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becca-e-barnes · 1 year

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Sub Bucky and a breeding kink 💀 dead unlived it's one of my favourite things 😌

This is pretty high up there on my list of dream fantasies 🥵 these are two of my biggest weaknesses, don't even look at me rn

One of life's greatest joys is cuddling with the other person's head resting on your chest so you can play with their hair and rub their shoulders. I love that shit, having someone else's body weight on you is so comforting.

I imagine that's something Bucky would really enjoy too. It's so soft and sweet and tender and getting to feel cared for would really appeal to him.

But that's up until his hands work their way under your top, up over your bare skin so he's able to cup your breasts and bury his face between them while he's getting his hair played with. Life's pleasures don't get much simpler than that.

After a few moments he shifts slightly, tugging the neckline of your shirt out of the way to give himself space to kiss and nip your skin. All of a sudden he's desperate and it's beautiful to watch.

"Please." He whispers between frantic kisses, flicking his tongue over the stiff peak of your nipple before engulfing it with his warm, eager mouth.

"Please, what?" You tease, tugging on his hair just a little for emphasis.

He groans, frustrated by his own lack of coherence, pulling his mouth from your nipple. "Please let me put a baby in you."

That's not what you were expecting but fuck, he makes it sound pretty appealing.

"Bucky-" You begin but he cuts you off, giving your other nipple the same attention as he gave the first. God, that's distracting.

"You'd make. Such. A pretty. Mommy." He whispers, kissing his way down your body until he reaches the bottom seam of your top. From there, he pulls it off, letting it fall to the floor before removing the rest of your clothes.

"You'd look so pretty with a little baby bump." His huge hand rests on your bare tummy, imaging how your body would change.

"I want it, Buck." You mean it too. It doesn't sound like such a bad idea when he's taking his clothes off.

"I know you want it." He groans, rubbing the tip of his dick against your soaked core. "Y-you're so wet."

He presses his hips forward, sliding inside you and you can't explain it but you swear it feels different this time.

"Don't even think about pulling out." You cup his face in your hands, keeping his eyes on you and you almost worry he's going to fuck himself senseless into you. "I want you to make me a mommy. You're going to give me every single drop of cum and when it starts to drip out of me, you're going to fuck it back in."

His head falls onto your shoulder, sobbing a pathetic moan against your already hot skin. The pace of his thrusts matches his need, his hips slamming into yours and when he finally gives in, he cums inside you with your legs clamped around his waist, making sure he couldn't pull out even if he wanted to.

#asks answered <3 #becca writes spice #anon #sub!bucky #subby bucky #this is one of those fantasies that's nice in my head #I think I'd like to be at that point in my life but it's absolutely not where I'm at rn #maybe some day tho #I started writing a new series yesterday #making a lil moodboard #excited to post the concept #can't decide if I want each chapter to feel like a continuation of the one before #or if I want the chapters to be more detached from each other with time passing in between #might actually space it out over a weekend?#I took my lil granny out for lunch today and she's just the cutest #she usually comes up to ours for Sunday lunch but my parents were out this weekend #so I made her dinner last night and took it down to her and I asked if she wanted to go out for Sunday lunch for a change #she made me book the table right there in front of her so she'd be able to look forward to it 🥺#I sat with her for over an hour yesterday evening and she smiled nearly the whole time #she's too cute I swear

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aeoris4lovers · 1 year

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When all is said and done, when Trent is locked away and their stories are told and there is nothing left of their old lives that must be turned over to the world and Caleb and Astrid are finally settling into the newer pockets of their lives, Eadwulf runs.

He leaves Astrid in the misty grey hours of early morning as she sleeps soundly, her face settled into a content kind of faint smile that so rarely graces it at any other time. There are no goodbyes on that morning, no confession of where he might be going or plans for when to meet again. There is only the ghost of a kiss on a temple, so soft it can hardly be called a true touch at all, and an apology deep in his bones that he can’t risk saying aloud.

Before he goes, he makes breakfast for her. He covers the table in a spread of fruits and eggs and toast, leaves fresh coffee in a pot, all of it magically kept warm until she wakes and finds it. There are only so many comforts he can deny her at once.

He writes a note for her, too, and props against the coffee pot. It’s short — just enough to reassure her of his safety — and carefully avoids using any of the code words that would alert her to some sort of danger.

The first step out the door is an amputation, rough and gorey and in the absence of any fire that might cauterize it, and he stumbles out onto the street in that familiar haze which accompanies, as always, the bearing of some unbearable pain. There can be no way forward for him with things as they are, grafted as he has been for so long to her stronger trunk and left to grow only as she does, but the necessity of the action leaves him no less an open wound.

Lost in that fog clouding his mind, hardly present at all in his own skin, he finds himself not long after at the outskirts of a familiar graveyard. He doesn’t remember deciding to go there, doesn’t remember wanting to, certainly doesn’t remember the process of casting a spell to close the distance — but there he is nonetheless, and as he takes stock of his surroundings, he hears the unmistakable croak of a raven ring out from a nearby tree.

There should be no warmth for him in this place, really; nothing but barred doors and shuttered windows to greet him after what they had done to it. It’s still being rebuilt, still not yet a true temple again. What reason would these people have to welcome him?

But somehow, impossibly, they do.

Not without their hesitations, of course. No one in the family has forgotten their last meeting, least of all the familiar cleric who opens the door to answer Eadwulf’s clumsy knock. Immediately, the darkening of Caduceus’ face betrays his intention to shut the door again, but then he looks at Eadwulf with a gaze that seems to burn straight through his flesh and pierce his skull. Whatever Caduceus finds inside, it must be to his satisfaction because only a moment later, he opens the door wider and asks with a smile if Eadwulf would like a cup of tea.

And with Caduceus’ blessing, the rest of the family accepts him easily enough. They are clearly unsure of him at first, but he helps in the kitchen and volunteers to take on much of the heavy lifting for the repairs and doesn’t complain when the youngest Clay practically climbs him or excitedly shows him the strangest insect she found that day, and soon enough, his presence there almost starts to feel natural.

So, he stays a while. He helps where he can but does his best not to intrude on the family otherwise, quietly haunting the further reaches of the Grove and idly tending to the plants there until needed (or just invited) elsewhere. He leaves for a couple of days every once in a while, to be on his own and give them some space, but inevitably comes back when his business elsewhere is taken care of, usually with some small gifts for the Clays in hand. He stays for what must amount to quite a few months, judging by how his hair grows long enough to curl again and then even longer still, until it nearly brushes his shoulders. He loses track of the time easily in the secluded beauty of the Grove, though, and the changing of the seasons only rarely reminds him of its passing enough to worry that he might overstay his welcome.

Constance and Cornelius insist on making a place for him to sleep inside the house, but most nights he prefers to sleep under the stars, taking in the ever-present air of nature and divinity and gentle decay. When the nights grow colder and he conjures a dome for himself to keep warm, Clarabelle likes to follow him out and join him underneath it. Sometimes she approaches with blankets dragged behind her, to throw over the top of the dome and turn it into a magical blanket fort. Other times, if the sky is clear, she lays down next to him and they look up together, him occasionally pointing out a constellation to her and her connecting the stars into constellations of her own design.

One night, just as she steps out to join him, Colton emerges behind her and takes her arm, bending to whisper something in her ear. She stops for a moment, nodding slowly as she listens, but then brushes him off as though his words were utter nonsense and makes her way over, undeterred. Later that night, as the two of them lay beneath the stars, she props herself up on her elbow to face Eadwulf and says with a cheerful smile and a mischievous glint in her eye, “Colton says you’re dangerous, you know.”

The implications of the statement only momentarily take him aback. Of course Colton — and the others, no doubt — would still be wary of him, especially with Clarabelle getting so close without them around. Propping himself up to look her in the eye, he replies with a small nod and an affirmative hum, and she only smiles wider.

“Cool.” Then, she shrugs. “You seem nice to me, though.”

Hardly a second later, she’s leaping up and out of the dome to catch a passing firefly, and the matter doesn’t come up again.

As irresistible as Clarabelle’s strange kind of charm is, his greatest fascination is — and has been, ever since that dinner — with Caduceus. Caduceus, who looked Ikithon in the eye and spoke so ruthlessly and yet without a hint of venom in his voice, who got under the archmage’s skin in a way Eadwulf isn’t sure anyone had before and lived to tell the tale, who could be at once so fiercely protective of his friends and so unflinchingly at ease in the face of the one who hurt them. Countless times, Eadwulf asks him for advice on which tea to try or which flowers are okay to pick from or some other simple request, just as an excuse to strike up conversation and pick his brain about nearly anything. Caduceus’ advice and words of wisdom are the farthest things from a disappointment and his way of looking at life is so unfamiliar yet so full of steady conviction that it borders on intoxicating, but it’s his humor — sometimes intentional, oftentimes not — that Eadwulf finds himself seeking out the most.

Every so often, the tiefling comes to visit the Grove and have tea with Caduceus; the purple one, Kingsley. He always comes with an abundance of stories about his life on the high seas, and Eadwulf can’t help but be mesmerized by the theatrics of his retellings. One afternoon, Kingsley comes with a story about a battle against a demigod with the whole of the Mighty Nein there — with Caleb there — and for the first time, he listens unabashedly, not bothering to hide how he hangs onto every word of their adventures. The two of them share a tendency to steal away to the outskirts of the Grove when they need a moment to breathe, and they often find themselves crossing paths in those stretches of the gardens. On multiple occasions, during their talks out among the headstones, Kingsley takes note of Eadwulf’s interest in his tales and extends an offer to join his crew. On almost as many occasions, Eadwulf surprises himself with how seriously he considers accepting.

The drow, Essek, stops by from time to time as well. Their first meetings are more complicated; Essek is familiar on more than a few levels with the tendencies of the man Eadwulf once served, and was present to witness under no uncertain terms how Eadwulf had done his bidding. Eadwulf, in turn, knows precisely what roles Essek played, the subterfuge that served as the basis of his career and the betrayal he was capable of. They circle each other for some time, keeping their distance but making no secret of how closely they watch each other. His curiosity eventually gets the better of him, though, and he can’t help but take the opportunity to ask a few questions about the magic Essek wields. As it turns out, one of the quickest ways to Essek’s heart is through his mind, and he can’t seem to resist the temptation of a conversation about the technicalities of his craft.

The three of them turn out to be better and more comfortable companions than Eadwulf ever could have expected. They each understand, in their own way, the hectic confusion of being pulled so suddenly into a new life by the whirlwind that is the Mighty Nein, and Eadwulf soon realizes how desperately he needed someone to be able to tell him he isn’t just losing his mind in the midst of that chaos. Even aside from that, the trio is good company, each with their own kind of intelligence and wit and arsenal of ridiculous stories to share. Though he finds himself inexplicably nervous to admit it, they begin to feel more and more like true friends with each shared conversation. They are a strange group — the ex-assassin, the grave keeper, the pirate, and the fugitive — but the strangeness is far easier to let himself settle into than his attempts at normalcy ever had been. The best days are those when all four of them are there at once, each of them growing increasingly familiar with and invested in the lives of the others, and he comes to anticipate those rare occasions with an almost childlike excitement.

(Later on, after Eadwulf’s time living at the Blooming Grove comes to an end, Caleb will frequently and openly express his absolute bewilderment at how his ex-boyfriend, current boyfriend, crush, and friend became such close companions. They seem to all outside eyes to be an unlikely match, but if you ask Eadwulf, the Grove just has a way of bringing people together like that.)

And every day, without fail, a sending from Astrid prickles the back of his mind. He always answers, of course. He reassures her with each new morning of his safety, promises her that his absence is of his own free will and that he will be returning. The idea that he might ignore her for even a day is beyond unfathomable.

Even so, the ease with which he puts her messages out of his mind after responding catches him off guard. He thinks of her near constantly, as always, but the calm beauty of the Grove and the ease of the companionship found within it makes it strangely difficult to regret the separation. Even the deepest wounds, he supposes, must begin to clot. He only hopes hers has done the same.

In the many months he spends there, he never quite apologizes for what he did to the home the Clays are now so bafflingly willing to welcome him into. Not in so many words, at least. He only lends a hand where he can and tries as well as he knows how to bring, if anything, a bit more light to their home. And in truth, it feels as though the words are unnecessary. His words are too often clumsy when they hold that much weight; they would only cheapen the remorse.

Eventually, he does take his leave from the Blooming Grove. He leaves each of the Clays with a hug, a token of his gratitude made by hand, and a promise to come back and visit. It’s Clarabelle who hugs him the longest but Constance comes close, sending him off with all of the pleas to stay safe and other such fanfare that one might expect a mother to give her son.

(The question of why will never leave his mind, no matter how often or how long he turns it over in his mind. To allow him into their home was one thing, incomprehensible in itself, but to find any true care for him was another entirely. It must be like living in a different world, he thinks, to be nurtured by a place like that for your entire life. It must change you, make you different, make you kinder. He can find no other satisfactory explanation for how such people could come to exist at all.)

When he finally returns to Astrid’s house, he braces himself for the earful he knows is waiting for him there, but Astrid only throws her arms around him the moment she lays her eyes on him. For the rest of the night, she keeps him captive as she tells him everything that went on in his absence and demands the same from him, refusing to let him leave her sight for anything longer than a bathroom break. The next day, of course, she has far angrier words for him, and he takes them without a fight — he knows he deserves them, with the way he left her.

Later that month, when he receives the expected sending from Essek on Caleb’s behalf, he accepts the invitation and agrees to attend the Nein’s monthly get-together for the first time, as ready as he could ever be to face them all again. Astrid still declines the offer and he nearly changes his mind, lest he do any further damage by leaving her again even for a night, but to his surprise she all but pushes him out the door.

Caleb greets him at the tower’s entrance, looking him up and down and saying with a soft smile, “You look good.” It’s strange, hearing his own words reflected back at him. More than anything, it strikes him that he knows full well what sentiment underlies them:

You look healthy. You look cared for. You look like yourself. You look happy.

#this was Supposed to be an exploration of wulf and astrids very complicated relationship #and what happens when they’re apart for a long time for the first time like. ever #and it was going to be angsty™️#but then wulf decided to go to the grove and make some friends instead and who am i to say no to that?#sometimes the healing insists on happening i guess. good for him #my mind just cant stop rotating the way he zeroed in on cad and was like You. I Like You #you cant tell me that was a short lived fascination. i just know he was thinking about that dinner and cad in particular for A While #and then realizing That was the home they were burning down to get at caleb???#no way in hell he just walked away and forgot about it. no fucking way #cr fic #eadwulf grieve #astrid becke #caleb widogast #caduceus clay #kingsley tealeaf #essek thelyss #the clay family #blumenduo #blumendrei #the mighty nein #critical role #critical role fic

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