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Day 0 to 9 How I Survived My TONSILLECTOMY

🧸Welcome back to my tumblr page! 🧸

I’m here to share you some of my latest nightmare, cruelity, disgusting experience about my tonsillectomy surgery !

If you have no idea what is tonsillectomy, shortly, it’s a surgery to remove your tonsils. And what are tonsils? It’s the twin egg that stays in the middle of your throat to prevent your from infection but if you’re unlucky they turn into a self destructing machine to gets your sick every. Single. Month. And YES I HAVE SORE THROAT EACH MONTH 😒 thanks to my overly inflamed tonsils. Moving on... I’ll just leave a link about tonsillectomy

These past week has been the hardest week of my life. Not being able to eat solid food, lost 12 lbs in 5 days, midnight suffering and many more. I have written you my day by day experience, I hope you enjoy reading it 😊

Day 0

I was told to fast at least 6 hours before the surgery this means I wasn’t able to eat or drink anything before the surgery

Day 1

operation at 9am, they changed my clothes even my underwear and injected me with anesthetic medicine ( I heard that it was morphine ), I coughed for several times until I finally passed out

after 2/3 hours I woke up in my nursing room, I was still super unconscious and right after the anesthetic had clearly gone they gave me cold water ( no popsicle they said they ran out of it 😡 )

My nose bled because they put tubes inside me to help me breath

tried to get up and grab some water but I felt extra nauseous, I threw up that day for like 7 times. At first I was so afraid to throw up because I’ll definitely throw up blood, but then it gets so much better after you get them out, they said that it was because of the anesthesia

they injected some pain killers every several hours so I didn’t feel that much pain

didn’t eat anything on day 1 because I was feeling super nauseous

mom bought some ice cream but dairy products produced so much mucus on my throat so I stopped eating dairy. I can only drink cold water and also ice packs was my best friend

Day 2

they gave me some porridge with chicken broth, but I was still not able to eat anything. I probably only ate 2 spoon of porridge that day. Day two I didn’t feel that much pain (but there were definitely pain )probably because they still gave me pain killers intravenously every 4 hours

In the afternoon my ENT doctor came to visit me and told me that I was ready to go home, great!!! But this was where all the pain started 🤣😂

The doctors gave me some antibiotics, and some pain killers, but I have to switch the pain killer with some OTC products that is made for kids called ‘rhelafen’ because the one that the doctor gave me made my stomach hurts like hell

Day two the pain was increasing continuously and I was still not able to eat anything. My mom bought me non dairy popsicle and that helped me so much, also I never stop the ice pack because that really helps to numb the pain

I can talk but the more you talk the more you have to swallow your saliva so I suggest you not to talk too often. The more you have to swallow your saliva the more it hurts

I woke up at 2 am in the morning because of the sharp pain on my throat, I even cried that night, I really can’t help it but I didn’t take any pain meds I just put ice packs on my neck and tried to suck popsicles as much as I could

Day 3

was hell, I woke up with sharp pain on my throat.

Day three was like the very downhill of this recovery process

I started to take pain meds more often (every 4 hours) the pain lasted throughout the day, I also have light fever because of the infection

Swallowing and talking was even harder than day 1 and 2

I didn’t do anything on day three because I feel so hopeless but I was able to eat some scrambled egg because I was super super super hungry

Day three I have thick blood coming out of my nose

Night time was the hardest, It’s even harder to fall asleep, and again I woke up in the middle of the night to put ice packs on my neck because my throat hurts so damn much, it felt like glass coming out of your throat.

Day 4

The pain was crazy when I woke up in the morning I forced myself to eat some porridge and took my pain meds

But it gets so much better during the day, I felt less pain, I can do a lot of stuff I can even made a banana smoothie to brought in some vitamin

I can see the scabs (the white thing that covers the open flesh around the tonsils we’re getting thicker

I felt pain when I wanted to go to sleep but then it was not as much as the midnight pain. I woke up suffering (it’s always worst during this hours I have no idea why)

I took my pain meds again, because I really couldn’t sleep because of the pain

Day 5

day 5 was pretty much the copy of day 4

Burning sensation when I woke up in the morning, sharp pain when I woke up in the middle of the night

And less pain during the day

Woke up in the middle of the night to put ice packs and took my pain meds

My nose were still bleeding and the weirdest thing is that everything I tried to drink something it got to my nose, tasted to weird... 🤮

Day 6

The pain felt exactly the same like day 4 and 5

Everything goes uphill during the day, I even tried to swallow some super soft chicken breast my mom brought

Wake up at 3 in the morning the pain was crazy, so I woke up and took my pain killer but I stopped compressing ice packs because it gets way too cold, pain killers helped me that night

Day 7

I woke up today feeling frustrated because my throat is burning, I think I took too many pain killers that I was getting resistant to it :( I really couldn’t swallow barely anything that morning so I took my pain killer before having my meals

I took a look at my tonsils and i saw some of the scabs were falling off. Maybe that’s why I have sharp pain just by drinking water and also the metal taste caused by the blood

Everything was fine during the day, I ate more today, drank some carrot juice, I stopped taking pain killers in the afternoon because I had too much of it and it’s not good I already had 4 bottles of OTC pain killer

However, I slept better that night, I didn’t even wake up to take my pain meds

Day 8

the morning was less horrible than day 7, but I still have to take my pain meds before I can actually swallow anything

Today I went to see my ENT doctor Yeay! She was surprised because I didn’t bleed and my breath wasn’t stink

I got soo confident after seeing my doctor because she told me that I’m actually doing great compared to her other patients and that the pain I was dealing with was normal

She also told me that after my first weekly check up everything is going uphill, I really hope so

I still take my pain meds before going to bed, but never in the middle of the night anymore since that day

Day 9

she was right! Everything is going uphill. I can even eat some rice and noodle but it still felt pretty rough

I didn’t take any pain meds unless I feel pain swallowing something

I slept well that night with only 1/10 pain

THATS ALLL~

Right now I’m on my 10th day, and everything is going waay waaay waaay better than I expected. Still not able to eat solid or spicy food but I gained some weight and feeling a lot better than before. The doctor told me that the full recovery takes up to 1 whole month.

For anyone that’s asking does my voice change? I guess I can say yes just a little bit, even my boyfriend told me that I sound different, heavier, I guess it’ll fix itself after I’m fully recovered

🧸TONSILLECTOMY RECOVERY TIPS 🧸

1. Stick to your medicine (I took antibiotics, pain meds and dexametashone)

2. BRUSH YOUR TEETH! it helps you to get rid of the bacterias, not just brush your teeth, do daily hygiene as much as you could

3. Less talking and don’t force yourself to eat solid food to prevent bleeding

4. Use ice packs and buy tons of popsicle

5. Drink some juice, don’t starve... eating helps you to heal faster

6. Take a 10 days rest, just stay inside the house and focus on your healing

7. Take pain meds in the morning before having your meals to help you swallow

8. STAY HYDRATED

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ragnell · 7 years

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Laura Palmer in the Lodge, Persephone in the Underworld

So, today Twin Peaks season three is coming out and in preparation I've been watching the old show and the movie, and thinking about Laura.

Also there's this post going around Tumblr claiming that the original Eleusis tradition is that Persephone ran off with Hades and so on.. and other ones fighting over Hades and Persephone and the wokeness of the couple and so on... and just about all of them miss a fundamental truth about both deities, which is that there's a certain amount of metaphor involved in each story. (I say this as someone particularly defensive of Hades in pop culture, I think using him as a villain is usually a sign the writer can't reconcile their own fear of death with the pantheon they're pulling from, and it almost always involves graphing an unsuitable personality onto him.)

And however you tell it, to preserve the power of Persephone's story her entrance to the Underworld must be a sudden, terrifying, violent experience. It is a metaphor for death but also for the traumatic, lifechanging experiences that damage a person's outlook to the point it feels like they've died and started a new, dark, hopeless existence.

Persephone's story always involves an element of choice, but that choice is made within the Underworld. She chooses to eat the pomegranate seeds. She, after weeks of refusing the food of the dead for fear she can't return to Earth and regain her own life, accepts that she's died. Accepts that this trauma has happened to her and there's no going back. And in some tellings she tries to hide it, because she does get a chance to return, but in the end she ends up bound to the Underworld for at least part of the time.

However... there's a difference. Her time there, until she ate the seeds, was as a prisoner. When she returns she's the Queen. She's always there, and she becomes an advocate and ally for the heroes who take the Underworld quest.

People read this story and come up with the impression that it's a grand injustice, and that's another thing I hate about pop culture writers. Thgey like to portray her as a prisoner forever at times. But the story itself is not just a metaphor for the seasons, its a metaphor for undergoing trauma. She is a prisoner after the event, until she accepts that it's happened. She returns home, but she's forever changed. Part of her belongs in that dark world, and the experience gives her wisdom and allows her to help others through the same situation. From accepting the truth of her life, she takes a position of power and authority.

(There are more scholarly books on the subject if you'd like a more detailed and better presented argument.)

Not accusing everybody of missing this aspect, just noticing that it's not present in the Persephone posts I've seen floating by.

But what does this have to do with Laura Palmer and Twin Peaks? Its spoilery, so I'll tell you below the cut.

When we first see Laura in Twin Peaks, she's obviously the deceased flower maiden. Everyone remembers how beautiful and full of life she was, they all loved her and she was stolen from them. But that's not how we meet her. When we first meet Laura in Twin Peaks, she is in the Red Room, in Cooper's Dream. Instead of being a dead girl with whitish plastic framing her still face, she's a smiling woman in a regal black robe.

Later we learn that the Red Room is the waiting room for the Black and/or White Lodge(s), and part of the Otherworld/Underworld in the Twin Peaks universee. Laura is introduced by the Man From Another Place as his cousin, and she offers Cooper clues about her last night alive as well as telling him who killed her.

The Man From Another Place (MFAP) is consistently presented as the highest authority in the Lodge that we've met. In FWWM, he is of equal rank with a grievance against or outright outranking Killer BOB. He introduces Laura as a cousin, probably as a hint about Madeline Ferguson but it also gives the impression she is a member of the MFAP's household.

During the season two finale, during Cooper's challenge, Laura is one of the spirits who arrives to offer him guidance. She gives him the infamous "Meanwhile" gesture, which some fans have identified as the "Fear Not" mudra (which would ahve meaning to Cooper, given his preoccupation with Tibetan religion) and would be the most helpful advice for getting out of the Black Lodge.

Laura, in the physical world, is a cold corpse, the woman in the refrigerator, the object that starts the investigation, causes angst to the whole town and brings the hero into the story. She had a secret life, went through pure hell and trauma before her violent, horrific, torturous death. But Laura in the spirit world is at peace, and more than that active in the aftermath of her death by offering clues, advice and guidance to the man there to solve it.

Furthermore, the element of choice in Persephone's story is also there in FWWM, as is the marriage aspect. The Owl Cave Ring that appears to be associated with death, that she's warned not to take. The Owl Cave Ring that MFAP holds up saying "With This Ring, I Thee Wed" during the convenience store meeting. The trauma of Laura's existence, the hell that she is trapped in reaches a climax and threatens to strip her of all free will so she accepts the ring. She accepts this metaphorical marriage to MFAP, and death, is murdered by Killer BOB. and afterwards, she is in the Lodge, in that black robe, looking like a grown woman and not a girl on the cusp of womanhood, at peace, comforted, and laughing with joy at her angel.

Effectively, Laura Palmer is a modern American Persephone. She is dragged through trauma and death, warred over by two different spirits, she makes the final choice and accepts what she's been through as a part of her, and lives on in the Underworld to guide other heroes through these trials.

This is reinforced by the fact that living (or spirit) Laura is also the most intense presence of the series. She's introduced as a being of pure, peaceful stillness, which is reinforced with her picture on the end credits of every show, which allows every scene she's actually in to take on a power and passion by contrast. Cuts of Sheryl Lee screaming in Ronnette's flashbacks and during Cooper's trial have a power beyond that of normal scream queen because we are so used to her frozen, tranquil face during the closing credits.

This, as well as other aspects of Laura's story (being worthy of an angel and a place in heaven even if you are a "fallen woman"; loss of innocence spreading from person to person; darkness and light being integral parts of being a whole person) is part of what makes her so iconic. Laura's never been just a corpse on the screen, she's been a supernatural force and the spirit of her town. She's the goddess of Twin Peaks, embodying that marriage of opposing forces that made the series so special.

#long post #Twin Peaks #Persephone #Laura Palmer

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