was in taekwondo for like 3 years lol
Hair color // it's brown
Eye color // they're brown... I'm so boring lol I'm sorry (technically I guess they're hazel?? They look green a lot idk man)
Most iconic song // iconic??? Oh lord.... I refuse to list a nct song cuz no whisper songs rn ok??? So how about.... OH!!! Undercover! Definitely!
Languages you speak // English and the tiniest bit of ASL & and I can read an even tinier bit of Japanese??
Random fact // i hope to move to Canada in 2020??? (I live in the states rn)
Describe yourself as an aesthetic // oof, my aes, the aes I like looking at, and the aes I aspire to be are all wildly different... And I cant really describe my own??? I'm bad with aesthetics I'm sorry /.\
Tagging: anyone who sees this! Just tag me so I can see!
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tagged by my good buddy @i-rove-rock-n-roll sorry it took me so freaking long
1. When starting something new, how much do you know about the story before you start writing?
I typically outline the whole thing beat by beat, and then usually end up throwing in a lot more scenes in the middle as I’m writing. Usually things don’t go according to plan and I end up needing to adapt my outline quite a bit as I go.
2. What draws you to your WIP(s)? Why did you choose to write that/those over anything else?
Honestly idk like probably personal attachment? Like DotE is inspired by mashing all of my favorite tropes together, Cafe is an inside joke, and my other WIPs I haven’t really started yet I guess I’m not super drawn to beyond the fact that I like the aesthetic of them
3. Favorite writing spot? Why?
My bed bc that’s the most comfortable place for me to sit in my house
4. Share your favorite line of what you’ve written so far!
Oh lordy
I just did a post of all my excerpts from Camp NaNo (here) and because I’m lazy (and I do like this line a lot) I’m just stealing one from that
“Look, I obviously didn’t mean to set off a volcano-” Owen began, but Logan cut him off.
“Save it.” Logan went back to staring intently ahead of them. “God, Owen, have you apologized for anything in your life? Or do you just keep making excuses?”
5. If you had to choose one OC to bring to life as an actual person, which one would it be and why?
Ohhh man this is really tough. I would love to hang out with pretty much all of my characters but I think I have to go with Joanna from Cafe, she’s the one who would survive outside of her story the best and also I just really want to be her friend. Maybe Leo tho I’d love to hang out with him too/fall in love with him bc he’s a guy after my own romantic heart
Also it just now occurred to me how much Joanna and Diana would love each other they’re both badass best friend characters who take no shit and say exactly what they mean lol I did not realize how similar they are until now
6. Are you looking to get published? If so, do you hope to make it a career?
I would love to get published but I’ve never really tried, writing would be super cool as a career but honestly I’m too sensitive to go through the rejection that needs to happen before I can get published lol
7. What’s something you would read but would never write (or the other way around)? Any reason?
I could never write super high fantasy or hard sci-fi. My brain just isn’t that good at creating stuff. But I love reading it!! Give me all of the Lord of the Rings and Amphibian Man stuff it’s amazing
8. What’s something you are most proud of about your work so far?
I guess the fact that I’ve never stopped writing? And I think I’m improving and becoming more proud of it as well, hiding it less and being secretive/ashamed less too
9. Badly describe your WIP(s) in one sentence
DotE: Boy figures out magic of fire and friendship
Cafe: Criminal falls in love and makes other bad choices
(this makes me laugh way harder than it should)
10. Why did you want to be a writer?
There are so few things in life that I truly enjoy and think I’m good at. Writing happens to be one of those things.
no tags bc i’m really struggling rn but i wanted to answer these anyway
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A Certain Lab, Reprised
lab get lab get lab get lab get LAB GET
Everything around us is either exploding or on fire so Sweetcheeks and I are going to retreat to our space safe, investigating
am I talking about the school exploding or tumblr
we just don’t know
Speak of the devil!
“I AM HERE!!!”
“K1-B0 THeRE WAS AN OPEN WINDOW OH MY GOD, THERE’S GLASS EVERYWHERE, OH NO -”
“OH YEAH!”
Didn’t really wait at all tbh 8′D
Actually all jokes aside Sweetcheeks is right, it was hella cool - and also thank god he was in the hallway and far away from the window! K1-b0 keeps asking if Shuichi is okay but is being incredibly reckless at the same time - what if Shuichi had been showered with that glass? He wouldn’t come out of that unscathed. Was that just K1-b0 taking more of his uncorked anger out on the school?
... Hm, though I guess calling it ‘anger’ isn’t quite right. Or, at least, K1-b0’s fluctuating between ‘anger’ and sort of... more... ‘grim determination’.
Yeah, he didn’t even flinch at being complimented. He’s got serious tunnel vision right now.
Damn.
LMAO SHUICHI’S SCREEN -
There’s only one other place I can think of that qualifies...
DON’T YOU DARE SHUICHI WE FINALLY GOT HERE AND I HAVE QUESTIONS
Oh thank god I want to satisfy my curiosity about the library as much as you do but RANTARO’S TALENT FIRST
Again - damn, K1-b0.
Whoa -
..... This has a very YGO Season 0 vibe. Sorry, that’s a weird comment. Maybe the better way to describe it is that the words ‘punishment game’ immediately come to mind? Some sorta wheel/puzzle thing in the back, cards hanging from the ceiling, some sort of... table...? Kinda reminds me of a poker table, though there’s no center to it... Maybe he... really did specialize in death games...?
Actually, if Celeste had an Ultimate Lab, I feel like it would have a similar aesthetic ~
IT’S HIS SOUL ROOM WE’RE IN RANTARO’S SOUL ROOM
“Yeah so I never shared with you all, but part of the Ultimate Detective status includes the ability to shoot spirit energy from your finger like a gun -”
I don’t think that’s completely wrong but I feel like the actual talent name is going to be x100 times more ominous. 8′D
MAN end-game Himiko is so different than early-game Himiko! Nice to have you onboard - wait, I just realized we’ve got a magician sidekick helping us in an investigation. Is this the right time to make an Ace Attorney reference, or -
Okay, huh. There’s actually way less to click on than I thought there would be. WHAT IS WITH THE MOST CRYPTIC PEOPLE HAVING THE LEAST INTERACTIVE ROOMS, COME ON DRV3 -
Okay, that laptop first:
Empty laptop.... okay, let’s set that aside for now.
Here’s the real question - what came first? The K1-b0 we knew for the first five chapters or this K1-b0? Which one should we consider to be the ‘true’ K1-b0? I think the game is implying that this is the real K1-b0, and the one who we knew up until now was a ‘controlled’ version of him - but at the same time, if the antenna was built in with him, could it be considered part of the original design and therefore part-and-parcel of K1-b0?
omfg I just realized the implications of a white-haired boy hearing a voice (that he literally calls ‘voice’) in his head who may or may not be controlling him behind the scenes be still my heart you’re getting distracted
WHELP THERE’S REALLY ONLY ONE OTHER THING TO CLICK HERE SO -
Like a safe?
......... Omfg it says ‘B’ and ‘A’ on them and it has pictograms on them. Is... this going where I think this is going...
Okay Himiko is being our in-game tutorial and noting that the zodiac is on one side and astrological signs are on the other but honestly I’m fine to skip all past it tbh because there it is, there’s our fucking ‘horse a’ and ‘twin b’ is gemini, Kokichi himself was a gemini, this was where we were going with those hints??? Rantaro’s lab?! idk I just don’t find puzzles like this hard I kinda thrive off of symbolism and mythology in general 8′D
Wait.... doesn’t that mean Kokichi couldn’t have been the one to leave those messages behind?!
Okay this was pretty cute so I left this in ~ but straight up two minutes later it was just a string of KACHUNK KACHUNK KACHUNK until I got it open immediately -
.... the symbols are weirdly cute though, hehe ~
Don’t worry Sweetcheeks, the only life-threatening time-waster we’ll spend all of our time on is fluff text!
Aaaaaaand done. Thanks Kokichi!
MAN I LOVE THESE TWO SPRITES TOGETHER FOR SOME REASON
Ah, so they’re talking about the stone with ‘horse a’ written on it - which... does make me curious, honestly. I think the existence of this safe pretty much confirms that he didn’t write the original message... right?
When did the letters start appearing aside from ‘horse a’? Chapter 3? Was that around the time he concocted that particular plan, then?
H-Hey now, he’s also the reason we found the second clue. 8′D I mean, it wouldn’t have been terrible to go through 12 different combinations with ‘horse a’ determined, but it wouldn’t have been ideal.
i bet you can buy that, that is literally perfect DR merch
IT’S
THE VIDEO
THE VIDEO!!!!
yeah I’m totally going to pull up my old post to see what matches and what doesn’t
“Oh god I forgot how absolutely stunning he was.”
OH I thought that was an abstract red background, silly me - 8′D well, that was probably the point. It might give away the game if we saw something more concrete behind him way back in... what, Chapter 4?
Anyway, more importantly, Rantaro shouldn’t have had access to this place... except he clearly did. So... he... must have been here before. And he knew more about the killing game, or seemed to intuitively know more, than anyone else. He... must have done this before. Except he had made it all the way here last time??? So there is a loop of some sort? Though it can’t be an outright time loop because otherwise there would be no need to record a video (unless like I considered it’s a ‘simulated’ time loop, aka VR-style like last game)...
This makes me wonder how we saw the video the first time. Was it just another flashback/tease like the meteorites were, before we saw the flashback lights?
I mean, I guess it’s kinda hard for recording!Rantaro to prove, but we’ll have to take him at his word here I suppose. 8′D
OH
OKAY
WE’RE JUST GOING STRAIGHT INTO IT THEN
are you telling me you were the protagonist in the last killing game
DIDN’T YOU HAVE LIKE, TWO AHOGES TOO
Man, what an asshole move??? Like, okay, Monokuma’s creating the puzzle of the safe which would unlock this video. Fine. But almost half of the class would have to be dead in order for him to get to it! There’s no way for him to even start the puzzle at this point, because he wouldn’t know it existed! What a huge handicap!
......... Something.... he had.... since the beginning............. Hm. I’m drawing a blank. I don’t remember anything in particular that stands out....
My dead boy, that is an understatement.
AHAHAHA ABOUT THAT....
Now this makes me wonder if he is the only one repeating it or if anyone else is? Well, maybe the mastermind - but like, maybe everyone is repeating it, but only those who ‘won’ were able to have better memories, or were just able to retain the memories of the last game better than the others?
Or, hell, if I want to go along with my previous theory about downloading the memories of students, maybe... Rantaro can remember more about his real self? Or something? But everyone else can’t?
And if he’s really someone who won the previous one (along with one other person, I suppose), then he knows that for a fact.
???!?! Aaaah this part got cut off last time too - so it was actually cut off in the video, and not just in our flashback?!
“You’re also dead, which may make things a little bit more difficult, but I still believe in you!”
That at least I expected -
WHAT
OH GOD THERE ARE SO MANY LAYERS TO THIS
like the dramatic irony I’m sure the fandom has done to death, for example
What about the second person??? Is there a second Ultimate Survivor???? I guess there can’t be since everyone else knows their talents but -
wait, if you’re the Ultimate Survivor because you won a killing game, who were you in the last game????
Does this really give him an advantage though??? I guess the information would have been nice but I mean, it obviously didn’t do him much good because he got taken out so quickly!
Man this makes me wonder if Kokichi had any inkling of this...
jsyk since I have the screenshots side to side, his expression is different in this video compared to the last one
~ fun facts ~
Yeah, see, the ‘he wanted’ part is throwing me off. He participated, sure, and he didn’t say he wanted the original one, but he came back for round two and said he wanted it.... but why???? That implies there’s a purpose to it, and he was okay to gamble his own life - but also, as a person without his memories of this, he wanted to stop the game. If the chip he bet is his own life, the reward must be huge, right? He won these supposed perks for this game, but what did he win for his life outside the game? .... Assuming there is anything outside the game? Is there anything for him outside the game?
HIMIKO DON’T BE RUDE
Yeah, she didn’t know the identity of her target. 8′\ Also I’d be sad if it was Kaede in the end. Second also! I know that she ended up being the first chapter killer and I’m one of the people got taken by surprise by that, but we were in her head for that whole chapter! Her motive made sense - but for her to end up being the mastermind now? That wouldn’t make sense, based on what we know of her, memory shenanigans aside!
That would require the mastermind to have knowledge of Shuichi and Kaede’s plan then, right? So they would have had to draw Rantaro to the library somehow, so he would get caught in Kaede’s trap...
It... should be one of a kind, considering the circumstances...
Yeah I’m still wracking my brain and not coming up with anything there. Could it have to do with his necklace? It did make me think of that ‘soldier tag’ present, about remembering someone who they lost. That would be an incredibly appropriate, if not cruel, ‘survivor’s perk’ present for someone who survived a killing game.
Man are we going to get a new flashback for every place we investigate???
OH SHIT IT’S BACK
FLASHBACK LIGHT!!!
you can pry the flashback light animation from my cold dead hands
?!?!?!
Immediate thoughts - generic students. But, are they? Is there any chance that they look generic on the face of it, but are actually representative of people in the class? I don’t see anything that could be an immediate match (Korekiyo = masked guy, Kokichi = small guy with similarly shaped hair/short stature/face, Kaito = tall guy, maybe), and they seem to have different VAs - hell, is that Jounouchi (or for the proper DR character, Munakata)’s seiyuu?
...... or the guy with the sick mask could just be sick lmao
Ah, so this is from when the virus began to ravage the population...
That seems like an understatement 8′D But at least we know for sure when in the timeline this takes place! Shuichi doesn’t seem to know they’re going to be the only survivors yet, but they’ve already been presumably screened for the Gopher Project which means it is well under way.
Calm down Sigma Klim -
Shuichi hasn’t told them he swings both ways, huh.
OH GOD RIGHT IN THE KAITO
DO YOU GET IT YET SHUICHI, YOU ARE THEIR HOPE
Don’t mind me, just wanted to make sure Shuichi didn’t miss the cryptic message left for him in these memories -
Not only that, but these aren’t memories meant to act as a reward for completing a stage like the other ones or even one they found - this was literally forced on them. It’s supposed to be Monokuma’s weapon against them. So... similar to the motive from the last trial, it’s trying to make them take action...?
And it’s clearly working!
... Maybe it isn’t the necklace then. I mean, he was wearing it when he died right??? And his body is gone...
Oh man unless just like everyone else there were copies of it along with the rest of it in his room - except there are 15, one for all the participants for the last game or something -
It might be 50/50 right now??? There’s something screwy going on, I just don’t know what.
#Shuichi Saihara#spoilers#drv3 spoilers#Himiko Yumeno#Rantaro Amami#K1-b0#Kiibo#Keebo#Ryou plays drv3
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Get To Know Me
tagged by @fourfinefreshfishforyou a billion years ago, thank you so much!! i actually Did have fun filling this out even if it took me forever
anyone who still wants to do this can say i tagged them!
1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Who wrote this? A fed??
2. WHAT IS YOUR NICKNAME? Kris
3. BIRTHDAY? This year
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOOK SERIES? Would you believe me if I said Warriors
5. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS OR GHOSTS? Ghosts no, aliens sort of... I’m not sure I buy into whole other civilizations but I find it hard to believe that there isn’t some kind of life outside of our planet even if it’s just bacteria
6. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE AUTHOR? Rick Riordan is pretty cool
7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE RADIO STATION? Christmas
8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLAVOR OF ANYTHING? Strawberry or peach
9. WHAT WORD WOULD YOU USE OFTEN TO DESCRIBE SOMETHING GREAT OR WONDERFUL? Amazing
10. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONG? Your Type - Carly Rae Jepson
11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE WORD? I’m a big fan of defenestration
12. WHAT WAS THE LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO? Your Type - Carly Rae Jepson
13. WHAT TV SHOW WOULD YOU RECOMMEND FOR EVERYBODY TO WATCH? I don’t like to blanket recommend shows because everyone has such different tastes
14. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE TO WATCH WHEN YOU’RE FEELING DOWN? Tbh I just mope around until I either feel better or give up and go to sleep
15. DO YOU PLAY VIDEO GAMES? This is an Assassin’s Creed and Sims zone ONLY
16. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? Strangers on the internet knowing my second biggest fear
17. WHAT IS YOUR BEST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? Objectively it’s probably my ability to see things from other people’s perspective but TBH I much prefer my sense of humor and ability to laugh at my own jokes whether or not anyone else finds them funny
18. WHAT IS YOUR WORST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? My inability to self moderate
19. DO YOU LIKE CATS OR DOGS BETTER? I want to say neither,, but I may be leaning towards dogs in recent years :/
20. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? Winter, but lately Autumn has been sneaking up on it
21. ARE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP? Nah
22. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU MISS FROM YOUR CHILDHOOD? Being small... I loved hiding in tiny spaces and being picked up
23. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND? *cowboy voice* Now there’s a name I haven’t heard in a long time...
24. WHAT IS YOUR EYE COLOR? Dark brown
25. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? At this point it’s basically black but I still like to say dark brown
26. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU LOVE? God, my family, probably a lot of people idk I catch feelings easily
27. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU TRUST? Literally no one but God
28. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN? A lot of seemingly random celebrities, if you count constantly reciting names in specific patterns as thinking
29. ARE YOU CURRENTLY EXCITED ABOUT/FOR SOMETHING? Yes, lots of things!
30. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST OBSESSION? lmao
31. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW AS A CHILD? REDWALLLLL
32. WHO OF THE OPPOSITE GENDER CAN YOU TELL ANYTHING TO, IF ANYONE? I’m not sure what the opposite of shrug emoji is but the answer is still no one
33. ARE YOU SUPERSTITIOUS? I’m not, but someone needs to tell me that
34. DO YOU HAVE ANY UNUSUAL PHOBIAS? I’m not sure I have any phobias? Irrational fears, Sure
35. DO YOU PREFER TO BE IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA OR BEHIND IT? Behind it!
36. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HOBBY? I REALLY want to get into dollhousing
37. WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? I know I said Les Misérables in a previous tag meme but I now remember that I actually read the first book in C.S. Lewis’s space trilogy a while back more recently
38. WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Spider-man: Into The Spiderverse which was........ AMAZING
39. WHAT MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? When I was younger I had a lap harp but that’s about it
40. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL? Opossums
41. WHAT ARE YOUR TOP 5 FAVORITE TUMBLR BLOGS THAT YOU FOLLOW? I’m not a fan of naming names in this context sorry!
42. WHAT SUPERPOWER DO YOU WISH YOU HAD? A lot, but I’ve concluded that for any powers gained I would inevitably just end up becoming a super villain and/or batman so hard pass
43. WHEN AND WHERE DO YOU FEEL MOST AT PEACE? When I first wake up, and just lie there trying to hold on to what I was just dreaming about
44. WHAT MAKES YOU SMILE? It’s basically physically impossible for me not to grin like a fool watching Wander Over Yonder
45. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? Does Wii Bowling count
46. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK? Apple cider
47. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A HAND-WRITTEN LETTER OR NOTE TO SOMEBODY? I don’t know? Probably when I wanted to wake up at a certain time
48. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? Sometimes? Depends on how possible it is that I could fall
49. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE? Dry skin currently
50. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO A CONCERT? I was going to say no but I have the distinct feeling that I have even though I didn’t remember absolutely anything about it except maybe the auditorium?
51. ARE YOU VEGAN/VEGETARIAN? No
52. WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE, WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GREW UP? Zookeeper
53. WHAT FICTIONAL WORLD WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE IN? Um. Eternia?? ajfghdk
54. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU WORRY ABOUT? Not growing as a person
55. ARE YOU SCARED OF THE DARK? Not really, but I do like the ability to turn on lights if I need to
56. DO YOU LIKE TO SING? My vocal cords were made for Christmas carols and little else. But yeah, sometimes.
57. HAVE YOU EVER SKIPPED SCHOOL? I’m not... sure?
58. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE ON THE PLANET? I’ll let you know when I’ve found it
59. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE? Where I already do
60. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? Yes
61. ARE YOU MORE OF AN EARLY BIRD OR A NIGHT OWL? Night owl
62. DO YOU LIKE SUNRISES OR SUNSETS BETTER? Sunsets
63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO DRIVE? I feel like I could make an educated guess in an emergency
64. DO YOU PREFER EARBUDS OR HEADPHONES? Headphones
65. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? No
66. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GENRE OF MUSIC? I feel like it’s probably pop or disco tbh
67. WHO IS YOUR HERO? Jesus
68. DO YOU READ COMIC BOOKS? Here and there, the only series I’ve actually read all the way through is Cable & Deadpool (2004) but I want to get into Venom
69. WHAT MAKES YOU THE MOST ANGRY? Not to be cliche but injustice of any kind
70. DO YOU PREFER TO READ ON AN ELECTRONIC DEVICE OR WITH A REAL BOOK? Real book, I like turning pages and the way the cover fits into my hands. Can’t say I’m a fan of the smell though.
71. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? Vocabulary
72. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS? Yes
73. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? Sims 4 packs
74. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5′2 or so
75. CAN YOU COOK? If it involves anything other than a microwave or a toaster then,,, no
76. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU LOVE? Vampires, villains in love, wood paneling
77. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU HATE? Intrusive thoughts, Marius Pontmercy, mint flavored toothpaste
78. DO YOU HAVE MORE FEMALE FRIENDS OR MORE MALE FRIENDS? I... Have more female mutuals
79. WHAT IS YOUR SEXUAL ORIENTATION? Bisexual but like it’s Complicated. Also this is the first time I’ve ever actually said that directly so ✌️🎉
80. WHERE DO YOU CURRENTLY LIVE? A fed wrote this
81. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TEXTED? My mom
82. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Earlier this month
83. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE YOUTUBER? I don’t really follow any, but I used to be obsessed with the videos of this one guy who acted out crossovers of DC/Marvel characters with action figures and had a really great voice
84. DO YOU LIKE TO TAKE SELFIES? I do! I just never do anything with them once I’ve taken them lol
85. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE APP? I don’t have one right now, but I adore choose your own adventure ones
86. WHAT IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARENT(S) LIKE? Pretty good with my adoptive parents. I want to be closer with my birth mom but I don’t... really know how to go about that without being a disappointment. Never met my birth dad which has been eating at me somewhat lately.
87. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOREIGN ACCENT? Uhh Australian maybe??
88. WHAT IS A PLACE THAT YOU’VE NEVER BEEN TO, BUT YOU WANT TO VISIT? Mexico
89. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 6
90. CAN YOU JUGGLE? Do you take me for a clown
91. ARE YOU RELIGIOUS? Yes, I’m a nondenominational christian
92. DO YOU FIND OUTER SPACE OF THE DEEP OCEAN TO BE MORE INTERESTING? The ocean, it’s teeming with life and I find it bafflingly fascinating how there’s still so much we don’t know about it
93. DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF TO BE A DAREDEVIL? Absolutely not
94. ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO ANYTHING? Almost every single time we go shopping in Sam’s Club I get inexplicably feverish and nauseous and feel like I’ve thrown out my back until we get to the check out. That and I may have a dairy allergy? But honestly my stomach is acting out every other day so who knows really.
95. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE? Ye
96. CAN YOU WIGGLE YOUR EARS? No
97. HOW OFTEN DO YOU ADMIT THAT YOU WERE WRONG ABOUT SOMETHING? Not as often as I should
98. DO YOU PREFER THE FOREST OR THE BEACH? Aesthetically, the beach, but forests are less sandy
99. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIECE OF ADVICE THAT ANYONE HAS EVER GIVEN YOU? Pat, don’t rub (When drying your hands)
100. ARE YOU A GOOD LIAR? mmMM I don’t really lie, like, seriously about stuff that I can recall? I’ll jokingly say stuff that blatantly isn’t true and even then I sometimes feel guilty and confess seconds later. Unless you count lying by omission? Or saying stuff like “I’m fine” LMAO. The World May Never Know
101. WHAT IS YOUR HOGWARTS HOUSE? We Don’t Discuss Harry Potter On This Blog, but ravenclaw all the way and any test that tries to sort me into hufflepuff isn’t Valid
102. DO YOU TALK TO YOURSELF? Generally just when I’m alone
103. ARE YOU AN INTROVERT OR AN EXTROVERT? Introvert
104. DO YOU KEEP A JOURNAL/DIARY? I’ve tried, but I just don’t have the attention span for it asdfgh. Sometimes I write down my dreams though.
105. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES? Yes
106. IF YOU FOUND A WALLET FULL OF MONEY ON THE GROUND, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? Convince someone else to pick it up and check for ID
107. DO YOU BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE ARE CAPABLE OF CHANGE? Yes
108. ARE YOU TICKLISH? That’s a personal question
109. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A PLANE? Yes
110. DO YOU HAVE ANY PIERCINGS? No
111. WHAT FICTIONAL CHARACTER DO YOU WISH WAS REAL? Count Dracula from Monster Family (2017) ok so,,, i know he tried to freeze the entire world because a married woman rejected him but LISTEN
112. DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS? No
113. WHAT IS THE BEST DECISION THAT YOU’VE MADE IN YOUR LIFE SO FAR? Following Jesus
114. DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA? Mm, not karma per say, but I do generally think that what goes around often comes around in way or another
115. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES OR CONTACTS? No
116. DO YOU WANT CHILDREN? NO
117. WHO IS THE SMARTEST PERSON YOU KNOW? Idk! there a lot different types of smart people
118. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING MEMORY? Nice try, but someone might actually read this
119. HAVE YOU EVER PULLED AN ALL-NIGHTER? I’m basically nocturnal so... yeah
120. WHAT COLOR ARE MOST OF YOUR CLOTHES? Various jewel tones
121. DO YOU LIKE ADVENTURES? Ehhhhhhh
122. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON TV? Not that I know of
123. HOW OLD ARE YOU? 21
124. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE? I can’t really think of one right now
125. DO YOU PREFER SWEET OR SAVORY FOODS? Whichever I’m in the mood for!
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