oh i finished the entire scholomance trilogy in the past three days and here are my thoughts (below cut for spoilers)

el. el. el. el. i love you el. el. baby girl. my favorite type of character. i love you

me when a girl is angry and trying and intrinsically Not Good and yet Doing Good Anwyas and also so so so fucking angry: h

i liked orion most in the first book i wont lie to you. i thought thats where he and el were most compelling as a duo wwwww i wish they'd gotten more focus? dev? in the second it wouldve sold me harder on [redacted] at the end u kno

honestly there was more htan one moment where id be reading and the flow was soooo astol/at which. u kno. makes sense. but id be like. oh yeah ive definitely read your got fic before u kno GLKSHDGKSHGD

most noticeable during most of hte orion/el stuff for me wwwww

everything abt the maw mouths was so fucked up and so good and all the concepts in this story were so sexy. a school that kills 75% of kids so that it doesnt have to be 90%. so so good so fun.

i really liked in general the stuff abt balance + the lesser evil discussion and i LOVED the magic system. so fun. intention + flow + balance + belief all coming together like that to make things Real is so good

ok i made it this far w/o doing a bullet point abt it but i think el/liesel. i. i dont have anything else to say but when they were sleeping together in the third book i was like. oh my god

of course i like liesel i like ruthless girls willign to do Anythign. sooooo tasty (chef finger kiss)

my ideal post book 3 fic is 'el on her journey around the world and she and orion are like semi-open rship and she bumps into liesel and accidentaly (lol) sleeps w/her again only they do have some feelings there and somehow it snowballs and then somehow liesel ends up tagging along during the summer w/her and orion and they fall into a weird hinge poly sort of but not quite situation esp bc she's also still definitely fucking alfie too' u kno. this is my ideal

ok i got that out of my system. i like liu a lot too the whole thing w/her in book 3 i was just like. h. liu.......... liu...........

honestly all the charas were really good...... all the main cast was very (chef finger kiss) i liked chloe and liu and aadhya all a lot obvs. girls. liesel...........

orion in general is such a fun character lol. i do wonder if h'ell just be functionally immortal tho u kno. or if not what happens when he dies. you kno

el + her mom were also so good duo. i really liked el+ her fam in general tbh but her mom's everything coming from her constant refusal to put any darkness into the world. soooo good so so good. so fun

book 1 was probably my favorite just bc it was a lot more of the rship dev i really liked if that makes sense. i like when characters are close and can rely on each other obvs but i do like seeing them get there and thats what book 1's focus was on the most so i enjoyed it a lot wwwww idk if i can rank them tho i enjoyed all of them. probably its like 1 > 2=3 for me wwwww

overall just tasty tasty books i looooved el sm shes so good. gorl

all

yipe!!!!!! wahoo!!!!!!

blush— are you single, taken, crushing, or not interested? or is it complicated?

i amg. taken :) by @510snake :] she my scrimbly :]

ballet slipper— with only one word, describe how you feel at this moment

sleepy <3 (i am. very every tired. so slepey i have been up since 10 SLKLG)

rose quartz— what’s your love language (romantic or platonic)?

ummmggg i dont know lkKLALKSLKG i guess. affection. or Words Of Affirmation or whatever it is . i enjoy beign physically affectionat <3

watermelon— have you ever had to reject anyone romantically? how did it go?

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah back in like 4th grade JHAHJASHJKHKJG

it uh. didnt go well thoguh. guy liked me, i didnt like him but was like "oh ok ig we're dating now" and then after a while i was like "actually i dont like you anymore" and that started his. *checks calendar*. approximately ~7 year hatred towards me. (im not kidding) (its a long story)

fuchsia— describe your personality in three words!

ummg. warrior cats (autism) . those are the only words that gcame into my mind i really dont have anything else KLSKJLKJG

rose— do you believe in soulmates? why or why not?

UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH yeah :) idk why i just think its neat :)

coral— what’s something you’re passionate about?

............... waioor cats

carnation— how important are “looks” to you in a relationship?

i donot give a shit abt what people loook like or anythign like that KJSLKJLKJG... im not the kind of person to rly CARE about physical attraction. idc what you look like im jus. attracted 2 personalities n how ppl act n how ppl Are, rather than . how people look ig

blossom— would you get a tattoo? if so, what would it be of?

No SJKDJKJKLLKG... i dont want tattoes <3

salmon— would you prefer a partner who is an introvert or an extrovert? why?

i hate questions like this bc im like . icant just be like "oh i prefer a partner whos (x) !!!!!!" bc. i already HAVE a partner and i cant just. think of anyone Besides Her. does that make sense ??? idk. im brain fog SJKDJKKJG but 2 answer the question uhhhhhhhhhhh im okay with either, i dont have a preference for either . so yeah <3

pastel pink— do you prefer to dress up and go out or stay in and relax?

I PREFER . dressign up and going out :) i want to get out of the house more often so bad i am miserable i leave the house like once a month bc i cannot leave the house without mom bc . i cant drive and i have nowhere to Go

bubblegum— how do you feel about your love life right now? are you happy with it?

yese,,,,,,,,,,,,, am very very haby :)

champagne— what’s your favorite form of physical affection, if any at all?

HUGs........ and holding................... and handholding and kisses................................. and snugling.......... prett y much . like. anything KJKLJSKJLG

hibiscus— what’s your favorite pet name, if any? why?

I !!!!!!! ADORE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! being called honey :) or hun :) but then again those are rly the only ones i LIKE and the only ones my gf CALLS me (bc there rly arent any others that i like KJJKLLKG) so <3

hot pink— what’s your favorite relationship trope?

UHHHH idk !!!!!!! ig i like . the basic Enemies To Lovers but. idk i cant really thinhk of anything else at all KJSDKJLG

flamingo— would you say you’re clingy in relationships and friendships?

YYYYYYYYEaah yeah a lot. very. Yeah

cherry pink— when it comes to loved ones, are you openly affectionate or are you more reserved?

uh i guess it depends ? idk if this means like. am i openly affectionate with my partner when Around Others or if im more reserved around other but like .. idk ! i guess in both cases im . openly affectionate. always all the time <3

peach syrup— have you ever had an internet crush on a mutual on this app or another app?

looks at my gf

who i met on tumblr 5 years ago

who i've ONLY known from tumblr and never actually met in person (yet)

(in other words . yeah <3333333)

pink magnolia— would you say that you develop crushes quickly?

no <3

Hey, it's me again, I living in ask box now btw

I've already asked about your favela six headcanons, but how about the others? There somes you really like and wanted to share?

Like, I'ike the idea of the eggs getting traits of their parents. Which gets a bit chaotic with eggs like Pomme and Richarlyson, because they have a lot of parents

I could write abou them but it would be too long and probably a bit boring to read

Also, WHERE THOSE PHOTOS WITH THE EGGS ITEMS ARR COMING FROM??? School won't let me watch the streams:(

I'm confused because the eggs didn't left their items when they disappeared?(or they disappeared after some time I don't quite remember)

I miss Richas so much

WHERE IS THAT LITTLE DEMON???:(

Also I've just noticed because I saw someone talking about how Bagi says that the eggs might be something the federation did to keep the people on the island and such, but she talks a lot about them

Like, just yesterday she was talking about how would be to have Richas helping her build, yeah, he's already her son

- 🍽️

the richas photo bagi found last night!! i dont know where they're all coming from but its very suspicious

I NEED RICHAS TO COME BACK NOW TO MEET BAGI!! SHE HASNT MET HIM BEFORE BUT SHE ALREADY CALLS HERSELF HIS MOM AND TALKS ABOUT HOW IT SOUNDS FUN TO DO QUESTS WITH HIM IM So :(((

some of my egg hcs under the cut because its loooong ajnvjkasd

YEAAAH I AGREE one of my fav egg headcanons ever is that they can shapeshift

it's unconscious mostly/they don't realize, like the longer they hang out with certain people they'll take on traits of that person :))

so after like the first few days of getting the eggs they started to take on the appearances of their parents!!

for eggs like richas and pomme since they have so many different parents it's slightly different!

for me, richas looks the way he does because he was inspired by a bedtime story cellbit told him :)) one of the characters cellbit was describing richas loved a lot that he shapeshifted to look like that character!! his hair tho he kept to be a similar-ish texture to felps!!

so richas mimics his parents more though his personality, less with how he actually looks (his prosthetic leg tho was made by tazercraft)

for pomme i think it would be similar being inspired by a character in a bedtime story one of her parents told her. i think her hair would be blond when she first joined because she was closest with baghera but then it became split (like half blond hald brunette/brown) because she was getting close with aypierre and wanted to reflect that since he has a different hair color!!

she has star freckles like etoiles and her tail has a star on the end as well (at least in my design because i like to draw them human w/ dragon-ish features)

uhm some other hcs... i like to think that tubbo is a shapeshifter as well :)) i love shapeshifters sorry i love them subconsciously changing how they look to reflect they people they hang around a lot/love

his 'default' like appearance is to be part goat but he can also shapeshift to look like a dragon, a bee, and a bunch of creatures!!

philza being an avian is an obvious one <33 i love it sooo much he can't be anythign else to me

very briefly i thought it would be cool if qmike was like a triton from dnd (fish man) because cc!mike has a sleeve of super cool sea animal tattoos!!!!

speaking of dnd, i got this idea from somoene on twitter but qniki is a Tressym because she can get cat ears (like her skin) and wings (like her mascot? on her streams)

i like her as a tressym specifically because of the line in the dnd wiki that says "Tressym were carnivorous, like cats, usually hunting birds, rodents, and insects. However, they did not prey on baby birds or eggs." and qniki saying she would protect the eggs with her whole heart like right after meeting them <33

okay this is where i stop because this is too much KJNVJKANDA i have too many thoughts

The Male Gaze

The Male Gaze is far too overplayed as far as I’m concerned.  I first heard of this theory within my media studies class where we analyzed old advertisments from the 60′s and as far as I am concerned, it is a valid theory. Women in the media and in other creative works were often presented by men who viewed women through a male, sexist lense. The '1960s folgers coffeee’ advertisment and ‘Lulu and her happy shoes’ are evident of that. Male producers presented women in ways that fit their sexist view of them.  But here is the thing, the way in which a lot of people intepret and apply this theory is just so exhausting. No, everything women do is not about men. Plenty of women don’t have a voice in the back of their head that keeps telling them how to please a man.  I am so sick of this sexist heteorsexual world view. Men are not the center of the world, plenty of them are just an annoyance as far as I am concerned. We don’t live in vaccums and I understand that some may actually struggle with this, but please don’t put it on all of us. I’m just a tired lesbian that only simps for women. I already suffer enough by having to deal with men and frankly the only reason I would ever make myself purposefully ugly is to get them to back off forerver. I don’t like guys talking to me or hitting on me. Nor do I like them complimenting me.  I don’t have anything against men or those who are AMAB. Being born a certain sex doesn’t say anything about a person. What I can’t stand is men who hit on me and sexualize me. Ugh stop. But I refuse to make my life about avoiding men either. I will do what I want. Just wish dudes would f*ck off.   Like last week I got hit on by a older homeless dude (30-40) after I brought him food. Like I knew that he wanted drug money but I’m not a push over. I also know that he was proably just trying to get with me to have a place to stay and or he simply is desperate (a lot of dudes are like this, they will try to tell you what they think you want to hear to get some pussy.) And then there is my flatmate - he is the guy that actually acts as though he exists, the same can’t be said for most of the other ones. Basically at first he was nice and so I was, just chill nice friendly flatmate stuff. But now he is texting me way too much. In the beginning we all had shared out numbers to be in a flat group chat to talk communal areas related stuff. But now he messages me about stuff like e.g. your mail is here, are you ok and alive - the first time made sense since I was gone for a week, the second time aka yesterday was because he didn’t see me in....24 hours :/ (that’s normal, we don’t see each other that often.) Trust me I can tell that he is trying to do more than tell me about the mail. He tried to go for some small talk to lead into a convo. I’m just glad that my sleeping hours are weird so I don’t have to see him that much. And I am moving out in a few months. Bro we are flatmates, dont try to make us friends or anythign more. I find the thing weird. And then there is the third dude who was trying to indirectly hint at chilling with me in my city (dude hasn’t talked to me much, is hinting at it and only doing so because he wan’t me to do emotional labour for him.) I am basically yeeting that friendship - yep that’s what we were. But yeah I’m not catching the bate and will keep acting as though I think he is on about someone else. I will proably end that “friendship” soon, I just want to get him to admit stuff first. 

Wow people like that anon are why we need to be more educated about manipulation via self-destruction. We all need to understand and know that if we constantly, repeatedly "make" someone feel bad enough to consider harmful actions just through TINY contradictions it might just not be us and we don't have to put up with all the stress, discomfort, depression, etc. that comes from it. And sometimes it's really obvious when it's manipulation, it's not NEVER an option.

exactly bro. i’m gonna do something real fun and talk about my abuser, who did this for years! under the cut

so im just gonna come right out and say it so i dont gotta give him an epithet every time, but his name was dibby/dib. he goes by a different name now i think but from what ive heard it seems like ppl r familiar with him by that name as well. w/e for his privacy i guess ill just leave his current name out of it. anyway i knew and was friends with/dated dib for about 7 years before we cut each other out.

ANYWAY dib had/has legitimate mental health problems, yes, but he also chose to use those problems as excuses for his manipulative and abusive behavior. dib had bipolar and would experience dramatic mood swings. unfortunate but normal and okay! if you experience mood swings and suddenly feel overwhelmed by sadness or anger, you probably know that, if you recognize this as a disorder, you should let the people around you know, tell them how you’re feeling, and do what you can to manage the situation.  dib would instead say “oh no i feel a mood swing coming. :( quick, distract me!” which, again is a clumsy but fair way to handle that, EXCEPT when it inevitably failed to cheer him up, he would blame us for failing, call us bad friends, insist we didn’t care about him, and isolate to only talking with his favorite person (for a while that was me). 

when dib got upset he would blow up, block me for days or weeks, and then later when he calmed down and felt lonely he’d add me back with some half-apology and assume everything was fine again. here’s a list i kept of things that upset him and had this result! it was called “things not to do”

tell dib when [his gf] is streaming

fail to tell dib when [his gf] is streaming

ask dib if it’s okay to do things

talk to him when he’s feeling antisocial

offer critique when it isn’t asked for

ask dib not to do something

talk to him in the tags (when not friends)

spam things he doesn’t like/isn’t involved in ((the relevant examples are bug blogs, bunnies, and the pbs kids show arthur. not because they trigger him, just because he doesn’t like them))

talk about/mention people that are my friends that he doesn’t like

offer solutions when he just needs confirmation

make it about you

yeah. keep in mind every one of those bullet points corresponds to at least one time he either faked his own death or blew up and blocked me for a week.

the bigger problem though was his suicide ideation. dib had a pretty shit life and pretty shit mental health and unfortunately was legitimately depressed and suicidal. he needed help but, living in america, really couldnt afford it most of the time. this is okay. if you or someone you know is unable to get medical health for depression or suicide ideation you know how hard it is to live with. sometimes there’s not a lot you can do and that person will Just Be Depressed an just Want To Die and theres not a lot you can do to help, even if you try your best. that of course, is not the problem with dib. 

the problem was repeatedly, starting i think when i criticized him for pushing everyone away by insisting no one cares about him and not putting any effort towards others, would make some vague allusion to feeling suicidal and abruptly log off and stop answering messages. this can be an okay way to deal with yourself if you’re upset BUT. THE NEXT DAY, after i frantically thought he was going to Attempt and repeatedly messaged him to try to deter him, check on him, ask if he was okay (he really just went to sleep, which again is fine), he decided to PRETEND TO BE DEAD.  he told his gf and maybe one other person he was alive but threatened them to stay quiet and pretend he was dead or he WOULD commit. so his gf at the time had to play along and all of us then-kids were freaking out that our friend had died, only for him to decide later that he’d had his fun and he could now announce “no i just logged off for a little bit :)”

he did this. many times. make some allusion to wanting to attempt then abruptly stop answering messages, knowing what people would assume. (this was one of the pieces of testimony i did not include verbatim in that rk post: i was told rk would do very similar things; part of why i thought the post was necessary. ive lived through the other side of that and i dont want ANYONE else to). i think two separate times that he did this, i was sent home from school early because i was crying so hard (my best friend let me think i was responsible for his death. he did this on purpose. he did this repeatedly. thats fucked up)

one time he posted a supposedly queued suicide note post! and all my friends were terrified he’d died! so i remember someone anonymously messaged kylee henke asking for advice, and i (who at the time he was mad at and had already blocked) got fed up with it (again because he’d done this so many times and i knew by now that there was no point in getting upset, he was just doing it for sympathy or attention or w/e) and messaged his mom on facebook asking her to check on him. he was fine, just like. crying in his room. also sidenote he got BIG MAD that someone told his mom and was posting when he was found out liek WHO TOLD >:( n i was like :)). bc bro if ur really abt to attempt i have an Obligation to get someone irl to check on you and protect you. but obviously you werent since this was like the 20th fucking time youve done this 🙃

he was a huge pizza shit for other reasons too but the main relevant one was that he would use his mental illness as an excuse for his deplorable behavior and blame others for things literally no one can reasonably do anythign about and then constantly and i DO MEAN CONSTANTLY use his own life and suicide ideation as a trump card.

anyway if you know someone who repeatedly threatens suicide or pretends to commit suicide by purposefully alluding to it before ghosting you, or posting a suicide note meant to blame others, you need to get out of there right now. that is not okay and you should not be dealing with that. ive taken years to get used to the idea that if i criticize my friends, they won’t kill themselves

Can you please rant about jk Rowling she’s fucking awful with her queerbaiting, racism, and transphobia. Like I need someone else to validate me for not liking her

absolutely i hate her!!!!! this is a REALLY long post but she’s written so much and she’s been in the spotlight since her books got famous so like… there’s a lot to talk about i guess. anyway @ jk rowling get ready to be called out 

racism

first of all on this valid bitch of an i hate jk rowling post, the ilvermorny houses. it’s like…. Big cultural appropriation of native american ideas and stories, twisting them to fit her narrative for harry potter and completely disrespecting their history and origins. the history she creates for north american wizards is shit too, saying that native americans would “primitively” practice magic until europeans civilized them with wands (even tho…. it’s like really impressive to do magic without wands in her universe??? like sounds like the native americans were way ahead of europeans, but ofc she twists her own narrative to make the natives primitive). her whole history or north american wizardry also apparently just follows white wizards immigrating to north america and shit…… 

this video is……. a really good poem on the stereotypes and fetishization of cho chang and there’s no way i can reword what the speaker says bc she says it too good so,,, watch it

jk rowling is also really good at speaking out about racism when she wants to on twitter and yet all of her canonical poc characters in the books are background characters. i know hermione is black in the cursed child play, but that feels a bit like the dumbledore thing to me, like they never actually talk abotu it in the books? and if she wanted hermione to be black why didn’t she have any protests about emma watson being cast? if she wanted harry to be brown why didn’t she have any protests about daniel radcliffe being cast? i don’t know if she had any say in that, but i guess she had a say in insisting that the actors had to be british, so if she cared about making a main character poc, why did she not have any qualms about the cast, even in retrospect, even respectful ones like “i love daniel and emma to death but in retrospect i wrote them as characters of color”?

like she didn’t have to push dean and cho and the very small characters of color to the side but she did. she didn’t have to stereotype cho but she did. there are no poc in fbawtft, or there aren’t in the movie at least – and if she’s so happy about johnny depp and can speak out about that relentlessly, but she wanted there to be characters of color in fantastic beasts, why can’t she speak out about that? 

like the cultural appropriation is enough to see that she’s clearly a racist asshole who doesn’t care about the cultures of people who aren’t white, but it’s also clear to see in the background of her writing that she doesn’t care about research for shit if it’ll help to respect people of color in her stories, and she certainly doesn’t care to ensure that there are important characters of color for people to look up to when they read her books or watch the movies about them 

transphobia 

i guess she liked a terf’s article on twitter? like i dont’ knwo how reputable my sources on that were or if she meant to, but if she did, yikes

and from what i saw of the article it was Deep Terf Rhetoric, and tbqh i wouldn’t put it past her to have meant to have done that

i’ve seen ppl saying harry potter has transphobic aspects to it as well but i couldn’t find anything under all the times she’s “defended” trans ppl on twitter like idk i can’t take anythign she says on twitter by heart bc everything she does feels performative and fake af, and i haven’t read the books in like four years so i can’t say for sure based on my own memory 

also she wrote a trans woman in a more recent novel and she’s apparently totally impulsively violent like wow great way to conform to nasty stereotypes about trans women lmfao

like esp bc of this i wouldn’t put it past her to be a terf

homophobia & queerbaiting

saying! dumbledore! is gay! after! the fucking! book series! is not! representation!!!!!

even if she HAD make him gay during the series, he’s not good rep??? he was a manipulative asshole who let a child stay in an abusive home becuase he was too big of a dumbass to think about a way around the issue so that a little boy could live in a home full of people who treated him fairly. so uhh?? the cishets can fucking have him, i don’t WANT him in the goddamn community. 

but she thinks that she’s not homophobic bc he’s the only gay character who never even got to talk about being gay, who we never see in a relationship with a man. like throwing gay ppl scraps isn’t?? rep??? it’s queerbaiting you dumb bitch @ jk rowling…. 

she specifically said herself that werewolves are meant to represent diseases like AIDS, and characters like fenrir greyback are predatory werewolves who want tos pread around the AIDS-like disease, conforming to 1980s homophobic stereotypes against gay people for “wanting” to spread around AIDS like how can you in one breath say you want to bring light to diseases like AIDS and in the next make a character who literally models homophobic stereotypes with the same disease?? 

also, remus was supposed to be gay apparently, but he “changed and fell in love with tonks” like ok first of all bi people exist, second of all why would you write a straight person who’s supposed to basically have AIDS when that sounds a hell of a lot like “predatory gay man infects poor straight kid” like there’s SO MUCH wrong with that, and yeah you kind of have to dig into it a little bit to get there, but when you’re writing about risky topics and you literally admit to it, you need to be WELL-VERSED on what you’re writing about!! and to say you’re writing about AIDS is deeply mixed with gay history! and to say that the main character who is a werewolf was SUPPOSED to be gay and then pretend you’re NOT associating it with gay people is just… such cognitive dissonance, or maybe really ridiculous ignorance

also, dumbledore is dead. so even if he was good rep, and it was within the books, he’s fucking dead. another buried gay, fuckos! pile em up! 

and i’ve heard there’s a shit ton of queerbaiting between harry’s son and draco’s son in cursed child? which like…. may just be subtext, but there’s a huge section of the fandom who’s all about harry x draco (i have not good feelings about that ship personally but to say it’s not popular is to never have seen anything in the fandom), and she must know that? like she’s not oblivious is she? so why would she like…. put subject between their sons? ?? it feels like it’s a bone to “hey i never gave you harry x draco, so here are their sons, who i’m also never going to give you” 

also? if grindelwald WAS dumbledore’s bf at some point, what does that say about what she thinks about queer men? he’s deeply predatory and preys on credence in a very creepy way that plays on stereotypes about older gay men preying on younger gay boys, and he’s also a disgusting villain played by johnny fucking depp, an abuser (who SHE SUPPORTS) of all people. what does that say about what her mind goes to when she thinks about gay men????? 

i don’t actually know her role in those films, but she has said she loves depp, what he’s done with the character, and where the darkness of grindelwald is going in the first movie and its sequels, so even if her role is very little, she supports what is being done. 

also…. um apparently newt scamander created a werewolf registry…. a little honest to god werewolf registry in the fucking 40s….. ??????????? what r we supposed to think here, about a registry of discriminated ppl in the FORTIES…….????? and that’s the protag of fantastic beasts… cool it’s fine it’s fine

ableism

when talking about irredeemable characters like voldemort, she literally said that “whether it’s a personality disorder or illness” they’re not redeemable…. !!!?? here is a post on that subject with links to the sources of the interviews she said this in. 

i don’t know where to put this bc this could be any number of things but i just thought about this so i’ll put it here: the thing that’s created in fantastic beasts, where it’s like basically a personification of anguish from suppressing magic – that’s quite blatantly a reference to any number of minorities, like gay people suppressing their sexuality, trans people suppressing their gender, the mentally ill and disabled pushing themselves too hard or trying to ignore/hide it… and credence was vilified and killed and the protags weren’t even… really sad about it?? and the ministry of magic never really THOUGHT About that they just killed him….. and that’s okay…. that’s fine… they’re just going around killing a bunch of KIDS who are inconvenient to them and who basically symbolize a whole number of oppressed groups. cool, it’s fine

you could also make a point that werewolves also represent the mentally ill, and all the same fucked up shit basically applies here

she also said that everything that muggles can get can be cured by magic, thereby effectively giving some bullshit reason for not actually having any disabled or mentally ill characters, also assuming that it’s not totally ableist to just…. “cure” all that? she didn’t say it specifically about mental illnesses and disabilities, but it’s clear to see that with her attitude on “irredeemable” mentally ill people, she would 

fatphobia

most fat characters in harry potter are shitty people. the dursleys, pettigrew, and umbridge – all characters we’re supposed to find deeply wrong, the ones we’re supposed to hate the most other than, like, voldemort. like…..? a lot of the other fat characters are all “matronly” like molly weasley or stubborn and “lazy” like cornelius fudge who allowed voldemort to rise to power. like what’s that supposed to say about what she thinks the extent of fat people is? stubborn, evil, or motherly? 

she actually has a character grow fatter and fatter based on how shitty she acts towards harry because of a magic mishap. she also usually describes the nice fat people as “plump” and “pleasant,” while she describes dudley as “so much like a pig” that he couldn’t even be turned furhter into a pig when it was attempted, or as a “killer whale,” or vernon dursley as “having no neck”

her fascination with abusers

exhibit a: she loves johnny depp, she loves him for the part of grindelwald, she praises what he’s done for the character, she praises his casting. he’s abused his wife..................

exhibit b: she loves dumbledore. he is constantly manipulating harry and not actually helping him get out of difficult situations at home or at school, putting him and the other kids in danger multiple times, not talking about important information to keep them safe, like?? 

exhibit c: snape. a fucking nasty ass creep to lily. neville’s GREATEST FEAR. like i dont’ even need to talk about this, we all know snape, dumbledore, and johnny depp are shitty lmfao

and yet she named harry’s kids after dumbledore and snape, like they didn’t fuck harry’s life up, especially snape, who terrorized him and his friends. 

in conclusion fuckos

she’s nasty!!!!! i was going to do a section on sexism but i can’t find anything – i think she’s too much of a White Feminist to be sexist, probably. likely she cares more about researching feminist issues than she does about researching native myths before she steals them for her own gain lmfao. there is the fact that she supports an abuser like johnny depp, tho! 

she is constantly like… going against all this on twitter too lmfao, like it’s hard to find good articles on her shittiness on the first page of google bc most of it is “jk rowling defends trans people against transphobic tweet, jk rowling defends muslims against islamophobic tweet, jk rowling defends [this group or that group]” and yet she includes so much bigotry hidden in the details of her books and what she says about her books. like i know some of this isn’t quite on the surface, but ultimately when you write a book with subjects you don’t really know about, your inherent biases are going to be apparent under the surface, and since she’s such a famous author with so many books and so much spotlight on her, if you dig in a little you can make easy conclusions/clearly see what she thinsk about minorities. so it’s really fucking annoying that she’s so “good and progressive” on twitter because it’s obviously performative so she can get the progressive points required for more people to buy her shit. like that’s the best word i can think of to describe her: performative. 

Ohhh mannn!! Yea is definitely fun to play! LOL I actually finished up Raiden’s boss with coop and it was actually really fun lol Idk I was initially so terrified to do it by myself and worried a lot but I made some more new friends during that coop so I’m actually glad for it lol I mean it should be illegal with that health but yeah

Lol so funny sorry but I’ve been puling on the banner to get Fischl and holy crap, I’ve been getting more Diona and thoma cons then anythign else!!! ughhh i love thoma but i dont have good artifacts for him since i moved it all for bennett lol OH but no anyway lemme continue so after like 70+ wishes, i got somethign gold and im like sorta annoyed lol I didnt know who it was so I wanted to lose 50/50 so I can get a guarantee for Raiden…. i got yae D: lol I mean im glad but like… dammit raiden… AND AYATO LOOKS SO COOL UGHH

this sucks pfft. but on a more positive note, i got an IRL friend to start playing genshin lol Have you seen the ayato leaks? HE LOOKS SO ELEGANT PLS LEMME BE RICH ENOUGH FOR RAIDEN AND AYATO SMH

I just finally did the real version of the boss today and I agree, it's not as bad as I thought it would be! The big attacks in that crazy looking form are pretty slow, and the mechanism that stops the slashy slash is easy to activate. The health is nothing for my Itto, and I would imagine it's not so bad in co-op either with more characters on the field at once!

Hahaha I'm jealous of your Thoma cons. I'm happy with my c1 though, it's already made my rotations so much easier. At least you have Yae now and there's definitely still a chance you'll get Raiden! I believe! Soo many primos in this Enkanomiya event o.o But yeah it would have been nice to get the guarantee. I resist pulling a bunch of times unless I really want the featured character for this reason, you never know when you may see the 5* and win the 50/50. Always have the best luck when you aren't trying for the 5* 😩

I have seen those Ayato leaks and I'm so excited ahhh. His burst animation looks so good! I can't wait to look at him all day when I have him 💙 If the field created by his burst really buffs attack speed like they say I'm gonna love him with childe so much! I think they will make a fantastic electrocharged team, which makes me very sad to skip Raiden! Beidou will have their backs, though.

g3t t0 kn0w m3 !!!

i posted this originaly to my myspace blog, (my page is so pog please look at it)

https://myspace.windows93.net/?id=43889

im bored, probably no one will read this, but ill like to do it and have a place to save it <3

((Basic Info)) Name: mmmm i like to say i reject the idea of names, but yall can call me ile or litterally anything else (my friends call me fer, kichi and avrle)

Hair Color: Dark brown, i would like to dye it again but it is still damaged.

Eye Color: Dark brown too.

Age: Time isnt real!!!! but 14

Birthday: February 10, 2006

((Favorites)) Color: right now, grey

Number: 7 and 9

Book: (Misunderstood) crime and punishment, dostoievski (misunderstoo because i totally missed to point of it and instead of interpreting as DONT BE A NARCISSIT SOCIOPATH, i read it as HAHA THE FUCKER TRIED TO BE COOL AND FAILED)

((Your)) Bedtime: no <3

Current Location: Guayakill ticy (Guayaquil, Ecuador)

Best Friend:I wish i had one...

Weakness: moral amiguity, greed and yearning for love

((This Or That))

Pepsi Or Coke: None, Gallito

it tastes yellow

maybe lemon?

lots of gas

Day Or Night: night, i get emotional and dreamy

Love Or Money: fuck capitalism

Summer Or Winter: in my city there are only two seasons: hot and rainy an hot

Coffee Or Tea: Tea, i dont like coffee

Hot Or Cold: Hot, in my city the average climate is 29C, anythign below 24 is freezing to me

Sunny Or Rainy: Rainy

((Have You Ever)) Danced In The Rain: Nope

Been Kissed: Do dares count? If not, no

Cheated On A Test: Aint that the purpose of online school? However, i have never done it on a irl test, i get too anxious.

Been Beaten Up: nope

Bullied Someone: YES, AND I AM SO SORRY, it was on middle school :cc

Smoked: Nope Drank: Yes

Done Drugs: No

Had Sex: ew, no (greycupiosexual here)

Gone Camping: i live in south america, would fucking die

Stayed Up All Night: of course lmao

Skipped School: only online school, irl i have only skipped clases, but never left campus ( i have no idea gow to not get caught)

Been On A Plane: yeah

Cheated On Someone: i have never dated...

Been Cheated On: same as before...

Told A Joke And Nobody Thought It Was Funny: ALL-THE-FUCKING-TIME

Broken A Bone: not broken, but i am a competitve cheerleader and olympic gimnast, so i get injured a lot, from september til december, i have had 6 sprains. i got another one one week ago, i have a cast rn

Written A Song:a really bad one, yes, also in middle schol several undertale x steven universe crosovers

((Finish The Sentence)) I Am: tired

Life Is: absurd My First Kiss: was a dare on 2019, on an empty classroom with a guy i used to like but became an indie fuckboi

Babies Are: cute from afar

anon its Late but.....heres pt 2 aka my kihyun love post

i meant to do this for his bday but never managed to get around to it :( anyways here i am now….back on my kihyun bullshit. i never left but…...I’m Back and more in L*ve than ever. again i dont even know where to start dfjshjfhs icb i didnt used to like him???????? past me was fuckgin dumb! not that i hated him he was just like……..one of my least fave members and now???? dont tell minhyuk but…..Yeah i have so much love in my heart for kihyun :( idek how it started one day i just woke up loving yoo kihyun…...like it wasnt even gradual just one day Bam heart eyes motherfucker nd the rest was history

ANYWAYS  UH i love love love love love love looooooooove how genuine he is in everythign he does???? like the two most recent example are his letter in the fancafe nd his little photography signature….did he have to actually handwrite the letter to post it????? NO. but did he??? YOU BET. idk just!!!! its rly sweet bc u could clearly see how much it meant to him that he would go out of his way to write us an actual letter rather than just typing it up nd making a post. and how he said he hand draws his initials on his photography so sorry if theyre a little different every time bicshjd???????/ thats so fuckign cute!!!!!!!!!! he rly loves mbbs so so much and its really clear bc he does little things that add his personal touch to it and idk it just makes me so warm like….hes rly thinking of us sjkhfsjhf we love a caring man :(( o also sorta unrelated but the amount of exclamation points he uses when posting is so cute, bich me too!!!!! like u can always tell its him if theres “!!!” at the end of the message it’s :(( such a cute habit idk it makes me rly happie to see dsjfhkajh

speaking of his initials  on his photography!!!! i love his photography!!!!!!!!!!!! gosh it makes me so happy to see him out there just having a good time enjoying his hobby??? like their lives are so busy im so glad hes found something that he enjoys and that he can spend time on while still keeping up w his busy schedule. also hes just rly fuckign good at it!!!!!!! im gonna make a whole museum dedicated to pictures ur all welcome to come visit once its done, people are gonna come from across the world to see it nd all the proceeds will b donated to The Monstas. ANYWAYS hes rly good!!!!!!!! like i only kno The Basics abt photography but he’s rly out there u kno! im in awe! and he just loves talking abt it and sharing it and i can see how much he likes it and how passionate he is!!! i could listen to him talk abt it forever he just sorta...Lights Up its so sweet

also ok one of the first things i started noticing that i found rly cute was like how whenever he gets rly embarrassed he’ll make that scrunched up face or he’ll just like…….Jump fkjsdhfjd its so cute????? like his face during this dsfhkdjhf or jumping at the end of this when he tries to act sexy dsfhjkdsh i love a whole dork hes so funny. he knows hes gonna get embarrassed but he does it anyways!!! i wish i was the care free dsjfhskjdh

AND HIS SMILE FUCK! its the most precious thing ive ever seen wtf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! his smile is so bright and warm it makes me sososososoooooo happy!!!!! not 2 b sappy but i rly get the biggest butterflies whenevr i see his smile thats the number one source of my happiness right there folks! a the lil dimples he gets on his cheeks when he smiles rly big :( they’re so cute i’ve never rly noticed anyone else that had them before. i just! his smile is so precious idk what else to say!!! when he smiles rly big nd u can see his teeth….cute :( AND HIS LAUGH FUCK! its so cute when he laughs so hard he just drops out of the frame dksjfksjdh hes got one of the best whole body laughs he just collapses in on himself its so adorbale jhkdjssjfk the sound of his laugh? music to my ears!!! i hope hes always that happie :(((

o another point is his freckles :(( i hate how half the time theyre covered up by makeup but whenever i see them im like HELLO! I LOVE U!!!!!!! NICE TO SEE U!! the one on the corner of his mouth is my best friend but also the hes got one on his finger too dskfhkjhf also in this pic u can see them all rly closely, i look at this at least once daily & just cry. and the one near his temple too :(( cute!!! if u take anyway anythign from this post kno im the #1 kihyun freckle enthusiast

not 2 forget how hardworking and caring he is!!!!!!! and how his voice is one of the most calming things to listen to! i know i say that abt everyone but i looooove listening to him talk so much, his voice is so soft. thats not even including his vocals…...theres a reason hes the main vocal singer!!!! sometimes i remember that you and i exists nd he rapped in it and i instantly go bald….what a talented man is there anything he cant do?? and how his eyes are probably the prettiest ive ever seen i swear theyre made from pure honey…….and his hands!!!!! everyone always teases me for having tiny ass baby hands but jokes on them bc they were made 2 hold kihyuns hands :( everything he does is so endearing hes so cute!!!! oh and his confidence!!!! idk how much of it is for show but if i had even 2% of his confidence levels i feel like i’d be a better person dskjfhkjhf

unrelated to the love post but hes been looking So Good lately and he knows it and its dangerous for my health. every morning i wake up and yoo kihyun tells me to go choke and i say gladly! when is he gonna come to canada and finally end my life on thsi plane of existence please im Tired

i just pissed my dad off ffor tellign my brother to  wash the microwave cause he knowingly went against the rules to use it and he said he’d wash it after ward. He didnt do that, so I told him to do it and he was “oh i didnt say when Id do it just after i used it”. So yeah. he didnt wash it and I told him to because thats part of growing up and being responsible it to wash the things you dirty and my dad fucking flipped out and started yelling at me about the microwave being an indoor chore and thus is my responsibility cause my brother does outside chores. Which he does MAYBE once a week. My brother doesnt even work outside every damn day while I have to clean everyday adn do his chores that are indoor cause he refuses to do it. AND dad jsut bitched about me  being a bum and not doing shit and that I fucked up my damn jobs. Liek i cant go to work cause he broke moms car he was driving and so i cant go to work cause he now has her van. y previous job I was laid off. The one before that I was fired but that was because my attendance was bad cause medical shit. Hes bitching about how i dont do anythign and he doesnt even know what im doing. he says I jsut draw all damn day and dont do anythign else. the house is clean because of me. who else is here to clean when mom is bed ridden? NOt him. Not my brother. ANd when mom or I ask him to do his chores--you know--responsibilities he’s supposed to have and do. I’m suddenly being blamed for him not doing his chores because we are “riding his ass” about doign them? Liek he’s not fucking here to know how we talk to him or ask and that my brother has a shit attitude while dad’s not here. AND my dad just gave him a fucking out to not do anything cause if he doesnt do a chore, its because we are riding him adn he lashes out and wont do it cause we were stressing him out. Liek Im sorry? Doign a chore even if youre stressed is just responsibiliy and i have to do it or i get bitched out. But if my brother does do it. its suddenly mine and moms fault for pushing him. If he would just do the damn chores when hes fucking told then we wouldnt have to tell him time and time again. Liek how is it that mom adn i are to blame? And I clean the damn house. Im rarely on the computer anymore cause Im busy taking care of mom or the house but im apaprently DRAWING ALL DAMN DAY when yesterday its true, but that was the first time in about 2 weeks Ive had any fuckign time to draw. AND When I draw its me trying to improve, work on my stories adn better myself in hopes that maybe someone would liek to commission me too to help me pay for shit liek a responsible damn adult. I cant help my phobias, not when I dont know how to get rid of them and going to therapy isnt just going to get rid of them over night. It takes time and fuckingasjdhakjsk  SO yeah. Dad said im kicked out. ahhh hahaaaaaaaaasda sd

yall mind if i fuckin uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh cw for fuckin abuse ig

im so fucking lonely and i hate living here so much like im seriously at my limit idk what to do anymore like. theres really no safe place to be? like some of my friends have offered to let me stay with them for a little bit and that is extremely kind and generous of them and i love them very much and if either of you are reading this thank you so much ily ily but like i cannt do that to you and i also cant leave my mom alone with her ex as much as id want to leave this place and as much as i appreciate the offer i cant leave her

but at the same time both my mom’s house and my dad’s house are unsafe places for me to be at but i cant leave and i dont even know if ill be able to go back to school in the fall like rn idk what’s going to happen and like if the virus isnt like. less. by then i cant go. like i have severe asthma like it gets set off by anything and if i get it i might go to the hospital or die or whatever and its just not worth going back to school for a semester if i might just fucking die but also i Hate being home and i dont want to fall behind where i want to be with school and i dont want to be a semester behind all of my friends and graduate late like i know thats kind of stupid but i dont want to yknow

but most importantly with that i dont want to lose my fucking job if i have to take the semester off like thatd be devastating to me like my father isnt helping me pay for school and my mom is helping a little but i want her to save her fucking money like id rather be in debt than have her live with chris any longer than she has to so working is really important and i love my job a lot and im like Good at it and i dont want to lose my job

idk im just worried and if my dad screams at me one more time or makes some weird sexual comment or like moans loudly in our shitty small apartment where i can hear everything he does im going to fucking lose it like please im Literally Begging you to shut up like i hate living here i hate it but i dont have a fucking choice and like i know that there are solutions to this but none of them can like. work because i cant leave and move away without my mom being able to do the same

plus my brother screams at me for doing literally anything and he steals money and food from me like sometimes ill have like alcohol in the house bc how the fuck else am i supposed to cope and he just Takes it and he steals money from me even though he doesnt fucking need it like he’s not going to school and if he needs something my dad will get it for him bc mikey is physically the largest and strongest one of us so my dad is just like “here have whatever you want”

and my dad literally doesnt care about anyone but himself i was like “if your friend is in the house can you please have both of you wear a mask” and he lost his fucking mind at me which is like. cool. ok thank you. i mean there’s a pandemic and you and i are in high risk groups and i know the only thing you’d care about if i died would be that i wouldn’t have any more accomplishments you can take the credit for and if you fucking cried when i died id haunt you for the rest of fucking time you disgusting pervert id make your life hell like the fucking hell you made me grow up in but whatever

also we’re fucking poor which honestly does suck like a lot of the time like im not allowed to shower that often bc my like 10 minute showers every other day take ‘too much hot water and make the bill too high’ but if mikey takes an hour long shower every day he doesnt say Shit, and he’ll buy himself a lot of new shit and make fun of me for buying a computer with the money i made by working (at a job he doesn’t think is like a ‘real job’ even though it. is?? like i dont get his logic?? is it bc i work for the school i go to? whatever.) becauyse my computer broke beyond fucking repair and id had it for like 5 years and the new one i got the fucking person at the store was like “you need this one” and it was on sale because parts of it dont work so i was like “yeah ok sure” and my dad is like “um :-) you cant say anythign bc you bought a new computer” and its like yeah and i dont pay the water bill so whatever if you want to complain abt something complain about how you drink a 12 pack of beer a day and scream at your kids about how when we ask for food it’s too expensive because we’re like “can we have milk and sandwich stuff in the house?” and youre like “literally die i hate you i hate you. im such a good dad :) you are so ungrateful :) no one helps with anything in this house :)” even though i literally do?? like so much??? and if im like “im going to wash dishes” since we dont have a dishwash machine he’s like “NO DONT FUCKING DO THAT YOUD USE HOT WATER” and its like please im fucing begging you to have a brain dude like im really begging you to think for once in your goddamn life about literally anything

not to mention hes a huge homophobe and fucking ableist even though he has a gay, mentally ill daughter and a neurodivergent son that he refused for YEARS to admit has some kind of neurodivergency and didnt let live with my mom because he “didnt want to lose his only son” even though hes abusive to him and all 3 of his fucking daughters lmao and he wonders WHY heather and alyssa hate him so much its because he says things like “youre so hot” to his daughters and then screams at them and says shit like “ladies shouldnt fucking swear” and threatens us and screams so much and thinks that an “im sorry...................you know how i am...........i was just upset..............why are you so angry that i screamed at you until you cried and then got even more mad that you were crying............................. i didnt do anything wrong and you should forgive me even though i never will change.” like dude i told you it made me anxious when you came into my room when i was in 6th grade and you laughed in my face!!! you laughed at me!!! when i was clearly nervous and visbily afraid you were LAUGHING at me

AND HE FUCKING LIES SO MUCH!!!! HE LIES TO EXTENDED FAMILY MEMVERS TO MAKE THEM THNK HES A GOOD PERSON AND HE ACTS SO BELITTLING i hate him so much i literally hate him and the times that im so fucking lonely bc i have no one else i live with to talk to i say something to him and hes like “shut the fuck up and go away” and its lik :-) ok. how do you expect any of your kids to talk to you if you tell me to go away as soon as i say anything

and dont look at my goddamn ass and legs and dont look at other women like that either and dont masturbate with the door open just FUCKIN STOP YOURE DISGUSTING I HATE IT HERE

also mister “i NEVER hurt any of you” like yeah ok THATS why you screamed about hitting us and threatened us and literally?? did??? hit us with your fcuking belt? like what lmao do you have fucking memory loss ??? like do you not remember like ik it was a while ago but think back like. i remember clearly you slapping my brother across the face but ok lol

anyway i Do hate it here lol