depending on how this next part plays out, it may actually redeem the meursault arc in my eyes

Why did I decide to render this instead of doing flat colors

@ajscico you tagged me in a "last line" thing but this is too many sentences ewsdftghjikl so I'm posting it here haha. @gemglyph I offer this in trade :)

The shadows shifted around him. Out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of a mane of fiery red hair, the glint of tusks. The rumbling at the edge of his hearing grew to a roar. The sense of dread crested, and with a wordless cry Sky jerked awake.

Bug centaur time

If I had a nickel for every time a character named Charlotte (who prefers to go by Lottie) ended up in a serious crash that caused her to be stranded in the snow, eventually leading to the death of several of her dearest friends, all while she was hearing ghosts/spirits of some kind calling out to her, I’d have two nickels. Which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice

Another old cat health ramble. Just cause sometimes I need to write things out

She’s still doing surprisingly well considering how increasingly unsettling she looks (if you follow me on twitter and open the sensitive content warnings, you know what she looks like - it’s spooky. I don’t post pics here cause there’s no real easy way to censor so it’s an opt in if you want to see her current state or not). And I think the cancer has definitely spread to her inner ear, as her balance problems are getting worse. She wobbled so bad she just about did a somersault yesterday when licking the hairball goo I give them every night off her front leg. Sometimes she rubs the area and it’s not great but it’s still manageable and it seems more like it just feels uncomfy sometimes (which I try to alleviate with the lubricant, but she doesn’t love that either so. Delicate balance)

But despite all that, she’s still so full of life and seemingly pain free. She still plays, eats, snuggles - if you covered up the affected part of her face and chocked the occasional wobble up to her being old or something, you’d never know there was anything wrong with her. She’s still so happy and tbh it. Doesn’t really make sense that she’s doing so well

Like I don’t want to look a gift horse in the mouth here but. It is strange. I expected her to be worse by now and I figured her even living to see october was a 50/50 shot. I had been hoping she’d last until this weekend, as it’s a long weekend, and unless anything goes downhill super quickly (which is absolutely possible), she’s going to sail right through without an issue. November? I don’t think it’ll happen based on the historical rate of growth from month to month but. She’s also really barely declined. The tumour is notably bigger and her balance is off but. That’s it

Idk I should be happy she’s doing so well but I can’t help but like. Feel on edge about it. Like whatever’s going to happen is going to be a really quick decline. She could pass suddenly in her sleep at any time too, or her heart could just stop or a blot clot or so many other things that would be sudden and instant. And while a long, slow deterioration is it’s own hell, so is a quick one that you don’t have the chance to prepare for. There’s no good way for it to happen but. Idk. It just makes me nervous that she’s still doing so well even though I know I should be grateful and cherishing it

Idk. There’s no real point here, it’s mostly a ramble. I feel like I’ve been preparing for it to happen any day for months, have been already mourning her for all this time. But she’s still kicking and is basically the same as she always is. And I’m happy for that, I truly truly am, but idk, I can’t help but think it’s a sign that when the time does come, there will be little to no warning. And while it sucks no matter how it happens, idk, I just can’t help being on edge about that because it still sucks, but there is at least some comfort in having at least some warning

also read this fic by @burnin-brighter

the burn is slow indeed and it hurts so good. LOVE❤️

Hi there! Big fan of your art, especially of your current Wukong iteration. If I may ask, why did you give your Wukong redraw of the monkey meditating in a monk temple blue eyes instead of golden ones? Have a great month!

Hhehehe thank you!! And well- it was kind of a mistake??? Initially when I started drawing over that image, I imagined Wukong with Shifu Subodhi- so I drew my version of Pre-Havoc Wukong (which I drew in the Erlang doodle)

I imagine he had almost uncomfortably blue eyes- but when I went to post it I realized it fits better that Wukongs in the Western Heaven post-JTTW soooooo💀 at that point it was too late to fix AJJDJAJFJF

watch the duffers give us some other random scene of mike and will in the van instead of THE van scene

Alright I've gotta go do stuff but hey consider:

Good Grief by Bastille and the Master

I'm investigating a Job Opportunity tomorrow that I think might be right up my alley? Suffice to say it is not in the realm of what normal people might choose as professions, but depending how tomorrow goes, I reckon I might give it a try and see. I'm mostly financially motivated and this fulfils that in spades, so I think once I get over the nerves it could be good? Argh I dunno. I'll probs share more as more develops because I love nothing more than to scream into the void. :D At least it lets me get my thoughts out straight. ^_^

i know i said this endverse fic would be 3 chapters but oh mannn playing around with all these timeskips is giving me so many more ideas

i walking again sat :)

Time to overshare onliiiiiiiiine! 🎶

I got my blood test back!! I do have a few levels that aren’t right, bilirubin (to be expected! I’ve got Gilbert’s syndrome so that’s normal), insufficient vitamin d (lol), aaaaand then a few things that indicate kidney disease or a possible kidney infection. Which the kidney disease would explain the infrequent kidney pain I’ve been having for… like a decade…. But I’m a little 🤔 about the results, because being dehydration can also cause those results. But I drank a lot of water the day before and the day of to make sure I *wouldnt* be dehydrated and could actually pee for my urine test lol. So I don’t think it makes sense for me to be dehydrated! And if I am, why tf is this water not hydrating me? That doesn’t really make sense. So idk! But I’ve gotten some answers for once so that’s definitely a step in the right direction : D

Do you have any fic recs for the 9-1-1 boys? I'll admit, I've never watched the show but they are everywhere and I need some sort of validation of them getting together, even if the show hasn't (yet?). Is that weird?

Okay, this has been sitting in my inbox for SO LONG, I apologise!! I haven’t been very organised with what I’ve read and originally I wanted to do more research and go through my bookmarks but I don’t think I’ll ever have the time to do that in the near future shjnhj SO. I don’t know if all of these will make sense if you haven’t watched the show but I’ll rec the fics I’ve read recently that I loved a lot.

In The Gray You Are Golden by letmetellyouaboutmyfeels • a zombie apocalypse AU, this was so good and played really well with canon elements

if it weren’t for second chances by alasse • an AU where Bobby adopts a teenage Buck, this was very sweet and healing

you give yourself away by woodchoc_magnum • season 6 spec fic, Buck spirals into breakdown, this broke my heart and then put it back together

this must be the place by euadnes • an AU where Buck gets shot too, very beautifully written fic about healing and recovery

The Best Lie is a Truth (My Best Mask is My Face) by letmetellyouaboutmyfeels • fake relationship, love a good fake relationship fic, this was excellent

aaaaaaaaa I have an audition in half an hour and I Do not think I’m going to get it but uhhhh yeah.