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𝐏𝐑♡𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐄 ─── ( childe x fem!reader )

𝘀𝘆𝗻𝗼𝗽𝘀𝗶𝘀 ! in which you caught him, cheating on you.

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲 ! English isn't my native language, so forgive me for my spelling mistakes.

“Wait—Hold on—“ Childe calls out, stumbling after you as he saw you, standing there. He follows after you, leaving that woman the, who called after him. He came to his senses when he saw you, because this is an accident. Childe never thought that he could that drunk, and the random woman was there, all pretty and touched him and—

He grabs your arm, pulling you to him. “Please, please,” he says. He’s distraught. You can’t leave him. He can’t live without you. “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, please I—“

You wiped the tears away as they continued to roll down on your face, eventually falling on the floor. "W-What did I do wrong?.."

"It's not you," Childe whispers, "please don't think that. It's me. All I did is get too drunk, and then, it just..." He trails off, unable to come up with any explanation that makes the situation any better. "I'm so, so sorry, please, I promise it won't happen again, and I won't do anything remotely like it again. I love you."

But your tears never stopped as it felt like your heart falling in your stomach. "It hurts, childe. It hurts." you cried and backed away from him. "T-The promise... You lied!" you yelled at him, angrily, sad and hurt. "You said you would never... never hurt me. Never break my heart. Never break my trust."

"It wasn't intentional," Childe tries to protest, "it just... happened." But he knows you're right, and you know it, too. He did do it, he broke your trust, and even if it wasn't deliberate it still happened. "Please," he whispers, "give me another chance. I promise you, it won't happen again. I love you, you're my everything." He reaches out to you again, desperate.

Not knowing what to do, you looked down and still tried to wipe your never ending tears away as you slapped his hand away before bringing your own hand to your chest. "You liar! You know that I don't like it. I hate you! I hate it when you touch me with those... tainted hands! I feel like vomiting!"

Childe flinched when you slapped his hand, and he was hurt even more when he saw the look of disgust on your face. He was a liar— he'd hurt you, broken your trust, and ruined everything the two of you had together. And he didn't know how to fix it. "You're right," he admits. He's silent for a moment. "I ruined everything, didn't I."

"Yes... Yes, you did."

Childe stares at you, his eyes pleading, and then he turns around and begins to walk away from you, back towards the city. He's silent for a moment as the reality of the situation settles in. He really did ruin everything. The worst part of it is, though, is he's not even sure why he did what he did. He'd had too much to drink, sure, but he never thought that would've made him cheat on you. Yet here he is. He doesn't know what to do, how to fix things with you, if he even can.

As you saw him turning his back against you and walking away, your eyes widened and more tears escaped your eyes. Your hand reached out for him desperately, because you felt lonely again.

"...d-don't..." you whispered as you saw him, walking away from away, leaving you alone. Leaving you in cold. Leaving you broken. "Don't leave me!" you screamed. "You... Y-You promised, you wouldn't leave me! You said you will always correct your stupid mistakes!" you reminded him.

Childe stops, turning to look back at you. He knows that's all true, he does. He promised to never leave you. He swore he would correct his stupid mistakes, always, no matter how long it took. He told you he loves you, after all. And he does. He loves you. But— he did break your trust. Is there a way to fix this? "Please," he whispers, his voice soft.

Lonely, you wiped the endless tears away and stared at him. It felt like he was far away from you. Far away from your heart. Unable to approach, so you just stood there. Frozen at place.

Childe comes closer to you slowly, but he doesn't reach out, doesn't try to touch you, because he recognizes that after what he's done you probably wouldn't want him to. "Please," he whispers, his voice breaking. "I made a mistake. I know I did. I broke your trust. I— can't we fix this? We can, right?"

"D-don't leave..." you whispered quietly and ignored everything he jist said, trying to wipe those tears away. "Don't leave... don't leave me..."

His heart breaks. He's done a terrible, irreparable thing. He broke your trust, and he knows he destroyed everything that the two of you had together. He knows, deep down in his heart, it's his fault, no matter what he says. But despite all of that, he can't leave you. He loves you too much. So, he doesn't. He just stands there, trying not to move a muscle. "I won't," he whispers, "I can't."

You slowly took his hand into your wet one and sniffled as you still cried. Your heart feels so heavy. You hate it. You don't like it. It hurts. You want to say that it hurts, but something is stopping you. Something is in your throat. You can't say something. So I grabbed his hands.

Childe's mind is racing. This moment is the most difficult thing he's ever faced. He knows he doesn't deserve your forgiveness, but he wants it more than anything. He's afraid to speak, afraid to say anything that could make things worse. So, he simply stands there, letting you take his hand, your emotions as raw as his.

"D-don't leave... You promised." you reminded him again and your head went down to the floor. Your sight is so blurry. You can't see anything. You can't say anything anymore. You need help. "D-don't leave me... d-don't leave me like this... okay?.."

"I won't," Childe whispers, "I... I won't." He doesn't know what to say, what to do, how to apologize, how to earn your trust back. He feels like such a stupid idiot for even trying in the first place. He was foolish, idiotic, reckless— words don't even come close. He did a stupid thing, and it broke everything that was so important. He knows that. He tries not to think about it any longer, but he can't stop blaming himself.

Your heart hurts. You don't know what to do anymore. You don't want to be left alone. You don't want to be left alone by your loved one. You still cried. You were crying my heart out. "A-And don't replace me... not with another woman... D-don't replace me..." you plead as your voice cracked.

Childe's heart breaks again as he hears you saying this. "I won't," he says, his voice soft and reassuring. "I— I never want you to be alone, I never want to leave you. I love you. I will never replace you with another woman." He means it this time, he means it in a way he's never meant it before. He won't make the same mistake twice. But, right now, that's not enough to ease your pain. Childe doesn't know what else to say.

"Y-You know how I hate it b-being left alone.... right?" you asked with a small voice and saw that the floor got wet from your sad tears.

"Yes," Childe whispers, trying to be as gentle as possible. "I know." He doesn't know what else to say, what to do to comfort you. Even if he could take away your pain, take away everything that's happened, he would. He'd do anything to not see you cry. He hates it. He wants nothing more than to make it better. Your tears break his heart.

"T-Then... you won't leave me... right? Y-You won't try to h-hurt me..." you whispered. You need the feeling of being assured. You need to know that you won't be left behind.

"Never," Childe whispers, trying to be gentle. "I promise, I won't leave. Not now. Not ever. I won't try to hurt you, never again." He's trying so desperately to comfort you, to make things better, to mend the bond that he and you shared before everything happened. He wishes so much that he could take away everything bad that happened, everything wrong. "I love you," he whispers, "I'll never, ever, leave you."

"I...I don't want to be left alone..." you felt your knees getting weak as you slowly crouched down and still hold onto his hand, so you know that he is still there. "I-I don't want to b-be left alone a-again... Not by my loved one..." you told him as your tears still rolled down your face.

Childe's heart breaks when you kneel. He doesn't move from his place, but there's something about seeing you on your knees that breaks him even further. He's done something terrible to you, something that's hurt you so much that you can't even stand. "I won't leave you," he whispers, "I promise. I won't abandon you, I won't leave you." He's trying to offer his words of comfort. He's trying to make the pain and hurt go away.

Now you don't know what to do again. So you started to cry harder as you let go of his hand and covered your face, full of tears. It felt like you could do this for hours. "D-Don't leave me... n-not here..." you whispered in your hands.

Childe is at a loss, torn between wanting to hold you and comfort you, and recognizing that he doesn't deserve it. It's all his fault that you're hurting, all his fault that you're crying, all his fault that you're hurting. He doesn't deserve to comfort you. He's the reason you're in pain, in the end. He doesn't deserve to hold you in his arms, but he desperately wants to. "Please," he whispers, trying to remain as calm as possible, despite how torn up he is on the inside.

"I'm s-sorry if ever made a mistake to a-anger you..." you apologized and cried. You don't even know if what you're doing. You don't even know if you should apologize. "P-Please don't l-leave me like i-in this state..." you whispered. But you didn't care, because you're afraid that he will leave you.

"It's— don't apologize," Childe tries, his voice breaking again. "It's not your fault. It's all mine. It's all my fault." He knows in this moment that he is the guilty one. He broke everything, and he won't ever be able to fix it. He won't ever be able to make things right. "You— you deserved better. You deserve better than what I've given you. You deserve someone who would've never done any of this."

"I-I don't w-want you to l-leave... I love you... s-so much." you sobbed and tried to wipe the never ending tears away, again. "I-I don't want you... to betray me... please... Not in this state..." you begged in a quiet voice.

"I won't," Childe promises in a whisper. "I won't leave you. I won't betray you. I'll be here for you as long as you'll have me. I love you so much. It's... my fault we're here. I can't promise it won't hurt now, but I promise it'll get better. Please." He's trying to be reassuring, trying to do what little he can to help you. His heart breaks in this moment, torn between seeing you hurt and the memory of him being the cause of your pain.

"D-don't hurt me a-again..." you whispered before reaching out for his rough, caloused hand. He felt how his hand got wet because of your tears. He just hoped it won't slip off. "Don't..." your lips quivered.

"I won't," he promises softly. "I promise. You're hurt because of me, because I made a mistake. I won't make that mistake again. I know it hurts now, but— I'll be there for you, if you just give me another chance. I love you." He says these words with as much conviction as he can muster, even as a shadow of doubt begins to form in his mind. He knows he's the one who hurt you, he knows the pain is all his fault, he knows that you deserve better than him.

"C-Childe..." you called out his voice desperately. "M-My heart h-hurts... W-what should I d-do?.. I... I hate it... I hate the pain..." you don't know what to do.

"I know," Childe whispers, his own heart aching as he sees how much you're hurt because of him. "I know the pain is terrible, and I know you hate it, but... it'll get easier. I know it's not easy right now, because it isn't— I hurt you. But it's okay, I'll be here for you." He puts his spare hand on your shoulder, trying to comfort you, to help ease your pain. "Please, I'm so, so sorry. I— I didn't mean to hurt you."

Then, you shakingly stood up. Barely. It felt like you could break down again and fall down to the floor. You needed support, so you leaned against him and layed your head into his chest, wetting his clothes. "...w-what did I do wrong?.. Why would you hurt me like this?.." you asked.

"I... I don't know," Childe admits, his voice breaking. He doesn't know what to say. He can't explain why he'd do what he did, why he'd make the mistake that he did. He doesn't want to give you excuses. He just wants you to be happy again. But he doesn't know if he can do anything to make that happen. "I don't know... I swear— if I could go back and undo this, if there's any way I could avoid hurting you, I would, I— I— I swear."

"I... don't like it... when you are surrendered by other... w-women..."

Childe stiffens as he hears you say this. He's heard this before— you've told him before that you don't like it when he's with other women. It's always been a sore point in your relationship. But now... now it's so much worse. He's hurt you because of his mistakes, because of how reckless and irresponsible he's been. "I know, it was stupid of me," he whispers. "I swear, I won't do anything like this again. I promise you."

"I'm a-afraid... w-what if a woman t-touches you again?... What if you touch her with those tenderly touches of y-yours. W-what if you're not interested in me one day... And what if I need to bear the sight of you looking at another woman with those tenderly eyes of yours?.." you whispered. You're being selfish. You know.

Childe stiffens at your words once again. You're afraid he'll cheat on you again. You're afraid he'll be with another woman besides you. You're afraid because you don't know if he's still interested in you, if he still has feelings for you. You're afraid he'll see someone else and think that other person is better than you. Childe knows you're afraid. He knows he's made you afraid with his actions. "I promise, I promise you, I won't leave you for anyone else," he whispers. "I'll never betray your trust or— or hurt you again."

"So y-you won't leave me... not for someone other... Right?.."

"Yes," Childe answers softly, reassuring you. "I won't leave you. I won't leave you for someone else. I promise not to betray you or hurt you again. I don't want to be with anyone else. I don't want to even think about being with anyone else. I love you. I love you so, so much. It'll never be anyone else." He's trying to convey all these words of love and kindness to you, even though he feels he doesn't deserve them.

"What if... w-what if you have a f-female bestfriend... and I don't like her?... W-will you take her side?.."

"No," Childe answers quickly. He's not afraid to give you the answer you want to hear. "No, I wouldn't take her side if it was her or you. I— I would never take someone else's side over yours." He says it gently, trying to keep his voice from breaking. He's trying to tell you that he loves you, that you're the most important person in his life, that he doesn't care about anyone or anything else. That it's simply you, and nothing else will matter.

"What if you know her... m-much, much, much...longer than me?.."

"Even if I knew her way longer than I've known you," Childe answers quickly, "that wouldn't matter. Because you're my priority, you're the most important person to me. And I would never take someone else's side over yours. Never. I can't say it more times than that, I— I just can't believe it's taken me so long to realize you're the only person that matters to me."

Finally, you looked up to him. Your eyes, full of tears, staring into his ocean eyes. "Y-You'll... never hurt me a-again... right?" you repeated, you don't care if you repeated yourself. "You a-also won't leave me... for someone other?.. you won't replace me... You take me side..." your voice gets smaller by each sentence.

"I won't leave you," Childe repeats, his voice gentle. "I won't hurt you again. I will never replace you with anyone else, I'll never take anyone else's side, I'll always be on your side, I'm only on your side. I love you, I care about you so much, there's no one, no one else in the world I'd rather be with than you. You're my number one. I won't take anyone else's place." He's trying to reassure you, to comfort you, to ease your heart and mind.

Those tears of yours were stopped for a moment as they continued again. "I-I'll believe you again... okay?.. Don't break me trust again... Don't break my heart again..."

Childe's heart aches to hear you saying this. You're scared, terrified of being hurt, of being left alone. But Childe won't abandon you. "I promise," he whispers. "I— I can't bear to think of you being hurt because of me, because of anything I did, because of anything I didn't do. I'll take care of you, I'll never let anything hurt you. Your trust in me is the most important thing, I want you to be able to feel safe in my arms, in my heart."

"I-If I feel safe in your arms once again... You won't t-take the feeling... okay?... And... A-And nobody will feel so safe in your arms like I do... Promise me... okay?.."

"I promise," Childe whispers, his voice breaking. "No one will ever have the same place in my heart as you do. No one will ever be able to feel as safe as you do. I swear it with everything I have." He means these words in his heart. He knows that if he breaks your trust again, if he ruins everything between the two of you again, nothing will ever be the same again. And he can't let that happen.

Slowly and unsurely, you wrapped your arms around his lone figure while burrying your face into his chest. "I'm... special for you... right?.. So special that you won't think of leaving me... right?.."

"You're the most special person in the entire world for me," Childe whispers. He wraps his arms around you, pulling you closer to him, to hold you, to feel you. His heart is aching because of how hurt you've been. He's done this, and he hates himself for it. "No one, no one is as important to me as you are. No one makes me feel the way you do. I'll never leave you, not for anyone else, only you."

You closed my eyes and let the final tears roll down.

"I... love you..."

"I love you too," Childe says, his words filled with as much affection as his heart can muster. He's hurting, and he can't bear the thought of you hurting too. "I love you so, so much." He wants to kiss you, to reassure you with his touch, but he vknows right now you wouldn't accept it. So he just holds you, gently. "I'm sorry. I really am. I love you more than anything."

"You aren't going to say that to someone else, right?.. You won't whisper your sweet words for someone else..."

"No," Childe says immediately, without even a moment of hesitation. "Only you. Only you have the place in my heart that would let me do that. Nobody else." He means every word he says. There's no one else on Earth as important to him. You're his number one. "It's only you, it's always been you. It never wont be you. I would never betray you with my words, those words are only for you."

"And if I cry again... you'll take me in your arms... and comfort me..."

Childe nods, his voice breaking, his heart aching. "Yes. Even if you cry every day. I'd gladly take you in my arms and comfort you, if you ever need it. I love you. I love the thought of being able to take care of you like that, to be there for you whenever you need me. So if you ever need it," he says, "tell me, and I'll gladly be there for you. I'll gladly take you in my arms and console you."

"Then you'll tell me that you love me..."

"Yes," Childe answers. It's as simple as that to him, that's what he'd do. "Of course I'd tell you I love you, I always would. I love you now, and I'll love you then, even if we're not speaking, even if we're arguing. My love for you won't ever go away." He means these words, means every word he says here. He wants to kiss you then, to express that love with his touch. He knows you wouldn't accept it at a moment like that, but the thought of that love going unanswered is unbearable.

"You won't argue with me about anything..."

"No," Childe replies. "There'll be nothing I'll argue with you about, because I'll always accept whatever you say." He's not afraid to tell you what you want to hear— it's the truth. You're his number one, you're the person he'll focus on completely, you're his priority, you're his world. He's willing to do and say anything to keep you happy, to keep you by his side. "It'll always be you. Always you."

"Even if I'm annoying... or hurt you... or anger you... You will still love me... right?.. So I won't have to fear that you'll leave me because I did something wrong..."

"If you hurt me, if you're annoying, or anger me, that doesn't change how much I love you," Childe promises. "That's how much I love you. I'll never leave you, because I love you no matter what you do. There's nothing you could've done to make me love you less. You could slap me, insult me, make me cry— I would love you more." These words sound strange to Childe, but in this moment, he means them. He'd do anything for you. You're everything to him.

"If I make a mistake... you won't say that you hate me..."

"No," Childe replies, his voice gentle. "I'll never say I hate you— I couldn't say that. I couldn't hate you. I could get upset, I could cry because of you, I could get angry if you hurt my feelings, but you're always... always worth loving for me." You're his world. And in this moment, you're everything to him. "You could do anything, and I'd still love you. I'd still accept you into my heart, because you're so important to me. You're my number one."

"You also won't ignore me if I'm annoying..."

"No, I won't," Childe promises. "Even if you are annoying, I couldn't ignore you. I love you. I couldn't just pretend you're not there. I'd have to talk, I would have to listen. That's how much I want you in my life." Your words, your insults, your annoyance— they mean nothing to him. You've always been important to him, and you always will be. You deserve his attention, no matter what you say or do.

I hope this is alright...

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