Would you ever write queer or trans content? Specifically, I mean, not a throw away line in a larger story.

No. They're my therapy dolls, my little puppets. Honestly, I don't really think about what's in a puppet's pants. I'd write them the same no matter what their bodies looked like, so what does it matter to me? They walk, I follow. They talk, I record. I feel, they feel, I share.

I write for myself; to help myself, and to make myself happy (or release un-happy emotions on occasion). Since the gender and, by extension, sexuality of a character doesn't really take prominence in MY head, I don't mess with it. I just write what I want to read, and focus on subjects/dynamics that do haunt my brain.

So yeah, if you're looking for a good source for trans/queer LU content, I'm not a creator I could suggest turning to. I can assure you though that there are many other creators who can provide what you're looking for!

why do men think it's okay to day the things they do?

i just woke up from a nap, caused by exhausted, because these men were whistling at me and saying something, i just couldn't hear what.

i thought they were following me, so i tried to call my parents, but my phone bill hasn't been payed yet.

i started shaking the minute i got to the door and was banging on the door, and when the door did open i ran straight to my mum crying, couldn't even tell her what happened for at least 10 minutes.

can you guess my age? i'm 16.

really wish you posted more angst tbh. your angst stuff feels more real than all these aus you’re doing now. idk why all the cod writers now are so obsessed with writing these guys as if they’d be good partners or give a shit about dating. it’s fake fan behavior.

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6. which ship fans are the most annoying?

haha. well. i'll say any fan of any ship that is so toxic about their ship that they will go to great lengths to vehemently deny the existence/plausibility of a different ship with one of the same characters in it. i have no problem with anyone not wanting to read x y or z there are plenty of ships i don't like but i just. y'know. don't read or interact with them! i've felt this way in every fandom i've been in: if you don't like or don't understand a ship just don't fucking engage w it. you don't need to make 700 posts about why it would never happen in real life, like, none of this is going to happen in real life. it's fanfiction. i fr read indycar rpf i have marcus armstrong x david malukas fics in my bookmarks i don't know if they've ever even interacted in real life but it literally doesn't matter bc fanfiction is not that deep !!

10. worst part of fanon

for some reason this one has severely stumped me. i honestly have no idea. maybe any aggressively believed in theory that driver a hates driver b for x y and z whatever like i can't think of anything off the top of my head but i've always hated shit like that. like when someone just Decides that their fav driver hates their least fav because it idk feels easier that way?? i don't get it. does this even answer the question

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

and i answered this one here!

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Why is Matthew underage in your fic? Especially if he's in a sexual relationship with someone 18+

even fictional teens have sex

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You know what's *not* a good feeling? When your family asks if you're happy in your marriage and that they "notice things" about my s/o.

You know what's also *not* a good feeling? Going though your s/o's Facebook page and realizing that the last like 20 posts all have to do with him running and more than half of them include a picture of him and his one "co-worker" and they have their shirts off. I can't even tell you that last time that he posted a picture of the both of us. Like, my pfp is of me and him. But his is just of him.

I'm just...tired of this tbh. I feel like an insane person because I want to go through his messages to see what they talk about. He spends more of his off time with her than with me it feels like. He goes to eat with her on Fridays and they watch "The Last of Us" at her apartment. He never even asked me if I wanted to watch that with him. But then when we are home together, I have to ask to watch shows with him, I have to ask him for hugs. I called him out the other day about him never initiating hugs. I think it says a lot when I don't want to hug you anymore.

But he also goes running after work and comes home to do other workout things, but gets mad at me because I don't do workout things. I. Work. Two. Jobs. I'm sorry that I work 12 hours a day and want to do something I want to do for a couple of hours on top of other household chores.

I need a therapist, but nobody is contacting me back. I feel like I'm broken.

me: keep it short, concise, to the point. you don’t need to give every single life detail in his bio page. people will learn as they go. also me: but what if instead of doing that really good idea, i listed every trait of covert narcissism that crepus had and how it personally affected diluc? me: ;-; i fucking suppose

I still can never get behind the idea that you're not allowed to ship a straight couple that includes a gay character.

Shipping is literally just about using our imagination to create scenarios we personally enjoy, whether in our heads or written online to be shared with others who also enjoy it. And so by saying you're "not allowed" to do this, you're basically saying someone else's imagination has to follow your conditions.

That is insanely ridiculous.

Guys sorry I’ve been absent. I’ve honestly been feeling like a crap writer the last couple of days. I just feel like there are very few continuous interactions I get with people when I start them, and it’s extremely frustrating. It makes wanting to do replies I currently have difficult but I will be working on them today.  I know it’s just brain weasels and I have something coming soon to combat it, but I hate feeling like this. Part of it is living in a completely different time zone, which is both a blessing and a curse, but the other thing is that I’m realizing is Tumblr just isn’t how it used to be tbh.  That’s something I’m adjusting to. Trying to wrap my head around how the new interactions work, but I’m the Lion Turtle I’ve been around longer than most people here and I just...maybe it’s nostalgia or I’m too set in my ways, but I miss how things used to be. But I’m still here. I’m going to keep on keeping on. I might limit my interactions to relationships with muses (not just romantic) that are actually developing and not worry about anything else. At least for a while. That’s not an official decision just yet, but I’m thinking about it.  Anywho I really am going to try to work on replies today. I might send out some memes into the void to keep momentum going. Thanks for listening to my rant. Sorry it’s lengthy. 

Look there’s gonna some OCs and shit in this VHD fic and I know how people give the side eye for that so...

I will give the side eye back.

What we need to do is convince all the disney adults in america that high speed rail would be a preferable way of getting to disneyworld compared to driving or flying. We could maybe harness their fondness for the monorail or something, but this is a group of people that has time, income, and passion that we could leverage. If we could direct 5% of the enthusiasm they have for limited edition popcorn buckets into calling their representatives and demanding high-speed interstate rail, we could get it by 2030

why define your fandom experience by in-fighting 😭 just enjoy what you enjoy and perceive what you perceive. you don't have to stick it to anyone

I'm not "in-fighting". I use my blog to share my thoughts and post my analyses of the material - as everyone else does. I don't go into the buddie tag and start fights with people.

I've only reacted when some fans were being gross and toxic about their ship, e.g. posting hate on the Tommy or Bucktommy tags (where it doesn't belong), and I've vented when we learned of some fans acting out against the actors, writers, or doing shitty juvenile BS like editing the Tommy Kinard fandom wiki with lies.

If that is "sticking it" to anyone by your terms, feel free to unfollow or even block me. No hard feelings.

Catch-22:

Can't bring myself to care about myself for my own sake, but also won't ask anyone else to care for me before I'm capable of caring for myself

This deadlock has remained unbroken for nearly 30 years. Chances of it being disrupted before I die from something entirely preventable seeming increasingly slim.

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Well Ig I'm just having bad luck. I knew something bad could happen sooner or later just bc I'm in my moon cycle. I hate how cursed it is sometimes, and I hate being cursed. For that I expressed it through mono-color WBB Celene dealing with a dead 'human' my getting rid of it and taking a rest afterwards, though not happily. Yeah Ik there's projection but how else can I portray feelings?

There's more to it, but the latter part of this vent has anxiety, talks of menstrual cycle (I code it moon cycle), emotional manipulation, a bit of death and beliefs so you can read if you want, just know if you NEED to talk to me on discord or if you wanna do fun talks related to LBB/WBB or otherwise it's cutieboop2000, display CutieBoop, and there's a Princess Luna icon. I'm just in fandom mutual deprival mode lil bit.

Now for the VENT bullshit. Again you don't have to read, unless you want to ig, but it might be not interesting. Since I was younger I believed in a certain pattern happening whenever I got to my moon cycle. I was naïve and easy to manipulate at the time but whenever the cycle happened, something bad would happen. It could be emotional manipulation, it could be someone getting hurt or worse (like dead), and it would all happen because I'm in the moon cycle. It could be because I used to have a bad friend at the time, but that's past already. Because of all that, I believed my moon cycle to be an omen of bad things and a bit of thinking it's my fault (even though I have my anxiety meds). All I'm saying is that bad stuff has consistently happened in my menstruation cycles, and to un-believe a pattern that I found consistent is NOT easy for me to do. It's unsurprising something bad happened while I'm on it this time, but I still react pretty hard to it. Until the weeks where nothing bad happens during my cycle occur, I'm gonna be wary and prolly moody as hell. For the LBB/WBB side I'm kinda without peeps to ramble to so it sucks hard. : (

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.