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𝚁𝙴𝙲𝙾𝙼𝙼𝙴𝙽𝙳𝙴𝙳 (𝙸𝙸)

part ii of fic recs. please read the warnings carefully before reading each fic. some of these might contain mature themes and/or smut.

MULTIPLE MEMBERS:

bet | smau, hyung line, completed after jake takes a new liking to his friend’s diligent liberal arts partner, he decides to start a bet with his friends. “lets play a game. whoever can win her heart gets anything, anything they want.” by @seungstarss (y'all i'm warning you this series ends in absolute heartbreak so read it only if you know you won't end up crying. for masochists like me, on the other hand, drop everything, read this first)

engene week | dialogue fic, ot7, completed one lucky ENGENE is going to spend a week with enhypen by @thatonenoona (sunghoon's part is suggestive)

no nut november | smau, hyung line, completed. mature four men suppressing their carnal instincts for thirty days doesn’t sound plausible, but it’s no nut november, so victory is crucial. yet, there’s only one obstacle keeping lee heeseung, park jongseong, sim jaeyun, and park sunghoon from their prize: you. game on, boys. by @jayflrt

HEESEUNG:

the misfortunes and misconceptions of lee heeseung | oneshot, hogwarts au by no means does lee heeseung hold any romantic feelings toward you. the mere possibility is jarring, considering his luck seems to take a turn for the worst whenever he’s around you. from getting hit with a bludger during quidditch to getting into trouble with filch for setting off dungbombs in his office, heeseung starts to think you’re some sort of bad omen. he’s prepared for disaster when you two become partners in potions, but why does the amortentia smell like you? by @jayflrt

your lips, my lips, apocalypse | drabble sex, love, and romance tasted like poison on your tongue, a secret that you held close to yourself for years. unfortunately, when heeseung kisses you, he, too, could taste that poison. by @star-sim (vanya slay)

hopeless | oneshot absolutely no one would have expected the dark, brooding, and rough heeseung lee to be hopelessly head over heels in love with the sweet, oblivious you. especially you. even with the help of practically the entire year, it's almost pathetic the way heeseung struggles to utter three, simple words to you, let alone look you in the eye. by @star-sim (another vanya slay)

je t'aime | drabble “ah, pretty, why are you blushing this hard? all i did was say ‘i love you’ in french.” by @lheebra

i spi-der loml | oneshot, spiderman au you love lee heeseung with all that you have, but somehow, he doesn't find that as a good thing. despite feeling the same way, to protect you, heeseung wishes you didn't love him at all. by @wvnkoi

you, me and the moon | smau, completed lee heeseung is a famous frat boy who is known to be mysterious since he would always stay at the corner to observe people passing by but he does not like the fact that his eyes would linger a little longer on you than he likes to admit because who the fuck is he kidding? you're way too good for him. by @heeracha

JAY:

undercover lover | two-shot, detective au, mature part 1 | part 2 you've been forced to work with your work rival, park jongseong, on a case that could bust one of the biggest dealer in seoul, but things don't go according to plan. by @ja3yun (y'all i'm back with the e2l!! atp enha-ism should be associated with e2l with how obsessed i am over this trope)

21st century girl | smau, completed where jay 'claims’ he has a girlfriend but none of his friends believe him because how are you a girl in the 21st century and don't have any social media, right? and if you and jay continue to let them think your relationship is fake for entertainment purposes, nobody has to know. by @hoonvrs

it was just a bet | oneshot discovering the truth that your one-year relationship with jay was nothing but a bet, you take matters into your own hands and decide to seek revenge. by @juliesblogs

JAKE:

hello kitty meets batman | oneshot jake sim was youtube's cut-throat, horror creator, known for his dark video style. meanwhile, you were the cutesy beauty vlogger, lighting up every algorithmically generated home page you touched. no one would have expected you two vastly different people to know each other, let alone be in a long-term relationship. by @star-sim (vanya triple slay)

my love (mine all mine) | drabble after years of abuse, jake is afraid of love, so why do you have to be so warm? by @star-sim (atp it's slay 3000)

into the spider-verse | headcannons, spiderman au where you are JAKE SIM's MJ by @wonryllis

kissing your bestfriend | oneshot If kissing your best friend while you’re smoking is illegal, then sue you for just doing that. Or even better, go to jail for that crime alone. by @sadnightforus

SUNGHOON:

maneater | smau, ongoing 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒓𝒖𝒍𝒆𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒚 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆. 𝒔𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒏 𝒔𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒉𝒐𝒐𝒅, 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒊𝒄𝒊𝒑𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒚’𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒊𝒎𝒑𝒐𝒓𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒓𝒖𝒍𝒆, 𝒏𝒐 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒂𝒄𝒚 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒕𝒘𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒅 𝒇𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒚’𝒔. 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏’𝒕 𝒃𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒖 𝒌𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒂 𝒔𝒊𝒈𝒎𝒂𝒔 𝒕𝒐𝒌𝒆𝒏 𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒓, 𝒚/𝒏… 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕? by @w0nslvr (*laughs evilly* i bring you, e2l. again. nine chapter up so far)

every fragile thing | oneshot After an ankle injury lands you in weekly physical therapy sessions instead of on the ice where you should be training for regionals, you’re certain you must be the most emotionally volatile figure skater within a hundred mile radius. Park Sunghoon proves you wrong. or, every fragile thing has one of two choices: become stronger or shatter into a million pieces. by @stllmnstr (e2l :P)

seasons | oneshot park sunghoon, the notorious playboy who just so happens to be your brother’s best friend, was off limits. heeseung had made it clear to you during your freshman year of high school, and the rule still hasn’t changed even when entering your senior year. but what lee heeseung doesn’t know won’t hurt him right? by @leaderwonim

i'll love you forever | oneshot, mature you were sunghoon's first everything; first friend, first love, and first heartbreak. after years of quietly crushing on you, he was finally ready to confess. so ready to confess, that he told his parents the two of you were already dating! it was an easy enough lie to keep up and he kept it up for months, what could possibly go wrong? he thought. little did he know, you would have a falling out and stop talking for months.. and then, you'd both get invited to spend a week at home with his parents, who still believe you're his girlfriend. by @zreamy

poker face | oneshot wiping a bit of frosting (or smth else) off of their cheek while eating and taking it for themself by @wonryllis

SUNOO:

love error | smau, completed known as the owner of running a popular confession account, sunoo has gotten plenty of people together. monthly, love news holds an event where anonymous people gets a chance to confess. of course, sunoo is just doing his job — starting relationships. but what he didn’t expect was someone dming him on twitter asking if he was the one behind a confession … who knew a small error can cause him to think about his love life for once? by @hanniluvi (sunoo sunoo sunoo sunoo my love i'm so sorry </3)

JUNGWON:

smart, sexy, lacy, i’m losing it lately | drabble jungwon has always hated you, right from the start. you were too nice, too smart for your own good, and lately—you’ve been starting to get too pretty for yang jungwon to handle. by @leaderwonim (one sided e2l? hmm...and super cute)

he loves me, he loves me not | smau, completed 𝒚/𝒏 𝒅𝒊𝒅𝒏’𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆, 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆 𝒚𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒈𝒏 𝒆𝒙𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒈𝒓𝒂𝒎. 𝒃𝒐𝒚, 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒑𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒇𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒘𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒈. 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒐𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒓 𝒐𝒍𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒓𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒊𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒑𝒐𝒑𝒖𝒍𝒂𝒓 𝒌𝒊𝒅𝒔 𝒂𝒎𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒖𝒏𝒊𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒊𝒕𝒚, 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒓𝒐𝒔𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒎, 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒊𝒓 𝒓𝒆𝒍𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒑 𝒅𝒆𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒔 𝒓𝒆𝒑𝒂𝒊𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈. 𝒐𝒉, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒐𝒑 𝒊𝒕 𝒐𝒇𝒇… 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒖𝒑𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒐𝒕 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒇𝒐𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝒉𝒆𝒓. by @w0nslvr (i'm only too proud to say it's e2l again)

you've got to be kitten me! | oneshot jungwon yang, the stuck-up class president, had a secret: at night, he transformed into a cat. when you, the class's residential troublemaker (and one of the people that jungwon simply couldn't bring himself to understand), accidentally discovered his secret, jungwon found himself questioning his role in the school hierarchy. by @star-sim (my lil prodigy vanya strikes again)

all clear! | smau, completed for as long as you’ve been on jyp university’s badminton team, your team’s main rivals have been hybe university. the rivalry goes way back, and as the team captain, you’re well aware of your team’s disdain towards the hybe team - but it just so happens that you’re secretly dating hybe’s team captain, yang jungwon. and since tournament season is coming up soon, the rivalry between hybe and jyp is stronger than ever, and you and jungwon both know that if the secret got out, conflicts would arise. you’ve heard of enemies pretending to be lovers, but have you heard of lovers pretending to be enemies? by @amakumos (finally i found this one. one of the fics i've reread for at least 4 times <3)

dress-coded | smau, completed Dress codes are dumb. And everyone in school agrees. So why is the dear student council president Yang Jungwon so insistent on upholding such a stupid rule? And why is Y/n so insistent on changing his mind? OR Y/n finds a new way to break the dress code each day, purely to spite the student council president and make him change the stupid rule. But what started as a simple act of rebellion soon takes a turn as more is found out about the goody-two-shoes president. by @pandenewie (mild e2l XD. is2g jw and e2l are gonna be the reason i die someday)

recall | smau, completed after spending months suffering from amnesia in the hospital due to an “accident,” you return back to your normal school life where your close friends who you remember stick by your side 24/7. Unexpectedly, you cross paths with ex-student council president yang jungwon, who you failed to remember but feel oddly drawn to. however, after the meeting things start to get odd and you slowly begin piecing together the mystery behind your accident. by @seungstarss (another series that left my heart in pieces. this is by the same author as "bet". again, y'all are gonna end up crying so proceed with caution)

the language of flowers | smau, completed jungwon’s just every bit in love with the student council president who keeps visiting his flowershop OR in which you find solace in a flowershop, and its owner’s grandson finds solace in you. by @soobnny (the cutest fricking fic i've ever read of jungwon)

seven minutes in h(eaven)ell | drabble what do you do with a popular guy in a closed space? Well, absolutely ignore all his flirting signals with your nonsense because we stan self sabotage in this household. by @woncine (this was super cute too!!)

if we're both single | smau, completed y/n and jungwon became friends after sending each other tiktoks and shared random messages and photos of their lives. their relationship became deeper as time passed by and one day, jungwon sent her a tiktok joking that if they’re both still single before new year’s, they should date each other. what happens after that? they’ll have to find out together. only if they’re both still single. by @winwonies

NIKI:

u+me | threeshot smau situationship with niki by @isawritesss

baby troubles | smau, ongoing it's the start of a new year at university. You're a mom of two lovely toddlers, but you seem to be having problems with your relationship. Riki Nishimura one of your classmates seem to take interest in you based on your looks. by @enhypensccstarlight (unable to tag :(( )

candy | drabble honestly, today's the day, i’m gonna break up with you, i’m going to go see you, hope you'll understand by @serafilms (fell in love with niki again with this piece)

i hate (love) you | fourshot smau nishimura riki despised love, so why the hell was his heart beating so fast around you? by @leaderwonim

noona | oneshot jiwoo and niki were in a relationship. niki had a tendency of doing as he felt, which in this case meant bringing home a kitten, to jiwoo's apartment since jay and jungwon are very allergic. by @smileydk

1 4 3 pointer | oneshot after forcing yourself to stop playing basketball due to peer pressure, you meet nishimura riki – who reminds you of past you ; and you hate it. you hate him. So why do you find yourself wanting to help him when he’s going through tough times? by @jennaissantes

heart to heart | smau, completed NISHIMURA RIKI never would have thought that being a demon meant he’d be summoned by you on a late tuesday evening begging him to make your p.e teacher disappear for a day just because you didn’t want to run during class the next day by @kkurades

night secrets | drabble in which the two of you reveal your deepest secrets to the other in the middle of the night by @yenqa

nda: not dating actually | mini-series, completed Niki doesn’t “do” dating - it’s something his friends find great joy in teasing him about. Growing tired of their jokes, he finally tells them all about his magical summer fling. Small problem - it’s all a lie. OR Being approached by an acquaintance and asked to be in a fake relationship is not how Y/n expected their day to go... but what's the harm in helping out a friend of a friend? by @pandenewie

two sides to a boy | oneshot, spiderman au Spider-Man is the local legend in your city and the one identity that no one can seem to figure out. but one day you and your friend Jungwon decide to do a film documentary about finding out the identity of Spider-Man, If only you had known earlier that it was your high school crush, Nishimura Riki. by @rikiluvly (unable to tag)

oh niki, you're so fine | smau, completed Lesson learned ! never ever accept a dare from Heesung! Dared to tweet about how attractive your best friend was, you miss-typed ‘m’ with ‘n’ who apparently turned out to be the name of some guy in the basketball team? Oh how embarrassing! by @aernx

AUTHORS:

(they have so many works that are so good, and since i can't tag every single work here (there seems to be a limit to the number of links i can add TT), i'm naming the authors themselves)

angel1kisses rowretro minhosimthings thatonenoona im-yn-suckers

RECOMMENDED (I) LEA'S NOTE: the amount of wonki fics in here is embarrassing (i'm a girl in love) and the lack of sunoo fics is horrifying (my baby sunoo TT). someone recommend me sunoo fics if you can 'cuz my algorithm seems to hide every sunoo fic from me...

fic recs by enha-ism

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sadnightforus · 2 months

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hi everybody, I'll be going on my hiatus due to some personal issues. I'll continue to work on my works behind the scene until I fully return. in the meantime, I'll be partially slow with my smau updates too. take care everybody <3

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sadnightforus · 2 months

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i miss him it's not a joke anymore

◯ ﾟ𓃉 Cigarette Daydreams⌇🌅

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[10:59 AM] “Hey… HEY!” Riki whispers to you while you both are listening to your teacher who is busy explaining and breaking down about world’s history.

According to your seating position, you’re sitting in front of him, though, you’re sitting on the right side of the school twin desk and he sits at the left, not vertically aligned to each other. It has never been a problem for the both of you, as the seats aren’t far away.

The fact he cares to disturb you during class is both annoying and questionable, as he rarely does, unless it’s an important business.

It startles you out of your trance, as you snap your head to look back at the guy who is now staring at you.

“What?” You ask, a bit irritated that you’re pulled away from the board. Your fingers stop working to write more notes, but try to keep your ears alert, invade when your teacher mentions any relevant information that might be on the exam.

“You dropped your pen.” He answers, maintaining eye contact despite the forbidden rule to not talk during class.

You look up, observing your desk, realizing that your pen is indeed long forgotten as it must’ve fallen off some time ago when you were trying to take notes during the lessons. You don’t say anything, but instead place your pencil on the top, lowering your body a bit as your right arm works itself to retrieve the school item back to where it belongs.

However, a piece of folded paper catches your attention as you don’t remember that any of your classmates litter or there are trash as all of you have mandatory cleaning duties as a group.

Curious, you pick it up and place it onto your table, unfolding it to see the note was written in a messy handwriting, the writing style that belongs to none other than your friend, Riki.

‘To the cutie whose student number is 9, will you be forever mine and my valentine? - N.R (student number 14)’

Your student number in this class is 9. His student number is 14.

You feel like your world spins, but in an agonizing slow manner, the one that is sick and both ecstatic from the realization.

You recall back to every moment that you both share; a lot of occasions where you’ve gotten too close to him and subtly held his hand under the excuse of your hands being cold, but never once did both of you want to let go of the fingers lacing motion.

Or wore his jacket because you didn’t bring yours and it happened to be chilly (you shamefully admit that you just wanted his scent to linger on you).

Or when he bent down to tie your shoes because he noticed you’d trip with your shoelaces not being properly kept in place.

Or when he gently wiped your mouth because you have ice creams on the corner of your mouth as you both skipped school that one time.

You smile to yourself as you remember and get mushy as you now know that your love wasn’t always one sided.

Giddily, you begin to write your response under his words. And when you’re done with it, you hand Riki the now shared response note as you notice that his eyes were trained on you the entire time.

And as he opens the note to see the response ‘To the boy whose student number is 14, yes I’ll be yours. And I hope to spend every Valentine with you. - Y/N (student number 9)’, you giggle as you see that he can’t help but his face dusts in every shade of red, eyes now glistening with sparkles as he has received the best news of his life.

COPYRIGHTED BY SADNIGHTFORUS, 2024

A/N: if you ask me, pure insanity

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SACRED PLACE (SES)

boyfriend!eunseok x gn!reader

SYNOPSIS: The sun is setting and you know it’s childish that you want to keep holding onto this moment for forever, because you know his heart will never be yours.

WORD COUNT: 2.2K

WARNINGS: unreliable narrator first of all (for clarification), emotional lololol but which sadnightforus’ work isn’t, occasional pet names, insecurities and so much confusion. I promised eunseok loves reader but they are wrapped up in their head okay. inferiority complex is strong, do not yell at me.

A/N: I wrote this one in the morning cause I’m cranky and i like miss carly rae jepsen. slightly inspired by bends by her. this is not self-indulgent fun fact, her music just got me acting up that’s all

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5:39 PM.

The sun begins to set, as you can see from the corner of your eyes. If you turn around, you’ll be met with a breathtaking view of the sky sinking and reflecting its light onto the ocean water.

But you don’t want to.

You don’t deserve to see it. Pretty things like that will disappear and they’ll never stay.

You and your boyfriend are laying on your back on the beach, legs tangling with one another as you often look to your right and sometimes the left, yet, never the front.

“Baby?”

His gentle voice calls out to you, reminding you that he’s still here.

“Yeah? I zoned out, I’m sorry.” You rush to apologize as you quickly retrieve your attention back to the man near you.

“It’s okay. What are you thinking about, hmm?” He asks, his fingers now making their ways into your hair as you let your thoughts roaming wild, eyes shooting up to the orange hue of the once blue sky that will be soon decorated by the warm embrace of the darkness in just a few more hours.

“Not anything that interesting that interesting.” You give him a small smile, reassuring him that he shouldn’t be worried about your long train of thoughts that seem to be involved in the picture of him and you. “Just think about how pretty you are.”

And you never lie about this matter.

He’s extraordinary, you’re nothing special in comparison. He has always been showered in compliments for his out of world, sharp yet such a masculine look, and he knows it too. You’re just a person who exists and you’re not sure what’s the purpose behind why you exist. You personally think only people who have star power like Eunseok should be the one to stay on this earth, to show how beautiful life can be.

You’ve seen his exes, they are all beautiful. You can’t compare because why would you compare goddesses to a person that never radiates a sense of mystery or intrigued others’ interests? You’d think they’ll be so embarrassed to be compared to someone like you.

Even if he tells you that you’re the prettiest person on the planet, you don’t believe him. How could you when you’re a plain jane, while he is the most beautiful boy you’ve ever met anyway?

“Funny, I think about how pretty you are too.” He chuckles, his eyes has a bright sparkle that you only wish to be able to witness this close. You hope you don’t lose this privilege any time soon.

“Umm hmm.” You hum, pretending to agree with his statement. “But you’re like the beach waves that are steadily rolling. You’re just so comforting.”

My beach boy, my comfort boy, something you wanted to say but hold yourself back from doing so.

He’s just one of a kind.

Every time you’re sad, you often go to the beach. It’s something you’ve been doing since you were a kid. You’re still an adult and you feel a bit childish that you’d still go to stare at the ocean waves rolling, but right now, it does nothing more than being a poison to your mental health ever since you let a pretty boy with strong features of the name Song Eunseok invades the space of your loneliness. And you begin to associate him to every little thing that you used to like.

Just like right now, you’re thinking that he is truly reminiscent of the fresh air that washes over the both of you, with the heart in the sand that you used to draw for him whenever you both get here.

He has your heart, but does he know that? Does he care that you’ll be willing to do anything for him?

Probably not. You’re happy to keep that thought hidden from him.

“Don’t think so.” He chuckles. “You know what I think of when I see you? I think of you as the sunset that people will never get tired of seeing.”

You’re gloomy, how could he sees you as the sun of his life? Or in his eyes for that matters, even worthy of his attention?

You can’t comprehend it.

He’s so much better than you in every aspect. You think that he should’ve been with someone who is on the same level as him, not someone who has nothing like you.

You never know what love is, until you meet him. In school, there was no one who had ever shown their interest in you, but you supposed that it’s better than to be heartbroken at the realization that the love someone gave to you was merely because of a bet.

You always kept your head down, afraid to meet people’s eyes. You’re timid, meek and shy because you never feel like you fit in. Even the people in your family, they’re all charismatic and charming, except for you who is not at all an interesting character to think about when they ask about your family.

You think you're a pretty forgettable person to others.

“That’s you.” Your eyes lock onto his face, observing how a person can be this beautiful. God indeed has favorites, and your boyfriend is one of them. “You’re the most beautiful person I’ve seen. You’re as beautiful as the sun that shines during winter, to keep someone warm.”

It’s true, you’ve always felt like the walking embodiment of overwhelming loneliness since birth. And Eunseok is your sun who provides warmth into this stoic, cold life of yours.

For the first time, you are able to see the world in more than just two colors that you’re so used to being familiar with, black and white. You see a variety of colors in its glory with his love, but you’re not sure if his love is out of obligation or not.

You begin to love yellow, aside from chronomatic colors that have been your favorite colors growing up. It’s because it reminds you of Eunseok. He is nothing but sunshine, the brightest star that shines amongst the crowd of people like you.

You remember that you didn’t particularly like yellow as much when you were younger. You didn’t feel like it suits you— it belongs to happy people, special people like Eunseok. You wonder, how could someone born and carry something special since birth already? Was it made or was it a practice to enhance the exquisite god given gift?

You sometimes resent god for making you a boring person with no drive and easily moldable into whatever they want you to be, instead of being distinctive.

You want to be special, heck even feel special, just for a minute like him too.

What does that feel like?

It probably feels nice, being loved for simply who you are.

“I know you said I’m like the beach waves, but personally, you’re like the ocean. You’re unpredictable, but very calm, beautiful and breathtaking.” He maintains eye contact with you. “You really remind me of the color blue. You have a kind of depth to you that people would love to write about.”

What is he talking about?

Oh right, you remind him of the color blue?

You know about the association of the color blue and melancholia. You know it means sadness.

Is that how he perceives you?

Truthfully, you think that people aren’t blind to the fact you look down all the time. You radiate off the 'damsel in distress’ vibe and you’ve been told to brighten up more. You even had people approaching you and willing to listen to your stories because you just looked so troubled and you might need a hand or a shoulder to cry on in case you had no one.

You think these kinds of things only happen to pathetic people like you. You personally don’t know someone who is alike to you at all.

You have so much to say, but in the end, it’ll all boil down to you being lonely and miserable.

You always feel so blue, can he feel it too?

Why can’t you be happy?

“You always say these things.” You try to avoid saying that you don’t believe it, because it’ll show that you don’t believe in yourself as much as he always told you that he has always been so amazed by him. “I see myself as a dessert.”

“Whatever you say, cutie.” He shakes his head. “But in my opinion, if you’re a dessert, then I’d rather die of dehydration just to be close to you.”

You know that it’s supposed to be a compliment, but you don’t feel like it. No matter how much he tries to flatter you, you don;t ever feel like those compliments ever get through your head and soak into your brain.

You’re not enough.

And you know that he’s too good for you.

You believe that you’re truly a dessert, there’s nothing that excites people about you. You’re just someone who is meant to be in the background, not someone in front of the camera, not someone who attracts attention from the others. If people stay around you long enough, they’ll get a thirst to seek for someone who can fulfill their excitement in being adventurous and interesting as well as striking, something you lack.

And if you’re the ocean, you’d kill people with the tsunami of your overwhelming blue-esque. Nobody should put up with you, but he does. You don’t understand why he stays around with the way you’re like an unpredictable ocean wave that could make others fear for their life.

“Baby?” He mutters out softly, seeing you losing yourself in your train of thoughts. “Let’s get up. It’s getting dark. I want to walk around this beach with you.”

You don’t notice that the sun has been long gone and has been replaced by the moon now, but you supposed that you’ve always been quite a daydreamer. You’re flustered however, as you sit up, using the support from one of your arms before you can stand up, then you dust all the sand that attaches itself onto your clothes.

“Let’s go.” He smiles at you, and for a moment, your sadness vanishes like the air that brushes itself all the way from thousands of miles away to softly blow his hair, making him look almost so dream-like.

You think you’re so special that you’re the only person whose person he directs this smile at. And you’re the cause of his happiness just as much as he is with yours.

He takes a slow step, you follow along. He takes your hand in his, then grip it tightly, like a sweet cotton that is inseparable that never wants to let go.

You see some shops start lightening up their place, as you’re visiting a tourist attraction. However, you can’t help but feel like it’s just the ghost of Eunseok who talks to you. And you might be seen as crazy for holding onto an imaginary man.

Then you’re back to being sad again.

Because no matter how real he is, you feel like you’re holding onto a version of a man that doesn’t exist at all, or a version of a person who you might’ve made up in your head.

What if he doesn't love you as much as you do with him?

It’s funny that you’re probably in an unrequited love in this relationship, maybe.

You know about the kind of love that people all shared throughout their lives. However, you can’t be too sure about the feelings that he has been upholding for you.

“I love you.” His eyes land directly into yours, gazing deep into your soul, as if he tries to read you.

You suddenly feel terrible for your earlier thoughts and equally as self conscious.

And you almost wanted to cry.

“I love you too.” You say, eyes almost brimming with tears and it takes you a crazy level of self amount to not break down in front of him.

And you mean it. You mean every single word that you respond back to him.

This beach is your sacred place. You introduce him to this place because you make a room for a boy named Song Eunseok in your heart, a place that is just as sacred as this place you’re standing at. It’s very vulnerable and you’d hate it if he walks out with your heart in his hand, squeezing it until it explodes and bleeds uncontrollable and the memories of the beach waves rolling as you both walk by the shore, admiring the view under this moonlight.

This love itself is very sacred too, and you hope that he’ll continue to love you for a long time as much as you love him.

Because you know that there’s no other room for any man who comes after him anymore.

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NICOTINE LOVE (JCM)

innocent-turn-corrupted!changmin x heartbreaker gn!reader

SYNOPSIS: Ji Changmin was an innocent boy who had the luck of meeting you, a heartbreaker, in one of the parties that your friends threw. You think you’ve successfully corrupted him, with the way you got him smoking in the backseat of your car, while confessing both of your hearts’ out, high on that nicotine love that you both shared.

WORD COUNT: 1.3K

WARNINGS: cuss words, smoking. commitment issues. mentioned of s*x, they made out before (don’t get jumpscare). this was originally a time stamp but it’s not now so enjoy it I guess.

A/N: black angel by bloo is what made this whole au. thank you.

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You’re smoking with a certain someone that shall not be named right now (or you refuse to tell on yourself).

But it wouldn’t hurt to admit that the man in question is Ji Changmin at all.

As you quietly watch him exhale the smoke from the nicotine stick from the other side of the car, you think back of how you both first met.

You remembered that you met him at a party that one of your good friends hosted and you can exactly count that it was just 2 weeks and 3 days after your semester started. Like a fucked up miracle in disguise, you noticed a meek boy who stood at the corner of the event, watching people anxiously as he looked like he had no idea what to do in situations like this. So you approached him, despite not knowing who he was.

Ever since, he has become someone who relies on you in every way possible. Much less, regarding yourself with the title of ‘mentor’ too, as he had claimed so.

Honestly, you find yourself liking the title but you’re aware that you’re not the greatest influence he could base himself after.

He was quite naïve, calm and inexperienced in the world of wild and chaos that he found himself in. You were his navigator to explore the depth of it.

Truthfully, you think he’s a cute, innocent guy who has the worst luck to be stuck with a devil of a heartbreaker like you. And it also wouldn’t hurt to admit that you both had made out quite a few times in all of the times you’ve known each other since you first laid eyes on him.

And honestly, you like him a lot. You’re just scared. Scared of not being someone perfect for him.

“You look like a cigarettes after sex’s song.” He comments, thinking how beautiful you look right now with cigarette tucking in between your fingers and the way you zone out.

And it’s the truth. You look like someone who is straight out of a dream. Someone a rock band would write a song about. There’s just an air of command to your presence that he or any other person can’t help but have to turn their head to your direction.

“Hmm?” You take a moment to process what he said and inevitably, a rush of heat creeps up on your cheeks once you do. You don’t know why your confidence has suddenly disappeared when you were fine just a moment ago.

“You’re so fucking cute when you’re shy.” He chuckles and you can’t say that you’re taken aback by the fact that he cusses, but you’re just so surprised by the fact that he is bold, even more with the way he wants to make moves on you.

What is he up to?

You almost want to show how insane you go from these comments along but you keep your composure.

“Hey Ji Changmin! Who taught you these things?” You slap on his bicep playfully with the free hand you have.

“It’s you, m’lady.” And he winks, sending more flirtatious gestures, as you’re continuously getting affected by his actions.

You can only roll your eyes as your response to show that you’re not phased by what he did at all, even though your heart is beating fast and you can feel yourself breaking out in cold sweats despite the air conditioner in your car that prevents both of you from overheating. And with window roll down too, you think that you’re gonna repent for your sin later on in days when your car reeks of absolute lung cancer sickness.

“I’m not joking.” He mumbles, frustrated that you always think that he’s so nice and just being a good friend when he does compliment you. The comment was intended mostly to himself but you hear it.

Okay, maybe fighting off those romantic advances weren’t the smartest thing you’ve ever did.

“You said you’re not joking? Hmm?” You lean closer to him, closing the gap that was once in existence as each of you were previously at both sides of the backseat earlier. You intend to make him crumble and make him open his heart tonight.

Because you don’t want to be the only one who feels like this.

“Y-yeah.” He stutters and he almost cussed at himself for doing so. “Actually…” he puffs one out before continuing “God fuck it. Okay, I'm sick of hiding my feelings. I’ve always liked you since you first noticed me at the party.”

Your heart skips a beat by that confession. So all of this time, you weren’t delusional to think that he might be into you too.

“You’re so nice to me. I don’t get it, you could have anybody, but you choose me to be your sidekick, your friend or whatever you want us to be. You’re so fucking cool, I’m just not that cool when compares to yo-”

“Changmin, if you don’t stop that right now.” Your stern tone wakes him up from his thoughts that he was drowning in earlier because of his insecurities.

You hate when he sees himself that way.

“You’re the most unique guy ever. I just…” You gulp, guilty lumps in your heart. “Just afraid because I’m a heartbreaker. I don’t stick around, and look— we’ve made out so many times but had we ever talked about it? No. I thought you should have someone who isn’t afraid of commitment to be with you.”

It’s true, you’re not used to commitment at all, nor ever found yourself in a long term relationship.

You’re a free-spirited person, someone who needs to feel free and comfortable in any connection you involve yourself in. You can easily kiss and sleep with people without emotions involved because you don’t desire attachment, you only want experience and the risks. It has been that way ever since you were young. You’ve heard too many horror stories of what being chained down to marriages and even relationships have done to people, that’s why you always date people until you get bored and break up with them as if they’re not someone worthy of explanations. And especially, you have a knack for making people fall in love, intentionally or not.

But Ji Changmin changed it for you.

He makes you crave stability and the calm, peaceful nature of life in a world that is occupied by nothing but mystery of the untamed.

“I don’t really care about that.” He frowns, upsetting that you’d think of yourself that way. He takes one last puff before speaking again “Give me a chance, I can show you what it is like to settle down. We can still be fun and risky while in love.”

The deal isn’t so bad.

This time, he takes the initiative to lean into you even closer as you both collectively agree to destroy the nicotine stick you got in your hand before throwing it out. Then you mumble something against his lips that he can’t really make out of.

However, his eyes fill with affection and so much promise of the future with the reflection of you by his side.

You smirk, nose bumping into his, signaling that you’ve let him into your heart with a simple comment.

“Then show me what it is like to be loved by you, baby.”

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coworker and enemy!yangyang who has been a pain in your ass ever since you joined the company in late September. He was your supervisor and he was helpful and nice before you got switched to be under Kun's wing. ever since that incident, he starts messing with you and your mind.

coworker and enemy!yangyang who looks for an opportunity to jap and even throw a smart remark at you whenever you both are together. You’ve grown so used to his behavior overtime that you aren’t fazed by what he was doing anymore. You began to throw remarks at him too and humiliate him at times for him to have a taste of his own medicine.

coworker and enemy!yangyang who purposely messes up your work items and hide your lunches so he’ll have a reason to say ‘haha loser you look like you’re about to die’ and you’ll be forced to sit through an empty stomach, insanely worn out from both work and his antics.

coworker and enemy!yangyang who always bickers in your social media posts even though you both don’t follow each other. You reciprocate the same energy and oftentimes, even go as far to mess with other people who attempted to flirt in his comment to show him that he will never win this silly little game easily.

coworker and enemy!yangyang who becomes much more meaner when you started getting closer to Sicheng, who is a new member of the team from the other department, and he seems to notice and like you too. He would go as far to say you’re unattractive and not compatible with Sicheng, which you both know is a total lie, but for some reason, you got affected by what he said.

coworker and enemy!yangyang who became worried as you began to be so much more quieter, distant and you stopped responding to his antics as your attention is solely directed on your works. He instantly feels like shit and even filled with rage when he notices that you have become much more affectionate with Sicheng too.

coworker and enemy!yangyang who often punches the pillows and gets drunk, murmuring about how he hates that you’re so distant and looks at Sicheng like he’s your world while Yangyang himself probably amounts to nothing in your eyes and he wishes that you’d reciprocated his love too.

coworker and enemy!yangyang who gets drunk and complains to his friends about how you have heart eyes for another ‘scumbag’ in his company, slurring all of his drunken thoughts about how he has been in love with you for so long and he just doesn’t know how to express all of those thoughts properly so he resorted to picking on you instead. He was mad that instead of you noticing him, you gave attention to another worthless guy who doesn’t deserve a dime of your time.

coworker and enemy!yangyang who one day works late overtime and gets out, thinking no one would be in the building. Surprisingly, he spots you, who seems to be equally as beaten down by the work as him. He walks to you, doesn’t have the heart to tease as it has been so long and you’re startled by how quiet he has become right at this moment.

coworker and enemy!yangyang who strangely enjoys the comfortable silence, without bickering just once as you both are taking a long walk, exiting the company’s ground. He was doing good until you hit him with the question ‘So.. a little birdie that you like me. Is that correct?’ in the most teasing voice ever and he swears he wants to die.

coworker and enemy!yangyang who begins to panic, while wondering who could be the snitch on him as his mouth quickly responds ‘No I don’t, you’re just egoistical.’ to which you respond with ‘Oh yeah? Then why have you been raving about how pretty I am to your friends and how you hate Sicheng so much?’

coworker and enemy!yangyang who becomes silent as he knows you have defeated him in this, then you laugh, the loudest and most genuine laugh he had ever heard since he knew you. ‘That’s my cousin, you’re so dumb.’ Then you laugh even harder, as you continue speaking ‘If you pay attention, you’d notice that I use Sicheng to get back at you for being emotionally constipated and bullying your crush as your love language.’

coworker and enemy!yangyang who becomes red in the face as he gets exposed as he tries to speak ‘Wait! I can explain-‘ and he just ends up stuttering half way when he does. You find it adorable how he has a new different side to him.

coworker and enemy!yangyang who becomes ecstatic once he heard the ‘You know, I think you’re so dumb that you never really noticed I like you either the way I harassed at least half of the girls who follows you on Instagram’ and he doesn’t care for anything else as he leans in to kiss your cheeks.

coworker and enemy!yangyang who ends up working his courage to ask you out on a date and finally working out on getting his enemy as his baby.

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A/N: it's probably better if i write an au but I can't handle it so enjoy.

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[2:04 AM] Moving on from you was hard.

Still hard, and seeing you with someone else while he still thinks about you is even harder.

Sometimes, it’s almost comical that love makes him lose his mind like this. But here he is, pouring another bottle of wine into his glass as the light on his nightstand illuminates his bedroom now standing lonely.

Seungcheol knows he should leave you behind. But he can’t, not with the way that the image of your eyes staring right deep into his soul still serves as a mental image that he thinks back about every night before he lured himself to sleep with nothing but regret as the bed warmed by his side.

He has the tendency to overwork himself to death— you always tell him to take it easy. With you around, he did, but with you gone, the only way that he can proceed with his life normally is if he throws himself into work so that he won’t have time to entertain his heart of the ideas of ‘what if’s with you.

He always forgot to eat his meals on time whenever he was busy and he thinks that he didn’t die because you were the one to remind him of the food intake. But god, does it get harder to eat when you slip out of his life and he goes back to square one, with only the thoughts of you soothing his pain to stop all of his misery.

With each thought, the wine bottle soon becomes emptied and he pours another one and repeats the step all over again.

He doesn’t tell you this, and he hopes you won’t know it either. He has tried seeing other people but all he ended up seeing was a glimpse of you— he knows it’s selfish and it broke his heart a bit, thinking how much of a horrible man he is for leading people on.

He sometimes drive by your house. Or even change the usual route he usually takes for his work by driving on your street, just to see your house. But he doesn’t have the heart to face you and gradually, the amount of time he has done this has decreased, but it doesn’t make it hurt any less. He even goes to both of your favorite restaurants in hope to run into you, but it seems like you never revisit after the breakup.

He has to move on, even if he’s feeling so weak and defeated.

His eyes glances over to the view outside of the city— it looks dull and there’s no warmth to the scenery at all, just how he has been feeling for months. His lips didn’t dare to speak, he lost his ability to really speak his mind a long time ago once you make your way out of his life.

He then takes the last sip of the wine before he realizes that he managed to finish 2 bottles for tonight.

Enough is enough.

So, he collects the beverages and the wine stains glass, placing it into the sink as he lets the water run. He cleans it with a sigh, and doesn't ever bother to turn on the light either as the light provided from far away was enough for him.

With a heavy heart, he has to force himself to step out of the kitchen, making his way to go back to rest. His palm then unlocks the door of his bedroom that he has previously left in the cold, with neither the nightstand lamp turned off nor the air conditioner still brewing of cold air that runs past his body.

He then gently lays himself onto his bed, trying to secure warmth with the blanket, eyes attempting to close on its own due to his intoxicated state as his head can only think of you and your new lover, heart now trembling in pain.

Tonight, he allows himself to miss you again, but tomorrow, he knows he has to move on.

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A/N: been feeling a little angsty lately. inspired by one of bloo's songs.

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THE FATED STARS (PJS) | SMAU

017 - PICKUP LINES TO USE FOR CONCERT GOERS

Park Jongseong harbors the biggest crush on one of the most popular girls on the campus, you. You, being dared by your friend group to tweet and made a boyfriend application, initially started out as a joke, thinking that no one would applied it. Upon the tweet going viral and many applications being sent in, he decided that he would shoot his shot, even if he doesn’t know a single shit about what is the sun, moon, rising in astronomy.

WARNINGS: cuss words, sexual jokes, creepy pictures, calling people old

A/N: I think I'm funny. one of my fav chapters btw

TAGLIST: @hoondiors @ariadores @who-tf-soddhi @erehkinnie30

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THE FATED STARS (PJS) | SMAU

016 - CONCERT ANNOUNCEMENT

WARNINGS: cuss words, suggestive flirting (from jay's side), cockroaches, rats, joking misandry

A/N: new character unlock, let's welcome han yujin from zb1 we cheer

TAGLIST: @hoondiors @ariadores @who-tf-soddhi @erehkinnie30

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#kpop au #kpop imagines #kpop scenarios #kpop fanfic #enha smau #enhypen smau #jay park smau #aespa smau #enhypen social media au #xdinary heroes smau #le sserafim smau #itzy smau #park jongseong #park jongseong fanfic #park jongseong au #park jongseong x reader #jay park x reader #jay park au

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THE FATED STARS (PJS) | SMAU

UNCUT 015 - THE IDOL, THE FAN

WARNINGS: cuss words, mention of criminal record, being drunk

A/N: that one pic of jay sent me spiraling cause why is his ski mask a literal baby diaper

TAGLIST: @hoondiors @ariadores @who-tf-soddhi @erehkinnie30

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#kpop au #kpop imagines #kpop scenarios #kpop fanfic #enha smau #enhypen smau #jay park smau #aespa smau #enhypen social media au #xdinary heroes smau #itzy smau #le sserafim smau #jay park au #jay park imagines #enhypen x reader #enha x reader #park jongseong x reader #park jongseong au #park jongseong fanfic

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THE FATED STARS (PJS) | SMAU

015 - SORRY (BUT I'LL DO IT AGAIN)

WARNINGS: burned food, jay being silly

A/N: zero smau i'm sorry omfg

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WORD COUNT: 2113

When you woke up this morning, you heard the birds chirping outside. You thought that it was gonna be a good day.

You weren’t too far off, but what exactly is your definition of a good day?

Well, to start it off, your roommate, Yeji, has made a meal for you. An actual meal for breakfast without burning the food or making it indigestible. Truly a blessed day that you don’t have to run out to the convenience store to eat a decent meal or either spend a penny to eat something that doesn’t taste like charcoal exploding in your mouth.

Second, you managed to catch a bus without rushing like most days. And your bluetooth earphones were fully charged which allows you to listen to Bladee and Mariah Carey as much as you want to without doing a mental calculation to see how much time you have left until your earphone runs out of power and shuts itself down.

You love life. You really do.

Third, you finally came 15 minutes earlier to your university without a sweat or feeling like you ran from a storm of humidity. It’s a good thing that you choose not to do heavier makeup like most days because otherwise, you think it’ll cake up half way into the lessons and you don’t want to run to the restroom to powder it up.

List of good things that happened today.

Your legs are working their ways there to the hall and you enjoy whatever that is playing in your earphone (You’re deeply embarrassed to say it’s Talk To Me Nice by Bladee). You only wear one side of the ear piece so you can also pay attention to the surroundings. You think it’s actually quite the downside of having an earphone that isn’t an airpod, but you don’t want to spend your money on an unreasonable pricey stuff just to hear people talk while you’re still wearing that piece when you can just easily remove it and it’ll give the same effect too.

Someone bolts really fast, runs like his life depends on it and you swear you could see the sweat trickling down his face. You smell a familiar scent and you look up to see if you’re right about the man who suddenly runs into you like a bull like this. He then stops in his tracks right in front of you, which startles a reaction out of you as you almost lose your balance with how he pants. And yes, you were right, it’s Jay.

What does he want to tell you this early in the morning? For god’s sake, it’s like almost 8 am.

You don’t expect that you’ll meet him first thing in the morning (aside from your roommate Yeji who has become a face you accustomed to see), nor do you expect to run into him being all sweaty and looks like he’s on a self-inflicting punishment for his crimes.

“Ha- ha- hey! Y/N!” He pants. “I- I’m sorry for calling you baby! It’s okay if you don’t want t-to keep seeing me anymore! I know I overstep my boundaries and act as if we’re dating and if you don’t want to talk to me after this, I understand!”

He panics, the little eyes being widened and the anxious gesture, he’s like an open book even if he seemingly always keeps his cool most of the time. You’re confused by his rambling of apologies, what- He apologizes for calling you baby before you guys are a thing?

No guy has ever apologized for calling you baby before dating. And you remember dreading when you tell your friends about the horror stories of guys that just made you cringe to their every dialogue that escaped from their mouths.

You don’t want to admit this one thing so early to yourself but maybe.. maybe your friends are right.

But you still need to make sure that he’s into you just as much as you’re willing to let yourself be into him too.

“Jay, it’s okay, really.” You say with a smile tugging between your lips. “I’ll let it slide because…” you stop in your trance when you realize that you were about to say that you like how he calls you baby.

“Because… I want to keep seeing you.”

Good excuse right there, is what you think to yourself. You want to keep being a tsundere just a tad bit longer to see how much he is willing to keep up with your shenanigans.

God, this sentence nearly made him lose all of his composure. And could probably melt a man who has even the slightest attraction to the opposite sex.

“Really?” He asks with a beaming glint in his gaze that holds so much hopefulness inside. And you finally realize something– you’ve never seen so much love radiating from someone’s eyes.

You choose to only shyly nod as a response and he deems it as a good enough of an answer. Truthfully, you want to see how long it will be until you finally start admitting that you perhaps, feel something for him too.

“It’s nearly time for my first lecture, I don’t really want to be late. And you should get going too. I guess I’ll see you soon?” You make an excuse to get out of there once you start feeling like your heart goes crazy with the way he looks at you like his only one.

“Oh- yeah. I’ll see you around! Have a good day!” He stutters, in a daze as he watches you make a run for it before you completely disappear out of his sight.

The hall feels empty now and it allows him to sigh. He forces himself to go to his next lecture with thoughts flying around his head on what he should do next to be someone to you.

“Why do you look like that?” Heeseung questions, observing how Jay’s brows are knitted tightly together.

They’re now in the apartment of Jay, three men are busying themselves in the kitchen as the place owner himself is cooking up some food as a promise to feed his friends if they don’t bother him when he was trying to apologize to you. The other 4 are playing video games in the living room, which is approximately just a whole 5 seconds walk from the place that creates the best kind of food (dearly presented by Park Jongseong, as Jake likes to say).

“Like what?” Jay mumbles, not sparing his friends a glance with the way his focus is entirely on the food.

“Like Y/N turned him down or something.” Sunghoon responds, before wincing in pain as Heeseung slaps his bicep. Jay’s face now contorts into an uncomfortable look, a look that screams that he is dejected and defeated by the weight of the world and that the light of hope has disappeared from his life.

“OH MY GOD?!” Sunghoon yells out, which catches the attention of the gamers from 5 feet over.

“WHAT HAPPENED?” Jake yells, asking, as his eyes are glued to the screen.

“Y/N REJECTED HIM!”

“NO WAYYYYY!!!” Sunoo and Jungwon say it together at the same time and they all stand up to run to the kitchen to see the heartbroken man.

“I thought she liked you, no?” Riki asks, eyes overflowing with love as he looks at Jay’s cooking. He’s leaning against the counter, trying to pretend he cares but he really doesn’t.

“She didn’t even reject me, but something worse.” He looks visibly down and the youngest kid of the group doesn’t have it in him to tease the elder today. They wait for him to say something as he continues.

“She said she doesn’t mind when I call her baby because she wants to keep seeing me then she just bolted to her lecture, is that a girl code of saying if I fuck up one more time, she’s gonna disappear from my life?”

They all can blankly stare with the ‘Are you kidding me’ expression written on their faces. Especially Sunghoon who is the most displeased person out of this whole conversation.

“Okay- WHAT????” Jake yells out, clearly shocked by the statement that leaves his friend’s mouth.

“I think you’re overthinking it.” Heeseung comments before going back to chew on the baked cookies (Jay honestly forgot he has snacks until Heeseung randomly was able to find where he hid those).

“I think she’s gaslighting you.” Sunoo opens his mouth to give Jay constant paranoia (as a hobby) and it seems to work as his shoulders that were once dropped start to tense up.

“Oh shut up, Kim Seonwoo.” Jungwon retorts, taking pity on the older friend of theirs. He then goes back to bickering with Heeseung about the cookies, something about the older who needs to stop being greedy and give his share of those baked goods afterwards and Jay’s attention is not on their bickering but he almost let his friends’ words get into his head.

“Haven’t you guys been texting enough time to see whether she likes you for real?” Riki raises a question and he earns a thumbs up with ‘You’re right’s from the group. He then reaches over to open the fridge to see if his hyung stores anything that he wants to eat (and much to his disappointment, it’s only groceries instead of something cool like ice cream and milk).

“I just don’t want to start off on the wrong foot, like I shot my shot through Twitter dms and I’m so positive she knows that I’m so in love with her that it’s kinda weird from her perspective.” Jay sighs, feeling beaten down. He almost gives up on trying to have you when his friends keep throwing the ‘you’re a creep’ comments on a daily basis.

“Wow, you’re really self aware.” Heeseung deadpans. Sunghoon leans in closer to face Jake as he says ‘open your mouth, ahh’ as he feeds him the fries that Jay made earlier.

“…Please don’t do this to me right now.” Jay says, deadpans and anxious.

Why does liking someone require so much mental work?

“You should be thanking the entities in heaven that she still talks to you after that whole ee-dé-rial compliment. I’m personally really embarrassed for you and I wasn’t even there.” Heeseung says, taking another bite of the cookie while Jungwon is on a strike to steal the last 2 cookies before his hyung can get them. Riki now joins Sunoo, Sunghoon and Jake to eat fries while they mumble a ‘hmmm, delicious’ to rub that in his face even more.

“I think smartphones are the worst invention that Steve Jobs could’ve made.” Jay groans, eyes focusing on the way the food is overflowing its smell to the 6 people who are cramped up in his penthouse (a name deprived from Jungwon).

“Actually, it’s Frank Canova. A little google search would’ve told you that.” Jake responds.

“Shut up, physics nerd.” Sunghoon scoffs, choosing to not feed Jake and get the last bite of the fries himself.

Jay prepares the dishes for his little family (he likes to play house and pretend it so) and he takes off the apron that has been staying on the entire time he was cooking up something extraordinary as a celebration for his friends to not fucking up his chances with his crush.

The chaos quiets down as Jungwon voluntarily dropped his one sided beef with his hyung over cookies to devour the big meal that Jay prepares. At that moment, there was no sound coming out of their mouth except a little chewing and little laughter. While everybody keeps complimenting his cooking, his stomach almost churns with acid because of the unnecessary overthinking from his interaction with you earlier.

“You just have to try harder to win her over.” Is what Heeseung says before he goes right back to go to the food war with 6 other people.

“Yeah.” Sunoo agrees. “She already gave you the greenlight. Just don’t be stupid, that’s all.”

“As long as you can prove to her you’re not an obsessive weirdo, you definitely have a shot. I’d date you in a heartbeat if I was a girl.” Sunghoon responds and Jake goes straight to ask “What stops you from doing that?” to which Sunghoon answers with “I just like girls.” with the most serious expression he can muster at the moment.

“Wow, thanks guys for that advice.” He says, monotones dripping from his voice.

“Um, by the way. Can I ask you something?” Heeseung asks, eyes penetrating straight into his as he scoots closer to the chef, ignoring the other presenting 5 people.

“Sure.” He nods.

“If you could go back in time, would you call her baby again?”

“Yeah. I’ll do it all again.”

Then he smiles to himself as Heeseung quirk one of his eyebrows and slowly turns away from him.

Maybe it’s not that bad at all, he just has to keep pushing and be himself.

At least, that’s what the guys are hinting at.