talking to a person who is so soundly middle-class who talks to you as if you are also middle class is an experience.

I mean I technically am middle-class now because the government changed where they draw the line a few years ago so I've just made it in now. but also my whole family all together (me, mother, and siblings) probably doesn't even make a 4th of what hers does a year.

so hearing about my coworkers family is interesting but also frustrating. they have so much and she talks about it like it's less than what they want for themselves. like "we only saved up enough to buy a boat 5 years ago" while not recognizing that being able to consider a boat in a landlocked province where there's barely anywhere to use one is !!!.

they've got a summer cabin and they all have cars and her parents paid for her tuition and half her rent and they give her stuff all the time.

this is the first time in my life when I've had the luxury of making stupid purchases without saving for years to do it and she's just buying jewellery and expensive clothes and she doesn't save any of her paycheck because if she runs out of money her parents will help her. and I try to comfort myself about buying $300 on clothes from shein where I get many outfits and I feel bad about it but it's nothing on that.

I tried so hard to reach something that other people get just by being born.

every time someone makes a point to say that "Marinette doesn't wear makeup, she isn't like other girls" I want to SIGH because not only does Marinette Actually Wear Makeup in canon, it is exhausting that it is 2023 and people are still doing the "not like other girls" thing

nooo my younger brother is turning into a fortnite bro :(((((((((((( he played it for hours today after getting it hes so sweet and small i dont want him to be like the guys in my class who play till 3am and waste all their money on v bucks

one of the worst feelings ever is wanting to write but your hands hurt too much or the words just don’t want to work so you just sit there staring at a half finished doc with tears in your eyes bc you want to write and you need to write but everything is telling you that you can’t

i hate my uni sm lol i dont want to be heeeeere let me out let me out

...

whatever, can everyone go and be all niceys to me please

How can you make yourself not care about the thing you care very much about? Asking for a friend

:(

Very bad grade in therapy today

every couple of months I'm struck with the blinding Need to change my blog theme, which is extremely dumb and largely useless because nobody cares about page themes any more, yet it still eats at me

ive been a little upset about it all night so i need to write out all the things that happened at work today and are bugging me so i can TRY to get it out of my head and actually RELAX bc i just keep pacing in circles around it instead of just accepting it and moving on

in my defense, i was like 90% sure u already knew what banana fish was and i thought u would call me out on my bs right away. i did have a moment of panic when it turned out that u didn’t so 🥺

Hahaha it’s totally fine. I’ve actually never heard of it before today but I did start watching it because of this because I was curious. I like it so far

Today sucked and I never wanna do it again

ive been genuinely distressed about how bad my adhd has been this past month

You guys I think it’s finally happening, I think I finally lost all interests in DC/Damian lol