this is so funny to me bc three years later i’m a hardcore rina stan and if that’s not character development i don’t know what is

𝐈’𝐯𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐮𝐩 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐮𝐤𝐮𝐥𝐞𝐥𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞 𝐚 𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐝𝐬, 𝐚 𝐬𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐝𝐬. 𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮.

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im literally sobbing uncontrollably at 4am unable to go to sleep after finishing the last ever after

im going to be inconsolable for at least a week i can’t believe lesso is dead i’m actually so distraught

NO but the “it was mine first” lyric hit me so much worse when you think of the fact that it sounds so childish

And it should. It makes sense. 19 is not an adult, not really, and especially not when propped up beside a 30-something year old in the context of a romantic relationship. The thought of Taylor’s inner, traumatized child-self knowing no better way to describe the rage and pain she feels than literally stomping her feet and going I want it back because it was mine first, it didn’t belong to you, give it back, I’ll cherish it now is fucking heartbreaking.

can’t stop thinking about the power difference in would’ve could’ve should’ve, and the shame that comes with knowing you were more impacted than the other person. that they got under your skin and fucked with your head in a way you could never match because you didn’t have the experience they have. in the first verse, she bitterly calls herself a splatter of paint – she affected him and his reputation, she shows up on his skin, but she can be removed from it easily. she feels permanently corrupted – he has her faith, her innocence, her girlhood. but he can just wash his hands and dismiss what he did to her. she can’t even get him to fight her because she already lost, so she fantasizes about it in her sleep. even when she’s hitting him where it hurts, she’s the one living for the thrill of it – any hurt he might feel is more important to her than it is to him. she’s waiting for a sign, but he never gives it. and she’s left trying to claw him out of her, trying to become the person she was before him, becoming more and more desperate, but she can’t. she’s forsaken her beliefs and herself for him, she can’t take that back. and he still gets to pretend his hands are clean.

sometimes i even wake up with a certain song as my mood for the day and i just keep it playing on loop and some feelings/situations that follow are so eerily similar that it MUST subconsciously affect my decision making

it genuinely feels like my life is a movie but the soundtrack was entirely written by taylor swift

an unprecedented yet completely precedented side affect of being both a swiftie (whose favourite album is folklore) AND an english major is that i manage to associate EVERYTHING- every book, play, film, show or even real life scenario with a taylor swift song and it’s EXHAUSTING

an unprecedented yet completely precedented side affect of being both a swiftie (whose favourite album is folklore) AND an english major is that i manage to associate EVERYTHING- every book, play, film, show or even real life scenario with a taylor swift song and it’s EXHAUSTING

as an english major, i wholeheartedly agree

folklore and evermore deserve to be studied by english literature students at all universities in the world

Nesta Archeron is for the girls who prefer anger over fear. the girls who prefer actions over words. the girls who are scared of their emotions. the girls who love smutty romance books. the girls who are secret hopeless romantics. the girls who fear getting close to people and then losing them. the girls who find it hard to make friends. the girls who grew up way too fast. the girls who are hard to impress. the girls who dont know how to be soft and are learning over time. the girls who are always cold. the girls who have confidence but no self esteem.

anthony bridgerton said “i am not a man of poetry” and then turned around and delivered “you are the bane of my existence and the object of all my desires. night and day i dream of you” all men do is lie

i’ve spent the last two weeks binge reading the bridgerton books and despite the fact that they’re pretty much the exact same book eight times i actually really enjoyed them lmao**

i’m a simple girl and something about this bland, white bread, run-of-the-mill historical romance formula scratches an itch in my brain that isn’t quite reached by anything even vaguely intellectual.

i’m starting (and probably finishing) ‘on the way to the wedding’ today but here are my rankings so far:

1. an offer from a gentleman (benedict) 4.7 stars

2. it’s in his kiss (hyacinth) 4.5 stars

3. when he was wicked (francesca) 4 stars

4. the viscount who loved me (anthony) 4 stars

5. the duke and i (daphne) 4 stars

6. romancing mr bridgerton (colin) 3 stars

7. to sir phillip with love (eloise) 3 stars

** i must, however, point out that many parts of the books are quite problematic and ALL the love interests present a different flavour of misogyny. as julia cudney so eloquently pointed out in her youtube vid ranking the books, a lot of people’s rankings are literally based on what form of misogyny bothers them the least so take all of this with a pinch of salt lol

“he had made up his mind, also, that his future must be worthy of its goddess”

THIS MAN

currently binge reading the anne of green gables series and just started anne of the windy poplars (fourth book) and i swear anyone who misses awae you HAVE TO read these books…

they’re literally SO comforting and it’s SO nice to be back in green gables. gilbert blythe (especially in anne of the island) is the DEFINITION of a man written by a woman because the way he anne is described in his POVs fr gives me butterflies

okay i loved loved loved the folk of air series and seriously cannot fault much but did it leave anyone else just like… wanting a lot more?

that’s probs a sign of how good it was but like also… jurdan were so slow burn that we didn’t see much of them actually together; we didn’t get to see heather get back her memories and taryn was giving absolutely NOTHING as per usual.

i just need like a short novella seeing all my faves happy so i can rest easy

i just finished binging the entire folk of air series and i can’t believe that i thought acotar was peak faerie fantasy. they legit cannot even be compared. this shit was so fucking good i need 3-5 business days to recover.

booktok either hypes the most mediocre ass books or introduces me to my new obsessions it’s like book russian roulette lmfao

TW: SA

THIS !!! also nesta sitting there waiting for her dad to get his act together instead of bailing them out is genuinely what i think i would do in that situation

like he was the parent?? why should his minor daughters fix a problem that he created? why did he leave his youngest daughter in a position where she had to become the sole breadwinner?

idc about his disability nothing happened to his brain he still knew how to train and had some useable skills. feyre going to the forest gave their dad an excuse to do nothing and sit back while his daughter did it all and neither nesta nor elain forced her to make that decision.

it’s not nesta’s fault that she chose to leave her dad to fix his own wrongdoings and get his shit together. plus it literally said in acosf when she finally realised that he wasn’t going to do anything she tried to find her own way of helping (marriage) but then she got sexually assualted and feyre had started hunting by then anyway.

was nesta kind of a bitch in acotar? yes, but that was normal sibling shit; not abuse or anything that actually warranted a redemption arc. rhysand and the inner circle had no right to treat her the way they did for how she dealt with a situation that they could never even imagine (esp after all the trauma she had faced before then).

People act like Nesta is like ten years older than F.eyre. She’s only three years older. Elain is only two. F.eyre, Nesta, and Elain were all children/teenagers during their years of poverty. Nesta is being blamed for being...a child. People act like she’s a psychopath and not a physically and mentally abused child during those years. Like she never forced F.eyre to do anything. F.eyre made those decisions herself. F.eyre chose to go in the forest, no one let her — she went. She has always had the choice to just not hunt. Like I feel like people blame Nesta and Elain for F.eyre’s decisions! They were all teenagers, they were all victims — Nesta even more so when the were in wealth.