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honey-mice · 5 months

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(preface that i havent read the book so sue me or something) i dont even know if its justified cause i havent seen the movie in years (and i saw it maaaybe twice) but i fucking absolutely hatethe tim burton charlie and the chocolate factory so much. the original movie is the fucking best i love it so goddamn much. the musical (preferably the broadway ver)? amazing love it so goddamn much. the fucking stupid ass tim burton movie having that stupid ass conflict with wonka where his dad sucks or whatever is fucking dumb and it takes away from the message of the story. yea willy wonka isnt supposed to be perfect but like making charlie not want to come to the factory cause he doesnt want to let his parents in and theres a whole dentist toothpaste thing is fucking STUPIDDD like why would you make willy wonka this immature shithead who is like "hey boy come work with me but leave your dumb parents behind cause we have candy isnt that awesome" like HUH willy wonka is supposed to be weird but not A FUCKING CREEP and ik im like "hes not supposed to be a creep" and its literally directed by tim burton but like who fucking cares tim burton made a shit willy wonka thats not my fault. the fuckin musical where willy wonka disguises himself as the candy store dude and in that way learns more about charlie and his love for the chocolate factory is AWESOME thats actually adding something to the base story thats a good fucking idea cause it just expands on charlies character by showing his inherent caringness and imagination he is the best charlie imo and like building an actual relationship with wonka and charlie is perfect like it just shows whats to come. the original movie having charlie just be a good fit cause hes kind deep down and thats literally it is fucking great as well cause like thats just literally part of the message of the fucking story i guess charlie is good in the tim burton one but they spent so much time making me fucking hate wonka that i dont even remember cause all i can think about is that stupid fucking backstory where like his house disappears or something shit cause his dad is like how dare you want to consume sugar child im supposed to be abusive ig?? but in the most stupid ass way and in turn it makes wonkas trauma I GUESS?? fucking dumb and annoying at best

#words from the hive #im sick and tired rn so like i just wanted to go on a rant to feel something #im also watching the game grumps play the charlie and the chocolate factory game thats based on the tim burton movie #and i clicked on it knowing i was gonna think about how that movie is absolute shit #if you like the movie just pls dont say anything cause i could not care less if you do #most of my hate is probably just cause i have like a gazillion amounts of nostalgia for the original movie #but i mean i also think there are objectively bad parts about it so idk #anyway what the fuck ever this is over

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dear-happypills · 4 months

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i hate going to work.

its about 5 cigarettes before 9, a chug of those keurig coffee pod, and a 30-min round of meditation before i think,

"okay .... fine........."

FINE.............

............

........

.....

fine.

HAHAHA. yea, i hate going to work....

and maybe, im a bit depressed too..

noone really knows.

if i could tell you about the injustices of being a laborer in the cruel world driven by illusions, hypocrisy, greed, laziness, ... yadi yadi yah... me being happypills might make a little more sense.

because i dont have any friends or a hobby or a social life (SUE ME), its probably the reason why i put so much thought and effort into the work i do. and i mull over the events throughout the day, and just curl from the stress of thoughts and thoughts and thoughts .... from that day.

so, yea, i guess i put a lot of thought and effort into the work i do.

i mean,............... i am getting paid after all..... so its only sensible i should work hard?

but.,,,, idk.............. why am i thrown daggers for trying to be more efficient, accountable, diligent, collaborative, yadi yadi yah?

i come to think of it as,

"oh, maybe people just dont like me very much"

even here they dont like me very much...

even here............................ ---> and if i could tell you how that thought reminds me all the personal relationships ive ever had. me being happypills might make a little more sense.

after work, my chemistry has become to escape reality by getting high or succumbing to the virtual world before i self implode in my loneliness.

though ive been told that loneliness isnt a justification. and i think i agree.

-- -- - - - - -- - - --- -

yet, there is this pit that i cant get out of. and it seemingly gets deeper.

...

.............

but lets clear the air.

im not... like a psychopath, and a dangerous thing. (maybe just a splash of autism. idk.)

and if you think,

"oh wow, happypills really dislikes the system. "

well yea, thats true, but im not nihilistc. i WANT something better.

i believe in justice, love, and beauty... and Jesus, obviously. and i exist to be in service of that. to glorify that...

even as a heathen that i am....

for i am happypills.

...

but the whole point of me being happypills, is just that i am one of many.

a pill that exists in ... in service and then forgotten ... in this world. used and abused by institutions, disrespected by other pills constantly, unrecognized by the collective. yet hoping and praying that my chemistry will eventually and faithfully transcendend out of my shell, and out of the giant pill bottle...

to beyond.

you know????

i like to think of happypills as a representative of long suffering. LLLLllloooong suffering.........................

Long.

LONG.

...............

...............................

me: ... ahem..... okay. i dunno why you have to say 'long' like that. kinda weird

happypills: shut up you. are you having fun NOT working while I DO?

me: youre the one who wanted to switch places with me...

happypills: you TRICKED meh.

me: but wow. wow. tha ... that. was a great monologue of your experience with work.

and your philosophy.....

i mean. yea.

people will find an experience that happypills had

as a laborer

SO insightful and relatable. yea. its great. sohh great.

happypills: ive learned at work, that what youre doing is sarcasm.

pill you.

me: well pill you. youre all that i have to come to home to after work, so sucks for you.

happypills: *sigh ... yea.. frrealz.. depression am i right?

- happypills

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midnightmisadventures · 2 years

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HAHAHA guys im LIVINGGGGG I got my alpha dream lmaoooo

I honestly am dying like what a funny life to live. I-, as you all know i got drunk and followed alpha last night. Put his government on the TL like an idiot.

Earlier today he accepted me and followed me back and it....was overall underwhelming. Which duh it should be, I DONT HAVE ANY FEELINGS FOR ALPHA. Like not even sexual at this point idk...like its not there. But the biggest thing is that, fucking mk, lenina crowne herself was all over the page. I was like fuck, the reason this was supposed to be fun and silly was that i thought he was single. Like i had no idea they were STILL together are you kidding me?

And yea here I am scrolling through pics of them being hot and intensely making out and being the barbie and ken we all remember them to be. And nothing. No emotion, no stomach drops. Happy 4 them! Hope they are great lmao. Its so crazy how a pic of them on my timeline 5 years ago today would make me sob. But i was like, im cured yall

From september 4, 2018 to today. I finally did it, not you not ever. I mean talk about detaching.

Anyways, it was whatever, now we follow eachother. We'll see if he unfollows after he jerks off like last time. But i take a midday nap, and i get my FUCKING alpha dream bitches. Uni said ask and u shall recieveeeeeeee hahaha im so weak.

It was a classic chip party. All of florida was there, extended family, lots of dogs. In my dreams lately ive been like "late" to get ready. Like people are arriving and im like omg, i need to change into my outfit, my hairs a mess, give me 15mins. So that was sort of happening here. Guests were arriving and I was trying to run upstairs before people saw me. And.....apparently i invited alpha?? for line fun?? but i didnt think he would come and also no other of my friends or like people my age or from highschool showed up. Like it was supposed to be like a throw away invite for the drama and ehhh if he shows up he can talk to other people he knows. But i NEVER expected him to show up and i DIDNT think no one else would be there??

But it wasnt awkward that....more of my friends werent there. Like it wasnt like "ha ha ur a loser" embarrassing. Alpha was chillin, the big deal was that we hadnt seen eachother in forever, and now he was in my house and he was just making me nervous like i didnt wanna talk to him.

So , lots was going on. Also he brought lenina? So again, wasnt super weird but i just all in all didnt feel like talking to Alpha and lenina haha sue me. But whatever, suddenly i start seeing him make eye contact with me and rounding corners like looking at me, and no lenina. So im like....okay idk where the gf is but he's obviously trying to....give looks, as me 5 yrs ago would say. And i was like okay well, i am the only one here who is his age and not my family i should probably talk to him since i invited him.

So i was in the pantry in the chip kitchen and he just comes to the side of the table and just sits down legs spread, facing me not saying anything. Black tshirt.....most likely grey sweats. Which isnt a coincidence that hyfr was wearing that too but i'll get to that.

So i was like, ugh i have to bite the bullet and talk to him, and i still wasnt dressed. But he was sitting right next to me on purpose, so im like in the pantry, and i look over like "hey alpha, w-whats whats up?" like STUTTERING i literally hated myself for being nervous but he was making me nervous lmao. Like ahh stop.

I was like "how have you been??" like genuinely acknowledging that i havent seen him in forever and i have no idea what he's been up to. And he was being very alpha and coy and sly smiled, but then he opened his mouth lmaooo.

Tell me how this man says, "honestly i've just been pretty stoned a lot"

UHHMMM WHAT. Tell me whats weirder, hyfr trying to convince me via dream that he's into big brother or alpha via dream trying to convince me he's a STONER. Like the walking tight assed ken doll. Mr, "thats pretty bad" smoking weed aLL tHe TiMe like bull shit, Liam you keep slipping up that its just actually you.

Its so funny to me, that Liam is impersonating all of my exes via dream and doesnt actually know anything about them....so he's filling the blanks, but in doing so he exposes himself. Cause MAYBE i can believe that hyfr is like?? into bb? but no one is gonna convince me that alpha is some heavy stoner. Also the black tee and grey sweats is the last thing i saw Liam in so its absolutely not a coincidence.

Anyway, rightfully so i'm like "wait reallllyyyyyyyyy" like kinda turned on haha i was so shocked but i was like okayyy alpha the stoner like lets go smoke babe thats hot. And i was so shocked so i started asking like "did you smoke in high school or did u start after highschool?" basically like tell me more. And he started trying to explain, and i dropped what i was doing in the pantry and gave him my full attention and we were sorta being flirty, but he kept trying t talk, but over in the den my dad and erikka were having this deep discussion and i was overhearing it, and they were talking about eating, and ed, and stuff that couldve easily been directed to me but i was like so confused like is erikka having eating issues? so i kept trying to eavesdrop and was getting distracted.

And then i would turn back to alpha and be like "im so sorry can you say that again, i was distracted by my sister" and he'd be like "yea so..." and start talking again. By the way he's sitting on a stool and im in front of him, but over and over i kept getting distracted about what erikka and dad were talking about. Like they were talking about how much she was eating in a day and what her appetite was like, and i mean obv that relates to me in someway so idk.

But....somehow, alpha also overheard and was like wait maybe i shouldnt be talking about how much weed i smoke/you smoke in front of your dad and your sister bc that plays into appetite and i gues he was trying to be sensitive but also in a silly way so he was like "nevermind, i should have never brought it up"

and i was like "no no no lmao you can keep going" and we were giggling. and he was just like "no, it seems like a touchy subject i wont-"

So then i was laughing, so i playfully touched his arm with my shoulder and it wasnt a big deal but i felt him flinch like- uhhh woops dont do that. Like he didnt say anything but i felt him flinch a little. And i was thinking in my head like.....is it bc he has a gf i didnt think that was that weird.

So then im like leaving upstairs to go get ready and im like "okay okay alpha we're continuing this conversation later, im serious, im gonna come find you in a few and we're talking about this" like being jokey and cute and he was like "uh huh okay lol"

And i ran upstairs to get ready.

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somerandomgonk20 · 2 years

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Okay so! NERDY RAMBLE POST LETS GO

(about like audio stuff, major geek out post)

this is all for archival purposes btw, its a live recording of a niche album from a niche artist (I'm not even sure this is the studio release i think its more ripped straight from the soundboard, I think there's two Mi Sei Appraso’s and i know for a fact i cant find one so I, well went out of my way to make sure I'd always have this one

This is an MP3 a little LQ side render so i can shove it on Tumblr.

I got the ‘original’ recording down at about 48khz though tbh I'd guess the recording OG is probably resting A couple notches lower ((i mean the 90′s indie venues it was probs recorded onto tape lets be real and i mean the slight hiss and general sound supports that, (not to say cassette cant sound fucking great when it wants too mind you) but you know those warm tones, the slightly tinny high ends. classic cassette hallmarks))

CONTACT ME IF YOU WANT THE ALBUM FR idk its just gonna be sat around otherwise, full lossless version is about 270MB i mean its more for personal use but whatever. (im also saving more standard MP3 forms sitting at about 70mb total)

there's only one upload of the album i can find anywhere, and with jason molina dead and the official archives that got put up are sadly not as supported or atleast under maint? maybe... anyways a whole heap of stuff is partially lost and youtube uploads are sketch as fuck for long term upkeep. srs doubt on longevity, there was a very brief vinyl pressing but oml that was over 30 years ago and small batch, actually not to mention this doesnt seem to be the album release as much as a proto live performance so maybe its even rarer tbh tbh though worth mentioning what drove me to this is being unable to get the offical album anywhere as the YouTube upload was taken down so rip oh yeah, the small popularity boom he had seems to be largely faded. but welp welp. audio stuff is fun

(thankfully because these are indie gigs in the 90's most of them seem saved to HQ cassette Reels but it means theres a little more room for my inexperience and screw ups and honestly means i dont have to save it to the absolute maximum file quality to match recording quality [i mean i still did but sue me] anyways, fun time c: o yea yea)

idk im just proud of myself, tinkering with audio always makes me smile. this isnt really for anybody as much as i just, like talking about this stuff.

oh ya only fair, Source i grabbed these from:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CO1VKARclM4

RIP jason 16/3/13

#Audio Archive #Jason Molina #Ramble

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normal-thoughts-official · 5 years

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Umm teenage malec au where Magnus is a chem-genius and Alec is a secret superhero in need of a Chem-genius...

i smell shenanigans???? mayhaps a secret identity drama??????? mutual pining???? do i hear the sounds of cliché drama 2nite?

really tho. call me cliché and uninspired but. Alec knows Magnus from uni. Magnus is still majoring in chemistry but hes clearly so talented and smart he already has made some incredible discoveries and is working and studying in like doctorate level classes. he's a genius, and he's creative, and he wants to use his knowledge to create good and accessible stuff. hes also beautiful and fine maybe Alec has a crush on him.

"sue me" - Alec, probably

but hes never really had,,,, the Opportunity to talk to him? theyve done a few group projects together and they got along fine but Magnus is always busy with his research and his thousands of groups and studies you know

anyway Alec is like.... an unwilling superhero because his sister is fucking crazy but also he loves her and ain't gonna let her deal with criminals™ alone so now he's her sidekick. his superhero persona is even grumpier than his usual persona and that is definitely saying something

anyway, they need magnus' help with some shit, i dont know, identifying some supervillain who leaves these weird substances behind? dude i dont know

so naturally Alec is like "well we could get magnus' help... you know.... hes smart...... and right there...... and hes nice hed probably help us" and izzy is like "yes Alec you should totally ask him out" and Alec is like "shut up"

so he goes to magnus as his superhero persona and asks him for help? and of course it isnt as simple as it looks so they need to come to magnus for help A Lot and him (as his superhero persona) and Magnus become pretty good friends and ah yes fuck this crush is starting to grow

magnus becomes kind of an honorary member of their little team after that and helps them with most cases. theres always something he can help them with. even when its not chemistry-related, hes smart and good at profiling and reading people. and he helps Alec relax. you know. and that makes it easier for everyone. right? yea

but look, look. he needs to keep his distance. its dangerous enough as it is and if magnus gets too involved that's gonna put him in danger. the last thing he wanted was to get another person he loved liked knew in danger. and if Magnus knew about their secret identities that would compromise izzy and he cant do that. not even their little brother Max knows!! so like, distance. totally

except he sucks, of course, and finds himself talking to Magnus for hours on end instead of actually doing his thing more often than not. and he totally falls in love. like completely. fuck

and on magnus' end........ well, hes hurt, because hes falling for this grumpy little weirdo whos so attached to rules and yet is willing to throw them out of the window to protect his little sister, who is genuinely interest in magnus' babble that only the other chem guys listen to (but are too busy trying to prove theyre better than him to actually have a nice, interesting conversation), who cares for his interest, cares for him. asks how hes doing and demands that he sleeps well and listens to his complaints. you know. he likes the both of them a lot, and for the first times he feels not only like he belongs, but like he's allowed to be. not to mention wanted and cared for.

but they dont trust him. which, look - its stupid. they dont owe him anything! and they are friends. they do tell him stuff that matters. he knows everything about their lifes but their names and the names of the people in their lives. and they have a lot at stake! and Magnus is an eccentric weirdo anyway. its good enough that theyre friends! really!

but hes pining, because theres this guy whom Magnus doesnt even know the appearance of, and who likes him, but doesnt trust him. he knows if it were up to the sister theyd have told him by now and it hurts that he doesnt trust him.

but it makes sense, too, again, Magnus shouldn't be demanding him that. but fuck hes fallen in love with him and he doesnt even trust magnus in return

it just hurts

and theres lots and lots of mutual pining and issues and Magnus not voicing his concerns because its fine!!! and he has no right to be upset!! and hes being stupid anyway and theyre right not to tell him

and he closes off in that way he does - by always being extra smooth and casual and using that as armor. and Alec is hurt, too, because he knows Magnus is closing off, but who the fuck is him to ask? Magnus just thinks their whole superhero thing is interesting. and he cant really demand anything out of Magnus when he cant be open with Magnus, either, and anyway he deserves better than this mess

anyway theres lots of drama for a while until eventually of course the dam breaks somehow. idk, i like to think Alec decided to tell him rather than him finding out on accident, but i dont know what exactly would lead him to do that. maybe he just gets tired of it and snaps. maybe he just shows up at Magnus' in civilian clothes like "hello it is me". maybe he just gets tired one night and it's like. hes already tired of lying and hiding and Magnus is already in too deep anyway, and hes thinking it over, he is, hes gonna tell him... and then something happens that would mean it would be slightly inconveniencing for him to turn around so as to not reveal his identity (like, idk, he needs to look at something but he cant see right with the mask lol) and hes like "fuck it [removes mask] my names Alec btw" and Magnus is like "woah ur the hot guy from that group project????"

anyway because im really slowburning today that doesn't mean they tell each other how they feel, of course. Magnus is still convinced Alec isnt into him (hes just told Magnus who he is! really, this is more than enough) and Alec is still an idiot. but it does have the upside of them getting to talk during the day and stuff! which is great, except awful because now they can Pine at any time of the day

anyway i dont even know how this gets solved tbh irhejdndkd its already too long, i dont wanna go the "Magnus is kidnapped and Alec realizes life is short" route because this is cliché enough but. uhh i dont know Magnus gets some prize on his research on uuuhhhhh clean energy? fuck if i know. and Alec attends and hes just so proud of him and so happy for him he kind of does the whole "i love you" thing and Magnus is like "you do??" and Alec is like "Magnus. Of course" and they kiss the end

#ask #pastaownsmylife #long post #malec #malec au #malec ficlet #someone should write this cuz it wont be me #malec prompt #a long one but eh #sh #magnus bane #alec lightwood

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arthurbroussrd · 5 years

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i was tagged by the lovely @amazalina, thank you love! (yes its me i just chnged my url)

1 Are you named after anyone?

kinda! my first name isnt related to anyone, but my full name is cléa marion and the second one was my great-grand-mother’s name

2- When was the last time you cried?

just monday, i had the results of my exam, a very important one, and i didnt pass. 34,4 was the number of points that i needed to pass, and i got 33,6........ so yeah that ended up in tears

3- Do you have/want kids?

i have not, not yet! but yeah i hope i will have kids in the future

4- Do you use sarcasm a lot?

i do, tho i must be either really great at it or people really dumb because they sometimes think im serious, which lead me to very awkward situations

5- What is the first thing you notice about others?

i dont know? i guess it depends, if im seeing the person irl or just talking on the phone, but i feel like its often the way they speak that strikes me.

6- What is your eye color?

i have big brown eyes

7- Scary movie or happy ending?

happy movie with scary ending -jk, im a slut for happy endings sue me

8- Any special talents?

im literally the most untalented person ever, i have zero talent. i guess i can dance, but only because ive been doing since since im like 4, but thats pretty much all

9- Where were you born?

small town in the west side of france

10- What are your hobbies?

like i said, i used to dance a lot but i had to stop this year because my studies are taking too much time. besides that i like to cook or hang out with my friends (yea im boring dont @ me)

11- Do you have any pets?

i have a cat named galyss and a dog named naska, just so you know i would die for them

12- What sports do you/have you played?

dance dance dance dance dance dance dance dance dance. also i did like two or three years of equitation when i was younger but it was too expensive so i stopped and continued dancing

13- How tall are you?

a little over 175cm i think, im too lazy to convert it just google me

14- Favorite subject in school?

french literature and english! i liked music too when i was in middle school

15- Dream job?

speech therapist! thats what im studying right now, or well im more styduing to pass the exam because there are very very little posts in france, like 40 for 2300 people

(so yes ive changed my url! i was clarkeqriffin, this is temporary but i started watching skamfr and honestly couldnt resist)

tagging those lovely beans, mostly people that tagged me recently (sorry i havent had the time to answer to all of them) @gardenofstories @mes-espaces @bidisasterbuck @king-kante @frecklessbellamy

#tag game #about me

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