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This takes place about 8 months ago. For context I was a sophomore in college. I'm from a very conservative rural part of the US and I go to college in a pretty rural area.

I was pretty supportive and unquestioning of the trans movement and community, I was even on the executive board of the GSA at my school. I originally joined because I'm a bisexual woman but I quickly found the club was mostly populated by gendies and straights who wanted to feel oppressed so there was really no sense of community. Fine, whatever, exec board will look good on my resume, and I should be supportive. I was invited to attend a Midwest college LGBTQ conference all expenses paid and I said sure, this could be a good opportunity. A bulk of the conference was lectures/presentations, so I signed up for one called "What Happened to Lesbians?" presented by someone named Stephanie, as I thought it would be interesting and informative. When I walked into the room and sat down, I saw what immediately struck me as a man. Short hair, unkept facial hair, suit (albeit colorful). I thought that he was maybe the moderator for the presentation, so I waited. I come to find out that this man is actually the Stephanie that will be telling me about lesbians, and identifies as a trans woman and a butch lesbian. I felt ashamed of myself for seeing that this man is actually very clearly a woman and a lesbian, but I listened on. The presentation was basically about how anyone can identify as a lesbian if they're counterculture and how TERFs (yes, Stephanie used this word multiple times and I didn't know what it meant at the time) are gatekeeping being a lesbian. I thought it was interesting but it really didn't sit right with me. The fact that a man that made zero effort to pass was telling lesbians that anyone can identify into their sexuality, or basically saying all feminists are TERFS. (I don't remember the rest offhand, but I believe I still have the lecture notes, if anyone is interested) I left that presentation with a bad taste in my mouth and overall, the rest of the conference had the same vibes- pretty much completely centering trans ideology.

I used the GSA Instagram account to look at popular LGBT posts, and I think around this time is when "genital preference" really started kicking up. Even as a bisexual person I felt really gross and weird about seeing this and being expected to believe it, especially being expected to push it as part of a GSA. At this point I completely checked out from the LGBT community and trans ideology. I realized that many people (at least at my rural college) were in the same boat and that the GSA was a bubble of the post modern q***r theory type people. I eventually left the GSA and I feel like it was a good choice for me. I always felt like I was being looked down on in that group because I was happy to be a woman. I didn't know what TERFs were until maybe a few months later and I ultimately ended up agreeing with those bad evil TERFs everyone warned me about.

-Submitted by anonymous

#TIMs #homophobia #lesbophobia #conversion therapy rhetoric #submissions and tags #silencing of women

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My peak was two fold: I ended up on radfem twitter because I finally buckled down and read what JKR actually wrote, and found myself agreeing with ALL of it. I then immediately shut down, thinking, "I should not be reading this". I was raised catholic, and it was the same gut response of, "I'm going to hell for thinking about this." It was always in the back of my mind, but I was still in TRA circles and kept quiet. Then Ellen Page transed herself, and idk, for some reason that was the (1/2)

and that was the tipping point. The whole TRA ideology just kinda shattered for me when my TRA friends started referring to Ellen as straight, and just, completely invalidating her lesbian relationships. I had already been insinuating some gender critical ideas, but that was the line for them, and they started calling me transphobic. Which was ridiculous because I had been very vocally in the TRA camp before. It all just sort of fell into place from there, how uncomfortable of all the TRA dogma I'd been from the start, how I fed into it to be a Good Person, because terfs were nazis deserving of doxxing and violence and I didn't want to risk either of those things, or lose my friends. It was no different than the expectations of Catholicism, and that was the last nail. Transactivism really is a culty religion. I felt ashamed that I put blind faith in transactivism as an adult, when I had left catholicism for the same reasons as a teenager.

#submissions and tags #JKR #cult tactics

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peakstories · 2 years

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I’ve lurked on this blog long enough. Now I want to talk about my own story.

For context, I’m a bisexual teenage girl living in a very liberal city. I’ve had Tumblr since middle school and was on board entirely with the “LGBTQIAP” community. However, in the following years, I began questioning their rhetoric more and more. I failed to see queer theorists and liberal feminists be able to define pansexuality, how a medical condition such as intersex qualifies as being part of a community oppressed on the basis of same sex attraction, how queer is a slur, so on and so forth. So, my acronym shortened to LGBT. I wanted to include this portion because people do claim that “saying xyz isn’t part of the LGBT community is TERF rhetoric!” nowadays, and also to show how easily swayed my disposition was to the point where I could include titles with undefinable definitions.

Here’s where the T came in. Two people have medically transitioned in my high school, both males. One was an out and proud gay male for a while, only to transition while he was 16-17. He was known as just “the gay guy” by just about everyone, and his only friends were women. The other one is one I’ll talk more about in detail.

He’s an autogynephile. I initially was supportive of him, even going as far as to assist him in self medication when we were in school. However, more and more of what he said began to unnerve me. First off, he said he had sexual fantasies of being a transgender sex slave that would become a biological girl in the process of intercourse before transition. Another was that he claimed he dated his ex girlfriend post transition, only to break up because “she doesn’t like girls”. My brain struggled to reconcile how anything about him changed except for his vocal fry, hormonal balance, and wardrobe. If he was truly a woman all along like TRA me claimed, didn’t that mean she’s bisexual for dating him pre-transition and that rejecting him is prejudiced? There’s more skinwalking when it came to his identity, as he stole the current name he is going as from a girl he used to like, and outright admitted that he adapted his personality and mannerisms from another girl in our school (for context, she is very short, Asian, wore cute blouses/skirts, had a feminine voice, and a lot of boys liked her). He would ask his friends whether they saw similarities between him and her, and get excited when they said they could see the resemblance. If we were still in high school, I would tell her that nearly 3-4 years after contacting one another, this man is still trying to model himself after her. Skinwalking much? Some side notes are that he enjoys talking about lesbians, lesbian catgirls, and anime lesbian catgirls. When I confronted him about whether he was lesbian or not, he claimed that he’s bisexual but only liked one or two guys ever. Even TRA me was skeptical, having seen gay/lesbian history and experiences co opted by fellow bisexuals, but I let it slide on the basis of “maybe he’s just misguided.” When someone tells you who you are, believe them.

Initially, I discovered a radical feminist Twitter account and began reading, and I pieced everything together. Being East Asian, the transgender community has taken their cultural and racial fetish for Japanese, Korean, Chinese, and Thai BL/GL content way too far. I admit, I have pangs of doubt that some of the stories I’m reading on here are fake or caricaturized when mentioning their lesbian porn & catgirl obsessions, but I know my own life & I have no doubt more of these men exist & form communities together. I just can’t believe that they are a legally protected class & that it’s gotten to this point. Entertain their delusions or get doxxed. The 40-50 something gender critical community on Reddit and Twitter don’t get how harrowing it is for young LGB people to have to sit through being lumped with a community that is destroying the definition of woman and all sex based protections that come with it.

#submissions and tags #biology is a TERF #TIMs #AGPs #misogyny #male privilege and behaviour #trans people in their own words #stereotypes #homophobia #lesbophobia #WoC stories #racism

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I hit peak trans when people (transwomen especially) on left Twitter started making misogynistic posts by prefacing it with the modifier ‘cis’. One 24 y/o TIM made a post about how he never wants to be a ciswoman anyway because our bodies are gross and they bleed etc. Then he started posting gore on the tl. After that I found out that he was a pedophile specifically attracted to girls aged 4-7, and he was grooming teenagers into becoming trans, and then convincing them that they’re pedophiles. It was so weird. But I believe this is one of the many trans pedophile cults on Twitter. Other than that, I peaked when I realised that I was the only female in the part of left twitter that I was a part of. Oh, this another time I said something about trans people having the socialization of their respectively sex and got told it’s a “terf dogwhistle”

I feel like I got a lot off my chest. I’m glad this blog exists.

#submissions and tags #misogyny #TIMs #trans people in their own words #trans abusers #silencing of women #female socialization #male privilege and behaviour

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I was extremely active on tumblr around 2013-2018. I was depressed and was relapsing into my anorexia again. I started posting about how I don’t want to have boobs/hips/etc, how I want to look like a thin boy(I think I might’ve said emaciated once?), how I want to look like a little kid, etc. 20+ yo transwomen then started messaging me, telling me that I’m obviously trans. I started calling myself a “he” and was encouraged to transition behind my family’s back. They continued to tell me how my life will be much better if I just transition, saying that transitioning will solve all of my problems. Someone even suggested fleeing to Canada and claiming refugee status on the basis of LGBT discrimination.

I was like… 15-17 when the trans thing happened?? I then got into an inpatient treatment bc my condition got worse. I got the treatment I needed. At first I didn’t really think much of the TIMs pushing me to transition, but the more I think about it, the angrier I get. In hindsight it would’ve been obvious that I was a girl struggling with puberty and an eating disorder. And instead of trying to help me address those issues and encouraging me to seek professional help, they pushed me to transition socially and medically as a minor. When I started referring to myself as a “she” again I was harassed and gaslit. They told me that I must’ve been brainwashed by my therapist because I “was clearly a transboy”. I peaked and left tumblr for a few years while I sorted myself out.

Oh, also idk if this matters or not but I didn’t hide that I’m not white and that I live in a developing country. The TIMs that contacted me were all white. Sometimes I can’t help but wonder if they contacted me because I’m a WOC and bc my country was(and still is) a rather popular “sex tourism”(international prostitution) destination, including child prostitution by foreigners, mainly white men. We’ve busted a few child prostitution rings run by foreigners here, so it’s not like that’s an impossible scenario. I really don’t like thinking about this aspect because it just makes me feel extremely disgusted 😔

I feel groomed tbh. They could’ve told me to seek therapy, but instead they pushed me to transition without seeking any therapy first.

#submissions and tags #WoC stories #eating disorders #trauma and mental illness #internalised misogyny #detransition #trans obsession #trans entilement #cult tactics #trans harassment #stereotypes #TIMs #trans people in their own words #female socialization #misogyny #racism

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Common Questions and Information

What is peak trans?

Peak trans is the moment where you you begin to see the logical inconsistencies and cognitive dissonance within the trans movement which makes you realise that you can no longer (fully) support the trans movement.

The full, long definition which I like is this:

The moment when you realise that the trans movement is misogynistic, homophobic (and especially lesbophobic), full of autogynepiles, based on sexist stereotypes, full of circular reasoning, silencing (and attacking) those who disagree with them, silencing women who are affected by laws they wish to be put in place, ignoring science/statistics which go against their beliefs, based on beliefs rather than science and statistics, ignoring what people in their community are doing (as being trans is more important), and denying what other people in their own community are saying (because they’re not saying it). It’s the moment when you turn around and say ‘I cannot support this movement anymore’ because of all the reasons listed above.

But this definition from Urban Dictionary is also pretty good:

When the threshold of cognitive dissonance that the trans ideology requires of someone exceeds the limits of a person’s willing suspension of disbelief, and that person’s eyes open to where they can no longer agree with the narrative.

Who is this blog for?

This blog is open to everyone, regardless of if you are reading because you agree or hate-reading or just trying to understand other people’s side, my blog is open to you. I will only block people who harass me or attack people from the stories/on my posts.

What are TIM, TIF, and TRA?

TIM = Trans Identified Male (aka trans woman)

TIF = Trans Identified Female (aka trans man)

We use these acronyms in order to refer to trans people by their sex which makes things less complicated.

TRA = Trans Rights Activist. Basically a shorthand for anyone who unquestionably supports trans rights

Do you have trigger warnings?

There are two:

Trauma and Mental Illness

Eating Disorders

I am not the best at tagging so I may have missed some (which you can point out to me if you want to) but I try to make sure that they’re all tagged appropriately.

Where do most of these stories come from?

Many used to come from the subreddit r/GenderCritical and some from r/GenderCriticalGuys before the subreddits were banned by Reddit for ‘promoting hate’.

Some now come from the new Gender Critical group on SaidIt while others come from Spinster. Many are simply direct submissions.

How do you decide which stories I post?

I post all stories unless they have asked for their story to not be shared on different platforms or the story is riddled with slurs/obviously a troll. The moderators of r/GC, and now s/GC are very strict and good at removing those stories before I come across them, otherwise it’s just my own judgement on them.

What is ’peak queer’ and ’peak libfem’?

Much like peak trans, peak queer and peak libfem are reaching a point where you can no longer support these movement.

Peak queer, or peak TQ+, is no longer being able to support the micro identities which are often associated with trans activism such as pansexual/romantic, demisexual/romantic, allosexual/romantic, and omnisexual/romantic. Realising that many of these things are unnecessary identities for normal, human behaviour which exist because everyone wants to think that their feelings are special or unique.

Peak libfem is no longer being able to support the so-called ’feminist activism’ (really just conforming to patriarchal standards) which libfems support including sex-positivity/sex work is work, supporting make-up (culture), the massive support of trans activism at the expense of women’s rights, and calling everything a (free) choice so feminist.

What is a trans widow?

Trans widow is a term for people, although mainly women, who have married someone who later came out as trans which causes the end of their relationship. Their trans partner changes so much (including personality, likes/dislikes, the way they act, style, etc) in the process of transitioning/figuring out their gender identity that they become a completely different person. These changes mean that the person they originally fell in love with and married is effectively dead which gives them the name trans widows.

There’s a really good TEDTalk by a trans widow on the subject. There’s also an organisation called Trans Widow Voices to help support and raise awareness of trans widows.

List of Tags

Submissions and Tags: Stories which were submitted directly to this blog or which we reblog as we were tagged. (Links will eventually be added)

GC Reddit: Stories from Gender Critical Reddit (RIP r/GenderCritical)

GC Saidit: Stories from Gender Critical SaidIt

Spinster: Stories from Spinster

WoC Stories: Stories written by women of colour

Racism: Stories about racism by TRAs

TIMs: Stories with a TIM in (see above for definition)

TIFs: Stories with a TIF in (see above for definition)

Non Binary: Stories with someone who identities or used to identify as non-binary

Libfems: Stories which contain libfems, that is trans allies (especially allied women) who are not allies themselves and who also support choice feminism (eg: women can choose whatever they want with no analysis as to why women choose certain actions and why it could be harmful to them)

Peak TQ+: Stories about people reaching peak TQ+ or peak queer (see above for definition)

Peak Libfem: Stories about people reaching peak libfem (see above for definition)

Trans Widow: storiees by trans widows (see above for definition)

Misogyny: Stories containing some misogyny towards women

Internalised Misogyny: Stories about women dealing with their own internalised misogyny

Female Socialisation: Stories which include how women have been socialised a certain way, how TIMs don’t exhibit these signs, or denying that TIMs have not experienced this socialisation since they’re male

Silencing of Women: Stories which includes TRAs activly silencing women on certain issues

Female Spaces and Services: Stories which include female-specific spaces and services, normally being invaded by TIMs

Female Sports: Stories including TIMs in female sports

Male Privilege and Behaviour: Stories which include men (especially TIMs) acting with male privilege, showing typical male entitlement, overt misogyny and misunderstanding over what it is to be a woman, making male threats (ie: rape threats or anything about how they’re bigger/stronger/have a dick), etc

Stereotypes: Stories which show that TRAs really see gender as conforming to a specific set of stereotypes.

Homophobia: Stories containing homophobia (including fetishisation of gay people)

Lesbophobia: Stories containing lesbophobia (including fetishisation of lesbians)

Conversion Therapy Rhetoric: Stories containing conversion therapy rhetoric. Lesbians must like dick, gay men must like pussy, etc.

Internalised Homophobia: Stories about people dealing with their internalised homophobia

AGPs: Stories about autogynephilia which is men who get aroused at the idea of being a woman

Trans Obsession: Stories which contain people completely obsessing either over themselves being trans or trans stuff, to the point it appears to dominate their life or at least dominates how they interact with others

Trans Entitlement: Stories showing trans people/their allies seeming to be entitled to certain things (including sex, certain spaces, etc)

Trans People in Their Own Words: Stories which show someone peaking at least in part due to actual things actual trans people have directly said to them

Trans Harassment: Times trans people and/or their allies have harass people

Trans Violence: Times trans people and/or their allies have been violent, including harassment with a lot of threats of violence

Trans Abusers: Stories containing trans people who are/were abusive

Trans Children: Stories containing trans children

Cult Tactics: Times when TRAs use the same tactics cults have used to keep people in line.

HRT and transition: Stories about people who have gone through or are going through some kind of medical transition from puberty blockers to HRT to surgeries

Detransition: Stories by or about someone who has detransitions

Biology is a TERF: Stories which contain TRAs not understanding or denying biology which includes: denying that sex matters in any way, ignoring sex based issues, complete misunderstand or even abuse of intersex disorders, etc

Eating Disorders: Trigger warning tag for mentions of eating disorders

Trauma and Mental Illness: Trigger warning tag for mentions of trauma (eg: severe abuse, rape, etc) or mental illness.

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