me bc i'm not a vegetable but my parents wanted me to be: 😔

day 196! :)

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I'm gonna fucking cry my mom just tested positive for covid even though we've all been masking while my dad's been testing positive, because he hasn't been masking and just coughing right into the air and he came into the kitchen and just started touching things and coughing onto stuff and I spent the last two hours scrubbing and washing and disinfecting everything

I'm going to kms, I'm at another classical concert but we arrived late so we're not allowed to go in yet, so I'm fucking missing being in the room for one of my favorite composers music live

Ive been having lots of talks lately with my mom abt politics n the state of the world, Good conversations to be sure, and theyre great bc we both make good points and can compare different experiences and all -- but good God the fact that she's still seems to have. More subconscious faith in the moral integrities of the nebulous concept of a government or corporation More than she has faith in the the moral integrity of the nebulous concept of our societal peers. She talks about it like the Second a group like that is founded, its set of ethics just Miraculously appears out from the ether + just happens to Always be morally sound by default. I cant seem to find a way to word things that with like... idk. Help it Click that those corporations are still run by People and are therefore just as fallible 💀 technically More so but she's convinced capitalism is Never going to go away so she doesn't care about the whole "company's and governments in power, as they exist today, Have A Monetary Incentive To Lie To Us As Much As They Can" thing cuz shes such a damn pessimist and assumes All people have been doing that Forever 💀💀💀 SIGH it's nbd i just needed to put it in words bc its been on my mind on and off

Comics Read in 2023:

Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba Vol. 7 by Koyoharu Gotouge (2017)

Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba Vol. 8 by Koyoharu Gotouge (2017)

So I'm a Spider, So What? Vol. 4 by Asahiro Kakashi & Okina Baba (2018)

I Was Reincarnated, and Now I'm a Maid! Vol. 1 by Natumse Tamayura & Tetete Tanaka (2019)

Wandering Witch: The Journey of Elaina Vol. 1 by Jougi Shiraishi & Itsuki Nanao (2019)

Wandering Witch: The Journey of Elaina Vol. 2 by Jougi Shiraishi & Itsuki Nanao (2020)

Witch Hat Atelier Vol. 1 by Kamome Shirahama (2018)

Sacrificial Princess and the King of Beasts Vol. 4 by Yu Tomofuji (2017)

Sacrificial Princess and the King of Beasts Vol. 5 by Yu Tomofuji (2017)

[ID: Covers of the aforementioned books. End ID.]

tried going to bed early bc ive just been sitting staring at the wall or my phone all afternoon but it's been 3 hours now and I can't stop crying. :(

also i do still always think about my explaining my thought processes to. like any of my more fucked up f/os and it's either a) no one's batting an eye or b) "..................mood,"

"you can let it kill the prosecutor in you or you can let it help you grow" "prosecutor edgeworth chooses death" "you effectively killed the prosecutor in him" IM LOSING MY MIND

Remembering the brief period in my life when i was obsessed with ashido, the only filler character with rights bc kubo originally planned to include him in the manga but had to cut him for time

/hyponotizing you/ ooooooo u wanna read gtn so baaaad

head in hands. sobbing. i do want to i do so bad is the fucking thing. the thing is i have been waiting to read this book for months. i am going to get it for hanukkah. but also ive been Waiting . so Long. and seething and coping and malding because it seems like Everyone Else has read it that at this point i dont even want to read it im just Really Fucking Angry. which is not fun. im hoping i can get better about this.

been getting a lot more into Killing lately

I saw your confusion about the scary children's movies, so I'm here to explain. Now, you may not find them scary, you may have lived them as a kid, or watched then at an age where they wouldn't affect you.

But that's not the case for a lot of people. For me, the movie Coraline really messed with me, because I watched it WAY too young. I had nightmares about the Other Mother, about sewing buttons into my eyes, about Wiley getting his mouth sewn shut-

I mean, think about it. Those things are really scary! Especially when you're, like. Five.

Hi! I’m sorry i didn’t mean to be a dick about it :-( im sorry if it came off like that :-(

tbf I may have a biased sample size. My sister and I had a lot of restrictions on what movies (and other visual media) we could watch, but we didn’t have any restrictions at all on the number and types of books we could read though. I wound up reading both the novel and the graphic novel of Coraline before I ever watched the movie, and at that point it was kind of old hat to me

I was more confused by the stuff like Spirited Away (always wished I was the main character) and Nightmare Before Christmas (we loved it so much we convinced our parents it was a halloween and a christmas movie so we could watch it twice a year!) and The Spiderwick Chronicles (i was outside for days after that one trying to find a Creature to look at).

I guess I do still refuse to watch any movies with dogs in them, though. I can’t even watch the previews for dog movies without crying

This is a Poinsettia Appreciation Post

someone not being in your life anymore feels like a little hole was cut out of u. every single time