Faux Control
It's finally here!
Summary: Minhee gives into Jisu's wants and wears a remote control vibrator out with their friends. Things go as well as you might expect.
Tags: Cisswap, fem!minho, fem!jisung, dom/sub undertones, exhibition, vaginal sex, cunnilingus, edging, dacryphilia, mild degradation
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Minhee had no idea why she had agreed to this. Maybe it had something to do with the fact that she could never tell Jisu no, especially when she looked up at her with her big brown eyes wide and her bottom lip pushed out in a pout. âIâll be good, I promise,â she had said. âIâll only use it a little bit. I just want to try something new!â And Minhee would be a fool to deny her sweet Jisu anything.Â
So that was how she ended up like this. With a remote-control vibrator pressed up inside her while she and Jisu went out for dinner with their friends. In Jisu's purse sat the remote.Â
Normally, Jisu never had control, which was part of why Minhee was so nervous. She had warned her that if she messed with the settings too much or made the settings too high, she would be getting punished. And Jisu had accepted. But Minhee knew that sometimes Jisu liked to be a bit of a brat. She liked to push Minheeâs buttons as often as she could. So really, she had no idea how the evening was going to do.Â
âI already got us a table in the back!â Lixie exclaimed, grabbing onto Jisuâs arm eagerly when they arrived at their restaurant. Minhee wanted to laugh when Jisu stumbled over her own feet as Lixie dragged her back, but heat was already spreading across the back of her neck, making any reaction difficult to produce.Â
The table she got was big enough to fit all eight of them, and Chris, Seungah, and Chaebin were already seated at the table. âWhere are Hyunjin and Jeongin?â Jisu asked as she moved to pull out a chair for herself. Minhee beat her to it though, pulling out the chair for her and gesturing for her to sit. The tips of her ears turned red and she mumbled out a small, âThank you,â as she took her seat. Minhee smiled lopsidedly to herself. The least she could do tonight was to try and fluster Jisu as much as she could. A payback of sorts.Â
When she sat down, she inhaled sharply and red bloomed across her faceâsitting caused the vibrator to slip deeper inside her, and the end on her clit to rub against her. She bit her cheek and swallowed thickly. She felt someoneâs gaze burning into the side of her head and she knew immediately it was Jisu. And she made the mistake of looking over and making eye contactâher eyes were wide and her lips slightly parted, like she knew exactly what had occurred. Minhee tried to glare at her, but she knew the look came off weak, especially when Jisuâs expression morphed into something entirely differentâand she smirked.
Minhee barely had time to register the warmth that pooled in her tummy before her thoughts were interrupted by Lixie answering Jisuâs question. âThey were running a little bit late, but theyâll be here soon!â
âThey were probably fucking,â Seungah said flatly, which earned a firm-handed slap on the back from Chaebin.
âYah! Watch your mouth young lady, we are in public!â she exclaimed. Seungah glared and rubbed her shoulder.
âAnd Iâm sure you assaulting me in public will go over well, unnie,â she responded with a roll of her eyes.
Chaebin immediately launched into a far-too-loud lecture on Seungah respecting her elders, but Minhee barely caught any of it. Her face was burning and whenever she shifted she could feel the vibrator pressing against her walls. And it wasnât even vibrating. Yet. She kept glancing at Jisu, waiting for the moment when she would do something. The waiting was probably worse than the actual thing. It made arousal coil in her belly even though she wanted to pretend it didnât. It didnât help that she was surrounded by her friends and in a restaurant of all places. Any little slip-up and all eyes would be on her. She had to stay composed, had toâ
âMinhee-yah?â Chris called suddenly, briefly pulling her out of her daze.
âMhmâyeah?â she asked, clearing her throat. She wondered how obvious her blush was.
âI was just wondering if you were okay,â she said with a sheepish smile. âYou just look a little out of it. Are you sick?â
Minhee could feel Jisuâs gaze on her again. âAh no, Iâm okay,â she reassured her.
Her breath hitched when Jisuâs hand was suddenly on her bare thigh, giving it a gentle squeezeâwhy had she chosen to wear a skirt today? She was leaning in close, close enough that Minhee could smell the sweet brown sugar perfume she had put on right before they left. It made her a little dizzy. âDonât worry, unnie, I wouldnât let Minhee go out if she was sick,â Jisu said with a smile. Her smile was so sweet but Minhee knew that behind it hid mischief. It was a smile similar to the one she would give her right before she was about to be a brat. It made Minheeâs pulse jump and butterflies erupted in her stomach.
âOkay, I just wanted to make sure.â Chris turned her attention to Lixie then and began to engage in a conversation with her about one of the records she was working on. Minhee rubbed a hand over her face and took a deep breath to try to steady herself. She tried to focus on the conversations going on around her but Jisu was once again leaning into her space, even more so this time. She rested her round cheek against her shoulder and looked up at her with wide, sparkling eyes that made Minhee feel so in love she could be sick.
âHow do you feel, unnie?â she asked, quiet enough that only Minhee could hear. Her breath brushed against the side of her neck and she shuddered a little. She hoped that Jisu didnât notice, but she definitely did based on the way she giggled.
âFeeling just fine,â Minhee answered. She tongued her cheek and flexed her fingers. Jisuâs hand was still on her thigh and it burned. âNever better, actually.â
âHmm,â Jisu hummed. She tapped her fingers against Minheeâs skin and lifted her head. âI see.â Something in the tone of her voice sent a shiver down her spine and she breathed slowly out of her nose. Calm. Calm. I am so. Calm.
Jisu sat back up and Minhee almost missed how the hand that wasnât on her thigh slipped into her purse. Fuck. She gulped audibly and shifted in her seat. Jisu engaged in conversation with Lixie and Minhee waited. And waited. But nothing came for a while, so she allowed herself to relax. She was calm even as Hyunjin and Jeongin finally arrived and they flagged the waiter over to their table to finally order their food because surely, Jisu knew better than to turn the vibrator on while she was trying to order her food.
Minhee should have known to never be so trusting.
The second she opened her mouth to ramble off what she wanted, she jolted, an electric current coursing through her body. Her breath caught in her throat and a wave of heat washed over her. Her cheeks were on fire and it felt like her tongue was stuck to the roof of her mouth. Jisuâs hand was still on her thigh.
âIâll takeâu-uhmââ She inhaled through her nose and gritted her teeth. The vibrator wasnât on its highest setting, but it definitely wasnât on the lowest either. The vibrations against her clit were enough alone to drive her madâwarmth pulsed in her stomach, her breathing shallowed, her pussy clenched around the dildo end, and fuck. Jisu was in so much trouble.
âThe spiceâspicy chicken, yeah,â she managed after an awkwardly long pause. The waiter hummed and gave a curt nod, probably so used to customers behaving in all sorts of ways that he didnât even notice. But Minhee was humiliated. And so turned on. And incredibly pissed off.
When the waiter finished taking their orders, everyoneâs attention turned to Minhee. Everyone including Jisu. Concern was written all over her face, her eyebrows raised in faux worry. But Minhee knew better.
âYou sure youâre okay, unnie?â Jisu asked, blinking up at her innocently. Her hand was still in the purse.
âAre you high?â Jeongin asked immediately after. Minheeâs ears burned and she shook her head vehemently.
âOf course Iâm not high, Iâm fine,â she insisted with a huff. She took a long sip of her water, hoping it would cool her down a bit. The vibrations were sending near continuous shocks of pleasure through her body and it was already so much. Too much. âI just blanked on what I wanted âs all.â She shrugged, making sure to give Jisu a reassuring smile. She hoped it didnât look as forced to everyone else as it felt.Â
âWell, if you need to head out, we understand,â Lixie said with a gentle smile. Minheeâs eye twitched.
âDonât worry, Iâll be okay.â She gave Lixie a genuine smile because no one in the world could be anything but soft with her. Minhee had a soft spot for Jisu too, but it was different when she was being a brat. She still needed a bit of firmness sometimes. And this was apparently one of those times.
âDonât worry, Iâll take care of her,â Jisu said with a sugary-sweet giggle, while underneath the table her hand slid up Minheeâs thigh, her fingertips just grazing the inside. Minheeâs breath hitched and she swallowed. A bead of sweat ran down her temple and she squeezed her thighs together which ended up trapping Jisuâs fingers between them. She heard her inhale sharply and then the vibrations increased.
Minhee choked, eyes going wide. Jeongin gave them a look but then turned her focus back to Hyunjin who was glued to her side. Jisu pecked her cheek. âStill good, unnie?â she whispered, delivering a squeeze to the plushest part of Minheeâs thigh. The touch caused the muscles in her stomach to flex.
âOh, great,â she gritted. She slunk her hand around Jisuâs waist and gave it a firm squeeze. A warning. âThink you caâmm.â She burned with embarrassment at the moan that slipped past her lips. It was quiet enough for no one else to notice, at least she hoped, but it was still there. Jisu laughed, but Minheeâs tightening grip on her waist cut her off. âYouâre so in for it.â
Jisu wet her lips and her eyelashes fluttered before she glanced away. Then, to Minheeâs surprise, the vibrations turned off and Jisuâs hand returned to her own lap. And just in time for the waiter to return with their food. She let out a sigh of relief and took another sip of her water. There was a sheen of sweat over her heated face but as soon as the vibrations stopped she could feel herself calming down. Maybe Jisu knew how to listen after all.
She thanked the waiter when her food was set down and took the opportunity of freedom to start talking to Chris. She hadnât seen her in a while with Chris being so busy with her producing job and Minhee being busy with her own job as a choreographer. At the same time, Jisu became engrossed in a conversation with Seungah about whether or not bones were hollow and Minhee almost forgot about the vibrator. She would have completely forgotten about it if she werenât still dripping wet and if there wasnât still need twisting in the pit of her stomach. So little by little, she gradually let her guard down.
âCome on, unnie, whatâs one dance lesson gonna hurt?â Minhee asked Chris, wiggling her eyebrows. âBesides, Iâm sure all the club goers would be very happy to see your improveââ
âIâm not listening, nope, nope!â Chris exclaimed, cupping her hands over her ears. âI do not need a reminder of my dancing skills!â
Minhee laughed, tossing her head back a little. âOr lack thereof.â She took a bite of her chicken and licked a bit of sauce off her fingers, tongue flicking over each digit one by one before she wiped them with a napkinâand thatâs when she felt attention on her again. She had barely made eye contact with Jisu before she felt the stimulation from the vibrator again. She choked on air and the muscles in her thighs twitched as she tried to keep herself from reacting but the stimulation was too much. The arousal hit her so fast she felt lightheaded, breathless, and it felt like she was going to go cross-eyed. But fuck, everyone was looking, everyone could seeâ
âMinhee?â Chris asked, frowning softly.
âYeah?â she breathed out, reaching for another piece of chicken. Maybe if she could just focus on eating she wouldnât register the vibrations, that were definitely set even higher than before. She took a bite and swallowed forcefully.
Through the haze, she registered Jisuâs hand on her thigh again. Fingers trailing up, up, slipping under her skirt. Oh, she was getting brave.
Chris opened her mouth to say something after a moment but then she closed it. Her eyes moved up and down Minhee, taking her in, and she felt like she was being examined, scrutinized. Then Chrisâs cheeks reddened and she looked down at her plate. âOh, uhânever mind. Nothing.â Minheeâs stomach swooped. She noticed. There was no way that she didnât notice. She might not have known exactly what was going on, but she knew something was up.
Minhee knew her cheeks were probably fifty different shades of scarlet, but she tried to focus on something else, even as the pressure between her legs intensified. Jisu didnât seem to like the fact that she wasnât reacting as much as she wanted, so she slipped her hand all the way underneath Minheeâs skirt and flipped the vibrator setting up. This caused Minheeâs hips to jerk, her walls spasming around the vibrating dildo. She sucked in a sharp breath through her teeth and sent a glare towards Jisu, but she just giggled and scooped up another bite of food with her chopsticks.
Sweat gathered on her temples. She took another sip of her water. She was completely zoned out from the conversation around her, her hips grinding down involuntarily every couple of minutes. Jisuâs fingers continued to tease the soft skin of her inner thighs and no one questioned why Jisuâs one hand had disappeared under the table for so long. Minheeâs panties were completely soaked through even though she was essentially plugged up by the dildo inside her. The insides of her thighs were sticky with her wetness. For a moment, she wondered if Jisu could feel it against her fingertips.
Participating in conversation was no longer an option even though she tried. She got a few words in here and there, all too breathless, her voice too high. There was no way most of their friends hadnât picked up that something was off, even if they didnât question it. Chris had certainly taken notice and Jeongin gave her a few glances that told her she knew something was up, and that something wasnât illness related. Her eyes had even gone to Jisu and more specifically, her hand under the table. The hand that was touching Minhee, fingernails scraping against supple skin, ghosting over stretch marks, massaging. There was no way Jeongin didnât know, too.
And shit, for the first time she really wished that Jisu didnât know how sensitive her thighs were.
Time lost its meaning as Minhee attempted to hold onto her sanity. She should have seen it coming, really, but it crept up on her all the same. One moment she was struggling to focus on anything else, anything but the constant stimulation on her clit and inside her, and the next moment, she felt it. That familiar, twisting, tightening sensation in her lower stomach, like a spring being wound up, ready to explode. She snapped her head to the side, eyes wide, panicked. She made eye contact with Jisu and pleaded silently, but Jisu smiled and shrugged. Her heart raced when she realized Jisuâs hand instead was climbing up further, pushing her skirt up untilâuntil her fingertips were pressed against the heat of Minheeâs cunt. She looked across the table with an innocent smile, said something to Lixie that Minhee didnât register through the ringing in her ears, and rubbed firm circles over her clit.
The added pressure right over the vibrator and the knowledge that Jisu was touching her in a restaurant, with all their friends present, was what pushed Minhee over the edge. She had no control over the spring when it finally burst. She came. Slack-jawed and silent, with a white-knuckled grip on her knees. Her hole clenched rhythmically around the dildo and the world around her turned to static. The excess wetness soaked through her panties and wet her thighs and her cheeks burned from the sensation. Oh god. She came. In public. She came in public with Jisuâs hand slipped under her skirt, while eating dinner. Fuck.
The world paused, Jisu froze while Minhee panted. And before anyone could question what was going on, Jisu removed her hand and stood up, a smile too bright to be natural on her face, and said, âWell! I think Minhee and I should head out! Get dessert, you know? Lixie, you can send me money right? Yeah? Thanks so much!â
She grabbed her purse and Minheeâs hand and pulled her to stand up. Her legs shook underneath her. âUm yeah, Jisu and I haveâŚplans,â she said, her voice scratchy.
âYou know, Jeongin and I just did our plans before weââ Hyunjin started, but Seungah reached over and covered her mouth before she could finish her sentence. Chaebin proceeded to take her hand away before Hyunjin could start making a scene.
âWell, have fun!â Lixie said, always good-natured. âIt was nice having dinner with you! Iâll send you the bill, Jisu.â
âThanks!â Jisu said, flashing her a quick smile. Then she spun around on her heel and dragged Minhee out of the restaurant, making her almost trip over her feet.
They got to the car and Jisu pulled Minhee to the driverâs side and then sat down in the passengerâs seat. No matter how much control she thought she had over Minhee, she would always be a passenger princess. âUm,â she started as soon as they were both seated. âDid you actuallyâŚ?â
âYes I actually did,â Minhee stated through clenched teeth. Sweat collected on her temple and ran down her face. âSo, Jisuâ mmhâ why donât you turn the damn thing off now.â She was already pulling out as she spoke, desperate to get back so she could absolutely ruin Jisu. It was probably unsafe for her to even be driving in the state she was in, the constant buzzing of the vibrator against her cunt driving her mad from overstimulation. If it went on much longer she would probably come again and she couldnât while driving. Fuck, there was no way she was letting Jisu get away with this. She had already gotten away with far too much. At this point, she would be dealing out her punishment for the next week.
Jisu stared at her, not answering for a moment. Her eyes blinked rapidly, a habit sheâd picked up from Minhee, and damn it, it made her look adorable even in the corner of Minheeâs eyes. âWhat if I say no?â
Minhee almost stopped the car. â No?â
Jisu gulped audibly and nodded. âY-yeah. No. You know the safe word.â
Minheeâs jaw dropped in disbelief. She never imagined Jisu, her obedient Jisu would use one of her own methods for her. Jisu could be a brat sometimes but this was above her usual level of brattiness. If you give a mouse a cookie, or something like thatâŚÂ âListen, jagi,â Minhee began, forcing her voice to remain steady. âThereâthere is already a punishment waiting for you when we get back. I might be nice this time and keep it to just today if you can be good until we get there. But ifâ ngh âif you donât listen, Iâll drag it on, and onâŚis that what you want, sweetheart?â She spared a split second to glance over at Jisu. Her cheeks were rosy and her plump bottom lip was trapped between her teeth.
âIâŚâ Jisu tucked a piece of hair behind her ear. ââŚmaybe?â
Minhee scoffed, incredulous, and her grip on the steering wheel tightened. âYou want me to not let you come for a week, baby?â
Jisu was silent. Minheeâs head was buzzing and the ends of her limbs felt like pins and needles. Shitâit had to, it had to stop, itâthen it did. Without a word, Jisu turned off the vibrator and Minheeâs entire body relaxed.
âAhh,â she breathed out, sinking back against her seat. âThatâs a good girl. I knew you could listen.â
âYeah, Iâm good, unnie!â
âMhm, weâll see about that. Thatâs not enough to save you when we get back.â Now that Minhee didnât feel like her clit was going to fall off, she could concentrate on how exactly she would deal with Jisu when they got back. She didnât need to be any hornier than she already was but the thoughts swirling through her head added to the cocktail of desire in her gut.
The rest of their drive home was a blur. All Minhee could remember was that at some point she had put her hand on Jisuâs thigh as a reminder of what was the come. Oh how the tables had turned.
Once they were back to their apartment, Minhee wasted no time. She grabbed Jisu by the waist and pulled her close, then crashed their lips together. Jisu tasted sweet despite the savory meal theyâd had at the restaurant, and Minhee took it all in, sucking on her bottom lip and laving her tongue over it. Jisu panted into her mouth when she slipped a hand between their thighs and pressed the pads of her fingers against her pussy through her jeans. âIâm gonna fucking ruin you,â Minhee groaned against her mouth. She reached around and grabbed Jisuâs ass with her other hand and licked past her parted lips, drinking her in like a woman starved. Jisu whined pathetically and did her best to kiss back as she rolled her hips down against Minheeâs hand. Minhee could feel the dampness from how wet she was even through the thick fabric.
âLook at you, so desperate, and you werenât even the one with a vibrator in your pussy. Is that what you wanted this whole time?â Minhee nipped at her bottom lip, pulling a sweet mewl from her. âMessed with unnie the whole time just so Iâd have you like this, hm?â
Jisu nodded dumbly. âJust wanâwanted unnie to feel good. Wanted unnie t-to make me feel good, tooâ she breathed.
âIs that so?â Minheeâs voice was rough with desire because nothing got her more than how pliant Jisu could be for her. Everything at the restaurant had been an act to get what she wanted. At the end of the day they both knew exactly who had control.
âYesâ yes.â
âThen letâs get to the bedroom, hm?â Minhee placed a kiss on the corner of her lips and squeezed her ass. âI want you to strip for me as soon as we get there.â
Jisu nodded excitedly and gave Minhee a kiss on the cheek before sprinting off to their shared bedroom. Minhee huffed out a laugh as she followed her, working on pulling off her top in the process.
She stepped into the bedroom and Jisu immediately went slack-jawed, her eyes trailing over Minheeâs breasts first and then her soft tummy after. Her gaze made Minhee shy even though they had been together for so long. She would just never get used to how Jisu took her in like she was worshiping her.
âI thought I said to strip for me, princess,â Minhee said with a quirk of her eyebrows after Jisu had been staring so long that the entirety of Minheeâs upper body felt hot.
âOh uhâyes unnie,â she answered. She started with her jeans first, unbuttoning them tantalizingly slow. Minhee took that time to admire the way her jeans hugged her thighs and how they emphasized her tiny waist.
âSo pretty, jagi,â she mumbled reverently as she sat down on the bed.
Red spread across Jisuâs face and she smiled shyly, biting her lip. âThank you, unnie,â she whispered. She tossed her pants to the side and Minheeâs eyes locked onto the pretty panties she was wearingâthey were a baby-blue and lacy, a perfect color against her tan skin. Minhee remembered when she bought them, and she knew she had a matching bra to go with them.
Jisuâs hands hesitated at the hem of her top but Minhee waved her hand, urging her to continue. âGo on, baby. Show unnie your pretty waist.â
Jisu huffed. âYou just want to see my boobs.â
âMaybe.â Minhee smirked. âI know you donât mind. But come on, Jisu, Iâm getting impatient.â
Jisuâs bottom lip jutted out in a pout and she pulled her top off like she was instructed. Her boobs bounced with how fast she tore it off and Minheeâs mouth watered. Her hands itched to grab as Jisu reached around to unclasp her bra, revealing her soft tits and small nipples. âFuck, câmere. Lay down on the bed for me.â
âYou donât want me to take these off, too?â Jisu asked, dragging her fingertips over the lace hem of her panties. Minhee shook her head as she climbed up to the edge of the bed and got on her knees.
âI want those for myself.â She grabbed a hair tie off her wrist and pulled her hair up into a ponytail. Her hair wasnât as long as it used to be but she had still been meaning to cut it. Having short hair made what she wanted to do a lot easier.
Jisu climbed onto the bed in front of her and laid down, her wavy brown hair splaying around her head. She had the audacity to look shy even though she had been so confident with what she had been doing to Minhee earlier, and even though she had been in this position about a hundred times. Saliva filled Minheeâs mouth as she looked over herâred cheeks, tiny waist, soft thighs, caramel skin. There was a bruise on her collarbone and one in her inner thigh that hadnât faded yet. She would have to add more.
âGod, I canât wait to take you apart,â Minhee sighed, reaching out to squeeze Jisuâs thighs. Jisu let out a soft moan as her fingers dug into the flesh and Minhee licked her lips. She leaned over her in an attempt to kiss her again, but then she felt the vibrator inside her shift and she hissed. âLet me get this cursed thing out first.â She scrunched her nose and made quick work of slipped out of her skirt, all while Jisu stared at her with shining eyes.
âYou liked it,â she said, desire dripping from her voice, with just a hint of amusement underneath it.Â
Minhee rolled her eyes as she reached between her legs and grabbed the base of the vibrator, pulling it out with a wet squelch. Jisuâs breath hitched when Minhee held the toy up for a second, the fluids coating it glistening in the fair light. Then, she tossed it aside. âHm, now I can fully focus on you.â
She crawled between Jisuâs thighs and lowered herself to the bed so that her face rested right over her boobs. When she looked up, Jisu was looking down at her through hooded lashes, small pants coming out of her parted lips. âAlways so cute, Jisu-yah.â Without giving Jisu time to respond, she dipped her head down and took one of her nipples in her mouth.
â Aahh! Minhee,â Jisu squeaked, body jerking underneath her. Minhee hummed around the nipple and swirled her tongue. She could hear Jisuâs heart drumming against her chest, her breathing becoming more erratic with each flick of her tongue. She used her free hand to grope her other breast, thumbing over the nipple just to hear Jisu gasp.
âUnnie, please, please,â Jisu begged. Her voice was getting that higher pitch it always got when she was desperate, and it almost convinced Minhee. Almost. But she was feeling a little mean.
She popped off her nipple, a strand of saliva dripping from her bottom lip. âPlease what, jagi?â she asked as she squeezed her breast. Her eyes flicked down to how the flesh spilled between her fingertips and had to squeeze her own thighs together.
âPleaseâŚâ Jisu wet her lips with the tip of her tongue. âTouch me, Minhee-unnie, please.â
âHmâŚâ Minhee pretended to think about it. âDo you deserve it? Have you been a good girl? Or have you been a brat?â
Jisu blinked at her. âIâuhââ
âDumb already, huh?â Minhee smirked down at her. âGive me an answer and maybe Iâll touch you.â She had no plans of not touching Jisu but she wanted to mess with her. She wanted to touch her just as much as Jisu wanted to be touched, maybe even more.
âIâŚâ Red washed over Jisuâs cheeks and she averted her gaze. âIâve been a bratâŚâ
âThere it is,â Minhee cooed with faux sympathy.
Jisuâs eyes glazed over and she swallowed audibly. âPleaseâŚwill you? T-touch me? Iâll be good now, so good, I promise.â
And oh, Minhee would be cruel to deny her. How could she say no when she looked up at her like that, sparkling eyes pleading, pretty lips pushed out in a pout, round cheeks dusted cherry-red? She could do so many things to punish her, but saying no wasnât one of them.
âLetâs see if you can keep that promise, hm?â
Minhee dipped her head down again just to suck on the skin of Jisuâs other titâat the same time, she slipped her hand between Jisuâs spread legs and pressed the heel of her palm against her through her panties. Jisu arched at the combined sensation and whined, high-pitched and airy. Her panties were soaked through. She was so wet it made Minheeâs mouth water and she almost drooled a little bit against her skin.
âYouâre fucking dripping, sweetheart,â Minhee breathed. She shuffled back, catching another glimpse of Jisuâs already fucked-out expression. âAww, baby, you look like such a slut.â
Jisu inhaled sharply and covered her face with her hands. Minhee shook her head and reached up to pull them down. âNone of that. Youâre gonna look at me the whole time, got it? I want to see you.â
A quick nod was all Minhee needed before she got down between Jisuâs thighs and laid on her stomach. Jisuâs pussy was still covered by her soaked-through panties, so Minhee hooked her fingers in the waistband and tugged. âLift your butt, Jisu.â Jisu easily complied, lifting her hips off the bed so Minhee could pull them all the way off. She tossed them in some random direction and then set her eyes back on her target. Jisuâs folds were wet and glistening with her slick and her clit was pink and swollenâperfect.
âUnnie, st-stop staring,â Jisu whimpered, thighs coming to close around Minheeâs head. She grabbed her knees and pushed them back apart as a grin spread across her face.
âSorry, jagi, Jisuâs pussy is just so pretty. So pretty and perfect for me.â
Jisuâs embarrassed whines filled her ears as she leaned forward and stuck out her tongue. A drop of drool dripped down onto the sheets. Then, without warning, she pressed her tongue flat against Jisuâs cunt. She gasped, legs kicking out, and she scrambled to grab the sheets. Minheeâs lips quirked up as she ran her tongue from her hole to her clit, collecting her juices in the process. She moaned at her taste. Eating Jisu out would always be one of her favorite things. She could never get over how wet she got, how she tasted, how she smelled.
When her tongue flicked over Jisuâs clit, she swallowed slick she collected, making eye contact with Jisu at the same time. âYou taste so fucking good, baby. I could just drink you.â She laved her tongue over her cunt again and watched as Jisu bit her lip. Her hole clenched, squeezing out more fluid. It made Minhee lightheaded.
She continued running her tongue over her, just to hear her gasp. When sheâd had enough (though sheâd truly never had enough), she closed her lips over her clit, licking and sucking at it like it were a piece of candy between her lips. Jisu cried out, writhing against the sheets. Her thighs shut around Minheeâs head and this time she let her do it.
â Nghhhâ unnie, unnie, please, more,â Jisu begged. She rolled her hips forward, grinding against her face while she sucked on her clit. Wetness collected between Minheeâs own legs. Fucking hell, she was so gone for Jisu.
Just like Jisu requested, she gave her more. She alternated between sucking on her clit and fucking her tongue into her dripping hole, curling her tongue like she was licking ice cream. Jisu moaned loudly when she fucked her, thrusting in and out, in and out. She was reduced to a pathetic, fucked-out mess. Moans and airy whines intermixed with gibberish falling from her lips every other second. Minhee moaned with her as she mouthed at her cunt just to get a reaction from the vibrations her moans created. It worked so well.
âAhh-hahhâM-Minhee, fuck, fuck, fuck, Iâm s-so close,â Jisu gasped. Minhee smirked.
She swirled her tongue around her clit and pressed two fingers inside her at the same time. She knew how to flick her tongue just right, knew where to press her fingers to bring Jisu to the edge. Her pressed her fingers against her walls and she keened. The signs were all thereâthe muscles in Jisuâs thighs tensed, her whole clenched rhythmically around Minheeâs thumb, her stomach pulled taut.
So easy.
âIâmâoh fuck, please, âm gonna, Iââ
Her body went rigid, but just before she could tip over the edge, Minhee pulled back, leaving her with nothing. She relaxed against the bed, panting. The edges of her eyes glittered with tears.
âWhaâ unnie, why did you do that?â she asked. Her voice was hoarse from her moans and there was wateriness to it that told Minhee she was close to crying. That thought probably shouldnât have turned her on so much.
âI told you I was going to punish you, didnât I?â she asked, tilting her head. She knew she mustâve looked a sight from the way Jisu looked at her. Her chin was wet and dripping and her lips tingled. But nothing beat how Jisu looked, her wide eyes pleading as a tear slipped down her cheek. âAww, baby, whatâs wrong?â she asked, reaching up to wipe the tear away. It did nothing to help because the fingers she used were coated in Jisuâs wetness.
âUnnieâs mean,â Jisu sniffled.
Minhee cooed and brought her hand down to cup Jisuâs chin. âAw, unnieâs mean, hm?â
Jisu nodded adamantly, another tear running down her face. Minhee pouted down at her. âPoor, sweet girl.â She brushed her fingers over her bottom lip and her lips parted automatically, allowing Minhee to push them inside. She whimpered when she tasted herself, eyes going a little hazy. Minhee grinned in response, pressing down on her tongue. âIf you think Iâm being mean, maybe I should just stop. You wanna stop, baby?â
Jisuâs eyes went wide and she shook her head. Drool ran down her chin and coated her pink lips. Minhee pressed down more firmly on her tongue and she gagged, her eyes immediately brimming with more tears. âThatâs what I thought.â Minhee chuckled and pulled her fingers out of Jisuâs mouth, leaving a trail of saliva behind. âStay there, sweetheart. Iâm gonna go get something. Be a good girl. No touching.â
A whimper and a pathetic nod was all Minhee got as she got off the bed. She went to their closet and pulled out a box of various different toysâa grin spread across her face when her eyes landed on the item she wantedâa sparkly mint green strap. When she first suggested buying it, Jisu blushed and said that it was tacky. Minhee bought it immediately.
When Minhee turned around, Jisuâs eyes were glued onto her and her bottom lip was caught between her teeth. Her legs were still spread, so Minhee got a nice view of her pink pussy, shiny and dripping. She licked her lips. Fuck.
âSuch a good girl, being so patient for me,â she said as she climbed back onto the bed.
âWanâwanna be good for unnie,â Jisu whispered, voice shaky. Minhee smiled and bent down to kiss her tummy.
âIs that right? Youâre doing a good job of it.â
She made quick work of putting on the strap-on, clasping it around her hips with deft fingers. The material dug into the plush flesh of her hips and was probably a bit too tight, but sheâd picked up on the fact that Jisu loved when she spilled over the straps a bit.
Jisuâs breath was coming in a bit ragged as Minhee got ready and it only got worse when she looked down at her and hooked her hands under her knees. Her breath hitched and her eyes went wide. God, Minhee could just devour her. âAre you ready, princess?â she asked, tilting her head. Jisu swallowed, her throat bobbing. âAnswer me.â
âY-yes,â she hiccuped. âIâm ready. Please. Please fuck me, unnie.â
Minhee inhaled sharply and dug her nails into Jisuâs thighs. âFuck, jagi.â She could have made Jisu beg, but now she was getting desperate to see her fall apart too.
The sound Jisu made when Minhee pushed inside of her was enough to make her go entirely insane. She tossed her head back against the pillows and keened high in her throat, the sound becoming a little choked when Minhee pushed her legs back to fold her in half. She panted and whimpered breathlessly as she adjusted to the stretch. The corners of her eyes still glistened with tears. The sight made Minhee a little dizzy.
âReady for me to move now?â
Jisu nodded rapidly. âPlease, please. I needâneedâ ahhh!â
Minhee gritted her teeth as she snapped her hips forward, punching a loud, debauched moan out of Jisu. She didnât give her a second to breathe. Her eyes rolled back, choked moans and breathless whines spilling from her parted lips. Her legs trembled. Drool ran down her cheek.
A bead of sweat rolled down Minheeâs temple. She felt closer to the edge than even the vibrator had made her feel, just from the sight of Jisu falling apart. âYouâre so fucking perfect. The prettiest girl, holy shit.â
She thrust her hips harder and Jisuâs eyes went wide. â Fuckâ oh, fuck,â she gasped, hands scrambling for purchase on the sheets. The strength of Minheeâs thrusts had her sliding up the bed.
âSatisfied now that youâre allâfilled up?â Minhee asked, breathless. ââS that what my jagi needed? To be fucked like a slut?â
âHnnng,â Jisu moaned. âWanâ more.â
âMore?â Minhee gripped her thighs so hard there would be bruises there later. The skin gave so easily under her fingers that they were probably already bruised. âYou want more? Whyââ she groaned as Jisu spread her legs more, allowing her to press into her more fully. ââwhy should I give you more?â
â Unnie!â Jisu whined. âPlease, please IâIâm good.â
She pouted at her from between her knees and Minhee went a little cross-eyed. She was weak, so weak for her. âAlright, Iâll give you more, then.âÂ
She hiked Jisuâs hips up so that her knees could hook over her shoulders and then she slowly slid out. Jisu held her breath. Minhee pulled out, inch by inch, until only the tip was left inside. And then she slammed back into her, her hips meeting her ass with a loud smack!Â
Jisuâs mouth fell open and she cried out, tears springing to her eyes. âOh fuckkkâ Minâunnie!â she moaned. The heels of her feet dug into Minheeâs back, pulling her closer. She was completely bent over her. She could feel Jisuâs breath brushing against her lips with every pant and when sweat dripped down her nose, it landed on Jisuâs cheek.Â
âThatâhahâthat good enough for you, princess?â Minhee gritted through clenched teeth. Jisu only whined in response.Â
It only took a few more thrusts for Jisu to start babbling again, senseless pleas and needy little moans tumbling from her lips every couple of seconds. âPlease, pl-please unnie, gonnaâ mmmâ gonna come, please!â she gasped. Minheeâs breath hitched and suddenly she was completely overwhelmed with Jisuâs sounds and how she looked beneath her, completely fucked out and desperate. So she turned her head to the side and bit down on her thigh.Â
âOw! Unnie!â Jisu sniffed. She pushed her hips forward, sucking the strap deeper. âMean, so mean.â
Minhee laughed softly and leaned down to press a kiss to the corner of her lips. âShh, maybe, youâre just too cute and too fucking sexy.â Jisu pouted, but her pout was wiped away as soon as Minhee continued her thrusts again. Jisuâs breath stuttered and she whimpered, back arching.
âOhâIâm gonna come, Iâm gonnaââ
Minhee stopped her thrusts all together and pulled out, leaving Jisu with nothing but the teasing stimulation of the dildoâs tip brushing against her wet folds.Â
Jisu sobbed brokenly and slumped against the bed. âPleaseââ she cried. âWhyâd you stop? I want to come.â
âYouâre getting punished, remember baby?â Minhee said. She rubbed a soothing hand over Jisuâs tummy. âJust one more and then you can come. Can you do that for me? Can you be a good girl and wait just a little longer?âÂ
Jisuâs face was already streaked with new tears but she nodded. âIâI can.â
âThatâs my girl.âÂ
She let Jisu calm down for a bit longer, leaning down to press soft kisses to her mouth. Jisu melted against her, allowing their lips to move together languidly while Minheeâs hands ran up and down her body. Her skin was soft and clammy from sweat and so perfect Minhee could have touched her forever. But she did tell her that she would let her come eventually, so after another minute of kissing, she pulled away and got back into position.Â
âReady, sweetheart? Still want to keep going?â
Jisu smiled softly and wrapped her legs around Minheeâs waist. ââM ready. We can keep going.âÂ
Minhee smiled back and gave her thigh a squeeze. âPerfect.â
She wet her lips as she slid back into her cunt. Warmth pooled in her stomach at how easily she sucked the strap and she felt the walls of her own hole clench around nothing at the slick sound it made entering her. She took a deep breath to ground herself. Jisu whimpered softly and looked up at her with pleading eyes and that was all she needed to start fucking into her again.Â
This time her thrusts were slower, more calculated, but she still pushed deep, hitting at an angle she knew Jisu liked the most. It was just as effective as fucking her roughly because she couldnât stay still or keep quiet, hips twitching with every thrust. She was so wet that slick dripped onto Minheeâs hips as it collected on the dildo. It made her mouth water. Sheâd have to eat her out again after they had rested.Â
This time, Jisu reached her peak a lot faster. Soon she was writhing against the bed, the muscles in her stomach fluttering when Minhee rolled her hips.Â
âHnngâunnie please. Iâm cl-close so close, let me come please.âÂ
Minhee smiled down at her, a little condescending, but still sweet. âI told you,â she said, âone more time. Then Iâll let you come.âÂ
The way Jisu cried out was music to Minheeâs ears. She let Jisu get right to the edge and just before she came, she stopped her thrusts all together again and pulled out, leaving her empty and aching. Jisu whimpered and cried softly beneath her, mumbling out how she wanted to come; âSo bad, I need it, unnie.â Minhee sighed lovingly and kissed her calf.
âShh, jagi, youâll get to come now. You were so, so good.âÂ
âI was good?â Jisu asked, eyes sparkling. Minheeâs heart jumped.Â
âOf course, so good, my princess.â She let her relax against the bed so she could rest for a moment and so that she could be at a better angle to kiss her. Jisu sighed against her mouth while she carded her fingers through her hair. âHow do you want it baby? Want unnie to keep fucking you? Or do you maybe want my fingers?â She reached down between them and ran her fingertips over Jisuâs clit. The shiver and gasp she got in response was a good indication.Â
âCanâcan I have your fingers, please? Wanna feel you, just you.âÂ
A smile spread across Minheeâs face and she gave Jisu one last kiss. âAlright, baby, Iâll give you what you want now.â
She sat up and quickly undid the strap and set it off to the side. They were definitely going to have to clean the sheets from how wet it was but that was something for later them to worry about.Â
Jisu was waiting patiently when she got back between her thighs. Minhee was shocked she hadnât even tried to touch herself, not even once. Maybe what she did at the restaurant had been enough bratting for one day. âIâm gonna make you feel so good now, okay?âÂ
From this angle, it was easy to lean over Jisu and capture her lips in a kiss. Jisu was greedy now, her lips parting immediately and her tongue flicking out to taste Minhee. She kissed her with just as much vigor, sucking her bottom lip between her teeth. The wet smack of their lips together and Jisuâs soft moans when she licked into her mouth almost covered up the sound of Minheeâs two fingers slipping into her pussy. Jisuâs moan was unmistakable though, as was the way her hips kicked in response.Â
Minhee grinned as she curled her fingers and Jisu moaned. She swallowed the sound down with a kiss, slotting their lips together so that any sound was muffled. When she began thrusting her fingers, Jisu gasped into her mouth and pushed her hips down to meet her hand. The walls of her cunt were hot around her fingers and velvety-smooth, and they sucked her in.Â
A groan made its way up Minheeâs throat when Jisu clenched around her. âFuck,â she mumbled. Her head was spinningâshe was dizzy with arousal. âYou take me so well, shit. So fucking good.âÂ
âUnnie,â Jisu whimpered, going a little cross-eyed. Minhee pressed her palm against her clit in response and curled her fingers. âOh myâoh my gosh. Nghhhâfuck!â She grinded down against her palm, desperate for any stimulation she could get. Insatiable.Â
Minhee was so wet between her own legs that it was becoming ridiculous. Jisuâs reactions to getting fingered alone were probably enough to make her come. Her pretty noises sent waves of arousal rolling through her body and the slick squelching sounds of her fingers made her lightheaded.Â
âBaby,â she groaned. She spread her fingers and Jisu whimpered.Â
âIâm gettingââ she cut herself off with a desperate whine as Minhee pumped her fingers deeper. âHnngâIâm getting close again.âÂ
Minhee could tell by the way she was clenching around her rhythmically and the way her kisses were turning into nothing more than pants against her mouth. âYou can come whenever you want, baby.âÂ
âThank you, thank youââ
Minhee started fingerfucking her with more vigor, sliding the digits in and out while Jisu grinded against her hand desperately. She squirmed against the bed and twitched with every curl of Minheeâs fingers and fuck. She was such a sight with her red, swollen lips and eyelashes clumped together with tears. Minhee could finger her like this for hours but she had a promise to keep.Â
This time, Jisu couldnât even warn Minhee. She tossed her head back, her pretty neck arching. The muscles of her stomach went taut and her hole spasmed around Minheeâs fingers, and then she was coming. Wetness spilled over her hand as Jisu trembled and her eyes widened. âHoly shitââ
â Nghhh,â came Jisuâs weak response. Her juices ran down between Minheeâs fingers and dripped onto the bed, soaking the sheets. Minhee bit her lip. Jisu didnât squirt often, so seeing it, feeling it, was otherworldly. She had to blink herself back to reality as she fingered her through her orgasm. Fuck, she wanted to take her apart endlessly.Â
When Jisu finally came down from her high, chest heaving with her uneven breaths, she whined and covered her face. âOh my goshâŚunnieâŚI canât believe I did that.â Embarrassment seeped into her voice and Minhee had half the mind to tease her, but she didnât. Instead, she slipped her fingers out and brought her hand to her mouth. With a lopsided grin, she sucked her fingers into her mouth and licked between them.Â
âMinhee!â Jisu exclaimed, incredulous. âWhy would you do that?âÂ
Minhee giggled and flopped down beside her. âCouldnât help myself. You always taste good. And I love it when you do that.â She ran her clean hand through Jisuâs messy hair and the younger sighed softly.Â
âItâs embarrassingâŚâ she mumbled.Â
Minhee chuckled and kissed her cheek. âNothing embarrassing about it. Youâre adorable.â
Jisu gave a playful roll of her eyes and Minhee opened her arms as she scooted closer.
âWe need to get cleaned up,â Minhee said.Â
âSleep first,â Jisu mumbled against her chest. âYou made me go through three almost orgasms andââ her head suddenly snapped up and her eyes widened. âMinhee-unnie, I never made you come.â Her bottom lip jutted out in a pout which Minhee quickly kissed away.Â
âShh, donât worry. I came once earlier, remember?â She pressed another reassuring kiss to the corner of Jisuâs mouth. âBesides, I know youâll make it up to me later, right? With this pretty mouth of yours.â She brushed her thumb over Jisuâs bottom lip, giggling when she shuddered.Â
âYouâre gonna make me horny again.â
Minhee cackled. âOkay, okay. Iâll stop.â She continued combing her fingers through Jisuâs hair and pressed her head against her chest. Jisu told her once that hearing her heartbeat after they had sex was always comforting. So she always made sure she could be pressed right up against her.Â
âAfter we have a little nap and a bath, do you want to watch a Studio Ghibli movie with me?â she asked softly after a moment. Jisu nodded vigorously. Her hair tickled Minheeâs neck.Â
âMhm!â she agreed, voice muffled against her chest.Â
Minhee smiled and bent her head down to press a kiss to the top of her head. âStudio Ghibli it is. Iâll get us some ice cream too.â Jisu made a noncommittal hum and kissed the side of her boob.Â
âSounds perfect, unnie.â
As they cuddled up together, Jisu dozed off, but Minheeâs mind began to wander. She'd discovered some things about herself earlier in the evening that she would have to explore later. But there was no way she would let Jisu ever realize the full extent of how affected she was. They both knew that Jisu's control had been entirely faux control...but as Minhee thought longer, she came to a question; Had it really?Â
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Summary: After being in America for six years, Jisung returns to South Korea for the holidays and reunites with his best friend and ex lover, Minho
Tags: Minsung, Christmas, holiday, exes to lovers, getting back together, fluff, Minho is whipped, Jisung is whipped, smut, bottom!Jisung, top!Minho
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Six years. Six years since Han Jisung had left South Korea to go study abroad in the United States. Six years since he had seen any family other than his parents. Six years since he had been home.Â
It was a good six years. In that time, he had improved dramatically in his English speaking skills, made new friends, lost friends, had relationships (although largely unsatisfying), and more hookups than he could count. He had finished college and was working on getting his name known as a producer alongside his friends Chan and Changbin who were transfer students just like him. It wasnât that he had intentionally stayed away so long. Life had just taken over and he never had the time to plan a trip back.Â
This year, he decided it was time. He had some vacation time saved up from work and honestly, he missed it. The States had their own charms, but he would still get an ache in his chest, yearning for his small hometown in South Korea even six years later. That was why he planned a four week vacation to visit his family for Christmas and see them for as much time as possible.Â
As he waited for his parents to pick him up at the airport, a nervous excitement bubbled in his stomach. His parents had come to visit him while he had been gone, but it had been so long since he had been home, he didnât know what to expect. What had changed? What had stayed the same? Did his parents keep his old bedroom in the same state he left it or did they clear it out? Did the same people live in his neighborhood or had they all left like Jisung six years before? If the same people were there, would they remember Jisung? And if they remembered him, what would they think of him? Was his ex still living here or had he left too? Jisung didnât know whether he wanted him to be there or not. Would it be a crime to say he missed him even though it had been so long?Â
There were so many questions Jisung had, and they all left his mind the moment he saw his parents. They hugged him and he hugged them back harder. His mom nearly cried, cupped his cheeks, and whined about how he was, âToo skinny.â His chest filled with warmth and for a moment he forgot all of his worries about returning.Â
When he got home, his mother started preparing dinner. âI also got cheesecake for you,â she said, and Jisungâs mouth watered. âI thought you might like a little treat after that ridiculously long flight.âÂ
Jisung pressed his lips together, a knot forming in his throat. âThank you, eomma,â he said softly. âIs there anything I can do to help with dinner?âÂ
âOh no need,â his mother stated with a wave of her hand. âYou appa will be helping me anyway. You should go and rest before dinner. I know you must be exhausted.âÂ
At the suggestion of rest, the fatigue hit Jisungâs body and his limbs felt too heavy for him to carry. He was exhausted. The jetlag was going to hit him hard and being on the plane for so many hours had taken it out of him. âOkay. I think I will go up to my room and rest for a bit,â he said with a smile.Â
âGood! Iâll call you when dinnerâs done.âÂ
Jisung grabbed his suitcases he had set down and made his way up the stairs to his old bedroom. His chest tightened as he took in the layout of the house, the same as it had always been. Family pictures lined the walls and he cringed at the school photo from his sophomore year where he was wearing thick rimmed glasses and had bright blue braces on his teeth.Â
When he opened his bedroom door, he was suddenly eighteen againâunsure of himself, apprehensive of the future, mourning the end of his high school relationshipâeverything was exactly as he had left it, albeit a bit cleaner. The shelf full of manga he had left thinking it would be too immature to bring with him still remained, as did the shelf of figurines below that. His old posters were still on his wall, only the corners were curled in. His bed was made but he had no idea if it was with the same set he had made it with when he left. Knowing his mom and her affinity for cleanliness, probably not. But it didnât even matter. It was all so similar that the wave of memories it brought back was almost too much for Jisung to handle.Â
Going to sleep was the easiest solution to dampening the onslaught of emotionally-charged memories that being home produced. It didnât take long for him to doze off either, and he only awoke when his father called to him from the bottom of the steps. He did a double take when he woke up, absorbing his surroundings in confusion before he relaxed. It was like stepping back into the past.Â
As they sat down to dinner and Jisung filled his plate, his earlier questions came rushing back. âHas the town changed much since Iâve been gone? I remember you said they added a new shelter here,â Jisung started. There had always been stray cats and dogs wandering around his neighborhood when he was a kid, so the addition of a shelter was extremely welcome.Â
âNot too much, honestly,â his father said with a shrug. âYou know how it is around here. Nothing much to write home about.â He laughed softly, and Jisung was reminded how much he had missed the sound. Even though his parents came to visit, it had still been over a year. âWeâve had a couple families move out here and there, a couple move in. But itâs mostly the same.âÂ
Jisung nodded softly and then his mother got a lightbulb look on her face. âOh! But this new coffee shop opened recently. About a year ago, I think. Itâs such a cute little place, really gives the village an extra homey feel to it. Itâs actually run byââÂ
His father cleared his throat and gave his wife a pointed look. âIt is really lovely,â he agreed. âYou should check it out. We wonât be here tomorrow since Iâll be working at the office and your eomma will be at the shelter, so itâd give you something to do,â he suggested.Â
Jisung wanted to ask about what his mom was going to say before she was cut off, but he decided it probably wasnât important. He simply smiled and nodded at the suggestion. âThat does sound nice. Iâve always loved places like that. Maybe I can work on some lyrics while Iâm there.â He didnât write music as much as he produced but there were still some artists he needed to work on lyrics for. Cafes and coffee shops were the best place to do work like that.Â
âGood!â his mother said with a sweet smile. âIâm sure youâll love it.â And contrary to what his younger self believed, she was often right, so Jisung believed her.Â
âIâm sure I will,â he responded.Â
His parents shared a look that he couldnât interpret but then the topic shifted and he forgot about the entire exchange, other than the fact that he needed to visit the cafe.Â
As much as Jisung loved winter, the wind nipping at his already numb cheeks was not his favorite thing. He pulled his scarf up just a bit higher so that it covered the bottoms of his cheeks and he rubbed his gloved hands over his skin. He reasoned that at least he would have a warm drink and a cozy coffee shop to sit in soon and all the wind and icy temperatures would be worth it. Thankfully, the shop was not too far away from his home and he was able to admire all the Christmas lights and decorations that lined the streets. Even if he was cold on the outside, he felt warm on the inside.Â
The coffee shop was not easy to miss. He noticed it as soon as he came upon the building. The outside was decorated with garland and icicle lights and there was a large sign on the front that read, Linoâs Coffee and Tea in cursive lettering. The same title was printed across the two big windows in the front. The door was painted red and had a large wreath hanging on it, which Jisung admired for a moment before he opened the door.Â
A quiet chime went off as Jisung pushed the door open and a delicious concoction of scents hit his nose as soon as he stepped inside. Rich coffee mixed with cinnamon and the smell of sweet pastries, and it made Jisungâs mouth water. There was no one standing at the counter, but there were a few patrons sitting at various tables, sipping on lattes and snacking on expertly prepared pastries. The display at the counter caught Jisungâs eye immediately, and while he had originally been planning on just getting a coffee, the sight of a cheesecake with a spiral of red strawberries around the edge and drizzles of chocolate over the top caught his eye.Â
From inside the kitchen, someone called, âIâll be with you in a minute!â and for a second, the voice sounded extremely familiar, but Jisung couldnât place it.Â
That was, until the owner of the voice stepped out. In an instant Jisungâs eyebrows shot up and his mouth fell agape. Deep-set brown eyes, rose-petal mouth, sharp jawline, the most perfect nose he had ever seenâhe would recognize that face anywhere.Â
The same look of recognition passed over the other manâs face and after a few seconds, his shocked expression softened and he smiled softly. âJisung-ah,â he said, and Jisungâs stomach flipped when his name rolled off his tongue. His voice held the same, gentle warmth that it always had when he spoke to him. But that had been so long ago.
âMinho-hyung,â he breathed.Â
He had not seen Minho in six years and it had been four or five since he had last spoken to him. He couldnât exactly remember. But at one point, they had been best friends. And before that, Minho had been his boyfriend.Â
They started dating when Minho was in his senior year of high-school and Jisung was in his junior year. They had been friends since 7th grade and Minho was his first kiss. His first everything. Minho never intended to go to college so he was still around even as Jisung was in his senior year. But when Jisung graduated, that's when everything changed. They started having more disagreements, more tension, and less romance. Part of that was fueled by the fact that Jisung had applied to a college in the United States and was fully planning on attending. Minho acted like it would be okay and he would be fine, that they would be fine, but it was clear he was having a difficult time handling it. In the end, they both agreed to break up and go back to being friends.Â
As time went on though, they progressively started talking less and less. The major time difference coupled with Jisungâs busy life and their past put a rift between them and at one point, one of them sent the last message. Jisung couldn't remember who, but he had a feeling it was him.Â
"It's been a while," Minho said, bringing Jisung back to the present. "How long has it been?"Â
"Gosh." Jisung rubbed the back of his neck. "Six years? Yeah. Six years. It's been a long while."Â
"It has," Minho agreed with a nod. He was rocking back and forthâJisung could imagine him bouncing on the balls of his feet. It was something he often did when he was excited or nervous. Jisung didn't know what to do with either of those things. âWhat are you doing back here?âÂ
âIâm here to visit my parents and just visitâŚhome,â he answered, hesitating at the word âhome.â âIâve been saving up vacation time and money. So I was finally able to travel.âÂ
Minho hummed softly. âThatâs good. Really good.â And really, Jisung couldnât agree more.
"How have you been? Is this your place?" Jisung asked, gesturing around to the coffee shop. "Fuck waitâLino? Is that you? Lee Minho? "Â
A smile bloomed across Minhoâs face and Jisungâs heart stuttered in his chest. Oh shit. It was just as beautiful as he had always remembered it. Even more so. He still had the same lopsided grin, the same slightly crooked front teeth.Â
Jisungâs stomach felt like a whole zoo.Â
"Yeah, this is my place. I opened it up about two years ago. I was working to open it for a while before though. The idea came to me when youâ" Minho cleared his throat and glanced down. When you left, Jisung gathered. "I didn't really know what to do with myself. You know I was kind of directionless for a whileâŚwell I knew I didn't want to leave, and I loved baking and coffee, so it just made sense."Â
Picturing Minho putting so much work into this little coffee shopâspending hours developing recipes, saving money to openâmade Jisung's chest fill with warmth. He had always been such a hard worker and Jisung had always admired him for it. That hadn't changed. "Well it's beautiful. And everythingâeverything smells amazing and looksâwow. I can't believe you did this all on your own. It's spectacular. Wow." Jisung couldn't help his exclamations of awe. It really was amazing. The inside of the coffee shop was honestly beautiful, decorated for Christmas just like the outside. He hadn't even noticed the Christmas tree in a corner of the shop until he started looking around as he attempted a coherent compliment.Â
Minho laughed, soft and bright, and it was the most beautiful sound Jisung had ever heard. Wow, he had missed him. It was insane how fast he felt comfortable around him again. âThank you, Iâm glad you like it,â he said genuinely. âAh, Iâm taking up your time. You probably have things to do. What can I get you, Jisung-ah?âÂ
âNo, no, itâs okay! I was just gonna chill here for a bit, work on some song lyrics, youâre good,â Jisung said, waving his hand. âI think Iâll take a large candy cane mocha, andâŚa slice of that cheesecake there,â he said, pointing at the cheesecake on the display. A knowing grin spread across Minhoâs face and he nodded as he typed Jisungâs order into a little keypad on the counter.Â
âYou never change,â he mumbled, the smile still on his face.Â
Jisungâs cheeks warmed and he bit his lip. In the past, Jisung got cheesecake on every outing he possibly could, and it was his dessert of choice on dates. He didnât respond as he paid, but he couldnât get the thought out of his mind that Minho remembered.Â
A few other people entered the shop as Jisung waited for Minho to finish his drink and get his dessert but Jisungâs eyes were focused on Minho. Over the years, Minhoâs appearance had matured so much and he had grown into his features in a way that made him even more beautiful, which Jisung hadnât thought possible when they were together in high school.Â
When Minho handed Jisung his drink and his plate of cheesecake, their fingertips brushed. Minho didnât seem to notice, but the contact sent sparks up Jisungâs arm. He needed to remind himself that this was his ex. His ex he had not spoken to in years. There was no reason for him to be reacting to him this way. None.Â
Except, as he thanked Minho and began to move to find a table to sit at, Minho called out to him. âJisung-ah,â he began, then clenched his fists on the edge of the counter, âitâs good to see you again. IâŚI missed you.â And oh this was not good for Jisungâs poor, lonely heart.Â
He hadnât realized how much of an ache there had been in his heart until it lifted, eased by Minhoâs presence, his words. He swallowed a lump in his throat and inhaled. âI missed you too, hyung.âÂ
-
Minho and Jisungâs breakup had been Minhoâs idea. It was mutual, and Jisung agreed to it almost immediately. That fact only made it harder for Minho, though. When he brought it up, part of him hoped that Jisung would fight for him, that he would say they could work things out, that distance wouldnât destroy the love they had. Instead, he smiled a little sadly and nodded. âI thinkâŚI think that might be for the best.âÂ
No one knew that Minho spent every night for the next month crying after that.Â
Years before, when his last message was left on read by the younger, Minho resigned himself to never seeing Jisung ever again. He reasoned that it was for the best, that it would help him move on and finally get settled with his life. And it had helped, even if not at first. It allowed him to focus more on planning for his cafe and thatâs what he did; he threw himself into work like he never had before. In the end, it was worth it. He had a beautiful coffee shop that made a good profit and made the townsfolk happy. He was happy and he was settled. Sometimes he still thought of Jisung, wondered how he was doing and what he would say if he knew how successful Minhoâs dream had become. But for the most part, Jisung was out of his mind.Â
And then he walked into Minhoâs shop and right back into his life. Nothing could have prepared him for the tidal wave of emotions that hit him the moment he laid eyes on Jisung. He looked the same as he always had, but he had grown up. His jaw was sharper but his cheeks were just as full. He had a few new piercings on his ears and his hair was lavender instead of the deep brown he had left with. Minho felt the same way he had felt when Jisung first held his hand, only this time the feeling choked him.Â
Despite the cocktail of emotions swirling through Minhoâs head, talking to Jisung was easy. As easy as it had always been. They just clicked like that. It felt like they had never stopped talking, like Jisung had never left. But at the end of the day, he had. It had been years, they were both adults, they had both been through things neither of them knew about in the time since theyâd last spoken. In a way, they were practically strangers.Â
And yet, Jisung looked so happy to see him.Â
The interaction was something Minho couldnât keep out of his head. It took everything in his power not to look at Jisung the entire time he was sitting at his table. He had to remind himself that things had changed, time had passed, Jisung probably had a girlfriend or a boyfriend back in America.Â
Perhaps they could be friends.Â
Minho had deleted his chat with Jisung a while ago but he still had his contact. He could never bring himself to delete it or block him. He had no reason to. Things had just faded out and they didnât even end on a necessarily bad note, no matter how heartbroken Minho had been. Circumstance just brought them to that point. But now that he had seen Jisung again and he was in the area, likely staying with his parents, then there was a chance Minho could text him again and they could hang out.Â
Unfortunately, Minho was scared. He was worried Jisung didnât actually want anything to do with him and he would turn him down and he would be stuck in a pit of his own embarrassment. He needed to test the waters first. Jisung would likely be there until Christmas at least so he had time.Â
What he had not been expecting was for Jisung to come into the shop almost every day from that point. The second day he came in and told him how his parents were the ones who told him to come to the coffee shop and how much they loved it. Minho realized he would have to give them a personal thank you for bringing Jisung back to him. That day he ordered a candy cane mocha again, saying that while he usually just went for an Americano, it was Christmas time so he wanted to be more festive. He had also had a larger sweet tooth lately.Â
He didnât come in the next day, but he showed up the day after that, getting a simple Americano that time. One day he came in and didnât even order anything, just said he liked the environment and it was relaxing to write music there. Minho caught him looking at him at least five times while he was working behind the counter; there was no excuse for the way it made butterflies erupt in his stomach.Â
Around a week from the first day he came in, Jisung showed up again when it was an hour before closing and he ordered a chocolate filled croissant and a hot chocolate with whipped cream. Minho gave him a little extra just because he could. And instead of leaving to sit at a table and write lyrics like he had the days before, Jisung stayed at the counter so he could talk to Minho in between customers. It was a slow day, so Minho was grateful for the company, especially since it was Jisungâs company. But he wouldnât admit that out loud just yet. He didnât talk about anything important, mostly just different anime he had watched recently and what some of the genres he had been working on were, but Minho held on to every word.Â
The time rolled around for Minho to close up, and it made his chest ache as he thought of telling Jisung he was closing for the evening, but Jisung beat him to the topic instead. âI could help you clean up, if you want,â he suggested.Â
Minhoâs heart soared before it landed back on earth and he shook his head. âNo, itâs okay. Iâm sure you have things to do. I can handle it on my own,â he reassured him.Â
Jisungâs bottom lip pushed out in a pout. It made Minhoâs knees weak. Fuck, he was even worse off than he had been in the past. âI want to help though. You work here all by yourself and itâs gotta be hard, even if thatâs what you usually do.âÂ
âI have help sometimes,â Minho said with a shrug. Jisung was still pouting and if Minho were a stronger man, he would tell him to go anyway and insist he could do it on his own like he always had. But Minho was incredibly weak. âAlright, fine. But donât expect to get paid, this is volunteer work.âÂ
Jisungâs pout turned into a wide smile and he hopped off of his seat. âI know, donât worry. I just wanted to help.âÂ
He shuffled behind the counter and suddenly Minho was keenly aware of the fact that since Jisung walked in two days ago, he hadnât interacted with him without the barrier of the counter between him. Now it felt realâJisung was actually here and not a figment of Minhoâs imagination. He swallowed thickly.Â
âAlright, if you want, you can just wipe down the counters and tables. I know where everything goes so Iâll take down the display.â He gestured for Jisung to follow him into the back and handed him a cloth and cleaning agent for the surfaces around the shop.Â
âSounds good to me, Minho-hyung,â Jisung said with a soft smile. He took the supplies from Minho and went back out to the front to begin wiping down the various tables and countertops. Minho watched him for a minute as he went, something tugging at his chest. He gave himself two firm pats over his heart and mumbled, âShut up,â under his breath.Â
They cleaned in relative silence. Occasionally, Jisung would break the silence by humming a melody Minho didnât recognize under his breath. It was comfortable. This was how they always worked, Minho remembered it clearly. Silence didnât bother either of them. They didnât need to talk to fill some imaginary gapâeach otherâs presence was enough.Â
With help, cleaning did go by faster. Jisung was efficient and even helped him sweep and mop so Minho could focus on fixing everything else that needed to be dealt with.Â
The December sky was dark when they stepped out onto the street but the sidewalks were lit by lamps and colorful Christmas lights. Under the subtle glow, Minho could see the gentle flush on Jisungâs round cheeks. âLet me walk you home,â Minho suggested before he could think better of it.Â
Jisung tilted his head at him, a soft smile playing on his lips. âDo you even remember where I live?âÂ
âI could never forget,â Minho admitted. He had walked past it a few times over the years and would sometimes pause in front for a moment, hoping that somehow Jisung would come through the front door.Â
Jisung hummed, contemplating, and then nodded. âOkay, yeah. I could use some company on the way, if itâs not too much trouble.â He wrapped his scarf around himself, obscuring the bottom half of his face.Â
âNo trouble,â Minho reassured. âIâve got nothing to do anyway." What he didn't say was that he just wanted to spend more time with Jisung. He didnât want to go home and reminisce about the past while wishing he had just spent more time with Jisung. He didnât even know how much time Jisung would be spending in Korea. He needed to get every second he could, even if it was the last he would ever see of him.Â
The streets were fairly busy with cars and the sidewalks with people leaving work, but if anyone asked Minho later, he could only remember the two of them. They walked back together, closer than needed. They didnât hold hands, but they came pretty damn close with the way their arms would brush together every few steps. Jisung either didnât seem to notice or he didnât mind.Â
After they had walked a few blocks, thick flakes of snow fluttered down onto the sidewalk beneath their feet. Jisungâs eyes widened at the sight and he let out a soft gasp as more snowflakes joined in. âOh my gosh snow! Wow, it's so pretty. Where I live in America doesnât have much snow. This is exciting,â he said, skipping a little as he walked.Â
âA little Christmas gift from the universe then,â Minho commented with a chuckle. Jisungâs eyes sparkled as he looked up at the sky and the Christmas lights reflected off them and cast a warm glow on his face. Minho was reminded that Jisungâs favorite season was winter. This walk may have been enough to make it Minhoâs favorite, too.Â
Jisung caught at least ten snowflakes on his tongue before they arrived at his house. Minho, unfortunately, only caught them in his eyes. But it was worth it to witness the joy on Jisungâs face.Â
They paused at the door before Jisung went inside; it painfully reminded Minho of the first kiss he shared with Jisung after a walk similar to thisâonly that was on a warm summer evening and they were both hot and tired and so inexperiencedâMinho thought that if they were to share a kiss now, it would be much better. He thought he saw Jisungâs eyes flick to his lips, but then the look was gone, Jisung meeting his eyes. âThank you for walking me home,â Jisung said with a soft smile.Â
âOf course.â Minho clenched his fists in his pockets. âJisung-ahâIâve been enjoying spending time with you at the coffee shopââ He watched Jisungâs face fall for a split second before he continued, âbut I want to spend more time with you, if thatâs okay? I know we stopped talking and itâs okay if you donât want to butââÂ
âI want to,â Jisung interrupted. âWe can talk about all of that another time, I know IâŚI need to say some things. But I do want to.âÂ
Minho let out a breath he didnât know he had been holding. âOkay. Okay then. Iâll text you. I still have your contact.â Was that embarrassing to admit? Minho realized he didnât care.Â
âOhâŚthatâsâthatâs good. Yeah. Text me. Iâll make sure I find a time.âÂ
âPerfect.â Minho knew his excitement was poorly concealed but this was Han Jisung. Han Jisung who used to be his Han Jisung. âIâll let you go in now, itâs fucking freezing. And I think my fingers are turning into popsicles.âÂ
Jisung laughed and shook his head. âWell you better warm them up then. Iâll see you later, Minho.â He waved and then in a blink of an eye, he was on the other side of the door.Â
Minho sighed and a shiver wracked his body. Fuck it was cold.Â
-
Minho messaged Jisung the next morning. Jisung was sitting in his living room, sipping a mug of hot chocolate, when his phone made a loud ping! He nearly dropped it when he attempted to pick it up to check who had messaged him and his stomach flipped when he saw the contact name. He hadnât changed it since they had last messaged.Â
Minho-hyungie
10:27am
When are you free?Â
JisungÂ
10:28am
Iâm free almost any time this week :)
My fam still has to work until Christmas
So lonely (ËĚŁĚŁĚĽâËĚŁĚŁĚĽâ)
Minho-hyungie
10:32am
Later today then? Iâll ask my friend Felix to watch over the shop until closeÂ
JisungÂ
10:33am
Reallyy?
What are we gonna do?Â
Minho-hyungie
10:36am
Mm itâs a surpriseÂ
JisungÂ
10:36am
Sounds suspicious
You arenât gonna murder me are you?Â
Minho-hyungie
10:37am
I already have the dumpster where iâll dump your body in mindÂ
JisungÂ
10:39am
(°âłÂ°|||)
ScaryÂ
Minho-hyungie
10:40amIâll pick you up at 2?Â
JisungÂ
10:41am
Iâll be ready!Â
Minho-hyungie
10:42am
Make sure to wear warm clothesÂ
When Minho came to pick Jisung up, he pestered him the entire time, begging him to tell where they were going. But Minho wouldnât budge, even when Jisung used his biggest, saddest eyes possible. That had gotten him so many things in life so it was entirely too frustrating that it didnât work on Minho in the moment. But Minho apparently had developed a resolve of steel over the years so he could not be persuaded.Â
It was only when they actually arrived that Jisung realized the surprise was worth it. Minho was taking him ice-skating. Something he hadnât done in years.Â
âOh my gosh!â he exclaimed, eyes blowing wide as he turned to Minho. âYouâre amazing.âÂ
âI know I am,â Minho said with a playful grin.Â
Surveying the skating rink, Jisung was hit with memories from the last time he went ice skating. He and Minho were still together at the time. It was an icy winter day, colder than this one. Minho had surprised him then too. The only real difference was that it was closer to Christmas then and of course they were holding hands and sharing soft, giggly kisses every time one of them slipped. It was a memory Jisung had totally forgotten until now. He wondered if Minho remembered that too, if this location and the surprise had been intentional. He tried not to think about it. Things were different now. They were different now.Â
Yet, when he looked at Minho and he smiled at him with the same soft fondness in his eyes as he did years ago, Jisung wondered if they really were so different.Â
âStill remember how to skate?â Minho asked as they walked to get their skates. Jisung rolled his eyes and scoffed.Â
âPft, of course. Itâs like riding a bike, right?âÂ
It was not like riding a bike.Â
The moment Jisung was on the ice he was slipping and sliding everywhere except where he actually wanted to go. His arms flailed around and his legs slid across the ice in opposite directions, forcing him into a near split before he landed gracelessly on his butt. His lips jutted out in an exaggerated pout as Minho doubled over laughing, clutching his sides like Jisungâs pain was the funniest thing he had ever laid eyes on. âYou are not amazing. I just changed my mind. Stop laughing! â he whined.Â
Minho let out a little âahâ as he finally caught his breath and wiped his eyes. âIâm sorry, Hannie. You were just so confident.â Hannie. He hadnât called him that in a while.Â
Minho eased towards him on his own skates and held his hand out for Jisung to take. Jisungâs eyebrows furrowed and he pursed his lips but he took his hand anyway. Unfortunately, even with Minho holding his hand, he was still unsteady on his feet and they nearly slipped out from under him as he stood so he went colliding into Minhoâs chest.Â
Warm arms went around his waist, holding him steady. Jisung inhaled a shaky breath, his nose filling with the scent of Minhoâs cologne. It was something vanilla and sweet and it made Jisung a little dizzy. âCareful,â Minho chastised, his voice so gentle and warm that it melted over Jisung like caramel. âHold onto me and Iâll help you.âÂ
It wasnât good for Jisung to be this close to Minho. His ex and ex best friend. It wasnât good for his sanity or his heart but Jisung was selfish. It was okay anyway, right? He was just helping him skate. So he nodded, not trusting the sound of his own voice now that heâd had real physical contact with Minho and had smelled his sugary cologne.Â
âOkay, wrap your arm around me.âÂ
Jisung did as he was told and moved away from Minho just enough that he could wrap one arm around his waist. Minho did the same, his gloved hand coming to grip the curve of Jisungâs waist. They had too many layers between them for Jisung to really feel it but his breath still hitched at the pressure. Minho didnât seem to notice, and if he did notice, he didnât say anything. He got right into guiding Jisung along the ice, holding him firmly so that he wouldnât slip. It started to come back to him as they glided along the smooth surface, but Jisung didnât want to let go, even after he became confident enough to do it on his own. It was cold and Minho was so warm and his fingers felt nice digging into his side. He was probably holding him harder than he needed to but that didnât phase Jisung one bit.Â
âYou really did forget all of this in America,â Minho said, shaking his head. âIs it really that warm there?âÂ
âWell, noâŚâ Jisung responded, cheeks burning from embarrassment. âI just live in California near the ocean and itâs super warm there. We hardly ever get snow there. And America is so big, hyung! Thereâs places there that are super cold.âÂ
âOh yeah, I know. I just meanâŚI donât knowâŚkinda forgot what state you lived in,â Minho admitted sheepishly. âI thought it was like New York or something. Nevermind.âÂ
Jisung frowned softly, discomfort twisting in his stomach. âItâs okay. I mean, we didnât really talk about where I was going that muchâŚand itâs been a while.âÂ
Minho hummed and when Jisung glanced up his lips were pursed and his expression looked pinched. The discomfort spread through Jisungâs stomach and settled in his chest like a weight. There was something hollow there, nestling deep inside him. They had stopped moving, no longer moving smoothly across the ice. The air had gotten colder and it was thick with the unspoken truth they both knew. We donât know each other anymore.Â
Minho looked over at Jisung and his face relaxed a little. âSorry just⌠I know itâs silly. Itâs just where you live. But itâs really been so long. I donâtââ He swallowed and for the first time Jisung noticed his eyes were glassy. âI donât know anything about what your life has been like for the lastâwhat? Four years?â
The hollow feeling crawled up Jisungâs throat and he held down a distressed sound. âLetâsâletâs sit down, hyung.âÂ
Minho nodded in agreement and he directed them to the edge of the rink so they could sit down on one of the benches. They were silent for a moment, both of them trying to figure out what to say, what needed to be said. After a moment, Jisung decided to be the first to speak. âWhat do you want to know?âÂ
âHuh?â Minho asked, tilting his head to look at Jisung.Â
âWhat do you want to know about me? About my life. Since the last time we talked.âÂ
âEverything,â Minho answered easily. âI want to know everything, please.âÂ
So Jisung told him everything. He told him how he never intended to stop messaging him, how it almost just happened and in the end he thought it might be for the bestâbut he also told him how sorry he was for that. How the guilt still twisted his stomach like a hoard of snakes whenever he thought about it. He also told him about Chan, a music student from Australia, and Changbin, another music student who had grown up in New York city his entire life but had deeply Korean traditions, both who were Jisungâs two best friends in the United States. He told him how they wanted to start a production group together called 3Racha and they had been slowly working towards producing for bigger artists. He told Minho about the relationships he had while he was in America, not missing the way that Minhoâs eyes flashed at mention. He told him about the friends he had made and about the time he went out drinking with Chan and Changbin and got so drunk he made an utter fool out of himself by attempting to dance on the bar. He told him how he started seeing a therapist for his anxiety and how he discovered that working out really helped him mentally. He told him everything that he could think of, everything that would make it seem like Minho had been there all those years.Â
The sky was dark with only a hint of sunlight peeking over the horizon when Jisung finished. The tips of his ears were numb and his nose was running from the cold and even though his hands were shoved into his coat pockets, they still felt cold. Anyone else who had been there previously was gone and it was getting close to the point where the rink would be closed off for the night.Â
âIâm sorry I took up all our time with my talking,â Jisung said through chattering teeth. Minho smiled softly and shook his head.Â
âDonât worry about it. Itâs okay. I just liked spending time with you. Getting to hear you talk,â Minho told him. âYour life sounds so interesting.âÂ
Jisung chuckled. âNot super interesting. Just chaotic.âÂ
âItâs interesting to me.â Minhoâs eyes held his and his gaze was so intense for a moment that Jisungâs heart nearly stuttered to a stop. But then the intensity was gone, leaving behind a mob of butterflies in Jisungâs stomach. âWe should get going. Maybe get some hot cocoa since itâs so cold?âÂ
âYeah, that sounds good. Iâd like that.â Jisung stood up from the bench and stretched. His limbs were stiff from the cold and from sitting so long. The thought of hot cocoa made a shiver run through him from his head to his toes. He couldnât wait to be warm and cozy instead of freezing.Â
They dropped off their skates and went to Minhoâs car. On their way back, they picked up some hot cocoa to go and as the warmth settled in Jisungâs stomach he let out a content sigh. Even though they didnât spend their whole time out ice-skating, Jisung was happy. He felt a weight was off his chest now that he had shared so much about his life with Minho. There was still more they probably needed to talk about. The end of their friendship, their breakup. Jisung still wanted to be Minhoâs friend, but he couldnât deny there was something more there. Something that could be worth pursuing now that they were both older and more mature. The problem was, Jisung was nervous. It had only been a week since they had reunited and as much as Minho now knew about his life, Jisung knew little about what Minho had been doing all this time.Â
He had been working on stepping out of his comfort zone though. He had been working on facing his fears.Â
âI wanna hear about your life too,â Jisung said softly, picking at the edge of the lid on his hot cocoa cup with his thumb. âI did a lot of talking and you didnât get to tell me about yourself.âÂ
âItâs not all that interesting,â Minho replied with a shrug, turning the wheel with a single hand.Â
Jisung shook his head adamantly. âNot true. Itâs you. And I think itâs up to me to decide whether or not itâs interesting while youâre telling it, right?â He smiled playfully and Minho sighed, rolling his eyes.Â
âAlright, Iâll tell you everything you need to know,â Minho said with a chuckle. âBut, later. Itâs late. When we hang out next. If you want that, of course.âÂ
Jisung bit his lip, a jolt of excitement shooting through him. Minho wanted to continue spending time with him. That was good. âI do!â He nodded. âAnd then youâll tell me everything, right?âÂ
âI will.â Minho took a quick glance at him and smiled so fondly Jisung was sure his heart would melt through his ribcage.Â
âThen I canât wait.â His lips curled up in a soft smile and he took a sip of his hot chocolate. The drive was quiet from that point on, with only the sound of the road underneath them for background noise. Jisung tried not to let his mind wander too much, but there was still something left on his mind that he needed to say.Â
They arrived at Jisungâs house and as he stepped out of the car, he turned to look at Minho. âIâm sorry. For not texting you back. I should haveâI wanted to, I justââ He sighed and chewed on his bottom lip. âI donât really have an excuse. But I didnât forget about you. Iâm sorry I did that to you.âÂ
Minho smiled a little ruefully but Jisung could tell that behind the hurt that must have been there, there was sincerity. âItâs okay. Itâs in the past now, yeah? I think I needed it anyway.âÂ
Jisung gave him a nod. âWell, it wonât happen again.â He didnât say that really, over the last few days he had realized that he never wanted Minho out of his life again. He was a different person than the one that had left for the states, a better one. He could do better now.Â
Minhoâs smile changed into something sweeter and Jisungâs breathing became easier. âIâm glad. And if you do leave me on read again, Iâll just keep bothering you. Sound good?âÂ
Jisungâs cheeks hurt from how hard he smiled. âYeah, sounds really good, hyung.âÂ
They said goodbye and when Jisung went inside, he placed his hand flat over his racing heart. This was so bad for him. He felt like he was slipping on ice again, careening towards the ground. Only there was a chance that someone might be there to catch him this time.Â
Jisung did not get to see Minho much for the next few days. He was busy with the coffee shop and Jisung was busy spending time with his parents and old friends. He got together with his friend Hyunjin, who he had been close to in high school, and that brought a lot of ease to him. Hyunjin was as annoying as ever, but that only made Jisung happier to see him. Their time together reminded him of more carefree days, summers off of school, skipping class to do anything but homework. He hadnât realized how closed off he had been to his old home until now, but now he had gone from being worried about his return to never wanting to leave.Â
His parents seemed to be just as happy to have him back. His mom was making all his favorite foods for every meal and giving him portions to the point where he could swear his pants were getting tighter. His father insisted on hearing about every song Jisung produced or worked on, which was a little overwhelming but Jisung would never pass on sharing his pride and joy with someone else.Â
With these bright sides though, there was somethingâŚslightly more annoying. They seemed intent on making Jisungâs reunion with Minho a Big Deal.Â
âSoâŚhave you stopped by the coffee shop these last couple days?â Jisungâs mother asked as she stood at the sink washing vegetables for dinner. Jisung could feel his cheeks turn fifty shades of red and he shook his head.Â
âNo. Besides, why does it matter, huh? Something you want to tell me, eomma?âÂ
Jisung had figured out by now that his parents set him up to meet Minho. It didnât take much inference to come to that conclusion. He was grateful but at the same time he couldnât help but shake his head at their scheming.Â
âNo, nothing,â she said with a shrug, humming as she set the vegetables in a bowl. âIâm just glad that you two are talking again. You both always got along so well.âÂ
âI always liked him,â his father piped up as he entered the dining room. âA really good kid, that one. You should invite him over sometime! Christmas dinner?â Jisung resisted the urge to groan. He pressed the heels of his palms into his eyes to rub them. It wasnât that he didnât want Minho over for Christmas dinner. It just felt a bit too soon for that. And it might insinuate that he wanted more with Minhoâwhich might not be a lie at this point.Â
âI donât think heâd want to do that. Weâre just getting back to knowing each other.â He sighed, slumping down in his seat.Â
âWell tell him heâs invited!â his mother said with a sharp nod of her head. âHe can say no if he wants, but the offer is there!âÂ
âHumor you eomma, Jisung-ah,â his dad said.Â
Jisung did groan this time, long and heavy; like a petulant child. âIâll ask. Donât worry.âÂ
That seemed to satisfy them for the time being and they quickly changed the subject to something else. Jisung didnât know whatâhe was once again too lost in his thoughts. Thoughts about Minho, who was taking up too much of his mind. He shouldnât be like this, not with his ex. But he couldnât help it. His parents were right. They did work well. Chopsticks, their friends used to call them.Â
Perhaps now, things could be different. Perhaps now, the distance wouldnât be so hard to bridge.Â
Later that day, it was Jisung who messaged Minho, asking when he was free to hang out next. They had been texting more since the day Minho brought him skating and through some of those texting conversations, Jisung had learned more about what Minho had been up to during the past few years. To his surprise, he discovered that Minho had not had a boyfriend since they had broken up. He learned that he had a situationship and a few miscellaneous no-strings-attached relationships that did not last long, but nothing substantial. The sicker part of Jisungâs brain twisted with excitement at this news. It made him believe that there was a chance. He wasnât even sure when he had started wanting Minho back, but somehow he felt like he had since the moment he laid eyes on him in the coffee shop his first full day back home.Â
Minho responded a half an hour later, waking Jisung up from the light sleep he had fallen into while lying on his bed watching anime. He rubbed his groggy eyes and blinked rapidly at his screen as his eyes adjusted to the bright light.Â
Minho-hyungie
6:34pm
You wanna come over tomorrow night?
Iâd invite you over tonight but Iâm totally unprepared for guests lmaoÂ
JisungÂ
6:35pm
Waaaa you wanna prepare for mee? \(ŕšâ˘Ěoâ˘Ěŕš)/
Minho-hyungie
6:35pm
Iâm just a great hostÂ
JisungÂ
6:37pm
Yeah yeah
But tomorrow does work good for me
*gasp* we should make Christmas cookies!Â
Minho-hyungie
6:40pm
And have you burn my house down?
No wayÂ
Jisung pouted, rolling over on his bed. He had gotten much better at cooking since he and Minho were last together. Minhoâs worry wasnât entirely unfounded since the last time Jisung tried to cook anything he did end up lighting it on fire, but he had grown. He was twenty-four and he would be damned if he couldnât make some Christmas cookies.Â
JisungÂ
6:42pm
Thatâs so mean hyung :c
Iâm a lot better at cooking now yk
And you can always bake the cookies while I decorate :3
Minho-hyungie
6:43pm
Mhm sure
Iâll pick up the ingredients tonightÂ
JisungÂ
6:43pm
Yayy!
Youâre the bestÂ
Setting his phone down, Jisung stared up at the ceiling. His heart was beating too fast and his cheeks were warm, which was becoming a common side effect of talking to Minho or being in his presence. He was royally fucked.Â
It only got worse as he got ready to go over to Minhoâs house the next evening. He was aware they werenât doing anything particularly special, but he could still feel the budding anxiety blooming in his stomach. When he and Minho were last together, Minho was still living with his parents. He was on his way towards getting an apartment of his own, but he hadnât gotten everything settled with that yet. Now Minho was an established adultâhe had his own place, his own home. There would be little bits and pieces of Minhoâs personality spread throughout the entire placeâhe would get to meet Minhoâs cats that he had heard so much about since returning to Korea. Jisung would be in Minhoâs most personal space, he would see the most vulnerable parts of him. And they would be wholly, entirely alone. Together.Â
He knew he was making a bigger deal of it than he needed to. But to him, it felt like something big. And it twisted his stomach and pulled his ribs together until the ends were rubbing against each other, making his chest too tight for him to breathe.Â
But then Minho texted him a picture of his cat Soonie next to a ball of cookie dough with a text that said, âHe keeps trying to steal our cookies. You better hurry up,â and suddenly Jisung didnât feel as worried. Even if he and Minho were still in the process of getting to know each other again, it was still Minho. And as much as they didnât know each other, they knew each other more than anyone else could ever understand.Â
Everything would be fine.Â
He arrived at Minhoâs house five minutes before the clock hit 7pm. They had agreed to hang out âaround that time,â so Jisung counted it as perfectly on time, if not a little early. Minhoâs house was smaller than his familyâs home and towards the outskirts of town. There were a few other houses lining the street around it and he had a small yard and what looked like it would be a flower garden during the summer. He had a doorbell so Jisung didnât bother knocking, opting to ring it in hopes that it worked.Â
Minhoâs muffled voice responded from behind the door followed by the quiet padding of feet on the floor. Moments later, the door opened and there was Minho, smiling softly. His hair was slightly mussed and he was wearing an apron that had flour and a few sauce stains here and there and his cheeks were slightly flushed. Jisung swallowed thickly. Royally fucked. âHi, Jisung-ah,â he greeted. âCome in. Are you hungry? I made some dinner âcause I didnât know if you wouldâve eaten but I probably shouldâve askedââÂ
âThatâs perfect,â Jisung replied, the smile that had already been on his face the moment Minho opened the door splitting into a wide grin. âI actually havenât eaten so I could definitely eat now.âÂ
He followed Minho inside and was immediately hit with just how Minho his house was. It was small, but cozy. Countless plants were spread throughout the living room and the kitchen, sitting on the edges of counters and tables. His furniture and decor was all warm toned with dark green and yellow throw pillows on his couch and a lounge chair he had in the door. There was a yellow checkered tablecloth on the dining room table and a pair of salt and pepper shakers shaped like cats in the middle. The sight alone made Jisungâs heart swell.Â
After he was finished surveying the house, he finally noticed the delicious smell wafting from the kitchen. His stomach growled and his mouth watered, hit with the different spices in the air from whatever Minho had been cooking. âOh my gosh Iâm like, actually so excited to eat,â he said with a laugh. Minho turned and looked at him fondly.Â
âYeah? Well, good. I made a good amount,â Minho said, going to get the food off the counter. âAhâitâs japchae. Is that okay?âÂ
Jisungâs eyes lit up. âOh thatâs perfect. Seriously. What planet are you from, hyung? Youâve always been so good at cooking.âÂ
Minho laughed and shrugged as he got the food for them. âMars, but I didnât learn to cook there.âÂ
Jisung shook his head, huffing out a laugh. âYouâre so weird.âÂ
âYou like weird though, right?â Minho asked with an attempted wink. Jisungâs stomach did somersaults. There was a time, so long ago, where he and Minho were sitting outside one summer night. Minho was having a hard time with his parents and some of his friends and had lamented at that moment that he was, âjust too weird for people.â Jisung had turned to him, cupped his face in his hands and said, âYou are never too weird, hyung. Not for me. And besides. I like weird.âÂ
To think that Minho still remembered that. Jisung ached. And worse, he wanted.Â
Minho cleared his throat after Jisung had been silent for too long. âSorry, that wasâŚtoo much.âÂ
âNo,â Jisung quickly reassured him. âYouâre right. I do.â He smiled and Minhoâs eyes went wide for a second before he smiled back.Â
It was that moment that there was the sound of paws running across the floor and something furry was rubbing against Jisungâs legs. He looked down and let out a gasp at the sight of Minhoâs cat, Soonie, curling himself around his ankles. Then, in less than a second, another ball of fur joined Soonie, butting its head against Jisungâs legs while emitting a loud purr. âOh my gosh. Soonie and Doongie, right?â Jisung asked, kneeling down to pet the two cats on the head. âHi guys! Oh arenât you just the cutest? Oh my, so soft!â he cooed, scratching behind Doongieâs ears.Â
âYep, thatâs them. Doriâs probably hiding somewhere, but Iâm sure heâll come out eventually.âÂ
Jisung glanced up as he petted the two cats and found Minho smiling down at him. He quickly looked away, but the sight made his cheeks warm.Â
âAs much as I would like for you to keep getting to know my babies, we should probably eat. The foodâs gonna get cold,â Minho said, which prompted Jisung to pout. He gave both Soonie and Doongie a final pat on the head and let out a dramatic sigh.Â
âIâm sorry, kitties, but your owner insists I leave you.â Doongie meowed and Jisungâs frown deepened. âI know, right?â He shook his head playfully as he stood up. Minho watched him with an amused glint in his eye as he went to sit down at the table. âOh wow this looks good,â he exclaimed as soon as he laid eyes on the food in front of him, completely forgetting about his cat dilemma. He was salivating just looking at the food.Â
Minho chuckled as he joined him sitting down and picked up his chopsticks. âWell I hope it tastes as good as it looks. Please, eat.âÂ
Jisung was never one to not listen when told to eat, so he did. And immediately he felt himself fall again for Minho entirely, the first bite of noodles bursting with so much flavor he nearly moaned. âHyung, what the fuck,â he groaned. He scooped up another bite with his chopsticks and slurped the noodles into his mouth. âThis is amazing. Youâre amazing.â He almost tacked on an âI love you,â but refrained.Â
âItâs not anything that special,â Minho said with a shrug. Jisung wanted to grab him by the shoulders and shake him.Â
âIt is though! And you will accept the compliment.âÂ
Minho rolled his eyes and laughed. âAlright, I will, thank you.âÂ
Satisfied, Jisung went back to eating with more vigor than he even ate the meals his mother prepared. He would have to tell her that she had competition.
-Â
Jisung looked ridiculously adorable, all messy from decorating cookies. There was a smear of blue icing on the corner of his mouth and flour on the tip of his nose. He was wearing one of Minhoâs aprons because he didnât want to get any of the icing on his outfit. Minho didnât know what to do with the fact that he desperately wanted to kiss him.Â
Making it through dinner without grabbing Jisung by the collar of his shirt and pulling him for a kiss was one of the most difficult things Minho had done in a long time. When Jisung took a bite and his eyes lit up and he smiled, when he groaned as the flavors hit his tongue, when he shook his hands in little fists, Minhoâs heart ached. He had so many regrets and he wasnât sure he could come back from them. He wanted Jisung back. He wanted his best friend back, he wanted the person he had once believed to be his soulmate back.Â
Decorating cookies with Jisung made the thoughts in Minhoâs head quiet down, at least a little bit. It made Minho so happy he couldnât think negatively. Even if the ache in his heart didnât subside, at least Jisung was here. And he was so happy.Â
âRockinâ Around the Christmas Tree,â played in the background as Minho filled a Christmas tree-shaped cookie in with green icing. Jisung hummed softly to the tune and swayed his hips every now and then as he decorated his own snowman cookie. Minhoâs eyes were drawn to the motion every few moments and he quickly averted his gaze whenever he realized what he was doing. Did he even know how irresistible he was? Or was Minho just insane?Â
âAww, I messed up his eyes,â Jisung whined, his bottom lip jutting out in a pout. He held up his snowman cookie, showing Minho the smeared black where the eyes were supposed to be. If it werenât for the white all over the cookie and the shape it probably wouldnât even look like a snowman with how wonky the features were, but to Minho, it was the best snowman in the entire world.Â
âThatâs okay, I think it looks just fine,â Minho reassured him with a slight smile.Â
Jisung huffed a little, shaking his head. âAll your cookies look perfect. Itâs so annoying.âÂ
Minho couldnât help but laugh at that, his cheeks hurting slightly from how much he had been smiling the whole evening. âAnd yours are good too, Sung. Besides, weâre just gonna eat them anyway so how they look doesnât matter.âÂ
âThatâs just a nice way of saying mine look fucked up.âÂ
âIt is not!â Minho denied, even if Jisungâs snowman looked more like a demented Santa Claus. He tried. Thatâs what mattered.Â
âSure,â Jisung mumbled. He went back to decorating his cookies, a sulk plastered on his face. A chuckle escaped Minhoâs lips and he rolled his eyes.Â
They continued decorating cookies like that, mostly in silence. Occasionally Jisung would pipe up to say something random or he would sing along to the Christmas song that was playing. It was pleasant. Minho felt more comfortable than he had in a long while and for the first time in years, his chest swelled with a true Christmas feeling. His happiness swelled up and overflowed enough to get caught in his throat, giddiness like a child on Christmas morning spreading through even his limbs.Â
Minho saved most of his cookies so that he could have a nice spread once he was done. Jisung periodically ate the cookies he made, and when they were finished, Minho had about a dozen cookies left while Jisung had a solid six and was complaining about his stomach hurting.Â
âIf you hadnât eaten so many your stomach wouldnât be hurting,â he scolded.Â
âYou canât blame me when theyâre cookies you made,â Jisung retorted, indignant. He gingerly rubbed over the top of his stomach and sighed. âItâs not my fault.â He lifted his hand to his face and licked bits of crumb and icing off his fingertips. Minho swallowed thickly.Â
âMhm, blame me.âÂ
He picked up one of his cookies and held it between his teeth as he gathered the rest onto a plate. âWanna wastch a Chwrifmash movie?â he asked, words garbled by the cookie in his mouth. Jisung side-eyed him, the corners of his mouth turning downwards.Â
âYou couldnât have asked before sticking that in your mouth?â Minho shrugged, finally biting off the piece. Damn, they were good. âBut yes, I do. Can we have snacks too?âÂ
âYou were just complaining about your stomach hurting,â Minho said, but at the same time went to his cabinets to see what he had. Jisung didnât seem phased by his comment, instead going to his living room to make himself comfortable on the couch. The sight of him so at ease did something to Minhoâs poor heart and he wet his lips, his mouth suddenly feeling dry.Â
 He joined Jisung on the couch a few minutes later with two bottles of soju and an assortment of movie snacks in hand. He sat down with enough space between him and Jisung for another person. He knew they had gotten closer recently, but he wanted to make sure Jisung was comfortable. If they were going to be closer, Minho needed Jisung to make the first move.Â
âWhat movie dâya wanna watch?â he asked, leaning back against the couch cushions as he opened the bottle of soju. Peach flavored. He remembered Jisung saying he liked that in the past and hoped he still did. The first sip settled in his stomach with a pleasant warmth. Maybe a bit of alcohol would stop his thoughts.Â
âAny is good. Elf, maybe?â Jisung asked. Minho snickered. He should have expected that.Â
âElf it is then.â He turned on the movie and Jisung settled back the same way he did, opening his soju with a quiet âthank you.âÂ
Ten minutes into the movie, Jisung scooted closer to Minho on the couch. He stiffened when he noticed and that made Jisung frown. âIs this okay?â he asked, sounding so small and vulnerable in a way that Minho never wanted to hear.Â
âYeah, itâs perfectly fine,â he told him with a gentle nod. He realized then that with as much as he wanted to be close to Jisung, Jisung might actually want the same thing. So instead of being a coward, he moved closer to Jisung and closed the gap between them so that they were touching from their shoulders down to their thighs. The contact made Minhoâs skin tingle and his heart rabbited in his chest, yet somehow he wasnât nervous. Maybe it was the sips of soju heâd had settling in his stomach sending alcohol through his veinsâliquid courageâbut he felt confident. Before he could overthink it, he wrapped his arm around Jisungâs shoulders, his fingertips brushing against his shoulder. He may have imagined it but for a second he thought he heard Jisungâs breath hitch at the contact.Â
âIs this okay?â it was his turn to ask. Jisung nodded quickly, his bottom lip pulled between his teeth. âYou sure? I know weâŚâ Weâre not the same anymore. Weâre exes. We broke up. We didnât talk for years.Â
âIt is,â Jisung said, his voice the texture of cotton candy. The weight was removed from Minhoâs chest.Â
âOkay, good.â He pulled Jisung more into his side and caressed his shoulder with the tips of his fingers. He could hear Jisungâs soft breaths and could smell his shampoo like thisâstrawberry, he decidedâand it was not good for his sanity. He was so warm against his body, so close. He had been worried about Jisung, but perhaps he should be worried about himself.Â
They only made it five more minutes and another sip of soju into the movie before Minhoâs feelings were exploding out of his chest, too much to contain. âJisungâŚIâŚâ He swallowed thickly and fiddled with Jisungâs shirt sleeve. He wasnât looking at Jisung but he could feel his gaze on him. He took a deep breath. âI didnâtâI didnât want to break up with you, back then. I thoughtâI thought it was the best thing for us but I didnât want it. Fuck, IâI wanted you to say no.â His voice shook a little.Â
âHyungâŚâ Jisung muttered, eyes wide as he stared at Minho.Â
Minho wet his lips and turned his head, making eye contact with him. âI justâŚI need you to know. That I regretted it. There wasnât a day I didnât want you back.âÂ
âHyung,â Jisung said again, his voice sounding a little more desperate. âWhyâwhere is this coming from?âÂ
âIââ Minho wanted to blame it on the alcohol, but he wasnât drunk. Sure, it was affecting him a little bit, easing his nerves, giving him the courage to say this. But it wasnât why he was saying it. âSince the day you walked into my coffee shop last week, or whenever it was. Iâve been thinking about everything. And it just made me realize how much I missed you. I think I couldâno, I am falling for you again, already. I just canât keep it in, especially since youâll be going to America again and IââÂ
âMinho-yah, hey. Minho, itâs okay,â Jisung said, reaching up to cup Minhoâs cheeks. Only when he brushed his thumb over the soft flesh there did he realize that he had started crying. What the fuck.Â
âSorry,â Minho choked. âIâm sorry, the last thing you probably wanted to come back to was your ex I mean we had to stop talking for a reasonââÂ
Minho was shut up the moment he felt Jisungâs plush lips press against his own in a warm, chaste kiss. There was little finesse, no tongue, no urgency, but in that moment it was everything. A calming buzz settled over Minhoâs body and mind, something settling in his chest where it had been left hollow. Jisung tasted like peach soju and sugar from the cookies they had made together, and like something so familiar even six years later and so distinctly Jisung that it hit him with a wave of nostalgia.Â
When Jisung pulled away, his heartbeat was roaring in his ears yet he felt calm. He felt sated, but he wanted more. That was the thing. When they broke up he said he was okay being his friend, but he continued wanting more. When Jisung came back, he told himself he wanted to be friends with him again, and here he was, wanting more. With Jisung, he was insatiable. Greedy. There was never enough when it came to Jisung.Â
Jisung looked at him, seemingly waiting for a response to the kiss. He didnât say anything else, rather, angled his body so he could face him better and pulled him into another kiss. This time he slotted their lips together with purpose, tilting his head so he could take all of Jisung in. He cupped Jisungâs cheek with one hand and the other he rested on Jisungâs waist. Oh his waist. It had always been one of Minhoâs favorite parts of him and it turned out it was now, too.Â
He gave the curve of Jisungâs waist a squeeze which prompted a small gasp from him. Minho parted his lips as Jisung gasped, licking across his bottom lip, a mere taste of all that he wanted. When Jisung seemed to reciprocate his desire, he licked into his mouth, swallowing down the little noises Jisung made as he kissed him deeper. He was a good kisser, much better than when they had been together as inexperienced teenagers. He tried not to think about all the people he must have kissed since then and tried to focus on the fact that regardless of any of that, Jisung was here.Â
Jisung shifted and his hands slid from Minhoâs cheeks to tangle in his hair and Minho groaned into his mouth. He wrapped his arm around Jisungâs waist and tugged him forward a little; Jisung seemed to get the memo because in the next moment he was moving to sit in Minhoâs lap, his thighs straddling his hips. Minho tugged his bottom lip between his teeth and Jisung outright moaned, the sound pooling as arousal in his belly.Â
âMinâ Minho,â Jisung gasped against his mouth after Minho released his bottom lip. His hands fell from Minhoâs hair to his shoulders and he gave a small roll of his hipsâa barely-there movement, but Minho felt it.Â
â Mmh, Sung-ah, fuck,â he breathed. He felt dizzy, his head swimming like he was drunk. He wasnât, but he might as well have downed the entire bottle of soju in one go. He hadnât felt desperation like this in a long time. But he needed Jisung, needed him in ways he couldnât begin to describe.Â
Jisung released breathy whines into Minhoâs mouth, their lips gliding together, slick and wet. Messy, but so good. Jisungâs breath came out in pants between kisses, a string of spit connecting them. It was driving Minho insane. And when he rolled his hips again Minho gasped at the friction against his cock, which was already hard in his sweatpants. He wanted, he wanted, he wantedâ
Butâ
âAh, Jisung, Sungie, wait,â he said when he got a moment to breathe from how incessantly Jisung was kissing him. Jisung froze, his movements stopping all together.Â
âWhat is it?â he asked, eyes wide with worry, anxiety.Â
Minho wet his lips, the taste of Jisung still lingering on them. âI donâtâI donât really have anything for uhâŚuhm.â He gestured vaguely with his hand and cleared his throat. âAnd I thinkâŚI think we should wait. Maybe a little.â Getting those words out felt like tearing at his chest but with their history they couldnât just rush into things. That would only end up in both of them getting hurt and that was the last thing Minho wanted. He wanted to do things right.Â
Jisung frowned and looked a little disappointed, but he nodded. âYouâre probably right,â he agreed softly.Â
Minho swallowed. âI do want you,â he said, hoping to reassure any thoughts that might be going through Jisungâs head. âBut I also want to make sure that you know I want you for more than just sex. And I donât want usâŚI donât want you to do something you might regret especially since youâll be leaving and we have⌠history.âÂ
âI wouldnât regret it though,â Jisung said assuredly. âI know that already.â He slid off of Minhoâs lap but still stayed glued to his side. âAnd the same things you said, hyung. I didnât want us to end either. And I never forgot about you. Even if I was an asshole and stopped messaging. That was neverâit was never because I wanted to forget you. Fuck, Minho, I donât think I could regret anything with you except for leaving you.âÂ
Minhoâs eyes stung and he looked up at the ceiling, blinking rapidly a couple times. âThatâs reallyâŚwow.âÂ
âWe were stupid kids, hyung,â Jisung said, rubbing Minhoâs shoulder. The action caused Minhoâs heart to skip a beat. âI was too, especially. Neither of us knew what we were doing in life, I was totally immature.â
âRight person, wrong time,â Minho said with a wry laugh. Jisung still seemed like the right person, but would there ever be a right time? He was going back. Minho didnât even want to think about it.Â
âYeahâŚâ Jisung trailed off, looking down for a moment. âI knowâŚthings are kind of uncertain right now. But I want you to know that spending time with you since I got back has been the happiest Iâve been in a while.âÂ
Minhoâs heart was going to beat out of his chest, he knew it. âThatâs just because I feed you so much sugar.âÂ
âIt is not!â Jisung gasped, shoving his shoulder. âYou do make an amazing candy cane mocha, and amazing cheesecake, and amazing cookiesâbut thatâs not the point!âÂ
Minho couldnât help laughing, throwing his head back. âAh, I know. Iâm just teasing. Iâm glad. Really. Iâve been happy too.â Jisungâs smile was worth any tension Minho had felt, any anxieties he had, any worries. He would do anything to see Jisung smile over and over again.Â
A moment of quiet passed over them where Jisung just leaned against Minho. Then Minho took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. âLetâs think for a few days. I think I already know where I stand but I want to be sure. And I just want to keep enjoying my time with you.â What I have left until you leave. âAnd I wantââ His cheeks warmed and he looked off to the side. âIf we do anything, I want to make it special. I donât get to have you for long, I want to make everything count.âÂ
Jisung stared at him for a moment before he grinned widely. He giggled and bounced in his seat. â Hyung! That is so romantic and so cheesy. Youâre so cute what the fuck.â He giggled again and Minho tongued his cheek.Â
âI am not cute.âÂ
âYouâre adorable. I loâI love how much of a hopeless romantic you are.âÂ
Minho could deny Jisungâs accusations all he wanted but there was no way he could deny the way his heartbeat sped up just a little. âI justâŚI care about you, Sung-ah,â he said, his tone turning serious. âI know you havenât been back for long, but I never stopped caring about you. So I want to show that.â Even if I only get to have you for one night. Even if thatâs all Iâll ever get.Â
âHyung,â Jisung mumbled, eyes going a little wide. âIâthat really means a lot. I care about you too. Iâm still so sorry I just left like that. I wonât do it again. I promise.âÂ
Maybe Minho was a fool, but he chose to believe him. He reached up to brush a strand of hair behind Jisungâs ear. âI know. I wouldnât let you anyway,â he joked, but inside he felt it was the truth. He couldnât let him go again. He wouldnât.Â
âYou better not,â Jisung said with a giggle. âNow let's pay attention to the movie. We missed Buddy getting attacked by the raccoon.âÂ
âShit,â Minho muttered, laughing softly. âYouâre right. Guess Iâll have to skip back.âÂ
The smile Jisung gave him made his heart ache. But it was a different ache this time. It was mixed with a little hope.Â
âYeah, you better.âÂ
-
For the next few days leading up to Christmas, Jisung thought a lot. He went over every memory he had with Minho in his head, mulled over his feelings for hours. His parents even asked him what was wrong with how silent he had been at the dinner table since he was usually full of endless conversation. He explained that he was alright but simply had something important on his mind. He was grateful to them for not prying too much. This was something he needed to figure out on his own.Â
While he went over his thoughts, he tried to spend as much time with Minho as he could. That really only allowed for two coffee shop visits since he was busy with his own family and Minho was getting more visitors at the shop with it nearing Christmas. Couples were coming in every few minutes, holding hands, giggling, ordering matching drinks and dessertsâMinhoâs candy cane mocha was the most popular. Jisung had to agree with the popular choice. If he wasnât coming for Minho there was a large chance he would come anyway to get it again. But maybe that was his bias.Â
On his second visit since their night together, which happened to be the day before Christmas Eve, Jisung met Felix. He had heard about him from Minho and knew he helped out with the coffee shop on its busiest days but he hadnât met him once since he had started coming there. He had not been expecting to hit it off with him so quickly. He was shocked to find out that they were born so close together, practically the same age. Felix could only be described as sunshine incarnate, with a smile that could blind anyone that looked at it for too long, and a personality that hooked anyone to him the moment they started talking to him. He spent more time talking to Felix then than he did Minho and there were more than a few times where he felt Minhoâs gaze on them. Whenever Jisung looked over he would quickly look away, lips turned down in a frown. It made Jisung smile to himself. Minho was jealous.Â
As much as Jisung enjoyed his jealousy, it was entirely unfounded. For some reason, Jisung meeting Felix only solidified his feelings. Meeting his friend somehow made him feel one step closer to the closeness they had once shared. And knowing he was friends with such an angel made him trust Minho more.Â
That evening, while lying on his bed, he made his decision. Heâd practically made it already, but he wanted to think about it like Minho wanted. He wanted Minho. That much he knew. There was a lot he had to figure out since he would be traveling back to the United States after the New Year, but he was also selfish. He wanted Minho even if the future was uncertain. He didnât want to be cautious anymore.Â
Jisung picked up his phone and his thumb hovered over Minhoâs contact before he pressed âcall.â It only rang a few times before there was a shuffled sound and Minhoâs voice came over the speaker.Â
âHey, Hannie. Whatâs up?âÂ
Jisung licked his lips and sat up a bit straighter so he could focus. âHi, hyung,â he greeted. âIâve been thinking. About our conversation.âÂ
âYeah?â Minho breathed. Jisung felt like he could hear his interest over the phone.Â
âYeah,â he reiterated. âI really do want you, hyung.â It made him blush to say it out loud again, his cheeks heating up from the simple admission. âI know itâs complicated and thereâs a lot I have to figure out but youâre soâŚI wanna be yours again, hyung. Will you make me yours?â He swallowed thickly and took a deep breath as he waited for Minhoâs response. He heard the other take in a sharp breath.Â
âYes. Yes, Iâll make you mine. I donât care about anything else. I just want to have you one time, Sungie.âÂ
Jisung didnât say how much he didnât want it to be one time. This wouldnât be their first time together, but somehow this felt even bigger than the first time they shared together. Jisung could still remember that moment. How they were both so young and inexperienced but that didnât matter because it was them and they wanted each other even if they were still figuring out how things worked. Now they were reuniting with more experience, both of them more mature. Both of them with so much to figure out but with the undeniable pull towards each other. Jisung didnât know how he had gone so long without talking to Minho.Â
âYou can have me, hyung,â he said, so soft he was worried Minho hadnât picked it up, but the small hum he heard on the other side told him he had.Â
âWhat are you doing on Christmas Eve?â Minho asked.Â
Jisung didnât even have to think. âIâm completely free. Iâm not doing anything with my family until Christmas. And either way, Iâm sure they would understand.â His parents had been nothing but encouraging of the renewal of his relationship with Minho.Â
âOkay, good. Come over for dinner, then? Iâll make it really nice, just for you, Sung-ah.âÂ
A lump formed in Jisungâs throat and he nodded even though Minho couldnât see. âThat sounds perfect. Absolutely perfect. Iâll see you tomorrow then?âÂ
âMm. Same time as last time.â
âAlright, hyung. Iâll see you then!âÂ
âSee you then. Iâll let you go now, âkay? Gotta go give the demons water.â Jisung found himself nodding again, even though Minho couldnât see. âGoodnight, Hannie.âÂ
âOkay, goodnight, Minho-hyung,â he said, unable to hold back his smile. The line cut off and he let out a sigh as he put his phone down. He had a date with Minho. A Christmas date no less.Â
He was so fucked.Â
Jisung had done his makeup, styled his hair, and done every possible thing under the sun to make himself the prettiest for Minho that he possibly could. He figured Minho liked him as he was, but a little extra effort didnât hurt. Especially since he had a strong feeling of where the night was going to go after dinner. His eyes had a light golden shimmer on the lids and there was mascara on his lashes, his lips were a rosy pink tinted from a lip stain and gloss, and had added a hint of blush on his cheeks. He didnât need much since he would most likely be blushing the entire evening anyway.
Minhoâs smile when he invited him in was blinding and it made butterflies explode in Jisungâs stomach. He could tell that despite Minhoâs excitement, he was still a little nervous which quelled some of Jisungâs nerves.Â
âYou look pretty, Hannie,â he said softly as he took in Jisungâs appearance. If it was possible for an entire body to blush, Jisungâs did just that.Â
âThank you, hyung-ah,â he replied, smiling bashfully to himself. Minho still thinks I look pretty.Â
The house smelled just as good as last time and his stomach growled the moment he stepped inside. There was a bigger spread than before and the yellow checkered tablecloth had been replaced by a red tablecloth with two lit candles in the middle. The lights were dimmed and the flames of the candles cast a warm glow over the kitchen that made it the perfect combination of cozy and romantic. And when Jisung glanced into the living room he saw that Minho had even set up a Christmas tree. It was fake and some areas were more sparsely decorated than others, but it was the most beautiful tree he had ever seen. His eyes stung.Â
âI hope this isnât too much. Or too littleâI wanted it to be nice,â Minho rushed, rubbing the back of his neck. âI alsoâI made a cheesecake. Since I know you like that.âÂ
âThis is perfect, â Jisung exclaimed. He felt like his heart was going to explode out of his chest. âAnd you made me cheesecake? Youâre amazing. I could kiss you.âÂ
Minho blinked a few times and then said, his voice a little softer, âYou could.âÂ
Jisungâs eyes went wide but then he smiled, stepping into Minhoâs space so he could hold him closer. He tilted his chin up and pressed his lips to Minhoâs, eyelids fluttering shut. The kiss was a lot less passionate than the last one they had shared, but not as chaste as the first kiss Jisung had given him. It was just deep enough, the quick swipe of tongue against parted lips a promise of what was to come.Â
âYou taste so good, Sungie,â Minho murmured as he pulled away and Jisungâs cheeks turned a fiery red.Â
âGoodness, shut up,â he whined, shoving him away playfully. âI wonât kiss you again if youâre gonna be embarrassing.â Minho smirked, satisfied with himself. They both knew Jisung was lying. He would kiss Minho again, and again, and again.Â
They got to dinner after that, Minho being the gentleman he was and filling Jisungâs plate for him. There was a thick layer of tension that hung in the air as they ate and it made Jisungâs skin tingle and his stomach twist in delight. It was hard to focus on conversation, but he did his best to talk since it was Minho. And he could talk to Minho endlessly. He explained his Christmas plans and learned that Minho wouldnât be seeing his parents for Christmas. As much as that saddened him, he wasnât surprised. Minho had always had a rocky relationship with his parents; he was just sad they had never made any effort to repair their relationship with him. He invited him over to his house with his family but he learned that he already had plans to spend time with Felix and his family who were visiting from Australia. Rather than making Jisung jealous, he only felt happy.Â
Dinner was filling and delicious and the cheesecake Minho had made was even better than the ones he made for his coffee shop. It practically melted on his tongue and Jisung couldnât hold back the moan as the taste. âThis is literally the best thing I have ever tasted. You have to make these like, every day now. Like seriously, send me this, hyung. I donât know what Iâll ever do now that Iâve tasted this.âÂ
Minho blushed and the sight was so pretty Jisung nearly fainted. âI guess Iâll have to now, if you like it so much,â he said. Then, something in the air seemed to shift and Minhoâs gaze shifted. He reached across the table and for a moment Jisung was confused at what he was doing, but then he cupped his jaw and swiped his thumb across his bottom lip. âYou always eat desserts so messy.âÂ
Jisungâs cheeks heated up and his stomach swooped. He was going to whine, complain, but Minho apparently wasnât done. His thumb still remained on Jisungâs lip and he gingerly pulled it down so his mouth opened just enough for him to slip his thumb inside. âHere,â he said. There was a gravelliness to his voice that hadnât been there before. âDonât want you to waste any.âÂ
Stunned, Jisung could only blink at him. And then he did the most logical thingâhe swirled his tongue around Minhoâs thumb, licking off the crumb of cheesecake he had swiped up. That seemed to satisfy Minho and his lips quirked up as he popped his thumb out of Jisungâs mouth.Â
âGood boy. âÂ
Jisung gasped and a jolt of arousal zipped through his stomach. He suddenly felt dizzy and all too aware at the same time. Minho ran his thumb along Jisungâs bottom lip, coating it in his own spit, before he pulled away. His lip and jaw tingled where Minhoâs touch had been and his entire body felt like it was on fire. Fuck.Â
âFinish up, Jisung.â Minhoâs eyes were half lidded, sharp and catlike, and arousal pooled in Jisungâs stomach and prickled at his skin like needles.Â
He nodded and took another bite of his cheesecake because even though his mind was elsewhere now, there was no way he would let it go to waste. And the sooner he finished, the sooner he could get to the real dessert of the night.Â
Minhoâs eyes were fixed on him the entire time he made his way through the dessert. He was afraid to look up, but when he did he found that Minhoâs eyes never left him, even when they made eye contact. Occasionally Jisung noticed his gaze shifting from his face to his mouthâwhen he licked some of the cream off his lips the rhythm of Minhoâs breathing changed, and even that sound was enough to make heat boil in the pit of Jisungâs stomach.Â
Jisung licked the fork clean after the last bite and set it down on the plate. âDone, hyung,â he announced, the anticipation for what was to come sending tingles up and down his spine.Â
âDid you like it?â Minho asked as he got up from his chair. Jisung followed, standing on shaky legs. Minho was in his space with two strides and he placed his hand on the curve of Jisungâs waist. His thumb rubbed up and down, melting Jisungâs brain into sugary syrup.Â
âYeah, it was amazing,â he mumbled, swallowing thickly. âI loved it.âÂ
âMind if I see for myself?â Jisung knew what he was asking immediatelyâMinho already had his own slice, but that didnât matter.Â
âPlease,â he whispered, heart beating wildly in his chest.Â
The grip on his waist tightened and then Minho was kissing him. He coaxed his mouth open with his tongue and pulled him close until their bodies were flush together. He eased a thigh between Jisungâs legs and he let out a gasp into his mouth at the friction. He could feel Minho smirking against his mouth as he used the hand on his waist to make Jisung grind down onto his thigh.Â
At the same time, he used the hand that wasnât holding Jisungâs waist to grab Jisungâs hair and tilt his head so that he could slot their mouths together better. The slick sounds of their lips and tongues sliding together made the arousal coiling in Jisungâs belly grow and he whimpered pathetically. His mind felt hazy already from just a little kissing, his cock already fully hard in his pants as he practically humped Minhoâs thigh. It was embarrassing but that only made him more turned on.Â
âMinho-hyung, ahhh,â Jisung moaned as Minho tilted his head back with a tug of his hair and began planting open-mouthed kisses on his neck. The kisses quickly changed to him sucking bruises on his neck. He nipped gentle at the skin and Jisung let out a little ah again.Â
âYou sound so prettyâŚfuck youâre so pretty for me, Hannie,â he mumbled against his skin. Each brush of his lips made Jisung shiver and his cock twitched in his underwear.Â
âPlease, Mm-Minho,â Jisung begged. His legs were beginning to shakeâany second he was going to collapse to the floor in a pile of goo.Â
âLetâs go to the bedroom, hm?âÂ
Jisung nodded quickly as Minho led him down the hall to his bedroom. He never let go of his waist, instead wrapping his arm around him to guide him. It made Jisung feel safe somehowâowned, like he belonged to Minho. And maybe that was what he had needed all along. Maybe that was why none of the relationships heâd had in America felt right. Because right was waiting for him in South Korea.Â
Minhoâs bedroom was much like the rest of his house. Various potted plants spread about, some hanging from the ceiling. There was a cat tree in the corner and fairy lights going around the room attached to the ceiling. His bed was big and the blankets were a soft mint color. He still has the same favorite color, Jisung mused to himself as Minho laid him down on the bed.Â
âIs this still okay?â Minho asked as he hovered over him, his hands sliding underneath Jisungâs sweater. His breath hitched as he nodded eagerly.Â
âYes, itâs perfect. I want you. Please,â he answered. To prove his point he grabbed the hem of his shirt and pulled it over his head, leaving himself half naked for Minho to admire. Minho inhaled as he took in Jisungâs body, the curve of his waist, his built chest, the muscles in his arms. Jisung knew he looked good, but Minhoâs hungry gaze still made him feel shy. He moved to cross his arms over himself after Minho looked too long, but he grabbed Jisungâs wrists and pinned them down.Â
âDonât hide, jagi, â Minho instructed. âYou look so perfect. So goddamn pretty.âÂ
Jisung swallowed down a whimper at the praise and the pet name. Jagi. Minho called him jagi. He never imagined he would hear him say that again, but here he was, calling him that while he pinned his wrists to the bed. He was blushing all the way down to his chest already. âI wonât, but hyung. Stop staring. I want you.âÂ
âWhat do you want, hm?â Minho asked, tilting his head.Â
Jisung whined, his cheeks burning. âI wantââ He wet his lips. âI want you to fuck me. Please, fuck me, hyung.âÂ
Minhoâs eyes fluttered shut as he groaned. âFuck, such a good boy, asking so nicely. Yeah, of course Iâll fuck you.âÂ
He leaned down to capture Jisungâs lips in a hungry kiss again and his hands began roaming Jisungâs body, sliding down to undo his pants. Jisungâs senses were overwhelmed with Minho, the taste of his mouth, the smell of his cologne, the heat of his body. His hands left fire wherever they touched, sparks igniting, exploding into flames that enveloped Jisungâs entire body.Â
He lifted his hips as Minho attempted to tug his pants and boxers down, having to pull away from the kiss for a moment to get him completely naked. They tossed them somewhere in the room, neither of them caring where they landed.Â
With Jisung left completely naked and Minho still dressed, he felt incredibly vulnerable, but somehow safe at the same time. Minhoâs eyes were trained on him again, drinking him in like he was some sort of magic elixir. Jisung had never felt so desired. Minho looked at him like he was ready to worship the ground he walked on.Â
A bead of precum leaked from the tip of Jisungâs dick and he whined when Minhoâs eyes flitted down to it. âMinho,â he pleaded. âYouâre still fully clothed. I want to see you.âÂ
Minho chuckled and smirked down at him. âYeah? What do you have to say?âÂ
âPlease,â Jisung said. He wasnât beyond begging. There was nothing he wouldnât do to have Minho right now. âPlease let me see you, hyung.âÂ
Minho smiled and pressed a quick peck to his lips. âOkay, okay. You can see me.â He pulled his shirt over his head, tossing it in the same direction Jisungâs pants had gone, and Jisung nearly drooled at the sight. He had gotten much more built over the years but still maintained a layer of softness over it all. Broad shoulders and muscular arms faded into a soft tummy that Jisung wanted to sink his teeth into. A light trail of hair went down into the waistband of Minhoâs pants. His mouth watered.Â
âOff,â he huffed, sitting up so he could start tugging down Minhoâs pants.Â
âImpatient,â Minho laughed even as he helped him tug them down.Â
âDonât tease me.â Jisung pouted. âIâm so needy for you and youâre teasing me!âÂ
âOh baby,â Minho cooed. âYouâre just so cute when youâre all pouty.â He cupped Jisungâs jaw and brushed his thumb over his bottom lip. Jisungâs heart skipped a beat and blood rushed to his cheeks. âBut donât worry, I wonât make you wait long. Just a second, okay?âÂ
Jisung nodded dumbly, laying back down on the bed as Minho scooted back to get rid of the rest of his clothes. His cock hung heavy between his legs, so hard and red. And fuck he was huge. Jisungâs hole clenched around nothing at the thought of it inside of him, fucking into him, keeping him so full.Â
Minho grinned at him and crawled forward to sit between Jisungâs thighs. âSpread these pretty thighs for me, jagi,â he said softly, tapping Jisungâs upper thigh. Jisung let out an embarrassed whine at how his cock twitched at the simple contact.Â
Jisung took a deep, shuddering breath as he bent his knees and spread his legs apart to give Minho access. He tried to keep his nerves down but they continued to bubble up, making his heart race. Minho seemed to notice and rubbed a soothing hand up and down his thigh. âShh, relax. Iâm gonna take care of you, mâkay? And you can tell me if you donât want to do anything, alright?âÂ
He nodded, wetting his lips. âI know. I trust you.â He relaxed a little more as Minho smiled, allowing himself to sink into the bed. Minho moved his thighs further apart and reached behind him to grab a bottle of lube sitting on the dresser and a condom that had been placed there. Jisung bit his lip as he uncapped the bottle and poured a generous amount onto his fingertips. The sight of Minhoâs hands covered in the slick substance had Jisungâs stomach twisting, arousal building.Â
He reached between his legs and pressed his middle finger to his entrance. ââM gonna open you up now, okay?â Jisung exhaled shakily, not trusting himself to speak. Minho bit his lip as he pushed the tip of his first finger past his rim and his eyes winded when he was met with no resistance. â Baby, what is this?â he asked, his voice taking on a gravelly edge it hadnât had before.Â
Jisung squirmed under him, body heating up like he was sitting in front of a fire. âIâuhmâI fingered myself before I cameâŚso I would be ready,â he admitted shyly. He hadnât planned to, he just got in the shower and it happened. He couldnât stop thinking about Minho, his touches, the kisses theyâd shared, getting fucked by him.Â
âShit, Sung, thatâs so fucking hot,â Minho groaned, sliding his finger all the way in. âDid you think about me while you fingered yourself? Imagine it was my fingers? Or my cock?âÂ
He curled his finger and Jisung moaned, nodding his head. âHahây-yes,â he hiccuped. âPictured it was youâŚwanted it to be you, hyung.âÂ
âShit.â Minho looked almost as affected as Jisung felt and it only made his dick ache more.Â
âI can take two now, I promise. Iâm all prepped already, I need you, pleâ ahhh, â he moaned, cutting himself off. Minho inserted a second finger, filling him up easily. Jisung had gotten to three fingers before he came all over his hand. Minhoâs hands had always been smaller than his, his fingers shorter, but there was something about the fact that it was Minho that made it feel so much better.Â
âSucking me in just perfect, fuck, â Minho breathed as he pumped his fingers inside his hole. âCanât wait to fuck you, shit. Youâre so pretty.âÂ
â Min ,â Jisung gasped, back arching as Minho spread his fingers. âAnother, please, Iâm ready.âÂ
Minho was too far gone himself to question and after pulling out his first two fingers he pushed inside him again with three. Jisungâs breath hitched and his toes curled. Minho pushed his fingers deeper, just shy of where he needed it, and it was so much, yet not enough. He needed more, more, more.Â
Minho fucked him with his fingers for a little while longer, reducing him to a whiny, breathless mess with just his hands in no time. Even if he had smaller fingers, he knew how to use them and could angle them better than Jisung ever could when he fucked himself. His cock was leaking all over his stomach and his body was shaking when Minho first brushed the tip of his fingers against his prostate. His stomach tensed and his cock twitched against his stomach, telltale signs of his orgasm approaching.Â
âMmm, âm gonnaâgonna come if you d-donât stop. Iâm ready, I promise, need you to fuck me now,â he begged, eyes stinging with tears of desperation.Â
âYou sure, Hannie?â he asked, tilting his head.Â
âYes, please. I can take it.âÂ
Minho let out a little sound, akin to a moan, and it went straight to Jisungâs cock, electricity shooting through his stomach. âO-okay, shit. Youâre so perfect. How are you so perfect?â he mumbled as he pulled his fingers out. Jisung whimpered at the loss, body arching against the bed.Â
âDonâtâdunno. Itâs just for you,â he said, and he truly meant it. Having Minho back, having him like this, felt so good, there was no way he could have anyone else.Â
âAll for me, hm?â His gaze softened for a moment before they narrowed again as he hiked Jisungâs legs up so he could fold his hips back. âYouâll be good for me and take it then, hm?â he asked as he rolled a condom onto his cock with his free hand.Â
Jisung nodded vigorously, eyes wide as he watched Minho adjust him like a doll, with one hand no less. âYes, yes, please, just fuck me, fuck me jagi,â he begged, the pet name slipping out easy on his tongue. Minhoâs eyes went wide for a second and he blinked, but seconds later his expression was back to normal.Â
âGonna take such good care of you Sungie. My Sungie,â he muttered. Jisung moaned as the tip of Minhoâs cock pushed inside of him. It was barely anything but already he felt so full. Minho was going to split him in half.Â
âFuck, fuck,â he whimpered, ass clenching around Minhoâs length. Minho hissed through his teeth and squeezed the flesh of Jisungâs soft thighs. It hurt a bit, and they were probably going to bruise. Jisung hoped he would be bruised for weeks.Â
âShit, Sung, youâre so fucking tight. Gotta relax for me, mâkay baby?âÂ
Jisung tried but he was too overwhelmed. Already the sensation of Minhoâs cock filling him up was too much, too muchâ
âKiss me,â he breathed, inhaling sharply as Minho pushed in a little deeper.Â
Minho didnât respond, opting to instead maneuver between Jisungâs thighs so he could cage him in with his arms. And then his lips were on him, kissing him incessantly as he pushed his cock deeper, deeper. Jisung moaned into his mouth and Minho swallowed his sounds down like a shot. Their breaths mingled together and Jisung was at the point where he couldnât determine whether the soft moans and whines he was hearing were from his own mouth or Minhoâs. And before he knew it, Minho was fully seated inside of him, his hips pressed first against his ass.Â
âOh myâfuck, you feel so good around me Jisung. Hannie ,â Minho groaned against his lips. âSo good, such a good boy, relaxing all nice for me.â He pulled back and oh, Jisung was going to die. He looked so pretty, cheeks and ears red, his lips cherry-tinted and spit-slicked. At that moment, he was like a god, and Jisung wanted nothing more than to worship him.
ââM good. Feel so good inside of me,â Jisung moaned, pressing his head into the pillows so his neck arched. ââM so full. You fill me up so well, hyung.âÂ
âYeah?â Minho breathed, eyes gleaming. âShit itâs likeâitâs like you were made for me.âÂ
âMaybe I was,â Jisung supplied, too delirious to think about his words. The sound Minho made was akin to a growl and it made shivers travel over the expanse of Jisungâs body.Â
âMy Jisungie,â he mumbled, reverent. âCan I move now, jagi? Please, my pretty?âÂ
âMhmm, please, need you. Need you to fu-fuck me yesterday,â he stuttered. âWanna feel you.âÂ
âFuck,â Minho moaned, and then he was pulling out, all the way, until just the tip was left inside. Jisung was only given a second before he slammed back in, punching the air out of Jisungâs lungs in the form of a choked moan.Â
His thrusts were relentless, each one leaving Jisung breathless, dizzy. He cried out as Minho angled himself just right, the head of his cock brushing against his sensitive prostate. Pleasure pulsed in his tummy, so overwhelming and so good at the same time.
âOh fuck. Oh fuck,â he cried, eyes stinging with tears again.Â
âYouâyou look so fucking, mnghâ pretty, shit, S-Sung,â Minho gritted in response. His hair was sticking to his forehead, sweat dripping down the sides of his face. A drop of it ran down and landed on Jisungâs cheek, causing his cock to jolt against his stomach, more precum beading at the tip.Â
â More, harder,â Jisung whined, his voice pathetic to his own ears. He wrapped his legs around Minhoâs waist and Minho pushed forward with the extra help, practically folding him in half. The new angle had him hitting Jisungâs prostate head on, and it felt so good that tears finally spilled from Jisungâs eyes. They ran down his cheeks and spilled onto the pillow below him. Minhoâs breath caught in his throat at the sight and he dropped his head between his shoulders.Â
 âAre youâshit are you crying?â he asked breathlessly. Jisung whimpered.Â
âJust feelsâfeels so good,â he sobbed.Â
Minho groaned. âFuck, youâre incredible. Taking it so well.âÂ
âGood? Am I good?â Jisung asked deliriously. He felt dumb, so dumb. Completely cockdrunk on Minho.
â So good. Mm fuck. My good boy,â he praised. Jisung moaned wantonly at his words. He was so far gone. Everything was too much and simultaneously not enough.Â
Minho continued fucking into him, maintaining a steady rhythm despite the fact that he was breathless and panting. Every thrust had Jisung sliding up the bed, his cock bouncing helplessly against his stomach. Even though Jisungâs stomach tensed every time he was filled up again, his body remained pliant, perfect for Minho to use how he wanted. He knew he must have looked utterly debauched to Minho with his mouth hanging open, endless moans spilling from his red-bitten lips. His makeup was probably running too.Â
A hand reached between their bodies and wrapped around Jisungâs cock and he writhed. â Nghh, Minho, Minâ please, pleasepleasepleaseââ he babbled, no clue at all what he was even begging for. Minho smiled crookedly above him. A drop of sweat collected at the tip of his nose.Â
âAre you getting close, jagi?â Minho asked. His voice was rough and it made Jisung shudder.Â
âYe-yes,â he hiccuped.Â
âGood,â Minho hummed. âYouâve been so good. You can come for me whenever you want.â
His body melted into pleasure as Minho began stroking his painfully hard cock in tandem with his thrusts. Jisungâs body was coming apart at the seams. He squirmed underneath Minho, the combined sensations of being fucked and touched almost too muchâand then he was coming. He gasped and tossed his head back into the pillows as his orgasm washed over him and cum spilled all over his belly. He clenched rhythmically around Minhoâs cock despite the overstimulation, pathetic whines falling from his lips. Minho groaned above him.Â
â Hng, oh my gosh, Sung-ah, youâre s-soââ was all he managed to get out. His thrusts stuttered as Jisung continued to clench around him while he rode out his orgasm. He needed to see Minho come, needed to see the expressions he made as he hit his peak.Â
âCo-come inside me, pl-please,â he whimpered. He squeezed his legs around Minhoâs waist and dug his heels into his lower back. âPlease, wanna see you.âÂ
That seemed to be all the encouragement Minho needed, because all it took was a few more thrusts and he was coming too with Jisungâs name on his lips. He shoved his cock deep inside Jisung as he filled the condom and Jisung could almost imagine that it was him he was filling up instead. Minho moaned breathily as Jisung squeezed around his cock a couple times purposefully to milk him through his orgasm. The sound made Jisungâs cock twitch against his stomach even though he just came. There was no way he could get hard again so soon, but the sight and sound of Minho coming was almost enough.Â
When he finished, he pulled out and tossed the condom in the trash and then let out a long exhale, collapsing onto the bed beside Jisung. They laid there for a moment catching their breaths, the only sound in the room their gentle panting. Then Minho rolled over to face Jisung wordlessly. Jisung turned his head toward him and Minho merely blinked a few times and then his arms came around to pull him close. He maneuvered them until Jisung was on his side and they were spooning, Minhoâs arms wrapped securely around his waist. His breath fanned across Jisungâs neck as he nuzzled close, and he remained silent.Â
For a second Jisung thought that he was asleep, that was until he heard him take in a stuttering breath. âMinho?â he questioned softly, something twisting in his stomach at the sound.Â
Minho exhaled slowly and squeezed Jisungâs waist tighter. âPlease stay,â he whispered, voice small and barely audible. Seconds away from breaking. An ache spread through Jisungâs chest. He rested his hand on top of one of Minhoâs and brushed his thumb over the knuckles.Â
â Jagi,â Jisung murmured. âOf course Iâll stay. I was hoping youâd ask.â He couldnât be sure if Minho meant for just the night or forever, but he found that maybe he wanted to do both.Â
âOkay,â Minho breathed, his body relaxing more behind Jisung. âIâll drive you to your familyâs in the morning. So you can spend Christmas with them.âÂ
âThat sounds good to me. Iâm glad I get to spend Christmas Eve with you.âÂ
Minho hummed and he could feel him smile from where he had rested against his shoulder. âMe too.âÂ
They continued cuddling for a few minutes afterward and then Jisung yawned loudly, triggering the same reaction from Minho. âUgh, we should clean up,â he said. âIâd love to go to sleep now but weâre both disgusting.âÂ
Jisung groaned. âI donât want toâŚâÂ
âWhat if we shower together?âÂ
At that Jisungâs eyes widened and he grinned. âOkayâŚmaybe. But you have to carry me to the shower.â He wiggled around so that he could face Minho and gave him the biggest doe eyes he could. â Please? Iâm tired.âÂ
âYou didnât even do any work,â Minho responded with a scoff. But he moved to sit up anyway, pulling Jisung into his arms like a baby. Jisung giggled happily and wrapped his arms around Minhoâs neck.Â
âYouâre the best, Minho-hyung,â he chirped. He craned his neck so he could kiss his cheek and giggled again at the sight of Minhoâs ears turning red. Fuck, he really could love him again. He was afraid he already did.Â
Minho set him down once they reached the bathroom and Jisung let out a squeak when he saw himself in the mirror. His cheeks were streaked with tears and lines of mascara and there were bruises littering his neck from when Minho had first started kissing him. His hair was a mess and his cheeks were still flushed even though they had rested a bit. He looked utterly fucked out.
âWhat?â Minho asked, cocking his head to the side. Jisung covered his face and groaned.Â
âI am a mess! Why didnât you say I looked like that?â he whined petulantly.Â
Minho chuckled, shaking his head. âYou look pretty. Means I fucked you like you deserved.âÂ
Jisung sputtered while Minho laughed at his reaction. As much as he wanted to pout though, he couldnât keep the smile off his lips.Â
Something warm bloomed in Jisungâs chest as he watched Minho prepare everything for their shower, humming to himself lightly as he grabbed an extra toothbrush from his cabinet and set it on the counter for him. The feeling quickly turned bittersweet though as he realized that in another week and a half he would be gone again. He couldnât leave. He couldnât.Â
As soon as he was in the shower with Minhoâs hands in his hair shampooing the strands with vanilla scented shampoo, his thoughts melted away. He sank back, rested his back against Minhoâs chest even though the other complained that the angle made it harder for him to wash his hair.Â
They traded off washing each other, managing to keep their hands from wandering for the most part, and then they walked back to bed, now clean and comfortable. Minho pulled off the top comforter out of principle and switched it for a cleaner one. He also grabbed Jisung a change of clothes and it made Jisung a little dizzy at how much they smelled like Minho and hung a little baggy on him. Minho had never been that much better than Jisung but obviously over the years he had gotten broader, while Jisung had only recently started working out regularly. Any size difference made Jisungâs heart flutter. He felt small in the best way.Â
Since it wasnât that late, they decided to turn on a cheesy Christmas movie while they cuddled under the covers. Jisung had trouble keeping his eyes open but he forced himself to stay awake, wanting the moment to last forever. Minho was completely engrossed in the movie but that didnât stop the hand that was around Jisung from caressing him every now and then.Â
By the time they finished their movie, it was a little past midnight and both of them were ready to sleep. Minho crawled under the covers first and opened his arms for Jisung to burrow in against him. Jisung released a content sigh as Minhoâs arms came around to hold him. Minho kissed the top of his head, letting the kiss linger for a few seconds before he moved away.Â
âMerry Christmas, sweetheart,â he mumbled against his hair. Jisungâs heart kicked in his chest and he snuggled closer.Â
âMerry Christmas, Minho.â
And for the first time in a while, Jisung remembered what Christmas really felt like. Even if he would be leaving soon, this would be worth it.Â
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Minho spent as much time as he could with Jisung during the rest of his time in Korea. Jisung came to visit him in the cafe whenever he was free, and after Minho was done working, he took Jisung out as long as he wasnât busy with his family or other friends. Jisung also came over to his apartment almost every night. They would have dinner, maybe watch a movie, and then Minho would fuck him until he was a babbling, crying mess underneath him. He felt a little bad for stealing him away from his family so much, but Jisungâs parents seemed to be quite supportive anyway, if their knowing smiles when Minho dropped Jisung off on Christmas morning were anything to go by.Â
There was a level of bittersweetness to everything they did. Minho could feel it and he could tell that Jisung felt it too. They were in a bubble, but it wouldnât be long before reality came crashing down on them and they had to face the fact that Jisung would have to go back to America and they wouldnât be together. Minho was doing his best to accept it, but it was harder than he could have imagined. He didnât want to let Jisung go, not when he had just barely gotten him back.Â
There was a chance they could do long distance, now that they were older and more mature. But their relationship was still in such a fragile stage that Minho worried the distance would rip them apart again. He couldnât handle that.Â
What made it worse was that Jisung didnât seem to want to leave either. Minho could see it in his eyes, in the way that he looked at him. He knew it would be hard for them both and that somehow made it worse. Maybe if he knew that Jisung wasnât feeling the same things he was feeling, and wasnât falling for him again too, then it would be easier. He could tell himself that it wasnât meant to be and he shouldnât waste his time on someone who didnât even like him the same way. But Jisung did. He could see that now, especially after they spent Christmas Eve together. Minho was losing him all over again and he didnât know whether he would ever get him back. What if they really did end up getting torn apart again and Jisung chose to never come back to South Korea? How would Minho survive?Â
It was New Years Eve when it all came to a head. Minho was with Jisung at a small party hosted by Felix, who had invited them and a few other friends, two of which Minho only had heard of named Seungmin and Jeongin, and one who he learned Jisung had been friends with for a while, who he learned was called Hyunjin. Jisung was lamenting the fact that his friends from America, Changbin and Chan, couldnât be there to go into the New Year with them, and wouldnât even be experiencing the New Year for fourteen more hours. At that moment, realization hit Minho like a truck and the drinks heâd had turned sour in his stomach, making him sick. There was no way he could do that.Â
He excused himself from the conversation and made his way outside so he could stand in the cold air. Perhaps knock some sense into himself. He took a few deep breaths, trying to calm his racing heart and ease the mess in his stomach so he wouldnât actually get sick. âFuck,â he mumbled, running a hand through his hair. Why couldnât life just be simple?Â
After about a minute of alone time, the door opened followed by a quiet, âMinho-hyung?âÂ
Minho spun around and his eyes met Jisungâs. A lump caught in his throat and he desperately tried to swallow it down. âHey,â he croaked weakly.Â
âIs everything alright?â he asked. âYou justâŚleft.â His voice held a vulnerability to it that hurt Minhoâs heart. He quickly stepped forward and grabbed Jisungâs hand to intertwine their fingers.Â
âIâm sorry, jagi,â he said, giving Jisungâs hand a squeeze. That was a new development too since they had spent Christmas Eve together. Jisung seemed to like getting called that and Minho liked calling him that. It was normal for them when they were younger and it felt the same even now. âI justâŚâ He swallowed thickly, the lump crawling back up his throat. âI donâtââ his voice began to crack and he took a deep breath. âIâm not good with words.âÂ
âThatâs okay, take your time,â Jisung urged. He gave Minho a reassuring squeeze of his hand and that gave him the courage to continue.Â
âI donât know what Iâm going to do,â he began. âIâve missed you so much. And Iâve loved spending this time with you. More thanâŚmore than you even know. And thatâs whyâthatâs why it hurts so fucking much, Hannie. I donât know what Iâm gonna do when youâre gone. IâmâIâm falling in love with you all over again and I canât lose you again. I donât want you to go but I canât make you stayââÂ
Minho was cut off when Jisung engulfed him in a hug, holding him so tight he almost struggled to take a deep breath. Jisungâs voice came out muffled from where his face was buried into Minhoâs shoulder. âI donât want to lose you either. I donât. Iâll figure something out, I promise. But we can make it work. Please, letâs try to make it work.âÂ
Jisung sniffled and his body shook a little and thatâs when Minho realized Jisung had started crying. âOh no, baby, please donât cry. Fuck, youâll make me cry. I hate crying, youâve already seen me cry too much,â he said with a watery laugh.Â
âI just donât want you to leave me. You donâtâI know I left before, but Iâm not gonna leave you. I know itâll be hard.â He lifted his head and moved back enough so that he could make eye contact with Minho. His watery eyes made Minhoâs heart clench. He cupped Jisungâs cheek to wipe his tears and Jisung let him. âBut can we please try? I promise Iâll do everything to make it work. Iâll visit as often as I can.âÂ
The promise did ease Minhoâs fears but they were still there, sharp and biting. âI just donât know howâŚitâs so far,â Minho lamented. âWhat ifâŚwhat if you decide it's too much? Or if you decide you want someone else over in America? Weâre stillâŚweâve barely even restarted our relationship. And I know how I feel but I donâtâŚâÂ
âIâm falling for you again too, Minho,â Jisung said firmly. âI mightâŚI might already be there. I know itâs fast, but I already loved you in the past. I can love you again. Weâre grown up now. IâmâIâm scared too, you know? Cause what if you find someone here? What if you change your mind?â Minho wanted to say that he would never do that, that he could never, but then he realized he would have to apply the same logic to his own thoughts. âBut that doesnâtâthat doesnât matter enough for me to not hope.â
Minho nodded and Jisung took a deep breath. âIf youâŚif you really donât want to try then I understand. I know I may have seemed more chill about this whole thing butâŚI really think youâre it for me. Why else would we have met up again all these years later?â he asked.Â
âYouâre right. And I want you to be it for me too. I donât think I ever fully let you go.â Minho swallowed. He couldnât let his worries stop him from having Jisung back. He had let his fears stop him in the past, and maybe that was why he was having these issues now. It was probably good for them that they ended things, too young to properly navigate something as complicated as a long distance relationship. But maybe he could do it. For Jisung. For them.Â
âIâll try,â he said finally. âI want to try. So so bad. Iâm just scared.âÂ
âMe too,â Jisung admitted shyly. âLike, really fucking scared. But weâll be doing it together, right?â He smiled up at him and squeezed his hand. Minho couldnât help smiling back.Â
âYouâre right. Together,â he agreed. Jisungâs smile grew wider and he bounced on his heels.Â
âSee? Now letâs go back inside. I donât want to miss our midnight kiss. And itâs so cold. What were you thinking, coming out here by yourself anyway, Minho-yah? Trying to get sick,â he grumbled under his breath, making Minho laugh as he dragged him inside. It amazed him how easily Jisung was able to make him feel better. Maybe it was a sign that things would be okay.Â
As they counted down the seconds to midnight, eyes locked together as they waited for the clock to hit 00:00, Minho felt it. Like sparks spreading through his chest. A flame igniting, taking over his body. And when Jisung kissed him, smiling so much against his lips that it practically couldnât even count as a real kiss, and he tasted the decaf candy cane mocha heâd forced Minho to make him to help him sober up, he knew. It would be okay.Â
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