yeah hi sorry i cant talk im grieving all the friends i just fell out of touch with over the years and i didnt even realise when but every now and then i miss them and look at our old pictures and there’s a hole in my heart that will never be fixed and if they ever called i’d gladly spend the whole night catching up even though we went in completely different directions in life

you'll just be minding ur business and then suddenly the air smells like an august evening in 2005

snoopy u inspire me every day

sometimes i remember it’s also my parents’ first time having a child that’s becoming an adult and i feel a little better. like oh this is a little odd for all of us.

got ramen with my dad, sister and boyfriend:)

starting tomorrow i will be a real person in this world

one of my most treasured hobbies is going to a beautiful beach finding a good spot to sit and then pulling out my phone to blog

me. me when a poem says something ive felt before

went to my cousin’s wedding party this weekend and it was so fun to laugh and dance and talk with all my family especially after such a rough month for us. the grief is never ending but so is the love!! truly!!

Clarice Lispecto

a cow and i have probably shared the same thought about how the sun hits the wild grass

Break me off another tangerine wedge I’m not driving

walked down a street surrounded by people, green trees and busy cafes on a sunny day. perhaps i’ll be ok.

tumblr is so great it’s like the diary is talking back

i just found my favourite teddy bear online - as in the original brand and how it looked when it was new. tbf i think it might’ve been a knock-off bc i don’t remember it having that branding on its foot, it has no tags and i got it in 2003 in eastern europe and the og is british and from the 90s afaik so it’s very likely but that genuinely doesn’t matter at all.

i’ve had it since i was 1yo and i couldn’t leave the house without it (my parents had to go back home 30 minutes into some trip bc i left it at home and wouldn’t stop crying). i called him Miś I Love You (teddybear i love you) because he used to say ‘i love u’ when u pressed on his tummy.

i think you can see that it’s one of those ‘well-loved’ cases:)

i’m 21 and i feel so old yet i don’t know anything and can barely do anything! i feel like there’s so much adult stuff i have to do but i’m also still in school and i’m still a kid when i come home to my parents. i feel like i failed at everything and will never achieve any of my dreams but i also finally see how much there is ahead of me. what a fucked up age to be.