Mac + Dennis in Season 16 of It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia

hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x

Okay but like. Two things about the volume 8 statue [redacted] chapter.

Firstly. By god no amount of "yeah it was unhinged" comments on this website prepared me for whatever the fuck that was. I need at least 5 business days to process.

Second, was I the only one who read that scene as:

Hua Cheng, teeming with self-satisfaction to see Mu Qing near writhing with scorned disgust and fury: this was a 100% successful trip

Xie Lian: our statues are fucking in Mu Qing's palace oh god oh fuck what do you m e a n successful

Hua Cheng, smirk getting even bigger: this was a 100% successful trip

Learned today everything I thought I was reading way too into the assassins guild is all literally real and fully canon and fully intentional and so much more fucked than I ever thought has me still reeling. Im still so insane over this.

like i know im in my feminist bubble here on tumblr dot com and within my own family but work sometimes genuinely makes me feel like im on another planet. a coworker in her mid thirties, who was a senior admin of a department, just left the job and retired early because her husband is making incredible money. another one praised my andrew tate listening coworker bc he wanted to “make enough money so his future wife could stay at home and focus on homeschooling the kids.” like. ok. maybe it’s just the fact that women could not get their own credit cards until a year after my parents were born or maybe it’s the fact that i know so many women who are trapped in horrifically abusive relationships and cannot escape because they have no access to their own finances. but like there’s a reason labor and feminism are tied together. lmao.

*take coming from a white person. women of color especially black women have been in the labor force the entire damn time and largely don’t have the privilege to leave when they feel like it. also things like pay gaps across gender and race lines, and child rearing costs, complicate things for sure. but i simply cannot understand being in a privileged position at a well paying white collar job and throwing that security away

changing my lockscreen wallpaper to satosugu was a mistake because now every time i pick up my phone i feel simultaneously happy and heartbroken

Ri'gastio! I may feel bad about all the killing he does, but he never has. A former slave turned bounty hunter with a deep hatred for pretty much everyone except for pretty women who could kill him, his defining character traits are the desire to piss everyone off and his tendency to kill people he should probably have kept alive. We're talking about a guy who gets along with Skadge.

So Rig's name is not an accurate Chiss name really, and this is both on purpose and because I: do not understand Chiss naming. If you do, please save me. Anyway he's just faking it til he makes it as far as being Chiss goes, having grown up completely separate from that culture as a slave in the Empire. There is one person in the galaxy he completely trusts, or would actually do something nice for with no ulterior motive, and that's his fellow ex-slave Exchei. Of course, he appreciates that she ends up on the Dark Council and therefore he can trust that she'll always have a job for him, but once upon a time they were two fucked up kids relying on each other to get through an awful situation.

After the slave transport ship he was on got hijacked and the slaves released, he decided to set himself up as a bounty hunter for two reasons: killing with impunity sounded like a fun time and a way to get out his anger at the world, and if he got good enough the Empire would rely on him in a way that means he can actually choose to deny them services if he wants to. Secretly desperate to feel like he belongs someplace, instead of actually pursuing a positive relationship he belittles the people he thinks have rejected him or would reject him - the Empire, Mandalorians, the Chiss - and ignores any overtures of friendship. His crew he keeps around because he feels like he has control of them, and that's as close to a family as he feels safe having.

His relationship with Exchei starts to fall apart as she finds people she cares for elsewhere, and after Zakuul comes onto the scene he starts taking jobs for them - they can pay, after all, and to him that's all that matters. This does not make Exchei terribly happy, as she sees them as the Enemy. Though they still occasionally slip into bed together when they meet up and she still will hire him if she needs a bounty hunter, their relationship never recovers from figuring out how fundamental their differences in morality are.

i hate my roommate. idk why she gets to say rude and downright ableist shit but god forbid i tell her she's being rude and ableist then i'm the jackass for it.

not even joking i would kill for some kind of beyond evil sequel focusing on jihwa. it doesn't even have to be a full time drama. a mini-series, a movie, anything is fine i just need it

quit writing a longer post about it cause it was too wordy but like lol. people in fandom are not subtle with how they treat "imperfect" trauma victims. the level of overanalyzing and hand wringing applied to a character (often justifiably) lashing out in response to trauma is astonishing. there's an insanely disproportionate hatred for many of these characters. there's an overt edge of victim blaming to some fan responses too; people act as if a character deserved what happened to them because they didn't respond well after the fact. this goes TRIPLE for poc characters, whose "aggression" sets off firestorms on social media. even if - and often ESPECIALLY if - that "aggression" was aimed at their oppressors.

there's also the complete whitewashing of characters like these by the fans who claim to like them. when people want to like these sorts of characters, they often just refuse to engage with the character's more messy trauma responses because they can't imagine an "imperfect" victim still being worthy of care. it doesn't make these fans look much better than the other kind. all it does is send the message that recovery can only be achieved by those who didn't have unpalatable responses to their trauma.

like. people online can SEE you acting like this. it's not cute and it's not fun for people whose experiences didn't turn them into perfect angels. I get hating it when characters who commit unforgivable actions are given redemption - I feel the same way pretty often - but maybe some of you should rethink what you define as an "unforgivable action." because the way a lot of you define it now does not give any hope to many trauma victims.

Me at the legacies writers

As someone who basically has menstrual leave let me tell you. This shit works.

so what we can do is not give menstrual leave. I come in, body sucks. I’m super fucking stressed about having bad symptoms, and now I’m stressed about coming in. The added stress takes a toll on me, I do a half ass job. My symptoms get worse. This happens a few days in a row, and my stress compounds because I’m freaking out not knowing when it will ends. I do an even shittier job, and maybe in the end my symptoms are too severe and I have ti take several sick’s days. This is how the occasional bad period used to affect me.

But now? With a chill boss that allows days off, no questions asked as long as the people who I work with can pick up my slack? And doesn’t even report them for salary employees because it’s “too much paperwork?”

I get my period. I have a feeling it’s gonna be a bad one. So as a precaution, I call out of work. Usually just one day, maybe two if it’s horrible. I get to calm down, and let myself heal. I don’t even have the stress of hoping it’s over before I run out of sick days! After one day, MAYBE two (never had to go over two with this system) I’m back at work. Body healed, less stress. I can do a good job, I’m not distracted or uncomfortable. My coworkers had easily split up my workload, it’s no problem. Because if I did come in and keep making mistakes or half assing things, they’d have to clean up after me anyways. So 1) Production and Quality have not suffered 2) I have taken off less total days over a year 3) I don’t fucking hate being there all the time and actually WANT to do well.

My coworker that has severe symptoms regularly? Knows when to give me a heads up she’ll be out for a few days. She’s uncomfortable letting everyone else know she’s about her period, but let’s me know I have to come in. And I know to prepare to do her work! She knows how best to recover after years of practice. And she’s treated so well that she’ll even work from home sometimes! She KNOWS there’s no consequence for taking the time off, and still chooses to work if she can, because she likes her job and wants to do it well!

This country is so stupid I hope CEOs all die by their own hand because they can’t even figure out ‘not physically or emotionally harming employees = people that like working for you = people that want to do a good job’

i think god hates me actually

my whole life is in danger

man seeing all the responses to this episode from people who Didn't grow up with narcissist emotionally neglectful parent(s) is Wild. like what do you mean you found this episode confusing/out of character/not the most empowering and cathartic thing you've ever seen on TV. this was the most realistic and relatable thing ive ever seen in my life. fucking loved it. absolute gut punch. i feel like a wrung out dirty dish towel. gonna go do backflips off the empire state

All the people who are like 'participating in politics does nothing!' like politicians make me mad with rage too with their spineless bullshit and hypocrisy and the rest, and no, they never do near enough and that's very frustrating, and many of them are greedy fucks who would betray us over their own interests in a heartbeat, but it's still a very bad sign to go 'don't vote it's useless' because the revolution isn't going to happen if you can't even participate in the democratic process in your own country and that nihilistic attitude does nothing but hand your country (general you, this goes for all of us) over to fascists, and it's very hypocritical to act like there hasn't been a lot of progress with anti-racism, pro-women, pro-lgbt (among others!!) legislation that was passed in the last 100 years, and that was all due to pressuring the right politicians into it. You don't have to like the politicians, they're not your friends, you just have to pressure them into doing what you want. So, yes, pressuring the right politicians leftwards and keeping them in power is how we've had a lot of very important legislation passed! So, participate in politics, it's literally the least you can do (of course, please do more).