I love being delusional bc I’m like maybe when I’m skinny Dylan OBrien will see me and know I’m his one true love and then I starve happily

It’s so difficult to restrict while living with a partner. At least when I was at my parents house I could purge in peace if I went overboard. Now I’m in this one bedroom apartment with paper thin walls, and a naturally thin man who struggles to gain and maintain weight. My only solace has been this warm weather so I can go for longer walks, but if I don’t get it together I’m going to bash my head into the fucking wall.

Sometimes I wish I had someone to be sick with. It’s absolutely fucked bc I would never wish these feelings on anyone, but I’m so alone with my thoughts and I know if I were to share them with the people in my life they wouldn’t understand. They would make me stop, or stop talking to me and I would be further isolated.

when you're f4st!ng and someone says something about their weight

Hey!! Does anyone have an at home workout routine?? I’ve just been trying to max out on random exercises with no real direction, and I’m trying to figure out how to structure it to get better results.

me trying to avoid self diagnosing

Me: diet culture is toxic

Also me: *starves myself*

Trauma flashbacks 💕💕

I used to wear bra inserts sometimes bc I was insecure about my breast size. Like all my friends were hitting puberty and I was just tall and fat with no ass or boobs bc I somehow got the jackpot for the worst genes possible. Well one day in the mf Kohl’s parking lot my mom saw them poking out a little at the top of my shirt and asked about it.

My mom has always loved me, and taken care of me, but she isn’t the type to coddle, in fact she’s extremely blunt and her unwavering honestly had hurt my feelings more than once by that age. Despite knowing that, I took the opportunity to open up to her about my insecurities and looked to her for guidance. No shock, but this turned out to be a HUGE mistake bc after my vulnerable confession she looked me in the face and told me “if you had a flatter stomach your boobs would poke out more, and they’d look a lot bigger.” And then she took me inside to try on clothes in a department store where there was nothing close to plus size in the juniors section, so I couldn’t fit anything but shoes and bracelets.

This has stuck with me and plays in my head on repeat anytime I enter a dressing room even tho I’m 23 now!!

stay safe out there guys!

Stolen from twitter, forgot the @

I wish I could look like this :/

Ana Fantasy

Bro I always fantasize about scrolling through tags on my edblr and seeing a random pic of me from social media that someone else posted as thinspo

Misty oaks. Crane Creek Regional Park, Sonoma County . by alice cummings

sometimes i imagine i'm a ballerina training really hard for the upcoming season. imagining the dissapointed look on my coaches face because i'm not skinny enough

I ♥️ Body Dysmorphia

Thought I was at my highest, turns out I'm at my lowest lol