Marilyn Robinson - Transgender Tuesdays -  a founding board member of the Transgender Law Center in San Francision. Ms. Robinson recounts going to the psychologist as a child in the 1960s because she wanted to be a little girl and the psychiatrist abusing her.

Warning: Child sexual assault. "You have to bear in mind that there was no name for how I felt in 1960. I was born in 58 so 1960 whatever and a child and a black family I knew I was different because of how people treated me and viewed me. Like other children you know I didn't have any friends growing up.

One day I saw my sister go to the bathroom and then it occurred to me I thought wait a minute, I don't have the same thing she had.

I had to go see a psychiatrist at that age. I told the psychiatrist that I want to be a woman, a girl, cuz you don't say woman at 8 years old or 9. You'd say I want be a girl and he would show me pictures of boys and he would often ask me always, "Is this what you like on boys or this what you like on boys or this would you like on boys?" Now mind you I never thought of sex and I'm having sex with a guy I just thought of being a girl you know, so he used that as a way to make me play with him you know my psychiatrist did, he wanted me to perform fellatio on him." Full documentary on youtube

“What are you bringing home for Christmas pictures?” “Literally all I have is flannel and activist t-shirts.” My sister and I have been writing letters to Ellen since we were 6 and 10 - we’re now 19 and 23 and if this doesn’t get us on her radar then my life has been pointless 😂 I don’t know what people expected from a family with two moms and a trans kid but happy holidays ya filthy animals! . . . #resistmas #merryresistmas #queerfam #instaqueer #instatrans #pronounsmatter #legalizetrans #lgbtq #ellen #theellenshow #ellendegeneres #ftm #boyslikeus #queer #christmascard #twomoms #womensmarch #pussyhat #buzzfeed #huffpo #queerlove #transisbeautiful #transgender #transguy #transgendertuesday

Transscript memories of what it was like to be transgender as children in the 1950s and 1960s: Astrid Olsen: I was encouraged into outdoor sports I was yanked from school a lot to go to sporting event you like the Giants. I saw Willie Mays play he really was that good and they did everything they could to make a man out of me. And I was encouraged in this but it just didn't work.

Nola Vandella I guess by second or third grade it was a conscious secret y'know something kind of confusing and the night before I was supposed to get my Cub Scout uniform I had a dream that, I'll never forget we went to the store where you get Scout uniforms and they sold me a brownie uniform and nobody said anything and then I woke up and Wow by then it was like every single night and day and I couldn't talk to my parents about.

Nola VanDella

"When I was in kindergarten nine I started noticing I was regularly in my dreams a girl and in real life it was, it didn't quite match"

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Transgender Tuesdays

This movie interviews 12 patients who were treated at the Tom Waddell, the first Public Health transgender clinic in the country, launched in 1993 in the Tenderloin district of San Francisco. The documentary captures the stores of elder transgender people of their experiences from 1950s-1990s. Red Jordan Arobateau was a working class writer, author, painter, and biracial transman who was born in 1943 and grew up in Chicago. Arobateau was a patient at the Tom Waddell clinic. His interview focuses the lack of representation of LGBTQ, and specifically Transgender people in the media. Far from having encouraging messages or societal support, as a child he knew that he was a boy. The thumbnail clip shows a picture of Marilyn Robinson a transgender activist, but Red speaks immediately after her.

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Transcript of the clip - Red Jordan Arobateau:

"My earliest memory, I was a boy and I was doing all these boy things all the time, very early. And I might add this was the days before television. We're not getting bombarded by Rosie O'Donnell, and our wonderful, Oprah Winfrey, and all these TGTS, Gay, Bi, Lesbian programs. There was no television at all. So I had just manifested this all by myself.