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puniyo · 2 years

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VegasPete and the Hedgehog Dilemma (Part 3)

Part 1 here, Part 2 here

*Spoilers for episode 13*

*Disclaimer: This is a rant from what is left of a sobbing mess on the floor. Someone pick me up*

This episode *takes a deep breath and wipe tears* really delivered everything: oil to fuel the dilemma and angst for the remaining century. We had three brief Vegaspete moments in the latest episode, but each of them was so powerful and meaningful, so let’s check one by one. Before that, let me just bow down to Bible and Build, especially Build, for their stellar performances. If someone deserves more screen time, that would be them. Now onto our favorite hedgehogs.

Scene 1: Physically intimate, but not yet there.

V: At first, I thought I was a freak. Until now.

P: You just have to accept and be true to who you are.

V: Like you?

P: I just live in the present. What I’m feeling, that’s all I think of.

V: How can you live in this filthy world?

P: Why? Are you going to say that I’m a good guy?

V: No, you’re just a fool.

So we start with the aftermath of another (assumed) sex session between them. Pete is not wearing his bandages so some time must have passed between the chains and rope and now back to cuffs. They are both naked, aligned but opposite. Physically, they have torn down this barrier – they know which spots and corners feel good, where to push to earn a scream and where to touch for desire to bring them to oblivion. They both had time to explore their bodies now that they have both handed the reigns of physical intimacy to each other – Pete submitting willingly and Vegas honoring that control and worshipping Pete. However, does that mean that they have also opened the doors to their emotional intimacy? *waves hands* No, no, no. See the dialogue above. Vegas makes an admission that he sees himself as a freak. Pete gives him a piece of advice – be true to yourself – but Pete is the one who is not fully honest here. Is he a good guy or a bad guy? He is none. He is simply human. He cannot echo Vegas’ sentiments here and also make a confession of his. He gives advice, but does he follow it? The answer – no. They are intimate yes, just not yet there.

The next scene, we see Vegas cooking for Pete. That is our hedgehog truly shedding his spines and showing his true self – a caring human who genuinely smiles and is looking forward to please the person he cares about. It’s so rare to see this Vegas, his features so soft and looking so young. He might be the heir of the second family but he is so young, boyish, unsullied by this filthy world as he says. Until Gun comes into the picture. *I swear to the heavens that if no one puts a bullet on that man, I will personally do so. Ahem.* So Vegas’ father comes in, realizes the son is playing housekeeping and spending his time loitering around (which is ironic because it was Gun who put Vegas on house arrest in the first place), sees a plate of spicy food – which Vegas doesn’t eat – and does what his amazing parenting mindset tells him – throw the food away – the food Vegas had cooked for Pete. This was an escalation of violence, one that we see Vegas being submitted to all the time: 1. Have the things he likes being thrown away 2. “You don’t deserve to be my son” 3. Physical violence.

What message does this show to Vegas? 1. He does not have the right to like anything. He is to follow orders and follow them without complaints. 2. He will always be inferior to his father. 3. Showing your true self will only lead to pain. Vegas has no other option to turn to his self-defense mode, barriers up, spines back as his armor in full force. And Vegas copes with this emotional pain in two ways: physical pain (slapping himself, hitting his hand on the counter), and projecting it onto others (torture, sadism).

If you are still sane after this part, here’s a cookie for you because I am not *sobs*.

Scene 2: To be honest is to hurt.

P: I don’t like it. Then why didn’t I say no?

On the other side, Pete is now starting to question about his own honesty. If he really truly hated what he and Vegas has been doing so far, why hasn’t he put a stop to it. Why hasn’t he resisted? There is definitely one more question in his head – Why didn’t I escape? Pete is starting to come with terms with his own true feelings about this. And this is very difficult for him. It is probably one of the toughest things he has ever done (more about this very soon).

His introspective moment is cut short when Vegas come in. Pete realizes the handprint on Vegas’ face and the reason for it. Now, because they are physically intimate, Pete uses this to reach out for the other man – only to be met with a wall of quills.

P: Is this the way you’re supposed to be living?

This wall is so thick and the spines so pointy and sharp that he, coped with his uncertainty just now, leads to this answer:

P: It’s up to you Vegas. It’s your choice.

Red flag! Vegas is in no state to make a choice. Even if he makes one, it’s going to be the wrong choice. His anger and self-loathing are so blinding at this point that he cannot help but hurt others because he himself is in too much pain. What he didn’t expect was that, because of “shutting down” himself, he finally brought Pete to completely reach his most honest point:

V: Don’t think that acting weak and I’ll…

P: C’mon Vegas, kill me. I got nothing left. Not even my humanity. Right now, I feel useless. No. I’ve always been useless. I never exist. I have no feelings. I don’t have anything left within me, I can’t take myself anymore, Vegas.

*hands in award for one of the best lines in the whole series* Pete finally lets Vegas, and us, know what is behind that smiling façade of his – Pete’s self-loathing is the same, if not even more serious, than Vegas’. He has made to feel useless his whole life even when he has a grandma that loves him. He couldn’t find solace in that love. Pete never existed for himself – he was his father’s punchbag, his grandma’s responsibility, the main family’s bodyguard, Tankhun’s head bodyguard, Porsche’s friend, Kinn’s spy, Vegas’ pet – everything but just Pete. And here we have the core concept of the hedgehog dilemma: by being completely intimate, Pete and Vegas are mutually hurting, whether it is physical (bleeding) or emotional (tears).

V: I give up, Pete. Don’t leave me, I’m begging you.

P: I’m a human, Vegas. (I cannot not feel.)

V: I need you, Pete.

P: Need me? For emotional projection like a pet with no feelings?

Now, mutually hurting is the core of the dilemma. How both of our hedgehogs react to it, it is what matters. Pete chooses the extreme of self-harm – the idea of suicide, while Vegas realizes that he doesn’t want to lose Pete. Vegas realizes that, even though they hurt, he wants to overcome that pain. And we see that Pete understands it and Pete wants to also accept it, that they both will be able to maneuver through the agony and misery.

Now, now, humans use experience as reinforcement. This is when Pete lashes out about being a “pet” used for Vegas to project his emotions. He wants to accept Vegas but he simply cannot. And the only way to avoid them mutually destroying each other is to run away.

An aside to another of my favorite scenes in this episode:

Pete (to Porsche): Could you fix me up?

No, he cannot Pete. No one can fix you. Not Porsche. Not even Vegas. Because the only person who can fix something is oneself. Pete needs to be able to accept himself, his feelings for Vegas, and his willingness to find a way to come out alive with the inevitable hurt. The sweet promise is – just not visible at the moment.

Which leads to the delicious mutual hurting moment of eating noodles.

Scene 3: I want to be honest with you.

V: Are you going to shoot me? Are you? Why don’t you shoot? Don’t you want me to disappear? Shoot me already. SHOOT ME! I don’t think you can. And you know why.

Pete slides down the wall.

V: I’m sorry.

Pete touches Vegas’ face.

Lastly, we finally see the tables reversed here. On their encounters so far, Pete is the one to be the patient one, to give advice, to reach out a non-judgmental but all accepting hand. Now, Pete points his gun at Vegas. Pete headbutts him. Pete fights back. Pete is resisting the urge to let his quills down. Vegas, on the other hand, is completely (metaphorically) naked. He begs Pete. He is ready to be his true self with Pete.

#kinnporsche spoilers #kinnporsche #kinnporshe the series #vegaspete #vegas theerapanyakul #pete phongsakorn #hedgehog dilemma #build jakapan #bible wichapas #vegaspete has me on chokehold #love them so much #spin-off series for them #still crying

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lovecolibri · 1 year

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Being upset is so valid, I know it’s just a show but WHATEVER, you should allow yourself to feel what you feel! And you should also be allowed to have opinions and share them on your blog lmao I’ll be honest, I have several friends irl who watch 911 and ship buddie and we aallll cannot stand this show anymore lmao and it’s very liberating to be able to speak your mind. Sadly fandom, especially Tumblr for some reason, seems to be hellbent on making passive aggressive comments on people who don’t like what they like? I totally agree with you, if people enjoy it good for them, I’m not gonna make posts about how you have to be stupid to like it cause I don’t think that’s the case?? We are just looking for different things in a show and that’s okay! However I am a blocking machine cause I don’t see the point in reading takes that are so different from mine 😂 but it is very frustrating that any negative comment needs to be censured or you become the devil and also you are not capable of understanding long form of media and also you should stop watching the show hskshdk I have stopped watching the show and I still like to check what happened and I still like to complain, what can you do about it 😂 anyway I hope you’re okay, and take care of yourself! I remember when Roswell made me soooo mad and I had to deal with it alone and it sucked 😔 and you don’t have to publish this if you don’t want to, I don’t mean to create drama or anything, just wanted to be supportive 😂

Hey, thanks Nonnie! I think for a lot of people (I'm for sure one of them, yay neurodivergency), when you find something that's a source of serotonin, it can be QUITE the crash when it stops, and no matter how low your expectations, if you struggle with emotional regulation, the rollercoaster can be rough. Curating your experience is a MUST, and knowing how to manage when your brain tries to get the best of you is also a must! Sometimes that means commiserating with others who are also unhappy (NOT going into the inboxes of people who clearly disagree with you. stop that), sometimes it means logging off and doing something else, sometimes it means reading or writing fic or making content that makes you happy about the thing, sometimes it means not looking at ANYTHING about the thing. At the end of the day, we're all just trying to do what works for us.

As a survivor of RNM, I thought I could handle this but I think RNM got SO bad SO fast that it was always a lot of "here are 3 good things that people will make AMAZING fics/metas/content about and 85 things you will need to ignore or you will start seething with rage". Where as 911 was so consistent for so long that watching it struggle so hard (across the board, not just with Buddie, though that seems to get the brunt of it on the "nearly unwatchable" scale whereas other stuff is more "meh. they could have done this better") has been really rough because there is already so much love for the show built up and we have SEEN what it can be when it's at it's very best. And disliking certain arcs or story choices doesn't necessarily mean throwing the whole show out! There are LOTS of things I love about this show, and I'm not at the point for me where I'm ready to let the show go and I've never really understood the "don't like, don't watch" attitude every time anyone brings up a single complaint. It seems very "you HAVE to love every single thing and choice or you can't watch the show" when most people have things they both like and dislike about pretty much everything! It's okay to not like every single choice! (though if you legit find nothing to enjoy about a thing then it's maybe not for you and that's okay!)

Thanks for checking in! I have a lot of other stuff going on right now so it's very much like "why is this the thing we are focusing on, brain? Why are we allowing ourselves to feel like this? It's a show??" but hey! Sometimes our brains do whatever TF they want and we just gotta manage as best we can. At on the bright side, tumblr has filters! You can block tags! You can block content within posts! this will let you remove certain stuff from your experience without necessarily having to unfollow people. BUT! You can also unfollow people! You can block people! Make your experience what you want! And learn what works FOR YOU to manage your disappointment. Some people are "gotta get the anger out to let it go" people, and some are "gotta find the positive spin" people and some are both or neither. Find what works. Do that. Don't be dicks in people's inboxes, and don't drag the cast/crew into the drama on public sm platforms, they don't plan out the storylines.

#my sweet nonnie friends #911 #911 spoilers #i typed this between doing other things so sorry if it's a mess i just cannot be bothered to read it all again

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lesbicastagna · 1 year

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permission to bitch and moan about a random post by some self proclaimed historian on the site famous for its shitty and biased discussions of history?

prefacing by saying that i think this is actually a really interesting discussion to have and that i've seen and read actual historians talk about this topic with the nuance it deserves.

but i cannot help but perceive this type of posts in bad faith as the use of words like "glorifying" is completely lost:

also this kind of post is obv made to stir and attack and doesn't want an honest discussion about women in historical contexts so like. no point at all except being a "white rich women bad" moment which i can understand like this is a silly website. but it grinds my gears.

i'm taking the example of marie antoniette but obv this can be broadened to most major historical figures. discussion of her context and her personality and individuality and how it played a part in the first downfall of monarchy it's not excusing or glorifying her actions. ultimately we have a Lot more personal informations about and by "rich white women" than any other woman who lived in historical contexts because they were the ones who knew how to write. it's not some stereotype perpetuated by contemporary scholars to write and discuss about only rich nobles because they like it lol. and also if you actually studied history in any higher than high school level you would see the efforts that have been made to recover the voices and testimony of the lower classes and other marginalized individuals.

i dont understand the point of making this type of harsh complaints that not only suck out all the "fun" of studying history by realizing how and why all people during all eras were individuals with feelings like ours, but also that are just plain embarassing. you get all your history sources on tiktok that you think this treatment is given only to pretty white rich women? lol

#usamericans study their history at baby level and get away with who cares they all owned slaves lol 😎 im so very woke and nuanced #and then apply this to everything else like did you know??? that monarchies were problematic? so i wont study them LIKE #this is not in defense of marie antoniette whatever that means. as if shes my friend and i could possibly do that #but its not surprising that her figure still holds a fascination. id rather talk about that. how she became the simbol #of a dying concept of politics. she was prepared all her life for a role that was already on its dying breaths #executed for doing the exact same things her family and all european monarchs had done for generations #a #op is a writer btw. not fully historical from what i know thank god lol #WHAT you think versailles is interesting?? how dare you piss on the poor

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salmonthestoryteller · 2 years

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RNM Season 4 Episodes 3-4

Thoughts, and complaints about episodes three and four of Roswell New Mexico Season Four. I have a lot of complaints, despite enjoying a fair amount of these two episodes. Those complaints mainly surround how they handled Anasta and Isobel’s relationship, Mimi’s death, Maria’s plotline and characterization choices, and Roswell New Mexico’s inability to tell a kidnapping plot right. But first…

Group scenes, my beloved. Honestly, words cannot express how much I love finally seeing large group scenes in this show! Our found family is finally learning to actually communicate. *sniff*

Dallas is trying to steal the show. That is what I have decided. Seriously, I am continuing to adore him as the calm voice of reason in the group. (And his scene with Graham Greene and a suffering Michael was just hilarious and perfect!) I do find myself missing Heath, though. His and Dallas’ friendship was a cornerstone of s3, and its absence feels notable to me.

I knew it was coming, but I have to say I am once again disappointed in the handling of side characters and temporary romances in the show. Isobel and Anatsa had some great chemistry, and Anatsa had definite potential to just continue on as a member of the cast past her and Isobel’s relationship. But instead, they only kept her around as a romantic foil to keep Isobel from getting together with Kyle “too soon”. Despite some sweet scenes together, the relationship is constantly undermined by showing how Isobel keeps turning towards Kyle for support and connection. Other times, it’s the rest of the Pod Squad & Co that are truly there for her as things begin to happen involving the other aliens, because Isobel is avoiding telling her the truth so can’t seek support from her.

I don’t approve of the writing having Isobel say she loves Anatsa, because of her previous relationship with Noah. While she may now know everything about their relationship was a lie, she spent years thinking she had to keep secrets from him. Those feelings, that stress, that need to hide a piece of herself - those things she experienced regardless of whether Noah knew the whole time or not. His lies do not invalidate her experience. So, no, I don’t think she could ever say “I love you” to someone she hasn’t told the truth to. Or accept an “I love you” from someone without it either. She’s been down that road, and she knows how unhappy it makes her.

And honestly? A brief period of relationship struggles and Anatsa runs for the hills? After saying she loved her? That really does not reflect well on her character at all. And it feels very much like the writing taking an easy out to make way for Kyle and Isobel to get together. Even the “danger” of Anatsa investigating the bank robberies was just kind of brushed aside as soon as their relationship reached its end. Another perfectly good side character falling prey to the downgrade to romantic foil. Not to mention the only canon w/w ship we got. This is why I hate temporary romances. They just never feel worth getting attached to, because they rarely have a satisfying ending. Am I looking forward to Kybel? Yes, but that doesn’t mean they couldn’t have had this end a dozen other different ways - including keeping Anatsa around.

I am loving all the alien backstory, and the slow build towards the final reveal of what’s happening. (Jones return? Yes? Pls?) Having Michael go undercover with them? I am digging that, to be honest. (His excitement in getting to see his homeplanet for the first time and try food from it was so cute.) The new powers? Love them. (Shapeshifter! Shapeshifter!) Bonnie is adorable. I will be very unhappy if she dies! (I am getting Adam (Roswell High) vibes, and I’m scared for her!) Don’t die, Bonnie!

Okay. Mimi’s death is some serious BS. It was unnecessary for the plot, because Mimi’s condition already makes it hard to get information out of her. (ie: See her and Alex’s conversation in s1, followed by Isobel’s attempt to go into her mind and communicate with her in s2.) So there wasn’t a need to kill her to make her unable to communicate what they needed after giving a single piece of information. She’s been doing that from the start! They had so much potential with Mimi’s story in s1, and then they just didn’t bother to invest time in it before deciding to kill her for the angst of it and no other reason. Not to mention, we were introduced to her in s1 as pretty much being of equal importance to Liz, Rosa, and Alex as she was to Maria. Yet, they barely show Liz grieving for her, relegating it to basically one line and then having Liz focused on Maria’s grief. Yes, it was Maria’s mother by blood - but a big part of RNM is about found family. Mimi was a surrogate mother to all three of them, and to downplay their grief simply because they weren’t “related by blood”? To not bring in Rosa; to have her death occur while Alex is away? To have Isobel more affected when they haven’t given us more than one scene with them together - which honestly was a huge shame. What sort of choices are those?

Which brings me to Maria. And I am honestly just so confused by her obsession with her powers. I have honestly been confused about that being such a big part of her character since it started in season two. I don’t understand her motivations. Especially when she keeps taking risks that are bordering on self-harm? Why are her powers that important to her? Back in season one and early season two I wrote a lot of meta about how I felt loneliness was a huge motivating factor for her character. I felt that because they did not create any side characters to be a close current friend of hers during the ten-year-gap, nor chose to show any of the characters who were in Roswell during that period as having a close friendship with her, she was supposed to have spent a fair amount of the ten years alone with nobody to rely on. Which is an incredibly lonely way to spend ten years of time. And I think that still might be part of her character motivation, but the problem is that it’s never been properly addressed.

They spent two seasons developing her friendship with Isobel, but because they want to focus all of Isobel’s attention on the love triangle this season, they don’t have Maria go to her about her powers. Which doesn’t make sense after spending so much time building their friendship, especially when Isobel was who first encouraged her to explore her powers back in s2. They spent a whole arc last season supposedly proving to her that people cared - Rosa and Isobel risked their lives to save her from Jones. So why are we basically recycling the same plot of her feeling isolated and obsessing over her powers to compensate? They’re wasting their final chance to give her a worthy plot arc on just a variation of the plot she had last season.

Speaking of recycling plots - they really need to stop trying to do kidnapping plots because they are just not good at them - something I wrote about before.

We are given an excuse of why Alex would be out of contact, and they send Michael off with Bonnie and Clyde to keep him busy, plus throw in Clyde breaking his phone - so there are reasons for why his kidnapping is currently unnoted. Which, admittedly, is a bit better than they did previously with kidnapping plots. Especially when you consider it actually hasn’t been that long in show, despite it being two episodes. I’m pretty sure it’s been a week at most? RNM has a bit of a pacing problem - and this is one of those moments it shows. They could have made this occur over a longer period of time. The group could have realized Alex was missing while Michael was busy with Bonnie and Clyde. We could have gotten their reaction first, and Michael’s later. Instead, several episodes cover a short period - and that make it seem like Alex has been missing longer than he has. Which leaves the audience lacking the emotional payout kidnapping plots are supposed to give you. Namely everyone who cares for that character being allowed to react to their absence and danger.

There’s also Eduardo’s kidnapping. And, honestly, shouldn’t the head of a shadowy agency going missing be a bigger deal? Shouldn’t his absence be a chance to delve deeper into the inner workings of Deep Sky. Maybe meet who would take over in his absence? Either as a potential ally or a potential antagonist who thinks one of them might be to blame? But, once again, he actually has only been gone for a day, I think? Hopefully these are the last kidnapping plots. Cuz they just don’t work out for the show.

Cam remains amazing. Yes, I’m prejudice in her favor, but I do not care. I love having her back on my screen. In a way, her return for a plot that involves a group who follow Jones harks a bit back to the source material. She was a big part of their first fight with the character Jones is based off of in Roswell High, even though she wasn’t around for their final fight with him. I don’t mind the change, since it means I get to spend this season adoring her interactions. Including her flirtation with Dallas. I also liked her spotting the tattoo on fake Eduardo - given that it played such a big part on how she got involved in the alien mystery to begin with. Once again - don’t die Cam!

I haven’t seen the new episode yet. So, I probably won’t write about it until after episode six airs.

#roswell new mexico #season 4 #meta #discourse #character thoughts

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ahopkins1965 · 2 months

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Who are you really talking to online?

Who are we really talking to online is a great question that even parents need to ask their children on a daily basis. I know that during the past 9 months, there has been an increase of computer hacking activity; especially on non secure websites. I asked this very important question because there are more complaints being filed for identity theft than ever before. Who are we really talking to online?

This question needs to be asked by everyone because this is a non trusting society. Our society has changed so much that people are doing things to hurt others and getting away with it. Who are we supposed to converse with all the time? The answer is God!! Do you know that our friends online can become idols according to the Holy Bible? This is serious because this deprives us from having a relationship with God. According to Numbers 32:23 it says if you fail to do so, you will be sinning against the Lord; and you may be sure that your sin will find you out. This means that anything that we do in our lives, God will punish us for the things that we do whether they are good or bad.

I want to be perfectly honest, when it comes to a non secure website, I really do not know exactly who I am talking to. This is sad because I am seeking out friends online and possibly a relationship. I know that I cannot rely on the internet as a tool for meeting people. I need to meet individuals face to face like everyone else in society. I just have a problem sometimes trying to find out who I am talking to online. I know that my friends leave messages and I also realize that people who have common sense will type a message with clarity and with common sense. The mistake that this person has made is using too many misspelled words as well as foul language.

When it comes to communicating with members of the opposite sex or others of the same sex, it is important to use good grammar and punctuations. This is a mistake that computer hackers make on a daily basis. A good blog is well thought out in advance. What makes a great blog? It is when it is planned out in advance. It is handwritten and research is sometimes required. When I am talking to my friends online, I sometime have a hard time trying to figure out whether it is a man or a woman. This is because women are using vulgarity and they are extremely angry with the men either online or in their own personal lives. This is very painful and it leads to emotional baggage.

The reason why this question is asked is because there are men who talk like women and in some cases; it is hard to tell if you are you are really talking to either gender. This can become very difficult for someone who is not very up to date with the latest trends and styles. According to 2nd Corinthians 5:10 it states that we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ; so that each one may receive what is due for what he has done in the body whether good or evil. This means that no matter what we do personally in our life while we are living, God will judge us for our deeds, works, as well as the things that we have done for Him. Who are we really talking to online is a very good question.

This means that we must pay attention to all hidden messages. This is because for every message that is twisted and confusing for average people, can be understood by someone that is gifted. This is a mistake that computer hackers make on a regular basis. They are talking like children, and these are actual adults with a child’s mind. According to 1st Corinthians 13:11 it indicates that; when I was a child I talked like a child, I spoke like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man I put childish things behind me. This means that when we become adults we become more responsible for our actions. When we become adults; all of the things that children do are far behind us.

Who are we really talking to online, I really do not know. It sometimes causes others to change their plans about spending time online period. I would rather read the Holy Bible than spend time online. It is getting to the point that; the world is going to come to an end and billions of people are not going to be prepared to meet God. I might have been communicating with a computer hacker or a member of law enforcement, but I know one thing; is that I am more prepared to seek out everyone who is responsible for scamming me out of my money. I might have to meet these individuals at the cross roads of life.

At least one thing, I was speaking to very dishonest people at the time, and they had taken advantage of me. Always pay attention to the grammar and what is being said. For instance, if there are a lot of misspelled words on a regular basis; I mean all of the time, and then you are talking to a computer hacker or someone who does not have good sense. It is a trap!!!!!!!! Pay attention to all bad grammar and punctuations on each sentence.

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pyotan · 4 months

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Across the Sheets and Stars

Cushions upon cushions, there is a mountain of plush to the side along with folded blankets and comforters waiting to be unveiled and spread out among their vacant nest.. G’amal huffs as he stares at the work to come..

It’s a necessity to change their bed out at least once a moon but.. It’s one of the seeker’s most dreaded chores. There’s just so much to do when he could just be sleeping upon the pile of softness..

“We have to do this at some point, zonneschein.” Bemused by his lover’s disdain, he pats strongly to the mess of navy curls for he cannot help himself.. Such a gesture has the seeker groaning in complaint and yet he does not dip out from the affections.

“Orrrr you could just do it forrrr your herrrrro..” Purrs in hopes to sell his words, but his tone drags out into mild-frustration as he knows that he just won’t get out of this.

“Come now, have you always been this childish with the bed?” A giggle, Ijs parts from his petting affections and grabs for one of their many comforters, any thick and perfect to be the base for their little love nest. “I will help as I do everytime.”

G’amal sighs and begins to aid by taking hold of the chosen comforter’s corner, helping spread it out. “It jussssst gets me soooooooo tired..”

“Perhaps if we did not have all the plush friends–”

“No, nooo!” A shake of the head and playful yet hard yank of the comforter as Ijs measures out the spread. He looks up to his lover with a quirked brow that reads, ‘really?’. Amal merely giggles with twitching ears. “Hehe.. you’re sounding like my faaaaaather.”

“I mean, mayhaps he had a point.” Ijsbrand reworks his ruined spread.. This time Amal does not play around and just watches. “If you did not have so much, then you wouldn’t get so tired by the end of it..”

“You two would get along by scolding me.” Despite saying such with a pout and crossing of arms, Amal smiles. “I wish I could have seen you two meet when I was gone..”

‘Is it insensitive of me to say that I am glad to not see you interact with my father?’ Ijsbrand blinks as he realizes his thought, knowing very well that Amal had heard it and thus is too ashamed to look up from his efforts. Head down in guilt, he continues to make the bed, now going at a more solo-fast pace to work away the shame in his honest thought.

But instead of insulted, Amal bursts into laughter with a tail to swat in joyous accompaniment. “Noooo, not at alllll!” He hops a bit to the side as his wife works with head down. “But you might have to one day.”

“Yes, and.. I almost dread it… /almost/.” a sigh. “Mine and G’hassan’s scoldings are all of jest and love. But my father’s scoldings would be mean.. ceaseless.. Especially after this.” a lift of the banded hand, the darkened ink ever stands out.

“Annnd thissss.” Amal lifts his own up, hissing in delight as he sees the glow upon his ring finger.

“Ohohoh /that/ especially!” Ijs bolts up from his busy bedmaking and many strands of hair come free from his bun. He chuts angrily as he continues in thought for a moment, out of breath.. ‘Marjolene-Ijsbrand Actias VonZwartz of the Night’s Blessed! You know better! Not even those who /can/ have relations /DARE/ to use such precious inks on others!’

The mockery in thought is almost so perfect, the voice just sounding so much like VonZwartz himself. G’amal cannot help but to shake in withheld laughter, he not wishing to interrupt his wife’s tangent with his bemusement.

“Why, yes that is the Bard of Darkness you have wed but not even someone so special deserves that ink! Is it not enough for him to have your hand in /his/ star? And literally so with that BOLD line on your finger?” Ijsbrand scoffs at his own words and turns to continue grabbing blankets and spreading and piling them across.. Such a bend has Amal’s attention~

“And /that/ is what would be so awful! Our love, our connection before Gods matters not in terms of the First. At least, according to the Elders! Priest of death is not allowed such relations. He’d say all that and mean it!”

In such a rant, Ijsbrand’s hips move and buck out on occasion.. His tail flutters in frustration and being in such small shorts, Amal is able to see the outline of what he bares today /very/ well when he bends.. His purrs quietly begin up.. As if warming him up for passions to come..

So distracted both are in their own reasonings, that neither are noticing how Ijsbrand is the one doing all the bed making..

“And.. putting all that aside..” out of breath but Ijsbrand laughs as he begins to toss up the pillows to fluff them anew before placing them on the stuffed nest that is their bed. “He..” huff.. “He’d just..” swallow.. “Be so awkward with you.. About the gender and all when it comes to me. I swear, that could have /nothing/ to do with the conversation but he just somehow drops it in just to make sure I am safe with whomever.”

“Heheh..”

“Sooo parental, I am sure. I am positive G’hassan would have an awkward comment or question if it came down to it. Marriage and relationships never fail to bring up sex and such things. But.. ugh! I do not want to hear my own father trying to ask if you are fine with a pussy on the occasional Moonsday and then to be careful because we still do not fully know if I can get pregnant or not.”

A placement of a worn goobbue plush, then their precious aubergine knight and his Queen.. “Neither is any of his business! But he always gets in my business as if it were his own.

Like, speaking of beds, Luca had spent the evening in mine..and of course, the sheets were left smelling like him. They'd just been changed the night before, no reason to change them yet! Which meant.. longer time to spend with his scent in my moments of solitude..”

there is almost a sad smile to Ijsbrand’s lips and Amal feels.. A cold twist in his chest, it is a pang that is not his own.And having so many out of body experiences, Amal is not startled. But nonetheless, he touches his heart as if the ache were his own.

“But the very moment I returned after changing into robes for duty, I found my father sniffing my sheets..! He then proceeded to ask me why they smelt of the swamps. So rude! Of course, I had to lie on the spot which resulted in them being washed buuut..” As Ijsbrand turns to reach for another stitched companion, it turns out that there is no more. All the bedware and it’s accessories have been set and placed.. All thanks to Ijsbrand himself..

“But I.. made the bed..”

“You made the bed! Hoorrrrray!!!” Amal throws his hands up in perhaps /too much/ joy, for without even intending on it, he’d managed to get his wife to make their nest instead of him.

“I.. hahahehh..” Ijsbrand lips wobble into a mess as goes into a deep glow of embarrassment and G’amal wastes no time in hoping over to his side to cup his hot cheeks. “I rambled for so long..!” Silver clasps over bronze, a gentle squeeze as Ijs shyly looks down to his squinting partner. “You tricked me.”

“Heyyy, I trrrried to help!” A purr, Amal tiptoes up to bonk their noses in play. “But yooooooou took over to satisfy your own guilt.”

“Yes, but.. But..” A whine, Ijsbrand giggles before kissing his lover.. ‘Yoooooooooou let me..’ thoughtful mockery of his tone and Amal can only rumble in bemusement himself as they begin to kiss.

Gentle, chaste press that moves in ever perfect sync. Smile meshed over smile, Amal pulls back after a moment to mutter in his grin. “And I’ll let yoooooou have dibs on ruining the bed first.. Go on, get the first flop!”

“Hmm hmm..” hands that had been sweetly locked are dropped and abandoned to instead take hold of Amal’s hips. The seeker trills from the affection, especially as he is brought in closer to Ijsbrand before being told just as quietly, “Only if you come with me.”

And not even allowing a moment for his lover to comply, Ijsbrand dramatically falls back onto the made bed, though not without dragging G’amal along with him~

#i just be thinking back to a conversation we had about vonzwartz #and felt inspired to throw it in LOL #I hope i did ijs some justice!!#it was a lot of speaking but really good practice thank you so much for the prompt!#do let me know if i can do ijs any better btw oiwjrefwo !!!#but yeah u kno what happened once they hit those sheets

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November 9, 2022

Nightly RP (End of Sam’s return)

Leo

We have only a couple of witnesses left…. Rachiel, who’s next?

Gabe

squeezing the hand of my beautiful bride I watch almost disinterested

Rachiel

Our next complainant is Jo

Meg

sitting in the back of the courtroom, my tears finally dry, I watching the court proceedings

As I step up I can’t help But gulp for what’s a about to happen

Gabe

sipping my energy I tap my feet up On the table whispering to Cass I grin

Cass

looks over the team with a strictly professional eye looking back to Gabe nodding before looking up to jo on the bench

My complaint is that Gabe treats humans as play things. I don’t think that’s right. He’s killed many of us, although he did bring us back. I believe Gabe means well, he just takes his jokes a little far sometimes.

Gabe

I object! I take it way too far, all the time!

Donna

I look and forth to the boys curious!

Cass

Shut up Gabriel!

I was being nice

Gabe

Sorry honest you a fault To No need, you’d be the first Please go on

Meg

sniggers a lil at Cass and Gabe

Bobby

I continue to watch the trial in silence, arms folded over my chest.

Gabe

Ready for my couple questions Jo?

Yes

Bela

sitting in my seat I laugh a little at Cass and Gabe, having second thoughts about everything and how dull it would be without these idiots

Patience

sitting in the back by Meg thinking boy am I glad I haven't had a vision during this trial

Gabe

jumping up I strut towards the witness stand I’ll be brief. Jo how often are you around?

I’m not sure what you mean by that

Donna

jumps slightly as you jump up!

Gabe

I’ll try and clarify. How often are you in the bunker or around the team, the so called “family”. Seldom or quite a bit?

I’d say in between

Gabe

Ok and with that being said would it be fair to say that what you go by is a lot of hearsay, and or “catching up” so to speak, on previous instances of mayhem?

Yes, that’s true

Gabe

To piggy back on that cannot hearsay and “catching up” (reading things that have happened previously) get taken out of context?

But why would I be lied to? I imagine some things could be taken out of context

Alex

Arm around Olivia and let Olivia lean on her mom Wipe my tear and listen

Gabe

That’s not for me to answer Jo, but I’ll be happy to. It’s not “lying” but if you’ve ever played the game telephone, unless you’re actually there to gear what was said originally, things can change in a story.

as I sit here I notice I’m pretty nervous

Gabe

Next question: have I always been generally respectful towards you? In fact going so far as to help you feel more comfortable as a part of the team?

Yes, you have been. You’ve done nothing to me personally.

Gabe

Thank you so much Jo. I have no more questions your honor.

May I stand down now?

Leo

You may step down Ms Harvelle

Thank you

Gabe

spinning on my heel I turn back towards the defense table kiss Donna’s cheek, wink at the Littles and pat Cass’ shoulder before kicking my feet up again

Donna

beam at you want to me and soft blush comes over my cheeks with the kiss

Leo

We have one final witness… sighing Atheed… lead him to the stand…..

Atheed this should be good... Time for Lucifer to take the stand

Lucifer

strolls into the courtroom quietly, glancing Gabe on the way to the stand. Take a seat and flash Leo a smirk Couldn't miss out on this, could I...

Gabe

I hope not

Leo

We’ve allowed you to have your chance to speak lucifer. The floor is yours.

Gabe

looking to Donna like Crowley he does love the sound of his own voice

Donna

I giggle way to hard and snort slightly, covering my mouth and turning away!

Cass

looks over confused

Rachiel

moves to defendants’ side of the room and lean down and whisper everyone else was respectful enough for you. Please show the same courtesy.

Gabe

taking a quarter out of my pocket I make it dance across the back of my knuckles letting out a yawn my eyes never leaving the quarter apparently we’ve been attending different trials

Gabe

and stay out of my head, I’m still on the throne and here of my own free will we’ll see how much longer that lasts. It’s hard to talk to me about respect when you’re invading my mind

Lucifer

I dip my head briefly- mock respect at its finest- then look over to Gabriel and sit back I think most of my complaints are fairly obvious, but I'll state them clearly for the record. My brother- motions to Gabriel - has never been cut out for the throne. He picks and chooses which humans and people he helps, causes a fair degree of chaos and mayhem, abuses his power, and tends to hide behind that excuse of 'because I'm god'.. Which sounds awfully familiar actually... Regardless, he makes a poor God. A trigger happy one at that. I roll my eyes a little bit, remembering a fondness for voiding everyone

Donna

another giggle

Leo

Would you care to elaborate on why he’s not fit?

Donna

cough cough describing Chuck! cough cough! Sorry something in my throat! coughs again

Gabe

hands a cough drop overly and exaggeratingly respectfully

Donna

Ohhhh thank you my love! big cheesy smile!

Bela

laugh at Donna's comment

Lucifer

Glance over to Leo Well abuse of power is one of many things. Happy to shoot people off to void all the time for no reason.

Gabe

Why, Mrs. Angel it is my overwhelming honor to be able to help you with the cough you have, of course I’d hate for you to be banished for coughing disrespectfully!

Rachiel

snaps a look at you

Gabe

shooting you a grin just being respectful

Rachiel

scoffs and heads back to the plaintiffs side of the room

Donna

Well, again thank you Mr Angel! 🥰

Bela

thinking most times I'm sure he has a reason he just doesn't express his reasoning when he does it

Gabe

standing and giving a deep bow but of course Mrs. Angel , and I apologize thinking on how to say this in the most respectful manner for the cylindrical shaped object that was seems to have lodged tightly in her hind orifice

Alex

Giggle Donna comments

Donna

laughs out loud again!

Leo

That’s a fair example. Thank you. Gabe, have you any questions?

Gabe

Sure why not, we all know that Lucifer is nothing if not honest. In fact I do believe his nickname is “The King of Truths” Can you once again state our relation for the record ?

Lucifer

grinds teeth and smiles tightly Ah yes, baseless character assassination in response for a valid point. Brothers. mutters Unfortunately.

Gabe

I’m not assassinating your character, I’m simply stating that your nickname , not given to you but by the previous god our father is in fact the king of lies. Now, you love me as a brother as I love you yes? Remember Lucifer you’re under oath

Lucifer

Stating it, in an attempt to subconsciously discredit me in the minds of those listening-- but sure. Whatever. bites tongue and doesn't seem to want to answer ... Well I wouldn't know if you love me, only you would know that. Though I can speculate on your actions, and I wouldn't entirely call it love you have. But... I suppose I do care to a certain degree, yes.

Gabe

Your honor, I’d like to note that the witness had perjured himself

Lucifer

raises an eyebrow Perjured. How so?

Gabe

You were present and there when I told you “Lucifer your my brother and I love you, but you’re a big bag of dicks’ we’re you not?

Lucifer

I was. But neither of us were under oath that day either. And frankly given the circumstances, I'm not sure I believed it.

Gabe

Then you tell the court you don’t know if I love you when it was plainly stated, you don’t know. I was straight forward with you, you were present and your believing me or not is not on me. You knowingly stated you don’t know after I had already told you I did! Moving on

Lucifer

Moving on? So I get no response to this slander? scoffs

Gabe

You already responded, in fact you’ve talked out of order when no one was addressing you My statement was to the judge, you’re on the stand only to answer questions Your honor Charlie?

Lucifer

Well considered you accused me of a crime I didn't commit- perjury- then quickly move on because you realize it wasn't baseless..baseless... I roll my eyes and throw up my hands

Leo

My court room is not the place for spats. Have you finished with the witness?

Gabe

No big baseless I proved my point

Lucifer

Your point was invalid. mutters

Gabe

Please let the record show the witness is not only speaking out of turn but being hostile

Lucifer

If I were being hostile, you'd know.

Leo

Lucifer, I’ll ask you once to compose yourself. If spoken to again, I’ll have you removed.

Lucifer

chuckles in disbelief, being accused of lying when I haven't once again

Gabe

Perjury “the offense of willfully telling an untruth in a court after having taken an oath or affirmation.” You also agreed that I told you and then said you didn’t know .

Leo

I’ve made no accusation. But the derogatory remarks have no place in my courtroom. Have you anything further to add to your statement?

Gabe

You’re more than welcome to show me anytime you like, I promise it won’t end well, for you Back to the questions

Donna

watching words caught. Oh goodness!!!!!!

Lucifer

Oh so I’m hostile while he threatens a witness? Huh...

Gabe

Can you please name one of the humans you claim I haven’t helped? When they’ve come to me for help

Lucifer

Come to you, Gabriel? Or come to you, God?

Gabe

In this instance it’s one and the same for these proceedings anyhow It’s wholly based on my abilities as god

Lucifer

Mhh, then I need you to be more specific for me to answer the question. Does prayer not count as 'coming to you' as God? In that case, we might be here for a long time if you'd like me to run down a list of human names.

Gabe

speaking very slowly and enunciating the words so even Lucifer can understand you claimed I pick and choose which humans I help, I’m asking for which humans I choose not to help, with zero clarification on if you meant me Gabriel or me god, so I’m asking for examples. And you have proof of me not answering prayers? Or speculation

Lucifer

narrowing my eyes at this joke of a court room proceeding ... no I suppose no solid proof.

Gabe

You also made the claim that I do things such as send people to the void “for no reason” correct?

Lucifer

Correct. I did.

Gabe

Have you ever asked me for a reason?

Lucifer

You never supplied a reason. Also hard to ask questions from the void.

Gabe

Where does it state I’m required to give a resin ?

Lucifer

Didn't realize there was a word by word manual you were following.

Gabe

You’ve been around numerous times not in the void but in the bunker, around the team, on hunts etc correct?

Lucifer

Partially correct. I have been voided at least once.

Gabe

You and I both know there’s no manual , you yourself spent time on the throne

Lucifer

Then why ask me where it's stated as if there were? Should be moral common sense, should it not?

Gabe

Oh I’m not disagreeing, but that wasn’t the question. I didn’t ask if you’d been voided we all know you have, I asked if you’ve been around the team in different capacities, in fact, you’ve been around me since then right?

Lucifer

Yes. I have.

Gabe

And did you ask me for a reason?

Lucifer

No- didn't feel comfortable doing so for fear you'd do it again.

Gabe

So your stating that I have “no reason” is speculation, while in fact I could have reasons you just don’t know correct?

Lucifer

I suppose.

Gabe

Thank you lucifer it’s a pleasure as always no more questions

Lucifer

rolls eyes and doesn't even respond as I get up muttering about a biased farce of a court proceeding

Gabe

I couldn’t agree with you more on THAT statement big brother

Leo

Have you any closing statements?

Gabe

I’m supposed to be asked a question by each your honor. One question Then yes I have a closing statement

Leo

Then I will call each witness one by one. Alex, do you have a final question for Gabe?

Alex

Look up shake her head no honor I don’t have a question

Gabe

running up I jump, grab the railing to the witness stand flip over it and land in the chair in the witness stand

Leo

Bela, your question?

Gabe

waving at all those determined to see me off the throne

Donna

I glare to where you’re waving!

Bela

stand up thinking was there really any point in all this because seems nobody was really heard anyway just discredited no matter what was said?

Gabe

Is that for me or the other angels?

Bela

Is there a difference? I mean they basically go with what you say...

Leo

Have you forgotten why we came, Ms talbot??

Donna

I shift!

Bela

You claim you want him out of the throne but have agreed with not validating anyone's points based on his judgments...

Leo

I’m not sure you have the knowledge to say you know my decision already. You are dismissed. Bobby do you have a question?

Gabe

If I may answer your honor?

Bela

But my question did not get answered

Bobby

Uh... I think No, your honor. No questions from me.

Leo

Your question is whether I agree with anything Gabriel has done thus far? The answer is no, or this court case wouldn’t have happened. If you’re … what is the term…. Salty because you were dismissed that’s entirely based on who you are. Has that answered your question?

Gabe

Your honor?

Leo

Yes?

Bela

My question wasn't directed at you I was asking Gabe...

Gabe

Before this be a Ed the Abel’s version of the Jerry springer show I’d like to answer her .

Leo

You may respond.

Gabe

There was a point, and there still is, I still face being taken off the throne, your job was to prove without a shadow of a doubt I’m unfit for the throne, my job was to defend myself, if discrediting your testimony is what it takes than that is what I have to do. So to answer you original questions, yes there was a point and the point was for you to prove I don’t belong and to have me ousted from the throne. That’s an answer to your question. Thank you. Next?

Bela

takes a seat again

Rachiel

Patience you can ask your question.

Donna

my hands tighten in themselves!

Patience

as I stand to your honor speaking only for myself I don't want to see Gabe off the throne, However Gabe is it possible that you could start explaining why you do things before you do them? As I can feel my whole body shake I myself want you to stay Gabe it would just be nice to get a heads up once in awhile

Gabe

I will agree to that , under the condition that all the other members be required to give reasonings for their behaviors before they do them

Patience

I agree with you Gabe thank you and thank you your honor

Leo

Crowley do you have a question for the defendant?

Gabe

For example: Bela giving her reasoning for questioning things BEFORE questioning them

Bela

Why you gotta call me out like that?

Gabe

Your question is done

Rachiel

Please take your seat Bela

Bela

I already did. I am sitting

Rachiel

Please stay quiet for the room

Gabe

slaps the witness stand like it’s a broken tv thinking something how the channel got changed to the “Bela Talbot Show”

Crowley

I do. I stand and walk forward Gabe, you rule over heaven. Supposedly over the 'Good, holy, and pure'.. on the other side? I rule over the dammed souls. Demons are viewed as a majority as evil and the villains. What makes you different from the demons who are supposedly your foil? I'm just curious.

Olivia

giggle

Charlie

having listened to all of the testimonies I’m conflicted, I know in my heart Gabe has always done his best for us, but I also know he’s hurt many of us… but I feel the more ‘human’ sides of him is what makes him a good god, and a great best friend…I start bouncing my leg in nervous anticipation

Alex

I know Gabe is a god and he good at running heaven and god Took a deep breath and smiles

Gabe

What makes me different? Well as stated already by the prosecution I’m honest to a fault. I dont torture those who are welcomed into heaven once they pass through the pearly gates. The souls are given to we willingly (our Rl code of conduct aside) with a time limit or a maddening torturous death once they give me their soul. Contrary to popular belief, with this small sample of the human race I’m fair and just. I don’t do things because of what’s in it for me. I look out for everyone, I take the downtrodden the less fortunate and without leading them to temptation, I try to lead them to a better life. To do on earth as it is in heaven. To make those lives better for those who believe in me. Not as just someone who can do things for them, or save…

Leo

Ellen you’re next.

Ellen

Gabe. as I think we all know most of us want you to keep the throne. I can't speak for everyone, I've had no issue with it as I would not want your job. My question is. What do you want?

Gabe

That’s a very good question. No one ever asks me that. I like where I am, the throne was thrust at me without my asking or fighting for it. If you’re asking if I want to stay on the throne? Of course! If you’re asking what I want deep down: happiness, world peace, a long life with Donna making lots and lots of nephelim

Leo

Lucifer SPN, your question.

Ellen

Thank you I smile and turn away

Eileen

(world peace? what are you, Miss United States or something? 😂)

Gabe

( you can argue for loving war all you like personally unless you fuck with those I care about I’m a pacifist, of course I want world peace )

Lucifer

has a million things I wanna say as I stand up, but I just narrow my eyes instead. Cross my arms over my chest .... I could stand here and argue all day about not actually perjuring myself- because it's true. But instead, I'll ask you while you're under an oath to satisfy my own curiosity... hesitates ... Was it true, that you love me?

Gabe

Absolutely true, you’re my brother, and even after you tried to kill me I still love you. That won’t ever change no matter how much we argue or differ on opinions

Lucifer

silently nods, actually quiet for once when I sit back down

Bobby

surprised you have nothing to say, I raise my brows and mutter how I didn't even know that was possible...

Alex

Listening watching Gabe and smiles

Donna

Amen to that!!!!

Alex

Yes! Smiles

Leo

Meg, you look like you have something to say

Meg

gulp, taking a quick glance at Cass across the room, I shake my head slightly, thinking i might be crazy to do this yes. looking Gabe in the eyes is there a way I might.... gulping down my fear I plunge on get into heaven?

Donna

eyes big blinking

Gabe

To see Cass ? That depends on you. As of this very second noI’m under oath

Meg

taking a step closer isn't l..l..love, the best reason to get in? looking at Cass longingly

Gabe

I’m sorry meg I answered your question already. I’ll get into a further explanation later

Meg

looking back at Gabe, with a possible hope kindled thank you.

Leo

In a few moments he may not have the power to do so.

Gabe

Then there’s that

Leo

I believe Sam is next

Meg

thinking to myself it's not up to you, thankfully!

Sam

I stand up and walk to the witness stand I think most of my questions are for the Angels holding this mock-trial. I just don’t really understand the point of all this. You came in with a whole list of offenses and then just basically let US clear the air on whatever we felt like… I hold up my hand and just stop what I was saying. Because of my past experiences with Angels I don’t expect any answers…

I turn back to Gabe directly. I guess the only thing I’d really like to clear up and hear from you is… maybe the assurance that we all, I wave my hands to indicate all our Family aren’t just pests to you. Not just things you feel burdened to help when you have a free minute. We’ve all heard you lament about having to help us out all the time. Hunting the kinds o…

Gabe

Yes

Leo

Would you care to elaborate?

Gabe

To answer your question a bit more Sam I’ll say this: If I didn’t care I wouldn’t be here. Do you truly believe your team is the only team of hunters in all the worlds? No, obviously not, in fact my father even told you of all the numerous versions of it in all the other worlds, but when you call I show up. When you need me I’m there. When you pray I answer. Now to your point, and I’ll be brief about it as I plan to elaborate later , you put the term “ungrateful little shits” out there I didn’t. I help you, I answer you I fight side by side with you, and it never seems to be enough for you. I hope that clarifies things a little bit

Sam

Nods, what I expected Does.. thank you I go back to my seat

Alex

Look over Olivia and hold her hand and look back

Meg

as I sit in the back I can't take my eyes off Cass

Leo

Now that I have heard from everyone, I believe it is time for me to pass my judgement. I’ve listened to everyone here, and while some were valid complaints, I do see some as trivial human emotions getting in the way at times too. As angels we were created to be above that, and Gabriel—that is your biggest crime in my eyes. To continue on what I’ve learned here in court today…. I’ve made some notes.

reading from the paper in front of me

Killing Henry with cookies was over kill and indeed an abuse of power.

Lack of remorse or apology for the emotional damage caused to your family.

Sam was not killed until after your child was returned so your argument with Ellen has no basis.

For your argument with ruby, while she didn’t ask to kill the others……

Meg

shocked

Alex

Gasp tearing down

Olivia

uncle Gabe Olivia frown

Gabe

looking over at Donna it’s a win win belle I promise leaving the court room in chains

Rachiel

leading you out

Alex

Hold Olivia shhh it ok baby

Bobby

My jaw drops and I look to the others before staring, shocked at Gabe and Cass.

Atheed

walking out behind you

(Cass, Balty and the others leave the courtroom in chains)

Alex

Cover my mouth

Lucifer

genuinely surprised, as I didn't think that was where the court proceeding was leading to. Watches Gabriel leave with an arched brow

Sam

Watches the Angels, pretty sure having them now in full charge of Heaven is not going to bode well for anyone.

Henry

runs over to Luci hi

Donna

STANDS! wait NO!!!! PISSED!!!!

Ruby

I thought there might be an ulterior motive behind this. The charges at the beginning showed that.

Meg

seeing Cass walking down the aisle, my eyes go black, and my heart breaks

Bela

surprised also and a bit upset now thinking he doesn't deserve it because while I haven't been around much he's done a lot of good also

Donna

How?!!! NO!!!!

Patience

eyes wide mouth nearly to the floor just shocked

Alex

Olivia mom I want Gabe Olivia wipe her eye

Donna

I see his brothers chained!! And run after Gabriel! gawd I need to be pregnant right now!!!!!!!

Alex

I know baby I know you do Holding Olivia wipe her tear

Little C

squirming away from momma I run to the front of the courtroom

Rachiel

I wave my hand and the doors shut

Crowley

I stare in honest shock Oh my.

Gabe

conjugal visits?

CASSIE AND EVIE GRAB ONTO MISS WHO EYES GLOW AND SHE STARTS TO FLOAT!!!

Alex

Olivia how long Gabe they be out Olivia yell

Gabe

not really in the mood at the moment darling

Little C

Mr Leo! You’re wrong!!! My daddy taught us to be good! And to use our manners!!! looking back for a sibling or two to join me

(the 11 8.5 years old start to cry… making the younger ones cry too!!)

Gabe

who knew me in chains was such a turn on?

Leo

surprised to see the child

Bobby

This has GOT to be a joke!

Ellen

He’s not dying... just in cuffs lmao You kill me woman

Little C

Lizzy!! You coming???

Donna

not right now! I mean before the court! oh baby noooo! I grab onto you! I glare at her! do you know remember what terms was! losing on tight to him!

Bela

stand up watching this is crazy... There goes heaven, hell and everything...

LIZZY

nods and follows her little sister! ZACH! Come on!

Lucifer

kicks back and watches the mayhem, quietly observing for the moment

Little C

holding out my hand let’s fix it!

Olivia

this is not fair

Little C

We’re gonna teach you a lesson Mr Leo… you’re gonna be a good boy just like daddy said!

Crowley

I sigh and shake my head Guess mommy angel didn't get the memo. He said he'd accept whatever verdict.

Bela

hoping all the little angels can do something

LIZZY

Takes you’re hand! Then looks to Zach. Who is one not crying but stone cold pissed!

Donna

BUGGER OFF CROWLEY!!!!! yells at him!

Henry

cuddles up to you to sleep

Bobby

I turn to the others, standing. Well I hope ya'll are happy!

ZACH

gets pulled by LIZZY! okay okay!

Alex

Take Olivia hand and walk over you Donna

Crowley

I'm just observing a fact. Bloody hell. I look over at Henry on Lucifer and rub the pups back

Donna

holding onto MY love not letting him go!

Little C

On a count of three…. I need you to count though….

Leo

What is the meaning of this….

LIZZY AND ZACH NOD

Alex

Gabe! Help Donna

Little C

eyes turning blue Ok… count!

LIZZY AND ZACH

Gabe

It’s ok darlin I said if I were guilty I’d take the punishment

LIZZY AND ZACH

Patience

thinking to myself sure wish Meg could have gotten to spend a minute with Cass before they carted him off

Donna

You’re going to be locked away forever! I can’t have that!!!!

Alex

What Donna said Gabe

Bela

watching the kids curious what they are up to

Bobby

yeah, she's right. this is bull!

Meg

staring at the kids in stunned silence, watching them do what none of us could

Little C

with a bright flash of blue joined by my siblings Leo, Rachiel and Atheed are now in chains where Balthazar Cass and Gabe once were See daddy! We were good! Now you gotta punish the naughty angels ……..

Bela

I actually agree with you

Gabe

rubbing my wrists GOID job princess!

Leo

You can’t cheat a trial!!! struggling to get out of the chains

Alex

Olivia look over Gabe please Gabe don’t go Olivia frown

Atheed

looking down realizing I'm suddenly in cuffs what the heaven???

Bobby

So why did you work so hard against him? Huh? I'll listening intently!

Gabe

looking at Lizzy and Zack well don’t my little angels

Bela

I didn't not really anything I said was discredited anyway

Rachiel

realizing I'm in the cuffs now

Little C

beaming I run back to momma Look momma! We fixed it!! Me Zack and Lizzy!!

Alex

Olivia hahahahaha

MISSY

Vanishes from her sisters arms and appears in front of Leo, her whole body glowing WATCH US!!!!!

Bobby

So HoW tHe HeLl dId We GeT hErE????

Gabe

turning to look at the angels looks like this fake trial is over

Alex

Olivia go missy go

Donna

Good girl baby!!!! looks Cassie!

Bela

I have no idea? I'm just as clueless as you

Cassie

appears next to mommy and daddy! yes mother!

Donna

Free daddy please!

Bobby

I shake my head and mutter in a quiet voice. You know, we have to fix this somehow. We need a plan.

Alex

Walking over to Gabe Smiles glad you are ok Hugs tight me and my children love you

Bela

Looks like they already have a plan since the angels are in cuffs and Gabe Cass and Balthy aren’t

CASSIE

Of course. Using her Nephilim powers she puts her hands on dads cuffs and snaps them with ease there you go dad! 🥰

Bela

walk over to Gabe I'm actually glad you are staying

Bobby

I look over what??

Gabe

Thank you my little Tesla!

Bela

You forget their kids have powers...

Bobby

I... forget a lot of things...

CASSIE

Beams!!

Bela

Great job Cassie

Gabe

snapping my fingers all of us including the angels appear back in the courtroom a devils trap on the ceiling I have one question for YOU Leo

CASSIE

Thank you greatly Bela!

Alex

Good job Cassie Hugs Cassie

Meg

speechless about everything, I plop back down on the seat and stare in wonder

Crowley

I look up curiously. Me? Out of everyone?

Bela

now confused more I sit down

CASSIE

Thank you Auntie Bear! hugs

Alex

You’re welcome Smiles and look over donna are you ok Donna?

Sam

Having a tough time understanding what's actually going on

Gabe

snapping again all the exits lock

Cassie

walks over and grabs Missy’s arm and drags her back to her seat! Missy glaring at Leo, her free fingers doing….

Lucifer

sighs and glares at the doors when they lock, wondering what the hell is about to happen now

Alex

Eh I not going anywhere Sit and smiles at Gabe

Bela

jump at the locking doors

Ruby

Uh, Meg....me

Henry

wakes up from my nap what's going on

Crowley

Noting good for us I'm sure.

Alex

Lol love you missy and Cassie 🥰

Donna

Much better!!! Thank you bear bear!

Lucifer

No doubt...

Bobby

snaps gaze towards the door.

Alex

You’re welcome Smiles hugs

Leo

scowling Can you repeat your question?

Gabe

I hadn’t asked it but I will now , and remember I will know if your lying and I won’t be nearly as lenient if you lie, I want them to hear your answer: was their any chance you would find me not guilty or were you planning on the guilty verdict no matter the testimony

Sam

Thinks even I can answer that

Donna

glares at Leo!

Leo

As I said, there is a faction that has split off in heaven. OUR goal was to get you off the throne.

Missy

starts glowing again

Bela

listening to the dumb angel

Alex

Glaring at Leo

Leo

You were guilty before I arrived

CASSE

GRABS INTO HER!!!! nooo ..breathe

Gabe

Honesty appreciated snapping my fingers I send the angels Leo, Atheed, Rachiel to heavens jail

Donna

my hand slips down my leg

Gabe

I turn back to the team my eyes glowing

Donna

Awwwww man!!! Lol going offer Bear Bear some chicken wings! 😁

Alex

Hold Olivia hand Gabe?

Meg

staring at Gabe, I mutter oh shit.

Gabe

I promised you no retribution, and no harm will come to you, but you WILL hear me out.

Alex

Bear smiles at Donna hehehe

Alex

Yes sir Gabe you are my master Bear smiles

Bobby

I slow clap, proud. well done.

Donna

I sit back … not the time. I hush. As does missy!

Bela

seeing Gabe's eyes glowing I move to stay out of view

Gabe

pacing the room, watching the team

Ellen

It's the least we can do since they paraded us around like that.

Bobby

I pull you back into view oh no you don't.

Alex

Sit

Bela

I'm still listening geez

Lucifer

sits back, glad someone else gets a taste of being guilty before even speaking

Gabe

I’ve watched and I e listened for 3 days about what a pain in the ass I am, a complete assassination of my character. I’ve heard things such as “when you’re not in the bunker things are more fun” if that’s the way you feel, it shall be done snapping my fingers

Meg

getting nervous and fidgety, wishing I had one of my blades

Alex

Look down

Gabe

I’ve heard you rang on and on about family, and about “poor Sam”, I’ve heard you say I abuse my power, that I care for no one but myself, Donna and out children.

Crowley

I arch a brow wondering if this would be a normal leaving or turn everything upside down before leaving kind of exit. Though understanding why he was going

Patience

jumping from my seat oh but Gabe we also defended you

Ellen

Whoa Gabe. Not all of us felt that way

Bela

Not really

Sam

thinks everyone is just a little too damn late

Alex

I said I have no against you

Gabe

Yet I hear none of you lament in the fact our child was stolen from us minutes after she was born. I heard NONE of you speak up in court when the judge asked if ANY of you could remember me dying for you and not a SINGLE ONE OF YOU SPOKE UP IN THE FOURT ROOM

Donna

nods

Alex

Look away wipe my eye

Crowley

I keep a steady forward gaze, not outwardly letting the words affect me.

Gabe

I hear about how I never heard Sam and Ruby out , and yet your deaths at my hands are constantly thrown in my face though I told all of you my reasoning behind it ! I even set up a plan with two others to make sure you not only came back but helped kill death himself in the process keeping you from not being permanently dead and getting my family back

Bela

thinking about what he's saying

I feel so bad right now

Bela

So do I

Alex

I care about you Gabe

Gabe

I’ve bleat, I’ve died, I’ve been in Coma’s, and I do it all for you and you question my loyalty? My convictions? My heart my soul my sweat my tears go into this team this group…….

As do I

Gabe

And all I hear is complaining You, all of you , you don’t want a God God, you want a god of convenience You want a god who will do what you want when you want and then shut his mouth and not be heard , a pet god so to speak So while I may not cause any harm to anyone hear as I promised …..For the foreseeable future while I consider if my heart ad my desire is to still get here with this team and in this group …..Heaven is CLOSED for the foreseeable future

Bobby

I lower my gaze, listening, guilty

I feel so ashamed

Meg

eyes bugging out

Crowley

Oh my..... I look shocked at the development

Patience

As do I

Bela

feel bad as I haven't given him much chance

Gabe

You guys, fend for yourselves for a bit. Do your thing, have your bar nights and trivia nights and RP nights, but as of right now, the angel station is closed taking Donna in my arms and the kids we vanish the doors unlock, the devils trap vanishes

Alex

Thank lot guys I want Gabe to be god and I care about Gabe Take Olivia hand and head home

Crowley

I look around at the group shell shocked feeling the tiniest bit responsible.

Lucifer

smirks a little to myself, sensing some opportunities on the horizon

Sam

❤️

Henry

looks around as I process what's happening on Luci lap

Crowley

I elbow Luci in the side guessing his thoughts Not the time nimrod

Bobby

I sigh, shaking my head. Well, we really stepped in it this time.

Bela

Now what do we do? Didn't really want them gone gone

Lucifer

in too good of a mood to have Crowley take me out of it- I pat Henry's head and stomp Crowley's foot

Sam

(😳Do things happen on Luci's lap?)

Crowley

(Nothing untoward)

Ellen

with my heavy heart I turn and walk out the doors

Henry

the room while sitting there

Bobby

Well now they are! Welcome to anarchy. REAL anarchy.

Sam

I think you might be right Bobby

Crowley

So.... who needs help getting home?

Alex

Thank lot guys sad

Meg

thinking to myself there's gotta be a way in to heaven. Gabe said there might be. I'm determined to find it I vanish to hell to do some "research"

Bobby

I raise a hand

Bela

Lacking sensitivity or compassion much? Sadly you are probably right Most of us I think

Bobby

our delicate doily feelings are what got us into this mess, Bela.

Henry

I live with Luci now

Crowley

Quiet down and be nice, or S.S. Lucifer is taking you. Argue it or on home ground.

Bela

Yeah and forgetting what he's done for us

I’ll take A lift

Crowley

Wow pup. I'm hurt.

Bobby

nodding

Lucifer

Whoa hey- I did not volunteer the archangel express for this.

Sam

stands up Look Guys, I know this is all confusing... but we'll figure it out, we will. But for now, let's all go back to the Bunker. looks around at the court room We've been here long enough

Bobby

I glance nervously toward lucifer

Crowley

I hold up a shiny ring

Henry

I still love you

Crowley

Forgiven. You're too sweet.

Bela

I'm ready to go home... Wherever that seems to be..

Bobby

don't waste your breath. I do NOT want a ride from you anyway, satan!

Lucifer

Good thing I wasn't going to give you one..?

Crowley

Luci, look at the shiny ring I chirp.

Henry

Shiny?! Where?!

I can’t wait to get back to the bunker and go to sleep

Sam

END (for now)

Lucifer

Oh so now you've got a thing for shinies?

………………………………………..

8. The last called to the stand is Gabriel Atheed, Leo, and Rachiel take turns questioning him, followed by a cross examination as the team watches and Donna and the kids fret. Closing arguments are made.

9. Leo renders his decision (make it your own here Charlie I’m not influencing it through the outline). After the trial the team goes back to the bunker discussing the trial as Donna a huge chip on her shoulder against the team and 30+ very angry nephilim head home. (if found not guilty Gabe will go with them if found guilty, Gabe is locked away and unable to go)

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Covid-19 (02.12-09.12)

Last week was pretty stressful both at school and at home. Besides starting preparing for final exam next year, I'm also doing Edx and German online course. The first week of school was total full of squeezing my brain out, including weekend. The second week was also the same, plus there are two Indo boys just arrived not long ago...I think a month ago. We have same school block. At first I was being nice and trying to be helpful as they live in outskirt Rostock, the train departs only every two hours and I understand how that feels. I don't even understand why our company chose that housing for them.

Not only they have not German number yet, but also no German bank account. Well, they think I might can help them out and start asking some questions related to apartments, school, adjustment, etc.

One of them speaks like a broken stereo. One day he greeted me from the door of my class with high pitch voice in Indonesian. I was shocked und uncomfortable, moreover there are other students in the class. That was the beginning of me showing withdrawn behavior, though I try to be nice and polite. The other boy is still very young, 20ish and complaints pretty much which I understand totally. Later on ke kept chatting me on Whatsapp asking this and that non stop, asking to come by cause he still has many questions. At that time my mind was already full with tests and online course deadlines.

Well...in the end I couldn't hold it anymore and asked Novita to take a night walk. On the following day I started feeling unwell, so I took medicine after having breakfast and felt super sleepy during classes. Soaking myself in the bathtub didn't even help me much, I got out before the dizziness became stronger. In the evening my condition was worse. Headache, fever, sore throat, cough, shivering. I fell asleep at 6 PM and woke up at 4 AM on Friday. At that moment I was wondering if I could make it to the doctor and thank God I did it.

I didn't think much if it was Covid, my doctor recommended to do Antigen test at home and I wasn't even convinced to do that. On Saturday I decided to do Antigen test after Han Han suggested me to do so. Turn out yeaaaaa. I was pretty pissed. All of these 2,5 years I've been trying to be cautious because of my job and now out of the blue during school week I caught Covid-19. Yoooo.

The next few days were pretty awful and exhausting. There were no nights I didn't drink much and going back and forth to toilet and coughing. On Monday I contacted my Hausartz and the nurse sounded confused of what to do. Said she'd call me back in an hour and no call back. I called them back and no answer. 30 minutes later when I decided to go to other clinic which is 30 minutes away and more far, she finally called me and still sounded confused, and suddenly hanged up. I called back again and no answer. Sigh.

When I almost reached the second clinic, the nurse called me again and informed that I could come over and do PCR test. I couldn't complain more and said great. There was no point being mad at her because it's Covid and it's for other people safety, though I was disappointed at first because my two friends shared their experiences and their docs were being helpful. Don't tell me to go see their docs because that's not how German healthcare system works.

Finally the doctor did PCR test on me and I extended my sick certificate. I informed my classmates and they were being nice, my bosses are also being nice and understanding, my colleagues are being helpful, too.

I cannot forget how awful it was exactly a week ago. To be honest I was hesitant to tell my parents but nonetheless they are my family so they must know. I'm glad I was able to go through this shit alone and not losing the smell and taste. Today my Antigen test states negative. Yay!!

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St. Patrick’s Breastplate -- Psalm 10 -- Sunday, November 13, 2022

One important detail of the Harry Potter series is the significant and well-placed fear of Lord Voldemort that exists in the wizarding world. Voldemort was a very powerful and very evil wizard who had shown no reluctance to unleash real harm on the wizarding world. People are so afraid of Voldemort that they refuse to say his name, relying instead on euphemisms like “He who must not be named” or “you know who.”

Albus Dumbledore, headmaster of Hogwarts, thought this was a bad idea, and he regularly encouraged people to call Voldemort by his name. Near the end of the first book in the series, Harry Potter has just referenced “He-who-must-not-be-named.” Dumbledore corrects him, saying,

Call him Voldemort, Harry. Always use the proper name for things. Fear of a name increases fear of the thing itself.

It’s a point that is relevant for our own fears. A topic that we cannot over emphasize is how we will respond when evildoers impact our lives and get in the way of God’s plans. It’s a form of the question, “Why do bad things happen to good people?” We know that the Bible offers us a consistent assurance that if we are faithful and do what is right in God’s eyes, then God will reward us. The Bible also offers a consistent assurance that if we are unfaithful, if we choose to do what is wrong, then God will punish us. Such a theological perspective can be found from the earliest pages of the Old Testament on through to the latest pages of the New Testament.

Having said that, we know that life and faith doesn’t always work out that way. A long line of Christian tradition from the Bible down through our times shows us how people respond when God’s promises seem to either be thwarted or are a lot longer time coming that we had thought. I find an amazing feature of the Bible to be the amount of space that is given to people who want to complain to God for not delivering on those promises. That continues throughout the Christian tradition. Our faith leaves a lot of room for both complaint and lament as a means of being honest with God and strengthening our faith. We are not expected to maintain that smile on our face that says, “Everything’s great!” while masking the difficulties we are going through; ours is a faith that leaves room to engage the difficulties and the troublemakers and the evildoers of life head on.

I am also grateful that these stories are not all the same. St. Patrick’s story can almost be intimidating in its sacrificial challenge. But it is his story, and we should know it, alongside of other people’s stories that are much less heroic.

St. Patrick’s life and prayer are significant to us because they offer the example of someone for whom spiritual platitudes and pious generalities were meaningless; someone who knew what it meant to persevere in the faith and in God’s calling in the face of enemies who actively opposed their work. Psalm 10 does the same thing, giving us the vocabulary to use when we encounter enemies.

St. Patrick’s life

Patrick’s story requires we separate a bit of myth from truth. Many are familiar with the story of him charming the snakes in Ireland and leading them off the island; this is certainly false. There is also the legend that he used the shamrock as a means of teaching about the Trinity; this, too, has no historical support. What is known is that he was a person of remarkable courage and faith who had a unique method of evangelism that is relevant for our time.

Patrick was born in Britain around the year 385 to a family that seems to have only been marginally religious. Patrick’s father was a deacon but is thought to have taken on the role as a tax advantage, and not because he was particularly religious.

When he was 16, a group of Irish pirates attacked the community where Patrick lived and took him to Ireland, where he lived for six years as a slave for a pagan druid named Miliuc. Patrick was treated cruelly and forced to spend much of his time tending his master’s flocks in the fields away from people; it was here that Patrick was able to call on whatever faith understanding he had and develop the habit of regular, fervent prayer. In his Confession—the account of his life and faith—he records that it was not uncommon for him to pray over 100 times a day and 100 more times at night. It would turn out that this time of slavery was not wasted spiritually; being outdoors, learning to rely on his senses, and finding strength in regular prayer were characteristics that God would later draw out of Patrick as he developed his evangelistic methods.

One night while in captivity, Patrick heard a voice saying, “Soon you will return to your homeland.” He fled his captivity and walked nearly 200 miles to the coast, convincing a ship’s captain to give him passage to England. He returned to his parents, but soon felt a call to return not only to Ireland but specifically to his former captor to bring the Gospel to him.

Our appreciation of St. Patrick’s Breastplate will be greater if we can wrap our minds around how difficult Patrick’s life was. There is a reason that this prayer has been given the name “breastplate” because it is a prayer for protection from danger. Certainly, being an itinerant missionary in the early years of the 5th century would have been challenge enough. But the Irish druids—the local religious and tribal leaders—of that time were a force to be reckoned with. Patrick’s life was at risk for sharing the Gospel.

To give you a sense of what Patrick was up against, as his reputation spread throughout Ireland, he came to be seen as a person whose God had given him great power, greater, in fact, than the gods of the druids. It had been Patrick’s intention upon returning to Ireland to share the Gospel with his former captor; but this man grew fearful of Patrick’s reputation, and eventually locked himself in his house and set it on fire to avoid a confrontation with Patrick.

St. Patrick’s Breastplate

Because this prayer is likely new to us, take the insert out of your bulletin and let’s look at this together.

First, notice that the portion of the prayer included in the anthem this morning comes near the end. How many of you had heard those words before? Those are magnificent words that can really serve to orient our daily living with an awareness of Jesus with us.

Moving back to the beginning, notice that this is a morning prayer. The value of a morning prayer is in the opportunity to focus our thoughts on what is before us: the particular challenges or dangers or opportunities or trouble spots of the day. When you get up in the morning, what do you need to pray for? This is a great opportunity to pray with specificity. (The next time we do a series on prayer, it might be helpful to focus on prayers that are connected with times of day—something our hymnal is helpful with.)

Like the Jesus Creed, this prayer includes some confessions of faith as a reminder of the One to whom are prayer are addressed and the great tradition in which our lives are rooted. The work we do in following Jesus doesn’t revolve around us; it is rooted in a Person and in a great tradition.

Like the Prayer of St. Francis, Patrick’s prayer includes an obvious appreciation for nature, something we might expect from someone who spent a lot of time outdoors.

Connection to Psalm 10

I suspect that—like the other prayers we’ve looked at—there is much here that we can quickly appreciate and bring into our own prayer life. But St. Patrick’s Breastplate also includes two “stanzas” that seem strange. I mentioned these in the devotional guide and want us to think about them today and again on Wednesday night. We might have a harder time identifying with a prayer that includes references to the “black laws of pagandom,” or the “craft of idolatry,” or the need to be shielded “against poison, burning, drowning, [and] wounding.” These are not our experience. I don’t worry about these things; therefore, I don’t pray about them.

But that does not mean these words don’t have value. It just means that my worldview and life experience shouldn’t be considered normative. These words offer us a different opportunity to reflect on the nature of our enemies, because sometimes when life isn’t going the way we want it to go, it is because we have actual opponents either standing in our way or actively working against us.

This is where Psalm 10 can become helpful to us, because the Psalmist includes some of the harsher language in the Bible. Notice again verse 15:

Break the arm of the wicked and evildoers; seek out their wickedness until you find none. The Lord is king forever and ever; the nations shall perish from his land.

What does it mean to pray that the plans of our enemies fail?

Psalms 9 (our Call to Worship) and 10 are thought to have been originally one Psalm that recounts both God’s goodness in the past and wonders about God’s seeming silence in the present. Together, they are yet another case of the Bible affirming that life should turn out a certain way even as we acknowledge that sometimes it doesn’t.

Psalm 9 begins by praising God for all the wonderful things God has done—enemies have been defeated, the weak find protection in God, righteousness prevails. All the things we believe we have been promised are becoming reality in our living, and the Psalmist is thankful.

But then Psalm 10 begins with questions that we, too, have uttered from time to time:

Why, O Lord, do you stand far off? Why do you hide yourselves in times of trouble?

The “trouble” is the active sinfulness and evil of the wicked and unrighteous. They are not supposed to prevail—God has promised that the righteous will prosper—but here they are; to borrow a sports metaphor, the wicked and greedy oppressors are “running up the score.” Because we live in between Jesus’ incarnation and his return, we will have to grow accustomed to dealing with evil. Perhaps it is that we don’t pray this way because we don’t have enemies—or we don’t think we have any enemies, or we just aren’t paying attention. Our relative affluence provides a measure of protection from the really dangerous circumstances of the world. I’m not sure I can recall someone who was actively out to do me harm. Irritants? Sure. Annoyances? Regularly. But enemies? Not really.

But there was a lockdown at both Roanoke City high schools this year. Thankfully, there was no active threat. But those were our students and our teachers in those classrooms, sheltering in place in a classroom wondering if the person at the door is an assistant principle coming to check or a shooter coming to do harm. What kind of strong prayer language does this provoke in us?

How might a grandmother from NW Roanoke pray about her high school age grandson, after one of their friends is murdered?

How do we handle enemies? We deal with them directly.

Martin Luther King, Jr. had some ideas on this—enemies should be confronted nonviolently. He felt the church should be the thermostat of a community, drawing attention to the injustices in a place so that everyone could have access to the best of what America offers.

In wanting injustices stopped, he did not want bad things to come to his enemies; as he says in his famous “double victory” speech:

And one day we will win our freedom but we will not only win freedom for ourselves. We will so appeal to your heart and your conscience, that we will win you in the process. And our victory will be a double victory.

Both Psalm 10 and St. Patrick’s Breastplate name enemies. The Psalmist prays that these persons would be actively stopped. St. Patrick prays for personal protection from their evil schemes. But either way, both the Scripture and this prayer deny us the privilege of a certain pietist sophistication that acts as if naming the “evils we deplore” (something we’ll sing about in a few minutes) shouldn’t be talked about. Naming our enemies provides a strategy for both prayer and action.

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dukeoftheblackstar · 2 years

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[ Moving my rants from FB to here for a while so I don't accidentally block a bitch and get fired ] 08/24/22

And in comes today's dilemma of honesty or just plainly taking it with a nod and moving on. I can't deal with the whole 'fix your tone' bullshit because that's what it is; absolute bull.

Fixing my tone is just another way of telling me to suppress my emotions which clearly indicates how passionate I am about what I believe in and the authenticity of airing my concern indicates how I take my responsibilities seriously.

I don't cuss nor throw insults, but when I'm upset I'm not about to pretend that I'm not. I'm not about to shift my entire personality because how people define professionalism is so flawed that it basically means to put your head down.

I'm not soft-spoken and I'm not sorry about that either. I hate small talks and flowery sentences when we can just be upfront about things and get it dealt with. Have more room for propositions and proper talk.

More and more do I feel like this company's a fucking chore to work with. I love what I do, the task at hand, but the fucking process changes is making it difficult for us. Certain processes we could do gets taken away, updates done without prior notice, and the way unreasonable Kens and Karen's are dealt with remains primitive.

Why not stand up for us, huh? Why not tell them they didn't read the email right? Why not go after how fucking shitty they are for not watching ACTUAL LOOM VIDEOS made tailored to their concerns? WHY NOT LOOK AT THE MTHRFCKIN SCREENSHOTS, YOU DUMB BITCH?

But yes, customers are always right. No argument about this that would ever impact how the corporate runs you down like slaves because they pay your fucking bills.

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I have to be coached for a few negative ratings because some bitch specifically said 'she thought' there was no workaround when I just gave her the fucking workaround with a fucking screenshot.

And another because our company product cannot do what she wants to, which was edit what a button would say on her checkout page. And there I was, being the even dumber bitch for trying, went out of my way to conjure a code she could use (even though we do not support coding assistance), offered it TWICE (to which she declined) went on a tirade about how our product is so shit.

THEN BITCH MOVE.

Now comes the big decision of being honest or just taking the L and moving on. And by honest, I mean really calling out the fact that:

The assigned support staff has the audacity to remind us to always acknowledge (even with a tiny emoji) call-outs and posts when I FUCKING TAGGED YOU TWICE TO MAKE A FOLLOW-UP ON THIS GODDAMN BITCH, TO WHICH YOU ACKNOWLEDGED WITH YOUR SHITTY EMOJI,BUT DID NOT FUCKING DO. OH AND DID I TELL YOU ABOUT HOW THEY'RE NOT GONNA SCRUB OFF THAT NEGATIVE RATING OFF MY GODDAMN SCORE, WHICH ELIMINATES ME FROM BEING A CANDIDATE FOR A PRIZE MONEY? BECAUSE IDK, I FUCKING NEED IT?

And then my boss. My boss is cool and kind, informative and shit. But same deal tho. You want us to always acknowledge shit, but you leave DMS the whole day unanswered? Tagged you in. Nothing. I get you have work more than us or even meetings, but a whole day tho? Even messages when I call in because I'm sick get unanswered. Cool fam. How tf am I supposed to know if I'm getting goddamn attendance points or not?

I had over forty, going fifty tickets amidst our 30-35 limit. I did chat and made no complaints from shifting my schedule from email to chat to chat to email because we had an outage. We were told to endorse potential bad - rating tickets and I did. I always do. I fucking always do because I take my fucking job seriously.

But I guess I fucking shouldn't, should I? Maybe I should just be mediocre at work and clock in between the hours I'm supposed to be and get the fuck out?

God fucking damn it, I am so fired up.

Fix my fucking tone. I'll fix your fucking face.

#[ o o c ]#curses #rant #dump #[ musings of an egg in denial ]#[ a very angry egg in denial ]

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your-enby-antihero · 2 years

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I just finished The Legend of Vox Machina season one and I am literally shaking. Like the second last episode where Cass gets visions of her and Percy as kid had me reduced to tear. The change to make it Keyleth who is mortally wounded was an unexpected choice but since Vex and Keyleth didn’t have as strong a bond as they did in the original campaign I can see why they changed it. And to be honest it’s really Vex and Vax of the twins to have adorable relationships with their sibling’s s/o. (Even with the slightly romantic undertones of those relationships, Prec’ildan and Vexleth shippers I see you) I was so cool that Pike and Keyleth still got to beat the shit out of Sylas and Grey Griffin’s performance of the “I broke the world for us“ line was just bone chilling. Seeing the twins fight just pulled at my heartstring like 🥺😭🥺😭. Grog getting to rematch against Sylas and Pike fucking up Delilah to save our favourite gnome bard was just literally everything. And I bet you can guess my favourite moment for the episodes from the screenshot at the top. Like I have ways been a huge Perc’ahlia shipper, like honestly one of my favourite couples of all the media I’ve watched. And Percy’s expression when she slipped the mask off his face was just horrifying in a good way. Vex’s line delivery was just so smooth like Laura kicked it out of the park and so did everyone else, who would have thought a show based in a dnd game with professional voice actors would have amazing voice acting /lh /j. Anna being in the acid room was crazy and the animation on the fight scenes was incredible. I also just loved the way they did Orthax too, like then Scanlan throwing the gun into the acid. Only complaint I have is that we didn’t get hold personed Percy saying “You were never mother’s favourite she told me,” I adore this line. AND THE ENDING, like what a way to end a season. The dragons flying over head and Uriel being in the Cloud-top proclaiming the creation of the Tal’dorei Council as a government I cannot wait for season two!

#critical role #the legend of vox machina #cr spoilers #lovm spoilers #tlovm spoilers #the legend of Vox Machina spoilers

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just-some-random-blogger · 3 years

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Bootylicious

Stray Kids Bang Chan x Idol!Reader Summary: You're known as the gym rat in your group, and quite frankly, you only have two moods: shredding or chilling. This was why when you're not asleep in between schedules, you're spotted with a male idol you happened to meet in the gym you were at that day. It's a known fact though, that you and Bang Chan are gym buddies and each other's spotter. Word Count: 2k+ Warnings: Internet toxicity, sasaengs, vulgar language, sexism, misogyny, pining, fluff, mentions of Pentagon because why not <3, etc.

A/N: Girl, i shouldn't do this but I did. It's so funny to me someone requested this cause I have recently become an exercise junkie lol. Also, if you can't tell, there is a pov shift after the cut so yeah. I also wanted to keep the reader gender neutral but I want to write about how psychotically different people treat male and female idols because that stuff aint it. It's most definitely not what anon was expecting me to write but I hope they enjoy it nonetheless.

There's compilation in YT with growing parts centered around you flexing your physical fitness and prowess. It ranges from you affectionally touring your fans, which really meant the cameraman, through the gym, introducing your trainer, and doing your routine on camera, to your group (and others) both fawning and bragging about how strong and how hot you are.

CLIP #1: A scene from an interview of your group in Japan, struggling to talk about how you can do 40 straight push ups.

There was a male interviewer in a suit you could all faintly recognize was talking about your recent Instagram post of a gym mirror selfie.

One of your youngest members smirked and in broken Japanese, cutely said, "Wah, she does 100 push ups! Everyday, every night."

You snap your head to the maknae and raise your brows, "nani?" You begin to shake your hands in protest and begin to explain your truth, "absolutely not 100. Maybe around 40, but nooooo, not 100."

The interviewer and your group comically react in awe. The man in the suit urges, "can you show us?"

You give a face, "Excuse me, but I'm not getting paid to do that in this miniskirt."

Everyone, including the film crew, break into laughter.

CLIP #2: A scene from a variety show where you had to prove you were, in fact, yourself, by doing a shortened version of your exercise routine.

One of the hosts of the show asks, "Wait, do you honestly do all of this in your workout? Like you can do all of it?"

The list of your exercises were written on a colourful cardboard, held by the one who just spoke. It was a range of exercises in 10 sets, from jumping jacks to sit ups, to vague sounding exercises like crab pinches and robot arms.

You purse your lips at the last question asked of you, not really liking the tone in which it was asked. You answer quickly and nod proudly, "I actually do more, cause when I get in the zone and I'm already really sweaty, I feel like I should keep going until my whole body burns." You chuckle.

The older hosts, tilt their head and mutter lowly under their breath something along the lines of, "I'd rather die."

You finally do the routine, quickly, continuously, earning impressed reactions from everyone.

"That's hot," one of the hosts note.

"Ya, for some reason it looks easy to do."

The hosts begin to clamour at that statement, and force whoever said to do the exact thing you did. Clearly, they don't work out as much as you do and cannot even get halfway through it without stopping.

You break out into a breathless laugh in amusement of the comical attempt but then protest, explaining how bad it is to force yourself to do more than you can

CLIP #3: Pentagon, Hongseok especially, fawns over how fit you are

Trailing a conversation about how your group is close with Pentagon because your companies are situated closely to each other and you wind up eating together a lot, there is an anecdote about how there was a jar no one could open, no one but you, that is.

The interviewer asks no one in particular, "wah, none of you could open the jar? Really? Or did you all just pretend so she could open it?"

There is a chorus of answers concluding with, "no really, she was the only one that was able to open it."

The story is backed up by how the jar had a really small lid and some hands were too big. Then came an explanation how you were recently into the new rock climbing machine in your gym.

Hongseok speaks up, "I was invited to go to rock climbing in, like, an actual rock climbing place and I was honestly so surprised when she began to climb. She said she never actually tried rock climbing on a wall, but it seemed like she had been doing it for years."

Shinwon agrees, "Right, right. I was also really curious about what they did that day," he points to Hongseok, "that I joined them one time. I never felt so out of shape in my life. I just stayed back and filmed everything."

Pentagon laughs, and then agrees that you were exceptionally fast and just super fit in all honesty.

The interviewer catches Hongseok's expression then suddenly asks, "do you like a woman like that?"

"Yeah, I like my women strong."

Then came a lot of teasing remarks from Pentagon, and a plethora of complaints from delusional fans who did not want Hongseok to ever breathe in your direction again.

With all that's been said about that, in all the parts of this series floating around in the internet, one thing remained, there was a slightly larger population of impressed fans than the still large portion of antifans who wanted nothing to do with it and only came around to hate.

It's hard not to think about it, but even the slightest back handed compliment can sometimes linger in one's mind.

And right now, as much as I kept my mind on my counting as I finished my set high knees, I couldn't help but think of how much backlash I got from posting a post workout photo with my midriff exposed.

Apparently that was not only enough to merit hate for being both a whore and an attention whore, but people baselessly began to hate on my groupmates simply for being associated with me.

It's kind of sad really, how, say Wonho, can post a fairly exposed photo of himself and get so much praise for it, and yet I couldn't even do anything remotely close to that.

And I don't even mean to come at Wonho, we all know he's a beast at the gym and should be able to show as much of his hard work as he is comfortable in showing, but why can't I?

"Hey trooper. I thought you said you were only doing 80 counts?" a voice cracks me out of my train of thought.

I turn to whom spoke and chuckle at myself as I stop my leg raises, "ah yeah, I got lost in thought, and your really good song."

I pull on my earphones and give a lopside smile, "I love working out to God's Menu."

He gives a soft, "he he, thanks."

"No need for a thank you when I'm only giving my honest opinion, Chan."

"Yeah, well still, it makes my kokoro go doki-doki," he sniggers, crossing his arms and flashing a dimpled smile. I raise my upper lip and reel back, "EWWW!"

I playfully shove him. He acts hurt, "this is violence against children."

"Chan, you're literally older than me."

"That doesn't mean I'm not a child at heart."

"You mean, it doesn't mean you're not a drama queen."

"Hey, I have no interest in having a throne, my only interest is," he leans in and whispers, "you."

I feel my soul leave my body as he snorts to himself and runs away. I regurgitate in surprise, "YA!"

"You better do your next set properly," Chan says heading off to a cable row machine, "I'm always watching."

I try to ignore the blood rushing up your neck, "creep."

He shrugs, "rather that or have you get injured, sweet heart."

Yeah, Chan has saved me from a lot of injuries I could have had. It was a bad habit. It stemmed from the same thing that made me mess up my count a while ago, my overthinking.

Sometimes I thought of rather harmless things, but sometimes I began to fixate on the hate I received for simply being. I do a lot to get my mind to realize that they hated me simply because they could and because it was easy. Exercising helped tremendously, especially when I had someone fun to work out with, especially when I was with Chan. He just... made me feel safe, y'know.

But when the news of us being work out buddies surfaced, a lot of sasaengs came for me. Of course, a lot of Stays and my own fans were really kind about, speaking out that we were our own people and exercising together did not mean anything in particular really.

But some really went for it, and made it a hobby to comment on everything I was in that I was a slut for 'working out' with different men every day."

I let out a breath as I finish my routine. I catch my breath and go for a swig of my water. I take a moment then sit down by the mirror, which was near where Chan was currently working out.

"You're doing it again."

I turn from where I was blankly staring at turn to Chan who gave me a soft look, "you good?"

I release a sigh then purse my lips, "maybe."

He pouts, "what happened?"

I shrug and stand from where I sat, "you know, the usual."

Chan then comes up to me and takes my water bottle from me, "you know, no matter how much people say you don't need water to live, you can never change the fact that you are extremely dependent on water to live."

I look at him and half- heartedly point, "are you calling me thirsty?"

He begrudgingly groans and releases a chuckle. He calls my name out in a scolding tone. I feel myself relax, "I know what you're getting at Chan."

He nods, "good. I'll always be here to remind you of that."

I smile and feel an urge to hug him, "if you weren't so sweaty, I would totally hug you right now."

Chan then gives me a look then does not hesitate to crush me into his arms. I groan and whine in protest. He chuckles, "you literally just said you wanted a hug!"

"YOU'RE LITERALLY SO SWEATY. NO ONE WANTS THIS TORTURE."

Chan huffs and gives a wounded look, "hmp. You better spot me while I lift or else I'm unfriending you."

"Hmm... I think I'll be good without you as a friend."

I half expect Chan to whine about it, but he instead smirks, "ahhhh, you must want me to be your boyfriends so badly huh."

I- I mean...

CLIP #4: A crack edit of Chan when he gets asked about his gym relationship with me in Chan's Room.

He was looking through the questions and suddenly chuckles, his ears noticeably began to redden. Cue a zoom in of his face and his red ears. Cue a clip of Cardi B saying, "that's suspicious."

He says my name then continues, "am I close with her? Yeah. I would say I'm close with her-- and her whole group actually."

Captioned: Nice save, Chris.

"The kids and I are close with her group," he says, clearing his throat.

A clip of him clearing his throat is repeated about ten times.

Chan adjust the beanie he was wearing as he thinks of what he was going to say next, "we actually do work out together a lot because she's under a trainer that works with my trainer."

Captioned: Sure, Chan. That's the only reason, right?

Chan catches another question, "Is she a beast in the gym like Hongseok says?" He breaks into a laugh. He then rubs his cheek and grits his teeth.

A clip of someone saying, "Oh he's jealous," flashes on screen.

"Yeah," Chan finally says, "she's got a really high stamina."

Cue the clip, WHAT DID HE SAY?

Chan continues, "she can go between exercises without stopping. she doesn't even take that much time to catch her breath. In fact, she sings while exercising sometimes, which helps make her vocals stable."

Captioned: Queen Tingz.

The next thing that happens is Chan breaks into a laugh and begins to chuckle. He says, "Sorry I saw a funny comment."

Captioned: WHAT HE MEANS IS HE SAW A COMMENT SAYING 'SHUT UP CHRIS, YOU'RE WHIPPED."

Then came these comments:

LITERALLY LOOK AT HOW FLUFFY BANG CHAN GETS WHEN HE TALKS ABOUT HER DONT FUCKING TOUCH ME MY SHIP IS ALIVE

They are dating period. prove me wrong. you cant

Chan literally blushes over anything, buT HE TURNED INTO A TOMATO WHEN HE TALKED ABOUT HER BYE

if you hate on your faves loving each other, you most definitely need Jesus (:

PLEASE CAN YOU SEE HOW WHIPPED THEY ARE FOR EACH OTHER

Yeah... it's not been confirmed to this day.

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