"Friends dont look at friends that way" COWARD. I look at my friends with awe in my eyes, my chest is filled with love, im glowing because i get to be near my friends. I look at my friends and i would give them my everything. SO SKILL ISSUE, look at your friends with all the love that you have

After matching with a guy on a dating app, we had chatted for a little bit as we got to know each other. I finally decided to just tell him my chronic illness. Not going to details, but just tell him that I have a chronic illness just to rip the Band-Aid off. To my surprise being asked questions about my illness, which was fine. however, he asked the question “does it affect you every day life?“. And at this point I was already scared because I knew that once I answered this things were going to change so I said, “yes it does affect my everyday life.” he immediately unmatched me.Obviously I’m disappointed because my fears came true. I am learning to accept myself, I wonder will anyone else accept me? There has been a little piece of me in the back of my mind who is scared that no man will want me. I don’t need a man. I will be fine without one. But with all this isolation, I can’t help but fantasize about the idea of having someone who loves all of me. I don’t wanna be alone forever.

Just saw a post saying

“Being aro is so cool because it comes with this fun little bonus of knowing you’ll always suddenly come second to your friends once they’re in relationships and you’ll have to respect that even tho you’ll never really understand it”

And now I’m sadly reflecting on my friendships again.

i have a burning hatred for relationship hierarchies.

Why is it offensive to want to just be friends? Why is it expected for romantic partners to always take prioritization over friends? Why is it rude to tell someone you aren't friends, just chill with each other? Why are queerplatonic relationships seen as a step down from romantic relationships? Why is it bad to not want to make step ups in romantic relationships?

these labels have different meanings and levels importance to everyone, therefore they have no meaning or importance.

in my world, there are two places you can stand. next to me or the fuck away.

gale eats astarions forever weed brownie

Emperor can you stop talking about the tadpole's potential. FOR TWO MINUTES. (Version without text under the cut)

And that's why we love Hawke

doomed by the narrative but not in the dying way in the "you will live a full, long lifetime full of regret and anger you will love and love and love without stopping for years to come and that is far worse than anything death could ever do to you" kind of way

Knowing deep down that you aren’t and most likely will never be anyone’s first choice when the people you love mean so much to you is devastating. Finding out that the people you hold closest call and text each-other all the time but not you? That makes me want to shatter into a thousand pieces. I feel as if I will never be truly *special* to someone in the ways I’ve seen the people around me be special to each-other. I’m the guy with the camera who can take nice pictures of the group. Never be in them. I’ll invite people over. But never be asked to hang out otherwise.

I don’t know if this is just me struggling with chronic illness related isolation or not but god damn it’s tearing me up inside today.

"Remember when..."

No, I wasn't there. Nope. Not that one either.

That was when I first became ill and I was barely able to leave my bed and no one visited me for months.

Attention anyone who uses forearm crutches

Do you hate sticking to your crutches during summer? Do you dislike the hospital gray?

I’ve been trying for MONTHS to find a pattern or someone who sells crutch covers, but I never found anything for forearm crutches (probably because I’m in the US) so I’ve decided to make my own pattern! And anyone can use it!

I’m sorry if it doesn’t make any sense, this is my first time creating a sewing design.

These are the prototype that I’ve made so far.

Please let me know if you use this (and send pictures!) and if there’s anything you think will make the design better.

Next up I’m working on padded covers for the part for your hands!

The theory that the Dragon Age protagonists are the Four Horsemen really fucks btw

The Hero of Fereldan - Pestilence. The Blight follows close behind them. Ever since the Fifth Blight, the taint has been spreading at alarming rates.

The Champion of Kirkwall - War. The Champion indirectly or directly lights the spark of the Mage-Templar War.

The Inquisitor - Famine. After War follows Famine. We see this when exploring the world as vital resources run low.

The Rook - Death. Only Death can defeat Pride. Death is change and upheaval. The veil will be broken. Many will die and nothing will be the same.

Leon & Jill after getting shipped with BOTH Redfields, always wearing blue, and being BOTH brunette & blonde at certain points :

Time for my post-lunch lie-down. Will resume functioning vertically and socially in 2-4 hours. ✌🏻

Yearning ahead

Being chronically ill for me is wanting so desperately to ask for comfort (for me it’s mostly physical comfort I need) when in pain but being too:

A) anxious that people will reject me/take it the wrong way

B) not wanting to bother anyone, so I just sit silently in pain

C) wanting so desperately for someone (anyone at this point) to just like…..be physically there for me when I’m suffering.

Like when I have a migrane all I want is for someone to hold me and tell me it’s going to be okay. It may not make the pain go away but it would sure beat crying into my pillow and gripping it in a pitch black room while I try not to throw up from pain. Completely alone.