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What is the weirdest, feralest headcanon you've had about a character?

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. fuck okay this takes some thinking. weird and feral, weird and feral, hmmm.

okay, i think i have one. i'm gonna preface this by saying that svsss is a story that brings out the weird in me - the characters are all so messed up and dysfunction and weird about each other and the world is so intense and strange that its very tasty to play with. like, both the characters, plot, and setting are all so chewy and crunchy, you can just sink you're teeth right in.

bc like okay (bingqiu and monsterfucking cw here, for anyone who would prefer to keep scrolling) Shen Qingqiu and Luo Binghe are so utterly weird and fucked up about each other. Like, full on dysfunctionally obsessed in a way that would be like horror story levels if they were with anyone but each other (yes, even Shen Qingqiu - he is literally so obsessed with PIDW and Luo Binghe that he dies mad over it, and then spends his entire new life orbiting Luo Binghe like a planet around a sun, knowing absolutely every detail of his would-be life and who he is and what his deepest inner thoughts and traumas are - like, unreliable narrator or not, Shen Qingqiu is every bit as messed up and intense about Luo Binghe as Luo Binghe is about him).

and that's something that's very fun to play with. like, their relationship is intense, codependent, obsessive, and like, a hundred other things that irl would be a red flag, but its fiction. i know some people don't like writing or reading about unhealthy relationships or stuff that in an irl situation would be concerning, but like tbh the fact that they're so messed up and intense is half the reason they're so fun to write for. (obligatory fiction =/= reality).

anyway so, yeah they have a messed up very obsessive relationship and one of the things that's sort of fun to play with is how far they'd go for each other. like, how far their affection stretches, and how that would influence their reactions to situations. and you know me, i'm a good fan of some of that eldritch and monster content.

bc right like, these two are utterly fixated on each other. just, utterly gone. and so yeah, headcanon, i feel like both of these guys wouldn't blink an eye at even the most weird, off the page monster-fucking you have ever seen, if the person was the other one.

okay so right - on Shen Qingqiu's side we already have some pretty eldritch stuff to work with. like he's literally a bodysnatcher who took over someone else who would have/did die, and assumed his identity and pretty much got away with it. and you can spin that up into something even more fun. like maybe Luo Binghe, being half demon and with heavenly demon blood, has a bit of idk, extrasensory perception or something like that. so he wakes up one morning in the woodshed to this immense feeling of just DREAD hanging over the mountain, which no one else seems to be feeling or reacting to. and it only gets worse when he's summoned to see his master, to the point where approaching the bamboo house is literally making him break out in a cold terrified sweat. and when he see's Shen Qingqiu he just freezes, because looming above his master's body is an immense faceless shadowy figure with a dozen arms, whose body is sewn through with bleeding golden thread, which runs down to his master's body, stitching the two together. and then the plot continues like normal, and this new not-Shen Jiu gives him the medicine, and Luo Binghe gets used to the feeling of immense eldritch dread and the plot plays out like normal with Luo Binghe still being like 😍😍😍 and still absolutely being dtf this terrifying towering shadow bleeding figure.

and its so tasty! because you can flip it around as well. Luo Binghe would 1000% willingly and enthusiastically monsterfuck for Shen Qingqiu, but Shen Qingqiu would also do the same for him (albeit with a bit more crisis about it, but only so far as him "not being gay" is the problem. the fact that Luo Binghe is a monster barely registers).

and so like - alright, another situation. Say Luo Binghe's demon heritage is a bit more intense than just 'gets a demon forehead mark and some demonic energy' and that when he gets hucked into the endless abyss and is forced to survive its brutal conditions, his human form can't tolerate it and the rest of his inheritance comes through. and you could play with a few things here - maybe something dragon-like (not in a, ooh this a sexy dragon person kind of way, but like, Luo Binghe is literally a dragon kind of way, scarred and fire-breath and dark edgy scales and all), or something a bit more demonic and eerie. but like, whatever you go with, the end result is that Luo Binghe is distinctly non-humanoid and deeply scary-looking. and so when Luo Binghe does claw his way out of the abyss, Shen Qingqiu is *shocked pikachu face* about it, because this didn't happen in the original. and idk, maybe Luo Binghe goes through a whole thing of visiting Shen Qingqiu in his dreams, and being very circumspect, and never actually turns up in person in front of him, bc Luo Binghe is deeply insecure and is certain Shen Qingqiu will be revolted or terrified and reject him as a monster (after all, he threw him into the abyss when he looked human, what would he do seeing Luo Binghe like this?). eventually it comes out and Shen Qingqiu ends up face to face with him, and Luo Binghe's trying to cringe and shy away and throw himself on his sword or whatever, and Shen Qingqiu is just like shut up! monster or not you're still my student! and anyway, Luo Binghe ends up staying with Shen Qingqiu again or something, and they do a dumb thing where they're basically speed running a long term relationship without realising (well, Luo Binghe realises, and he's tormented about it, bc on the one hand he wants all the affection he can get from Shen Qingqiu, on the other hand he's got paralyzing guilt about the fact he's sort of taking advantage) and it culminates in Shen Qingqiu finally cottoning on and having a panic about it (about the gay bit, more than the monster bit) before sorting it out and 100% being down to bang Luo Binghe anyway, despite him not being remotely human looking. And Luo Binghe is just dying, because like, you know a person really loves you when they love you even when you're a terrifying non-human monster, and Shen Qingqiu is discovering all sorts of things about himself, namely how little he bats an eye at the thought of doing some truly obscene monsterfucker shit - because it's Binghe, so of course its hot (nevermind that Shen Qingqiu is a bit too into monsters away, so is sort of also getting a kick out of it just for the chance to study monster!Binghe so up close)

And anyway this is how you get me idly considering story ideas like 'hey what if Shen Qingqiu and Luo Binghe got dropped messily into a scifi setting and Shen Qingqiu glitched on the way because of system and so ends up in a terrifying carnivorous!super-dangerous!mantis-monster-person!body, still dressed in his robes, while Binghe is still basically just a normal person who looks the same, and they get gently arrested by the galactic police who are like "holy shit what the fuck is this walking person-eater doing in the port, it's about to be a bloodbath" whereas Binghe, beside him is just like "don't you dare be mean to my husband, shizun is very gentle!" and anyway Shen Qingqiu diffuses things enough for them to get escorted to a fancy suite (jail cell) while things get looked into, and the poor people surveilling them have to watch in rapt horror/awe as Binghe goes about seducing Shen Qingqiu, who is sure Luo Binghe must be revolted by his terrifying new form, while Luo Binghe proves that absolutely isn't the case. Shizun is shizun no matter his body, and Luo Binghe loves every version of him, and is absolutely so so keen to get it on and explore this new body'

and so that's how i get to there, and then i have to think about the fact that the premise is so absolutely wild and out of the left field that i would have no idea how to justifying coming up with it or wanting to write it. so yeah, wild and feral headcanon - Luo Binghe and Shen Qingqiu are absolutely monsterfuckers, but only ever for each other

Thinking about The Boy and The Heron and how all the blocks except for the uncle's are tombstones of malice and power. He was the one who went out and gathered those blocks, scouring space and time to find those precious few that WEREN'T tainted by malice, and in the context of both Miyazaki's relationship with the anime industry and the movie itself, there's the implication of all of the sacrifices it took to build the anime industry up to where it is and the sacrifices, the lives that it claimed, and all of the resentment therein, as well as, in the movie's context, the people who were ultimately sacrificed to build the tower around the stone, among others. There's something poetic about Mahito having no interest in propagating the continuation of a world atop the malicious and painful sacrifices of all those people who those tombstones are for, and how because of his scar representing his own malice healing, he wants to move on and have a good life with the people he loves instead of creating these beautiful yet lonely fantasy worlds. Even the uncle is like "Yeah, you should go home." And in the end, keeping one of those stones to remind Mahito of not just his choice, but the sacrifices involved... it's important. He can forget what came before or not as he moves forward, but taking that stone as a symbol of lessons learned, taking the stone that had so much power and now doesn't (while it does represent a sacrifice, the cycle has been broken so its malice has lessened and it's somehow at peace)... idk, that's really important symbolism in a way that's difficult to fully describe the impact of.

really hope that in tes 6 bethesda brings back the 17 different khajiit types. shit would be fire.

Some of you have never climbed the 7,000 steps to get to High Hrothgar and it shows.

by the nine they've given him catnip

getting ready to present my thesis

WOWZERS

I was playing Skyrim and when Miraak decided to flex his Dragon Aspect form in Apocrypha he full on flashed me and went commando

Look at his walk of shame away as he coveres his tiny dragon

Aroace ink sans I love you…………….

Who is your favorite poor little meow meow? Best little wet rat of a man whose life has been nothing but a series of increasingly worse Ls?

Shang Qinghua from SVSSS. He's the most pathetic, damp little man. You have never seen a person who embodies the kobold skill 'grovel, cower, and beg' more People look at him and think that he has all the charm and competence of a dripping, soggy rat - he looks at himself and thinks he has all the charm and competence of a dripping, soggy rat. Which is amazing, because by all accounts he's actually amazingly competent and is also (arguably) a very talented writer. He has so many self esteem issues, and is so fucked up, and he is so, so fun to write. You can't be an author and not empathize at least a little with Shang Qinghua - man, you can't be a person growing up and living in a complicated world and not empathize at least a little with Shang Qinghua. Struggles with his family, difficult financial situation, managing to somehow achieve success with his writing enough to actually use serialization to support himself, but only by such a thin margin that he barely scrapes by, forced to compromise his art more and more just to manage to keep a roof over his head-

And then to get reborn in the world he created, but as a shitty hated side character who's fate is to be cowardly and pathetic and get murdered because he betrayed both his sect and the demon master he was serving. Working for years, decades, with almost no recognition despite the frankly crucial work he and his peak do for the sect, all the while with a sword hanging over his head and a timer slowly ticking down until the day where he'd be forced to do hideous evil or die-

Idk. I just think he's interesting.

Me, staring into the middle distance: oh my god, what if mario and friends got beat up and captured, and Geno used all his power to send out an SOS, which reached the five people each of our heroes trusts the most in times of crisis. We would then have the B-Team, which would be Luigi (Mario's backup), Granny (Peach's backup), Kamek Wizakoopa (Bowser's backup), Frogfucious (Mallow's backup), and Gaz('s mom) (Geno's backup).

Luigi: An all-rounder like his bro who uses electric attacks instead of fire. He uses gloves and hammers, just like Mario

Granny: A pugilist who is an old friend of Jinx. Her weapons are knuckles (like brass knuckles) and helmets (for her full-body tackle. That shit HURTS.)

Kamek: Mostly has healing spells and status moves, and his weapons are staves and orbs. One of his best spells is turning enemies into scarecrows and mushrooms

Frogfucious: Offensive elemental magic specialist who uses sticks and tomes

Gaz + Mom: Her ability is Spore Puppetry, which can put an enemy under her control. Geno was the doll she used to practice with back in the day. One of her specials involves Gaz. She uses rolling pins and slingshots

Every time I see an oversexualized/air brush shiny Serana mod:

LEAVE HER ALONE.

more of my dragonborn oc, kyrena, and the slippery slope that is working with daedra

[i have commissions open now!]

bonus miraak:

Thinking about the design of The Imperial City from The Elder Scrolls: Oblivion again. I love Oblivion but it's hands-down my least favourite design of any open world RPG because a lot of its layout defies a lot of what might ordinarily be logical city layout choices when building a city.

Disclaimer: This is mostly me being petty about level design that I recognize does not matter. I realize most of this is likely just due to development constraints and player-centric design choices, and can just as easily be written off. But dammit I'm a level designer who has worked on open world games and in the projects I worked on this is all stuff that would have been flagged so I'm gunna be petty anyway!

So let's talk about the paths into the city.

Well....it's the capital of all of Tamriel, it's on an island, and there's just one road leading in and out of it. That road leads over a bridge. Probably the easiest city to siege ever, just capture the bridge and you win. Ezpz.

But also the ROAD itself!!! My god!!!

Literally can you imagine all land-bound trade and transport having to navigate down this single 75 degree road to get in and out of the largest city (and capital!) of all of Tamriel. Horses, creatures notoriously good at navigating treacherous vertical inclines.

Madness!!!!!!

The harbour is also incredibly small for a capital. You'd think with one ski-hill road leading to the city they'd use the harbour more, but this thing fits two (2) ships max, and there's almost no room to navigate it them in there.

The logical layout would dictate that all goods in the city are stored in the harbour and transported into the city for sale, or brought to market from out of city. Well...

Both of those paths necessitate going to the exact opposite corner of the city in order to deliver the goods to where the trade district is! The absolute furthest possible route!

What's more is that these routes lead through multiple flights of stairs! Good luck driving that wagon full of produce to its destination!

Meanwhile if you trace a path leading from the the Harbour to the ocean you'll discover that the only river that leads to the ocean is shallow enough for a person to walk over, meaning sea liners can't pass through it.

So uh yeah... it's logistically impossible to sail a boat from the Imperial City (the capital of Tamriel) to the ocean around Tamriel and vice-versa, making the fact that it has a harbour at all makes little sense. No wonder there's only ever two ships docked there!