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nvcmc · 20 days

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And you no longer choose me,

No longer brings back the butterflies from the past

Like how you made me giggle

And reassures that it’s just me. Only me.

The mysteries have been unlocked,

The path is now just you, me or us,

Every morning seems just like a nod

As Sundays turned overrated and mundane.

Your feelings no longer sparks nor ignites

Leaving me with questions and confusions,

How do we fight this?

Or now, it’s only me.

Love, your love is lacking in deeds and words.

And I already feel so tired after all these years

I hope that at the end of whatever tunnel we have

We will be able to make it through.

May 18, 2024

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nvcmc · 9 months

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nvcmc · 2 years

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The rain is pouring, but all I hear is my cry

brought by the pain that lasts and never seems to die.

How does one get by?

Red flags planted, emotions overshadowed it

now, I suffer as I took the hit

because you want to split.

Do “I” deserve the ache?

When the emotions, the time, and the investment aren’t a piece of cake,

Ohh, wait! Do “I” even have a take?

On the month of May

I thought I let it all swayed,

but only got dismayed.

Months have passed

and things are like a broken glass

I even wished we don’t cross paths.

An afternoon coffee that’s freshly brewed

feeling hopeful and renewed,

but it only made me blue.

As I got a glimpse of you, when I only want to bid you adieu.

Neive MC.

Sept 19, '22

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nvcmc · 2 years

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It’s true what they say, “Some days are just hard.”The past few days I find it so easy to cry. I saw a kdrama that has an episode about an elderly and that triggered some of my suppressed emotions for days now.

I miss my grandparents my tita and my brother, and their passing made me feel scared that one day I might forget my memories of them. How they smile, how they call my name, or how they hugged me.

I don’t think it is right to say you can move on from someone’s demise after years because I don’t think so, and I think I will never understand moving on from one. I think it just adds up when someone passes and that makes it harder every time.

How you would miss someone and then there goes another one. It’s a never-ending pain for me.

Also, I don’t think it’s true what they say “The world will continue even after someone’s death.”

It’s true what they say, “Some days are just hard.”The past few days I find it so easy to cry. I saw a kdrama that has an episode about an elderly and that triggered some of my suppressed emotions for days now.

I miss my grandparents my tita and my brother, and their passing made me feel scared that one day I might forget my memories of them. How they smile, how they call my name, or how they hugged me.

I don’t think it is right to say you can move on from someone’s demise after years because I don’t think so, and I think I will never understand moving on from one. I think it just adds up when someone passes and that makes it harder every time.

How you would miss someone and then there goes another one. It’s a never-ending pain for me.

Also, I don’t think it’s true what they say “The world will continue even after someone’s death.”

Ì thought that whoever might have spilled that has never really loved someone because when you lose someone, as cliche it may sound, you’ll never be the same, it is as if they took a part of you when they left.

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nvcmc · 3 years

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I never realized the strength of memories until today. It reached a full circle of how compelling it is for me—how it could make us feel miserable or happy even when we’re just staring at a single piece of jewelry.

Like the memories we carry when we visit a new place, the joy we accept when we recall thoughts from singing songs we haven’t heard for years, and the tastes of those sumptuous food that only that dear person can cook,

to the people we lost—the crevices on their faces whenever they smile or frown that we so fondly try to hold, their kindness, and the warm hug they give.

that we become fully aware of the space that exists from the time that they passed to the point that we remember them again. And again. 💖

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nvcmc · 4 years

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Quarantined Life

Hey, Tumblr! It’s been awhile I hope I am still allowed to pour my thoughts on this little space on the internet. :)

I hope everyone is safe and well. This quarantined life is so hard, and consuming. It’s been so long since we are able to go out, meet our family, and friends, go to school, and/or work. Have you been coping well? I hope we all are.

Anyway, this has been my view for almost 2 months now. I even tidied my long forgotten stuff behind the macbook for me to get motivated to work, but of course there are times when we just want to slack off, right? HAHA. But, then realize that we need the extra ecstasy of normalcy to keep us sane so, we continue to work our asses off.

Funny how working from home is the one that keeps me going during this pandemic as I am away from my family. Are you like me who also have so many “I wish I...” moments?

Apart from working from home, I’ve just been cleaning, trying to cook whatever my tastebuds can stomach, and savoring the summer heat. Nothing much has really happened from the last time I blogged, and nothing seems to interest me to share on my tiny space here, or there were too much that I cannot seem to put those into a blog anymore.

Have you experienced that moment in time and space when you want to share so much, but cannot find the right words for you to be able to share? I have been stuck in a trance is how I define it. This thin line between being composing, and creating is so deafening I just stopped.

How can someone full of life die?

This quarantined life made me realize so many things that I have been putting on the sideline for a long time. Although I am glad I made a leap by posting this entry, for one, it doesn’t reflect how things really are. Sadly, I cannot even act on it-- I feel in denial, or if I am being honest, I’d say that I lost it. The spark of creativity— the spark.

Oh well, let me end the sad thoughts here. I really hope I can still go back.

Stay safe, tumblr peeps! xo

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nvcmc · 5 years

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It’s when you don’t have anything that you see everything.

Geneive M. 11|18|2019

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nvcmc · 6 years

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Dear You

When I was eight years old, I lived with her. Back then, she would do my hair, prepare my food, buy me different stuff like shorts, bags, and other accessories Lolo won’t approve. She would even sew clothes for me. She subtly spoiled me, and it was our little secret. Our little secret that went on for years as she loves sharing, caring, and giving things not just to me but to all her grandchildren.

You shared your life with us sincerely, and generously.

Last 2016, when I got sick, I didn’t have enough savings as I was new to work so, I asked my mama if she can lend me money to pay for my hospital bills. When I was about to pay the amount, mama told me that I don’t need to pay for it anymore. Little did I know, she was the one who gave me the generous amount.

It’s been ten days since you left, and there is not a day that passed that I did not think of you. I miss you so much, and until now I still remind myself that it’s better now. Just like what I answered others, “there’s no more pain”, but it’s just so hard.

It’s so hard to accept that I won’t see you anymore, that I won’t see you waiting for me whenever I come home, that I won’t hear your snide remarks, that I won’t be able to eat your sumptuous dishes because the constant person who remembers all our birthday has passed-- that you are no longer with us.

Others may say that the length of your stay is a bonus, however, I can’t take it that way. To me, your passing was so fast that it hurts me immensely I’m having a hard time to move on. I have developed a different kind of attachment to you since day one.

I knew that I will sound selfish if I ever asked you to stay longer when I saw how you fought, and tried, but can’t, and I understand. I hoped that you stayed longer as the brave, loving, and happy person as you always were.

Like what Tito said, you don’t like dramas, but please forgive me that I still cry -that my heart is still in pain until now which will probably continue until God knows when, but know that I will also try to be brave just like how you were, and stop crying. I can never quantify all the things you have done for me, but still, thank you for the life you shared with me, and for everything you did.

I love you so much.

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nvcmc · 6 years

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You know what? I hate it when I text you long messages because I know you won't read everything so, you won't really understand my feelings. And then, one time, I wanted to ask you why you don't read my messages, but I stopped when I realized you might answer me "I don't like reading long messages." and that will hurt me. So damn much. but I still do it anyway.

Neive M. (08272018)

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nvcmc · 6 years

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Take me.

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nvcmc · 7 years

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When in Baguio City 💕

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nvcmc · 7 years

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City floras | Baguio City

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nvcmc · 7 years

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Bird’s-eye view from Cityland, Tagaytay in different filters

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nvcmc · 7 years

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Makati City in neon colors.

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nvcmc · 7 years

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Happy 5th, Pi! 💕

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nvcmc · 7 years

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On Analog Photography

I have been in love with photography ever since I was able to bring a film camera on our field trip during my first year in high school. Although the affection wasn’t that deep that time, my love for photography has started growing since then. I started with a point and shoot, and grown out of it. Until, I wanted to buy a DSLR, but due to my nonexistent savings, that will take time.

On another story, back in 2014, I inherited this Minolta X-500 film camera. I was too ecstatic when I held it with my hands that’s why I immediately asked my bf to have it loaded with new batteries and of course, a film. On our visit to Baguio City last 2014, I brought the camera with me. It also served as my test run for the camera if if doesn’t work anymore since it has seated in the cabinet for more than 10 years.

Lo and behold, after 3 years, I was able to have my first roll developed, and the pictures are all amazing!!!

Porac Pampanga

View from SM Baguio City

Obligatory photos!

Given the result it provided, and being closer to where I can have my rolls developed, I will try to shoot more in film now. I am grateful being able to preserve such treasure. More of analog photography soon! Thank you for reading and please do leave some comments. 💕

(P.S. Tumblr made the photos resolution rubbish! I’ve been contemplating of transferring platform. )

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nvcmc · 7 years

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Tondaligan Beach from a film filter.

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