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nyxvuxoa-writes · 23 days
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Hey, what characters from planet of apes would you accept requests? :)
Honestly, probably just Leo Davidson from the 2001 movie. But I am very, very slow on requests right now. Working full time doesn't leave too much time these days.
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nyxvuxoa-writes · 25 days
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@voxmortuus here you go. 🤗😘
All The Things I Did:
(Just So I Could Call You Mine)
"The most beautiful part is, I wasn't even looking when I found you."
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Chapter One: All The Things I Did
Chapter Two: It's All Around, It's All The Time
Interlude: A Sight For Sore Eyes
Chapter Three: Don't Leave Me Alone
Interlude: A Feeling I Want To Get Used To
Chapter Four: The Only Thing That I See
Chapter Five: I Hope I Don't Lose You
Chapter Six: All's Well That Ends Well
Interlude: I Want To Give You The World
Interlude: I'm Such A Fool
Interlude: All I Brought Back With Me
"And then she knew, that you could become homesick for people too."
Special Editions:
Four Times They Speak About Each Other And One Time They Spoke To Each Other
"Darling, you are all I ever wanted love to be."
Misc.
Cass x John Blurbs
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"The day I met you I began to forget a life without you."
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nyxvuxoa-writes · 1 month
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An Altar For Our Sins
Part 8 // Masterlist
Demon!Billy Russo x Female Reader
Warnings: Smut, Oral (both f and m receiving), fingering, edging, bondage, cum swallowing, heavy angst, talks of murder and (mild) decapitation, mind control, psychological torment, mentions of toxic and manipulative friendships.
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Your arousal burns through him.
It’s not like your pain, it doesn’t slide like a needle between the layers of his skin, awakening discomfort that makes his heart beat in a worrisome rhythm.
Your arousal is different. New to him, and still a little unfamiliar, but he knows it when he feels it. It’s like a soft hand on his skin, the ghost of your touch trailing from his ear down his neck. It’s the sensation of your fingers drifting into his hair, nails scratching at his scalp and makes the hairs on his arms stand on end.
That’s how he knows you’re aroused, when it feels like you’re touching him all over all at once, when realistically, you’re currently just holding his hand.
He finds great appreciation for the feeling, as you tug him through the busy streets. He doesn’t know what you’re looking for, too caught up in your emotions to focus on the destination. 
It’s odd, he’s never felt someone else like this before, never given anyone the opportunity to. 
A strange pleasure courses through him, that he’s the one responsible for your arousal, that his earlier actions have made you excited, and desperate for him. 
His mistress wants him.
He’d do anything to please her.
.
.
TEN MINUTES AGO.
Billy has seen his fair share of assholes to know when he’s looking at one.
He’d almost wiped the six-foot tall man clean off the face of the earth for trying to hug you, before absently remembering he was in a public place.
If that wasn’t enough of a reason, he could see the way you were discomforted by the brunette’s appearance, the faux pleasantness of your smile, the stiffness of your shoulders. Billy was aching for blood just at the idea that you might not want to interact with this human at all.
When the man had asked about him, you’d glanced back with that same forced smile.
“Oh, this,” you'd said with barely any hesitation, “This is Billy, my boyfriend.”
The words echo in his head. He looks down at you, feeling his mind rage with the desire to take you. He’s surprised he’s still able to formulate a thought with the way he wants to drop to his knees and sink his tongue into your cunt.
He feels something expand in his chest. His mistress, claiming him in front of others so easily, so readily, made him into a beast of a man, filled with so much want for just a few moments.
The man extends his hand to Billy, and Billy at least musters the courtesy to shake his hand without shattering all the fragile bones beneath the skin, introducing himself.
“Dimitri, I’m the former best friend.” 
He nods in acknowledgement, thinking that it’s a little odd to go around introducing yourself like that.
He looks at you, takes a deep breath.
“Wow, you look amazing.” Dimitri says, and Billy wants to rip his eyeballs out of his skull for even daring to look at you.
.
Your skin crawls at his comment. You swallow, smiling and try to accept it, wishing for this interaction to be over with.
“Thanks, Dima.” You whisper softly, using his nickname accidentally.
His smile widens.
“We should hang out sometime, catch up, you wouldn’t believe the things I have to tell you.”
You blink, wondering why he was so friendly to you, as if the last time you’d spoken had never happened.
You try not to think about it.
“That might be nice,” You say politely, “But, I’m so swamped with things I have to do, and I might be travelling soon too.”
“Really? Where do you work now?”
Fuck, how do you get out of this one?
“I’m not really working anymore, just sort of… freelance.” You hoped it was enough to deter him from asking any more questions.
Dimitri only tilts his head in confusion.
“Really? That’s a bold move. I remember how much you used to struggle with being independent back in college.”
You swallow forcefully.
“Yeah, well, not anymore.” You say softly, feeling smaller and smaller under his gaze. You take a small step back, and you feel Billy’s hand find a spot on your back to remind you that he’s here.
Dimitri looks up at Billy, and you can almost tell that something awful is about to be said.
At the same time, you notice the woman helping you from before approaches, and it somehow helps to see her coming your way.
“Sorry to interrupt,” she says with an easy smile, “I just need confirmation of a contact number?”
You nod at her, knowing that Billy doesn’t have that information.
“I can help,” You offer, following when she angles her body to head back to her customer help desk. 
“Bye, Dimitri.” You say quickly, hoping he takes the hint and leaves. 
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Dimitri doesn’t leave.
Instead, he turns to Billy.
“I don’t know how long you’ve been with her, but I have to warn you. Honestly, I wish someone had warned me before I put so much effort into getting to know her.”
Billy sucks in a deep breath, glancing at you, before looking back at the man in question.
“Warn me about what?”
“She’s got… issues, big ones, and she leads people on and then gets upset when they… respond… if you know what I mean.” Dimitri says.
Billy’s trying hard not to lose his cool.
“I thought you were just her friend.” He says easily.
“I was,” the other man states, “but she’s got some problems and I just wanted to give you a heads up, man to man.”
.
You’re waiting patiently for the woman to enter your number into the system when you feel uninhibited rage swell in the back of your throat.
Your mouth falls open in surprise, breath halting in your chest as raw anger claws its way into your head.
You turn your head quickly to glance at Billy, who’s got his eyes fixed on the shorter man, the look on his face is calm rage, like a snake, coiling tight before an attack.
The woman at the counter, having no idea of the rage swarming your system, smiles at you and thanks you for your time. 
You can only give her a distracted nod, walking back to Billy quickly. He looks down at Dimitri, raising an eyebrow casually.
“I don’t see much of a man.” Billy says, and you blink in surprise, wondering what was said when you weren’t there.
Dimitri, not one to swallow insults easily, straightens, squares his shoulders angrily trying to make himself look bigger, more intimidating. You stand a small distance away, too stunned to interrupt the conversation fully.
“Go to hell. I was only trying to give you a heads up. She’s going to smile at you, and beg for comfort and make you think that she’s in love with you, and the minute you take her seriously, she’s going to push you away.”
You blink, looking away, a sharp spear in your chest at the reminder of the things he’d said all those years ago.
It’s the look on Billy’s face that holds you transfixed. He’s angry, his body completely still and for the first time you’re not sure about what he’s going to do next.
Shamefully, the look in his eyes goes right down to your core. This was the man that was capable of taking lives, and though you had somewhat domesticated him, this was what lay beneath the surface at every waking moment. This was the oncoming devastation, and you could feel the rage, his rage, hit a breaking point inside of you.
“Go home and cut your arm off.” Billy says, watching the man’s eyes widen in shock.
“Billy, no.” You murmur, finally finding the words to interrupt him.
He huffs, looking down at you for a second.
“One hand?” Billy offers, and receives a shake of your head.
“Two fingers?” he tries again with the same reaction.
“Fine,” Billy sighs, “One finger, but that’s as low as I’m going.”
“Billy.” You admonish.
He looks back at Dimitri angrily.
“You have no idea how amazing she is.” he says, anger rolling heavily in his words, the colour of his influence cloudy in Dimitri’s eyes.
“There’s nothing wrong with her. There never was, and there never will be and you’re lucky that she’s so kind cause I’m ready to make you eat your leg off for her entertainment.” He watches Dimitri swallow.
“So go home, cut your finger off, wrap it, and go to a hospital, and you better thank whatever god there is, that she doesn’t hold grudges.”
When Dimitri is two steps away, Billy speaks again.
“Oh, and Dima?” Billy says mockingly, watching the man turn back with a terrified expression on his face.
“Let’s forget about this, yeah?”
He only nods before scurrying away.
.
.
Perhaps you should have been angry with him.
But there was something about the coolness of his anger now, the way you could almost feel the fire burning inside of him, like red hot steel being plunged into frigid water. 
The way he’d acknowledged your protests, but still finding some way to punish your old friend, like a balance being struck between your disposition and his. 
In truth, you knew it was a very wrong thing, but you also found yourself barely caring as you reached for his hand, and pulled him out of the store.
You try to be reasonable in your head about it, Billy could have killed him out of your sight and you would never know, so this had to be a better alternative…
…right?
Or was this just you trying to excuse your involvement in Dimitri’s punishment?
Regardless, you couldn’t feel your morality at the moment, all you could feel was the empty space inside you, begging to be filled, to be used by him.
And you needed it now.
.
You tug him into the first cafe you find. 
With a lovely outdoor theme to the interior, earth tones and the smell of coffee in the air, you definitely make a little note in your head to come back later.
You’re not thinking too much about anything though, simply following the signs that point to the bathroom.
Billy doesn’t even question when you tug him into the ladies’ room and then into a spacious stall with a door that goes all the way down to the floor.
The stall door barely has any time to close, before you’re pressing your body against his, rising onto your toes and holding on to the back of his neck to bring his face down.
Your eyes close as your mouths mesh together. You hear a little groan slip from the back of his throat.
His hands grip your hips, and when it’s not enough, his arms encircle your waist, crushing your body to his in one swift move.
You can't help the little laugh of surprise that leaves your mouth at his display of enthusiasm, grinning against his eager mouth for a moment. He returns your amusement with a smile of his own, and a dark promise in his eyes that reminds you of who he is, and what he's capable of.
It happens like a switch flipping inside of you, in one second you’re eager to kiss him, blissful with the idea of finally getting his mouth on yours. But it’s the way his mouth feels, the way his hair catches on your fingertips and his beard scratches your cheek that turns gentle need into something indescribable.
Your fingers curl into the fabric of his shirt, leaning into him, little whines slip from your mouth when you feel like he’s too far away.
Like a burning in your head that demands him, in every way possible.
As high on your toes as you can get, you wobble a little when you try to get even higher, feeling his tail reach out in response to that, wrapping around your leg in an attempt to keep you steady. You groan when his tail brushes between the apex of your thighs. Pulling back for a quick breath, you raise one leg to wrap it around his hip, his hand sliding under your rear smoothly to support you. 
His mouth is hot against yours, matching your fervour, an amused chuckle against your mouth when you whine. 
He moves so passionately, fingers on your chin to tilt your head up so you can feel the searing heat of his desire for you.
You finally build up the courage, gripping his jaw tightly, encouraging his mouth to open so that you can press your tongue into his mouth teasingly.
He lets out another low groan that goes right to your core, shredding at your sanity when he pulls you even closer.
"Mistress-" Billy attempts to speak, trying to inquire about doing this in a more comfortable spot, instead of the bathroom stall of the cafe you'd just tugged him into.
You're not having any of it though, hands gripping the back of his neck roughly, tongue delving into his mouth with so much wanton need that he can't think to deny you.
You can't seem to stop, or focus, your only desire is to show your appreciation, despite how empty your cunt feels.
You move from his mouth, kissing over his cheek and over to his neck, delivering open-mouthed kisses to the soft skin, hearing the heavy labour of his breath increase.
“Does that feel good?” You ask, teasing him, daring to press your teeth into the column of his neck. 
His hiss delights you, hands tightening their grip on you, showing you how much he really likes what you’re doing to him.
When the edge of his shirt gets in the way, you huff angrily, tugging at it so that you can bite down on his collarbone.
"Take this off." You command , tugging at his shirt.
“Mistress,” He tries to protest again.
“Billy,” You hiss, “Now.”
His shirt disappears in a puff of purple.
You drag your short fingernails against his skin, groaning in delight at the opportunity to have him, rubbing your face into his chest, appreciating the feel of his hot skin on your cheek, touching his body the way you always dream of. When you want more balance, you drop your leg from around his hip so that you’re on your own two feet.
You reach for his belt next, tugging at the leather, before reaching a hand down to cup at his erection through his pants.
“Wait.” He sighs, and it stops all your movement. You look up at him with wide eyes.
It takes you back into your head for a moment. Were you going too far?
He’s leaned back against the door,  breathing in large heaves of air.
His hands cup your face, fingers tingling against your cheek, you wait patiently for his words.
“Are you sure?” He asks, dark eyes studying you.
Oh. Oh.
“Very.” You reply, “Are you?”
He inclines his head.
“Good.” You utter, keeping your eyes on his as you drop to your knees in one swift movement.
His eyes go red.
You reach for his belt again, and this time he doesn’t stop you. You undo his button and zipper in record time and gently tug his boxers down, salivating at the first sight of his cock.
Billy groans, he senses the increase in your arousal, feels it like you’ve got your tongue dragging on his neck while you’re eye level with his cock.
His breath stutters when your mouth seals over the head of his cock.
“Mistress.” He shivers, head hitting the door as he drops his head back.
You take your time, moving slowly, remembering the way his cum makes you feel, thinking about pleasing him this way, your cunt sticky under all your clothes.
Jaw open wide to accommodate his girth, you hum, taking him down as far as comfortable, listening with delighted ears at the sounds he makes in response.
He’s perfection, you acknowledge, he’s yours.
You take your time, bobbing your head slowly to a quiet drumming inside you, keeping a steady rhythm that you hope he likes.
You raise a hand to pump the rest of him slowly, as you angle your head to slide your tongue along the underside of his cock.
A soft sound leaves his mouth, and you keep looking up at him when your tongue dips even further to touch his balls.
He looks down suddenly, hair askew with the sudden movement, eyes shining red as you sway your tongue from side to side at the base of his cock.
Billy reaches down, and grips the back of your head harshly.
“Mistress.” He utters breathlessly, bending down, he tugs a little painfully on your hair to bring your mouth to his.
Your lips against his feels so sinful, you straighten as much as you can from your position on the floor, humming, delighted that he’s interested in kissing you like this.
You keep pumping your hand on his cock, eager to keep him in that blissed out state, but you realise he might be stalling you when he refuses to release your hair.
You pull away from him, and when he tries to bring you back for a kiss by tightening his grip on the back of your head, you raise your free hand to uncurl his fingers from your hair.
“You’re distracting me.” You complain, looking between his cock and his face.
“Let me take you home. I’ll let you ride my face till you can’t breathe.”
“Later,” you hum, “I want your cum on my tongue.”
He grunts, straightening to allow you more access to his cock.
You immediately take him into your mouth, more eager than ever, need pulsing inside of you, pumping the rest of his cock that you can’t get your mouth on with your hand.
He groans, and it goes straight to that spot inside of you that aches for him.
Something shifts inside of you, and acutely, you’re aware of something else you can feel.
It glides through your body, like two fingers tracing itself over your skin, beginning at your core, it slips over your clit and upward to your ribs. You moan around his cock at the phantom sensation, pushing your head down until he’s at the back of your throat.
Up, over your breast, to your neck and over your cheek, you hum around his cock, as the touch tingles over your scalp.
You don’t know what you’re feeling, not sure what caused the sensation of this invisible touch so you pull back for a moment, looking around for his tail.
When you don’t see any presence of his tail, you look up, searching his eyes for an explanation.
“I feel… what is that?” You ask.
He tilts his head, red eyes flashing purple for a second.
You watch him swallow.
“My pleasure, mistress, you can feel it.”
Your lips part in surprise. The ghost sensation traces its way down your back.
A small smile graces your lips, before you kiss the tip of his cock.
“I like it.” you say to him, licking teasingly at the head of his cock and feeling the way the sensation travelling along your skin heightens.
You close your eyes, and hasten your rhythm, the smooth head of his cock gliding along your tongue and you think you’ve found a little bit of heaven at his feet.
“Mistress.” He groans, a little too loud for the space you’re in, and you think that might be his way of warning you that he’s on edge.
You only hum on his cock, hearing his breath stutter as you hollow your cheeks while taking him down as deep as you can.
You feel his body tense, the muscle of his thighs hardening until it’s stiff as a rock, and then his cock twitches, a small movement, before he begins to spill into your mouth.
You feel it, his orgasm, it rattles through you, makes your eyes roll back in your head at the sensation. It’s like the rush of a heated wave, originating from the deepest spot inside of you, unfurling all the way down to your fingers, and the very tips of your ears. 
He moans, it’s a low, euphoric sound, that makes your body tingle from the experience of it.
You swallow his cum eagerly, milking every drop from him, making sure he’s got nothing left to give you before you release him from your mouth.
You can still feel his pleasure, the aftermath of it is just as strong as it was during, and as it settles inside of you, you can’t help the little giggle that leaves your lips.
His eyes still red, your legs wobble as you do your best to stand. He extends his hands to help you, and you grip his forearms tightly for balance.
“Did my lovely demon like that?” You ask, feeling your head begin to swim peacefully, the effects of his release beginning to affect you.
He studies you closely, hands cupping your cheeks to look into your eyes. You can only chuckle more.
Absentmindedly, you lick your lips, savouring the taste of him on your tongue, closing your eyes in bliss, swaying in his arms.
With your eyes closed, you feel him guide you into a very deep sway, and the next thing you feel is your back being pressed against cool, soft sheets.
You sigh happily, your skin sensitive, head lost in a daze.
“Mistress?” Billy whispers softly into your ear.
You smile, eyes still closed, raising a hand to cup his bearded cheek, the wiry hairs tingling along the palm of your hand.
“Yes, Billy?” You hum easily.
“I hope you don’t mind, but I’m going to lick your little cunt now.”
Your eyes peek open in confusion, feeling something smooth wind its way around your wrists, pulling slowly at your arms until they’re pinned beside your head.
“What?” you ask in surprise, not fully understanding where this is going in your semi-inebriated state.
“And I’m sorry, but I’m not going to stop until I’m satisfied.” He continues, as if you haven’t spoken.
You can’t do much in your state, relaxed as you feel him carefully tear your shirt in two, exposing your warm skin to him. He snips the straps of your bra, tugging the material down so that your nipples are exposed to the cool air.
You gasp, whining as you pull a little on your restraints, a muted fire burning inside of you from the way he treats you as if you’re his plaything.
His hands are on your pants next, and he at least takes his time to unbutton them, peeling them off your legs, before something begins winding around your ankles too.
“What're you doing to me?” You whine, body aching more and more for each touch.
You turn your head to the side, noticing that the things holding your arms in place are just soft purple ropes. You give another tug, you feel your desire increase as you become aware of your inability to move.
You pant as your legs are pulled apart, you whine pitifully as you realise how exposed, open, and vulnerable you are to him. There’s a sweetness to it, something that makes your body yearn. It’s the thought that he could do anything he wanted to you at the very moment, and you would be helpless to stop him.
Usually that would scare you, but with your demon, you trusted him, wholly, maybe more than you should have.
Finally, you look up at him. His large frame hovers over you, between your legs, looking down at you with something fierce behind his eyes.
He takes a deep breath, and a pleased smile rises to his lips.
“Poor mistress,” Billy hums, raising a hand to flick gently at your nipple, making you gasp in response, “All wet and helpless and at my mercy. Do you want me to stop?”
Your head shouts the answer, but your mouth can only whisper.
“N-no.” You reply.
His other hand raises to touch your next breast, both hands toying with your nipples easily. You hiss, dropping your head back in bliss.
“No?” He mocks, “You want me to keep going?”
“Yes, please.” You breathe.
His grin deepens.
“You really trust a demon like me that much? Do you have any idea how badly I want to ruin you?” 
“I want you.” You whine, closing your eyes eagerly when he brings his face in close, hoping that he’s going to kiss you.
“I’d let you ruin me.” You continue, hearing a little grunt leave his throat in response.
“Open your mouth, mistress.” He says darkly, and you obey, parting your lips for him.
He hums, before sealing his mouth over yours, his tongue immediately meeting your own.
You moan, flicking your tongue upwards, delightfully rubbing your tongue eagerly on his, unable to move in any way. 
Your head fills with the worst ideas, that if he wanted, he could keep you here, bound, and still somehow you find that appealing. 
There’s a drumming in your head, a heat on your skin, the taunting ghost of a phantom touch as his pleasure swells within you.
He begins kissing you softly, his mouth fixed to yours as one hand flicks at your nipples, the other hand supporting his weight so that he doesn’t crush you.
He drops his hips, so that he can press his stiff erection between your thighs. You clench involuntarily, angling your hips as best as possible to feel him.
When you whine against his mouth, raising your head to increase the pressure of his lips on yours, he stops touching your breast to grip your jaw harshly. He squeezes, keeping your head still as he kisses you hard, his rough tongue delving into your mouth easily.
He pulls back with a grin, looking at you with red eyes as you pant.
“Are you still cum drunk, mistress?” He asks.
You swallow, nodding your head.
“Good.” 
Without any further words, he kisses your neck.
You hum, tilting your head to the side in a silent plea for him to keep going, a sharp gasp when his teeth drag along your sensitive skin.
You wriggle, but you’re unable to move, your bra is uncomfortable on your skin, and you hope he tugs the material off of your body soon. 
His tongue is wicked, sliding over each collarbone, before they connect with the stiff peak of your nipple.
Billy moans, the flat of his tongue gliding over the underside of your nipple, before being flicked meaningfully by the tip of his tongue.
He repeats the motion several times, before tearing the ruined fabric of your bra off your skin, and circling his tongue around your other nipple.
You cry out, blubbering, his arms sliding under you to encourage your back to arch, making it that much harder to move as he circles his tongue around each nipple.
“Mine.” Billy growls, and you feel your eyes almost roll back in your head at the way you feel- debauched and desperate, for him and all the wicked things he does.
He’s not very nice, his tail sliding around your thigh and pressing gently against your panties, rolling in gentle waves over your core, tormenting you, making sure you feel each caress. 
You feel his pleasure increase, like a breath over your skin, telling you that he enjoys this, having you helpless at his mercy below him and you crave the feeling of that like never before.
You know from past experience that if he wanted to ease your ache, he could easily increase his pressure to help alleviate your need, instead he only makes it worse.
After a moment, you gasp in surprise as you feel his tail work its way under the fabric covering your cunt.
You whimper, tossing your head from side to side, trying to find a way to get him to touch you where you need it most, but being unable to do much with the way you’re bound. 
When you try to close your legs, you feel his ropes snake higher up your ankles, and loop over your calves, stopping right above your knees.
“Billy.” You beg, “Please, I need you.”
“Shhh, mistress,” He soothes, “This is what you get for riling me up so badly.”
“I didn’t-” You try to argue.
“No?” he asks, his tail skirting your slit, offering only a small amount of friction, “Getting down on your knees, licking my cock like that, swallowing every drop of my cum- that wasn’t supposed to make me feverish with desire for you?”
“I only wanted to thank you for sticking up for me.” You whine, trying to argue as he presses his face to the plush underside of your breast, beard scratching deliciously over your soft skin.
“Thank me? Do you have any idea what seeing you like that does to me?” His hands cup your face, and you part your lips as he kisses you softly, “On your knees, looking up, that sweet mouth sucking on my cock like you need me?”
When you don’t answer him, he hums, biting softly on your bottom lip.
You groan, struggling against his bindings for show, knowing that you’re not getting free unless he wills it. 
“I’ll show you what it does to me.” He says softly, the words sending a shiver down your spine.
You feel his tail drag upwards under your panties, hovering over your clit, and you sob desperately, yearning for him to touch you where it hurts.
Your thigh twitches involuntarily, body shuddering at how close he is.
“Please.” You gasp, tilting your hips up, sobbing as he moves his tail back too.
“Aw mistress, am I being mean?” He teases rhetorically.
You open your eyes, looking at him, his eyes have remained red the entire time. You think about what you could possibly say to get any semblance of relief.
“I loved sucking your cock, Billy,” You mumble, watching the red in his eyes darken, “I’d do it every day if you let me.” 
His mouth parts, and you note the sharpening of his teeth for a brief moment.
Before you can even focus on any one thing in particular, his tail begins to slide easily between your thighs.
Your breath catches in your throat, feeling the appendage slide up and down, catching on your clothed clit, using the slickness of your arousal to move. You clench around nothing, gasping, aching for more, aching for it faster, and getting nothing but his slow, steady pace in return.
Suddenly his tail pauses, and you almost want to cry, only having a moment to open your mouth to beg when you feel his tail wrap around the waistline of your underwear, and pull it harshly till it rips.
“That’s better.” He murmurs, ridding you of the flimsy material, keeping his eyes locked to yours as his tail goes right back between your legs, grinding more purposefully on your cunt.
You drop your head back temporarily in defeat, arms and legs bound, unable to do much moving, all you can do is try your best not to squirm while his tail makes a mess of you. 
You’re forced into looking at his gorgeous visage, his arms braced on either side of your head, he looks at all the expressions on your face as you struggle against his bindings, failing miserably at your attempt to stay still.
He speeds up, and your mouth falls open at the delicious feeling, the steady touch on your swollen clit.
Your pleasure swims in his head, drunk on the power he has over you, enjoying every moment of watching you. There is nowhere he'd rather be right now than right here, not even the promise of Heaven could tear him from you.
He slows his tail not long after, watching the torment cross your face, feeling delighted that he can do this to you, that he can make you want like this.
“I should’ve left you hard,” You grit out angrily, groaning inwardly when his only answer is an amused chuckle.
“You talk too much, mistress,” He taunts, before taking his tail away from your dripping core to press it against your lips.
You only hesitate for a moment, opening your mouth easily, and letting his tail, wet with your own arousal into your mouth. 
The taste of you is tart on his tail, and you wrap your lips around the leathery appendage, giving it the same treatment that you gave his cock not too long ago.
“You look beautiful like this,” He breathes, red eyes memorising you, “Mouth full like a good mistress.”
Your chest flutters, but you can’t say or do anything except continue sucking on the tip of his tail. It helps distract you from the raging firestorm of desire inside of you.
He drops his head once more, and you gasp around your mouthful of tail as his rough tongue ambles over your sensitive nipples. 
You feel the vibration of his groan against your breast, and suddenly you let out a sound of surprise when the rope wrapped around your legs begin to pull them up and further apart.
He raises up, pulling away, his tail leaving your mouth empty as he leans back to look at you. The remnants of his saliva cooling on your breast, the lips of your cunt spread with the further parting of your legs. 
Vaguely, you’re aware that he can see every intimate inch of you, and you think you love that. You keep your eyes on his face, making sure he’s looking at your centre when you clench your inner walls. 
He looks up at you, his gaze is full of something familiar, something you’re acquainted with intimately at the back of your head, where all your sacred thoughts lie. It’s a look that promises pleasure, above all else.
He leans in slowly, and you watch carefully as the six-foot tall demon bound to you for eternity, dips his head to place a gentle kiss between your breasts.
Your mouth parts in surprise. 
He kisses over your stomach, over your belly button, scratching his beard along your skin, teasing you with the sharpness of his teeth.
It feels like nothing before, the careful attention he pays to each inch of your skin, feels like nothing short of worship to you. 
You shake, gasping, desperate, tears pooling in your eyes on the brink of crying.
He trails a line of kisses between your hip bones, your body screaming with need and your inability to touch him. When he's not satisfied, his rough tongue retraces the path, your stomach tightening as he leaves pleasure in his wake.
How was he doing this so easily? Playing with you? Toying with your body as if he'd been doing it for all his life?
You make a little sound when he kisses the inside of your thighs.
He hums, drawing away from your thigh to press his lips to the seam of your cunt, staying like that for long, torturous moments.
“Billy please.” You beg on a meaningful breath, desperate for him to do something after he continues to place soft kisses on your pussy for longer than you like.
“I love hearing you beg.” He hums, kissing over your mound gently, slowly, as if there is no rush. You can feel the truth of his statement through your connection, feel the way his pleasure heightens when you make any kind of sound.
Your breath catches in your throat, unable to form a coherent thought in your head that would be enough to push him into pleasuring you the way you’re desperate for. All you can do is lie here, with your arms and legs bound while he places delicate kisses onto your wet pussy.
Your body burns with desire, something dangerously hot, that can only be soothed by his touch. You can feel yourself clench, feel the breath of his laughter on your skin, the way your demon loves tormenting you.
You close your eyes, and you focus on him, you think about all the things you want him to do, all the ways you need him, you hope that the bond between you will help persuade him to have mercy on you.
You imagine him over you, cock pumping between your thick thighs while his tail fills you up. You think about the way you’d kiss his beautiful form. You think about exploring his broad chest with your mouth, tracing the veins on his hands, the way his cock feels, heavy and unapologetic on your tongue.
Between your legs, he lets out a low groan. His skin is hot with your desire, he feels it, the way you need him, the way you ache for him, and he can’t get enough of it.
He’s never felt anything like it, in his centuries of existing, he’s never felt someone as much as he feels you. He knows that he never wants to feel anyone else like this, like he can’t tell where the essence of your soul ends and his begins, or maybe there’s an overlap, a blending of the two of you.
He darts his tongue out, sinks it into your cunt, trails upwards until he meets your clit, savouring the way you taste, your arousal on his tongue, all for him. 
You gasp, tugging on your restraints, fighting his hold, and wanting to fight the featherlight touch of his tongue as well. Delight explodes behind your eyes, but it’s not yours you realise, it’s his. He gets enjoyment from tasting you. It makes you whimper, makes you need.
He torments you with his coarse tongue, like the demon you know him to be, gently moving across your clit, exciting your senses, winding you up like an object for his play.
You whine at the very idea of it, being used like this, giving yourself into the reality that he’s in total control of you, that it doesn’t matter what you want, your only purpose is to please him, to let him lick your cunt for however long, however roughly he wants.
It makes you that much wetter.
He takes his time, tongue slowly increasing its speed, moving in every angle over your clit, his careful precision to working you up, ensuring that your body feels good but not too good, a desperation being seared into your bones, or maybe even deeper, a place inside of you that belongs to only him.
His hands trail up from gripping your hips to explore the space beneath your breasts.
You gasp, feeling the tips of his long fingers tease the underside of your breasts, roaming even higher till he can roll your nipples between his fingers.
You say his name, pulling half-heartedly at your restraints, skin searing with open desire, gasping at the way he trails his hands lower once more, his fingertips ghosting over your skin, savouring the way you feel.
The phantom touch of his pleasure is all around you, trailing over your bound hands, up to your shoulders and neck, lingering on your lips.
You gasp, eyes rolled back in your head, lost in the feeling of his tongue when you realise you’re experiencing a clarity that you weren’t before.
You groan sadly, registering that while you’ve been captured in endless bliss, the effects of his cum had worn off.
You try to think about what it means, and what you want Billy to do about it, but it’s hard to focus when his tongue licks over your clit so often. It’s like he’s found the spot on your body that scrambles your thoughts and he’s been abusing that knowledge.
“Billy.” You sigh, calling for your demon, in hopes that he can pull himself from your dripping cunt for long enough to allow you any semblance of thought.
He only moans, rough tongue continuing its constant pace.
You shiver, raising your head, trying to get his attention away from your centre. You watch his head move down, the flat of his tongue connecting with your entrance before his head glides upward, pulling his tongue to meet your clit. He glances up at you with half-lidded red eyes, and as you look down at him between your thighs, he pauses, sliding his tongue slowly from side to side over your clit.
He looks lost in you, nothing registering behind his eyes except the taste of your cunt. You bite down on your lips at the sight of him like that.
You forget what you were thinking about, pulling your restraints taut in desperation, keeping you eyes locked on his as he continues to work his tongue sideways over your clit. A tilt of his head, and you watch his eyes close momentarily as he focuses solely on your clit, giving it soft attention, the perfect combination of right there and not enough.
You make a sharp cry of desperation, and he still doesn’t stop, his tongue speeding up, your toes curling as you begin to feel the burn of a slow oncoming orgasm.
He feels it, because he can feel everything you do, feels how badly you want him and he’s incapable of denying you anymore. He’s eager to taste your orgasm, feel you shiver on his tongue, he can’t stop thinking about it now, but he knows he has a point to make and he’s not stopping until you understand.
His pace doesn’t slow, licking you effortlessly, plump lips pressed together to trap your clit between them, using not just his tongue, but his lips as well to heighten your pleasure.
You shudder out a gasp, and then a little sob, dropping your head back, unable to think anymore. You take what he gives happily, because you have no choice in the matter, you’re at his mercy, despite how badly you yearn for release.
He hums, lips pressed to your clit, your body pulls tight in warning, mouth dropping open. 
You only feel a puff of air on your mound, as if he just let out a little breath of amusement, at the way your body begs for him.
He flattens his tongue harshly to your clit, rolls his tongue quickly from side to side, listening to the sound of your whimpers increase. 
You want to tell him how close you are, how desperate you are to come all over his tongue, almost ready to cry if he stops. The only thing that leaves your mouth is unintelligible sounds of insanity.
He knows though, he wants it too. To please you, to be owned by you.
Your toes curl, back bowing off the bed, everything held taught by the whims of your demon’s tongue.
And then he stops, detaches his mouth from your dripping heat and listens to you cry out in denial.
You open your mouth to beg him, but he’s already hovering above you, blunt fingers pressed into your jaw to turn your head to the side so he can whisper in your ear.
“Do you feel that?” He hisses, his lips right against the shell of your ear, “Do you feel how desperate you are? How bad it burns in your chest? That’s how I feel every second I’m not touching you, mistress.”
You gasp, trying to wrap your head around his words.
“That’s how I feel when you look at me, that’s how I feel when you kneel for me.”
He leans in even closer, till his nose is pressed to your temple, his lips right in your ear, his voice is a low grovel that thrums against your skin.
“Every time you wrap those perfect lips around my cock, you make me burn.”
“I’m sorry.” You finally say.
He raises his head, turning your face back to his.
“You are?” He asks.
You nod, trembling.
“I d-don’t mean to torment you.” You whisper.
The corner of his mouth lifts, you can see some semblance of sanity reappear.
“You don’t.” he states, as if this is news to him.
“I don’t.” You confirm, “I just want to make you happy.”
He grips your jaw tighter, leaning in.
“Why?”
Was that what this was? Insecurity?
“You do so much for me, Billy, and I like doing things for you too.”
“And if I couldn’t give you anything. Would you still…” His voice trails off, looking away.
“Yes.” You say swiftly, confidently, not letting the fear inside of him take root. “I’d want you even if you had nothing to give.”
Obsidian- the colour his eyes go next. You swallow, a tightness in your throat at the way he looks.
He looks back at you, eyes fixed on yours, dark veins spreading out from around his eyes as he tilts his head slowly.
He looks a little scary, the darkness of his eyes spreading out over his face, but like before, your body holds no real fear of him.
You don’t get a chance to say anything, before he’s leaning forward to kiss you hard.
You tilt your chin up, returning his fervour with need of your own, desperate to show him that you were his, just as much as he was yours. When you can see his face again, the black veins framing his eyes have receded, leaving just his dark eyes.
You wanted to touch him, you pull at the ropes with all your strength.
You don’t get a chance, he moves down your body once more, his head buried between your thighs in seconds.
You gasp when you feel his tongue again, you want to cry with relief.
“Oh god, Billy yes.” You moan mindlessly, tossing your head from side to side.
You tremble, hot tears spilling from the corners of your eyes, every nerve in your body on overdrive, trying to process how one person's mouth could have so much of an effect. He licks over you slowly, kissing your clit, wet sounds of his dextrous tongue filling the room.
What’s worse is the physical need for him, to touch every inch of his skin, to feel him, really feel him, and try to wrap your head around having a person to call your own.
He grips your thighs, squeezes your hips, makes you look up at the ceiling and feel the thoughts drain from your head like it’s a real, physical sensation.
He delves lower, tongue against your entrance a low groan from him as you endure the slow glide of his wet tongue against your walls, shallow, and yet desperate to get as deep into you as possible.
Your hands curl into fists, your eyes screwed shut as your shallow breaths grow loud in your ears.
You say his name but you don’t think he’s capable of hearing you, of pausing the motions of his tongue on your wet cunt.
He holds your pleasure hostage, and once more you feel the fight build inside of you.
You pull at your restraints, crying out when his tongue punishes your sensitive clit with a harsh lick, followed by tender kisses, right on your aching bud.
“I’m sorry.” You gasp, wriggling on the bed, “I’ve learnt my lesson I swear.” You say, trying to bargain with him.
He doesn’t answer, he just keeps going, hot tongue swiping over your clit, again and again, plump lips both a blessing and a curse.
He licks you for long minutes, until you lose control of your limbs, until they ache from being still, until you tremble, desperate to come.
“Pl-ease.” You draw out, voice shaking, your body begging, a roaring in your head that aches so badly you could almost cry.
Your mouth drops open when you feel two of his thick fingers press against your entrance. It hits you like lightning, and all of a sudden, you’re no longer in burning desire, but in a hazy rapture.
“Billy.” You cry, as he takes his time, working his fingers into you. You can hear and feel how wet you are, your head filling with absolute bliss, washing away any semblance of need you once had, any frustration that was being nurtured inside of you.
He keeps his strokes short, drawing out the pleasure you feel each time the thickest part of his fingers threaten to stretch the rim of your cunt, moving so rhythmically, lulling your body into a placid state. He gives you exactly what you need, filling you, licking you, delivering absolution from your burning.
You can’t feel anything except this pleasure, and a connection somewhere deep inside of you, that pulls you to him, draws you near, begs to be each beat of his heart, yearns to be each breath he takes, all paired with the feeling of his tongue lapping softly at your aching clit.
There’s a stuttering in your chest, one that you can feel pulsing in your nether regions as his pace increases. Your body gives no resistance to him, accepting him greedily, wanting more and more and more.
He’s there, giving it all to you, licking you to his heart’s content, pressing his fingers ever deeper, curling them a little, massaging the deepest parts of you, making sure you know that no one will ever make you feel like this.
You gasp in a big breath of air, pulling on the ropes still holding you firm, he lets out a low groan below you and you raise your head to look down at him.
His eyes are still wholly black, a void that pulls you in, the longer he holds eye contact with you.
Billy’s fingers hasten, and all of a sudden you’re right there, on edge again, losing any approximation of time, little whimpers leaving your mouth as you lose all semblance of sanity.
“I- I’m-” You whimper, trying to warn him that it’s all too much, that his touch is unravelling you in the best way possible.
Eyes rolling back into your head, unable to think or breathe for a few seconds, locked in a sharp stasis, balancing right on the brink of euphoria.
And then on your next breath, a release like no other. You hadn’t even realised how tightly you were wound until your orgasm washes over you. You can’t stop the sounds that leave your lips, or the very first squeeze of your cunt around his thick fingers. 
One wave of bliss triggers another, and another, until you fall apart completely against his perfect, rough tongue, no hope of keeping your sanity amidst the oncoming flood of pleasure.
It takes you a moment of floating, before you can come back into your body again, only to realise that he hasn’t stopped licking you. You’re almost obsessed with the sensation of his touch, the deep press of his fingers inside of you, soft and languid, bringing you down almost as slowly as he’d lifted you up.
And then there’s the feeling in your head, pleasure swimming through your brain, tingling deep in your bloodstream, wave after wave of mindless, hazy bliss.
The ropes from around your arms and legs loosen, withdrawing, giving back the autonomy it had taken. You sigh with ease, squeezing your hands into fists, to remember how to move once more.
You can’t do much more than little flexes of your muscle, your body is too relaxed, unwilling to move.
He licks you one last time, before you feel his fingers withdraw, his mouth departing from the apex of your thighs.
His eyes are back to their regular red, and you sigh happily as he moves his way up your body.
“How was that, mistress?” Billy asks softly, his body over yours, his fingers sinking into your hair.
“Amazing, Billy, thank you.” You respond in a soft whisper.
He smiles, brings his head down to meet your lips with his.
You get a taste of yourself on his lips, and you make a sound of discomfort when his wet chin touches yours.
You press against his shoulder, breaking the kiss.
“Gosh Billy, your chin is so wet,” You complain, wiping what you assume is a mixture of your arousal and his saliva off your own chin, “We could really use a bath.” 
He gives you a slow smile, a potent delight in his eyes that makes you so happy in return.
“Yes, mistress,” He agrees, sliding his other hand below your body, beginning to apply a little force to pull you up toward him.
“One bath coming right up.” Is the last thing he says before he pulls your face up to his. 
His kiss distracts you, enraptures you, you hum happily against him, eyes closed and trying to ignore his sticky chin.
He dips you again with a smile against your mouth and the next thing you know is that your bodies are submerged in tepid water.
You don't startle, continuing to kiss him under the water, hands raising to grip his shoulders automatically.
You gasp when he pulls you up, and right into a sitting position on his lap.
He keeps the back of your head gripped in his palm, kissing at your cheek and jaw while you turn your head to the side with a little laugh.
You blink in surprise when you notice unfamiliar surroundings. You're seated in a moderately sized pool, right beside a beautiful open concept house. You turn your head the other way, feeling Billy's lips adapt to kiss your other cheek, noticing that the house is surrounded by thick jungle vegetation.
“Billy?” You ask, feeling his mouth kiss its way down your neck. His only acknowledgement that you've spoken is a curious hum.
“Where are we?” 
“Phuket.” He says, voice muffled against your chest.
“Thailand?” You say in surprise.
His only response is another hum.
You grip his face between both your hands, tilting his head up to meet your eyes. He gives you almost the same look that he was giving you before- when he was looking up at you from between your thighs- half lidded, calm.
“Why are we here?” You inquire softly.
“Bath.” Is all he answers, leaning in to kiss your chest again.
“Are you okay?” You whisper, looking down at him, trying to figure out why there was such a spaced out feeling in the back of your head.
“Mhmm.” He replies, lips on your breast, kissing your nipple gently, “Happy.”
Happy. That’s what it was. Like a flutter in the back of your head, behind your eyes, you could tell he was drunk on his contentment.
“Why happy?” You whisper, hoping not to break into his haze.
“Happy to… provide, mistress.”
You feel a tightness in your throat, an inundation of emotion, threatening to choke you with the fierceness of it.
You tilt his head up again, looking into his glassy eyes, before kissing him with all the fire you have inside of you.
You know if you could, if you weren’t afraid of the pain of it, you would slide onto his cock right then and there.
He moans against your mouth, probably receiving some indication of where your thoughts have taken you.
Your hands smooth over his neck, down to his shoulders, fingers feeling over his collarbones. 
“I’ve never swam naked before.” You say against his lips, feeling him laugh in response.
“Me neither.” He answers.
You push away from him playfully, smiling as you turn around to dip your entire body below the water, feeling the way the water moves around you. When you break the surface of the water for a breath, pushing your hair out of your face, you look back over your shoulder at him.
He’s in the same spot for just a second, before he’s in front of you, moving at speeds beyond your understanding.
You gasp in surprise, his arms wrapped around your body, pulling you against him. He lowers himself, pulling your legs around his hips, you let out a surprised gasp when his cock slots right between your thighs, tapping against your sensitive clit.
He kisses you again, mouth eager on your own, turning you and walking you to a place you can’t see, his hand gripping your damp hair, angling his head to deepen your kiss and leaving you struggling to catch up with his fervour.
He lifts you, resting your naked body on the edge of the pool, your bare ass warmed by the sun-heated wooden deck.
“Need another taste.” He says against your mouth, his tail wrapped around your thigh, gliding gently along the seam of your cunt. You gasp in amazement at his desperate display.
“What?” You ask, not understanding what he’s saying with the way you’re exposed, naked in the open air. The only thing stopping the sun from hitting you directly in the eyes is an overhead umbrella.
He pulls you forward a little, tossing your legs over each of his shoulders, muttering something that you can’t make sense of.
A quick kiss to your inner thigh and then his rough tongue sinks into the seam of your cunt once more.
His tongue moves a lot more meaningfully this time, no attempt to torment you, his only goal is tasting you.
You gasp, arms buckling from where you’re trying to hold yourself up, his tongue once more attempting to make quick work of you out in the open beside the pool.
You don’t try to stop him, or resist him, simply keeping your thighs parted so that he can have his fill of you, willing to give your demon anything he desired.
.
He hadn’t stopped until you were boneless, barely able to keep your head up, almost on the brink of passing out. 
It had been a really long day, and at the end of it, after he’d cleaned you up and tucked you into bed beside him, he’d hand fed you fruits while you were close to sleep.
“Thank you,” You breathe, face tucked into his chest while you chew on a grape, the sweetness of it is delicious.
His tail flicks happily against your thigh, swaying while your legs are tangled in the sheets of the bed.
“You’re welcome, mistress.” He says softly, kissing the top of your head.
You sigh, closing your eyes. You want to tell him about Dimitri, but you decide that maybe tomorrow would be better. You didn’t want to interrupt the peace right now with those stories.
Sleep comes easy, when you don’t know exactly where you are, and you don’t even have to worry about it.
.
You're not sure what wakes you. If it's the lack of his heartbeat, or the coldness that seeps into your skin.
Maybe it's something else, a feeling, deep in your chest that something is not quite right.
You're immediately alert, blinking and looking around as if you hadn't been asleep at all.
You take a deep breath, let out a little hum, checking the time.
A little after one in the morning.
You look around for your demon, unable to find him.
You want to call out for him, but something in your head says not to do it.
He’s nearby, you can feel that too, in some kind of distress.
You look around for something to pull on, sighing when you can only get a hold of a satin robe, tugging it on quickly and also grabbing the folded blanket at the base of the bed and throwing it over you.
As expected, outside is cold, and you tug the blanket tighter to you, making sure it’s not dragging on the floor as you try to quietly look for Billy.
He’s not in the immediate vicinity, so you close your eyes, and you reach for him in your head.
Suddenly you feel a connection, like a tether in the air that guides you in his direction. You follow where it leads, taking you down a flight of wooden stairs, illuminated only by the light of the moon. 
With the forest on either side of you, you try not to focus on the possibility of any critters showing up, not wanting to think about what you’d do if you saw a lizard.
Or worse yet, a snake.
You take a deep breath, squashing your fears, determined to find him.
The stairs take you down to a little beach, with soft blue lamps at the end of the stairs. It’s so dark here that the stars shine brighter than you’ve ever seen.
There’s a jetty, stretching out onto the open sea, and a small open air hut at the very end, with a roof of something you think is straw above.
You take your time, stepping onto it, appreciating how sturdy it is, watching a little crab skitter away as you approach.
You can see him now, his hunched figure seated on a wooden bench looking out at the dark sea.
He doesn’t turn his head when you approach, and you worry that you’re encroaching on his personal space.
“It’s cold out here.” You whisper, referring to the chilly ocean breeze that washes over you both, you sit beside him, raising the blanket to rest one side of it on his shoulder, hoping to warm him up.
He doesn’t look at you, he doesn’t say anything.
You want to speak, to say something to comfort him, but you're so caught up in saying the wrong thing that you say nothing at all.
Instead, you rest your head against his arm, breathing in the dark sea air with him.
The crash of waves calm you, rids you of any lingering worry and fear you once had.
You can feel his though, something whirring like a broken clock inside of his head, a fear he's too scared to talk about.
You take slow calming breaths beside him, pressing on that connection in your head, soothing over it like it's a knot in a muscle that you're trying to unravel.
“Hell,” Billy finally says with his voice shaking imperceptibly, “Is not hot.”
You smile thinking that this was an odd way to begin a story.
But you don't speak, you don't want to distract him, or break the cadence of his thinking or his words.
“From the second I died, I woke up in the same spot Frank had killed me in, except I wasn't really there.”
He takes a shaky breath.
“I went straight to Hell, and I stayed there for a long time.”
You raise your head to look at him, to watch him as he stares out at the dark ocean.
“My punishment was, understanding exactly what I had done, from every point of view that I had wronged. I lived through all of their lives, I felt their pain, their fear- so much fear, I watched myself kill them, I felt the helplessness of each life I’d taken. Maria, Frank Jr., Lisa, and the countless other people I’d killed- I relived their deaths, over and over again until I could only see a monster where I once saw my face.”
“I guess that’s how it starts, Hell shows you who you are, and by the time the punishment comes around, you know you deserve it with every atom in your body.”
Your lower lip trembles, sad, for your demon.
“They made me relive that night so many times, I can still feel the fear in Lisa when I found her, like lightning running down my spine, freezing my limbs in place. She was just a little girl, and I took the rest of her life from her without a second thought.” 
It gets hard for you to breathe at the very thought of it, your heart breaks for the people he’s hurt.
“Maria had only ever been kind to me. She’d taken me in like her own brother without a second thought, she’d given me a home, and I’d torn hers to pieces.”
You feel hot tears slip down your cheeks, unable to speak now, listening to him.
“What would you do to a person like that? A traitor, in every sense of the word. Frank was the closest thing I’d ever had to family, my brother, my best friend, he would have died for me. How would you punish me?”
You don’t want to say it, you don’t want to speak it into existence.
You stay silent.
“I’d tell you how I’d do it. I’d give that monster hope. I’d make him believe in something, believe that he could be better, that he could change. I’d show him what being wanted could feel like, and then when he was at his highest point, just as he believes that everything he’s ever wanted could be his, I’d take it all away.”
You squeeze your eyes shut, the pain of his words is almost too much to bear.
“Is that what you think I am?” You ask softly, “A lesson to be learned? Something to be taken away from you?”
“What if you are? What if I’m still in Hell?”
“Which one are you more afraid of? That you are… Or that you aren’t?”
He shudders out a breath, unable to answer.
You wipe at your tears suddenly, sitting up.
“Billy, I can promise you that I’m a real person. I’ve lived through so much pain, and heartbreak, and loss and betrayal. It haunts me all the time. I don’t know if I’m a good person, but I definitely think I’d know if I was being used to punish you.”
“This is real, those stars up there are real, that moon, the ocean, the wind, the island- all of it is real and I’m real too, so are you and I know that because when I touch you,” You move your hand, reaching for his, “When I put my hand in yours I can feel you-” You suck in a breath, your watery vision meeting his.
“-I can feel you in my head, in my chest, under my skin and I know that you’re real because I know you can feel me the same way I feel you.”
He blinks, his hand tightening its grip on yours before he leans forward, pressing his lips to yours harshly.
A cascading ripple of desire in your head, you raise your hand to cup his cheek.
“You have to remind me.” He says in between kisses, “That I’m real, and this is too.”
You smile into his mouth, fingers tangling in the hair at the base of his neck.
“Of course, Billy. I will.”
He sighs, pulling you tight against his chest, his cheek pressed to the top of your head.
“My mistress.” He sighs.
My demon, you think.
.
You lie beside him, fingers tangled together while you look up at the stars.
He'd used his influence to get a cozy mattress onto the jetty, and you'd taken up a space in it easily after sitting on the wooden bench for so long.
The ocean makes its relaxing sound below you, rhythmic and soft, daring you to have any bad thoughts here.
“Will you tell me about… Dimitri?”
A sad smile pulls onto your face, you nod, knowing that at least your bad experiences will help ground him.
“We met at the start of college. He was a friend of my roommate, so he was kind of always around, and we just became good friends over time. I never really… liked him like that, but I guess he must have seen things a different way. He was really interested in the fact that I'd never had sex, and he always asked me about it… about my plans for losing my virginity. I didn't know at the time, but I guess looking back at it now, there were a lot of conversations we'd had that had made me super uncomfortable. I thought I was uncomfortable because I was inexperienced, but I think that those were uncomfortable situations to begin with.”
“What do you mean?” Billy interrupts.
“Well, he asked about porn preferences, and odd things like if I'd ever used my fingers- and we've spoken about the same things, you and I- but the context, the situations were totally different. I just wasn't interested in him like that, and he would just keep pushing me more and more each time.”
You shudder, remembering some of the ways Dimitri had made you uncomfortable.
“It wasn't… all bad, he really was a good friend at times, helping me out, being a real friend when I was sad, he even brought medicine for me once when I was too sick to move. But… one night we'd been hanging out, and he leaned over and he'd kissed me. I was so shocked, and I didn't really know if I'd wanted to do this with him or not, and it took me a little too long to figure it out. He was, on top of me, reaching for my jeans when I'd made up my mind.”
You pause, blinking, trying to stop the tightness in your throat.
“He got angry. He told me that I'd just been stringing him along this whole time and that I was a shitty person for making him try so hard to be my friend to get nothing in return.”
You take another slow breath, running your thumb over the back of Billy’s hand.
“It wasn't a scary kind of angry, he was just talking loudly. I just kept saying I was sorry, but I wasn't interested like that. Eventually he stormed off. But… in the aftermath, he'd made it seem to all our friends like I was some girl that enjoyed getting attention from boys, and enjoyed hurting them by making them invest time into getting to know me, only to reject them. Some of them didn't believe him, but the ones that did convinced the others to stay away from me and my roommate got so hostile that I ended up finding another place in the middle of the semester just to get away.”
Your stomach twists, not enjoying having to relive this.
“We'd been such good friends too. I could tell him anything at one point and he'd understand me, that just became another weapon used to alienate me.”
“I should have killed him.” Billy finally says, and when you finally meet his eyes, you see them red, angry on your behalf.
You let out an amused breath, followed by a little laugh. You lean in to press your face into his chest.
“Nah, killing him would be too easy. Having him live to see me happy would be way worse outcome for him. People with those kind of mindsets, well, they have ways of making their lives worse all on their own.”
He cups your cheek, his hands are warm, holding you so gently, tender in a way you've only ever dreamed of. He tilts your head up, so that you can look into his eyes.
“I'm sorry this happened to you.” He murmurs.
“Thank you, Billy.” You lean up to place a little kiss on his lips.
“And I'm so angry on your behalf, mistress. Believe me when I say that you're the only thing keeping him alive right now.”
You laugh, leaning in to kiss him again.
You toss an arm over his body, pulling yourself closer to him, his tail adjusts itself around your thigh as you move. 
“Tell me something nice.” You murmur into his chest, breathing in his scent, wishing it would stick to your skin, “Tell me about your childhood.”
It's uncomfortably silent for a long moment, you get the feeling that maybe you've said something wrong.
“You can have something nice, or something about my childhood,” he makes an amused sound, “Not both.”
You groan, squeezing him tightly.
“That bad?”
“I'll put it like this, Hell could have punished me by making me relive my childhood and it didn't.”
“Oh.” You hum sadly, “I'm sorry.”
He sighs, reaching to cup the back of your neck, tilting your head back so that he can place a soft kiss on your lips.
“Don't be sorry. I'll tell you about it another time. But right now I have a surprise for you.”
“Yeah?” You ask, smiling as he kisses your mouth again.
“Of course. Look.” He says, angling his head in the direction of the ocean.
It's dark, and you have to squint your eyes to focus on anything. You wait for a moment, seeing absolutely nothing.
It's just the dark ocean, and the pretty stars in the sky. You feel your eyes adjust to the almost pure darkness that you were looking at, you swear you could almost see a very subtle cloud of light in the sky that you think might be the milky way.
“It's very beautiful, Billy, I love the stars.” You state, studying them as best as you could.
He chuckles beside you, leaning in to kiss your cheek.
“So cute, mistress, but I meant the water.”
You blink, confused, you look down.
Suddenly, a streak of blue lights up in the ocean quickly.
What the hell was that? You think, pushing the sheets off your shoulders to stand, walking to the edge of the jetty and looking over.
Your mouth drops open.
Like the sky, the ocean is filled with twinkling light, but it's not a reflection of the stars, but the presence of something bioluminescent in the water.
“Oh my god.” You say excitedly, kneeling on the cold wood, leaning over to see as much as possible.
Any kind of disturbance in the water makes the organisms light up for a small moment. There's a ring of cerulean around the pillars of the jetty, glittering like living stars in front of your eyes.
Another streak of blue illuminates, and you gasp in surprise. You realize that they're fish, lighting up the water as they pass by.
You sit there, hypnotized by the look of the water for a long moment. Billy steps up beside you, and drops a pebble into the water, disturbing the surface so that it glows for you.
You giggle, looking up at him, extending your hands for pebbles as well so that you can toss them in.
He uses his influence to manifest a bag of pebbles that fit perfectly into the palm of your hand.
You feel like a child, transfixed with wonder as you dig into the bag for a few stones to toss into the water.
The ocean ripples with blue light whenever you drop a stone in.
The waves look alive with lustre, and you feel so small under the stars, staring out at all of it, feeling something deep in your chest that you've never ever felt before.
You finally find a way to ask a question that has been on your mind for a while.
“Matt… said that you were trying to corrupt me. Is that still true?”
“Yes.” He says with no hesitation, making something deep inside of you pulse.
“Why?” You ask softly.
“I told you before, I want to own you, the way you own me.”
You find that your arousal is more potent than your fear.
Your lips part, hesitant to ask.
“So, h-how do you intend to do that?”
You feel amusement cascade through your bond.
He leans in, his mouth pressed against the shell of your ear.
“You don’t need to worry your pretty little head, mistress. It’s all going according to plan.”
Your eyelids flutter, your core tightens with excitement.
Perhaps you should be more afraid than you actually were… but where was the fun in that?
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Kinktober Prompt #7
Prompt: Virginity/Wax Play
Bishop Heahmund x fem!reader (Vikings)
WC: 500
Additional warnings: minor Religion kink
*comments/reblogs are appreciated
A little gift for @valeskafics
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You hissed, arching your back as the warm wax pooled across your chest. Heahmund chuckled at your reaction, leaning closer to blow a soothing puff of cool air over your heated flesh before wrapping his lips around one pert nipple.
“Pain can stir eros,” he whispered against your wet flesh. One hand pressed between your slick thighs, stroking your damp curls. A wicked smile toyed at his lips. He was a man of God and a man of flesh.
“I suppose you would know more than me, being a learned man of the cloth and a skilled warrior,” you whispered, keening your hips and pressing further into his touch.
He continued the pleasant stroking before removing his hand.  You writhed and mewled as he drizzled more wax onto your flesh, covering your belly and hips. Very slowly, he scraped the hardened pieces off, pressing a kiss to each flushed mark left behind on your skin. You were starting to understand his words. A quick sting followed by throbbing pleasure that made your belly tighten. His rough, calloused hands grasped your hips as his lips crashed against yours.
“Are you ready for me, sweet maiden?”
You gazed into those piercing blue eyes as desire thundered through your body. You wanted him to ravage every inch of you. To send you crashing over the edge until every muscle in your body ached. It mattered not to you that Heahmund had savored many women in Wessex. He was between your thighs now, and you sought to give him your precious maidenhead. He promised to guide you through repentance later.
“I am, please,” you begged as his body hovered over yours. His cock was hard and heavy between his legs. The sight made you bite your lower lip and wonder if he could fit inside.
Those strong hands guided your knees back as he pressed against your opening, slowly slipping his way inside. You gasped softly, feeling the pressure fill you until he was deep inside. You felt a slight cramping that slowly subsided as you grew used to the feeling. It wasn’t bad, a simple sting; clearly, the lessons and lectures had been meant to instill fear.  Heahmund began to move his hips as your hands settled against his sides.
Each thrust made your body tremble, and soon, you moved your body in tandem with his. Soft moans spilled from your parted lips. Your eyes rolled back as he hit a sensitive spot inside you that made your thighs twitch. You were certain this was your peak. A pleasant yet unfamiliar sensation rolled through you as the tightness in your belly snapped, and you gave your body over to pleasure.
“Beautiful,” Heahmund whispered, holding your chin between his fingers while he studied your face. He pulled out, and heat flooded your face as his spend coated your thighs. “We should give thanks for such divinity.”
His hands clasped over yours as he murmured a prayer of thanks. You swore you heard angels singing.
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On Your Knees
A/N: So as I noted in this teaser thingy, I don’t really intend to be back on tumblr actively, BUT I just couldn’t resist writing for Kai!! This fic will be smutty, while also providing a bit of backstory that I feel he needs and deserves honestly. I fucking love this guy 💗
Pairing: Kai x F!Reader Warnings: smut (p in v, oral), swearing, dom!Kai, dirty talk (but it’s not until Part 2 that shit gets degrading and dark) Word Count: ~3.8k
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“On your knees.”
It’s been forever and a day, since you last laid your eyes on Kai. Since then you’ve searched for him across the whole entire fucking sky. Whatever words you had expected him to say… you never would have dreamt of these.
On your knees.
The blood in your veins is on fire; it burns as the blue of his gaze starts to freeze. The blaze rises higher, so desperate to melt down this fortress of ice that you hadn’t believed you would find. Paid the rumors no mind—he’s a bounty hunter or a gun for hire, who would sell his soul to any well-paying buyer, or so everybody agrees—yet you’ve come here to seek out the true heart of gold that you know lies behind. But all gold can be sold and it seems that he’s taken his fees.
And now he’s set on taking whatever he damn well may please.
Your voice escapes your throat pathetically. “Kai, it’s me…”
Cocks his head. Lifts his brow. Silent laughter at what you just said. Obviously. But who you are doesn’t mean shit to him now. “Aye, I see.”
You might just choke. The heart that never once stopped beating for this godforsaken rogue just fucking broke.
He snickers down as if the beating of your heart is just a joke. The curl of those cruel lips holds even more force than his words. And that’s what brings you to your knees and makes you weak, so weak it hurts, as he comes close and rests his palm against your cheek, piercing your soul straight to the core with just one stroke.
Straight to the core. Summon what strength you have to speak, unsure whether the vows that you once made have any value anymore. “I’ve come back to you just as I swore…”
“Of course,” he utters as those ice-blue eyes seek out and strike the deepest truth in yours. “You’ve come to me just as you were before: still nothing but a worthless fucking whore.”
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--- Years Earlier ---
“Impressive.”
You smile over your shoulder as he comes up from behind to wrap his arms tightly around you, in a warm embrace that’s all at once affectionate and aggressive. Passionate and possessive. Just as his touch is every night when he pins you to bed and pounds you.
Kai is wildly impressed to see you standing tall at the helm of this ship where he’s found you. The ship is in shambles and beaten down, long since abandoned here out on the plains past the outskirts of town. Still the grandeur of spacefaring vessels like this never fails to astound you. The freedom that they represent gives you hope that someday you and Kai might escape from this planet that’s bound to the rule of a ruthless imperial crown.
Yet this starship is broken and dead. It feels good to stand here for a bit and pretend you can steer it—steer something for once in your life so that you can cling onto what little is left of your spirit, forge on towards the future instead of just having to fear it… but you know it’s best not to let false hope get to your head.
“You’d make a fetching pilot, love,” Kai purrs into your ear while he plants kisses on the soft skin of your neck. “So fucking hot I think you might stir up the engine of this wreck. Won’t be surprised if you just up and fly it off.”
The laughter on your lips melts into his, as you lean back to taste his kiss. “I wish I could. The two of us would fuck shit up in space so good.”
“Aye, that we would.”
For now Kai is more than content to fuck you up against the window of this spacecraft and you both know that’s exactly what’s in store. Know you were put upon this planet just to serve him as his filthy little whore. On any planet you would always be just that and nothing more.
Through the layers of both of your clothes you can feel the thick length of his shaft, pressed up against your lower half. Desperate hands reach into his pants to set him free and grasp at every perfect inch of him that you exist to worship and adore.
“Impressive,” you echo his words from before.
He chuckles in that playfully suggestive, sinful way that always hits you in the slick heat of your core. The man knows he’s massive. He wields his cock like a damn weapon of war.
But with you it’s a war fought for love and he makes it so pure.
It’s just unfathomable to you that this man is fucking yours.
You’ve only ever been to this small corner of the vast expanse of space, yet when you look upon his face, you have no doubt that he’s the most beautiful man in all the universe.
As ever in his presence you’re tempted to fall on your knees. It’s your favorite position: to kneel before him in submission. To swallow his cock till he fills your throat with his delicious release. Kai knows this but is ever the tease. He knows just what you’re wishing, but holds you up right where you are to prevent you from sinking so he can keep kissing your lips, one hand gripping your hips, while the other roams over the parts of your body that nobody else ever sees.
“K-Kai please…”
“What is it you want?” he sadistically taunts, and then animalistically grunts, as he feels the wetness of your cunt.
You can’t speak, at the touch of his fingers exploring the treasures they seek.
So he feeds you the words. “This big cock in that sweet little mouth of yours?”
“Yes—please, yes…!” you gasp, heightening his desire as well as your own as you handle his hardness with long strokes and squeezes, loving how it throbs in your tightening grasp.
Kai loves making you plead, getting off on the way that you moan for him over and over again. Till he’s ready to finally provide what you need. Ready now then he reckons. A wicked smirk crosses his mouth and it threatens to end you this second. “Indeed. Since you’re beggin’.”
At last then he lets you sink down to the floor, where you instantly bury your face in his crotch and start slobbering madly all over his cock because this is what you fucking live for.
He smells and tastes simply divine. Better than any man fucking should. Smash your nose in the fine golden hairs at the base of his dick and get drunk on his scent like it’s wine… swipe your tongue up the length in a sensuous line…God it’s good. The salt and sweetness and the musk with earthy undertones of wood. You know nothing of what gods exist in this world or the next, other than being certain that Kai is a living breathing god of sex.
His fingers tangle in your hair, pulling you closer into him and holding you right fucking there. It’s heaven when he plows your throat. No other feeling could compare. You reach to clutch at the firm muscles of his ass and meet his blue gaze as you eagerly wait for him to unravel and explode. The twinkle in his eye reminds you that you’re his and that he never wants to share, just as he’s yours and no one else deserves the privilege to take his precious load.
You take it down with your cheeks hollowed, throat contracting tight around him as he groans in utter bliss. Your love for him deepens with every drop you’ve swallowed, since the day when you first met and every day and night that’s followed. Didn’t think it would be possible to love him more than this. To be so cock-drunk and so lovestruck… fuck, it’s glorious.
Your worship of him always takes him somewhere far beyond the stars. So fucking far. He loves the whore you are, just as you love the whore he is. The kind of love that heals as deeply as it scars. You’re only whores for one another which is why the love you make is always pure no matter how dirty it is.
He worships you in turn, that filthy mouth on him a fire-breathing sin. Making you burn. Laying his claim to every last inch of your skin and every fiber of your being deep within. Your impulse is to be down on your knees for him but when the man insists on pleasuring your cunt—because for him your pleasure’s always at the forefront—well of course you just give in.
And then he fucks your cunt to pieces to make sure you won’t ever forget that his sex is the reason you’re living.
You can’t begin to wrap your mind around him being so damn perfect. But you sure as hell can wrap your pussy tight around the war weapon that’s pumping deep inside of you so powerfully erect. Both of you like it good and rough, and soon enough, this stranded spaceship’s not the only thing that’s wrecked.
The vessel tilts a little bit with his last thrust; this ship is huge but so is Kai, and he’s apparently so strong that he just rocked the goddamned deck. That shit is so insanely hot you might just die. Combust. Crumble to dust. As you both come down from the high, your pulse is racing and he traces its pace with his parted lips pressed to your neck.
The two of you remain entwined for hours, as you always do. Whispering sweet nothings that you wish could be true. Let’s just pretend this ship is ours. That the universe is ours. That we’ll fly away, and soar the skies someday, just me and you. But nothing is nothing regardless of how sweet it seems, and you can’t fly away from the fact that the universe bows to formidable powers. To forces that devastate dreams, through and through.
To the powers that be. Powers that crush all hopes of ever being free or being happy.
Kai reads your mind as your thoughts drift to that dark place. Knows that it’s time to tell you what he came to say, when he found you aboard this ship today, before he got distracted and ended up fucking your brains out past the farthest reaches of space. It’s not a message that he’s eager to convey. But it’s an order that you can’t really afford to disobey.
Still he wants you to stay, blue eyes begging you to as he softly caresses your face. Yet he knows on some level that dreams of resistance are silly to chase. That the price of just one slice of heaven is steep and there’ll be hell to pay.
He clears his throat and breathes in deep, wishing the price weren’t so damn steep. “Meant to tell you that he’s been… requesting your presence again.”
You had known to expect this. Chosen to neglect this. As if you could run to some empty abandoned starship to hide from the constant demands of that monster who thinks he’s a god among men.
But you can’t and to even attempt this… is useless and reckless. Though Kai referred to the imperial officer’s order as just a request, it was obviously a command. So you stand, smooth your skirt with a trembling hand—knowing Kai wishes he could hold on to you now and protect what is rightfully his—but your honor is yours to defend. No one else’s. All yours in the end.
He knows this too but wishes he didn’t. He hates this part. Watching you leave is the part when he cages his heart, locking it in a block of cement. “So you’ll just run off to him then?”
All too familiar with his defense mechanisms, you don’t halt your rhythm. The whole fiasco of this moment is always the same with him, despite the fact that he must know this isn’t something either one of you enjoys. So rather than rushing to blame him, or letting the swell of emotions inside you erupt into violence, you cast him a side glance, remind him in silence: it’s not as if I have a choice.
Evidently today the cement is much thicker than usual; the next words off his lips at your lack of response come off particularly cruel. “What, lost your dignity and your voice?”
God, he knows how to hit your inner slut, and make her want to die. To bleed her dry. His name escapes your throat in a defeated sigh. “Kai…”
He hates himself right now more than that monstrous fucking officer or anyone at all. Down to his core. Your knees just buckled and he rushes to catch you before you fall, but he’s so broken now himself that you both end up on the floor, down on your knees. The words he’d just uttered were driven by demons he’s struggling to bury—lately there have been a whole lot of these. Pulls you in close and releases his heart from its stone wall, as he dissolves into a mess of regrets and apologies. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry.”
Inevitably you end up making love, which is the only answer when words aren’t enough. Soft and slow. But it has to end quickly, because you have somewhere to be. Can’t hold on to the afterglow. Leave before tears overflow. Just a few words then you have to go.
You wish Kai could see things from your point of view. He gives you every reassurance that he gets it; his response earlier was impossibly harsh but he clearly regrets it. Still you can’t help but feel as if he’s disappointed in you. Despite how authoritative the Imperium is and the consequences that are sure to ensue if you stand up against it… he sees your obeying the officer’s orders as something you’re making the choice to do.
And that view baffles you because how could you possibly choose to do something that fucking destroys you?
The officer knows all your weaknesses. If you should ever defy him he’d go after Kai, to hit you where he knows it would hurt you the most and you can’t stand to think or to speak of this. You’d rather die. And your fear of that terrible punishment forces your hand; you must heed his command. Without having to spell this shit out you just wish Kai would understand why.
“I understand,” he says, but he can’t meet your pleading gaze. He’s not quite certain whether what he said is true, and surely you would see right through. Instead looks out the spacecraft window at the distant stars that deign to cast their rays upon this conquered stretch of land. It feels like pity and that shit infuriates him in a million fucking ways. “I understand, I do. It just kills me to think of someone else inside you—”
“Kai, I’ve told you time and time again to trust me that he hasn’t…”
“That’s not even what I meant.”
“It’s what you said.”
With worlds of pain behind his plaintive eyes he reaches out to cup your cheek then smooths his thumb across the creases in your forehead. “What I meant is that I just can’t shake this sense that he’s gotten inside your head. To men like that nothing is sacred. He’s attracted to your spirit ‘cause he knows that he can break it. Wants to wait for you to give your body to him though it’s well within his power to just take it. And whatever little honor you’ve got left down to the final fucking shred… he won’t stop till it’s fucking dead.”
His warning chills you to the bone, because you know it to be true. For better or worse you’ve got some defense mechanisms of your own. Just a few. Brush off his touch and clench your jaw and let a little bit of spite sharpen your tone. “So then what would you have me do? Not all of us can be as honorable as you.”
Now his jaw clenches too. So hard that he might be at risk of breaking it. “The choice is yours, of course,” he mutters, eyes flashing an icy shade of blue. “Just know you’re making it. Don’t hide behind the lie your hand was forced.”
At that you turn to leave him with a scoff, throwing a bitter glare that tells him to fuck off.
But just before you disembark, you catch a glimpse of some metallic thing that glimmers in the dark. The mess of clothes that Kai had flung off of his shoulders when he fucked you up against the window, some hours ago… he’d had a gun tucked in among them and the sight of it right now is fucking stark. You have no reason to be shocked about it though.
He wasn’t hiding it from you; the fact that he’s been packing unauthorized arms is something you already knew. That doesn’t mean it’s something you wanted to know. Seeing this fatal metal thing strikes you as such a blunt reminder of what he intends to do. And you know where it’s bound to go.
Where your gaze and your thoughts wander his always follow. “There’s a strategy session set up for tomorrow,” he states in reference to the folks in your town who believe independence is something that any respectable person would die to defend. Even if it means battling forces against which they can’t even try to contend. “May be able to make concrete plans now that we’ve finally got enough guns stashed in our secret cargo. I already know better than to ask whether you’d want to attend. Guess the answer will always be no.”
The two of you have talked about this countless times before. And every time it turns to fucking when you both can’t bear the talking anymore. It’s irresponsible and immature, but in the rosy throes of youth, it seems to you love is the only fucking truth, the only thing you know for sure. The only thing that’s clear and pure. Love keeps you whole so you don’t fall apart from fear of what your hopeless-looking future has in store.
But you’re not that young, and you can’t just fuck away these pressing issues for that long. He can’t just kiss you to prevent the words from falling off your tongue. He knows it too and so you sit and talk for once and hope shit doesn’t go too wrong.
You admire and love him for being so brave and so strong. Tell him so. But that small band of big-hearted rebels is not somewhere you feel you’ll ever belong. He has to let it go.
And you have to let go of your hope that he might change his mind. That he might decide doing what makes sense to simply survive matters more than misguided delusions of honor chasing after some kind of freedom he won’t ever find.
You tenderly caress his face and feel the warmth of his blood rush to meet your hand. It’s all that you can do to pray his precious blood won’t spill someday fighting a war over some worthless stretch of land. This lovely planet is your home but in your eyes it’s all worth nothing without Kai. “I know how fiercely you believe in your brothers, and in your friends. In the rebellion that all of you have planned. What terrifies me is this feeling that it’s fucking doomed to fail and if you die… I can’t fathom anything worse. Of course I know the choice to fight with them is yours, but for my part I’m not as brave as all the others. I can’t bring myself to stand behind this cause when I’m afraid it won’t be worth it in the end. Please understand.”
Kai leans into your touch and turns his face to kiss your palm, cracking a sad smile to fight the tears that otherwise would come. Unshed they shine like stars hiding behind his eyes so blue. “Aye, I do.”
It’s a lie. Lie as big as the sky. But he hides behind it till it might become true, or at least fucking tries to.
At that it’s time for you to go, fearing that you should have done so hours ago. The sheer pressure of fear shatters you; fact is deep down it shatters him too. He just copes with his hopes and fears in a more complicated way.
“I promise I will always come back to you.” These are the same words that you always say, when you leave—words you fiercely believe—to assure him that nothing could keep you away.
When you leave him with those words Kai usually lets you, eventually once he’s done venting all his pent up rage and dealing every card he has to play. But evidently not today. “You wouldn’t have to. If you’d just stay.”
The way his voice trembles with gentleness, with selflessness, as he abandons every one of his defenses… it fucking kills you when he gets this way. It doesn’t happen often, and it always makes your heart open and soften. “That’s true. Maybe I can keep him waiting just one day…”
His eyes go wide, unable to believe that this is something you would actually decide. It makes him love you even more and suddenly he’s shy and blushing as if he thinks he’s unworthy of the privilege of your touch. “Or just one hour or one minute for I ought to know I shouldn’t ask too much—”
You shut him up with your forefinger pressed against his luscious lip. Provocatively bite your own to make it known that you want him to spend all day fucking you up against this ship.
Last time he did it shook the whole entire deck; maybe this time the sex will be so fucking hot that it’ll set fire to this wreck. Wouldn’t put anything past Kai. It’d be a perfect way to die.
Slamming your back against the window of this wrecked dreadnought, he effortlessly reads your every thought—goddamn that thought just now was a particularly bold one—and from his wicked smirk it’s plain to see that he agrees it would be perfect and insanely fucking hot. “You might want to hold on.”
And you do, clinging closely to him like the sky clings to stars at the coming of dawn. In the bright glare of day they’ll no longer shine through. But that won’t mean they’re gone.
Here tonight, and even if they’re out of sight, come morning light… all the stars in his eyes shine for you. With those stars guiding you, you’ll hold on.
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… To be continued in Part 2!
The plan is for Part 2 to explore more of the earlier timeline and also carry forward the opening scene of course, which is when dark degrading dom!Kai will be out in full force 🔥
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Hey, do you accept planet of apes requests?
I uh, that's a new one. Maybe. Would depend on the character and which movies. 🤔
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Thinking about Felix letting you play with his fingers while he's studying I could cry
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He can feel you getting fidgety beside him at his desk. You're sat in a plush pink heart-shaped chair he'd bought you specifically for his dorm room.
He offers you his hand rather covertly – as if there's someone else in the room. The invisible audience remains aloof when you take his large hand into your smaller one.
His piercing sparkles against the sun filtering through his wicker window frame.
"Ya' like your classes?" Felix asks
"Mhm," you nod. "Got a hundred on my last paper." You bend one of his fingers forward, tracing the pad of your index over one of his rings.
"Oh, yeah?" He turns to look at you softly.
There's an allude to tease in his tone.
You nod, pulling your bottpm lip between your teeth prudently.
Felix leans back into his chair, linking his hands together over his chest. He smiles teasingly at you – assessing you though his eyes never leave your own.
"Y'always like this?"
"Hm?" Your brows furrow
"Shy. You're like..." He gestures to you with a hearty laugh, "you're like a little mouse."
"I don't know–"
The smoke of his cig swirls and divets through the light of his window.
Felix's hands come down to rest on the tops of your thighs. He gently squeezes the plush of them.
"Uh huh," a grabs the cig from the decorative ashtray you'd gifted him only a few weeks prior. Dark eyes remain on your own. "Remind me what you got on that paper of yours."
"A hundered."
"Mm," he hums, taking a drag of the cigarette. His free hand squeezes the skin right above your knee. "Such a smart girl, huh."
Felix smiles from behind the cig between his lips, and you can feel heat fill your cheeks. Suddenly, you're tracing over his features, noting each one in a gooey haze.
A light tap on the side of your thigh pulls you back.
"Lemme finish this, and then I'll go get ya' some lunch, yeah?"
You nod and take hold of his hand again.
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nyxvuxoa-writes · 4 months
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Hello love 💕
I'm making sure to send my love to my dear writers that I've become in love with with 💙
I love you 💞
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Awww, thank you. I'm sorry I haven't been on. Life has felt crazy.
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nyxvuxoa-writes · 4 months
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I'm still alive, I promise. Just working a lot (full time work at an AL center), moving into a new apartment this weekend, and sick. I wanna work on fics, and need to refind my motivation and inspiration. Everything is still in my drafts, and I haven't forgotten about it.
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nyxvuxoa-writes · 5 months
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Kylo Ren headcannons
This short story includes NSFW headcannons and SFW
There's a bit of angst
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~ He's possessive, very. If you think you can just have a conversation with general Hux like a normal person you're sadly mistaken
~ He towers over you
~ he always has his hands on you, your thighs, around your shoulder, your hand resting in his. I feel like he needs that extra reminder that you're here with him
~ Kylo won't show public affection, if you're being stared down by a certain stormtrooper he'll take pursuit but if it's just holding hands in public it's kind of a big no no
~ he has scars everywhere, his chest, back of his thighs, knees, everywhere. When you first ran your hands over them he was embarrassed and confused, but now he knows it's just a form of you showing your affection for him
~ if you're arguing he won't say sorry first when you first get together. It takes him time to understand how to work together in a relationship
~ little glances from under his helmet, no one can see where his eyes are going.. including you
~ his dark secret is he loves when you play with his thick black hair, it lulls him to sleep
~ Kylo really has beautiful hair, that's the only way to explain it. The way it swings while lightsaber training, how it falls on his pillow during sleep, it fluffs up sometimes and when it does...oh my god
~you're the only person allowed to call him Ben
~you told him he was pretty in the first month or so you were together and he got confused
~there was a time when you got jealous of Rey and the attention she was getting and Kylo had to remind you that he only wants you
~his gorgeous full lips, they feel so good everywhere
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~ I think that he can be pretty sensual during sex
~please tell him he's doing good
~his voice is just so pretty he doesn't moan often but when he does it's like a little surprise for you
~call him sir if he's feeling dominant, if it's slow sensual call him Ben
~mask on during dominant sex-
~I shouldn't even be saying this because it's so obvious but size kink HUGE size kink. Everything about him is big, dick, height, muscles, hands. If you express how you like how big he is he puts it to action in the bedroom
~I think he's really good at eating pussy (big noses😩)
~you couldn't fit him all the way in the first time
~use your pointer finger and thumb to rub his tip
~his tip is definitely a red shade. His cock gives off angry vibes
~this man's sex drive is insane, same with stamina
~Hux walked in one time and Kylo just kept thrusting harder, maybe it was to make Hux jealous, or maybe because he just doesn't care whose watching
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nyxvuxoa-writes · 7 months
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[𝚄𝚙𝚍𝚊𝚝𝚎]
I wanted to apologize for not having gotten any requests posted or anything new posted. Shortly after moving I have gotten a full time job, and it does take a lot out of you. And have had a few health issues come up. But, I wanted to say that I haven't forgotten or abandon any requests, as I am still excited to get to them. Hopefully I will have the motivation and inspiration to try and get some done on some days off coming up.
Please know, I am slowly working my way back around as I adjust to this new schedule and work life. ♡♡♡
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nyxvuxoa-writes · 8 months
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I'm sorry I haven't gotten anything new posted this week. The move took a lot out of me mentally and we were still getting situated. I haven't abandon your requests, but I did want to update that things have been a little stressful and I needed to slow myself down for a moment. Thank you for being patient with me.
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nyxvuxoa-writes · 9 months
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Want It
A/N: Don't look at me. This spilled out of me. This takes place before the movie, even before Annie. Not beta'd.
Rating: E (18+ ONLY)
Word Count: 3,913
Pairing: Dark!Ethan Campbell x Student F! Reader (she is 18)
Plot: Your dream of confessing your feelings to your tutor turns out to be a nightmare.
WARNINGS: non-con/rape, dubcon/coercion, obsession/stalker vibes, age gap, power dynamics/imbalance, mindfuck/gaslighting, blackmail, assault, degradation/humiliation, name-calling, praising, creampie, non-consensual photos, restraint, faceslapping, unprotected PiV, oral sex (F receiving)
DEAD DOVE, DO NOT EAT
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Today's the day. You can't wait to tell your tutor the great news and while on the way home from school, you were so nervous and excited. You also decided today is the day you're going to confess your feelings for him since it's your last session. Knowing that the house would be empty during this time, you took advantage of the opportunity. After checking yourself in the mirror, you head downstairs to the sitting room where he's looking through his notes.
"Hi, Ethan. Sorry, just had to freshen up a bit," you apologize as you walk over to him with an extra pep in your step.
"It's no problem," he smiles politely.
You sit down next to him and he scoots over to accommodate you.
"So how was school?" he asks, shifting his attention to you.
"It was great," you smile at him.
"Oh, yeah?" he starts, adjusting his glasses and looking at you expectantly. "So...?"
You both stare at each other for a few moments until you finally break the suspense lingering.
"I passed! I'm graduating!" You squeal in excitement, bouncing in your seat.
"That's amazing!" Ethan reacts with equal excitement. "Congratulations!" 
His arms spread wide open as he stands up and you do the same, stepping into his space and wrapping your arms around his torso for a full body hug. You hold him a bit tighter and longer, smelling his chest.  
"I knew you could do it, kiddo."
With your arms still around him, you pull back to look up at him. He curiously tilts his head looking back at you.
"What is it?" he asks, a bit concerned.
"There's... there's also something else I want to tell you."
"Okay," he nods, releasing you. "Is everything okay?"
"Y-yeah, of course," you sputter, letting your arms fall to the side and shifting your weight from one leg to the other. "Um..."
You look down at your loafers trying to conjure up the courage to tell him.
"You know you can tell me anything, right? I won't judge you," he says.
You look up at his sincere and comforting face and flash him a tight-lipped smile. Glancing behind you, you shuffle over back to the couch to sit down and Ethan follows. With his hands folded on his lap, he waits patiently. You take a deep breath and sit up straight, puffing out your chest.
"Ethan, I like you," you finally tell him, letting out a breath of relief, but you hold your breath again when he doesn't respond. 
He looks back at you with a blank expression and slight tilt to the head.
"Well, I like you too, kiddo. You're one of my best students," he says casually, relaxing into the couch. 
You try to read his face and body language and realize he misunderstood you.
"N-no, I mean... like like."
Ethan stiffens.
"I've always thought you were so cute and handsome and kind and sweet. You always listen and know the right things to say," you smile, and turn your face away suddenly feeling shy. 
You've had a crush on him since you first met him in the beginning of the school year. He's older than you. Not in an “old enough to be your father” kind of way, but his beard, brow rim glasses and slicked back hair makes him appear older than he is, which you prefer. He's so attentive to you and makes you feel special. Biting your lower lip, you gaze up at him from under your lashes. Ethan adjusts himself on the couch and clears his throat, avoiding eye contact. You frown when he doesn't react in a way you had hoped.
"I'm sorry I made you uncomfortable--" you start to apologize.
"N-no!" Ethan cuts in. "I just... wasn't expecting this."
Feeling brave, you scoot closer to him and cautiously put your hand on his knee. He looks down at your hand and then back up at your face. 
"You're not like the boys at school, not like Ben. You know how to treat a lady."
His attention shifts back down to your hand when it slowly slides up his thigh.
"Ben? Your boyfriend?" Ethan asks.
"Ex," you shake your head and continue to inch higher, but he doesn't budge.
"I-I'm sorry, I'm overstepping." Feeling dejected, you pull your hand away and stand up to walk away.
"Wait!" 
You feel Ethan's long, thick fingers wrapped around your wrist, pulling you back down. You look back at him and notice a flicker in his eyes.
"I have a confession too," he starts and you give him your undivided attention. "I like you too," he flashes a warm smile. "Like like."
Your face lights up and you give him a smile so wide, it hurts your face.
"I think you're cute too," he compliments. "You're smart, always so eager and excited to learn. You have this bubbly personality with this infectious laugh, yet also so adorably shy and innocent." 
He scoots closer to you and your heart beats faster. He brings a hand up and caresses your cheek with his thumb. Your face gets hot at his touch and you look away again.
"I'm not that innocent." You look back at him coyly, now knowing the feelings are mutual.
Ethan is caught off guard when you climb onto his lap, straddling him and then pressing your lips over his. He freezes up for a moment but then you feel him kissing you back. You smile against his lips and deepen it. His muscles relax as he continues to make out with you. You flinch when you feel Ethan's hand grabbing your ass under your skirt so with your hands, you move his to your waist without breaking contact. His hands wander again and you shift uncomfortably on his lap, but then you feel him slide his hand to your front under your skirt and you flinch again.
"Wait, Ethan, s-slow down," you breathe out and then put your hands on his chest to try to put a little distance between you two, but he pushes you down onto the couch and smashes his mouth against yours.
His hand reaches between your legs again and you try to push his hand away.
"Ethan-"  you let out a nervous chuckle and try to squirm away, but he follows you.
“Don’t be shy,” he tells you, reaching under your skirt again.
“Okay, Ethan, stop.” You push away from him again, more firmly this time, but he pins your hands above your head and your body against the couch, feeling his erection poking you.
"Stop being a fucking tease," Ethan growls, hovering his face above yours.
You freeze, staring back up at him, shocked at his aggression.
"Don't be all coy now. You think I don't notice when you purposely crossing and uncrossing your legs, flashing me your panties, showing what you're wearing underneath your rolled up uniform skirt?" With one large hand holding down your wrists, the other hand caresses the top of your thigh under your skirt.
"Or how about dropping something in front of me and bending over so I can see your ass and the outline of your pussy lips under that tight thong? Hm?"
You don't respond. You simply look away, dodging his uncomfortable gaze when he leans into you but his face follows yours, forcing you to acknowledge him. 
"Just the other day, you tripped and fell on my lap."
"T-that was an accident," you quickly explain.
"Yeah, sure it was," he jabs. "Was it also an accident when you rubbed your ass against my crotch?"
"I-I was trying to get off of you. I was in an awkward position--"
You stiffen and your thighs clamp together tight when you feel his hand forcing his way up until his fingertips brush against the front of your underwear.
"Fuck, are you wet already?" he asks, impressed. 
Your body is still tense and he senses it.
"Don't be nervous. I promise to be gentle," he assures you, planting a tender kiss on your cheek.
You feel his fingers start rubbing you and you buckle your knees when he runs them over your clit.
"You like how that feels?" he asks, drawing lazy circles around your clit, making your hips twitch.
You're conflicted. You did want to go all the way with Ethan, but after seeing this side of him, you're not so sure anymore. You have dreamt about this day many many times, but this is not how you ever imagined it. 
"It's okay, you don't have to tell me. I know you're enjoying this. Why else would your panties be so soaked?" he says as he continues to tease you. "You're right about not being so innocent."
"I-I'm a virgin," you quickly throw out, hoping maybe he'll ease up.
"Don't fucking lie to me," he spits out and you recoil. "I know you're not a virgin. I saw you and that boy - was that Ben? - in your bedroom on your 18th birthday party, which frankly, I wasn't sure why I was even invited in the first place but now I know. I don't know if you purposely left the door ajar or you were careless, but I saw you bent over on your bed getting fucked so hard and..." A guttural noise emits from his throat. "I'll admit, I got so jealous, but since then, every night I've jerked off to you, imagining how tight and soft your pussy probably feels."    
You swallow hard as you stare back at him in complete fear. You're hoping someone comes home soon, but you know it wouldn't be for at least another hour and unfortunately, Ethan probably does too. He knows the schedule and it's been consistent for the last ten months. 
"I bet your mouth is soft too," he adds, his gaze landing on your mouth. You gasp when he uses his knee to shove your leg apart and then cups your pussy, rubbing you harder through your underwear. 
"Gosh, you're just getting wetter by the minute," he says. "I wanna taste you."
Ethan releases your wrists and as he moves down your body, you scramble away, but he quickly grabs your ankle and pulls you back in under his body and holds you down.
"The more you resist, the more rough I'll have to get. It's up to you how you want it. It makes no difference to me, but I do have to admit that the struggling makes it a little more fun," he smirks. "You're a good girl, right?"
"P-please don't hurt me," you plead.
"Shh, shh, no, I'm not gonna hurt you," he consoles you, nudging his nose against your temple, placing butterfly kisses on your face. "I promise you're gonna like it. Now stay put or I'm gonna have to restrain you."
You stay still as he makes his way down your body again. You look away when he lifts up your pleated skirt. He grabs each side of your soaked thong and peels it off of you, then down over your hips and legs.
"Well, look at that. No fuzz at all. Did you shave your pussy just for me?" he looks up at you, flattered. "Or are you always this pretty?"
You ignore his questions and focus on something, anything in the room to distract you as he spreads your thighs, your knee high socks and shoes dangling on each side of his shoulders. Your body betrays you when you let out a moan, feeling his mouth on you. His tongue expertly plays with your folds and alternately darts the tip inside you. Your hips buck when he starts sucking on your clit. You look down between your legs and make eye contact with Ethan. His darkened eyes frighten you. His whole mouth is latched on to you and his beard tickles your smooth lips and inner thighs.
"You taste so sweet," he says. "Just like you."
He plants a kiss on your pussy and then slides his middle finger inside you. You squirm but he lays his forearm across your hips to hold you down and insert a second finger. He pumps them in and out of you and goes back to using his mouth, lapping at your juices. His fingers dig deep, stroking you in places that are turning you on more, especially with the combination of the pressure of his soft tongue on your sensitive clit. You look away again and try to think about something else, something to block out what's being done to you, but you can't ignore the warm coil in your belly. You were told to always trust your gut but the knots you're feeling are a combination of fear and arousal and you don't know what to make of it.
Your back arches off the couch when you feel your g-spot getting stroked and the coil quickly tightening.
"Ethan!" You look down at him. "S-stop!"
But he ignores you and continues to jam his fingers into you while licking your clit, watching you thrash about. You reach down and shove his face away as you wiggle back. He adjusts his glasses as he looks back at you. Bracing yourself, expecting him to blow up on you, but instead you're met with a wide smile. 
"So you're gonna make me work for it, huh?"
You both stare at each other for a few beats, unmoved, watching to see who will make the next move. Taking your chances, you suddenly leap off the couch and head for an escape, but Ethan quickly launches himself at you and you barely take three steps.
"Ah ah! Where do you think you're going?" 
Ethan hooks his arms around your torso, lifting you up as you kick and scream.
"You like the teasing and the chase, don't you?" He grunts into your ear. "Just like a slut!"
He throws you back down on the couch and straddles your hips.
"You feel this?" He grabs your hand and places it over his crotch where you can feel his erection.
You try to pull your hand back but he grips you tighter, forcing you to touch him. 
"You did this.  And every time you fighter back harder, it just makes me want to fuck you even more. So you're only doing this to yourself, sweetheart. You wanted this," he states.
Your chin starts trembling as a tear leaks out from the corner of your eye.
"Shh, no, don't cry. I promise I'm gonna take care of you."
He reaches down to caress your face, wiping the tears away. You slap his hand away and try to hit him, but he pushes your wrists away and then backhands you across the face.
"Look what you made me do!" His jaw twitches. "I don't want to hurt you, okay? But you're leaving me no choice." 
He forcefully turns you over and you cry out when he yanks your arms behind your back. While holding your wrists together with one hand, the other starts undoing his belt. When he successfully gets it off, he binds you with it. He then positions you on your belly and pulls your hips back so you're on your knees with your ass up and face down.
"Would you look at that?" he says in awe.
You cringe when he lets out a groan of pleasure. You hear him moving behind you and your eyes get wide hearing a zipper.
"You don't have to do this," you tell him. 
"Oh, yes I do. You wanted this."
"No!" you cry out when he shoves himself inside you.
He hisses as he takes a moment to get used to you.
"Fuck, you're so tight," he grits.
He starts thrusting in and out of you, going faster and harder with each stroke.
"God, you feel so fucking good. This is better than I imagined." 
"It hurts!" you cry out.
"Relax, sweetheart. If you relax, it won't hurt," he tells you.
"Please..." you beg. "Ow!"
He moans as he pounds into you from behind, holding your bound arms for leverage. Your skirt bounces, flashing the curve of your ass with every push. You feel the uncomfortable pressure of his cock against your cervix each time he goes in, but the sensation starts to evolve to pleasure with each stroke. Your hips stutter when Ethan's fingertips start playing with your clit again.
"You're so. fucking. wet!" He punctuates each word with a deep thrust and that warm coil returns, making you rock your hips back a little. 
You're now confused at how your body is reacting because it doesn't align with how you're feeling right now. Each time he pushes in, you feel so delightfully full and crave more, but at the same time, you feel so disgusted and terrified. Maybe he's right. Maybe you do want this and did ask for it. You were the one who initiated this whole thing after all. You baited him, teased him, even climbed onto his lap like a desperate whore. And you're enjoying every second of it. Why else would his cock feel so good inside of you? Why else would you feel an orgasm building?
You arch your back a little more, stick your ass out a little higher, spread yourself a little wider for him. Feeling your body relax under his hands, he kneads your hips.
"That's it, take it like a good girl. You know you love it. You've been wanting this for so long." 
You flinch when he spanks your hip. 
"Get on your back," he commands after pulling out. He grips your upper arms to turn you over. 
"You're hurting me!" you tell him, feeling his fingers digging so firmly into your arm, you're sure it'll leave bruises.
"Then do what you're told," he snarls.
You try to throw your weight to get on your back while he helps. The buckle from the belt binding your wrists together digs into your back and you squirm to try to get into a more comfortable position. You look up at him with a tear-stained face. 
"Please let me go. I won't tell anyone--" you plead with him again.
"No, you're not because if you do, I'm going to release the pictures I have of you and Ben fucking," he threatens.
"W-what?" Your face drops.
"Yeah, on your knees, sucking dick. Spread out, getting ate out," he tells you as he starts unbuttoning your blouse. "Have you in so many positions."
A new dread forms in you..
"You'll be the slut who seduced her tutor. Saying you had it coming, that you asked for it. I mean well, you did. You came on to me first," he points out.
"And I really don't want to have to share your pretty pussy with the world." He reaches his hands inside your bra and cups both breasts, massaging them and flicking his thumbs over your nipples. "I wanna be the only one to jerk off to those pictures."
"Why are you doing this to me?" Tears stream down your face as you sob.
"What do you mean?" he asks, confused. "You asked for this," he repeats. 
"No, I didn't," you shake your head as you continue to cry.
"Fuck, your tits are so soft." Ignoring your protest, he leans down and pops one of your nipples into his mouth.
The sensation shoots down your body, below your waist. You try to shimmy to get away from him, but with your arms tied behind you and his weight on you, you're limited. He moves on to your other nipple and swirls his tongue around it. You feel a throbbing between your legs.
Ethan finally pulls back and grasps his heavy cock in his hand to guide it to your pussy. He pushes your skirt up to your waist and teases your slick lips and clit with the tip of his cock, dragging it up and down. Your hips jerk.
Finally he pushes himself into you, filling you up to the hilt. He moans and you gasp. He then pushes your knees up to your chest and starts pumping into you with short and shallow strokes. You yelp when he drives into you hard and fast.
"Shhhh...." He clamps his hand over your mouth and you scream into it while he slams himself into you over and over again, causing the buckle to dig deeper into your back.
"Shh, it's almost over,” he comforts you.
More tears stream down your face. 
“You like that don't you?" Ethan pants, his breathing getting labored. "You like getting fucked by a man?" 
You do, right? Afterall, it’s what you wanted, right? At this point, you don’t fight it anymore and just let him have his way with you. Like he said, it’s almost over. You might as well try to enjoy it.
His pacing picks up, his hips pistoning against yours so hard, his glasses start sliding down his nose. You feel that coil in your gut close to snapping. A few more thrusts and your eyes roll back. You moan into his hand and your hips thrash as you cum all over him. 
“There you go,” Ethan praises. “Fuck, you’re so slippery. I can feel you cumming on my cock. I’m gonna cum too.”
With all his might, he drives into you until he empties himself inside you. You can feel him pulsating inside you as he presses the head of his cock against your cervix. You scream but his hand is still silencing you. He finally releases your mouth and pulls out of you. 
“You got what you wanted. Can you please let me go? I promise I won’t tell anyone,” you ramble.
“One more thing,” he says. “Don’t move.” 
With a relaxed smile, he leans in to give you a tender kiss but you flinch and turn your face away so he misses and catches the corner of your lips instead. You notice his expression subtly hardens for a flash of a moment and then he pulls back, tucking himself back in before digging through his bag. He pulls out his camera and aims it at you.
Feeling vulnerable, you close your legs and turn your face away from the camera, but Ethan forces your legs open.
“You don’t have to smile for me, but I wanna see your pussy with my cum dripping out of you,” he clarifies, groaning as it leaks out of you.
You’re tired and worn down. What’s another photo?
He snaps away, taking various angles of you in your state. When he’s satisfied, he helps you up and releases your wrists.
“I’m sorry for hitting you,” he apologizes as he examines your face.
You recoil from his touch and move away from him as you fix yourself to cover yourself and look presentable again. 
“I can’t wait to fuck that pretty mouth of yours,” he says so casually like he’s talking about the weather.
“There won’t be a next time,” you warn him.
“Your parents agreed that you could use some college prep work before your first semester starts,” he explains. “I was already just excited to prepare you for success before I knew how you felt about me. And now? I look forward to spending time with you even more.” 
Ethan affectionately touches your cheek, but you don’t flinch. Instead, you stare into the nothingness as you process this new information.
“So, are you ready to get started on that, kiddo?”
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nyxvuxoa-writes · 9 months
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𝟐𝒌 𝑭𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒐𝒘𝒆𝒓 𝑴𝒊𝒍𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒏𝒆
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What even is this?! Not gonna lie, I never expected my fic blog to reach this point (especially with blocking blank blogs and minors), but here we are. It was neat to wake up to that. You guys are awesome. Thank you to everyone that reads my work, or shares it, let alone enjoys it.
While I work on the requests in my drafts, I'll think of some sort of milestone celebration thing for people to participate in and make requests. If anyone has any ideas, let me know! For now, I am going to work on the fics I had started before moving.
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nyxvuxoa-writes · 9 months
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Gorgeous
Pairing: The Countess x fem!reader
Warnings: none that I know of,
About: You believe you aren't good enough for a woman like the countess, she shows you otherwise (not smut)
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The Countess, such a gorgeous woman. You were jealous at the fact that she would want someone like you. Insecurity was knawing at your very core. Biting the inside of your cheek, you stared down at the book in front of you that you were trying to distract yourself with, Elizabeth not too far away, admiring you.
"What troubles you my dear?" she asked in a sudden soft voice, making you look up from your book. You shook your head and cast your gaze back down to your book "I-It's nothing, I promise"
Wrong move for the stutter. You then hear shuffling around before she appears behind you, making you go rigid. You knew full well she wouldn't hurt you but you felt like the way you were neglecting her, she would at some point.
You felt gentle arms wrap around you from behind and you felt a pair of soft lips gently kissing your neck, up to your ear "it's not nothing when it makes you feel like this baby.." she hummed as you felt tears brim your eyes.
"Am I good enough?" you suddenly asked, in an instant, your chair was turned and you were facing a crouching Elizabeth in front of you. "You listen and you listen good okay? You are the most gorgeous, sexy, and funny person I could ask for. After James, I thought I wouldn't find love ever again but then you came along and my world was turned upside down. I appreciate every moment I have with you because you make me feel worthy and loved and I hope you feel the same with me" She said seriously, gently squeezing your hands.
You were silent for a couple moments, tears streaming down your cheeks "I love you so goddamn much that it hurts" you whimper, pulling her close and slamming your lips into hers, molding perfectly as she dragged you to your shared bed, never breaking the kiss. It was going to be a long night of worshipping and reconnecting but you wouldn't have it any other way.
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a/n: This is my first fic in a long long time so I hope that it turned out well.
tag list: @nyxvuuxoa @voxmortuus
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nyxvuxoa-writes · 9 months
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Today we finish unpacking and then I'll be back to working on requests. This move has been one fucking hell of a ride with a splash of trauma thrown in... Those requests are gonna be a godsend of a distraction.
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nyxvuxoa-writes · 9 months
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Today is our moving day, and it's downpouring. But once we get settled into the new place, I'll be back to working on fanfictions.
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