i seriously don't fucking get it... i've been literally starving for three months but instead of losing weight i feel like i'm losing my fucking marbles... last week, i kept forgetting and leaving something behind every day, i'm still having the flu from last week, and i know that this is my body's way of telling me that i lack vitamins and nutrients, and i wouldn't give a fuck about all that, but WHY THE FUCK am i still fat??? make it make sense??

my roommate left home for the weekend, so i boight my fav guilty pleasure foods to binge on. it’s been a while since i binged, so, naturally, my body isn’t used to it and it hit me like a ton of bricks, although the binge food itself didn’t hit that spot that i was dreaming about. even worse, all night i felt so bad, my stomach ached, my head hurt, my mouth felt like the sahara desert and i was thirsty all throughout the night. today i woke up feeling like shit. i literally didn’t drink last night but it feels like a hangover.

binging isn’t worth it besties

today is my day off so i'm spending it starving. after the last two weeks of eating 800 cals and more i just feel the need to get back on track. wish me luck.

p. s. i might start rambling in more posts today to distract myself from eating, but ik you're okay with that ^^

me rn ✨

A reminder that a 3000 cal binge is not worth it, speaking from experience 💀

I’m 23 🌸

₊꙳⋆☽⊹₊ I wanna find more 20+ ED Blogs ✩˚.⋆☾⋆꙳₊

𖤓 So pls react to this post if you are an adult & a lovely Soul ᰔ

☕︎ please have a hint on your blog, if you’re grown up- I’ll only follow when I’m sure ☕︎

Pink Princess Diet

Monday: 519 cal

Tuesday: 825 cal

Wednesday: ✨nothing✨

Thursday: 624 cal

Friday: 660 cal

Saturday: 833 cal

improved edition

Tomorrow I’m starting the pink princess diet again 💝

Sunday: 126 cal

I hate being fat

I need someone to control everything I do

need this

The Starving Artist Diet

hollow cheeks and the quiet aching of one’s stomach, cold dead winter, subsisting on cigarettes and coffee, insomnia, empty kitchen cabinets, clementine peels, layers upon layers, feverishly writing daily chronicles, epiphanies in the middle of the night (the kind that starving intensifies and sharpens), cold ink/paint-stained fingers warmed by a cup of tea, blouses too big hanging on a withered and (dare I say) malnourished frame

idk what this is lmao

In case you want to binge, here’s what I did today. I bought a chocolate cake because chocolate cake is my favorite, ready to eat it all by myself because I didn’t eat anything yesterday and the day before yesterday, and I counted the calories. Then I took two more bites and I realized that my favorite cake isn’t even that good. And the icing was literally quite disgusting. But I kept eating because I simply couldn’t stop at that point. And then I ate all of the cake and of course it wasn’t even good, so it wasn’t worth the 1700 cal that I wasted on it. This is your sign to not eat that cake or those chips you’ve been dreaming about because once you taste them you’ll only sense shame and guilt, and it’s not worth it ❤️‍🩹

P. S. Also, my stomach hurts like a bitch rn 💔

I’m a starving depressed artist and a junkorexic but I also wanna be the stereotype

bringing junkorexic adhd raccoon vibes to this clean girl ana shit yall aint never seen before

Pink Princess Diet

Tuesday: 171 cal