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man living with toxic relatives really is the worst, you come home and you just deal with more bullshit when you should be relaxing
#sil talks.🎤#your girl is losing her mind#everything i do is wrong#ive been told i might be 18 but i have an experience of a highschooler#even tho my aunt literally does not know what i did in turkey and believe me it ain't highschooler lever#and when I ask her something it's always why are you asking me google it#like maam arent you supposed to be this super experienced 50 year old why are you bitching at me when I ask question about a country i just#moved to 2 months ago#like god damnit#i dont know how much of this i can take#and im not even mnetioning her constantly saying “the new generation doesn't want to do anything”#the new generation doesnt know how to use google#the new generation doesn want to work#the future of coorparate america is screwed because the new generation doesn't know how to do anything#WHO RAISED THAT NEW GENERATION?????#YOU#YOU DID#SO STFU#her kids literally don't know how to communicate with other people and when i do something I'm constantly in the wrong lmao#mind you she knows my manager loved me and I'm getting a raise this week#and after i told her she said i have experience of a highschooler and I'm not ready for new york#well i sure as hell ain't gonna be ready for it living with you#god i hate it#ah and also me needing to hide my hips#delete later
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saw a post about projecting your ethnicity onto a character and started missing vespa ilkay. so so bad
#pov u grow up in a 3rd world country(/planet) where healthcare workers are exported by the thousands like cheap produce to richer countries#it's your ticket out of poverty as long as you can deal with the loneliness the separation from everyone you know the discrimination etc#ive never talked about my hc that vespas mother was one of them sending money every month visiting every couple of years until it just stop#like why return to the swamps when youre doing fine working on a richer planet w much better living conditions#cost of living rises every year. sending home a % of your salary used to be enough to support your husband and daughter and then it isnt#you know how it goes#vespa is also dead set on this path until ranga realizes that hemorrhaging healthcare workers leaves them with little to none of their own#students on scholarships or in community/state universities are bound by return service agreements and are forbidden to leave the country#until theyve rendered a few years of work on ranga to pay back their tuition + as a really shitty solution to the brain drain problem#this is real in my country btw but my professors say a lot of ppl do break their rsa's and fucked off to work in other countries LOL#our state unis can barely afford decent facilities they do nottt have the budget to chase down their own alumni in other countries!#but the mental image is a bit funny#vespa ilkays first crime: tinakasan ang rsa#i do also think it lines up with her having a network of med friends everywhere in the galaxy (heart of it all) you kind of go into pre/med#expecting most of your classmates to leave to work in other countries eventually. mine are aiming for the usa / uae / europe / japan etc#anyway whether vespa breaks her rsa or not she leaves ranga asap decides to switch careers and the rest is history#i also deeply love the fact that she's superstitious i'm very sad it wasn't highlighted more (i've only heard s1-3)#as someone who did grow up in a rural area and went to more albularyos/folk healers than doctors in my childhood. (they never failed me)#lots of folk illnesses (ex. balis; pasma) local medical superstitions (dont eat noodles in hospital; youll have a really toxic shift) etcc#theres also a lot of potential in tying her past as a rangian + med student + assassin to me idk how to word this properly#being raised on cautionary tales of not to touch/disturb anything in the swamps then being given free reign to poke & prod at things in her#lab classes (now with the proper ppe)....she was having so much fun with the curemother prime too lmao#years of walking hanging bridges docks boathouses in ranga etc gave her great balance & stealth#cracking open alien shellfish in the swamps to cutting open bodies for studying then for assassination....#I MISS HER SO MUCH BALIK KN SAKEN 😭😭😭😭😭😭#i get why most people + the canon focuses on her being an assassin bc people find that cooler i guess#but vespa being a swamp girl > 3rd world med student > assassin is so personal To Me. the whole pipeline. eugh.#skl.txt
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Just playing with an Idea:
Naranja Academy is having a fundraiser and Arven decides to do one of those where you get to cut off some of his hair for donations. As it is getting pretty short Penny decides to pay to give him the Fuckboy Fade TM.
And Director Clavell walks around the corner and sees Arven, looking like fucking Turo and after a minor (metaphorical) hearattack, it clicks. Sada never told him who Arven's other parent was, but here he has an almost replica: Arven. It explains why Turo just disappeared during Sada's maternity leave- turned in his notice, took all his vacation days, and was gone within 48 hours. And then no comment from Sada on it ever.
Arven is none the wise, but raises a good amount, and runs around with the buzzcut for a while, with Penny/Nemona/MC constantly asking to touch. It takes time but it grows out nicely.
#round and around we go#please behave on this post i genuinely like the professors#but my interpretation range from#they never wanted to leave/get eebie deebied#to 'fuck this shit im out' panic leave the country#you can really interpret a lot into them#anyway#arven#professor turo#clavell#Arven really got his dads face#Clavell goes on a hunt afterwards for Turo#'get your fucking son i love you like a son i did not raise you like that'#Turo in his office somewhere else in the world: why do i feel like i disappointed someone again#please never look at my tags i ramble so much in here#10 years on tumblr and no clue to use it lmao
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starting the year ✨wrong✨
#(this is about work ok. long rant in the tags bc auauauauauauauuauauauauauauauaaaaaaaa)#i’ve worked for just t h r e e (3!!!!) days this year and i think im already all burned out lmao#first i was stuck doing 2 workstations bc this freakin’ b o z o of a coworker decided to take the week off without prior notice#and *t h e n* the internal components of one of said workstations kicked the bucket and was only replaced today. sads.#rip to our wasted time and futile fixing efforts though. flashtag wetried#that’s not all t h o u g h i was told that i have to jump to the other work shift bc one of my coworkers is resigning#b u t the thing is. all of the other dudes in that shift are from [insert bordering country] and always speak in their nation’s language#so i won’t be able to communicate well with them for the most part esp s o bs#and if [insert country here] has a national holiday and a l l of them decide to take the day off..#well. um. ahahahaha. im ✨screwed✨#(but speaking of taking the day off… one of said guys on that shift has an approved leave for cny. which is funny bc he’s not even chinese)#(rips if the actual other chinese dude on that team has his leave request rejected bc of that guy lol. happy cny to him ig)#a n d also i was made to (sorta) teach these two new coworkers (of sorts) the workstation i’m at for the week#b u t the thing is. i do everything here by left (didn’t receive formal training either lmao sadge)#and i also couldn’t explain anything well in general bc it seems like my flow of thoughts can’t streamline itself ig#so i think i confused the poor guys more than anything. but like. why me??????? aaaauauaaaaaaaaaa#idk why one of them came back for more ‘education’ from me thoughhhhh#i’ve tried teaching ‘em stuff at another workstation before this and my feedback was ‘wait slow down you talk too fast’ s o o o o .#ig i’ll have to guide them though again in the morning though. sighs. this wasnt in my job description :(#speaking of job descriptions though… this h e l l a annoying guy no one likes who resigned a few months ago (to much rejoicing)…#is!!!!! coming!!!! back!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#w h y. like. w h y. why is he so attached to this company he l l o? why is our manager so attached to him helloooooooo????? why him???????#our workloads literally t r i p l e when he’s around bc he’s just the way he is. auauauauauauauauaaaaaaaaaaaa#aaaaaaaaaaa i dont wanna work aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#science industry (derogatory) questionable laboratory conditions (derogatory)#felt cute; thought about retiring early idk
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last post ended up deleting my tags so im continuing them here
#but.#even after all the time i had aparti still went back at 16#i traveled across the country just to see her again#and it fucking sucked#she ripped that wound right back open#which . felt so weird because she WANTED me to come#she made all the plans#honestly the train trip there was nice#i got to experience a lot of cool things#but the second i got there. it was . one of the worst times of my life#just nonstop#and now ive finally been away for awhile again#but i still miss her#& i dont know why#but it also doesnt help the only gf i have ever had did the same type of thing LMAO//.... i .. i just cannot win#maybe it's just my roll#say all these nice things n then immediately flip#she would make me hang out w her friends n talk me up n then. cheat on me with them with me there#& then get upset when i cried or tried to break up w her LMAO...#like. she wasnt poly or anything she was actually against it#but the worst part is how openly & loudly she'd love me right before it. so now i never know who is telling the truth. i never feel safe#but anyway. again. i stayed#over n over again id try to break up w her but then i loved her & so when she got upset n threaten to kms id flip n stay#n she'd do it again#until eventually she broke up w me n left me so fuckd up im not gonna lie JHVAJH#she still tried to stay friends after that n i tried#but then i started sobbing mid card game & it was very embarrassing top 10 worst things i have done#but i just. all i want is to be a good person. i want to be someone good & loving but i feel like im such a jealous monster#even if i dont let myself show it n try to ignore it bc i dont want to hurt anyone or be this awful it;s still here. just. permeating.#what if i feel too much what if ill never know when someone is genuine what if im just an evil obsessive freak n everyone i love hates me
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oh psa but if you're in an industry that checks IDs and the person in front of you is clearly trans, don't make comments about anything on that ID. for instance saying "OMG your middle name's Danielle? that's my name too!!!" to someone 5 feet tall with a full beard is perhaps not the best choice one could make if one didn't want to put a neon glowing sign above that person's head saying "THIS IS A TRANSGENDER" to everyone they're with
#it is p funny tho going out places with cis / nb-and-always-presented-as-agab friends and always getting singles out abt my#id in Some Way and them always being like ??? wtf that was so weird what was up with that#and i have to be the one to be like 'remember that my id has an f on it' and theyre like :0 ....... >:0!!!!#like fuckin. the time i got id'd at goddamn jack in the box????#she was like 'yeah we have to check it on all orders over $25' which had never happened before and has never happened since because#its fucking jack in the box so every stupid order is over $25#for important context i was driving and bf in passenger seat was paying so id handed her his card and was way less passing than now#so once we left travis was like yo wtf that was so weird why on earth would they id someone at jack in the box?????#and im like well because i look like this and i handed her a credit card with the name travis on it and people making#up reasons to check trans-looking peoples ids to verify if theyre trans or not is unfortunately not an uncommon occurance#and he was completely floored that that was even a possibility#which like mood when i was doing bev steward literally the only thing i was thinking about on those ids was birthdays#course i was working at a theme park so we had ids from all over the country#and world but nonamericans had passports which are much more consistent than state ids#so id get handed someones id and just be like ugh ok where do they hide it on this one i have 50 people in line i dont have time for this#like why would i be wasting time casually perusing their gender marker yknow i have shit to do#so the fact that there are people who will feel the need to know that so bad that theyll do that is just wild to me and presumably him too#(working there was how we met and he ended up being bars lead then full water park sup after i left the job)#but yeah after he had his 'wait people actually do that?' realization he was just like '....well then good thing it was my card so we had to#give her my id so she'll never get to know for sure‚ get fucked' LMAO#ooh or when me and a friend went to trader joes and bought drinks cause i collect cool drink cans and when the cashier was checking#my id i made a joke to ny friend abt my picture looking like bobby hill and the cashier was like 'GASP dont say that about yourself youre#beautiful!!' which i believe i did have the beard by this point so it was a pretty obvious dig#and the picture super does look like bobby hill by the way like ill show yall if anyone's curious but literally no one irl has disagreed#except this one random woman lmao. but we get out and my friends like ????????? that was so weird#why did she say that????? and im like. well it has an f on it remember#and once again the :0 -> >:0 transformation#like it sucks having it happen but there is smth really funny abt watching friends so inclusive something like that never even#occured to them realize that thats a thing people will do and it just happened right in front of them#shoutout to my roommates friend tho who has worked at a sex shop and weed shop and changed my rewards account name for both to chosen name
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i'll probably be skipping stream today & tomorrow on account of my personal challenge to finish JE before you (<- absolutely not going to happen)
but while i'm here SHUT UP your headcanon is not icky :) though i can't really talk since i don't bring my own up very often either, and i honestly haven't even put that much thought into the logistics around it. anyway trans masato 🤝 trans wagi as personal coping mechanisms
DAWG you gotta finish it... idk how long youve had it but prob longer than me cmon now gamer i know you can do it ✊
trans masato is just funny because Like Everything I Do it just started as me joking about scenes from the game and then the ending happened and i was like Oh Lol It's Not A Joke Anymore I Think
I DONT USUALLY SUBSCRIBE TO TRANS HCS EITHER THAT WHY IT ICKY TO MEAJLWKJL but thank you. i promise to only mention it once every five months
#snap chats#to put it bluntly i Do Not like acknowledge. That aspect of my life. if me never even saying terms outright is to go off of LMAO#i cry thinking about it- like right now LMAO I ALMOST DID I HATE IT i dont like using hate but... thats one of five things i hate for sure#My Issues Aside Tho ive already talked about 'my logistics' with trans masato but ill say them again cause its funny#1.) The Injection Scene like it's for his. Adrenaline or whatever but the first thing i said when i saw it was an injection joke#because literally how could i not LIKE LMAO THEY SERVED IT ON A PLATTER#and then there's the whole Change His Entire Identity After Running To A New Country#i always joke about wanting to do that so that's strike two buster#and then to top it off when he comes back he looks like every transman ever before the effects of T start taking effect#which is a hilariously ironic statement to make considering The Before And After but lol strike three bozo#AND THEN STRIKE FOUR WAS HIS WHOLE 'i changed my name and body' BIT LIKE DAWG YOURE ALREADY OUT#IK ITS IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWED UP 'FOR POWER' BUUUUT TOP TEN 'HE JUST LIKE ME FR' MOMENTS LMAOOO#there's also his voice- both in jp and eng- just having a sort of Texture(TM) to it#in jp it's sort of high and nasally while in eng there's a sort of gravel to it that's so 🏳️⚧️?????? to me. im sorry.#do you see. that's why it's so funny. its so painfully funny#the funniest jokes are the ones with Some Weird truth behind them by the most delusional bitches ever <- me#ANYWAYS. i promise not to mention it much If Ever only when something really funny happens to me that reminds me of it#and i dont have a sneaky way to allude to it in a comic or a fic#end of the month is always hell for me cause on the one side Yay Money but on the other hand its like I Have To Work For It FUCK#so i can only draw on the weekend#im having a month-long sale for december tho...... so if we never see me again thats why#EW I JUST REMEMBERED I HAVE TO DRAW FOR A SECRET SANTA THING TONIGHT NOOOOOO#and i wanted to finish up that fic... cause im literally three lines away from finishing it...#christ i need to learn to juggle better. for now im eating this onigiri that i was too busy to eat#anyway no one look at me im soryr for sharing my cringe </3 i prommy it wont happen so bluntly again
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idk im like. genuinely excited to travel by myself for a day man
#like. freedom#im not being like locked in my room or smth but i feel like i cant exit this weird routine thats been built for me in this house#when i travel ill get to choose everything i do without eyes and expectations#and even at my cousin's house. thats so much freedom compared to what i feel here#ive just felt like shit for weeks and i dont fucking know why#im so excited for a change in routine#7 days!!!!!!#and ill be gone for a WEEK AND A HALF#im so excited#this is stupid lmao im so excited to just walk around an airport by myself#my mom is gonna call with me like everyday and. i dont rlly want to#which is probably . a lil bad that i dont wanna talk to my parents at all this trip#oh well#someday im move to an entirely different country and i can decide how much contect i keep with them#god im so excited to get older
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thinking about,,, eldest daughter academic burn out artem vibes tonight before i crash,,
#sam rambles in the tags#the urge to project to this mf is real#and i shall project here in the tags not bc i don't want to it's bc it's too specific LMAO#even if you can explain his dynamic with his parents with it#anyway i agree that he's all that mentioned above but u know what's missing? immigrant son#like it explains the shadow he has#'what shadow sam' his parents. he's in his parents shadow#it gives him a bit of drive even if subconsciously#like okay picture this: kim and bryan worked incredibly hard to get to where they are#add in the sacrifice of them leaving their country of origin? well that just makes them even more hard working right#so artem has to literally be the best both bc of the internalized guilt trips ('they sacrificed so much for you')#and also bc his parents literally did all of what he's doing at a disadvantage#it would also explain why his parents weren't around as much as a child#they worked hard to provide and to prove that they're actually meant to be there#and later on in life once they *have* they ease and start being in his life more but still working#chapter 4 ring any bells?#u want me to get more specific tho? he's a second gen#idk i feel like they have more pressure on them to be good#oh and there's even fucking nuance in if they immigrated legally or not#i'm banking on yes they did legally bc it makes the most sense#even tho i really want to have kim and bryan go the illegal route cuz it brings so much nuance to the law... seeing it in grey#rather than the classic black or white bc they broke the law but they've attoned for it in a way#what are my qualifications? i'm a first gen.#again i'm projecting on this motherfucker like there's no tomorrow LMAO#bUT IT MAKES SENSE#also it makes sense family wise bc he had to travel to be with his extended family#there's more but i'm sleepy gn y'all#'sam why didn't you make this it's own post the tags are long af' bc this is hella hyper specific my guy i'm sorry LMAO#my phd in artem wing studies is just me projecting i've fooled you all i'm sorry 💀😂#well not entirely but a good 78% of it is
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#idk why but these days ive been thinking seriously that i should switch to a wheelchair#in a weird way i think it would give me more freedom bcs there’s a lot of things id like to do now that i dont do bcs ik it will make me too#tired#like id love to go to museum or parks in the centre but i dont now bcs ik id be too exhausted#but if im not walking it would be different#also id even save money on transport bcs if im not walking being tired is not an issue so i wont have to take taxis as much#also omfg i could finally wear whatever i want since i don’t have to be careful about falling#ik my mom is against that bcs she feels like me getting a wheelchair would be giving up but for some reason i dont feel like that#i felt like thwt when i got the walker but then i saw how much it helped me#and walking is so difficult rn i think id benefit from some extra help#and idt it d be giving up bcs it’s not my fault my disability gets worse and there’s nothing i can do about it so what can i do#ik life would more complicated in some ways (eg finding a wheelchair friendly accommodation might be hard) but u think it will be easier in#other ways#also bcs i wanna move to a new country after my first master and i think extra aid would be for the best#it would make things more complicated but i feel like forcing myself to go on without it is making things more complicated already#i just really want to be independent like i just want the ability to do what i want by myself as much as possible#tbh i feel like that’s also why i wanna move again bcs in ams my mom can come whenever and i don’t like that lmao#anw im easing my mom into it these days
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#also i made a mistake#i shouldnt have messaged him#i should've just not have done it#that would've saved me from all of this inner turmoil#im kinda mad at myself for being ugly. it always ruin everything for me#ruins** everything#but also im irritated with him bc we've talked for a week now he says i need to send a pic ㅠㅠ#like we live in two different countries and have two completely different lives#it's not like we could have smth irl all of a sudden??#why cant it just be a nice fun online messaging thing?#and like this shows that he wasnt as nice as i thought he was bc he was kinda rude and didnt care at all when i said it was uncomfortable#and yet.... i feel bad for wasting his time. but also in general unpleasant convos make me feel very very bad so idk#anyway i have no idea why this bothers me sooooo much. why do i even care? prov bc im so lonely and have no life lmao#but yeah i wish i hadnt messaged him. i thought it would just be a short convo not this ㅠㅠ#bc i cannot send a pic and get rejected. i cannot handle that. and i KNOW it will happen bc.. i have seen me#fuqqqq stop caring abt !!!
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#god. do i bother to email a MIT professor abt lab openings for a phd student? i mean im gonna do it#shoot ur shot ya kno but like with peace and lov i am not smart enough to get into the grad school lmao#i mean. good ppl r just looking for hard work and enthusiasm but emailing someone from a prestigious uni is terrifying#ugh. i have to do it tho. ive emailed 4 ppl so far. im prob emailing at the worst time bc schools just starting but like oh well#ill just follow up in 2weeks if they dont respond#hhhhhh so annoying. y cant i just psychically tell where i would do best?#i haven't even looked at the grad school requirements. my GRE scores are average as fuck except i got high writing scores#but im also dyslexic as fuck and didnt take the test with any disablility assistance so rip#and im not taking that shit again hahaha#a lot of schools well known for evolution stuff r the big jerk off universities. like i was talking to my dad abt it and he was like#yea going there would prob be like going to a different country. like way different vibes#im not cut throat or wealthy enough for lmao#hhhh i just wanna do science so cool that its all i think abt all the time#and i dont have to escapeism into fantasy land#tbh thats not gonna happen tho. im too much of a day dreamer lol#hhhh i should sleep. but my hearts beating too fast lol. why? what did i do?#unrelated
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Every single day I wish I was on a sitcom or something so I could look into the camera like ‘do you see this shit?’ and break the fourth wall
#this is mostly in reference to my last reblog to be honest#so like my best friend (g) has this friend she’s known her entire life (we’ll call her m)#m is in love with g. has been probably the whole time. she WILL NOT admit it though#and g pretends like she doesn’t know but i’m certain that she does. she must. m does literally so much stuff for her like..#she has her by a fucking string. it’s absolutely ridiculous#m used to be really jealous of me in high school and i used to snipe back at her but now i legitimately can’t bring myself to care#they’re less insufferable to be around now but my attitude is just like.. i can’t be bothered to get in the middle of whatever this is#i am NOT making this into a bermuda triangle of toxicity. count me the fuck out. so i remain pleasant and don’t let her bait mr#*me and oftentimes i just leave if m is there so they can be weird together#but sometimes they just do stuff that is so…… like recently g was talking about moving to scotland right?#she’s not going to do it. there is literally no way on god’s green earth that she’ll do it. she doesn’t have the money#she lives with her mom in her mom’s house and her mom helps raise her baby. like unless her mom sells up and comes with she’s not going#fucking anywhere. she doesn’t work; she doesn’t have money; she can’t live in a van with a toddler. she’s fucking delusional#but tell me why M HEARD THIS AND STARTED APPLYING FOR JOBS IN SCOTLAND???#like???? you’re really planning on leaving the fucking country with her and you want to act like you’re not in love with her LMAO OKAY#she must know as well as i do that it’s simply not going to happen but she’s still making plans just in case. i’m…..#tl;dr am i the only person who sees this shit??? it’s fucking crazy#personal
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ngl im kinda sick of being an assistant manager lmao. too much to do all the time and i just wanna think about my fictional characters & survive until the next day
nothing different from the past like 10 years of my life, tho now i have to input I-9′s and W-2′s and do employee interviews and tip distributions
ugh
#speculation nation#so much to do all the time always#there's a reason why i didnt wanna become acting manager. technically we kinda dont have one#store owner is operational manager rn but he's across the country & has been teaching me and co assistant manager lots of stuff#more and more responsibilities he's pushing on us and it's like#uhhh at what point r we no longer assistant managers and just the fucking managers of the store lmao#if so then i'd like to get paid like an actual manager pls and thanks. put me on a fuckin salary if you want this much work from me. goddamn
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Nie myślałam o tobie od lat
Twoja pamięć zdaje się przychodzić i odchodzić
Nasz czas wiele dla mnie znaczył
Teraz nie można Cię znaleźć
Byłeś pierwszym, który mnie chciał
Pierwszy, który mnie pokochał
Pierwszy, który mnie potrzebował
Kto jako ostatnia Cię poznała?
Ostatnia, która cię kochała?
Ostatnia, która cię trzymała?
To wspaniałe, cudowne życie
Takie cudowne, cudowne życie
Dzisiaj znów o Tobie pomyślałam
Przypomniało mi, jak z biegiem czasu się zmieniłam
Gdybyś tylko wiedział, co mi dałeś
Teraz nie można Cię znaleźć
Byłeś pierwszym, któremu zaufałem
Nauczyłam się, czym jest miłość, gdy byliśmy dziećmi
Kiedy tak się zagubiłeś?
Jak mogłeś pomyśleć, że będzie ci lepiej?
To wspaniałe, cudowne życie
Dlaczego musiałeś się pożegnać?
Dziękuję za te wyjątkowe chwile
Zawsze będziesz tu, w moich myślach
Czy wiesz, że zmieniłeś moje życie?
Jestem wdzięczna za ten czas
Jestem wdzięczna za ten czas
Jestem wdzięczna za ten czas
To wspaniałe, cudowne życie
Dlaczego musiałeś się pożegnać?
#this song always finds me again. and gwen clearly gets it (help. pain)#''did you know you changed my life?'' 🥺#inaudible sobbing#i miss so many people so much why did they have to go it's been years im still so sad randomly sometimes#so many old memories were unlocked recently so yeah ive been on a deep dive of some of those topics and it's just painful#i miss my friend so much#why did he move back to europe in 2008 im violently sobbing lmao oh my god i didnt realize how upset i was#i think i just tucked this away behind other stuff going on back then but now years later with a little spare time? ouch#we were literally kids but this is a core memory for me and there is A LOT to unpack#i started learning a whole other random language like this was very serious for me#i dont know i just thought maybe someone could stay for once but just my luck! all my friends moved!!! countries!!!!!#i still remember some words in that language and it's so bittersweet like aw i hope G***** and family are doing well
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Also this bs combined with the fact my interview was postponed… I’m even more nervous. I don’t like me sober, and i don’t think anyone else does either. I don’t know how a sober interview is actually gonna go for me ;/
#the only option aside from unwanted T-break is… ‘tWo sHOtS of VodKa’#which… is not a good look….. lmao#i just.. wish i could be Okay enough to do thus without it#or that ANYONE would be reliable enough thst I can GET what i fucking need#why js it so fhcking hard anyway?!?!!!#it’sJUST WEED!!!!! for FUCK sake !!!!#i HATE this shit so much#fuck this stupidass fucking country istg every little BIT is DESIGNED to infuriate and imprison me#i want to tear it all down to NOTHING and stomp and spit on it#and then get high as balls and paint some bullshit n eat lots of cheese#like literally I don’t ask for MUCH but ooOOoOooh！！I am unreasonable and radical!!!!($#FUCK OOOOFFFFFFFF
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