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kazumaple · 17 days

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does anyone else have a strange emotional attachment to random historical figures or is that just me

#nah because richard iii is my best friend #him and anne neville #yujin's rambles #omg jacquetta de luxembourg is also my idol like i love her

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kazumaple · 4 months

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and here it is!! this is the art i made for @parachutingkitten ‘s new youtube video analysis— if you haven’t seen it please go check it out! i know she spent a ton of time working on it and so did i for the thumbnail :D

i had a great time working on this and am very happy with how this turned out! many thanks again to her !! hope everyone likes it :)

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kazumaple · 4 months

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guys i posted it!!

https://www.tumblr.com/kazumaple/738186903401218048/born-to-die-%EA%A8%84-haikaveh?source=share

mm writing a haikaveh angst rn and i cannot find out how to end it someone help meeeeeee

#haikaveh angst #haikaveh

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kazumaple · 4 months

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Happy Birthday, Zhongli!

A good outfit is more precious than gold itself. I chanced upon this as I was cleaning my old place today, and it brought back many fond memories.

The year approaches its end. In former years, the streets would be filled with people setting off fireworks, bidding farewell to the old and ushering in the new.

If you just so happen to be free, please allow me a moment to change and we'll head down there together. It'll be a good opportunity to tell you some new stories too.

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kazumaple · 4 months

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hello all i have to finish two books before tuesday for english lit hl and i want to cry one is boring and the other is long save me

#yujin's rambles #kazumaple

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kazumaple · 4 months

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hi my mind is consumed by ares!alhaitham and aphrodite!kaveh so here's my headcanons for those interested:

all the other gods are always underestimating kaveh thinking he's too sensitive and alhaitham's just like no wtf guys. stop. or else I will destroy everything you love forcefully with my giant holy spear

them sneaking off to sit and be in love while important things are happening: "haitham we're supposed to be solving the famine in sparta." "and??"

them also sneaking off away from hephastus and kaveh feeling super bad )): he's so sweet oml but alhaitham doesn't care. kaveh is his grrr >:(

kaveh eating the things off alhaitham's plate that he doesn't like at banquets since he knows he's a picky eater )):

alhaitham having such adverse reactions to things whereas kaveh having such gentle reactions to things - they balance each other out so earth is not destroyed by the god of war or destroyed by lack of intervention from the god of love

their ways of taking care of things on earth being so different: kaveh gets upset by the way haitham handles things sometimes so he stops so as to not upset his love

they are so crazy about each other. prove me otherwise.

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kazumaple · 4 months

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born to die ꨄ haikaveh

art by @/mezudy678 on twt!!

tw | suicide ideation, death, alchoholism.

word count | 1,424 words ★ genre | angst, mentally ill kaveh, mental illness, major character death, au where haitham dies and kaveh is sad basically, kaveh is delusional, like in the traditional sense, depression/depression-like symptoms, me monopolising on lana del rey's lyrical genius<33

a/n | this has been sitting in my drafts for i kid you not over 6 months i think?!?! so yeah i just thought i should post it before the new year! i ruminated over the ending for so long but yknow new year new me so i just posted it. idk why i always make kaveh suffer but here is he suffering again. enjoy!?!?

link to my masterlist/how to request!

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“I’ll be waiting for you in heaven, my love.”

The firm grip on Kaveh’s hand loosens as he feels his lover’s strength wane, taking not just his own, but Kaveh’s life force with it too.

No, no… just a little longer, please.

“But heaven is a place on Earth with you,” the blonde sniffles, embracing Alhaitham for the last time, “Don’t leave me…I still need you.”

A chuckle erupts from the man next to him, and at that moment, Kaveh wishes he could loop that sound and listen to it forever, to keep Alhaitham in a world of his own design, where they could live together in the grandest of castles, all designed by Kaveh himself.

He would construct them the most convenient house. Two study rooms for when they want to keep their distance from each other, a private library for Alhaitham, and a garden filled with all of Lesser Lord Kusanali’s creations, the plants being residents of the home just as much as Alhaitham and Kaveh would be.

Kaveh sees Alhaitham, chuckling as he does now, smiling at Kaveh, his face aged a little with time, small folds of skin wrinkling around his eyelids as he beams, his happiness radiating, forcing Kaveh to smile along with him. If only time would permit it. Alhaitham is smiling at Kaveh, and he thinks he’s never seen anything more beautiful in his life. He wants to sketch this moment to make it permanent. To cherish the final moments he has with his lover.

“You’ll be fine, Kaveh,” Alhaitham puts a hand under Kaveh’s chin, forcing the older man to meet his deep green eyes, “I love you.”

By this point, Kaveh’s vision is white, and he barely notices Alhaitham pull him for one last kiss until their lips touch. The kiss is gentle and delicate, too delicate for Kaveh’s liking. The lack of strength only serves as a reminder of his lover’s fading energy. Kaveh pulls away for breath, his golden locks now in disarray across his face, the crimson hairclips that once kept his elegant plait together now in mayhem.

“I love you too.”

Those are the last words Alhaitham hears before his vision fades, the silhouette of the man he loves the most looming over him, a teardrop the last thing he feels before he slips into the calming embrace of death.

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Thoughts race across Kaveh's mind like a marathon, as if each thought had something of utmost importance to attend to, leaving the blonde highly disoriented. Even more disoriented than he would usually be at times like this, because at the moment, Kaveh has downed enough litres of alcohol to provide the weekly water intake of a family of 6.

It’s at times like this when he can’t keep his thoughts at bay. Kaveh tries his best. He really does. He tries his best to seem okay. To maintain the façade of normalcy ever since that fateful night. He goes to work, completes his commissions on time, eats all of his meals, and speaks to all of his friends. He meets Cyno and Tighnari every Saturday at Lambad’s tavern for a round of Genius Invokation TCG, his thoughts steering clear of the empty seat to his left. The seat which nobody would dare take after the loss of its original occupant.

Kaveh really does try.

But on nights like this, he can’t help but crack. When he comes home to nobody, no annoying, shrill voice to welcome him, nobody to nag him about his health or his rent. These are the moments when he feels truly lonely, the only reliable friend he can turn to being a tall glass of wine.

He sits alone in their usual spot. Top floor, at the back, so that people are less likely to find them. He knows Alhaitham can’t take people coming up to him after his work hours. Kaveh doesn’t mind. But this is just one out of the long list of habits Kaveh has kept after Alhaitham’s passing. No matter where he may be, heaven or hell, Celestia or Khaenri’ah’s ruins, a part of him will always live on through Kaveh. Always.

At some point, though, Kaveh stopped being alone. He started hearing him again. The gentle words of his lover wafting through his eardrums. At first, it was subtle. A few comments here and there.

“That client is a jackass.”

“Go to sleep, Kaveh.”

“Come on, love, you’ve got a meeting soon.”

But then it became ubiquitous. The sweet, honey-like voice of his deceased lover followed Kaveh around wherever he went. At first, Kaveh thought he was going insane. Now, he doesn’t care enough to worry.

“Don’t you think you’ve had enough, love?” A gentle voice fills his eardrums in an instant, a deep chuckle resounding with it, “Though I’d love to hold you again, I’d like you to live a long, full life before then. Preferably not dying of alcohol poisoning.”

Kaveh scoffs and crosses his arms, “I don’t have to listen to you! What are you doing to do anyway?”

The blonde hears a deep sigh, “I suppose you’re right. I can’t force you to go home, but it would make me very happy if you did.”

Kaveh, in his drunken stupor, actually considers this. With a clear head, Kaveh never would have considered this a valid argument. Kaveh will do what he wants. But alas, the hurricane engulfing his mind causes a lapse in judgment.

“Fine,” he says, begrudgingly, “Only if you cuddle with me when we get home.”

“You’ve got yourself a deal.”

Kaveh then gets up and stumbles out of the tavern, paying the bill off his own tab this time. He supposes a benefit of Alhaitham’s passing was that his wealth and estate were passed on to Kaveh. Though this by no means makes up for the gaping hole in Kaveh’s heart, he is happy with the convenience his newfound wealth has brought him.

The walk home passes in a daze, Kaveh blames this for his lack of comprehension, as by the time he's come to his senses, he’s tucked into bed, wrapped in the arms of Alhaitham once more.

He looks into his lover’s eyes. The orange islands in the sea of green standing out more than ever before. Alhaitham’s arms wrap around him protectively, and he feels the safest he has in months.

“Haitham,” Kaveh sniffles, “It’s been so hard without you here to guide me… I miss you… so much. Every time I think about you it feels as though somebody is ripping my heart out of my chest and stabbing it repeatedly with a knife.”

“C-Cant you come back to me?”

The soft sound of Alhaitham’s honey-sweet voice drips through Kaveh’s ears, “I’m here now, love. I’m here with you now, aren’t I?”

Kaveh groans, “I suppose so.”

“Let’s go to bed now,” Alhaitham whispers soothingly in Kaveh’s ear, “You have a big day ahead of yourself tomorrow.”

Kaveh lets the diluted voice of his lover lull him to sleep, his eyes getting heavier until they slide shut, and Kaveh surrenders to the deliria of dreaming for the night.

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The sun streaks through the gap in the curtains, its rays hitting Kaveh’s face, illuminating his vermillion eyes as they blink open, the fatigue of sleep dissipating. The first thing he feels when he comes to his senses is the utter lack of warmth in his bed. The very bed itself becomes a black hole, Kaveh stumbling over himself to get as far away from it as possible. The very bed that was once the safe haven of him and his lover, turns into the very thing that seems to trap him.

H-He was just here.

The soft embrace of death feels more tempting than ever now. It would be easy for Kaveh to sink into it; his thoughts being engulfed by a soft lulling whisper, convincing him to let go of this world and all the pain it has caused. Nonetheless, he gets up. Brings himself to his feet. Walking towards the bathroom, he surveys the empty walls of his once lively house, accepting the soft, lonely numbness that has become a hallmark of his existence.

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kazumaple · 9 months

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mm writing a haikaveh angst rn and i cannot find out how to end it someone help meeeeeee

#yujin's rambles #kazumaple #haikaveh angst #haikaveh #i just want to post it i put so much effort and I just cannot end it ):

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kazumaple · 10 months

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omg hi guys i have a carrd now look its here so if u wanna learn more about me there's that now 😎

#yujin's rambles

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kazumaple · 10 months

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𝐘𝐮𝐣𝐢𝐧 | 𝐬𝐡𝐞/𝐡𝐞𝐫 : ̗̀➛ 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐟! 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐝.

»»———-------———-««

𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐮𝐭! 𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐲 @𝐰𝐢𝐫𝐲𝐮𝐮 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐰𝐭!

𝐑𝐄𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐒:

𝐢 𝐝𝐨 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐬, 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝐢𝐧𝐛𝐨𝐱! 𝐢𝐟 𝐢 𝐚𝐦 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐬𝐤, 𝐢 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐢𝐭. 𝐢 𝐝𝐨 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭 :)

𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓:

genshin impact - yoimiya, baby you’re a firework! - haikaveh, summertime sadness - haikaveh, born to die - haikaveh greek god headcanons - (wip) alhaitham, mirage of whispering petals

optional bias!

- cupcakes, high school!au - privacy, married couple!au - privacy (2) married couple!au - now or never, enemies!au - cherry, highschool/enemies!au

golden child! - now or never, kim jibeom

verivery! - you, clouds, rain, jo gyehyeon - rest, bae hoyoung - melancholy tears of sadness, lee dongheon

requested!

- bling bling, the boyz, hyunjae

the reader is always gender neutral unless specified otherwise. thanks for checking out my blog ♥

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kazumaple · 10 months

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summertime sadness ✧ haikaveh

ART NOT MINE! credit to original artist, i couldn't find them though ):

word count | 560 words ★ genre | royal!au, inspired by summertime sadness, born to die and various other lana del rey songs, angst, heartbreak <//3, kaveh just wants some love

link to my masterlist/how to request!

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“Choose your last words,” Alhaitham whispers as his lips leave Kaveh’s, “This is the last time.”

The tears glide down the blonde’s cheeks as if they too were running away from him. As if his eyes were such an abhorred place to be that they were forced to pour down his face like a waterfall, leaving him, just as all things in this world eventually do.

He averts his gaze to the cobblestone floor before him and sees his bare feet, the painful shoes he had been forced to wear by my mother long abandoned. All the running he had done to get here to see him. It was all a waste.

“Kaveh,” he whispers, as if the other man’s name were some sort of curse, as if it was now banned from his vocabulary, “Don’t be like this.”

Kaveh scoffs, “Do you expect me to just accept this? To accept that the relationship we’ve cultivated over years has now been rendered invalid? All for some random princess you’ve never even met before?”

“Is it by mistake or design?” Kaveh’s voice is now quiet, so quiet that Alhaitham has to concentrate to make out what he is saying over the rustling of the wind, “Are you doing this just to mock me?”

The tears don’t stop. They come with a force as strong as an infantry, bringing their best cavalry in order to break Kaveh fully. To crush any bit of dignity he has left to show in front of the man he loves.

He feels the energy come up to his face, the red satin shirt he is wearing feeling increasingly sticky and constricting around his chest. He looks up, basking in the pale moonlight. It feels as though the moon is the only entity left constant in his life. Its light reflects into his pupils, burning them with its cool rays. At this moment, he thinks no better end for himself than to lay here and stare at the moon, to leave this Earth accompanied by the only thing that has been with him since he arrived.

Kaveh look into his lover’s eyes once more, finding only a shell of the man he once knew. His grey hair is in disarray, and his usually ever-neat clothing is dishevelled. His pupils dilate as the blonde looks into them, a sign he’d usually see as loving, but now, he can only infer pity.

“Kiss me hard before you go,” I chuckle, but it comes off more like a maniacal rambling, “You can’t just leave me like this.”

“I love you.”

These are the last words Kaveh hears before Alhaitham’s lips are on his, and his arms constrict tightly around him, almost as if he never wanted to let go. He brings his thumb gingerly to the blonde’s face and traces it across the path of his tears, wiping them away as if that would do anything to lessen the pain.

“I think I’ll miss you forever,” he mutters, “Like the stars in the sun miss the morning sky.”

“Just go,” Kaveh spits, “Don’t try to drag this out with empty words.”

Alhaitham looks like he wants to say something, but he stops himself midway and walks off quietly. Kaveh’s thoughts are now left to wander, to forge their own labyrinth of loneliness, with his own sorrow being at the centre instead of a minotaur.

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kazumaple · 1 year

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hello genshin fandom i may have a harvatat scholar!reader x scribe!alhaitham au in the works... haha? its called 'mirage of whispering petals' and i plan to make it quite long as in it'll have multiple parts to it. i am consumed by this man but yes that is coming out so stay tuned ig? its interesting and cool i swear :)

#yujin's rambles #mirage of whispering petals #alhaitham #alhaitham genshin impact #i am down bad for this man someone help me please #aaaaaaaaa #kazumaple

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kazumaple · 1 year

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help i have so many requests ive started that are in my drafts but idk how to continue them someone help me 😵‍💫 😵‍💫

#kazumaple #yujin's rambles

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kazumaple · 1 year

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hello! i loved the dongheon scenario, thank you so so much for writing it ☺️ i look forward to reading more of your work! 🤍

thank you sm!! ik im replying reeeeeally late but this is so nice of u thank u sm anon<33

#kazumaple #requests

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kazumaple · 1 year

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Hiii, can I please request something like how would Jeongwoo from Treasure be like as your boyfriend? I don't know if you write for them so it's okay if you can't.👌🫰

hi!! thank u sm for requesting. i don't write for treasure since i don't really know much about them so i don't think i would characterise them well. thank u sm though im rlly sorry D:

#kazumaple #requests

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kazumaple · 1 year

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um... hi?

hi everyone!! user kazumaple here!! i literally haven't posed anything for a year but i'm back with this yoimiya drabble that's been in the works for a while! (its really short but i worked hard okay?)

i will be trying to get to request asap, but it may take me a while. i am so sorry for literally dipping for like two years but my mental health wasn't the best and i wanted writing to be something i did that i enjoyed and i felt like that wasn't the case anymore back then. but im back now!!

thank you all!!!

#um hi im back #kazumaple #yujin's rambles #hopefully i wont dip for ages again but no promises lol

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kazumaple · 1 year

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baby, you're a firework | yoimiya

(art not mine- credit to: @/haragaita_i on twt!)

word count | 635 words genre | best friend!yoimiya, gn!reader, oblivious yoimiya, fluff, best friends to ...?, just two bffs visiting a festival together :D

you end up going to a festival with your best friend, yoimiya, as you do every year, but this year you feel like you are there more to watch her than fireworks.

★ warnings | reader is very whipped for yoimiya (or is it just me?), yoimiya is BLIND, a lot of pining, unrequited love, reader confesses but yoimiya is too oblivious to catch on

link to masterlist. click here to make a request!

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"Come on, let's go!" Yoimiya grabs your hand as she drags you towards the hill you watch the fireworks on every year, "Quick, or we'll miss it!"

You giggle at her excitement, picking up the pace a bit, because you know the earful you're bound to get if you don't, as you give her hand a little squeeze.

The hill sits just on the edge of Inazuma City, providing a clear view of the festivities. The city is decorated from head to toe with lanterns, garlands and decorations of all assortments to commemorate the occasion. To be perfectly candid, you weren't really sure what the occasion was. You just remember Yoimiya's illuminated gaze as she rambled about it, her lips slanted upwards as she spoke.

You see children and their parents, groups of friends, and lovers all huddled together, waiting to see this festival's fireworks handcrafted by the one and only Naganohara Yoimiya.

You gazed at the woman in question, analyzing her delicate features once more. You knew everything about her. You knew every crevice in her skin, every scar and the stories behind them. But, no matter how long you'd look for, she would always entice you as if you were looking at her for the first time.

She tilts her head to the side, "You okay? You kinda spaced out there."

Coming back to your senses, you reply, "Yeah, i'm fine, i was just thinking about some things."

"About what?"

Ah, Yoimiya. Always so curious. You knew this, she was your best friend and all, but the question catches you off guard anyways. After all, explaining that you'd just got lost in her eyes wouln't be the best way to cover up your infatuation with her.

"N-nothing important. The fireworks are about to start!"

Her head snaps around, attention captured by the blast of a firework being set off.

The small parcels of light explode like shooting stars, leaving a trace of their magic as they ebb into the night sky. A rainbow is formed in the dark, with each spec of light forming a sort of painting, then dissapearing as fast as they appeared.

Yoimiya stares contently at her work, mesmerized by the art she has managed to create. The lights flash above you, but you cannot help but focus on the light that seems to beam from the firework maker herself. Her hand is placed carefully under her chin, supporting it as she gazes upwards. Her hair was placed neatly in her usual high ponytail.

You sigh in relief. There is nothing better than this. Sitting under the fireworks with your best friend and the love of your life. As you reach out to grab her hand, a sudden swelling feeling builds in your chest.

"Yoimiya-" You begin.

"Yeah?" She replies, her eyes not leaving the fireworks.

"I- I love you." You say, "You are the reason I look forward to waking up in the morning, and I wish that the rest of my days could be spent with you and you only. You make me so happy every time I see you, and I wish nothing more but to repay you with even a fraction of the happiness you have given me."

You feel her embrace you tightly, tighter than you have ever felt her embrace you before.

"Thank you," She whispers into your ear, "I'm so glad I have a friend like you."

You feel a dagger pierce through your chest as she utters that cursed word. Friend. That's all you'd ever be.

You smile at her, a bittersweet feeling lingering in your chest as you look up into her golden eyes once more. Eyes so full of hope and love, that at that moment, the only thing you can let yourself do is reply with a gentle,

"Anything for you."

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