Kinda awkward to break up with your girlfriend but she still follows you on your main social media. If I ever get into a relationship again, remind me to not let them follow me on my main tumblr account

if no one has told you this

it may not feel like it, but you’re making progress

keep trying your best

something lovely will result from your hard work

10/23/23

I just need a place to vent so I’m here and blasting my thoughts out into the internet (also have a pretty bomb playlist if anyone wants to check it out).

So, uh, basically last year was shit and I had to act like the most emotionally mature person in the room (I would say I was pretty mature then. Now? I question that) and because of that now im burnt out and act like a lil not great lil guy. And some of that stuff (all of it, to be honest) was in some way connected to my girlfriend. We’re ok now (kind of? I’ll get into it) but I basically have no friends now (I didn’t have many real friends to start with) and I think I’ve officially lost them all cause my best friend has ghosted me since Saturday bc I told her I’m still not fully ok with how she treated me last year (that’s a topic of discussion all of its own).

Previous to that, I had been kinda snippy and acting annoyed for no reason to my girlfriend. I’d like to think I got it from my mom and my best friend and I felt really bad about it, and afterwards I didn’t really talk to her for a day based off a miscommunication and me just kinda being a bad girlfriend recently in my opinion. So, now, she’s upset and needs space so I’m giving it to her (after, once more, acting a bit assholeish today) and I have no one. Well, maybe not no one but certainly not anyone close to me.

I feel like something’s wrong with me. I think the space will be good for both of us.

Help!!! Lost tarot card!!!

I just noticed I’m missing my seven of wands (it doesn’t come up often in my readings) and I’m panicking. I have the White Numen Sacred Animal tarot. Is there a way I could replace it? I do readings at my school so if I lost it it could be anywhere from my math class to the theatre room and I doubt it’d still be there if it’s been gone this long (2 weeks minimum, a month max). It’s the only tarot deck I have and I like it a lot, I don’t just want it to be unusable because of a careless mistake.

I really just want someone here

Albert Camus, from a notebook entry featured in ‘notebooks’ (1951-1959)

“I’m going to tell you something: Thoughts are never honest. Emotions are.”

— Albert Camus

“if you must die, i’ll envy even the earth that wraps your body”

— Albert Camus, State of Siege.

Albert Camus and his cat, Cigarette

— Albert Camus, The Possessed

“If there is a sin against life, it consists perhaps not so much in despairing of life as in hoping for another life and in eluding the implacable grandeur of this life.”

— Albert Camus, “Summer in Algiers”

Will we ever be free?

You have Daddy issues? well they don’t care