Depressed as fuck realizing that I have one of him but he has hundreds of students. Once the year ends, I'll be just another face with a name he can't remember. I wish I was special to him.

hug from him would fix me

SUCH AN INCREDIBLE DAY I THINK I"M DREAMING!!!!

I wasn't sure what i was going to say to him today. I needed to build on what happened yesterday. When i walked into class, he was busy getting everything ready cause it was a lab day and we were going to be doing experiments and stuff. We always split up into partners, C is the one to choose partners. Usually i'm with a friend. But today, it was an odd number of students and guess who he paired me up with???? He paired me with himself!!!!!!! OMG like he did that on purpose right?? He looked at me and said since there's an odd number you can work with me. i am almost fainted my mouth went dry and i was probably blushing so bad. The entire class i was right next to him, trying not to stare or act strange. We touched a couple times kinda bumping into each other. I was wearing perfume (Ariana Grande God is a Woman!!) and i could swear i heard him take a deep breath a few times like smelling my perfume. He kept smiling at me as he explained what we were doing. I'm not even sure what we were doing haha i was so focused on being next to him. He looked so totally gorgeous today too. After class was over he said thanks for being his partner today. I managed to say you're welcome it was fun. I wanted to say let's do it again sometime but i was too nervous haha.

Like he choose me to be his partner, that's on purpose right?? he could have chosen anyone but he chose me. And he loved being my partner. I went into a bathroom stall after class and just cried tears of joy. i just haven't been able to think of anything else all day

my mind makes me relive each day the moment my english teacher praised me. i can't just get enough of it, i want more praises from him and from anyone to be honest. i seek approval.

i need to sit on his lap while he talk to me about things i don’t know

i wanna be his controversially young gf.

Need an older guy to get extra touchy when trying to teach me something. I don’t care if it’s how to play a sport, something booksmart, or even how to play an instrument. Just please press your body as close to mine as possible while whispering what exactly to do as you make sure to put your hands on mine.

When I was putting my stuff in my book bag I got on my knees and looked up at him.

Was it intentional? Absolutely

Did he blush and adjust his pants? ABSOLUTELY

us (im delusional)

Will today bring another great day or crushing disappointment? As long as I get to see him either way it will be worth it

i just need an older man to love me.

Currently using the idea of "he will be proud of me" to study

i need him to hold me like this so bad