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Another song I heavily associate with Trevor Philips and why you should too

I’m back once again with more useless opinions and a song analysis no one asked for yet I’m going to deliver anyway.

My hyperfixation on GTA V and Trevor hasn’t stopped yet, so I’ll be over here squeezing out every last bit of dopamine I can from this character, which means I’ll once again dive into his incredibly tragic but interesting psyche by analyzing another song I believe to be a very fitting character song for Trevor, in this case Fairytale by Alexander Rybak, also known as Norway's 2009 ESC song.

Let’s dive right in.

Years ago

When I was younger

I kinda liked

A girl I knew

Sadly this song isn’t gender neutral like the last one, but we’ll just ignore the wrong pronouns and do this anyway.

When Trevor was younger, still running jobs in the midwest, he met Michael. Someone just as eager to make money as Trevor, someone just as unhinged and addicted to violence in, to Trevor, the most delicious way possible. From the very beginning, their first meeting when Trevor immediately killed someone for Michael, Trevor fell in love. Slowly and it took him some time to realize, but Trevor imprinted on Michael like a baby bird, soaking up every ounce of attention Michael had to give. Trevor became obsessed with Michael to the point that after finding out Michael had faked his death, Trevor dropped everything, the entire life without Michael he had built, to once again cling to Michael and try his damn hardest to somehow force their relationship back into what it was in North Yankton.

She was mine and we were sweethearts

That was then, but then it's true

Trevor was in love and always thought there was a chance, no matter how small, that Michael loved him too. He saw Michael as his best friend and his one and only, the most important person in Trevors life and Trevor was ready to do anything for Michael. Until Amanda walked into their lives, Trevor believed that Michael was also ready to do anything for him, that Michael would belong to Trevor until they both inevitably died due to Trevors insanity. To Trevor, a person who used to very much live in the moment and not care about casualties or taking risks (which he still doesn’t), Michael was the realest thing, something which made Trevor feel something so sickeningly real that it simply made Trevor addicted and fully depended on it.

I'm in love with a fairytale

Even though it hurts

Running jobs in the midwest with Michael, perhaps Brad and Lester, was Trevor’s dream life, his own personal fairytale. A fairytale he was painfully ripped out of first when Michael ‘died’ and then again when, after Michael ‘came back’, Trevor was confronted with the truth of that fateful day 9 years ago. Trevor tries his hardest when he finds out Michael is still alive to turn back time because for the first time in 9 years, he is confronted with a very real chance at his own personal fairytale again, a chance he tries to grab, to hold close and never let go again. He tries to force the past to become the present again, ecstatic when it even just works in small ways, like hanging out with Michael or running bank jobs again, that he fully ignores the continuous pain he experiences because of Michaels abuse of him and his situation. Michael ruins Trevor further than Trevor already had been ruined but Trevor continues to chase after Michael and his dream of going right back to the way things were because it was the only thing keeping him alive and somewhat sane.

'Cause I don't care if I lose my mind

I'm already cursed

And that is exactly what this line portrays perfectly. Trevor knows he is inevitably going to not die of natural causes. He knows his end will be either himself or his lifestyle and he doesn’t mind, because before Michaels return into his life, Trevor didn’t see a reason to keep going. Yes, Trevor is a survivalist, no doubt because of his childhood, but that doesn’t mean he has any actual will to live, as, if you look at his behavior throughout the game, he is known for dangerous, suicidal stunts that only work because his need for survival, his need to achieve something, to later on make Michael his once again is stronger than his want to end the massive amount of pain he is in. Trevor knows indulging in Michaels means that pain growing, he knows there is absolutely no chance of Michael coming back to him and especially in Bury The Hatchet, Trevor realizes that Michael hadn’t been truly his for much, much longer than he thought to and also that Michael hated Trevor a lot more than Trevor was ready to admit.

Through Bury The Hatchet, Trevor understood that Michaels hatred for Trevor meant that they would never be able to be together, something Trevor desperately cling to the past 9 years, something keeping Trevor on the brink of insanity, yet he didn’t fully turn and run away from Michael, as in the end, his addiction to Michael outweighed his natural human reaction of running away.

Every day we started fighting

Every night we fell in love

Especially after Amanda and the kids came into the image, Michael and Trevor’s relationship was ruined. Michael’s hatred and need for a bad guy in his life (who he made out to be Trevor) grew as he realized that what he wanted from life was this perfect nuclear family, something Trevor would never be able to fit into. Trevor on the other end relished in the small, shared moments of tenderness that still happened between them, the small remnants of what their friendship had once been, something which gave Trevor purpose, which gave him a will to live. To Trevor, their friendship was something blooming in the most beautiful way possible while for Michael, their friendship hadn’t been an actual friendship in very long.

No one else could make me sadder

But no one else could lift me high above

Michael is just another of Trevor's addictions. Just like heroin, just like meth, just like any other hard drug Trevor takes/took, Michael burned him from the inside, made his life unbearable and his depression, his suicidal tendencies that much more prevelant while at the same time offering a form of support Trevor never had nor ever will have again in his life. Trevor drowned in every part of Michaels attention, no matter if it was horribly abusive or soft and tender, Trevor needed it and still does. Trevor is still incredibly dependent on Michael even though there are only very few scenes in the game where they don’t argue or yell at each other, the only one I am able to think of being when they told Franklin about the big one.

I don't know what I was doin'

But suddenly we fell apart

Needing Michaels love, Trevor was ready to do anything Michael asked of him while still being unhinged, violent and overall a menace to society. He never realized how much that exact part of himself actually fucked with Michael until Bury The Hatchet, again, the truth of how far Michaels hate for him goes back finally coming to light.

While to Michael, his ‘death’ took a long time of careful planning and paying off government officials, to Trevor it came suddenly and abruptly, just as if Michael had actually died, something Trevor no doubt was not able to deal with. It marked the start of Trevor Philips' entire being going downhill in the worst way possible, ending with him in the middle of the desert of Blaine County as a meth dealer and weapons trader with severe mental health issues, immense suicidal ideations and without a doubt in my mind multiple suicide attempts under his belt.

Nowadays

I cannot find her

But when I do

We'll get a brand new start

When finding Michael again after 9 years, Trevor tries to pick up right where they left off, only to realize the Michael in front of him wasn’t his Michael anymore. Trevor says it himself all the time in the game, Michael has massively changed to the point that Trevor celebrates it whenever Michael once again becomes that unhinged version of himself, the version Trevor fell for all those years ago. After Bury The Hatchet, Trevor realizes that the Michael he knew, the Michael he had fallen in love with was long gone and had truly died on that day in Ludendorff, so instead he tries to built some form of foundation with this new Michael and instead of keeping on persisting they go back to their old ways, Trevor starts accepting the truth and accepts that they’ll never go back to how they were. His fairytale was long gone and it wouldn’t ever be able to come back, but that didn’t keep him from trying to built a new one, the only problem being this one was built on hatred, disgust and overall disdain for each other, Michael still blaming Trevor for everything wrong in his life, while Trevor has a hard time accepting his Michael is truly dead and the new Michael despises him.

I'm in love with a fairytale

Even though it hurts

'Cause I don't care if I lose my mind

I'm already cursed

She's a fairytale

Yeah

Even though it hurts

'Cause I don't care if I lose my mind

I'm already cursed

Yet Trevor doesn’t stop and never will stop to try and build a relationship with the new Michael. Yes all they do is argue, but even in all of that arguing are just the tiniest bit of teasing hidden, the tiniest bit of that certain true something, that addiction Trevor had to Michael and the feeling of secureness, of utter and pure happiness and bliss Michael gave Trevor which Trevor had been trying to replicate with drugs his entire life but never managed to. Trevor knew that inevitably, his addiction for Michael was going to kill him,but if it meant he could even have a shred of happiness, he was fully ready to go through everything the world threw at him.

Thank you for reading, I hope you understood what I was trying to say lol. I actually only wrote this because my best friend freaked out over how much this song fit Trevor and I agree, it is an extremely fitting Trikey song and as you all know, if I can indulge in Trikey, I definitely will.

This isn’t even remotely as long as the last one which I, ngl, am glad for as the last time I spent a good 5-6 hours on writing it while this one took not nearly as long.

I do hope you enjoyed it and please excuse any spelling or grammar mistakes as English isn’t my first language.

Stay hydrated and horny you wonderful human beings.

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ricky4479 · 2 years

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Why "too much love will kill you" is the definitive Trevor Philips song

Trevor Philips is, in my opinion, a largely complex and tragic character who deserved so much better than he got, especially in the Option A ending. Is this what I’m going to give him today?

No, of course not.

I’ll dive into the deepest depths of his psyche in the form of analyzing a song I believe to be the definitive best option for a Trevor Philips character study song, mainly “Too Much Love Will Kill You” by Queen.

Now to set things off and get anyone away that won’t agree with what I have to say right off the bat, I am a firm Trikey shipper, I 120% believe that Trevor is not just bi (which is canon, deal with it) but also that he is in love with Michael. If you don’t agree, this is not the post for you.

Anyone else, have fun.

Let’s start off with the first line of the song:

I'm just the pieces of the man I used to be

After Michael's supposed death, Trevor lost it fully. After Trevor believed Michael to be dead, a part of him died as well. I believe that event to have been the catalyst for Trevors (verging on) suicidal and recless behaviour, no regard for his own life left. This is something we see quite often in the game, a few examples would include any rampage, flying a crop duster into a cargo plane, taking out an entire biker gang, blowing up said biker gang’s trailer park, etc. etc. . If we compare Trevor's character in the beginning of his storyline with his final character at the end of Option C, we see that Trevor has indeed grown as a person, precisely that he has grown past his hatred for Michaels lies and has come to terms with his still very much existing feelings for Michael. He has grown past clinging to Michael as his lifeboat and gladly accepts other people into his life, people who treat him better than Michael ever would (Patricia and Lamar for example). Trevor believed Michael to be the definition of a best friend as to Trevor, he was just that. Trevor clinged to Michael and everything he stood for, making it almost impossible for Trevor to really see the toxicity between them.

After he found out Michael was still alive, he wanted them to go back to the way things were, even if he was still heavily consumed by rage, he was ready to move on, but ultimately couldn’t because Michael wasn’t ready to admit his mistakes, leading to things like Bury The Hatchet.

Too many bitter tears are raining down on me

Trevor is a very emotionally driven person, but it’s not just rage which controls him, it’s all types of emotions. Happiness, depression, fear, he is driven by huge outbursts of certain emotions, sometimes clustering together into states of the only emotion he knows how to properly deal with, being anger.

We see Trevor openly cry multiple times in the game, may it be when he has to drive Patricia back to Madrazo, or when he’s hanging with Franklin and admits that he is lonely and wants a hug from Franklin, which Franklin refuses and Trevor begins to cry. Trevor is no stranger to crying, may that be out of sadness or anger.

I'm far away from home

Trevor grew up in the “Canadian border part of America '', meaning he grew up in Canada, ultimately settling down in what is GTAs equivalent to south California. Quite a far way from home. That is if we take the line literally, which I, obviously, won’t do. Trevor finds comfort in friendship, in the closeness of another person who sees him as an equal, it’s the whole point of his character. He had no problem moving from Sandy Shores to Los Santos, purely because Michael was there and there existed the slightest, smallest chance of them going right back to how things were before the Ludendorff heist. To Trevor, ‘home’ isn’t a singular place or even an entire state, it’s a person. It’s whoever he cares about the most at any given person. The person he has cared about the most and has seen as home? Michael.

With Michael's death, not only did he take Trevors best friend, but Trevor's home with him, a vital part of Trevors entire being.

And I've been facing this alone for much too long

Nine years don’t just fly by. Yes, growing up it most certainly feels like time just flies by and if you think back 9 years, it doesn’t seem that far. Yet, the death of a person close to you can act almost as a full on stop in the flowing of time. To everyone else, time goes by normally and 9 years still feel like nothing, to you though 9 hours can already feel like eternity. If you lose a person like a lover, 9 years will be unbearable and with Trevor, moving on wasn’t an option. If he had moved on, he wouldn’t have dropped everything only to cling to Michael again the moment he found out Michael was still alive. I want to remind all of you of the scene where Trevor finds out Michael is alive. Trevor is having fun (probably) fucking some girl, the TV acting as background noise, when he hears that faithful quote from a Solomon Richards movie, a quote literally anyone could use, yet he instantly knows it’s Michael. At that moment, everything is forgotten and Trevor starts walking.

Honestly? I think Trevor was fully prepared to walk his ass down to Los Santos and hunt Michael down in a western style manhunt, before being interrupted and brought to clearer senses. Moving on doesn’t make you react like that, not even someone like Trevor, who mind you, thought he watched Michael die.

I feel like no one ever told the truth to me

Yes I know I’m missing the second part of the line which gives it its meaning, but I just need to talk about this real quick on it’s own. Trevor has been betrayed his whole life by everyone he knew and thought he could trust to the point where the only way he could trust people after Michael's death was making them afraid of him. Everyone who we see Trevor having formed a relationship with after Michael's death is terrified of him in one way or another, which gives Trevor a sense of power and security. If they betray him, like his father did when he beat Trevor or abandoned him in the shopping mall, like his mother did when she continuously abused Trevor throughout his entire life, he can simply kill them. He also feels more secure as they know this is what happens when you betray Trevor Philips, you die gruesomely.

That is until Michael. Michael isn’t scared of Trevor and finding out about Michael's betrayal makes Trevor second guess everything. Their friendship, Brad, their last job, everything.

About growing up and what a struggle it would be

Now, the actual meaning of the lie is people not telling you how terrifying and shit growing up actually is. Trevor was a horribly abused child and as an abused child myself who is currently growing up into what is supposed to be a functioning adult, there are times where all you crave for is being a child again, is the denial about your situation and the inability to realize what was happening to or around you. The pure bliss of being an unknowing child that can take the abuse because it can’t process emotions that complex yet and suddenly you are pulled out of that and expected to fend for yourself and be a functioning member of society. This is something we see everywhere in Trevors behavior. His drug addictions as a coping mechanism, his hygienic problems, just everything about him. He doesn’t know how to care for himself, using it to play into his image of a “dangerous, unstable psychopath”. When someone walks into his life and takes on that role of caring for him ( *cough cough* we stan Patricia) he melts into their arms, soaking in every ounce of love they have to give.

In my tangled state of mind

I've been looking back to find

Where I went wrong

Trevor says it himself all the time, he mourned Michael. He thought about that day, no doubt letting that memory play in his mind countless times, putting himself at blame for what happened. If a person close to you dies, there are times where you think you could have changed something, knowing you could have changed something. Trevor was no doubt no different, putting himself at blame, simply wishing it could have been him in that grave and not Michael, unknowing to him that that was the intended outcome.

Too much love will kill you

I will come back to this line in a moment, for now all I will say is Option A.

If you can't make up your mind

Torn between the lover and the love you leave behind

Remember the prolog for a moment. In my opinion, this line perfectly reflects Trevors emotional turmoil in the prolog when he sees Michael ‘bleed out’. He told Michael he wouldn’t leave him, holding off the cops until more show up, Trevor clearly not able to get out of this alive if he doesn’t run now, and yet he still hesitates for a moment to leave his cover, to leave Michael behind, even if Michael is already presumably dead. He had two options in that singular moment,stay with Michael, die right there in the snow of North Yankton, next to his lover or run away and save his life, live for the sake of it being what Michael wanted him to, leaving his love behind.

You're headed for disaster 'cause you never read the signs

Trevor was aware of how him and Michael would never be able to work out, they simply needed two completely different things in life. Michael was ready to settle down, care for his family and live an honest and calm life while Trevor wouldn’t be able to take that. Trevor isn’t someone who settles down, he isn’t a family man, he thrives on chaos and bloodshed and crime, thrives on their heists and every job they do. Trevor knows his love for Michael, his need for Michael close to him is what is ruining him, because he knows Michael can’t give him what he needs, no matter how much Trevor wants to believe that Michael can go back to their old ways, Michael simply can’t anymore. Not after everything that happened, not after putting his family in massive danger again and again, not after Trevor forced himself back into Michael's life and, in Michaels opinion, ruining it anyway he can. Yet, Trevor can’t deal with the thought of his life without Michael in it, not after having lived it for 9 years.

Too much love will kill you every time

I’ll skip this line until the end, as I will use it as my end point of why I believe this song is perfect for Trevor, so just bear with me.

I'm just the shadow of the man I used to be

Here we come right back around to the first point I made, which still stands strong. Trevor without Michael isn’t Trevor, no matter how much he tries to stay true to himself, a part of him has died with Michael, a part he desperately tried to revive, hoping it would crawl out from six feet below just like Michael had.

And it seems like there's no way out of this for me

Even though after Option C, the trio decides to abandon their criminal ways, Trevor can’t. Trevor can’t let go of the one thing giving him a purpose, the one thing he knows he is immaculate at. Crime is the one thing that doesn’t shove Trevor away because he is violent, because he has outbursts, because he gets high off of bloodshed. Crime is a world made for Trevor and Trevor would be damned if he fully abandoned it. He isn’t like Michael, who took the first way out he found, even if it included betraying the only person who truly cared for him (in all honesty, I don’t believe Michaels family actually cared for or loved him but that's a whole different topic). Trevor knows crime isn’t a forgiving world and Trevor also knows there is no chance he will ever make it to 55, but he is perfectly fine with that. He knows there is nothing he can contribute to society, so he finds his place elsewhere. Michael can’t do that.

I used to bring you sunshine

Now all I ever do is bring you down

The disgust Michael has for Trevor is something Trevor has a hard time dealing with. Trevor isn’t stupid, he knows there was a reason for Michael to fake his death, which included getting Trevor off his back, he knows Michael hates him for (sometimes) very valid reasons, but that doesn’t mean it will hurt any less. Trevor used to be Michael's best friend and there was a reason Michael called him that. Michaels children call Trevor ‘Uncle T’. Trevor was an important and loved part of Michael's life, Michael trusted Trevor enough to let him form a loving relationship with Michael’s children but now all they do is argue, yell at each other and threaten another. Trevor thought he was a light in Michael’s life just like Michael was a light in Trevors, yet for Michael, Trevor isn’t anything anymore but a ‘go straight to hell for free’ card. Over the course of the story, Trevor becomes more and more aware of this until their fall out in Bury The Hatchet, where all the puzzle pieces click into place and Trevor realizes just how far Michaels hatred for him goes back, something that breaks Trevor.

Mmm, how would it be if you were standing in my shoes?

Can't you see that it's impossible to choose

This as well as the next lines play into Trevor's wish for Ludendorff to have played out differently, these perfectly symbolizing what Trevor believed Michael’s inner turmoil would have been, had he been in Trevors situation, meaning he watches Trevor die. Trevor, for the longest time, hoped Michael wouldn’t have let him die alone, only to later find out that was exactly what the plan had been all those years ago.

No, there's no making sense of it

Every way I go I'm bound to lose

Option A, Trevor gets what’s coming for him, ultimately dying through Michael's hand, it being the final betrayal. Option B, Trevor has to watch Michael die for a second time, very aware of the outcome and knowing if he had done something, Michael could have survived. Option C, everything is ‘okay’, they’re friendship is mended, their enemies are dead, except everyone knows Michael has never ‘forgiven’ Trevor. When they hold each other at gunpoint, Trevor is the one to lower his gun, the one to turn his back to Michael, the one to walk away and trust Michael just like he had always trusted him, giving Michael every chance to kill him, most definitely expecting him to. No matter what Trevor does, no matter which ending the player chooses, Trevor won’t get his happy ending. He either dies, ends up truly alone, or simply keeps living in denial about his relationship with Michael.

Too much love will kill you

Just as sure as none at all

Trevor is miserable no matter how the game ends, no matter if he forgives Michael or not. If he gets the chance to fully forgive Michael for what he has done, Michael won’t ever forgive him, their relationship strained and on the verge of fully breaking apart should Trevor do something which Michael deems to be the last straw again, even if Trevor does it with what’s best for Michael or his family in mind. Trevor knows Michael is just waiting for a chance to clip Trevor, while Trevor cannot live a happy life without Michael. If Michael dies, Trevor refuses to talk to Franklin, refuses to have any contact with one of the people he called his friends ever again, having to live with the guilt of knowing he could have changed something. During the nine years he lived without Michael, he was miserable. Him telling Michael again and again about how he mourned him were Trevors tries to actually express these immensely complex feelings going on inside of him, the gut wrenching pain he felt, all those things happening to him when he thought the last person on earth who could love him was dead. He tries to tell Michael what he went through, yet he fails every time as he himself isn’t even aware of these feelings, simply writing them off as the only way he knows how to deal with them, drugs and anger.

Trevors unstable attachment forms are a direct answer to the way he grew up, to the unstable emotional environment that was his mothers mental abuse, his fathers physical abuse and the overall neglect he experienced from his parents. He tries to cling to every last bit of what he believes to be love that he can as it is something he has craved for ever since he was a child and with Michael he finally has it, only problem being how it keeps on getting ripped away from him over and over and over again, all that pain bubbling up again and again with each harsh truth he has to find out, each lie Michael tells him over the course of the game.

It'll drain the power that's in you

Make you plead and scream and crawl

We’ve seen Trevors emotional outbursts many times. We have also seen him break down crying, my main examples for this being Mrs.Philips and the end of Series A Funding. As I have not played Series A Funding, I won’t talk about it and instead take Mrs.Philips as my example. We see how not only does Trevor break down crying when faced with situations he isn’t emotionally ready to deal with, like his mother showing up again only to suddenly vanish, Trevor unable to process that she was most likely only a hallucination, but he also turns to self destructive behaviors to deal with these intense emotions. In the case of Mrs.Philips, he turns to smoking meth in the middle of his breakdown to get it to stop.

In moments like those, Trevor doesn’t seem to be able to do anything but cry and scream on the floor, as well as indulge in some form of self destructive behavior (meth, hitting his head against a wall (i.e. self-harm), etc.) and taking this into account, it’s not far fetched to believe that after Michael's death, Trevor reacted just like that, this perhaps even being the start of his drug addictions. Just the mental image of Trevor hallucinating Michael, pleading him to just stay only for the hallucination to vanish once Trevor comes down from his high is a painful, but plausible one.

And the pain will make you crazy

You're the victim of your crime

Too much love will kill you every time

This plays back into my point of how with Michael dying, something in Trevor died, making him just that bit more unhinged to the point of it turning into nearly suicidal behaviour. As Michael said himself in the game, suicidal isn’t a line Trevor is afraid to cross. Throughout the next nine years, Trevor deemed himself responsible for his current situation for falling for Michael, while after finding out Michael is still alive, Trevor blames himself for keeping on believing Michael, while simultaneously blaming Michael for continuously lying to him and everyone around. Throughout the entire game, Trevor had every chance and the full capability of killing Michael, but he wouldn’t, not even when Franklin asks him for help because Trevor knows he can’t take that kind of pain again. He can’t live again with the knowledge that Michael had once again died because of Trevor, because Trevor didn’t save him.

too much love will kill you

It'll make your life a lie

After finding out Michael is still alive, Trevors entire world image starts falling apart piece by piece and he ends up having to realize that the only reason Michael got away with all those lies was because Trevor wanted so desperately to believe him. Trevor wanted Michael to love him so badly that he took everything Michael said at face value, not questioning his off behavior during their last job or him avoiding the topic of Brad, going as far as how seemingly everyone around Trevor knows what’s going on, everyone except him, to which he confronts Michael, leading to the climax in Bury The Hatchet. Bury The Hatchet is the precise moment in which Trevor has to realize that nothing he believed about Michael or that fateful day was actually real. That everything which had given him hope was nothing but broken dreams, the years he spent mourning Michael, wishing himself to be the one six feet under, everything he had supposedly told Brad, nothing he believed for nine years was real. That everything he based his entire social being on was nothing but a lie fabricated by Michael to get a cozy life by his pool.

None of the pain was real, none of the endless nights alone he went through, nothing. All because he was blinded by his love for a man he could never have.

Yes, too much love will kill you

And you won't understand why

You'd give your life, you'd sell your soul

But here it comes again

This is by far the most emotional moment for me in the song regarding how I connect it with Trevor. Trevor in his very essence is a being of loyalty. Everything he values in a person can be broken down to respect for oneself and the people you call your friends and loyalty. Trevor had never had a family, let alone people who cared about him. It’s why he is so obsessed with Michael. From what we know about Trevors past, Michael is the first person to ever have viewed Trevor as a friend and his best friend at that. Trevor immediately took this and ran with it, ran as fast he could. Trevor values loyalty because of his fear of being abandoned. Why call someone your best friend if you fuck them over? Why call someone a friend, who will in return see you as their only family, when you don’t actually want them in your life and just use them?

There’s actually a great video made by HighCalibre Pictures about this exact thing, you should give it a watch: https://youtu.be/-nfj3bQvGOo HighCalibre Pictures actually phrases everything I’m trying to get across with this really well:

“(...) his character is the only one that wasn’t developing through the present, but was only filling the void of his past (...)”

Seriously, watch the video, it’s only 9 minutes long and everything I could say to this specific part of the song would simply be me repeating what HighCalibre Pictures has already said, so I shall leave it at that.

Too much love will kill you

In the end

Trevors fate has always and will always be to be killed by Michael. It’s inevitable. They’re stories are written as clear parallels to each other and for Michael, Trevor embodies everything he hates about his own life and no matter how badly Trevor tries to make it work, it won’t ever. We see it in Option A, which, I agree, is the way the story of GTA V would have realistically ended, with Michael getting rid of all his problems at once by killing Trevor, finally happy and content. Trevor was nothing but a scapegoat for Michael to project all his mistakes on, all the things that are wrong with Michael which he is unable to deal with himself. Michael can’t fully admit that everything he is feeling right now, his depression, his fucked marriage and family, is all his and purely his fault. Michael needs someone to project that anger onto as his own narcissism won’t allow him to realize he is the root of all of his problems, so he projects them on the one person he knows can’t do anything against it, Trevor. Trevor won’t kill Michael because Michael is the only thing keeping Trevor alive and Michael is aware of that. No one else would have ever gotten away with the way Michael treats Trevor, except for Michael himself and Trevor knows this, which is why he puts even more hope into the other relationships he forms along the way, into his love for Patricia, his friendship with Franklin and Lamar, everything that isn’t Michael in a desperate attempt to let go, only for his story to end exactly how he knew it always would, with Michael watching him.

Trevor was shocked when Franklin pulled a gun on him, fully capable of killing Franklin first, instead running away, giving Franklin a chance to turn around and leave. I don’t think I’m the only one who is convinced that Trevor was bawling while racing away from Franklin. It was the moment Trevor realized that he would never get a happy ending. That his story would and could never have ended in anything but betrayal. Trevor's story started with his best friend betraying him and would ultimately end with it.

In the end

In the end, Trevor is not just a deeply disturbed individual, but also a beautifully tragic one. One who has done nothing but suffer throughout what he hoped to be a loving relationship built on mutual respect, only to find out the foundation had crumpled from his feet a long time ago.

Trevors inability to let go of the past is what ultimately funnels his downfall and it simply shows how sometimes, life will never have a happy ending, not even in the slightest. That no matter how hard you work towards it, in the end too much love will kill you.

Thank you for reading, I hope it made at least somewhat sense haha. It’s currently 2:13AM and I’m writing a physics pre-final in around 5 ½ hours so oh boy, but I really wanted to finish this. I’ve been hyper fixated on GTA V and specifically Trevor now for well over a week and in all honesty, it’s been a delight.

Do I believe Michael and Trevor could ever have had a happy relationship, especially without everything that happened? No. Michael is simply too selfish and narcissistic to be able to form a loving and healthy relationship with someone like Trevor, who requires a lot of work. Do I believe Trevor deserves a happy relationship? Absolutely. I am also a firm believer that he could have a relationship like that with someone like Patricia or (hot take) Lamar, but his fixation on Michael due to their shared past keeps him from being able to form a similar bond with anyone else.

I’ve talked enough already, this essay is 4500 words long, dear god.

Anyways. I hope you enjoyed it and please excuse any spelling or grammar mistakes as english isn’t my first language and it’s late.

Stay hydrated, you wonderful human beings.

#trevor philips #gta #gtav #gta v #essay #character analysis #character study #what am i even doing #i just wrote a 4500 word essay about how i relate fucking Trevor Philips to a queen song #no one will see this #help lol #my mental state is deteriorating #fast #somebody call 911

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ricky4479 · 3 years

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Y'all PLEASE give me prompts so I can write some Telltale Joker/John Doe x Batman fanfiction, I am DYING RN

Btw here is my Ao3 in case I get any brain farts tonight:

#telltale batman #telltale joker #telltale john doe #telltale juce #fanfiction prompts

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ricky4479 · 4 years

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Whiskey Business and an acurate portrayal of depression

So, I’m back with a bit of a controversial topic, modern Simpsons. Now, let’s make something clear here, I agree with all the people saying modern Simpsons is not as good as old Simpsons, especially the humor, which always made the Simpsons so special. Yet I have to admit that in my opinion modern Simpsons has some hidden gems, mainly in the way they portray certain topics. The episode I want to talk about here is season 24, episode 19 „Whisky Business“ and it’s portrayal of depression.

Why do I want to talk about this episode specifically? Why not season 29, episode 3 „Whistler’s father“ and it’s portrayal of child stars or season 19, episode 4 „I don’t wanna know why the caged bird sings“ and the portrayal of obsessive behavior after trauma? Well, „Whisky Business“ has always been close to my heart simply for the fact that I could identify myself in a lot of the things happening to Moe in not just this episode, but also a lot of the other episodes regarding Moe like season 14, episode 22 „Moe baby blues“ or season 3, episode 9 „Flaming Moes“.

Let’s start then. Disclaimer and trigger warning I guess, since I will interpret a lot into simple one liners or off side comments that the writers most probably meant nothing with but making a joke of the entire situation. I will also talk about abuse, depression, suicidal tendencies and a lot more in that direction, so if anything like that triggers you, you should stop reading or proceed with caution. It’s gonna get personal guys.

So, I’m obviously only gonna talk about Moes storyline in this one and his first appearance already hit me close. Moe tries to talk to his friends, telling them he needs to talk about something important, but Homer, Lenny and Carl don’t even acknowledge his exsistence in any way, even when Moe literally calls out for help, saying things like „I’m begging you, please, please show me some love“, yelling it into the bar without any sort of response. This shows perfectly what it feels like for me when I’m asking for help. There are moments where I know I will do something to myself or have a panic attack or simply break down and I don’t want that to happen, so I reach out, may it be in subtle ways or full on approaching the situation as it is. I once had a really fucking terrible day, in fact a completely shit week and everything I wanted was for someone to show me some love, just to feel like my world isn’t breaking apart and like I’m okay, like things are going to turn out okay, so I asked my father if I could have a hug, nothing unusual to ask your dad I think. He just laughed at me and refused, jokingly asking why I’d need that and then going on about his day as normal. I felt completely invisible. I felt like I wasn’t even deserving of his attention and like he didn’t take me serious nor even listen to me at all. It really felt like yelling at someone that you need help and they don’t even realize you’re there. Like you don’t exist.

After Moe ties the noose around his neck, he sees the suicide hotline number on the wall and decides to call, giving „the new kid a chance to talk to the legend“. It’s like he’s glorifying his depression, like his reputation at that hotline is the only real thing he has ever achieved in his life and this feeling is even further enhanced when you see the pillow and blanket on the couch, almost seeming like Moe has been sleeping at his bar again, not even having an apartment. This feeling of worthlessness, having achieved nothing in your life is I think something we all have felt to a certain degree at some point.

But something that almost brought me to tears, as stupid as it sounds, was when Moe was going to go through with it, but then his phone rings and Moes face instantly lights up as he quickly picks up, answering after hesitating with a quiet and hopeful „Hello?“.

Now it’s going to get really personal because I’m going to tell you guys about something very few people know about me. I tried to kill myself on a class trip in eight grade. I’m not gonna get too into the details, but I was very agitated and stressed and I went to the only person who I trusted and asked if we could talk, but they just shoved me away, which was the last straw and pushed me over the edge. I passed out in the bathroom after a particularly bad panic attack, woke up around 45 minutes later, went into our room and was fully ready to take an entire bottle of painkillers I had packed because I’m stupid and break shit easily. In the end I snapped out of it, but I was fully ready to die in that moment. I had tried to cling to the last thing I thought could be help and it turned out to be shit. It was, similiar to Moe, the thing that inevertibly led to me almost dying and watching how Moes face lid up when he thought there was someone who cared brought me right back to when I tried to talk to that person. It was a moment I believe so many people who have gone through similiar things can relate to.

Turns out it’s just a prank call from Bart and Moe in his rage ends up falling off the chair and actually almost suffocating to death, but a bar broke and he crashed to the ground which alerted his friends, who then come running in and Homer applied CPR, saving Moes life. Moe seems happy afterwards, saying how thankful he is for another chance at life, although his „post suicide happiness“ doesn’t last very long and he goes right back to realizing how shitty the world is and how little he matters. Again something I saw myself in. On that trip after I almost od, my teacher with some classmates put on a little play and it was the funniest shit that entire trip. I was happy, I laughed, I forgot all about what had happened until afterwards. The person I trusted realized what happened, they berated me for it, took away any access to meds I had and left me alone. It wasn’t long after that I called my parents, who basically told me how they hated me for trying to be who I am and I was stuck in a house with people who hated me with a burning passion, so life wasn’t good. I felt like shit again and if I had had the oppertunity, I’d have tried again. It was again so good portrayed that it took me back and made me feel with Moe.

Marge barges in, asking Homer where the fuck he has been, Homer telling her Moe had an accident and Moe very casually says how he tried „to end it all“ but shortly after starts to cry after turning away from everyone. This very much shows how many of us, at least many of fhe people with depression I know, behave. We see it as almost normal, something that, although it impacts our lifes in the worst way possible, is just another part of us, almost like a character trait. But it’s not that, it’s hate and painful memories, feelings that shouldn’t exist, hopelessness, sadness, emptyness, it’s so much no person should feel, yet we tend to act very casually about it in public. Yet once we’re alone, it crashes, so much at once that most of the time I come home from school, the moment I close my rooms door, I start crying. It’s nothing to take casually.

Marge then decides to take Moe on a roadtrip and Moe starts joking, asking if Noosy can come too. Again, something I see in a lot of us. We joke about our depression, our lifes, things we simply shouldn’t joke about because they’re not funny, but it’s a way for many of us to deal with those intrusive thoughts, those feeling of worthlessness.

On the trip Moe is not enjoying himself because all he sees „are 2 million people happier than me“. Sometimes, even the things you love the most will seem extremely dull and pointless to you, because no matter what you do, there will always be countless people who are happier than you and suddenly you feel like you don’t deserve happiness or anything for that matter. Just like Moe feels like he doesn’t deserve the suit his friends want to buy for him, but after some encouraging Moe accepts it.

Moes new suit can be read as you changing to a „new you“, a you that is more acceptable in the eyes of society. You’re sick of society hating you, so you try to appeal to it and it works, suddenly people are nice to you, opportunities show themselves that you just have to take and for a while life seems perfect. Yes, this may not be the real you, but who cares, everything is what you always wanted and as long as you keep up the facade, it will stay this way. But facades break, or in Moes case, suits can rip. Now what is there isn’t the one everyone loved, but the one everyone hated or thought was a freak.

Moe desperately asks Marge for help and she tells him to just be himself, so he actually takes the advice, but everything just breaks apart. Moes partnership he had built with two businessmen over his self-brewed whiskey gets completely ruined since everyone seems to hate or be disgusted by suitless-Moe. It shows amazingly how it feels to have so called „friends“ turn their backs on you once you start to act more like yourself and even though you try your best to show them it’s still you, they leave.

The episode ends on a bittersweet ending with Moe returning to his normal life, only this time a bit more hopeful. He knows it’s not going to last forever, but for now life is okay, he can deal with it.

And that’s just a powerful message. No matter what happens, you will be able to take it and in the end you will emerge alive, fine. You’re going to be okay and even if everything crumbles, it’s okay, because you can rebuild it. Baby steps.

Of course the episode is trying to be comedic with all this, like a string of Moes suit getting stuck in the elevator door going down 98 floors, but to me it still presented depression in a very understandable way and managed to visually show what it sometimes feels like to have depression and to try and deal with it. In my opinion this was one of the better modern Simpsons episodes and I will always hold it dear to my heart just because of how accurately it portrays parts of depression once you scraped through the surface of bad jokes and lame punchlines.

I hope you enjoyed reading this, I hope it was understandable and please don’t cancel me just because I said I enjoyed some modern Simpsons episodes. As always, English isn’t my first language, it’s late at night, I’m dead on the inside, so please excuse any mistakes.

Stay squeaky.

#simpsons #the simpsons #Whiskey business #moe szyslak

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First, hello. A few facts about me: I'm German, currently still living in Germany, going to school, 10th grade and am somewhat interessted in history. As it is in Germany you can't be interessted in history without at least knowing more about World War 2 than the average person, although I believe that Germans tend to see the horror in it, yet still make jokes and laugh about it more than other nations. There also are a lot, and I mean a lot of movies about WW2 or set in WW2. One of these is my number 3 favorite movie, Inglorious Basterds. Now, when I first watched IB, I immediately (as so many of us probably) fell in love with SS-Colonel Hans Landa, whom I'll just be referring to as Hans from now on. I wondered about something everytime I watched him though and that was what exactly made him so terrifying? What makes our blood run cold the moment we hear this abstract, weird version of Für Elise, or at least this abstract song with the Für Elise beginning? What makes us feel as if we're in serious danger everytime Hans is on screen? It couldn't just be the uniform or his obvious Nazi typical mannerisms, no, otherwise we would have been just as scared of Gestapo Major Dieter Hellstrom and I don't know about you, but the more I watch IB, the more I think Dieter is just hilariously failing at trying to be like Hans.

So, what made Hans so different? Well, in my opinion you can already see that in the first scene.

Let's make one thing clear here, I'm a writer, I want to become a psychologist, I can't and won't talk about this in a cinematography kind of way, but rather on a people level. Also, I'm a theatre kid, so I'm gonna use some of the shit I learned in drama class and all in all this is just a lot of rambling and me fanboying over Nazi Daddy Landa, so don't take everything I say too seriously.

The first thing I want to briefly touch upon is the music. The iconic intro of Für Elise, a song that screams German and what is it followed by? Abstract, not at all fitting notes, making you feel uneasy because something isn't right at all. LaPadite and his daughter also show this perfectly. She sees the car driving their way, the music sets in, their erratic, nervous and you as the audience don't know why. You can guess why, a German song in the background, a movie set in WW2? This is going to be Nazis, no doubt, but you're still uneasy because something just doesn't seem right. Not one bit.

And then Hans arrives, open top car, showing that he's not at all scared about what he is doing. He tells his men he doesn't want to be disturbed and walks up to LaPadite, asking if this land belongs to the LaPadites, fully aware that of course it does, but still being polite, asking questions, introducing himself and shaking LaPadites hand. This handshake shows perfectly that from that moment on Hans has full control over the entire situation. Hans is the one initiating the handshake and he holds it. If you look closely you can see LaPadite trying to take his hand away, but Hans doesn't let him. He looks into LaPadites eyes, holding the stare, his hand still firmly gripping LaPadites. Hans politely asks if he could be invited in, a clear order disguised as a polite question and when LaPadite agrees and wants to walk off, Hans lays his hand on LaPadites upper arm, showing that he has a higher status than LaPadite, that he is in control and they both know it.

The next bit that just makes you hold your breath is when Hans meets LaPadites daughters, mesmerized by Charlottes beauty, her having blonde hair and blue eyes, the Arien norm the Nazis were so fascinated with. She is the only one he pays attention to, staring at her even after sitting down, his face devote of emotion, just an emtpy stare that you're unable to read. When another of the daughters was asked to get him a glass of wine, Hans gripped her arm, soft, yet clearly in a threatening way. We know he has power over everyone in that room, but we don't see him clearly abusing this power, we only see small motions like that and that makes us nervous, because we wait for the moment he snaps but it just doesn't happen.

When he tells LaPadite to sit down with him and tells him to send his girls outside, we see that this is Hans' stage. He decides who goes where when and you follow those orders.

Next Hans asks to switch the language to English because his French is exhausted and he would only embarrass himself if he kept on talking, but once you have seen the full scene, you know this was only so that he could have a full conversation with LaPadite without the Dreyfuses underneath the floorboards knowing too much and making a silent escape.

From here on it gets really clear that Hans doesn't accept a simple yes or no as an answer, or any answer that he deems as too vague. He asks LaPadite to „please tell me waht you've heard“ after asking him if he's familiar with who Hans is, reminding LaPadite of the monster that is sitting in front of him. He wants LaPadite to talk, to slip up and reveal himself so that Hans can get the job done with and leave.

Hans smiles when LaPadite tells him that his visit may be pleasant, but LaPadite doesn't know why Hans is there. Hans smiles because he knows LaPadite is lying and we know that Hans knows. That's a terrifying thought. We don't know how he knows, all we know is he does. Hans entire preperation happened off screen, we know exactly nothing about him except for the fact that he knows. That he has power and knows the secrets hanging heavy in the air.

He drags the entire process as long as he can, doing everything neat and tidy, getting LaPadite to talk, asking him questions, still accepting no vague answers. When LaPadite asked if he could smoke his pipe, Hans reacts in a sort of „don't be silly“ demeanor. As if he isn't the one in control of everything, but just a mere guest in LaPadites house out of pure friendliness from LaPadite.

Now, let's get to my favorite part of the scene, the rat speech. This entire speech is just so that we would agree with Hans. Makes us understand his position, maybe even feel sympathy for him. He says he loves his nickname „precisely because I've earned it.“, saying it as if he means „I worked hard for this“, trying to gather sympathy. „I don't consider the comparison an insult“ can be read as the typical „I'm not the bad guy here, I'm not like them, I don't have anything against Jews.“ and I'm pretty sure I am not the only one believes him with that, who believes him that he never had anything against Jews, but merely just followed the regime flooding the entirety of Europe. When he says he doesn't consider the comparison an insult, he puts a hand onto his chest, underlining this „it's not me who's the bad one“ meaning. He makes us agree with him through comparisons like the one between a rat and a squirrel, because it's true. He repeats certain aspects, making it clear that they are important, making us think about it and in the end agreeing. It's terrifying to realize how easy he can make you agree with something so atrocious. It's as if he gets into your head with complete ease.

I always felt as if the phrase „Because I'm aware of what tremendous feats human beings are capable of once they abandon dignity“ felt off. Just, not really fitting, but that's for another time. After smoking his ridiculous pipe, which, let's be honest here, was not intended to intimidate LaPadite further, but was probably just something Hans thought was fucking hilarious (it was) since Hans is someone with a sense of humor. A really dark and disturbed sense of humor, but he loves cracking jokes and this was one of them. Anyway, he emphasizes a lot on the word „dictates“. His job dictates that his men conduct a search. Hans doesn't want to do this but he has to. It's again this weird sense of sympathy we feel for him. When he talks about the irregularities and says that „rest assured there will be“ some, we have the last clue that we needed. Now it's obvious that Hans knows everything. He knows that the Dreyfuses are hiding beneath the floorboards, he knows LaPadite has been lying, he knows everything.

What he is doing now is disguising obvious threats as rewards, telling LaPadite that his family would be save if he told Hans everything Hans wanted to know, reminding him that his daughters were outside with Hans men and that with one word from Hans, they could be shot on the spot and by now not just LaPadite but also the audience know that Hans would indeed give them the order to kill the girls just to get the information he wants.

I believe that from here on it's very obvious why we're so scared of Hans, if you don't remember, go back and watch the scene again. Actually, go watch the entire movie, it's wonderful.

Now, this was just a short retelling of the first 20 minutes, a lot of the things I mentioned were repeated to enhance the feeling and of course I may be reading way too much into this, but honestly? I don't care. It was fun writing this, it was even more fun staring at frame for frame of those first 20 minutes for more than 2 days, talking to myself more than I talked to anyone else the entire past week, but I just love Hans on so many levels. Christoph Waltz acting is amazing, he is an amazing actor that deserves the two Oscars he won and even more and I hope we will see him in a lot more movies before having to part from him.

Please excuse any mistakes since it's fairly late, I'm dying on the inside (well, I'm already dead inside but you know what I mean), English isn't my mothertongue and all in all I'm just ranting as always.

Stay hydrated you wonderful human beings.

#hans landa #inglorious basterds #christoph waltz

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Hiccup destroyed Viggos life

First time posting here, be ready for a ride. I'm german, means my english is not gonna be very good, so, yeah, here goes nothing.

Recently I have started watching Dreamworks How to train your dragon franchise all over again, and now I am almost done with Race to the edge. I have always loved this show, first watching it when there were only 3 seasons. So, even back in 2016, me still being 13 and stupid at that point, I loved Viggo Grimborn to death. To me, he was the best villain of the franchise. Mabye even the best character.

But, rewatching it now, something felt kind of odd when thinking about Viggos and Hiccups relationship. The more thought I gave it, the more I realized something trivial that I don't think many people caught.

Hiccup basically destroyed Viggos life.

You might instantly agree with me on this, or you're thinking ''Dafuq are you talking about?“, but hear me out.

Let's put the dragon hunting aside and just focus on Viggo as the chief of a tribe. All he was doing by the time the riders arrived at the edge was trying to keep his tribe alive. He was nothing more than a buisnessman trying his best to continue the way his tribe had survived for probably hundreds of years.

Then dragon-saving Hiccup rolls around, cutting off almost all of Viggos supplies by sinking his ships, ruining his probably most profitable auction and freeing most dragons the hunters had caught, proceeding to steal a large amount of the Dragon hunters gold(I refuse to believe that was all their gold), driving Viggo so far into a corner that he seems to be on the verge of madness and just completly loosing his mind over this war to the point where his own brother betrays him, dying in the process, which means Viggos presumably only family is dead, then Hiccup was involved in scarring Viggos face by throwing the dragon eye into that vulcano and later Viggo presumably died saving Hiccup.

Viggo just lost everything in the span of 1- 1 1/2, at most 2 years.

He lost most of his buyers, most of his gold, his brother, his own tribe, his face was scarred immensely, blinding him on one eye, he was treated like shit by the new chief who also tried to kill him, he lost the most valued artifact of his tribe more than once, and, oh yeah, he got killed by his own men.

(Honestly, I don't believe Viggo is dead, but anyways, going on)

The more you think about how Viggo just wanted to keep his buisness going, the more you see a problem with Hiccup. His naiv nature makes him think extremely two dimensional. Black and White. Either you are a friend of the dragons and Berk, meaning you're one of the good guys, or you fight/hunt dragons and/or attack Berk, meaning you're one of the bad guys. I think this concept is perfectly shown throughout Viggos story in the show.

He starts off as the chief of the dragon hunters, selling, killing and hurting dragons. So Hiccup sees him as a threat and starts to fight him, which leads to Viggo trying everything to get Hiccup off his back.

To me, Viggo is shown his worst both mentally and on the 'villain-scale' (this is now a thing) in season 4 episode 6 ''Dire Straits“. Here Viggo places a submaripper close to the pathway of most of Berks main traiders, cutting off all their supplies after already have taken their gold and making them rely on traiding, which they now can't do anymore. As we see, he both imprisoned a dragon and massivly hurt Berk, making him extra evil. I always found this episode odd, since Viggo behaved drastically different in it. He wasn't his calm, calculated self, but rather he was jumpy, angry, annoyed. He was always the one to know not to turn around and attack the riders when they had proven themselves stronger, telling Ryker to not go run after them even though they still have ships. Here, he yelled at one of the hunters to turn around and not retrieve, but attack. Ryker had to pull him away and show him his sea shocker contraption to calm him down. What is the next episodes we see him? Episode 8 ''Gold Rush“ and episode 10 ''Twintuition“ where he again is as calm as always. So what happened?

Well, here we come back to Hiccup seeing everyone as black or white. When Viggo used a dragon to basically make Berk starve, we saw him as Hiccup saw him, at his worst. Hiccup saw him at his worst villainy (that's a word now) and the audience saw him at his worst mentally, yet, the next episodes he has calmed himself since to Hiccup, he is not as horrible as he was before since he was leaving Berk alone.

Further down Viggos story, we see him teaming up with the riders in the season 4 finale ''Shell-shocked“ part 1 and 2. Ryker betrayed him and now he wants to see his brother suffer. Even though he teamed up with the riders, he was in no way one of the good guys, but also not as bad as before. He helped Hiccup save a dragon and save his home, meaning now Hiccup was warming up ever so slightly to Viggo, seeing in how he freaked out over Viggos plan to stop the Shellfire and also mourn a bit when Viggo was presumably killed by falling into the vulcano on the edge.

After that Viggo instantly goes back to the hunters when given the chance, because of course he would. Not because he was evil or wanted to kill Hiccup and the riders, but because it was his home, the hunters were his tribe. Yet it is portrayed as if Viggo is just evil and enjoys hunting dragons.

In the end, Viggo becomes good. He tames a Skrill, helps Hiccup defeat some of the hunters and goes out protecting the one legged viking boy with no back-up (hopefully anyone got that reference). What a satisfieing ending, am I right?

Yeah, I was pretty dissapointed too.

Viggo already said it while introducing himself, he is neither black nor white, he's gray. He's a morally gray character which is very rare in a show like Dragons. Viggo loves dragons which he makes obvious when talking to Hiccup about the Skrill, yet he has no problem with hunting and selling them because that was their way of surviving.

Until Hiccup came into his life, he was gray. He had his own set of morals, which included the survival of his tribe, yet Hiccup forced him into becoming black, doing evil things to protect his people. In the end he treid to redeem himself by becoming white, saving Hiccup multiple times and dying fighting side to side with a dragon as powerful as a Skrill.

This perfectly crafted character was forced into these sort of mind sets, which led to scenes like ''Dire Straits“, where Viggo seemed to be having a mental breakdown, or his last scene in ''Triple Cross“, where he died doing the ''right thing“.

To clarify, I in no way am saying they fucked Viggo up, they didn't. Like I said, they crafted a to me almost perfect character, which just got flat and predictable in the end (though him taming a Skrill was low-key pretty sick). It's sad, because there was so much potentioal in him, so much to be explored. I think most of us would be pretty down for a spin-off show about Viggo, Ryker and the hunters. But anyway, thank you for reading this, excuse any mistakes I made and stay tuned for when I need to rant again.

#rtte #viggo grimborn #httyd

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