npd culture is wanting to fake your suicide sooooo bad cause you want people to feel sad and regret how they treated you but youre too scared to not exist

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I am noticing lately that quite a few blogs have me blocked (I can comment or reblog with main but this blog is greyed out = blocked). While I'm honored that some of you have such a low opinion of my excellent taste in foolishness, I really do promise I don't bear any ill intent and I apologize if I have come off as a dick to some. I mean I am a dick. But like only lovingly.

Unless the people blocking me are terfs or Trumpies LOL jump off a high bridge into a river of dirt genuinely tbh!

everything is good here in the tank

this straight up changed me as a person. killing myself in front of you to forever change your bond and the trajectory of your lives

reblogs off since im tired of the dumb fucking discourse happening here, go read this long post and reblog it instead please.

ok so tumblr also really needs this reminder based on some posts ive seen around lately, the "babygirlification" of JSTOR is bad. like Bad Bad. did you all just collectively forget history? did you alll just forget they have blood on their hands? just because they publish science stuff in an ever so slightly more ethical way than springer and are a little silly on social media sometimes? JSTOR killed aaron swartz (wikipedia). in his fight for freedom of information he downloaded papers off of jstor (with acedemic access from MIT) to share and make freely accessible (as all information should be), for this he was charged with wire fraud, computer fraud, unlawfully obtaining information from a protected computer, and recklessly damaging a protected computer. he was facing up to 50 years in prison and a 1 million USD fee for a simple act of downloading files he lawfully had access to. with this court case the US government drove one of the most important online activists and programmers (he is behind so much stuff you all take for granted) into suicide in the name of JSTOR.

JSTOR isn't the cool girl on the block. this isnt a call to boycott them (though please learn how to use things such as sci-hub and fight for open science and freedom of information in general please <3), but please dont glorify them as some sort of cutesy platform.

There is something deeply wrong with some of you I’m ngl

HEARTBREAKING: local food blogger thinks it's funny to put on a rude persona in their recipe videos

CONSTANTINE (2005) dir. Francis Lawrence

This Reddit story is frigging nuts, though.

Were you depressed before? Well, now here’s some crushing medical debt!

⚠️tw: for torture, abuse, and brutality in the following posts⚠️:

A closeted person, forcibly outed as having a trans online persona by a "conservative news site," died by suicide after being publicly ridiculed after the outing.

Then, the head of that "news site" sent condolences to Bubba's "victims and family."

There aren't any victims, of course, because the clothing you wear in private and the fiction you write isn't anybody's business, but it's important to understand that these people really do think that trans people have "victims" bc we are somehow hurting people just by existing.

Do not add any kind of transphobic or anti-closet rhetoric to this post.

Turns out there were plenty of good reasons for him to stay closeted, nu? Show his memory the same grace and gentleness you'd want shown to someone you love.

(Tw suicidal ideation + self harm) Suspected NPD culture is love me love me love me please Im begging you how do I feel loved tell me you love me again please please tell me!!! what's wrong with everyone why don't I feel loved please please talk to me talk to me again please please can I never be good enough for you? Please im begging im the small scared child who injured himself on purpose because then people paid attention to him im the scared lonely child who didn't know what love felt like clawing at the skin of this adult body please can't you see im the little autistic child that learned that he needed to hurt himself to be cared about please im the 7 year old who couldn't feel loved so the cheering of a crowd became the next best thing, please please love me love me im desperate. Why do i have to *want* so much? If i died would you care about me more? Would you finally realize how important I am? Would that make you love me enough? Ill do it if it would, ill do anything. Please please just love me love me love me love me

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Joan Tierney

btw the secret to not killing yourself is to find something small to look forward to. like maybe seeing a friend at the end of the week, or getting an overpriced coffee, or going to the cinema. you wait for that. & then it happens. & then you do it all over again

from The Trevor Project's 2024 U.S. National Survey on the Mental Health of LGBTQ+ Young People