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ERASE, a yang jungwon smau ♡

CHAPTER THIRTEEN. dark red (smau + written)

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You paced around while you waited for your friends to arrive. Although Keeho said they understood, you were still anxious at what’d they really have to say.

You took a deep breath once you finally heard the door open, you had practiced what you were going to say over. As they all piled into your living room they each gave you a hug before sitting down wherever they decided.

“Okay so me and Jungwon are dating again uhm for around a week now? After support your local artists night he kinda just kept popping up everywhere and uh we kinda sorta hooked up at Jake and Sunoo’s party” You friends all just stared at you watching you explain yourself not really showing emotions which made you more scared.

“I promise we talked about everything before getting back together and we decided it’d be best if we didn’t tell anyone until we were for sure in a good place. That’s why I haven’t really been around anymore and i’m sorry.” You kept your head down and waited for someone else to speak but instead you feel arms wrapped around you.

You look up to see Lilly’s pink hair falling over your shoulder as she hugs you from the side, “I know he hurt you before Y/n and if you trust him then I trust you but don’t think i’ll warm up quickly!”

You both laugh a little and look to the boys with an expectant look with Keeho deciding to speak up first, “Like I said earlier, we understand why you hid it and never said anything but we did miss our friend so please tell him i’ll be sending you with custody papers.”

“Yeah we missed you a lot! Keeho made me hang out with that Soul kid a few times, he’s definitely something else”, Kai says getting up to join you and Lily in a group hug. You turn to Jiung very unsure of what he’ll say.

“You’re an adult and you can make your own decisions but if that doesn’t work out im still here for you. Just know I won’t be waiting around forever, Jiungs of high demand”, he says shrugging his shoulders but giving you a toothy grin. You burst up laughing at him leaving your other friends a little confused until they put it together, “AHA I KNEW YOU GUYS WERE FOOLING AROUND”, Keeho says slapping Jiung playfully. “Yeah imagine what it’s like rooming with Y/n, all I wanted was to rest from idol life but no”, Lily says rolling her eyes making you scoff.

“We never did it while you were here!?” “Yeah maybe you didn’t mean to but why do you think every time I come in I make a lot of noise?”, you groan and throw your face into your hands hearing the rest of the group laughing.

After the hangout was coming to an end you finally felt content. You no longer had to hide from your friends and neither did Jungwon, especially with Sunoo on your cases.

“So after all the info settled, how are you guys feeling?”, you ask picking up trash and dishes left around the apartment. “We still love you, unfortunately, and It’ll definitely get some getting used to but when we’re ready we’ll add him to a group chat.” Keeho says, the rest of the group agreeing and making you release a sigh of relief.

TAGLIST ! @fadedluvv @ifearjwn @yyumiii1 @woncheecks @astrae4 @kpopstanmeg @i2lain

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GUYS IM SO💔💔💔💔

minji gf looks so pretty im so in luv with her

AND KAI IM SOBBING WHY IS HE SO CUTE

#i’ll fight anyone who hurts them #also can we talk abt jk concept pics cause ???#WHORE HES A WHORE.#but so am i #i literally rememebr thinking that seven was gonna make me cry cause of the name yk #but no #jk decided to play a prank #i’m gonna die today has been wild #it’s also 2am rn #i want to kms #STRLSTLVR ! - TLKS

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MDNI!!!

nothing hits harder than a fic that includes you smoking with the idol and it ending in smut/ a fluffy make out session

#this my delulu talking #wanna smoke with huening so bad he’s probably so cute when he’s high 😞#personally i’m so crazy and hyper but i feel like he’d just watch me bounce off the walls with love in his eyes #like hello hk bf??? nothing increases emotions and feelings like weed does #I WANT HIM SO BAD💔#strlstlvr ! - tlks #tw: weed #tw: smoking #tw: suggestive #mdni #huening kai thoughts #also this is my first time mentioning smut and let’s just say i took advantage of being 18

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ICE COLD POOL, meet cute scenarios at a public pool ♡

- although the community pool isn’t the most ideal place to be, at least something (or someone) good came out of it !

⋆·˚ ༘ * children, public pool, (maybe a little bit cringy😭)

KIM SUNOO, HWANG HYUNJIN, NISHIMURA NIKI, LEE HEESUNG

You met him at the concession stand, and being the indecisive person that you are, you asked him for help to decide what snack to choose. “Hm, I feel like you’re more of a f/c person!”, he says thinking hard while looking at you. His observation makes you gasp, “You could tell just by looking at me?” and he laughs.

“Honestly I was just saying my favorite chip and hoping I got it right”, he says shrugging and turning around to grab the snack and handing it to you. As you’re pulling cash out of your bag he stops you and looks around, “Since we share the same favorite chip I think I can let you get away with it this time, all I ask is for your number”, he says with a cheeky grin on his face.

LEE MINHO, PARK SUNGHOON, PARK JAY, KIM SEUNGMIN

Since he was the lifeguard it was kind of hard to ignore him, the way he was sitting at a higher elevation made him more than obvious. You notice him talk to another lifeguard before stepping down which made you assume that his shift was over, making you feel a little upset that you didn’t have the courage to talk to him. Instead he walks towards you, “You know those sunglasses aren’t helping anything, I could see you nonstop staring”.

When he said that you could tell he wasn’t acting full of himself instead he said it in a way that made it seem like he was the one that got caught staring. All you could do was awkwardly laugh, “Well it seemed like you were bored but I didn’t want to get in the way of you saving lives”. He throws his head back and laughs, “Yeah unfortunately the only thing we really have to look out for is kids doing their business in the pools, honestly not as cool as it seems.”

SIM JAKE, BANG CHAN, SEO CHANGBIN

You laid in the sun bed trying your best to not fall asleep due to the warm sun making you drowsy, until you hear a “Hi” from right beside you. Immediately sitting up you’re confused, ‘Where did this kid come from?’ until you see a guy around your age running towards where you and the kid are located. “JISOO OH MY GOD”, he comes and immediately picks the little girl up, “I am so sorry”, he says turning to you.

His face seemed incredibly apologetic while the little girl giggled, “Sorry uncle”, she says. “It’s okay! She entertained me for the second she was here”, you try laughing it off seeing how upset the boy was. “I was just trying to see if she would date you uncle”, the little girl says which makes the boy tense up even more. “She doesn’t know what she’s saying, I think we’ll leave now”, he says trying to flee the situation with pink cheeks. “Wait!”, you say holding him back, “I don’t think i’d mind getting to know you”.

YANG JEONGIN, LEE FELIX, YANG JUNGWON, HAN JISUNG

As you sat and talked with your friend, they point out the group of boys sitting somewhat across the pool from where you are. You could tell they were talking about you as the one in the middle seemed nervous and the others were hyping him up. You two start talking about another topic until your friend nudges you and you notice that same boy walking towards your direction. You started to get nervous cause he’s looking straight at you as he walks with his friends yelling behind him.

When he stops, your friend decides to speak up first, “Hi, was there something you needed?”. He looks even more nervous than you probably felt, “Uh yeah actually I was wondering if-” “IF HE COULD GET YOUR NUMBER!”, the boy gets cut off by one of the others yelling it out for him. “Well, what do ya think Y/n?”, your friend says turning to you, holding in their laugh. “Yeah I think that could be arranged”, you say and suddenly you hear cheers erupt from his friends, seeing them jump up and down feeling proud of their friend.

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ERASE, a yang jungwon smau ♡

CHAPTER TWELVE. middle of the night

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A/N! i wonder what’s gonna happen next chapter👀

TAGLIST ! @fadedluvv @ifearjwn @yyumiii1 @woncheecks @astrae4 @kpopstanmeg @i2lain

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OH MY GOD YNWON COME BACK!??!??!?!?!??!?!??!?!??

YNWON CB!!!!! i was so stuck on that chapter for so long it was crazy i didn’t want it to seem too fast or too slow but i’m glad we’re happy abt them🤩🤩

#this smau gives me anxiety rashes😭😭😭😭#STRLSTLVR ! - ASKS

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BLONDE KAI IS BACK

#he’s literally the cutest person in this whole world.#my sister showed me the picture before i got to work and i literally thought abt it all day #i used to be a fluffy brown kai enthusiast but now….#DONT GET ME WRONG FLUFFY BROWN KAI WAS SO CUTE #but something about the blonde just oh my gawd #blonde just suits him so well i can’t #same goes for his sisters that whole family bro #STRLSTLVR ! - TLKS

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ERASE, a yang jungwon smau ♡

CHAPTER ELEVEN. the rainy night (written)

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As you were pacing around your apartment, you heard a knock at the door, the one you were anticipating.

You hesitated, you didn’t know what to expect to happen when you opened the door but you did it anyways.

There he was, just like he said, Jungwon stood there at your door completely soaked from the rain outside.

You two just stared at each trying to figure out the right words to say but you break the awkwardness by pulling him inside, “you’ll get sick if you keep standing in the rain”.

He still stood still in front of the door after you closed it behind him, the only sound in the room coming from the rain hitting your windows and door.

“Hello?”, you ask trying to figure out why he made such a big deal about coming over if he wasn’t going to say anything.

He finally snaps out of his thoughts and looks straight into your eyes, catching you off guard at his changed demeanor.

“I came here to prove to you that I meant what I said in those text messages, I came here to prove that…”, he pauses before he begins again, “To prove that I still love you, Y/n”.

He walked closer to you, grabbing your hands and holding them in his, “Y/n ever since that day all i’ve done is think about you. My heart wants to go back to one space, with yours, where it belongs.”

His eyes are pleading as he expresses his feelings but your face is blank. “Y/n please.”, Jungwon begs but you stay frozen, your mind not letting you process his words as it’s filled with your own feelings.

“Y/n, we both know that what happened that night wasn’t me! I was stressed and overwhelmed and I didn’t know how to destress so it was all built up and I took it all out on you and i’m sorry. Really truly sorry Y/n.”

“I think I need to step outside”, you say and speed walk to the door, all of these feelings swirling in the air made you lose your breath, you were overwhelmed and the only thing you wanted to do was breathe.

“Y/n wait!”, Jungwon says trying to grab your hand again but it was too late as the hard rain had already began to drench you. The water was cold and rough immediately bringing you back to your senses and you finally break down, letting all those pent up feelings come out.

Jungwon immediately runs out the door to you, he didn’t care that he hadn’t even dried up from previously being in the rain, he didn’t care that he was most definitely getting sick after this, what he cared about was you.

As you’re crying, Jungwon stays quiet he’s kneeling next to you so you know he’s there but not touching you so you can just focus on breathing. When you finally stop you look over to him, he was already staring at you with worry written all over his face and you finally speak up again, “I think… I still love you”.

You say it quietly but he still heard, he felt like pulling you up and hugging you and kissing you and being excited but he knew that wasn’t what you needed at the moment so he just stays calm instead, “So then what does that mean for us?”, he asks.

“I still want to be with you Jungwon. I just don’t know if we can go back to what he had”, you continue to stare at him waiting for a response, you truly couldn’t tell what he was thinking.

“I get that, maybe then we should go on a date, multiple dates! We should see if we can really work it out before we tell anyone or get anyone else involved.”, hearing him talk so maturely made you feel like you could trust him and you felt secure in your decision.

“I think you’re right won, thank you.”, you say and smile at him, “But I hope there’s one thing we don’t have to wait on.”

Jungwon looks at you with a curious look on his face until you softly grab his face and place a kiss onto his lips. You could tell he wants to deepen it but instead he pulls away with pink tinted cheeks, “As romantic as it is to be kissing you in the rain, I really think we should go inside or we’ll have a cold for weeks.”

A/N! i hope this didn’t seem too rushed, i wasn’t really sure how to approach this chapter and it took multiple days to really have inspiration so i apologize if it’s shitty fr😖😖😖

TAGLIST ! @fadedluvv @ifearjwn @yyumiii1 @woncheecks @astrae4 @kpopstanmeg @i2lain

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people that pronounce huening as “hooning” make me shiver

#cough my sister #hooning kai is just so goofy #like when kai laughs that’s when he’s hooning😭😭#no hate to anyone who pronounces it that way it just makes me giggle #STRLSTLVR ! - TLKS #to be fair i used to pronounce jeongin as jeonjin #so uh that’s embarrassing but i had to admit it #yeah…..

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LOVER IS A DAY, the moment you realized you loved them ♡

- no matter how long you’d already been with him, this was the moment the feelings you had for him hit you like a truck

⋆·˚ ༘ * FLUFF AND MORE FLUFF, lil angsty on seungmins😖

BANG CHAN

Last night you had come over on a whim, texting Chan ‘why aren’t you asleep it’s 2am?’ And before he could text back you were already at his dorm, in your pjs ready to spend a comfy night beside him.

You actually hadn’t meant to fall asleep but the next morning when you opened your eyes, instead of seeing your own room you were met with Chan’s face facing yours.

You’ve seen his sleeping face before but something about waking up to it had your heart racing like never before. Eventually his eyes fluttered open and he smiled softly at you, “Why are you looking at me like that?”

You laugh and reply, “Channie, you’re so beautiful. I love you.” That catches him off guard but he immediately replies, “I love you too Y/n L/n”, and presses his lips onto yours

LEE MINHO

You don’t know what it was or how it happened but at the moment you were hanging off your bed holding onto the trash can next to your bed as your boyfriend comes back into the room with water and medicine.

“No offense but i don’t think you should’ve accepted the cookies your little cousin made”, he says handing you the water and sitting next to you. You accept the water and chug as much of it as you could afterwards wiping your mouth, “you’re probably right, unfortunately”, and lay your head on his shoulder.

A moment of peace and quiet sets the mood for you two, the only time you’ve had to relax since getting back home. “Thank you for taking care of me, I love you”, it took you a moment to realize what you’d said but before you could apologize, he beat you to it, grabbing your face and staring into your eyes, “I love you too Y/n”.

SEO CHANGBIN

Currently, you were at Changbin’s dorm watching him play hide and seek with his cousin’s 3 year old daughter. It surprised you to see how much his cousin’s depended on and trusted your boyfriend to watch their kid.

It felt different to watch him as he played and laughed with the 3-year old, you had never seen him like this before. He was playful yet gentle, it started making you wonder ‘what would he be like if it was his own kid?’.

“What are you thinking about in that pretty head of yours?”, Changbin asks, pulling you out of your thoughts as he kisses your head and sits next to you. For a moment you just stare at him, admiring him because in a matter of minutes everything about him just became way more attractive.

The way his hair was curly and natural, his face had not a spot of makeup, and he was only in sweats and a hoodie, it’s made your heart feel like it was going to jump out of your chest. “Y/n is everything okay?”, he asks grabbing your face and examining it to see if he could figure out what was wrong. “Seo Changbin, i’m in love with you and everything about yo-“, and before you could continue your rant he interrupts it by placing his lips on yours.

HWANG HYUNJIN

Hyunjin hadn’t seen you before the concert so he didn’t know you had gone all out like any other fan did, you had a poster with his name on it, an exact replica of your favorite concept outfit of his, and your lightstick bedazzled.

You decided not to look at the set list as to be surprised but hearing the beginning of red lights had you more shocked than you had ever been before. You’ve seen him perform red lights so many times (also watched the mv a billion times) but this time something about Hyunjin’s presence was different.

When they stopped performing and it was time for the boys to talk to stays, hyunjin immediately went to find your face in the crowd and as soon as he did you yelled, “I LOVE YOU HWANG HYUNJIN!”, causing him and the rest of his group to pause as they recognized your voice and it caught them off guard.

The rest of the group laughed trying to play it off while hyunjin picks up him mic and replies, “I love you too” and followed it with a wink. Videos of the interaction were everywhere and you were known as ‘the luckiest stay’ when in reality it was just an unforgettable moment between you and your boyfriend.

HAN JISUNG

“Jisung just let me in, PLEASE”, you beg to your boyfriend that’s on the other side of the kitchen door. “NO you cannot see this, it needs to be perfect for your birthday!”, he pleads, you could tell things weren’t going his way as for the past 30 minutes that you’ve been awake all you’ve heard are his frustrated huffs.

“Ji please, how long have you been in there for?”, you question and before he could answer Felix does it for him passing by behind you, “He’s been in there for the past 2 hours”. “Alright 2 hours is long enough, i’m coming in Ji”, you say and push open the door.

Looking around you can see tons of decorations that he had hung up and in the middle of the kitchen is your boyfriend that looks like he’s been through hell and back staring down at the floor. “Ji this is perfect why wouldn’t you let me come in?”, you say walking up to him and forcing him to look at you, “It’s not the decorations y/n, it’s the cake.”, he says and points to the table.

Looking at the cake you cover your mouth trying to hold in your laugh, “I asked Felix to help me bake you a cake but obviously I can’t even follow instructions”, the cake in front of you was lopsided because somehow only half of the cake baked fully.

You throw your arms over your boyfriend and give him a kiss on the cheek, “I love you Ji, thank you for trying.” His face immediately turns to yours, “You love me? But I ruined your birthday!” “You didn’t ruin anything, I promise. Now let’s try baking this cake again”, you laugh as he tackles your face in kisses at your confession.

LEE FELIX

One thing that you and felix always did when the weather was nice, was ride your bikes together. This time you guys had gone a little bit later than you usually did and got to witness the sunset during your whole ride.

Looking over to your boyfriend who’s inhaling the fresh air, you can tell he needed this. The golden sun leaving a warm feeling on your face but when you see Felix’s big smile, that warm feeling spreads to the rest of your body.

Finally stopping at a park, you guys have a good view of the sunset but you can’t seem to take your eyes off the blonde boy next to you. The golden rays of the sun completely maximizes the freckles on his perfectly tanned skin, you’re completely mesmerized by how one person can look so perfect.

You decide to pull your phone out to take pictures of him, this moment should be cherished forever. “Hey! You’re not even looking at the sunset!”, he whines once he notices that you had your phone out taking pictures of him. “I’d rather look at you honestly, you’re way prettier than any sunset Lix.”

KIM SEUNGMIN

Seungmin slammed the door behind him as he walked into the dorms, he had just got back from a meeting with the company, your relationship had been leaked. You had stayed in the same spot he left you in, your anxiety was through the roof after you had seen your guys’ face all over twitter.

You were nervous you didn’t know what words were going to come out of your boyfriend’s mouth. “They said we have to deny it. They already made the statement and everything, I tried to convince them but you know they wouldn’t budge.”, he angrily sighs as he sits next to you and puts his head in his hands.

You took a big deep breath in, “Did they say anything about us?”, it was a question you didn’t want to know the answer to nor want to ask but you had to. “They told us we shouldn’t see each other anymore and that this could ruin mine and the rest of the groups career and image.”, he says while keeping his head down.

You knew what JYP was like so while this answer didn’t surprise you it still hurt, so you get up to leave. “Y/n where are you going?”, “Seungmin the last thing I want is to get in the way of your dream so I think we should listen to them”, you explain as your voice gradually becomes more quiet.

He immediately jumps up and grabs your face, “Y/n you’re my dream, you’re all i’ve ever wanted and there’s no way in hell i’d let anyone, ESPECIALLY JYP, get in the way of that”, he stares straight into your eyes while tears begin to build up in his. You sniffle trying to hold back your tears, “If you really mean that seungie, then i’ll stay with you.” Although you felt it first he’s the one that had the courage to say it, “I love you Y/n”.

YANG JEONGIN

Walking into the coffee shop, you were immediately hit with the smell of baked goods and espresso beans, it was a smell that comforted you. You scanned around the room looking for your boyfriend but eventually you landed on his fox-like eyes staring right back at you excitedly.

You walk up to the table he’s sitting at and sit across from him, although you want to hug him you decide not to as you’re in public and don’t want to spread rumors. From just looking at him you could tell he was happy, he had a mask and hoodie on just like you did but nonetheless you were more than happy to be there with him.

The date mainly consisted of the two of you catching up as he had just finished his tour and sipping on your drinks. He also brought out a few bags of gifts that he got you while traveling across the globe, you both laughed at his silly antics and jokes, just enjoying each others company.

As Jeongin continues to talk you begin to study his face, every time you guys finally get to meet up after awhile it seems like he gets more and more attractive. Although you’ve both changed a lot in the while you’ve been dating, you realize he brought you a feeling more comforting than the coffee shop did and that moments like these with Jeongin were ones that you could get used to for the rest of your life.

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