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#ipfy dot tif#vent stuff dot etc#ok to rb btw!!#idont normally make full on arts for my vents so im somewhat proud of this one#anyhways#EDIT: the line in the drawing and the caption are in reference to big bird by ajj. btw
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gogle is it normal to have no vivid memories and for your whole life to feel like a blur up until this moment. and also feelijg like one day you're going to wake up far in the future having skipped yoir whole life
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I hate. complicated friendships
#I love her but also.#I feel like such a bad friend for complaining about her but she’s just so. incredibly inconsiderate#like we planned to hang out ish at 1 pm today. suddenly she texts me like ‘hey I’m coming around 14:30 instead’#she knows I’m autistic too she knows how important having a schedule is for me and she pulls sth like that??#maybe it’s the fact that she’s an only child but she just expects the world and everyone else to accommodate for her#one time we were on a school trip and I was nauseous and I mentioned that to her and she just. made it all about herself???#like I get she’s got emetophobia but turning the conversation into a fifteen-minute-long rant about if I vomited to please not do it#anywhere she could see bc if I did she would cry and feel absolutely terrible for the rest of the day and etc etc etc#like bestie IM the one who’s sick here???#and like 50% of our conversations are just her venting at me (even more if you count the ones over text) and it’s. I don’t mind it when it’s#a normal amoun but she just treats me like an object for her to vent at and I Understand there’s stuff she can’t tell her therapist/coach bc#he knows her parents and she’s afraid he’ll tell on her if she talks about gender stuff (she’s not out) and I’m the closest trans friend she#has so I’m the person who understands it the best but it’s just. SO much#(but the moment I vent for once I just feel like she. doesn’t listen and that she thinks I’m just being too sensitive)#and that’s definitely my fault too bc idk how to communicate when she makes me uncomfortable with stuff like that#and she’s autistic too and doesn’t understand hints at all so I’d need to just State it and that feels so incredibly mean but.#there’s more instances I’m not typing out but just. ugh. I love her I really do and I feel like such a child for complaining about her on#tumblr dot com and I know I’m at fault too for not communicating when she makes me uncomfortable I’m not pretending I’m not to blame at all#but she’s self-centred and inconsiderate and. ugh#vent#elli rambles
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[Now Public!] Neopets Discord Fan Server
Remaking this ad from a few months ago because now anyone can join without having to ask for an invite!
⭐About
I made a casual, creatively oriented Neopets server intended for meeting others to share, collaborate on, and discuss Neopets OCs and the art and worldbuilding related to them. Some of my plans include to have non-competitive creative community events like periodic drawing, writing, or customization prompts.
⭐ Some more info of note:
This is less of an “I <3 Neopets/Neoclones!” generalist server and more specifically a “I <3 my Neopets OCs!” server.
You do not have to be an artist to join or participate, but YMMV if you're not into the OC side of things.
This server is 18+ only. That said, sexual content is not allowed, but some ocs/lore might touch on serious or otherwise sensitive topics (drug use/attack killing biting/etc.). We do ask that generally sensitive stuff (gore, flashing lights, etc.) be spoilered though.
To keep the server on-topic, we disallow talking about real-world politics and do not have a vent channel.
⭐HOW TO JOIN
Here's the link: discord(DOT)gg(SLASH)XaDmMMStWz
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All resources in the AIO links were uploaded before Jan 13, 2024. THIS BLOG WILL NO LONGER RECEIVE UPDATES | NOTICE POST.
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It’s been a while since I last updated the navigation post, and since I’ve made a few minor adjustments in all of this blog’s current pages, I thought I should make a new easier-to-read one now. This post might be long so I’ll keep the main content under break.
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First things first: I know there are a lot of complaints regarding miHoYo/HoYoverse’s character design and representation etc. etc. but tbh I don’t care and don’t want to give any duck about it either. I’m cool with people’s headcanons but I don’t want to see comments about real life social issues or politic shit in the reblogs, therefore I WILL BLOCK THOSE WHO DO SO IMMEDIATELY if I ever see any. If someone’s brain lacks the ability to separate fiction from reality and chooses to vent their bs here, I have all the rights to boot them out. Feel free to unfollow and block me if you don’t like how it sounds, take your complaints to miHoYo/HoYoverse/COGNOSPHERE directly, don’t do it here, thank you.
Secondly, this blog contains UNMARKED SPOILER, is NOT spoiler-free and will never be spoiler-free. However, I will never post leaks or any content related to leaks. All contents you see here were officially released by miHoYo/HoYoverse/COGNOSPHERE and/or their respective owners in-game and/or publicly by the time they are posted. If you’re not comfortable seeing any content(s) here, please consider blocking/muting/filtering respective tag(s).
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» Character Tags Page «
Nothing much to introduce here. There’s a filter box to the right where you can filter characters by their Vision elements, nations and sexes. Click on a character’s avatar to go to their tagged posts.
» Emotes Page «
This page is the emote masterlist. All Genshin emotes in this blog will be added here soon after they’re posted in the newest -> oldest order.
» Namecards Page «
A gallery of all in-game namecards. Each namecard has its name shown when you hover your mouse over it. If you want to get the full-size image of any card, right-click on it and select “Open image in new tab” or just “Save image as”.
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A gallery for main birthday artworks/birthday shorts. You can filter them by year, characters’ nations and sexes using the filter box on the right side. Switch between main birthday art and main birthday shorts by clicking the dots under each artwork. More info is in the description box.
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Nothing much to introduce here, it’s pretty much the same as the main birthday art gallery above but it’s for the twins version birthday shorts only.
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There are two versions of the TCG card gallery: Static and Dynamic. These pages use the same filter function that has been used in this blog’s other media pages so I believe everyone won’t have any issues navigating through them. Download instruction is inside the top right description box.
That’s all for now. I recommend bookmarking those pages so you can find your favorite stuff faster. Comments are permanently disabled here so these pages will make your simping life so much easier.
Last updated: January 24th, 2024
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So I know we won’t get it on the show, but this has been floating around my head since last night.
Ok so this is much longer in my head (many details) but picture the team is a mess in the post-Zava fog.
The coaches are frustrated and unrelated, Jamie has been using morning training to vent the stuff he cant say to the team because he’s worried he’ll seem like a prick.
Roy decides it’s time for the team to hear it. So (after working it out with Jamie in advance- which makes Roy aware that Jamie’s afraid of being sent away if he’s too much of a prick etc.) he gives Jamie the signal during team training.
Roy finally connects the dots about the repercussions of Rebecca’s s1 fuck up.
The team remembers who the fuck they are
Jamie gets his vindication moment (and Ted and Beard realize they fucked up with him)
Also it would be hilarious cuz it would involve jamie saying a lot of very nice things about all the other players but in a way that sounds like insults
OMG, that would be so wonderful!
And a nice callback to Nate's roast in season one! Something like “Dani, it was always important to you to make the people around you happy, but with Zava here, you only cared about licking his boots and nothing else. Jan, you are always honest and call people out on their bullshit, but Zava could have lied straight in your face and you’d said ‘yes, amen’. ... And now with him gone you're still all acting like he stole our spark. But you're giving him too much credit. He didn't make us a better team, he only cared about himself. But the thing that makes us great is ... When we're out there, each of us knows we're just one of eleven. And once you remember the team is not about Zava or me or you, but about us *looks at Ted* the sky's the limit.”
(got a little bit carried away here LOL)
I could actually see them doing something along the lines, especially since Nate and Jamie are foils for each other. And Jamie already being so crucial in bringing the team together this season.
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Ray, sorry for dropping in, but you gotta hear this bullshit I got to "enjoy" on my first day off.
A while ago, I made a post about asexuality and how it impacts people like me (aroace) in the real world and in online spaces (general stuff, no we are not fancy straight and no we are not straight spies sent into queer spaces to infiltrate and no we are not molested or traumatized and no, fucking us does not turn us "normal"). Just, you know, phrased better.
And this whole ass CHILD went up in my DM's to argue with me. Normally, I don't care, but the real kicker? They have "bisexual" (and their age, thats how I knew they are a child) written right there in their blog yet they PROUDLY regurgitated biphobic rhetoric to my face by simply changing the "bi" into "ace" and thought they did something! As if I don't know biphobic talking points when I see them with my own damn eyes! The "basically straight" and "you can pass as straight" was a very "nice" touch to the whole shitshow. Then they proudly finished up the whole tirade with "and I know you're not lgbt because you called yourself queer, no gay does that 🙄"
I HAVE NEVER SEEN SUCH BULLSHIT BEFORE IN MY LIFE
I though shit like this only happened in like homophobic facebook groups, not to my own damn face and unprovoked on TUMBLR DOT COM. Some children should NOT be on the internet and it fucking shows. I swear if they came here from that damn bird app, I will fucking lose it.
Nevermind that, had to vent and I trust you, you are a very cool and kind person. How has your day been?
Oh trust me darling I completely understand the need to vent after something like that.
At the risk of sounding like an internet old, it has been buck ass wild to watch so much of the younger generations just willfully ignore not only long established internet/fandom decorum but to just willfully ignore the realities of social issues like queer history because it doesn't fit into whatever social media sanitized version of queerness they think is reality.
And, to be honest, it's not even the ignorance itself that bothers me. Because we were all young and misinformed and raw in some way or another once upon a time. We had the passion but not the nuance, the drive but not the vocabulary, etc etc.
What bothers me is this deep trend I've been seeing where there's just this absolute unwillingness to learn.
I'm seeing it in queer spaces and I'm seeing it in fandom spaces and in the numerous ways those things cross over.
Kids who think they get to define what queerness is for everyone including their elders, who think they can come into clearly marked adult-only spaces and expect to be catered to, etc etc.
It's honestly sad and frustrating because I'm having to watch these kids dig up arguments that were already settled, argue things that were just considered unwritten law, and spout so many conservative/TERF/purity culture/homo-bi-ace-etc-phobic talking points while not even realizing that they are only arguing for their own oppression.
It's frightening in a lot of ways and it's one of the reasons why I push so hard to police my own corner of the internet and not put up with any of it in my spaces.
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Don’t mind me, I just needed to vent since anyone I might vent to is asleep or busy. >:(
So, let me start by saying that I took today off work because my Dad has his immunotherapy treatment today, so my anxiety is already through the roof, Well, our State Standardized test scores were released today. We have a big prize for the kids based on their performance on the test. Basically, if they have shown growth since their last test, even kids who are reading on a first grade level who took an on grade level test, can get a reward.
Naturally, I’m a workaholic and want to be completely ready and prepared for work, since we are doing the prize TOMORROW. I have my kids who grew all listed and know how many of these prizes that I need. I texted the math teacher (who is also off) and let her know about it. And asked if she could try since we need to know how much of the stuff we are using as a prize we need.
WELL. She said nope. Why should we look at how kids grew? All that matters if they passed or failed because its EASIER. And if they failed, they can still help out. Just not do the actual reward. Like....If I have a 5th grader who for various reasons absolutely can not read on a 5th grade level who showed growth though!! In her eyes should not get a reward...
I had already talked with the principal about this LAST WEEK. He is the one who suggested the growth measurement since projecting kids scores is ILLEGAL. I had told my team about this last week. I communicated. I crossed my t’s and dotted my i’s. Let them know we were doing rewards based on GROWTH not PASS/FAIL.
She told me just to do a google search. Other schools do it. Why worry about anything? She’s NOT doing it.
...Ugh. Like, I already hate state standardized tests. They’re awful. Kids that are expected to perform at grade level who for various reasons CAN NOT (SPED, testing anxiety, kid had a bad day, English learners who don’t have the correct background knowledge to answer the questions properly, etc) should not be held to that same standard. Yet we should still give them an opportunity to shine and have fun after these damn tests.
Anyway, that’s my vent. I’m trying super hard to do her work for her since she’s REFUSING, but now the dang website won’t load. Oh well.
If you read this, thank you! Sorry that I typed out something petty for you to read through. I just needed to get it off my chest. Have a good day!
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woah feck is that a chonny jash lyric???
featuring an oversaturated pit. color scheme by @/cinnamonsly
#vent but you can reblog bc i like how it looks#vent stuff dot etc#ipfy dot tif#chonny jash?#idk#i love pit tho fav song on the before.#love love love pit
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my knees always hurt. and my wrists are starting to hurt. and everything is hurting why is it always hurtig all the time
#ipfy dot txt#vent stuff dot etc#QAUHHHHHH#i dont wanna say it's chronic pain. i dont deserve that#its not that bad#waaaaaahhb cries forever
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I just realized that we should definitely have some sort of intro so, uh, here's that:
Hey! I'm Bug! I used to go by Sam too, but I no longer feel much of a connection to that name so now it's just Bug! The "Shine" part is a reference to my ponysona, who is named Bug Shine lol. My emoji sign off is 💙
I have a big pronoun hoard, but my mains are Shift/Shifts, Soft/Softs, Xe/Xym, and 💙/💙s. They/Them are my aux pronouns
I have a very very big label hoard (over 100 labels currently lol /srs /pos). My main gender labels are Genderqueer, Genderfluid, Nonbinary, Boygirl, Transmasc, and Softgender! My main attraction labels are PanGay, Polyamorous, Nebularomantic, and Semificto (romantic and sexual)!
I have ADHD, Autism, BPD, Depression, Anxiety, ARFID, Gender Dysphoria, and Anger Issues. I might vent about symptoms and stuff here sometimes, I dunno
I'm Nonhuman and identify as a shapeshifter! This isn't related to Otherkin, tho I also am Otherkin
I'm Fluttershy and Strawberry Cookie IRL! I personally don't mind doubles, but if you do then I recommend not interacting
Some of my biggest interests are: Hollow Knight, Steven Universe, My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic, Bug Fables: The Everlasting Sapling, The Last Of Us, Dying Light, FNAF, Gaming in general, and MOGAI!
Hello, I'm Rain Cloud... My emoji sign off is 🌌... This was just Bug's account before, but shift said soft was okay with us both using it... Also, the dots are a typing quirk, I'm not always sad lol...
My pronouns are It/Its and Xe/Xem... I do not have aux pronouns... Do not use They/Them pronouns for me please, if you can't use my pronouns then just use my name or don't talk about me /srs...
I also have a quite big label hoard, though not as big as Bug's... My main gender labels are Nonbinary, Agender, Transmascfem, Hadengender, Kenochoric, and Genderspace... My main attraction labels are Gay, Asexual, Cupiosexual, Nebularomantic, Semifictoromantic, and Polyamorous...
I have ADHD, Autism, BPD, NPD, Depression, Anxiety, Gender Dysphoria, Anger Issues, and really bad paranoia... I will most likely vent about symptoms and stuff here...
I'm also Nonhuman, though I don't really label myself... Some descriptors I like are: cryptid, monster, entity, being, creature, thing, vampire, and probably some others I'm forgetting... I'm not Otherkin and I'm just myself irl btw...
Some of my biggest interests are: The Legend Of Zelda: Breath Of The Wild, FNAF (especially Security Breach), Project Sekai, Minecraft, Steven Universe, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, YouTube video essays, Cavetown, MOGAI and "cringe" genders, and aquatic animals...
Hello, I'm Silver Lining. My emoji sign off is 🌻. I don't consider this blog mine, so I haven't added my name into the username. But I figured I should keep up with stuff on here for Bug and Rain when I'm in control. I'll reblog stuff for them and also maybe reblog stuff I like too. I might post as well, I'm not sure yet.
I'm not going to do as long of an intro as those two did. But, my pronouns are He/Him. I'm a Nonbinary, Asexual, Lesboy. I'm an angel (specifically a fallen angel). And I have most of the same disorders as Rain, except I only suspect I have NPD (haven't done enough research yet).
We're part of a system of 8, but this account is just run by 3 of us (for now, at least). You can follow our Insta art account @/moon_is_scared (we don't go on there super often, so a lot of the info in our different highlights is wrong 😅). We're wayyy more active on our diary account @/moonclansdiary , but it is where we share more personal stuff and vents (we do make sure to use trigger warnings)
Not sure what else to include other than a DNI:
(we don't actually expect everyone who interacts with us to read this, it's more of a warning that we'll prob block you if you do interact with us and are on our DNI :p)
MAPS/P*dos
Pro-shippers
TERFS
Homophobes, Transphobes, Biphobes, Panphobes, Aphobes, etc. Queerphobes in general (obviously)
If you're anti-endo systems.
If you s*icide bait at all
Ableists (including if you believe in Borderline or Narc ab*se. We all have BPD, and Rain (+possibly Silver) has NPD, you aren't welcome here. If you demonize ANY disorders you're not welcome here /srs)
Zionists and/or pro-"Israel"
If you are triggered by the words queer, fag, and/or dyke, we've reclaimed them and use them uncensored
Truscum/Transmeds + Exclusionists.
If you're anti-MOGAI and/or anti-nontrad pronouns. Also if you're against "contradictory" labels or police what labels others can use.
Anti-Black Lives Matter or you believe in "All Lives Matter"
Anti-ACAB
If you're against or don't believe in Nonhumans
Anti-Otherkin/Kinning
Anti-kink (we're all freaks <3)
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y’know... i think the only reason people are so upset about paid content is because we live in a world that does not value art/artists, nor service providers. we are taught that it’s acceptable to consume art/services and expect it for free or for the best deal. content creators are out here putting paid stuff up for the bare minimum and i see people complaining (whether it be on the dash or anons, etc) that it’s sooOoOOoO expensive. like this is the reason the phrase “starving artist” is a thing, why parents do not encourage their children to grow up to be artists or cosmetologists (at least until recently, they’re valued a bit more now) or photographers or a masseuse or any kind of service provider, etc. because art/service is not valued. service and art is highly demanded, but for some reason the world expects to have it for free. i don’t get that, i really don’t. someone is pouring endless amounts of time, creativity, dedication, etc to a project/service and yet? what is it worth to you? nothing. you want it SO BADLY you’ll cry about it on tumblr dot com forever, harass people in their inboxes, but it’s not worth the very minimal $price tag most of us put on it?
it just astounds me, i guess. as an artist, i cannot imagine not supporting other artists. people do not value art or services because it is not seen as essential to survival but this isn’t necessarily true, we may not need to actively consume it to survive, but it provides positive mental health effects, it provides comfort and joy, and art tells history, without it we wouldn’t be able to look back in time, and not to mention... YOU CONSUME CONTENT ALL DAY EVERY DAY — fashion, tv, architecture, makeup looks, car design, music, everything is art.
and like saying our stuff isn’t original or we don’t own gif content or images in themes, etc, like first of all, we’re providing a service to u, and second, i cannot freaking begin to imagine going into a store, especially a small business, and demanding i take their products home free because of some insanely strange reason like “i like this decorative plate but i don’t think you made the porcelain... only the paint so you didn’t make it so you’re not entitled to the payment” or “i saw this same/similar thing made at x store so it’s not original enough and you’re not entitled to the payment” etc. or contacting Netflix and saying “actually i think i should stream for free because i’ve already seen this movie” or going to a movie and saying “this is a remake... not original content, i get in for free :)” LIKE WHAT?!
and the argument of “most of us are poor” like oookay... i get that so hard it hurts but just bc i’m poor (personally working 3 jobs and still below poverty level) doesn’t mean i’m gonna be mad at someone else for trying to make a (VERY SMALL) profit off of THEIR EFFORT?? like u said... most of us are poor, so ur really gonna shame someone for trying to make a dime for HOURS worth of work? if u can’t afford it just don’t buy it! u don’t have to! no one is forcing u! if you want the content that badly, make it urself?????????????????????/ there’s plenty of free themes, u can make ur own google docs, ur own gifs, etc. and if u think it’s too hard, too much work, too much time, then HOW are you out here whining that a small price tag is too much to ask for?
this vent does not apply to frustration surrounding diverse fc’s being paid content, that i understand, so long as your anger isn’t coming from a place of “i hate paying for content” and for the simple fact that we want diverse fc’s being used. i want diverse fc’s being used. when i started putting gifs on payhip i questioned what i should do, and at first i thought making them equal was better, but i decided in the end my fc’s of color/fat fc’s/etc should be easier to access.
all in all... i think if you’re someone whining about paid content, mad about it, and most of all, someone sending anonymous hatred about it... you need to do some thinking on where it rly comes from. like your anger about paid content is a reflection of you, not us.
in my opinion, it just shows that you don’t value creativity, you don’t value services, and tbh, you’re full of entitlement.
#sorry for this very long vent but im so tired of the anon hate and the whining. it's so pathetic#appreciate other human beings.#value service. value creativity#vent tw#stop talking tiff *
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tw: csa mention, abuse mention, sex mention (?), craving abuse
i guess i'm looking for advice or like any idea as to why this is happening and if it's common
i've been waking up aroused four days in a row now. i'm ace and sex repulsed and a csa survivor etc etc and it's just so random. sometimes it's just arousal on its own and sometimes it's like mixed with stuff i used to imagine when craving abuse. i'm pretty sure it's temporary and just writing it might magically stop it from happening again (i tend to experience stuff that just go away when i vent about them).
it's just really weird that it specifically happens as i wake up and i've been dealing pretty well with the whole craving abuse thing although it's still in the back of my head. i hate that it's a thing but i feel like it would make me feel more "complete" or valid to experience sexual abuse at least just once more in my life. it's kind of hard to know that it's a long gone period of my life and i probably won't experience it again.
thank you for your time <3 could you tag it "#three dots anon"? i might ask you to delete this ask later
Hey there nonny! We appreciate the ask!
For anyone reading, this response will include talk about sexual organs and anatomy as well as their function and sex, so be warned!
Waking up in a state of sexual arousal is entirely common and actually quite healthy! Many males are familiar with the sensation and situation, and call it "morning wood," but it is actually just as common in females as well! It's less noticeable because females don't have penises that get visibly erect, but it's just as common, and typically occurs with feelings of arousal, hardness of the clitoris, and wetness of the vagina. It's likely that this happens fairly often, and you're recognizing it because you've been thinking about your abuse and craving it, which you've connected to this feeling, making it that much easier to recognize right now.
In truth, there's not really anything you can do to stop it, and it's not caused by sex or thoughts of sex at all! When you sleep, there are two parts--NREM and REM. During REM sleep, your body relaxes, and your parasympathetic nervous system will lower some levels of hormones and increase others. Typically, it will decrease adrenaline, and increase blood flow. Arousal and erections are caused by increased blood flow to the genital area, and normally adrenaline keeps that from happening, but its decreased levels when sleeping mean that it can't do that. Most people experience sexual arousal during sleep 3-5 times, once during each REM cycle they have. If you wake in the middle of your REM cycle, it's pretty likely that you'll wake in some version of sexual arousal. It's perfectly normal, common, healthy, and unrelated to sexual thoughts or sex at all really.
As for craving your abuse, this is extremely common in survivors of abuse, and something I can absolutely empathize with. While abuse is traumatizing and painful, sometimes your brain can process it as a form of love, or a sign that someone wanted you, or that it meant you were enough for people, or even sometimes pleasurable (especially in cases of sexual abuse). Wanting to have that happen again or craving that trauma doesn't make you weird or gross, it's just another form of trauma presenting itself. It can be hard to see your worth outside of it, and accepting that it's over can be really difficult. Finding people and things that make you feel good about yourself and like you are worth something and working to feel like you are complete as who you are is difficult, but so worth it, nonny. You are absolutely worth it.
While I'm not sex-repulsed, I can imagine that makes it very difficult to manage these thoughts, and I sympathize with you. Here's a bit on why trauma reenactment happens and what it means, particularly in ptsd. This focuses primarily on flashbacks as reenactment, but it'sapplicable to feeling like you want to be back in those situations as well.
Personally, I treat these thoughts the way I treat my other intrusive thoughts--acknowledge, defy, dismiss, and distract. I acknowledge that it's there, I defy the thought by telling myself that it's not a good idea and that it will not make me any more whole because I am whole and complete as I am, I dismiss the thought, and then I do something that's completely within my control and relaxing for me, typically color or puzzles. Here's a bit on dealing with intrusive thoughts.
I really hope this helped nonny, and I wish you healing and happiness
~Mod Night
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A rare personal vent time in this time and age lmao
Feels like im boiling up, put on small simmer but it's been going on for months. I'm trying to do the sensible adult thing and vent less online, especially when, now I 1) have come to realise how stressful it is to be on the receiving end and 2) I don't have proper "anonymous" channel to just yell my stuff into void. I've been on sites too long, know too many people I don't want to cause stress to, etc.
I do think it's healthier to not vent online and I do go to therapy but it's also different sensation to complain online and be excactly as pitiful and meme-brained as you need to while doing it, versus talking to 60y old nice lady once a month desperately trying to come up with scenarios she would understand without needing to explain 5 levels of current brainrot. And also just the feel of sharing your pain with bigger audience, even if that audience is anonymous silent users who don't care.
But I'm super tired and stressed all the time. I can barely sleep without anxiety medication and when I manage to sleep it takes ages to wake up. I have things I should do and know I need to do, but first time ever in my life I'm just too tired to even attempt to do them. Can't muster the energy to fill a simple form. Like my tiredness overwrote my anxiety of needing to do stuff? That is very new. I disappear from online spaces, I don't feel joy anymore, just fleeting moments of Not Feeling Anxious. Even normal friend gathetings I usually enjoy are now more or less overwritten by anxiety of Wait Do Everyone Hate Me Actually? and I Am Reading Everyone's Microexpressions To Determine If They Are Happy Or Not. and that's not fair or cool for me nor them. I'd say panic attacks are new but actually I'm just now connecting dots with them.
And yeah I know it's depression I know!! I used to have it!! For years!! And then I was better for some 5 years and it came back and feels more crushing this time because now I know how life is supposed to feel like. I guess for the positives I can now recognise when Bad Thoughts are just brain being stupid and not reality, but it makes it no less annoying.
#me tag#it's nothing bad just my depression is back and that sucks#and i sometimes miss yelling stuff online#it's not a good practise but listen. listen#it just feels nice sometimes
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Hello! I am a woman and I want to talk to you about your misandry post!
I think you are deeply misunderstanding what misogyny is if you think misandry could suddenly develop into that exists on a systemic level, or on the same level as misogyny.
Misogyny is a systemic oppression that permeates every aspect of your life as a woman. All of your hobbies, your work, your friends, the media you consume, your education, etc.
I'm going to explain this very simply but we live under a patriarchy where men as a social class dominate women in the aspects cited above and more. What you see most of the time when women are angry at their oppressor class is just vent posts. This has been going on for centuries. I can very much tell you that women being tired on tumblr dot com will not suddenly break the fabric of reality and somehow reverse this.
Intersectional feminism posits that there are multiple axis of oppression, and while a white woman might hold more power socially than a black man, a man will always be more privileged in its minority group than the men there. (Like disabled men getting more advantages relatively speaking than disabled women and so on).
There are the very few women who are genuinely anti men in the bioessentialist way, as in they think testosterone makes you naturally a monster. This is obviously conservative determinism talk and those people tend to have conservative ideas about women as well.
There are also the people who are transphobic and who try to say that trans women are men and that you should hate them. This is transphobia.
Anyway over all I have been seeing a super strong resurgence in MRA talking point on this websites. Please be aware that even if a man is part of another minority group he will always have power over women in those groups too. That women are constantly treated horrible and them venting about the group that super consistently threatens their livelihood isn't oppression. That misogyny is more than feeling bad about a little comment online. All of this stuff. You can feel free to disagree but as a woman I wish people focused on how we're systemically endangered instead of constantly trying to pivot everything into being about men.
Hey! I’m sorry if I imparted the idea that I think misandry could turn into a problem overnight, or that it is currently becoming a problem. I just think it has potential, probably not in several decades though. I understand that misogyny is a deep, deep issue, rooted into literally everything. I’m so sorry I gave you the wrong idea. I sincerely apologize!
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