#why the fuck wohld they do this
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This wretched body is a curse and I am a saint unjustly imprisoned [malik keeps eating inadvisable amounts of dairy and then leaving me to suffer in star's stead]
#blaze's yapping#also keeps sleeping on the floor . our bed is fine hes just being weird for no reason . our fucking back#ALSO ok i guess we both do this but . biting and hitting to stim . she keeps bruising us#AND ALSO being an overall dumb idiot ??? why would u go walking to the kitchen in the dark when the floor is wet what is wrong w u#set pasta on fire ?? how do u manage that#keeps forgetting to rinse our mugs and drinking coffee dish soap ??????????#malik you are INSANE this body wohld not survive without me fr
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being ~resurrected~ was the most painful horrible thing that had happened to fitz why the fukc would he do that to beloved too
#greater gesture of love would have been to let him stay ~dead~ rather than hurt like that imo but#ive only read the first trilogy btw and read like detailed descriptions of the rest of the series so like#i know what happens you cant spoil anything for me#but im sure plenty of things will come as a surprise if i force myself to keep reading#like why the FUCK fitz wohld do this#says kenna
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So, I said I wohld have been gone for a while...
But I saw this artpeace by @isjasz (her tumblr) and it became my reason to live
So... Enjoy this oneshot while it last :D
Ps: I wanted to post it on AO3 too, but I don't have an account and I found out there is a FUCKING WAITING LIST, LIKE- WHYYYY I DON'T WANNA WAIT FOR MAY 18TH
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Hotguy looked at at the city from the ceiling, it all looked to peaceful during the night.
He immediately forgot what he was here for though, which was a problem and a very Scar thing to do. But unfortunately he wasn't allowed to be Scar at the moment. His train of though stopped when an arrow almost hit him.
Ah yes, Cuteguy.
Cuteguy wasn't the best one with bow and arrows, he was way better at a close battle, but he was good enough to startle Hotguy when needed. In this moment it was needed.
Hotguy turned around to see who almost made him blind, ready to trasform to atoms whoever attacked him, but his face got painted with a smile as soon as he looked at the slim figure above him, in a near roof trying his best not to die of laughter.
Scaf realized that the painter decorating his face also, accidentally, splashed a little bit of red.
Just a tiny bit, hard to see without the mask and impossible with it.
"Hotguy, wasn't expecting you to be early" the avian figure said while getting closer.
While the pink and white wings made an awfull distraction, the taller hero remembered that Cuteguy had to talk to him about something important
"Why do you think I'd be late? I wouldn't want my darling to wait" The taller hero said while jokingly kissing the other hero's hand.
Until he noticed something.
The mask was normal, his wings were normal, but the outfit was different: Cuteguy usually wore a white and pink attire, which made him the 'opposite' of Hotguy, but today he was wearing black shirt and pants with his jacket. That was his 'hidden' outfit, used when the avian wasn't meant to be seen (it was something Hotguy didn't need as much as Cuteguy because his outfit was already pretty dark)
Hotguy had dark hair, Cuteguy's were light; Hotguy was tall, Cuteguy had the intention to be; Hotguy was flirtous while Cuteguy was...
"Are you listening to me?"
Scar mind said no, but his expression said 'please don't ask me that'
"Oh yeah, totally"
Cuteguy folded his hands. A suspicious expression on his face.
"Then what did I say?"
Yep. He was screwed.
The brunette hero searched is memory, but it was empty.
"Youu... weerreee.... talking about... safety?"
"No."
Fuck
Yes, Hotguy was kind of screwed now.
"Ok, ok, I wasn't listening"
Scar said while moving his hands. Cuteguy slapped his face muttering something similar a 'this idiot', but Scar didn't hear it well.
"I was talking about what the public think of us!"
"And what does the public think of us?"
The avian started to mentally pray God to, please, have a smarter partner. But he started to remember all the time Hotguy had brillant ideas and hated the fact that he was just too innocent to be an adult man.
"The fact that everyone thinks we're dating, Hotguy"
Scar stopped. No, it wasn't Hotguy, it was Scar. The man hid his fear with the flirtuois smile and the confident attitude, but he couldn't lie saying the though of kissing those lips interested him...
'No Scar, you can fuck your collegue'
"And what is we made it true?"
Hotguy started to walk towards Cuteguy, with his sicure composure,a playful smile and an emotion Cuteguy couldn't innitially recognize.
But when the realization came, it made his stomach go upside down. Why did Hoteguy had lust in his eyes? He always joked about kissing him, calling him 'his boyfriend', offering his hand and playful flirting like these.
'Cuteguy' didn't have something to complain about it, but Grian hated how his face would become more and more like the red of his natural wings color.
He started walking back, searching to escape the bumping of his heart. He hit the border of the roof that, fortunately and unfortunately, had a small wall. He sat on the wall and waited. Hotguy stopped right infront of his face, looking in his eyes. Grian made his 'Cuteguy' mask fell off and decided to relax, just relax, even if Hotguy was always clingy it was rare to have him this close so maybe he should have just enjoyed the momeng. His expression calmed down, the sleepyness of the middle of the night appeared.
"So... do you accept my offe-"
Hotguy almost jumped when CUteguy's head landed on his shoulder. If you asked him, he would have said he was completely calm, but his heartrate said something else. Did Cuteguy really fell asleep on him? What was he suppose to do now?
"I'm not asleep, I just want..." Cute guys without continuing and putting his arms behind Hotguy's back.
They both remained there, too scared to scare the moment away by moving. After what we can count as some seconds, but for them seemed hours, Hotguy put his hands on Cuteguy's back making it the best hug Grian recieved in years.
When was the last time he was hugged like this? When was the last time someone cared so much?
They stayed there, waiting for the morning as the sun started rising from behind.
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Author's note:
Idk if I like it or not, maybe I could make a second attempt in the future.
Anygays, gor now this is it, it was a pleasure feeling some Scarian, something that I will do more in the future with a ne-
*COFF COFF*
I MEAN... EH EH... NOTHING!
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It's Okay
"Look how big he is" Stacy yelled in my ear. It was loud the music and the woman screaming. I wanted to just hide somewhere. Stacy had dragged me to an all male review with her best friend, Beth and her sister, Helen. All three where already drunk. Stacy kept pointing out the guys to me. At first the bouncers weren't going to let me in but after Stacy showed them my pink whale tail they waved me thru laughing.
This had started about two months ago. Stacy just came out and asked me one night over dinner.
"Paul why are you wearing my panties when I'm not home?"
"What?" I gasped almost choking on my food.
"I mean it is obvious that you are wearing my panties and some other things. I just am wondering why" Stacy continued.
"Stac I" I stuttered taking a drink of water.
"These where pretty expensive" Stacy explained placing a pair of stockings on the table.
"if you had asked i would of gotten you some of your own earlier" stacy informed me handing me a tiny bag from victoria secrets.
"Go put these on" she smiled. I peeked in the bag to see a pair of pink satin panties with ruffled trim. I went to speak.
"Don't try and deny anything. Go try them on and come back and show me" she insisted. I was caught but she wasn't mad. I grabbed the bag and went to change. I came out wearing only the panties. My penis throbbing trying to break free.
I came out a bit shy. stacy took my hand and led me to the bedroom not letting me finish eating.
"I haven't been with a woman since college" she told me pushing me back on the bed. She was naked in seconds. She crawled into bed and laid next to me kissing me she rubbed my nipples and gropped my ass. She was in control. I didn't fight when she positioned herself and sat on my face. As I licked and sucked she pulled down my panties and licked my ass. She grabbed lube from somewhere and worked her fingers in my ass, first one then two . She had three fingers pumping my ass as she came on my tounge.
Our sex life changed after that. She bought me several pairs of panties and would not let me fuck her. Instead I would preform oral or use one of her toys to fuck her. She would use her hand or mine to make me cum. Often training my ass. At first she called me her little lesbian bitch. But then I was her faggot. She started teasing me about taking a cock in my mouth and ass.
Stacy also had me try bras, stockings, even a dress. As she applied makeup to my face and have me beg for her strapon cock.
She would have me watch gay porn as she jerked me off.
I about fainted the first time she told her sister. Helen that i was her person little want to be faggot. She pulled my pants down showing her my panties. Helen in turn told my mother in law, her Aunt, and basicly her whole side of the family. Then of course it spread and Beth found out. Along with some other friends. They encouraged Stacy to leave me. But instead Stacy told me she would stay with me but needed a real man. So she would start cuckolding me. But I could remain her lesbian lover.
Soon I realized everyone knows. I catch the girls at work laughing to themselves as the walk by. My guy friends avoid me.
I come home early one day to find Stacy's car in the garage. As I go inside I find her naked on the bed.
"Hey baby you're home early" she said as she went to cover herself up. Then paused with a smile.
"Would you like to taste my lover off of me?" She asked suddenly.
"What?" I asked.
"Wohld you like to eat his cum out of my slutty used cunt?" She laughed tossing the covers on the floor spreading her legs.
"Of course you do faggot" she laughed. "Come on taste a real man" as if under a spell I couldn't resist her. I licked and sucked her lovers cum off of her.
"I bet you are so jealous that I get to suck cock, and have men fuck me with there big hard cocks. Thats what you want isn't it. Men with big cocks to use you" Stacy teased as I continued to lick her clit.
After that Stacy upped the game. I spent hours every day with a plug buried in my ass. Or sucking on her strapon. She made up my face as whoreish as she could. And even introduced me to wearing mini skirts and dresses. She documented it all taking pics and sharing them online.
After only 3 days I was begging her to find a man to use me. That very day she made me all girlie and invited a man over to have me.
I was scared and shaking as he stripped. He had me take his thick cock in his mouth. Stacy smiled and closed the door. For the next 30 minutes this man took me. He was gentile but firm. He knew what he wanted and instructed me. He finished deep inside me ass before he left. Only then did Stacy return.
"I knew you make a good faggot" she laughed. She was right I could not wait to do it all again.
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Genuinely how do you think stiles would react if he found out he and Paige were very similar? Would he ask derek something like do you think of her when you look at me?....
oh god you have NO idea how much this ask makes me so fucking crazy. Im literally the patron saint of making stiles suffer and go crazy. HES MY LITTLE DOLL!!!!
anyways. i think. god. yall already know how much i LOVE and talk about how both derek and the sheriff lost their ultimate loved one and how stiles is the literal embodiment of those two loved ones. i go batshit crazy whenever i think abt (after claudia’s death) stiles just missing his mom and maybe trying on her clothes in secret and her perfume and everything about her and it being one of the reasons why the sheriff (during his drunk eps) had absolutely. been so mean to him because that’s his wife and his son is the splitting image of her (physically and personality wise) and it just hurts
AND THEN YOU FACTOR IN PAIGE STILES AND ITS SO FUCKING. i genuinrly cannot even put it into enough words how much it makes me crazy. paige. jennifer. and how theyre both SO stiles. i just know stiles heart shattered when peter was telling that story and i KNOW stiles went on some research rampage on bh yearbooks and saw paige and just. this very devastating oh moment. immediately goes back and thinks abt every moment w derek and its like some slap to the face
i dont think stiles would outrigbt ask derek smthn like that but i feel like it would send stiles into a spiral similar to how or what happened w sheriff and claudia and i think thats such a painful cycle of just being this someone. the second choice almost—some kind of cheap copy of someone’s beloved because he was never really claudia nor was he really ever paige but sometimes does he try because he thinks thats all he is (some fake grade a copy of the original)
which probably makes it also insane because remember when the nogutsune split into two stile. sorry i dont even know how thats connected it just cane into my mind and now i had to say it
anyways im insane over this im genuinely always fucking thinking about stiles will always resemble derek and the sheriff’s lost loved ones and the implications of it to stiles, who has always been the underdog and has always received love in such thin barely there offhanded touches
ok apparently im not yet done cause i think When stiles found out abt paige canon-wise was like perfect since it was like that barely there conenction of sterek happening. oh my god if stiles found out abt paige during s3b itd be fuckkng DISASTER. imagine finding out you have frontotemporal dementia—essentially dying the same way your mother did, the EXACT same way your mother did right in front of your dad, aka he would experience his beloved’s death AGAIN—and then finding out your crush’s first fucking love literally has rhe same personality and looks as you. i would genuinely commit myself to eichen house at that point like i would never show my face to the sheriff and derek ever again
ok. on the topic of established sterek approaching that topic. i feel like it’d come randomly from stiles, like every topic does, and maybe on some quiet night just playing with derek’s fingers laying in bed and he’d just quietly ask “was paige pretty?” and derek would say some stupid shit like yeah you two looked very similar you two could be siblings which wohld set off stiles rockets and itd be castratophic basically. i dont even know how derek would fix the situation
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reallu long rant below tw for talkimg ab sex in general
i love my best friend to death. i do. i genuinely love her so much but today she just absolutely pressed my last button and i snapped and i feel bad about it but like. basically for context my best friend was like super popular in hs and ms and then there was always Me. like it was (let's call her L) it was "omg there's L!!" and then me trailing behind her. the only reason i wasn't a complete loser in high school was because she stood up for me to everyone who even dared talk shit or be mean to me. and like not to say that this was one of those really horrible friendships in the movies where the popular girl is always mean to her best friend - that's not the case at all. this girl is genuinely my platonic soulmate and she has saved my life on multiple occasions and she is the reason i am still here. i love her to death. but her popularity really just . bothers me ?? i guess. that sounds super like gross and jealous but i'm not jealous. i like my solitude. but she's always got people in her dms who want to date her and shes always in the talking stage with someone or like she's always getting hit on. she's talking to this guy who she REALLY likes and this other guy who she's kinda just like leading on and like it's so frustrating. even though i told her like hey man as someone who was JUST in that situation it kinda sucks you really shouldn't lead that boy on and she's like but it's just hard to open up to (original boy she likes) and it's ez to open up to this guy and so i want to keep him around as an option. and the boy has like no problem with this bcus ik him personally and like he's also talking to other girls at the same time so it's not really the whole like leading him on thing that bothers me. it's just like. idk it makes me feel kinda outcasted and insecure hwen it comes to talking about our romantic lives because she's always talking to someone she really likes and i'm either recuperating from a bad situation or i'm in a bad situation. i have never had a romantic relationship that has ever treated me like a human being. /srs. i think that's why i'm still caught up on this whole thing that just happened bcus for once in my life i felt like someone actually cared about me and actually liked me for me and treated me like i fucking mattered. it just is so alienating to me whenever she talks about it because i don't understand how she opens herself up for love so easily after rejections and bad situations. it's so so so hard for me to open up to friends, let alone someone i'm romantically interested in, and so i can just never relate to her. and i hate opening up, i do, zone wohld know, they've asked countless times for me to talk about my feelings and i just. Can't. so for her to just be like yeah i'll keep this guy around as an option u know just to be safe it's so ??? and upsetting bcus i don't get options. i get one person who i think i like and then i hesitantly open up and then boom. they do something shitty or they leave me and i'm left to pick up the pieces and there goes any chance of me opening up to anyone for the next 700 years. after i broke up with my ex last august it took me literally an entire year to let myself even think about the idea of a romantic relationship. my friend can just rebound so easily and i don't get it. i dont connect to people the way she does and whenever i connect to people there's just something so horribly wrong about me that makes them want to leave or that makes them treat me like garbage. and it's just. i'm almost 20 and ive never been on a real date and im still the v word and im so so so behind on everything. i cannot connect to people easily and it's even harder for me to make them stay and it's just. i wonder how she can do it and i can't and it's like. there's gotta be something wrong with me. i've done everything. i've changed my hair i got piercings i changed my style i put effort into my appearance and still nobody wants me (mitski ref) and the people who do want me end up hurting me. i just cannot for the LIFE of me understsnd what is so wrong about me.
oh my god i hit the maximum for a text block i didn't even know that was a thing. anyways. i've spent the last couple of days rotting in my room trying to figure out why i can't be a normal teenage girl and go on dates. i have to LIKE LIKE the person to even consider a date with them. i have to be practically in love to even consider having sex with them. i kissed a guy in july. we are good friends, we went to see lovejoy together like. that's my homie fr. we kissed and it wasn't a bad kiss but i wasn't attracted to him. i was sick to my stomach for weeks /srs. i genuinely was nauseous and ill and i felt gross for weeks because i just wasn't attracted to him. and it's like. my friends r out having sex and going on dates and i can't even consider sex with someone i don't like like. and they're like oh sex isn't even that such a big deal like once u have ur first time it's genuinely not special you don't need to give ur v card to a special person and it's like. it's not that. i could care less about sex and your first time being some sacred important thing or whatever, i just don't feel comfortable having sex with a total stranger. i was so opposed to the idea of even having sex with my ex because i wasn't attracted to him anymore towards the end and i just .. to me sex is such an intimate thing and it's so vulnerable and i hate being vulnerable that i would rather die a virgin than have sex with someone i met on tinder. and i don't get it. why can't i be normal?? why can't i just be normal and go on dates and let people in so easily?? i just genuinely want to be Normal and be okay with the idea of talking romantically to multiple people at once. i just want to be able to talk about my many different options wjth my friends instead of me sitting there like a fucking dweeb who's recovering from another hesrtbreak. like i don't understand how they can give themselves to multiple people at once because when i like someone i give them everything i have. i give every bit of effort that i have to make it work andnit just doesn't and i am always left heartbroken because i just can't be normal and be happy with the idea of talking to someone romantically and not expecting a relationship. why r we talking romantically if there's going to be no relationship. i don't get it. that doesn't make any sense to me. one time my best friend called me a serial monogamist and i think that's 1. really fucking funny and 2. it's just true. i don't see the point in fooling around and it's what's gotten me heartbroken so many times bcus im just seen as something to fool around with. a fun summer fling or someone to get them through the winter. i just . it's hard to believe that this has happened to me three fucking times already but it's because i keep putting myself in those situations. i keep putting myself in the position to be heartbroken because i can't be normal and want to have a fling. i dunno. it's all so stupid and i wish hookup culture didn't fucking exist and people weren't so shitty and i wish that i was actually loveable and capable of being given love. i deserve it. i do i know i do. i may be a bitch and a cunt but i've never done anytning Bad in my life. i deserve to be loved the way everyone else is being loved. i deserve it and yet i cant fuckimg receive it
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I can't believe they disney same-faced lady Loki? litera ally? they doll eye'd button nose'd lady Loki? they gave her a frozen-elsa-anna face? you sameface Loki? you erase her unique features to fit her into a Pretty Princess mould? Jail!!!! Jail for Disney for one Thousand Years!!!!!!!
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I’m so tired that my face is going numb, is that normal?? wow Hope just Go To Sleep. Help,,,
#fuck#km so i could nust sleep but#lrangefur ithkr#its good#i lik thag tko#am j#deterioriating#hmmmm#so tkded#tired#whish i wohld lage wtc#i cannot angmote#so tired#idk why i dont just sle#but here we har#nucm#hope talks#shito ho bope#why do pol like me#im do dtupid#boring#oh eell
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Anyone live in Sweden? Or know about their heathcare? Specifically related to people with disabilities? I have a 4-6 page paper due in 6 hours :') I know nothing. I thought it was due on Sunday. I'm so screwed.
#personal#max fucks up his due dates#again#i swesr to god last week oct 19 was a sunday#why would anything be due on a friday#its a friday!#everything is ALWAYS due on a sunday#like literally everything is always due on a sunday why wohld she do thos tl us#ughghh
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MC Struggles With Obsessive/Compulsive Behaviour
Ok, just to be clear.
I haven't been diagnosed with anything, which is why I refrain from writing "OCD" in the title. I've always known I'm a perfectionist- please be aware that there are some major differences between OCD and perfectionism, (despite what Youtube videos may say)- however I have had instances in which I have taken it too far and paid the price physically, mentally, and emotionally. Please be aware that these are all very real things that not only myself, but other people go through. I haven't had one of them in a long time, but my current circumstances make me feel like I might soon, so bear with me while I write another self-indulgent thing.
Or don't.🤷♀️
TW: compulsive/obsessive behaviour, a little self-deprecation as seasoning👌
Lucifer
At first, he's very happy to see that you are very organized and neat
One less thing for him to worry about
However, one day he walked past your room and saw you organizing your desk
He respected that, and continued on
The next day he passed by around the same time and saw you organizing your desk again
Odd, but perhaps one of his brothers had interfered and interrupted you, meaning you hadn't finished yesterday
It had been five days now, surely you weren't still cleaning your desk??
"MC, if my brothers bother you, you should close the door. Perhaps then you would be able to finish cleaning your desk properly. Unless you would like some direction in time management instead?"
Lucifer glanced behind you. To his surprise, your desk looked immaculate. He then saw your blushing face.
"Ah... well that's very kind of you Lucifer, however I'm afraid it's not an issue of time management or your brothers. Well, sometimes Mammon comes in and moves the pens around, so then I have to start over..."
"Start over?"
"Y-yeah." You explain your process to him, how you completely clear off your desk, to the type of cleaner you use, how many sprays, to how you like to stack your paper, to how you always have to have three paperclips to your right, and how the black pen is always in between the blue and the red.
"And when Mammon moves the pens...you start over?"
"Yeah. I do."
Lucifer has sympathy for you, put also struggles because it seems like a waste of time if he were to do it.
But he doesn't do it, and it seems to make you calm, so instead he buys you proper gloves for cleaning and a few more bottles of your cleaner
Mammon
"Come on MC, I wanna show ya something in my room."
Oh no
Nononono
You could feel yourself panicking a bit. Mammon's room was messy
Not messier than Levi's but still
But he looked really excited, so you reluctantly followed him
"TA-DA!!!"
Oh wow. His room was spotless!
"I-uh, noticed ya only seem to be comfortable in yours or Lucifer's room. It-it took a while for me to figure out why, but...whaddya think? Will it work for ya?"
He smiled at you and you could see a hint of nervousness in his eyes.
"It looks great! You even picked up the water bottles that were by your bed!!"
He instantly became more confident, his smile growing wider and his cheeks slightly flushed.
"Of course it looks great! Why wouldn't it?"
You gave him a withering stare
"Uh..yeah. Y'know, if ya had just told me ya didn't like it being so messy I woulda tidied up sooner. J-just make sure ya let me know if it gets too messy again. I want ya to be comfortable in more places than just your room, so my room seemed like a good idea."
His face was incredibly flushed
"Thank you Mammon. It really means a lot.
Levi
You had only been in Levi's room twice
But dear god
You really really really wanted to tidy things up for him
But you also knew what it was like to be very particular and have things "just-so"
Aksjsjshdgjak
"Hey Levi, can I make you deal?"
He took off one of his headphones to listen
"What's up?"
"This might be kinda weird. Can I take pictures of your stuff so I can reorganize and clean your room? That way if you don't like it, I'll put everything back?"
You could see confusion and slight panic that crossed his features.
"I'm sorry, I know it's weird, you don't have to say yes I-"
"Um, what exactly would you be doing?"
"Uhhh.."
He stopped his game to sit and talk with you for a bit.
"O-ok. Just that shelf is off-limits. And I'll stay in here to let you know if something isn't ok with me."
He watched in awe as you carefully rearranged his figurines by rarity as well as colour.
You crawled under his desk with velcro ties and made all the cords under there much more organized
You rearranged the pillows on his couch so that they were symmetrical on both sides, fluffing them and squishing them as you saw fit.
His manga was pretty organized, so you just straightened out the pile.
You organized his games in alphabetical order
The whole time you had been dusting stuff off as well
"There. That's better....what do you think Levi?"
"WOOOAAHH!!! I love it!! It looks really good MC!"
"Thanks for letting me do that."
"No problem...but w-why did you want to do it?"
You shrugged. "It calms me down? No, that's not quite it....I don't really now. As it is, I need to cut myself off otherwise I'll clean until I can't stand. Mind if I join you for a bit?"
He nods at you and hands you a control. As the game boots up he says, "Y-you're welcome to do that again if you need to...but that shelf is still off-limits."
You nod, grateful for his understanding.
Satan
He said he had a surprise date for you
So you followed him
To the Cat Cafe
Now, you love cats
And you love food
But the two of them together don't sit well with you
But Satan looked so eager and happy that you didn't hesitate much to go inside.
Everything was going really well until Satan asked if you wanted something to eat or drink.
You politely declined his offer, but he insisted on getting you something
You reluctantly chose a hot drink.
But as you watched the worker prepare your drink, you were horrified to see them carry a cat out from behind the counter, and then without washing their hands, snap the lid on your cup.
"Satan..I need to step outside for a bit."
He watched you in mild concern as you walked out the door and he waited for your and his order to be complete
You were pacing outside, trying to calm down.
Why did that upset me? I haven't even touched it yet. Besides, normal people don't usually care about stuff like that. And I can clean it??? Or grab another lid?? Fuck! Why am I like this?
Your train of thought was broken as Satan tapped on your shoulder, concern and curiosity apparent in his eyes.
"Are you alright? I noticed the worker didn't wash their hands after handling the cat, so I grabbed a couple lids on my way out. I was going to put it on for you, but I believe it would be best for all parties if you did it on your own."
You almost started crying as he handed you a paper towel with two lids in it.
"Why are there two?"
"Although it never particularly bothered me, I thought you may have wanted some solidarity. I can understand where you're coming from." He smiled sympathetically at you.
From that day forward, he paid extra attention to things while you were around to make sure you wohld feel comfortable. You two also managed to tackle the daunting task of properly organizing Satan's books so that you could spend more time in his otherwise clean room.
Asmo
"Darling, you look wonderful in that outfit!! And it's so hot outside, it's perfect!! I was just about to head out, do you want to join me?"
"That depends. Where are you going?"
"Oh, I'm just gonna do a little shopping. There was a cute top on sale at the mall yesterday, I just want to see if it's still there."
You told him you'd be right back.
When you got to your room you threw on a sweater, and then made sure you had your wallet and your phone.
You walked out of your bedroom, checking again, wallet, phone
As you approached Asmo, you checked again. Wallet, phone
"Are you ready to go?" You nodded and followed him out the door.
He made idle gossip with you until he noticed you were looking a little pale
"Oh my goodness, love are you alright? You should take this sweater off, you'll get much too hot!"
"I can't!" You panicked a bit, and he was caught off guard by your reaction.
"I- I'm sorry. But I use the sleeves to open doors and hold bags and stuff. I don't like touching that stuff. Even groceries are hard for me to touch, so I wash the groceries before I put them away when I get home. I enjoy shopping with you though, because you always know what kind of stuff I like just by looking at it, or feeling it for me. It's the same thing I explained before, where it's difficult for me to model the clothes for you until after they've been washed."
"Aww honey, I'm sorry. Next time I'll see if Mammon or Beel can come and help with your bags, m'kay? But you cannot stay in this sweater in weather like this. What about gloves? Would you be ok wearing gloves? I know a place where there's some really cute ones!! And I'll handle the doors for now, ok?"
You took off your sweater and tied it around your waist.
"Huh. I actually do feel a little better....thanks Asmo."
You two laughed lightly as he held open the door for the next shop.
Beel
You had waited for Beel to get out of one of his extracurriculars to walk home with him
You two were planning to eat together
However when you walked into the kitchen, you were greeted with a sink overflowing with dishes, and a sleeping Belphie on the island.
"Oh, uh, before I eat Beel, I'm going to clean that up. You go ahead though."
Belphie piped up, "Just throw what you can in the dishwasher....I'll do the rest later."
Beel looked concerned. "We were late getting home. Are you sure you're not hungry?"
"Oh...uh" you contemplated lying when your stomach gave you away.
"Just eat. I'll take care of the dishes. It's my turn anyways. I'll get to it soon."
"It's not a big deal Belphie, I'll just do them."
"But you're hungry, aren't you? Just eat first? Or did I do something? Is it something I can fix? I can go if it makes you more comfortable-" Beel looked disappointed. Of course it wasn't his fault.
You shook your head. "It's not you. It's me. I just- I don't know- ugh." You felt close to tears.
How the fuck were you supposed to explain yourself?
Beel pulled you into a hug. "Hey, it's ok. You don't have to tell us what's going on, but if you do it'll make it easier for us to help you."
He let go of you enough for you to step back and wipe tears from your eyes.
"I-I don't know what it is! But whenever I know there's something to be done, especially if I can see it, I have to do it before I do anything for myself. That includes eating, getting a glass of water, even going to the bathroom! And if I find another thing to do half way through he first thing, I'll just continue to postpone the thing I need to do for myself until I'm done or I forget about it..."
Silence settled across the kitchen.
"We'll help you do the dishes so it gets done faster, then you have to eat, ok?"
You smile and nod graciously as the twins helped you feel more comfortable
Belphie
"Come cuddle with meeee."
"Belphie, I need to study, please."
Belphie pouted. He was going to cuddle with you one way or another, even if he had to annoy you into it
Only what he didn't realize what he saw as "mildly annoying" was actually triggering for you
So he started messing with the postion of things on your desk.
"Stop it Belphie, I need to study."
"Yeah? Don't let me stop you, I'm just playing with your pen jar."
"But I asked you. To. Stop."
He huffed and put the pen jar down
But then he started to mess with your three pencils you had laid out, smallest to tallest.
"Why do you need three pencils?"
"Because. Now leave them alone."
He grinned.
"Because is hardly an answer and you know it. What would happen if I just took this one?"
"BELPHIE NO!" Your voice sounded between laughter and tears, butbhe figured it was just your way of begging.
"Belphie, please? I need that!"
He just grinned as he shifted into his demon form and passed the pencil to his tail and lazily flicked it back and forth.
Until he saw your face.
"Whatever. Do what you want, I'm done dealing with you." You walked out of your room, angry tears filling your eyes.
"W-wait! Shit! No, come back! I didn't-ugh." He groaned as he picked himself up to go after you, finding you on the outside steps of HOL.
"Hey, why're you crying? It was just a pencil. I put it back."
You pulled your head out of your hands.
"Yeah, but did you put it back right?"
Belphie looked at you perplexed...right? What the fuck was that supposed to mean?
"Look, I'm sorry for using that tone with you. It's really hard for me to focus unless I have things a certain way. It may seem ridiculous to you, but that's just how I am. I don't know what causes it, I just know that it's a part of me. I'm working on it, but if I say stop, I need you to stop. Please."
"....okay. I'm sorry."
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#obey me#obey me shall we date#obey me headcanons#obey me thoughts#obey me scenarios#comfort fic#tw mental health issues
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why be in a relationship when you can just push everyone away and fckin die instead !
#personal#i love her so much but im not good enough for her nrot even close she is such a fucking angel and all i want is to make her happy#and i want her to be ok more than anything but i keeo hurting her by accident and i hate myself for it#i wohld never hurt her in a million years but also i seem to do it a lot ans i dont ubderstand why im like this#she deserves so so much better than me#but also i wanna be that i wanna be better but also i hate myself so fucking much and dont seem to be able to control it#idk anymore#i hope i can get better and treat her right
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11 Questions
Tagged by @earlgreytea68
Rules: Answer the 11 questions of the person who tagged you; make up 11 questions; tag 11 people to answer them
1. Is there a fictional universe you wish you lived in? There are so many. I am stuck between Harry Potter and Star Wars.
2. What superhero power would you like to have? invisibility
3. What’s your role in the zombie apocalypse?
4. What makes you think “I’m getting old”?
When I look at the year a music video came out.
5. What have you totally outgrown?
Uhhhh
6. What’s your “TIME TO KICK SOME ASS” song? Recently Nightmare by Halsey, but my all time has to be confident by demi lovato.
7. What would do if you won the lottery?
Quit my job and use that money to live while I finish my novels
8. Would you accept a one-way ticket to Mars? Can I take anyone with?
9. Your house is on fire, all living creatures are safe, you have time to save one inanimate possession. What is it? most likely my cellphone or my xbox.
10. What do you do with thirty minutes of totally free time? Say I am going to write, but sit on tumblr or reddit probably.
11. How do you feel about driverless cars?
Fuck no. I don't trust those things. In a weird way, I feel safer with human drivers.
My tags: @writtingrose @sassymox @catsinthevoid @writinglionqueen @sithlita @biforbecky2belts @sethsevolution @queenofthearchitect @darktammy @finnsauroraborealis @sjwrites22
My questions.
1. What did you want to be when you grew up as a kid and how has it changed?
2. If you could marry any fictional character who would it be?
3. How long does it take you to get ready when you wake up?
4. If you could time travel to any period in time, when would it be and why?
5. DC or Marvel?
6. What house are you in Hogwarts?
7. What is your favorite thing to do?
8. If someone paid you a millon bucks, wohld you go relive your middle school years?
9. What is the song that you play while you are sad?
10. If you didn't have access to internet for a day, how would you spend it?
11. How much wood could a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood?
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FUCK BWBY SHARK WHY WOHLD YOU DO THIS TO ME SYO0 MAIING TOYS THWWT EINY SONGS THAT GET STCK IN MY HEAD
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What do you think would be Molly's reaction if someone suggested sign language to her?
She would stare at them in a way that they would no doubt interpret as creepy and dangerous, on account of her being a woman whose dress and facial characteristics code her as feminine and subservient, but whose body language and expression indicate no deference and complete self-possession, and who is performing no feminine emotional labour to make the other person feel warm and comfortable in the interaction. And which wohld also make it clear to them that she thought it was a stupid idea.
Unless Nightingale asked her, of course, when her body language would subtly indicate that she appreciated the joke he was making.
Because anyone who lives or works in the Folly can communicate with her on her terms, thank you. She's been successfully managing interactions with people delivering groceries for more than a century, thank you. And if she can't leave, what is the point of learning a new language to interact with others?
(Besides, she's always had penpals. Though these days she's mostly keeping up with them online).
Tl;dr Why the fuck hasn't Peter just told Nightingale to buy her an iPad on the official budget yet?
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Ayyo. Hope you got my other asks, hope you have a nice day! 😍😍😍😍
Part Deux. Rami has said on numerous occasions that he has no love interest. He also said in a Q&A in Sept. “I’m not getting married anytime soon.”, which wohld be a wild insult to ANY love interest. As much as Rami adores flaunting his people, he would certainly state he was dating if he was. Rami is exceptionally open & unguarded; Rami isn’t private, he just doesn’t feel a need to paparazzi his own life. He’s not messy. Now, PORTIA…
(If you didn'r receive part 1, lemme kno!) There’s something that set off my alarm fairly early. I assumed she was just vapid & stuck in stereotypical young adult thinking. I know what it is now— desparate for attn. in all forms. Opportunism. And it sucks, because I don’t wish to dislike her… alas. Rami is close to the whole cast, but they’re naturally shipped as leads. Why take advantage of your close friend for the Gram, boo??? No news is bad news.
I don’t see her on any other projects, shows, promos, movies, nada. It is fine to be a little insecure. It’s fine to be greatly insecure! It is not at all acceptable to “make the world burn” because you haven’t anything else to do. She is young, beautiful, rich, capable, buttloads of friends… whatever she’s missing, being shamelessly exploitive of people that trust youl WON’T FIX IT. She can only get away with this b/c Mr. Rami Malek is an agnostic to social media!
My greatest fear: she might fuck up the dynamic of this epic show, lose good, real friends because she can’t go without false validation. Hang it up, FLATSCREEN! /end barking
Ayyo, sorry boo. My Internet is a petty bitch. Anywho: Portia and Rami have never, ever dated. Search up a James Rustin. He & Portia have been fucking since at least early 2016. She is all. over. his fucking Instagram. She told Rami (and Steph) “♥u”, but she told Mr. Rustin “I love you more than words and letters” when he wished her a happy b-day last year… She also took him to Kaitlin’s wedding! He was also the male body she rode for 2 whole weeks in Hawaii. Pt. 1.2 coming!
Pt. 1.2, boo! The photos he posted of them in Hawaii, looking all couple-ish?? Kaitlin liked a couple of them. Remember when she stated that Kait bought a portrait from her “kinda boyfriend”?? Yeah, Kaitlin’s never met Rami, at least she doesn’t act like she has! James even used a photo of them both for his FB profile photo! SCREAMS “boyfriend” to me, no “kinda”! He’s her type, too, looks just like her ex from a few years ago. Yes, he’s been to NY during Mr. Robot. Hiding in plain sight!
Final thoughts, I guess: Unless she’s genuinely this unaware of her actions, she should keep it to the bleachers. I came to these conclusions through my own research. Run your own investigations, keep tabs on the “minor players”! Keep the fandom thoughts OUT. Too many cooks!They will ruin your most-assuredly beautiful ass! I hope Portia get’s that gut punch she needs, she has waaaay too much to lose. ———————————————————————————————————————-Instead of posting all 8 messages I’ve copied them into this message! :) I apologise if there are messages which are not the original anon’s mixed in with these. I said a while ago that I wasn’t going to discuss the Portia thing because I really don’t want to piss people off or annoy anyone. I really don’t like ignoring people’s messages though and I don’t want to be one of those standoffish blogs who thinks they are above this kind of chat. “It’s none of our business” is said a lot and whilst I do agree with that I also believe that it is because of the reasons I stated before.
Anyway….. I agree with you on Portia. She doesn’t need to act the way she does for the positive reasons you stated. Although she really has nothing up and coming and is in need of exposure hence going to every event like that shitty Vanity Fair Oscars party that all the hangers on go to that will never be nominated for an actual Oscar. Also that Dior lipstick thing….wtf. Literally the opening of an envelope and she will be there. Using Rami in the social media posts (because as you rightly pointed out he is none the wiser to it) is so wrong and screams attention. If you see it as anything other than likes and comments which equals hype and exposure then you are in denial. There is never any need to post private pictures. Although I don’t think that Rami would ever say if he was dating someone. I dunno… there are pictures of him with recurring women in the past and as far as I can see he never vocalised that he was dating them. Then again, different times. He was not as famous then so I don’t think there was the intrigue in him and therefore no outright questions on his relationship status.
I hate to speculate like this, it make makes uncomfortable but I feel like it’s unavoidable in this chat but I think that James Rustin could be gay. I obviously do not know otherwise it’s just something that I sense from looking at his social medias. Just to reiterate, I have no actual knowledge of it, just a feeling.
Sorry to everyone reading this long ass post, I answered this to chat with the anon tbh haha :)
Thank you for all your messages :) I’ve got a great friend in @maoamstripes to talk through theories with. They are always good to see things as they truly are and not through the rose coloured glasses of the fandom. xxxx
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